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updated on Sept.5, 2013, Rosh Ha-shanah
InteGRATion into
GRATeFULLness
Nourishment from Others
November
10-18 , 2011: enriched by more nourishment
continued
from "the Meaning of Life in 700 words"
October 2007
Archangel Michael : a new Earth Consciousness
My Interpretation:
the evolution from the duality of "light and dark"
to the complementarity of "lightness and joy"
Starchildglobal.com
~~~The Energies of October~~~Archangel
Michael through Celia Fenn The Awakening of the Planetary Heart and Ascension to New Earth Consciousness
"...., this is the time of the Great Awakening,
...
We have called this Feminine Grid And so, this shift was inscribed into your
DNA.
But, dearest ones,
And so, in the last cycle of
time,
November
21, 2011:
The Journey and Adventure of
Exploration continues,
You will know times, perhaps,
And gradually, you will feel safe once again
As you awaken to the Twin Flame within you,
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Diamond Grid patterns
[2007] It
has been for over two years now, 2005_05_20 2007_10_13 Since the October 2007 channeling is so stunning, About Celia Fenn She worked for 12 years as a University academic She is the author of She has worked intensively She is also
passionate about Cetaceans, |
2013-09-04
group-e-mail From "Veronica's
Whispers" - about multi-dimensionality "All incarnates are taking a journey through physical experience. Often in the dense reality intense focus determines our definition of what we experience. While indeed focus is necessary, there should also be a broader perspective available to know truly the wholeness of the experience. Defining yourself with limited personal perspective may hinder the ability to have a sense of truth regarding what is created. A greater look at the totality can lighten the load, so to speak, when considering your choices. We realize that most will be immediately wanting to know the true definition of the bigger picture as spirit sees it. So here it is: Physical experience is a multi-dimensional experience encompassing many levels of creation. The life you perceive is not the total package. Each life contains parallel manifestations that complement the singular experience you are aware of in this now. By stepping back and considering this, it allows you to understand the real totality of what occurs every day. Knowing and accepting this multiplicity may give you the clarity to know whatever the experience you are currently experiencing... can still resolve itself due to the nature of parallel experience (lives). By starting to contemplate this nature of reality, one can begin to resolve issues in the current life... by accessing the parallel. There is much more occurring than just this life. Consider it, then use it to adjust your perspective. After all, your perspective, if expansive enough, is unstoppable in achievement. That is the way it was designed. Think about it." |
Question:
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In "The Energies of October"
on the same page in Celia's website,
there is a passage, which better explains the term "Twin Flames":
..... May you be a joyous guest
at your own inner Sacred Marriage of the Twin Flames
- the Divine Masculine and Feminine that connect within you Heart.
...
May you "Come Home" to Who
You Are
and fully experience
the Creative Power and Joy of Heaven on Earth.
For in Heaven,
the Twin Flames are "One",
and here on Earth,
the Twin Flames are One within your Heart as you enter into
the New Earth Matrix.
And so Heaven on Earth is created within YOU - and on the Earth.
June 14, 2009 -
another relevant message from Celia
Fenn/Archangel Michael
re-studied on January 20, 2011
"…as you enter this month of June 2009,
you are experiencing ... Cosmic energies
that are assisting in lifting your Planet into the Higher Frequencies of Light.
" You are being assisted in this process of Awakening and Transformation
by so many Beings of Light, Angelic Beings, Elemental Beings, Galactic Beings,
and your Beloved Cetacean families [whales
and dolphins].
" It is not an easy time to be incarnated in a physical body,
for there is so much that is happening in the Realms of Light
that must be integrated and incarnated by you,
that you may, at times, feel confused and lost and disconnected.
Beloved Ones, at this time, it is so important
that you remain grounded within your physical being
and that you hold your energy and light in your heart and in your center.
That is the most important ... work that you can do right now,
as you ground the Cosmic light into your bodies and into Planet
Earth.
…
" At this time, the energy of Awakening
will activate in the lives of many people around the Planet,
as more and more souls awaken
to the reality of their Cosmic Being and Existence.
You are all Starchildren, beings of Light and Spirit in Human incarnation,
and you are awakening to your Cosmic nature and essence.
But… it is so important that you be Grounded and Present,
and that you remember that you chose to be here on Planet Earth
in order to co-create the New Earth Reality.
You are here, Beloved Ones, to ground Heaven on Earth,
and to be the manifestation of that energy.
So… at this time of great soul awakening,
it will be useful for you to focus your energy into
Grounding, Connection and being Present.
Be fully grounded in your physical body
and enjoy each day of your life as a gift from Spirit.
Be grateful and thankful for each
day and its blessings and learnings.
Remember to give thanks at the end of each day for all that has been given.
The essence of Higher Dimensional life is
Connection and Inter-connection.
Even if the chaos of dimensional flux
makes you feel disconnected on the outer levels of existence,
[November 21, 2011:
I don't "feel" disconnected, I a m disconnected
at present,
even from my family and my best friends, and I've a part in that this has
to be so at present,
the only friends in my life now are 5 of my 6 starchildren, all some 50 years
younger than I...]
go within, into your beautiful Diamond Heart Center,
and feel the deep inner connection to All That Is and to all
other Beings.
Know
that "disconnection" and "aloneness" are essentially third-dimensional
experiences,
[November 21, 2011:
My problem is not "aloneness", but the doubt, if I'm right in my
part of the disconnection,
or if "I'm wrong after all" ....]
and that when you enter into the awareness of the soul state of multi-dimensional
inter-connectivity,
then you are always supported in the flow of Abundant Love at all times
[Listen
to John Denver's song: ".... we are never alone, even though we try to
be...."
… the most effective way to experience the blessings of Grounding and
Connection
is through the experience of Presence.
This is the way
in which you center your energy clearly into your present material
reality,
that you have created,
and open yourself to receiving the blessings that exist within that Reality
Creation.
To be "present" in your own life
means to take the time
to experience each moment and each action
as a miracle and as a blessing of love.
To be Present means
to value and deeply bless all that is in your life as a gift from the Creative
Source.
Beloved Ones, in this time of accelerated light energy,
many of you are trying to live your material lives at the "speed of light"
that is comfortable for your souls,
but remember that the Sacred Union is a relationship between the Body and
the Soul,
and that the Body must feel equally as happy within the Union.
