see an overview of messages from this channel in "From Light&Dark to Lightness and Joy"

Archangel Michael through Celia Fenn
[see last message of Archangel Michael]

… you are the ones who are the pioneers,
you take the first steps in consciousness so that All may follow.

… you are now courageously accepting the changes in body, mind and emotions,
as you integrate with your I Am presence.
...
And, we will say, dearest ones,
that you are not simply returning in time to reclaim some lost part of yourself.
That work is already complete.
You are taking a step forward into
the consciousness of Present Infinity,
the Now moment,
where Past and Present and Future merge as One.
And then, you experience the "Becoming" moment,
as you Become a New Creation,

something that the Earth has not seen before.
This is the unfolding of all Past and Present Potential
into the Full Presence of Who You Are now.
As we experience this "birthing" moment with you,
we celebrate Who You Are Now.
And we see you in this way.

...
You are no longer a lesser and sinful being separated from God,
but you are a spark of the Divine Flame of
God Source in a human body.

Dearest Ones,
can you see how your consciousness has expanded
to embrace who you really are?
You have spent thousands of years believing
that you were separate from the Source or Creator Power,
and so you created that separation.
And you created also separation from the planet,
and from others,
and in this distortion of your glorious light you created much violence,

Comment on November 23, 2011 (on Tamir's 41st birthday!)
No! the distortion and violence etc. are not the result of the belief in separation,
they are the playing out of our judgments and beliefs and denials as Creators,
who in the beginning did not understand, not know, not accept all of themselves.
All they did not accept, became "Lost Will", and this explodes into violence etc.
[see, what I'm re-studying and copying now from the violet and purple books]

and the result was a deep sadness and grief in the Planetary Heart.
As many of you return now
to full God or SOURCE CONSCIOUSNESS,
you feel the sadness and the grief of your long separation.
All humanity mourns its separation and its broken heart!

But know, dearest ones,
that you were never shut out of Paradise except by your own choice.
For the Source, the "God Love", lives within each one of you,
and it will never cut you off and abandon you.
It was indeed your choice to create this experience,
and now it is your choice to end this illusion
and return to a FULL CONSCIOUSNESS OF YOUR GOD-SELF.

I just saw a documentary about the Swiss junk-artist Ursula Stalder:
"I knew it was totally mad,
to bring these 14 rotten boats from the Lagune of Venice
among three other heavy trucks of junk I had gathered,
to this exhibition field near Luzern.
But I also knew,
that I now needed this experience of madness."
The TV program in 3 SAT, which I happen to have seen a second time,
closes with the sentence:
When her Italian friends part from her, they may think her mad,
but "sie bringt alle zum Nachdenken",
"she causes everybody to ponder and think."

And since this message is about creating and creation,
I want to quote one of Ursula's fantastic explanation of her creating:

"Die ganze Sache habe ich begonnen,
weil ich die Schönheit in den Objekten sehe.
Eine Schönheit von Formen und Strukturen.
Alle Geschichten und Rätsel, die darin geschrieben sind,
haben für mich eine Faszination
- dass man das auch immer wieder anders lesen kann
und durch das verschiedenartige Zusammenfügen
andere Inhalte und Assoziationsmuster schafft."

"The whole thing I started because I see the beauty in the objects.
A beauty of shapes and structures.
All stories and puzzles, which are written therein, have a fascination for me
- That you can also read this always in other ways
and through various assembling create other contents and patterns of associations."

Back to Archangel Michael's message:

What did you gain by this choice?
We see that you have developed
individual mental and emotional consciousness,
and that the individual consciousness
can be aligned
[Godchannel: "each one's unique alignment with the whole"]
with the greater consciousness of Who You Are.
Is this not indeed something to celebrate.
You are, in the eyes of Spirit, a myriad of perfect Crystal Beings,
each one a reflection
of the radiance of the Source,
each one made in God's "image" of perfection,
[No! It resonates with me, what Godchannel.com says
that there will never be perfection, - there will always be evolution!
See this theme "perfection and evolution" many times on Healing-K.i.s.s.]
and each one containing
an awareness of itself and its beauty.