The pace of the Body is slower.
The Body needs time
to experience,
evaluate,
discern and discriminate,
in order to be comfortable.
When your soul and spirit energies are aligned with your physical
energies,
then you will indeed feel the infinite
expansion of Cosmic awareness,
but you will also feel rested, relaxed and at ease within your physical being.
If, at this time, you feel tense and anxious, or depressed,
or if you have other physical symptoms of distress,
or even if you feel ungrounded,
then you will need to slow things down,
until your body regains its sense of comfort and well-being.
[January 20, 2011 - All this I've done and am going on doing. How wondrous!]
to
former source of "Nourishment from Others", 2007 and 2011
to next
source of "Nourishment from Others" 2007 and 2011
Arad, Thursday,
November 10, 2011
(1) In Jerusalem with my camera, but no zest to
take photos and no zest today to sculpt my experiences
neither with the crowded city , nor with my deep encounters with Rotem
and with Lior
[+boyfriend Avi'ad ]
nor, at home on the same day, with Internet and Computer problems and the
technicians Misha and Ofir Mor.
I feel, that I'm "done with" documenting my life.
But, of course, I had that feeling before and can only smile
at my "decisions" time and again.
(2) I do want to mention the new song: ki hirveti nefesh ayefah [inserted
below on 11-11-11 and in SongGame]
(3) I do want to quote the message of Yehoyada given through Na'omi Hefetz
yesterday.
(4) I also want to mention my ongoing work on copying and coping with the
RUOW books
(5) Since Renata can't help me with the Spanish texts of the
Tuareg interview and the "United" song,
I want to at least complete translating the words of Moussa myself, however
incompletely...
[November 21: I succeeded with the translation of "Tuareg" and I
got help for the Unity-song]
Concerning my life-long predicament with how to
support people, without overwhelming them,
(see
the two songs "The Cranes" and "Walking Humbly")
I read a frapping sentence today about one of
"God's" first feelings:
"I had to hold back in order
to be loving and careful of others.
I actually feared I could hurt others with My light
and I have much Lost Will that believes it cannot receive Me fully
because I will be too intense for it."
[This is an expression of an overwhelming
feeling of 'God' right in "the beginning",
see the Purple Book "Original
Cause: The Reflection Lost Will has to give", p. 2]
I had not asked for a channeling, when I called
Naomi Hefetz.
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When
I put "walking humbly"
in my "Search", it showed 114 results. I don't know, where I explained the beginning of the influence of this verse: As a student at Tuebingen I heard a minister's short sermon about this verse: "If I want my 3 year old son to walk with me, I have to adapt to the speed of his little legs. That's how God adapts to the speed of the World, and if we want to walk with God, we have to walk humbly with the World." For many years I have been applying this message to the way I try to BE in the presence of people and to the way I try to communicate with them. [see a deeper understanding at the end of "lekhi-lakh>khugi-lakh/hug&lach"] |
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It is rare nowadays, that teachings - be they given by
humans or by "entities" - touch me, accept some aspects from "Abraham".
Nothing seems to reach the level of understandings I've been receiving for
25 years from the Source of RUOW
and Godchannel.
But during the intense dialog with Naomi I listened to some Hebrew expressions,
which could not appear in English channelings.
How do intentions manifest? See below: "How the Internet works" |
Click and listen to a section from the dialog between Yehoyada and me via Naomi Hefetz |
(3) Yehoyada: "Put your heart to it, that whoever comes, knows to whom he comes." Rachel (cynically): "Really?" "Therefore you have no need for proving. You are present and approachable." Rachel: "Yes, I'm calling this 'to be available', 'not to initiate but to be available;!" "Therefore, I am saying, since it will be your intention to be approachable from the word "approach" and together with this, if your feeling requests to stress belonging in every meaning, you'll find serenity in yourself. Be blessed." |
(2) Rachel: "This is clear, but it doesn't solve the problem as to HOW I'm meant to do the "Walking humbly" Naomi: "By saying: I'm a sanctuary and I invite whoever wants to be supported, to come, to talk.. you are at the place of "Walking humbly with YHWH" Rachel: "And not all the time to be cautious, fearing, that my words could trigger the other person..." |
(1) "Good Morning, Rachel, here is Yehoyada. It seems that being a sanctuary to yourself, is the way of inviting those who turn to you, who request, who look for the way, you wish to create communication in order to sense that you are connected at this time not only to the upper forces but also to planet Earth. I wish to say for your sake, that you are connected to both ends and from there that you have no need to prove something in any way. Are my words clear to you?" Rachel: "not quite - with regard to proving" Naomi: You don't have to prove, that you are there and that you are on the ground. You already created this connection, but .... you still try to prove it...by guarding the connection by helping and supporting . He says, that when you let go of that need, they will come to you as to a sanctuary, a sanctuary is not going out to others. |
(6) Naomi: "Fine! if you'll listen to this: there you have intention, there you have feeling, there you have knowing, there you have the saying: 'you are a sanctuary'! Be in that sanctuary, allow yourself, do not convince, don't... "walking humbly" this is your intention: 'I want to be in "walking humbly"!' You do not need to know, how, Rachel: "I don't need to know how" Naomi: "Truly not!" |
(5) Yehoyada: "therefore I'm saying for your sake: Do your will for yourself, for the satisfaction of your spirit, from knowing that your intention is to be "walking humbly", this will be your path. Are my words clear?" Rachel: "Yes" "Be blessed. Here is Yehoyada." |
(4) Rachel jumps into this closure sentence and screams: "But with this I have no problem! I've no problem with this- to belong or not to belong! My problem is if I accomplish my task, right? This is the big problem, and if I fulfill it correctly if - by my sheer endeavor "to walk humbly" I am no longer ~~~~ really ~~~~with what I want" Naomi: "And that's the only thing you have to do- to be with what you want. Read the passage about the "Ego", in the book, he explains its very well there. |
Copied
in 2006 [!!!] from www.howstuffworks.com
An analogy: How Web Servers and the Internet work: Your browser formed a connection to a Web server, requested a page and received it. If you want to get into a bit more detail, here are the basic steps that occurred behind the scenes: • The browser broke the URL into 3 parts: 1. The protocol ("http") 2. The server name ("www.howstuffworks.com") 3. The file name ("web-server.htm") • The browser communicated with a name server to translate the server name "www.howstuffworks.com" into an IP Address, which it uses to connect to the server machine. • The browser then formed a connection to the server at that IP address on port 80. (We'll discuss ports later in this article.) • Following the HTTP protocol, the browser sent a GET request to the server, asking for the file "http://www.howstuffworks.com/web-server.htm". [Note that cookies may be sent from browser to server with the GET request -- see How Cookies Work for details.] • The server then sent the HTML text for the Web page to the browser. [Note that cookies may also be sent from server to browser, in the header for the page -- see How Cookies Work for details.] • The browser read the HTML tags and formatted the page onto your screen. If you've never explored this process before, that's a lot of new vocabulary. To understand this whole process in detail, you need to learn about IP addresses, ports, protocols, etc. The following articles will lead you through a complete explanation. |