While studying this once again on Dec. 9, 2011, I detect "Abraham's" e-mail quote (1999)today:
We are all one Energy Stream,
but what makes the separations or distinguishes the differences is perspective.
You are a unique and individual perspective

…being aware of the God Source within
and aware as an individual self-consciousness,
you are indeed a "New Creation".
But, dearest ones,
it is only when you fully embrace your Power as a Creator,
and when you embrace your responsibilities
as a "Co-Creator" with Spirit and with Others on the Planet,
that you will fully enter into your new being...
….
In your new state of  m u l t i - d i m e n s i o n a l  consciousness,
you must   c h o o s e
what you will   s e e   and what you will   c r e a t e . ...
You are offered choices at every moment,
and how you choose will determine the quality of your creations
and   h o w   y o u    e x p e r i e n c e    t h e m . …
….

Am I creating from my Heart in a balanced and loving way?
…..

…. If you can hold your energy in your Heart in a balanced and powerful way,
you will have no difficulty in moving into your full potential as a Creator.

For, your Heart is the Creative Matrix for the New Earth.
It is from and through your Heart that you will create.
It is in co-operation with all the other Hearts on the grid of Love
that you will create all that you desire together.

So, we ask you to remember two things.
Firstly, that in this new place of the Heart,
you will be aware
that All is Connected and Inter-connected.[s. below Dec.6]

You will truly feel and understand
that you are all One in the Unconditional Creative Love of Source.

You will see others
as manifestations of your own self, of your dreams and desires,
and you will truly understand how you create together.

You will learn to look at the mirror of your creations
and to respond with joy and gratitude,
for all that you create will be in balance
and will fill your Heart with Joy and Gratitude.
And, as you create the New Earth together,
you will feel such Joy and Gratitude for the Creative Power
that lies within your Beloved Heart.

And, secondly, we ask you to remember that you are Infinite and Eternal.
…you will continue eternally in a process of "Becoming".
Becoming All that your "I Am" can be
in a process of expressing your full potential ...

So, we say again, what will you create?
For, it is only through your creations
that you will know yourself.
And, as you see what you have created,
both as an individual and with others,
you can make new choices
so that your creations can become
richer and more beautiful and more dynamic, ..
….

This dawned on me the very first time in 1982,
when I read the book
"The Centre of the Cyclone"
An Autobiography of Inner Space
by John C. Lilly, 1972
[Lilly- the dolphin-researcher, who stopped his research,
when he understood, who the dolphins really were...]

The book's last sentence is:
"The miracle is that the universe created a part of itself
to study the rest of it,
that this part, in studying itself,
finds the rest of the universe
in its own natural inner realities."
[Nov. 30, 2011: I understand this better and better,
the more I now study the violet and the purple RUOW book called "Original Cause"!!]

July 14, 2004,   E a s t   of "Rakhaf" , sunrise above the Salt-Sea,
my 2 partners, Tamir Peleg and Hagai Lev, erect the Trinity Tent.

After I received Archangel Michael's message via e-mail on October 10, 2007
I studied it for several days,
until I was sure that I wanted to insert it here.
While working one last time on the graphics,
the emphasis on "creating from the heart" struck me,
since just an hour before I had read in a diary entry of July 21, 2006,
that maybe Tamir's modification of my idea,
to change the name of our new project: ARARAT
into "ARARAT-HEART"
prophesied,
that soon I would leave all exterior creation
and work only from and in my HEART.
I don't remember the main point of his explanation,
but I remember his addition:
"It's no accident, that Hagai's surname is Lev (heart)!?"
Hagai Lev was our third partner,
and on Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New year, Sept. 16, 2004,
his mother, father, brother and sister came to visit us.
They are all called "Lev".