How
the Internet Works So what is "The Internet"? The Internet is a gigantic collection of millions of computers, all linked together on a computer network. The network allows all of the computers to communicate with one another. A home computer is usually linked to the Internet using a normal phone line and a modem that talks to an Internet Service Provider (ISP). A computer in a business or university has a Network Interface Card (NIC) that directly connects it to a Local Area Network (LAN) inside the business. The business then connects its LAN to an ISP using a high speed phone line like a T1 line. A T1 line can handle approximately 1.5 million bits per second, while a normal phone line using a modem can usually handle 30,000 to 50,000 bits per second. ISPs then connect to larger ISPs, and the largest ISPs maintain fiber-optic "backbones" for an entire nation or region. Backbones around the world are connected through fiber-optic lines, undersea cables or satellite links (see this page for a nice backbone and connection diagram). In this way, every computer on the Internet is connected to every other computer on the Internet There is much, much, much, much more, but to serve as a metaphor for "how my desire and intent become manifest," what I've quoted, is enough. |
Still on November 10, 2011
[See about my crazy idea to donate the salary
I got for a seminary to Wikipedia: Learn&Live
12, December 12-24, 2010]
See how Wikipedia unites the World |
Once again
I celebrate what is right with the world! "GoodNews" tells about a cooperation : students at Haifa University will write some 300 articles for the Hebrew Wikipedia -as an assignment within their study-courses. They will thus not only enrich the realm of information, from which the entire world benefits so much, but "they will empower themselves and feel worthy" |
"Ever wonder how Wikipedia
can cover so many topics so well?
Ever since I was a girl, I’ve been a total nerd about seashells and snails. I’d bring home all sorts of creatures. My mother wasn’t too thrilled. I’ve contributed to hundreds of articles about gastropods. Now multiply that by 100,000 editors. That's how we got to 15 million articles. For this to keep working, we volunteers need a stable infrastructure on which to work: servers, tech staff, a legal team to protect our independence and more. Wikipedia is the #5 website in the world, but its infrastructure is maintained by a small non-profit -- all paid for by donations, just individuals giving $5, $20 or $50. Please pitch in. Wikipedia works because there’s this unspoken light inside all of us that comes from the desire to help educate, to help share knowledge. And that’s what makes Wikipedia so magical. If you stop and think for even a second, you’ll realize how fabulous it is to get this information without a paywall, and to not have to read ads. It’s like a voice of sanity in a crazy, consumerist world. If you benefit from Wikipedia, please consider kicking in at least a small amount of cash to support it if you can. Thanks, Susan Hewitt |
Why your
donation is needed: Wikipedia is non-profit, but it's the #5 website in the world -- serving 470 million people every month with billions of page views. We work hard to keep our operation lean. Google might have close to a million servers. Yahoo has something like 13,000 staff. We have 679 servers and 95 staff. We will never run ads. Commerce is fine. Advertising is not evil. But it doesn't belong in Wikipedia. If everyone reading this made a small donation, we would only have to fundraise for a few hours. Not everyone can or will donate, but each year just enough people decide to give. We only raise what we need. When we've raised our budget, we stop fundraising for the year. This year, please consider making a donation of $5, $20, $50 or whatever you can to protect and sustain Wikipedia. |
"I feel
like I’m living the first line of my obituary. I don’t think there will be anything else that I do in my life as important as what I do now for Wikipedia. We’re not just building an encyclopedia, we’re working to make people free. When we have access to free knowledge, we are better people. We understand the world is bigger than us, and we become infected with tolerance and understanding. Wikipedia is the 5th most visited website in the world. I work at the small non-profit that keeps it on the web. We don’t run ads because doing so would sacrifice our independence. The site is not and should never be a propaganda tool. Our work is possible because of donations from our readers. Will you help protect Wikipedia by donating ?25, ?50, ?100 or whatever you can afford? I work at the Wikimedia Foundation because everything in my soul tells me it’s the right thing to do. I’ve worked at huge tech companies, doing some job to build some crappy thing that’s designed to steal money from some kid who doesn’t know it. I would come home from work crushed. You might not know this, but the Wikimedia Foundation operates with a very small staff. Most other top-ten sites have tens of thousands of people and massive budgets. But they produce a fraction of what we pull off with sticks and wire. When you give to Wikipedia, you’re supporting free knowledge around the world. You’re not only leaving a legacy for your children and for their children, you’re elevating people around the world who have access to this treasure. You’re assuring that one day everyone else will too. Thank you, Brandon
Harris |
Also
in "GoodNews" on Nov.10 about the research of Steven Pinker: The Better Angels of Our Nature: Why Violence Has Declined see there a video with Hebrew subtitles about Pinker's appearance in TED [="Ideas Worth Spreading"] I've guessed this all along, "Violence is on the Decline". If I would read the book, I may not agree to Pinker's explaining the reasons for this, after all, I'm just re-studying two of the RUOW books, and the information there (as in the other RUOWbooks as well as in "Godchannel" ) concerning both: the causes of evil and the ways of healing has been resonating in me since 25 years "Original Cause I : the Unseen Role of Denial" "Original Cause II: The Reflections Lost Will has to give." But Pinker's intent, too, is, to celebrate what is right in the world: "We should ask not only why is there war, but also why is there peace, not only : what are we doing wrong, but what have we been doing right! For, we HAVE been doing something right! And it would sure be good to find out what it is!" |
"Faced with the ceaseless stream of news about war, crime, and terrorism, one could easily think we live in the most violent age ever seen. Yet as New York Times bestselling author Steven Pinker shows in this startling and engaging new work, just the opposite is true: violence has been diminishing for millennia and we may be living in the most peaceful time in our species's existence. For most of history, war, slavery, infanticide, child abuse, assassinations, pogroms, gruesome punishments, deadly quarrels, and genocide were ordinary features of life. But today, Pinker shows (with the help of more than a hundred graphs and maps) all these forms of violence have dwindled and are widely condemned. How has this happened? . ....The key, Pinker explains, is to understand our intrinsic motives- the inner demons that incline us toward violence and the better angels that steer us away - and how changing circumstances have allowed our better angels to prevail. Exploding fatalist myths about humankind's inherent violence and the curse of modernity, this ambitious and provocative book is sure to be hotly debated in living rooms and the Pentagon alike, and will challenge and change the way we think about our society. |
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I
only now discovered Lektionen der Liebe, Lessons of Love,
July-August 2011
– the second part of what I inserted
in Nourishment
June 1, 2007-Mind-Body Centering,
intertwined there with passages from "The Body's Systems" "Es gibt jene unter euch, die jahrelang
damit beschäftigt waren, Oasen der Ruhe und des Friedens zu werden.