The Heart Family
gathers in my/our triangular tent, w e s t of "Rakhaf"

We leave the tent to explore the extraordinary natural sculpture
on our hill

What does it mean to be "das ganze Himmelszelt?"
[s. below: the song that created itself this night]
At present , "I am the whole Sky-Tent" means,
that in ever more moments of feeling-not-so-good
I find my I-AM-Presence, i.e. my JOY and my LOVE
exactly there~~~in this very "feeling-not-so-good".
If an understanding has to be gained from the feeling, it will come up naturally,
But I know myself! There are many moments that have nothing to do with anything that can be pinned down or defined
like worries, guilt, fear, shame , powerlessness, triggered old holes, or pain about others, or humankind or the planet.
This "feeling-not-so-good" seems to be similar to "the feelings of lack of zest and full-fill-ment", but it's not that either.
Yet when I move my view~~ to grate-full-ness ~~~for the very fact, that I feel, i.e. live, i.e. am connected with Source,
the sting in the feeling - most of the time and times - melts away instantly ~~~ until I feel it again in another moment.
[see 2 songs, in which I'm coping with "not-so-good", not identifiable feelings: "I breathe and embrace" and "itfini/enwrap me"]

After the intense experience with Boris at my Salt-Sea I couldn't fall asleep.
At one point at night a tune "circled" in my head, not connected to anything.
It's a little German folks-love-song of which I only know the first two lines:
"Wenn ich frueh in den Garten geh' - in meinem gruenen Hut,
ist mein erster Gedanke - was wohl mein Liebster tut..."
"When I go early into the garden - in my green hat, is my first thought - what may my beloved do?"

[Reading this passage again, I "fear", that "with Boris" might be misunderstood:
"the intense experience" was a "promo" of the fulfillment of my cherished prophecy:
"Then those who see Ha-shem will talk among each other and he listens and he hears",
inserted in 5 languages, together with my tune, above 150 pages of K.i.s.s.-Log 2008]

During the long hours of wakefull-ness new lyrics created themselves,
meant to "distill" all I was summarizing about this "threshold" in my life
 in the presence of the 'sounding-board' which Boris presented for me.

Wenn ich frueh erwachen tu,
aus einem wirren Traum,
ist mein erstes Er-innern:
ich bin ja in Eurem Raum.

Wenn dann die lineare Zeit
mich ziehn will in ihren Bann,
ist mein groesstes Verlangen,
dass ich Euch Partner sein kann.

Nun ist vollbracht meine Lebenszeit,
gab hin mich fuer Mensch und Welt!
Was ich jetzt bin auf Erden
ist das ganze Himmelszelt.

When I use to wake up ,
from a confusing dream,
is my first re-member-ing:
I'm in Your space

Then, when linear time
wants to draw me into its spell,
is my greatest desire
that I may be partners with you.

Now my life-time is complete
I devoted myself to Man and World!
What I am on earth now
is the whole tent of the sky.
[See, where I inserted the song in SongGame! ~~~"Himmel" in German is both: sky and heaven,
"Himmelszelt" - tent of sky - is an often used expression in German poetry and German songs,
-see the sculpture to:"do you know how many stars there are in the blue tent-of-sky?"-
And the TENT, though it is not round, but a triangular pyramid, is a crucial symbol in my life.

It's only now, some 10 hours after the creation of my "heavenly" song,
that I'm searching for info about the original song, and thus discover,
that the original lyrics are even more fitting than I thought,
by the poet Friedrich Rueckert, put in tune by Robert Schumann

Love-Thoughts,
[see sheet-music with the lyrics in German and English, and with a sample of the tune,
which I couldn't find elsewhere on the Internet]
I also read an English article: on "Volksliedchen so slight and yet so heartfelt":
"This beautiful little song is a potent illustration of Schumann’s insight into womanly behaviour
...It also shows an innate flair and imagination for situations
which are more full of drama than they first may seem.
The composer is able to flesh out characters beyond the scope of the poem:
he can say in music more than can be said in words....
Volksliedchen - composed probably in 1840 ... is indicative of Schumann’s sensitivity ...
This music could easily have been sung by a Susanna
– someone with feminine allure, but also someone canny and nobody’s fool."

..."The melody is a divine gift", says this author
and I regretted that even the tune - which I sang only in my mind- is not exact.
But since it was this tune in my mind, to which my new lyrics created itself,
I shall sing it like that- as if longing for a completion,
but there will be no other completion
than the one which I think, feel, create, accept, love in this moment

"Abraham" (October 17 1996), e-mail quote on December2, 2011

The main event has  n e v e r  been  t h e   m a n i f e s t a t i o n ;

the main event has always been the way you feel moment by moment,

because that's what life is.

May it be, an evening star

Shines down upon you

May it be when darkness falls

Your heart will be true

You walk a lonely road

Oh! How far you are from home

How is all this connected to the metaphor of the biblical Henoch,
which Boris, now and then my pupil in Bible, associated to my groping for "hugi"?
I mentioned Henoch in puzzle-piece 27 Movement of Lost Will >2001/11/19:

"Among the ten patriarchs from Adam to Noah,
who all lived up to 900 years and then died,
there was one, Henoch, about whom
the usually so minimalistic text says twice:
"Henoch walked to and fro with God",
and a second time - after 365 years,
hinting at one whole circle of the sun -
"Henoch walked to and fro with God
and he was no more, because God had taken him."
Genesis 5,21-24

"It's just like the present God says:
If you have no denial,
if you have all your parts with you,
if you are whole,
you don't need to die.

"I understand this "walking to and fro with God",
as balancing between plus and minus, good and bad.
Never in the Torah (= guidance = the 5 book of Moses)
is there a command:
"Be good", or "Be a good person".

"The command to the 99 year old Abraham is:
Walk to-and-fro before me and be whole.
Genesis 17,1
"Abraham, the individual, represents Israel, the collective.
Therefore the command to Israel is:
Whole shall you be with YHWH, your God
Deuteronomy 18,13

"What does it mean to be whole with God?
What about God's own wholeness?
This is put in a nutshell
in the only other context in the Torah,
where 'tamim' is applied to non-animals:

"The rock - whole is his doing
... I am I ...
I kill and I make alive, I smite and I heal"
Deuteronomy 32,4.39

I'm re-reading the dialog in
pp39b-The Process of Manifestation
between me and the Mother --- on April 2, 2002

...

"You say, Mother, that "moving emotions" is not enough???"

"It's not enough.
As long as you see only the need for personal movement,
but don't understand the laws that govern the process of manifestation,
people will stay stuck
just like Deity, before we learnt through experience."

"But this metaphysical dimension cannot be grasped,
neither when it's unfolded in a linear, abstract, rational way,
nor when it's disguised in mythical stories.
Not even I can grasp it, with all my training in scientific thinking
and all my living in "live" neighborhood with the Biblical images."

"I am the Mother,
and my way is not linear
but you and I have to open up
and translate Spirit's understanding and communicating
into our own way of understanding and communicating.
A mediator
is needed between Spirit 's language and Will's language,
and that is YOU.
And if this overfloods you with imprints like "I can't do it"
and Body's tiredness and renewed pain in your back,
then this is part of your process of mediating.
Let me hug you all the time while you cope with this
and take as many rests as you need to, for soul, mind and body."

Thank you, Mother.
I know what I'll do.
I'll dive deeper into the
Truth and Reality Class III,
called:
INTRODUCTION TO MANIFESTATION
and analyze it sentence by sentence,
like I would have done in the old days.
How will you feel with such intellectualizing?

"Go ahead, until you find a better method to learn this info."

Excerpts from a page with "feeling-songs" 2007-2009

2009_06_20

Inhale God! Exhale Love! - Toward what You Feel NOW!

2009_06_21

I am having plenty of opportunities - sometimes together with Yaacov via phone or skype -
to practice
"INHALE GOD - EXHALE LOVE !
LOVE TO THIS PRESENT FEELING !",
whenever I feel a dis-agreeable feeling,
i.e. a feeling to which I do not naturally agree with,
a feeling, which I would prefer to dis-own,
a feeling which has to be brought home,
home into my womb,
home into my own,
home into my love.

This in truth is 'Unconditional Love', and everything else, which will anchor Heaven on Earth, will follow from this.