Lebendige Herzen, Leuchtfeuer für den Frieden und die Liebe.
Zu ihnen gelangen die Schöpfungen des Kollektivs und sie erlösen
diese Schöpfungen in ihren Herzen. Sie sind wie Säulen des
Lichts auf eurer Welt und leisten eine großen und mitunter einen
für sie sehr erschöpfenden Dienst für die gesamte Menschheit.
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11-11-11
For
so many years I asked - out of my own predicament - , if there is no
BOREDOM in "Heaven".
[See "boredom"
in my "search"],
There was even a question in the first years of Godchannel, when 'God' still
responded to e-mails
about "loneliness and boredom" in the "time" of Oneness.
'God' related to "loneliness", as he did in other messages, but
ignored "boredom".
[see my quoting of the dialog "Becoming New Heart" in pp21,
Oneness and Duality]
Now, suddenly, when copying the second RUOW book, 25 years after its appearance,
I'm reading this sentence
(in the "Violet Book" called
"Original Cause: The Unseen Role of Denial"
{which I began to copy and add to the
pages of the edited Blue Book}
on page 3, where 'God' shares with us his/our origins,
he says:
"I had a dilemma.
Even though I had questions, I did not know
how to e n t e r t a i n Myself
if I could not sleep all the time.
At the same time, My great excitement over realizing that I was
- was interfering with My sleep."
It
was during the huge "I Am" workshop in 1988 in Tel-Aviv, when the 120 participants were asked , what the biggest jam was, with which they came to earth this time. To my regret I don't remember, what the specific slang-term was, and it also seems strange to me, that "coming to earth this time" could have been the language, which we talked 23 years ago, but I remember only too well, how shocked I was by the inner scene I saw: "My greatest predicament is shi'amum". All my life I had used the term: "my need for satisfaction" or "full-fill-ment", but never ever the negative term "boredom". I believed , that "boredom" was totally unknown to me, unexperienced by me. My strife, my aim, my goal, was to fulfill my vocation, even when I doubted that I knew its content. In the years of doubt and almost constant deep depression, of wanting to die, I told myself, that this was part of my process: not knowing my vocation. It's been 22 years now, that I have no doubts. Even when my manifestations on the exterior level - my Desert vision- stopped, I was not left without the clear knowing of what my vocation was: "Healing myself into wholeness and - by extension - all of Creation". I saw and see clearly that this will be the basis, the condition for the success of any exterior manifestation of my grand Vision. And yet - I had to come a long, long way, till I could phrase what I call the three conditions for Heaven-on-Earth: Grate-Full-ness~~~ Zest-Full-ness~~~ Full-Fill-ment. |
"ki hirveti nefesh ayefah" My new "Full-Fill-ment song" "For I have satiated the weary soul, and every pining soul have I replenished [or: ] full- filled." Jeremiah 31:24 |
So, yes, I now know
how to e n t e r t a i n Myself I even stopped rationalizing, i.e. believing in the illusion, that "I'm using my time and life" to full-fill my vocation. No! I'm just "entertaining myself!" "Using my time", is not telling, how disciplined I work. I think , I've never met a person with such discipline. But my fear, that Internet & Computer may disappear, shows that something is missing in my "entertainment"! [interrupted by Lior Oren: her frustration with her 12 hrs. studies in Judaism] I now listened to Archangel Michael, 2007 [see above]: "the Bliss and Joy and Heart Song ... as you feel what was originally intended - the Joyous Adventure of Creativity that is called Life on Planet Earth." Life on Planet Earth means Adventure of Creativity. I truly live just that, this adventure, this creativity! Please let me trust, that - in case of the disappearance of the technology on which I make myself so dependent- I'll find other ways of adventuring in creativity |
A truly moving video of such
an event: |
"The
revolution will not be televised, but it will be between you and me,
face to face, soul to soul. And I think we did it. ...People want a
world that .. reflects their hearts, and are tired of letting corruption
go by unchecked. We will .. shout it out until our energy and hearts
are fully woven into the new system. The new system is global,
conscious and requires everyone to bring their full
selves in to participate. ... This
new system exists within a dif-ferent experience of
time than we have known, it is born from our hearts, and not
from our minds trying to fix something broken. As a healer, I know that
if I ap-proach a client like they are a problem needing to be fixed,
no healing happens. Healing happens when we know
and see the true source within, when we tap into the
body and soul's natural way of being, which is health
and harmony. "
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Think
with your Heart 11-11-11: Source Code Activation October 27, 2011 Much info. Becoming multidimensional. Also about Melchizedek |
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"This energy is so physical… that
it fills the body with bliss and a sacred feeling.
ONENESS is present because we are holding hands while doing the breathing
technique.
Electricity passes through everyone’s hands and it goes around creating
a circuit of energy.
"In reality, all people are connected like
the roots of trees inside of a forest.
... Oneness is ... the ultimate reality that every prophet spoke of."
And here is yet another
Oneness-Website:
with some good sentences like "we
are creating ourselves anew" or "We
are Love's Body"
Rachel's Comment:
Though I'm sceptical concerning all these "techniques", at least
there are these three expressions of Body: breathing,
moving, sounding,
and there is immense Good Will and an Intensity of Intention, which touches
me and tempts me to just move in and swirl with everyone.
I tried to learn the 9 Breath method - I did not succeed.... Also: the Live
Broadcast - Israel Time - will take place past midnight at 2:30 AM.
I think, I'll go on blessing all those people and all their
Oneness-activities, but I'll stick to my own task.
This task is healing the Lost Will in Creation, which is the reason for all
that prevents Heaven-on-Earth.
I'm once more so deeply moved by 'God's' story about how he, when becoming
conscious of his existence,
did NOT discern his magnetic essence, the WILL, the feelings, leave
alone understand it and relate with it,
and therefore caused Lost Will to prevail until now. [see
"Original Cause", both I and II, from the first page]
I cannot meditate-away the Lost Will!
I can only receive it in my womb, breathe, sound and move it, whenever I meet
it inside and outside myself.
If you make your relationship with your Inner
Being your top priority, and you deliberately choose thoughts that
allow your alignment,
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Arad, Shabbat,
November 12, 2011
GoodNews
tells about "www.DOasONE", that
till 12-12-12 one billion people will breathe together
doasone ~~~~~ doasone-one
breath~~~~elevate
unity-breathing together with unified intention
Highlights of the Global 11-11-11 Communion of Souls
Jean Hudon, in contrast to the long compilation
from which I chose to learn - quote - insert links yesterday,
today simply sends a link with titles and images from www.GoldenPathOfLight.org
Though I have reservations regarding the "spirituality-without-emotionality"
in these images,
I VERY much agree to the first title: "HEALING
THE ORIGINAL WOUND",
though the author seems to be ignorant of what 'God' himself tells about what
this original Wound was:
the Lost
Will which ensued from Spirit's
incapability to accept all his
feelings,
nor does this author as so many others know,
that "Oneness" , "Unity" doesn't mean , that we'll return
to Oneness.
What Original Heart, when it split itself apart, intended was,
to be differentiated, distinguished, separated - but with true PEERS.
Oneness can only mean Unity between Uniquenesses,
a poor English translation of the Hebrew "Yakhad
ben Yekhidim"
It's the morning after 11-11-11
and I feel vexed by the recurring understanding,
that "learning to be One" - as the
Unity Song stresses over and over again,
means also to be One with the 3 most diabolical "humans" in my life:
with the perpetrator of the Holocaust in Germany on the one hand
and on the other hand with two Israelis:
the murderer of Israel's Prime-Minister, in 1995
and the rapist, His Honor the President, in 2011.
How come, that also yesterday, on 11-11-11, I came - not once, but twice
across a sentence in the story of "Josef and his brothers",
which I found underlined in my Bible, but which was not in my memory-bank:
I SEEK MY BROTHERS ~~~~~~ MEINE BRUEDER SUCHE
ICH
Genesis
37, 15-16 , traditional translation And a certain man found him, and, behold, he was wandering in the field. And the man asked him, saying: 'What seekest thou?' And he said: 'I seek my brethren. Tell me, I pray thee, where they are feeding the flock.' |
Genesis
37, 15-16 ,translation of Everett
Fox 15 And a man came upon him- here, he was roaming in the field The man asked him, saying: What do you seek? He said: I seek my brothers, pray tell me where they are tending sheep |
Buber-Rosenzweig's
translation: Ein Mann fand in, da er auf dem Feld umirrte, und der Mann fragte ihn, sprechend: Was suchst du? Er sprach: Meine Brueder suche ich, melde mir doch, wo hier sie weiden |
Rachel's
comment: The episode with "the man" seems to be inserted in this so exactly sculpted story, only in order to give Josef the opportunity to express this quest. The verb, translated as "seeking", means also "to ask for", "to request" . The translators were not able to make a difference between the verb-form "ma tevaqesh", what do you seek, [instead of "ma atah mevaqesh"] and "anochi mevaqesh". The latter form is much rarer: it is stressing the Present, and it's stressing the "I". i.e. "it's me, who is seeking my brothers" |
I seek my brothers Searching "Google" for an image of this scene, the encounter with "the man", I couldn't find even one. What came up, in the German search, was this scene from a play, performed at Oberammergau according to Thomas Mann's novel: "Josef and his brothers". |
Yet,
the scene shows Josef dreaming about his b r o t h e r s, the dream that would become reality, but which, by Josef's naive or egocentric sharing it with his b r o t h e r s, made them so triggered in their inner "Cain", that they would have killed him, if not for the intervention of b r o t h e r Re'uven, who suggested to throw him into a cistern. The scene does NOT show Josef erring on the field, "in order to" be found by a man who asks him, what do you seek? thus giving him a chance to voice his ultimate vocation! |
PART IV, YOSEF, Initially the tale is one of family
emotions, and it is in fact extreme emotions which give it a distinctive
flavor. All the major characters are painfully expressive of their
feelings, from the doting father to the spoiled son,
from the malicious brothers to the lustful wife of Potifar, from the
nostalgic adult Yosef to the grief-stricken old Yaakov. It
is only through the subconscious medium of dreams, in three
sets, that we are made to realize that
a higher plan is at work which will supersede the destructive force
of these emotions. [Rachel:
This might be a model of how my own family-life works, and of how
the entire creation works, despite the havoc caused by God's and our
Lost Will, as I'm just now learning more deeply in the violet
and in the purple RUOW book]. For
this is a story of how "ill" - with
all its connotations of fate, evil, and disaster - is changed to good.
Despite the constant threat of death to Yosef,
to the Egyptians, and to Binyamin, the hidden, optimistic thrust of
the story is "life," a word that appears in various
guises throughout. Even "face," the key word of
the Yaakov cycle which often meant something negative, is here given
a kinder meaning, as the resolution to Yaakov's life. A major subtheme
of the plot is the struggle for power between Re'uven and Yehuda.