2009_06_30;

My Deeper Self or whoever ~~~~~ has been staging "challenging" situations and interactions,
in which I could apply what I learnt: "I inhale God and I exhale Love to whatever I feel."

First:
There is now this 4th stanza to this song of December 2007 ---- about the same quest:
to find full-fill-ment in feeling , Er-fuellung im Fuehlen,
by breathing the Love of my Oneness into whatever I feel.        See above

Second:
The LOVE of my ONE-ness needs to be breathed-
not only into feelings with which I tend to dis-agree,
and which have to be brought home into agreement,
home into my "womb",
where there is total acceptance and no judgment.

The LOVE of my ONE-ness needs to be breathed
just as much into each and every feeling of grate-full-ness!
Whatever or whoever arouses my grate-full-ness in this moment,
will bloom and flourish further - because of the breath of my love.
This will multiply "the stars and the flowers" of Heaven-on-Earth!

2009_07_01

"fuehlen fuellt mich", "feeling fills me", - what a mystical pun in both languages!
completed by the pun in Hebrew: "rig'ee be-rigshee - my feeling in my moment"!

These lines I wrote after having seen a fantastic movie:
"Almost like Heaven"- Germany 2005 [English reviews]
in which John Denver's "Take me home" in a Reggae Cover
is song by the blue-eyed German country-girl Helen
[see the only video, in bad quality]

together with a very dark-skinned Jamaican musician and her Jamaican enemy>friend Rosi.
the obvious theme of the drama is-
you plan one thing [a performance in Nashville], but your happiness lies somewhere else [Jamaica]
and it's by horrid mishaps, that you have to be forced to discover your true vocation.
What oozes through "by the way" is the oneness and cross-ferilization of
a) music (Country and Reggae),
b) races and nations - even an immigrant from Russia plays a role
c) "good people and bad people"
Rosi's little daughter to her mother:
"My teacher says, that those who are making life difficult for others, are very sad inside."
Rosi:
"What nonsense, what does your teacher understand", and she walks out to keep on denying.
But the almost imperceptible way she changes
and makes up for the bad things she had caused both - Helen and the Jamaican musician -
lets her touch her own softness, and tears run down her cheeks
when the incurably-sick Helen finally does get to sing for people,
her dream, "so that I know that something of me remained on earth".
[I detected another song, which I like. It, too, changes the Virginia-Country-Song into: Take me home to Jamaica"

Two days later I "by error" zapped into the movie "BABEL" , at a time - 11 PM - when I rarely watch TV,
I felt attracted by the info, that "the film portrays multiple stories taking place in Morocco, Japan, Mexico, USA
During the scenes in Tokio I thought "what a Babel!" not aware, that this was the very title of the movie.
Though the mishaps of "Almost like Heaven" are miniscule compared to the horrid 'mishaps' in "Babel",
the theme or message is the same:
"human   connectivity, and  the  inherent   incalculable   causality   of   individual   actions"

"Abraham" (1998)
e-mail quote on October 25, 2011

.....know that the way
you   F E E L

is your indicator

of how connected
you are

to Source .....

A dialog with "Angels" in 1944
What to transmit?
The light of heaven so that it can have an effect on earth.

Transmit to whom?
To the ones who suffer from their lacks and who call for help.

How to transmit?
By  lowering  the  intensity  of the light to a degree 
which can be assimilated by the one who is helped.

But what, if I don't succeed in
"lowering the intensity of my light [according to God's info, "light" is understanding!]
to the degree which can be assimilated by the one" whom I want to help?
Doesn't "help" - in my present - mean mostly and mainly and beyond and above every other help,
to EMPOWER my daughter-in-love?
So she can love herself and free herself from victimhood and find zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment?