Its resolution has implications that are as much tribal as personal,
for the tribe of Yehuda later became the historical force in ancient
Israel as the seat of the monarchy (Rachel:
and ultimately the name "Yehudim"=Jews) |
37:1 Yaakov settled in the land of
his father's sojournings, |
Arad, Monday,
November 14, 2011
This
time
Jean Hudon sent a compilation, "with lots of compelling evidence of what is happening": feel the pulse of jubilant changes now reaching across the Earth and deep into every soul and into all sentient life forms now alive on this gem planet we so dearly love, as One with All That Is... |
"The level of
public awareness of the crass, outrageous corporate cronyism that
completely dominates American politics - and much of the world! -
and has a total stranglehold over all politicians is now reaching
historic levels. It would take just a tiny spark now for the onset
of a people's revolution in the U.S. on a par with what is happening
in many countries. "A New World is dawning. The Immortal Child is being born... "We are not alone, we have never been alone. Our planet was seeded by many, many races from across the cosmos. This universe and its galaxies are teaming with sentient, intelligent life, societies and cultures. We are part of this glorious expanse... of sentient intelligent life. And as sentient intelligent life, we, the people of Earth, as free souls, have a right to be free, to live lives of free choice & free will, to evolve, and to function as spiritually alive, awake, aware and responsible sovereign human beings. |
Arad, Tuesday,
November 15, 2011, updated on
November 22
Suddenly I became frustrated with all this talking, even singing, about ONEness
Only when a "critical mass" of people will
have healed their denials and Lost Will inside of them,
and only if this expresses in "grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment"
in their own lives,
will the quantum leap in evolution occur:
the coalescence of "Uniques" into "Unity",
the encounter of "Uniques" within Oneness!
TV Channel 3SAT presents the annual competition between the 12 best German
movies, 2 movies every night.
As an intro they showed the movie, which won last year and which is the kind
of movies I yearn for:
movies about the empowerment of people and the co-creation between them,
in this case people in an old-age home, who learn to get out of their victimhood
not only on an exterior level - towards the directress of their institution
but most and first of all:
towards the judgments about what an old person can or can not "do".
They create a musical band and they win a competition.
Unlike this movie, the first 6 movies this year bring me pain.
3 of them I didn't see from the start, since they were thrillers,
and though they addressed important "themes" [like incest],
I could not face them.
From the three I did see, one was about a midwife in Austria in the early
19th century.
The message of the movie will be clear, if I quote one of the "delivery-scientists"
saying:
"A pity we can no longer burn this midwife
as a witch on the stake".
The other movie I forced myself to see, though it was a thriller!
the treatment of refugees from Africa, when they reach - if they don't drown
on the way -
what they believe to be a land, where they don't have to die of hunger .
I understand, that without enwrapping such a violent theme in the genre of
a thriller,
people would not become aware of what is happening in the first decade of
the third millenium,
I felt my heart wrenched throughout the night and the morning and the day
after that.
And yet! the real theme does not get addressed ,
neither in movies nor on any other platform of thinkers and creators.
This produced a terrible outcry in my throat after I had seen the movie I
chose to see yesterday:
The theme - "a soldier in the NATO ARMY" - was extraordinary, especially
for me, an Israeli,
who is exposed to the omnipresence of "The Army",
and whose 3 children "were ba-tzavaa - in The Army",
just as much as now already two of her 10 grandchildren "are ba-tzavaa".
In Israel it is an honor to be a soldier, and an abominable shame to refuse.
Is it a comfort, that the German NATO army is called "BUND" , i.e.
"ALLIANCE"?
[Since August 15, 2011 "Conscription"
is no longer active.
On this backgroud see in 2007: "More
Jews opt to serve in the German Army"]
Already 30 years ago - not today! - the NATO army was put to shame, at least
in this movie.
It was a dishonor to NOT refuse service in the "Bund",
while in Israel someone who finds an excuse and a way "to not go to the
Tzavaa"
is punished not only on the market (no grants from the government,
much greater difficulty to get a job),
but ostracized by society - an outcast.
That German movie shows, how absurd "Army-Service" is even with
regard to "National Security",
and how absurd it is in a society, where people believe in freedom , democracy
and human dignity.
And this 30 years ago.
So far so good -
But what is the alternative to army-service?
Frank Lehmann, the protagonist, finds himself - when on leave -
(and "of course" he has a car to reach home and
army easily,
not like Israeli soldiers, who nowadays are not even allowed to hitchhike
any longer
because some terrorist might kidnap them, but have to rely on public transport)
in a veritable chaos of young men & women, who engage in "revolution",
but w h o a r e i
n c a p a b l e t o l i v e
w i t h o u t v i o l e nce
- not only against the army-troup, which is sent out to avoid political riots
-
but in their own "W.G. - Wohngemeinschaft" - Joint residency,
where they fight against each other and not only verbally.
I was bearly able to watch the movie all along till the end,
hoping, there would be shown an alternative way of living,
but no, in the end - after a faked suicide -
Frank Lehmann is dismissed from the army
and is seen driving away happily in his car
- but to where? - to what? - to whom?
[Nov.22, 2011: I just came across the story
I mention in "Conditions
for Heaven-on-Earth I":
2 boys who tortured one of their parents to death because of lack of zest
and full-fill-ment...]
What's the talk about Oneness, if there is no "unique-ness"?
And how will a human being learn, what makes him or her "unique"?
In one of the quotes of "FlashMob Peace Meditation",
see above on 11-11-11, I read:
The new system is global, conscious
and requires everyone
to bring their full selves in to participate.
But who among the 7 000 000 000 knows, what "his/her full
self" is?
That German movie - unawarely - only showed totally "empty selves"
In an interview 2 days ago an economic philosopher was
asked
about an alternative to capitalism and socialism,
since both ideologies have by now gone down the drain.
I yearned for at least a hint to the answer which I found already 17 years
ago,
and which I tried to apply through my vision of "a
Desert-Hosting-Economy",
yod-yod-yod - yekhidim yotzrim yakhad.
Only in Hebrew the words "yakhid=unique"
and "yakhad=together" have a common
source.
[I talked about yod-yod-yod for instance in
"The pathetic
Partneror" and in K.i.s.s.-Log
2008_06_14 >Nebo-Let-Go VI]
I'm constantly repeating the Chorus of the Unity-Song -
(while still editing and rehearsing the 4 non-English verses)
"we have to bring the World together and learn to
live as One".
But who are the "We"????
Only if each of the We accepts his/her uniqueness,
like each and every snowflake is special and unique,
can there be a togetherness that works.
The teaching of Godchannel and so many other sources nowadays
about "healing into wholeness" , i.e. healing into self-acceptance,
(and this is truly a gigantic progress in the World along the 73
years of my life)
is NOT ENOUGH!
I cannot love myself, if myself is not myself!
And myself can be myself
not only after I've gotten rid of all the 'things' that are NOT myself:
not only after the release of judgments and beliefs about how I 'should' be,
nor after the healing of denial and what is so denied, that it has become
Lost Will.
After all this release and healing the time has come to grasp my true uniqueness
as
a color of the One Light, as a wave of the One Ocean, as my "Creator-Self":
I came into this physical "linear" dimension as "an adventurous
being",
I came to explore what already exists and to then create and expand it,
thus enJOYing Grate-full-ness, Zest-full-ness, Full-fill-ment "personally"
and manifesting YHWH
- what happened, happens, will happen
- in Body on Earth!
Perhaps I am wrong!
Perhaps there is still my pattern of
needing to "do", needing to "accomplish" things , yes
needing to complicate matters.
But why then do I have this pattern,
why did I let myself be born into a family, where both father and mother had
this "pattern"
of investing superhuman endeavor in accomplishing what they believed needed
accomplishing?
I recall what I
sculpted on Nov. 2 - in the context of the dialog with the Tuareg student.
I phrased: There seem to be 3 impulses inherent in my human
nature:
I am "Cain"
- I need to feel my self-worth , I need to justify my existence~~~
I need to create, to make a difference, to leave a mark of my existence ~~~~
I need - beyond the love between mother-child,
siblings, friends -'romantic' love~~~~
I must make the connection between these three "impulses" clearer,
For following these impulses consciously, awarely, may bring about the three
conditions of Heaven-on-Earth,
and "Oneness" then, will be a natural result of "Uniqueness".
After all, if "Original Heart" had wanted Oneness, there would not
have been this conscious split into duality.
The split was intended, so that in the end there would be One heart, but distinguished
from another One heart:
|
I go on quoting from November 2, 2011
(1)
"At peace with all the universe Yet filled with zestful fire, Serene with past achievements, Alive with new desire, Aware of distant galaxies A pebble I admire." |
But what
is behind the "peace" of my holy al-one-ness? This is the real issue, and it is not addressed by Mussa! Peace includes stimulations by challenges and desires, as hinted at in this song: The conditions for "Heaven-on-Earth", for "Peace and Serenity", |
(2)
I wish to be – whole and shalem and cocreate a life full of love free of stress and pettiness with all my joy and happiness with all mistakes and imperfectness |
are
"grate-full-ness , zest-full-ness and full-fillment"
as I've found
out and pointed out after a long life of "frustration".
Many "spiritual" e-mails nowadays emphasize
"gratitude" There seem to be 3 impulses inherent in my human
nature: |
"The
Mother's dream is that all beings in Creation experience their true grandeur and greatness. And in their greatness, do whatever they desire. "The Mother's deepest desire is that you and everyone else in Our Creation be completely free and empowered to do whatever you want, go wherever you wish and be with whomever you choose." |
But in order for this to happen, I first must "want" and "wish"
and "desire to choose",
which brings me back to first healing and releasing what is hindering my uniqueness.
each snowflake is different in size, structure
and mass
Another human effort to change the World for "the
good":
GoodNews
on this day tells about "The Good
Men Project":
"The Good Men Project is not so
much a magazine
|
We do not ask you to look at something
|
Arad, Thursday,
November 17, 2011
....evolution from the duality
"light and dark" towards the complementarity of
"lightness and joy"
This is the "title" of this page as I set
it up in October 2007.
And this happened to me within one evening,
by watching two very good, yet totally contrasting movies
within the annual competition of the 12 best German movies.
[see about this competition in 2001 already in my
first puzzle-piece>2001_11_30]
DENIAL of both VICTIM and PERPETRATOR |
The
theme - so heavy, that it again was clad in a thriller, though no murder was involved, "only" subhuman torture, and therefore the victim herself could "play" the detective, - is correctly called: "Es ist nicht vorbei", "it's not over", for it shows the result in present time of denied, yes repressed trauma on the victim side and camouflaged, denied guilt on the perpetrator's side, a physician, in the present even a famous professor, who cooperated with the STASI of the DDR 25 years ago, and was responsible for torture with psychopharmaca, who also led to the victim's infertility. The timing of "everything coming to light" is - as if metaphysically "staged" - 9 weeks before the birth of their to-be-adopted child. |
Often yesterday and - to rest my eyes
and adrenalin -
also during the 40 min. in-between the two movies -
I had labored on copying and graphically editing
two "stages" in the "saga" about "OUR BEGINNINGS",
the process of "Spirit" and "Will" from NOT KNOWING
through experiencing>denying>understanding
towards ->ACCEPTing>LOVING and REJOICING
in
the Violet RUOW Book and - parallel to it - in the Purple RUOW Book.
The denials of "God" -"in the
beginning" - were subtle,
many of them even "committed" out of
"compassion"
in order to 'please" the other, 'not
to frighten' the other,
in short : "denials out of love"! "denials
for love's sake"!
but denial out of love is a most dangerous contradiction,
how can I love another if I deny = if I don't
love myself?
Father, Our Will Be Done
|
Suddenly mother, sons and daughter are faced with a young woman and her daughter, who have been since 8 years the father's "second family", of which they had no idea. But this becomes the biggest chance to turn the frightful into the fruitful! |
Another Theme which indicates "lack of full-fill-ment":
"Obesity"
of almost half of the population of Israel, and out of these every 8th person
is in danger.
As to the danger, what is pointed out , are "only" the problems
for health,
which in turn is weighing heavily on Israel's health-budget.
Not once have I heard - whenever this problem of the entire Western World
is discussed-
that the result of real or imagined obesity is a danger to people's feeling
of self-worth.
And like with any addiction: the less worth a person feels, the more s/he
eats etc. etc.
And what is the danger of self-hatred????? Why don't you ask that, for Heaven's
sake?
Isn't it "Cain"???
And if you would understand this most horrid, desperate predicament of humans:
"Cain",
then you would ask - yes on a national level!! - what helps humans to love
themselves?
And you would know, that at least one double condition: zest and full-fill-ment
in WORK
could be enhanced by you on the national level!