It was during my "partner"ship with Hagai Lev on Rakhaf [see about Hagai on top of this page],
that this pathetic, tragic, paradoxical "task" of mine tortured me more than ever before,
though my entire marriage was signified by the same torturous experience:
"This man suffers terribly, Rachel! He feels invalidated by your very presence".
There was no mutual dependency of family or romance or even friendship between me and Hagai,
that's why I could part after months of trying in vain to empower him and make him love himself,
while my very being caused the opposite, as we discussed together openly.
But with my daughter-in-love it's again the mutual dependency of family
and of almost five years of dedication, which not only was asked for
(not initiated by me, on the contrary I tried to retreat several times)
but on the whole received, even with expressions of gratitude.

And now, all my love, all my dedication, all my so carefully "transmitted" empowerment
has been drowned and destroyed by 3 letters to her and a letter to her husband, my son.
I initiated these letters, because I felt urged to help them in what they had "staged",
and that this caring demanded from me to show some things on the level of the mind.
Of course, if I would have been allowed to be close enough - physically and emotionally-
I would not have written anything, nor said anything, I would have embraced and hugged.
I would have listened for a long, long time.
I was aware, very much aware of Spirit's warning,
"Give the Mother only what she asks"...puzzle piece 35, Following Will's Lead
but what could I have done from far away, if I wanted to transmit my light?
Or at least , if I wanted to transmit - that I cared?
For I've learnt that the proverb "if in doubt, leave it out", does not pertain to such situations.
It is better that a person is hurt by what I say than by the fact that I don't say anything!!!!!!

Furthermore, I was shown ever so often
- whenever the stinging pain has come up during the last 45 days,
that it was "staged" by the "Higher Selves" of all three of us, as a bomb
that would shatter our perhaps "fake" togetherness,
so that I would be forced to make my "lekhi-lakh".
"Fake"? - How did this term enter my thinking/feeling?

"Fake" - because your daughter-in-love did not really grow with you.
Worse, - like your husband and so many other people in your life -
she could not really grow     b e c a u s e    o f     y o u !"

But why then did she, as all the people before, attract me into her life?

"You are a mirror! You are reminding them of themselves,
just as your - now also retreated - friend Yanina told you 30 years ago!"

But what is the use of being a reminder for them,
if they not only don't learn to live up to themselves,
but hate themselves even more, because they don't?

"You were just reading in that Angels-Gitta-dialog,
"We cannot help you, we can only warn you".
And you're reading that also in the Violet Book [e.g. page 68]:
God healed his Lost Will,
which is the first condition for you healing yours.
But he cannot help the manifested spirits to speed up their own healing!"
[this verb "speed up" reminds me of Nancy, one of my supporters,
when I learnt Co-counseling and we had mutual sessions once a week,
Nancy, much younger than I, but more experienced in RC, screamed:
"You speed me up, you speed me up!"
And it was the same with each and every teacher, who helped me live:
Their delight in "such a great pupil" always turned into resentment,
because my fast progress made them feel that they stayed behind,
and this feeling, of course, was the opposite of loving themselves.]

I requested with all my "vibration" (Abraham)
that I may be freed from this horrible task,
to be "the trigger number one in the world",
as my "partners" Tamir or Yuval-David once said
[I step out of linear time and add on Dec.17:
this evening I got a SMS from Paz, Yuval-David's wife,
who obviously functioned as "Doula" in this moment:
"please pray for Hilah, daughter of Aliza, in the delivery room, opening 9"
I wrote: "I'll do this", and did so, though in the presence of Boris.
Two hours later Paz announced the birth of a healthy daughter,
the second child of Tamir, who once believed himself to be gay.
I wrote spontaneously, as if in rhymes:
"Barukh Ha-Shem, Bruchah Ha-Em, bruchah ha-neshama ha-khadashah, brukhah gam ha-doula"
"Blessed be YHWH, blessed be the mother, blessed be the new soul, blessed be also the doula!"
There was no contact between me and Paz since my visit at their home in Oct. 2010,
and there was no contact with Tamir and Hila except for an e-mail exchange on his 43rd birthday on Nov. 23, 2011

I'm retreating from all people, with whom this threatens to happen.
I'm expressively telling people (like now again Jibreel) to keep away from me,
because in my presence they behave in a way that they cannot love themselves.
I accept, that I am blamed and even slandered and sullied as a devil,
because of the one sin: that I wrote things - out of totally aware caring -
which caused my daughter-in-love to feel judged by me.
I have no problem any more to act as a lightning rod,
I no longer need to be "understood" or perceived as "righteous".
But there is this one pain, which does not let me combine Love with Joy:
that I -by what she projects as my judging - caused her to love herself even less..

This is not right!
This is so much the opposite of what I want,
that I now implore you to inform me, what it is that I'm not learning,
what is it, that' I'm unaware of, unconscious of? Tell me!
Everything in my personal life is just as I want it to be.
Even the little pain that came up yesterday,when I saw
that it was to his mother, that little Shawn dedicated the song:
"I was granted to love"
while my family - so I felt (felt!) - takes me for granted
and that there is no expression of either love or recognition.
I breathed into that tiny ego-pain and I smiled, even laughed.
There is no denial in me, unless YOU can point it out to me!

Today's e-mail quote of Abraham (1998) ends with:
"...The Universe is responding to your vibration
—and your vibration is about the way you feel."
But isn't it a truly PURE and ardent vibration,
that I want my daughter-in-love to love herself?
TELL ME!

"You have reached the understanding many times,
that "Abraham" etc. do not take into account,
that - in the face of freedom -
you are - just as "God" - powerless,
when your desire is
that another color of the one rainbow
will become whole,
will stop denying, will stop victimizing herself,
and will - instead - love herself, will feel her self-worth,
will find zest-fullness and full-fill-ment
or even just grate-full-ness."

In coping with a "Kreuz", a pain, of which no one else seems to be aware,
I feel alone and deserted by God and Man - ["poor me"...]
(see next page of Nourishment: How to hold ALONEness in balance with FULLness)

"When the help you want to give, cannot be received by the other at this time,
you must feel & breathe it, that HELP and FREEDOM are often contradictory.
What you CAN do, is vibrating your Love, your desire to help NON-VERBally:
Just like "Spirit and Will, United in Heart, manifested in Body" do right now."

Do I understand correctly, that this would be the broadest application of
"Walking humbly with your God"? [see on Nov. 10, 2011- Yehoyada]

Exactly.

And then this sentence in "The Meaning of LIfe in 700 Words"
on the second page of my seven weeks coping:

To change your reality you must first accept it.
This is to love your choice. It is to love yourself,
You are the choice of yourself.


I accept that my being threatens to manifest the opposite of what I desire.
I accept myself as I am,
and from this self-love I radiate Joy and Love on those,
whom I want to love themselves.

p.79  Er habe aber dabei gefunden, dass Todes-bereitschaft und Todesfreudigkeit die staerkste von allen Lebenskraeften sei....

... es kaeme ihm auch vor, als ob selbst ich nur theoretisch daran glaube und nur Geschaefte damit fuer Krieg und Sieg und Durchhalten treiben moechte. Nein, die Stunde sei noch nicht gekommen, in der die Menschen in ihrer Gesamtheit oder wenigstens in grossen Gruppen...den Tod...."
Dec. 17, 2011:
I , Rachel, want to replace the rest of the sentence with my own belief: "den Tod verstehen und leben was Tod ist und bedeutet" - "to understand death and live what death is and means."

Wenn ich frueh erwachen tu,
aus einem wirren Traum,
ist mein erstes Er-innern:
ich bin ja in Eurem Raum.

Wenn dann die lineare Zeit
mich ziehn will in ihren Bann,
ist mein groesstes Verlangen,
dass ich Euch Partner sein kann.

Nun ist vollbracht meine Lebenszeit,
gab hin mich fuer Mensch und Welt!
Was ich jetzt bin auf Erden
ist das ganze Himmelszelt.

When I use to wake up ,
from a confusing dream,
is my first re-member-ing:
I'm in Your space

Then, when linear time
wants to draw me into its spell,
is my greatest desire
that I may be partners with you.

Now my life-time is complete
I devoted myself to Man and World!
What I am on earth now
is the whole tent of the sky.