Of course, I'm celebrating the tiniest steps in people's understanding and even more, if they try to turn understanding into action. So I do celebrate the agreement between these 3 so different Israeli ministers, a woman, a "normal"man, and a fundamentalist! |
GoodNews today quotes the details of the AGREEMENT between the Ministry of Health, the Ministry of Education and the Ministry of Culture and Sports about The PROMOTION of a HEALTHY and ACTIVE Life-Style. One tiny example from this promotion: - to minimize food commercials during TV shows watched by kids |
Still on November 17, 2011,
The time is 22:50, I'm trembling
and breathing like a dog,
as I've done throughout this horrid, realistic, relevant 11th movie:
Homevideo
a cyber mobbing drama: SHAME
Sexual
shame, sexual denial, sexual murder. No, no, not murder in the literal sense - no physical violence... Nowadays we don't need physical violence, we have the Internet now, haven't we? And cellular phones to show around, how a 15 year old - in love with a girl - expresses this love in front of his video camera, and goes on filming himself while masturbating, in sound and image. It was clear to me throughout the movie, that he had no choice but killing himself. His parents - who , by the way, proved denials and the results of those themselves - succeeded to make Jakob be accepted in another school. How naive! there, too, Jakob, would immediately be recognized . Scornful looks , pointing fingers... And if all this wasn't enough - this Hanna, 13 year only, does, what so many young girls do: she comes "may I stay with you tonight - even if my father will fetch the police?" lets him fondle her, and then suddenly feels guilty, jumps out of the bed, rans away while giving him the most blaming flashes of eyes and gestures, as if he had raped her.. On the river a ship passes by, while Jakob - on the beach - shoots himself into the mouth. That is the end of the movie - no solution, no consolation. And , indeed, there is none. "Every boy masturbates", says his father, "once your grandma caught me..." "There's a difference between what your mother saw", says his almost-ex-wife, "and what the entire world can see on the Internet." All these boys masturbate, but projected guilt and denial tempt them to murder another boy with the "help" of SHAME. SHAME, SHAME, SHAME. How can this ever heal????? |
This
is what I copied last night from the Purple
Book page 25,
|
2013-09-05 Rosh-Hashanah
, right after I came across the composition above, |
Both Jury and the Public chose "Homevideo" - about the terror and torture of SHAME as the best among the 12 German movies
See what I sculpted in July 2004
....
Tamar Efrat Rut .... all three
transform |
Arad, Friday, November
18, 2011
The
last of the 12 best German movies and the last of the eight which I chose
to watch,
was as terrible as the other six .
Except for "Father, Our Will be done",
there was nothing to enjoy for me,
and if these horridly realistic movies had been dispersed over the weekly
programs,
I would not have seen then from the beginning, despite their exquisite quality.
But I now feel even more, that once in a while
I have to take a break in "Celebrating what is right with the World"
and expose myself to such a "distilled" experience.
"Der
Verlorene Sohn", "The Prodigal
Son", it was called,
again a persiflage of a New Testament wording, but not a comical one this
time.
This "distillation" of humankind's horrific experiences came into
my life,
while I focused on "Our Beginnings" of becoming conscious of our
existence,
but unable to cope with our feelings --- ignoring, denying, overriding them,
and turning what should have been u n d e r s t o o d
- into beliefs and judgments, which constrict living and loving.
And this is not all:
The Purple Book "Original
Cause: The Reflection Lost Will has to Give"
is "dedicated to Red in all its Manifestations ",
i.e. to the Spirits that emerged in the red color of the divine spectrum.
The red color characterizes the "survival- chakra" with its sexuality
and passion,
and the people on Earth, who foremost represent "Red" are ......
Arabs [Purple
Book p. 11]...
The Denial of the feelings which "God" had against "too much"
sexuality and passion in the beginning
are now played out on Earth more and more.
The "Lost Son" is a German who converted to
Islam and worked for the Jihaad, the Islamic terror organization.
After he was released from an Israeli prison before his time because of good
behavior, and sent back to Germany,
his mother - so happy to embrace her son - believes,
that Rainer, though he insists to be called "Omar" by her,
has parted from his fundamentalistic belief in self-sacrifice for the sake
of fighting the infidels.
"Bist du immer noch auf dem Trip mit deinem
Dschihad-Scheiß?", fragt Markus seinen großen Bruder Rainer
The drama of how the mother has to grasp that she deluded
herself
and how -in order to save the travelers in an underground train,
she participates in shooting her son just before the explosion of his bomb,
is heart-wrenching.
Of course the movie asks
for the deeper motives of the terrorist: "Your lives are empty , degenerated", he attacks his mother. „Schlafen, Fressen, Freizeitstress“ „Ihr belügt euch und zwar so lange, bis ihr selbst glaubt, das richtige Leben zu leben. Euer Leben ist hohl und verdorben.“ . Nothing can be seen of his own endeavor to reach full-fill-ment except of sacrificing himself. It is again and again the same reason for evil : lack of zest-full-ness/full-fill-ment, and therefore lack of self-worth |
By the way...In these two
last movies there were naive, kind mothers involved in horrifying scenarios,
it was the mother of Jakob, who had carelessly given in to the sly quest of
Jakob's class-mate to lend him Jakob's video-camera,
and it was the mother of Rainer-Omar,
who with all her love could not prevent her son from becoming a terrorist
and potential murderer and finally her victim.
I watched the spies of the "Verfassungsschutz" (Federal Intelligence
Agency),
recalling the present scandal in Germany which
came to my ears faintly, about a series of 10 murders, committed by NeoNazi
groups,
and the negligence, perhaps even active involvment
of that "Verfassungsschutz", if I understood correctly,
and associating a small part of a doc, into which I
had zapped by accident, called "Exploding",
where an expert succeeded to enter all the main atomic bomb places, Pakistan,
Russia, USA,
and how - in the USA - there are 4000 people, who for 50 ( fifty! ) years
have done nothing,
but training and being prepared for "THE" moment of the end of the
world.,
When I see all this, I fell like giving up, - like loathing Creation so much,
that if there would be a chance of NOT-EXISTING, I would choose this,
as I had wanted to choose this so often in my life.
But the only thing that does NOT exist, is Non-Existence.
From Light and Dark to Lightness and Joy...
Nothing could be farer away from me today!
On the
background of the wadi, officially called "Nakhal Khaesed", Wadi of Grace or Compassion, and beyond the most northern houses of Arad the Judaean Mountains are seen in what will be the State of Palestine. Daily I'm walking from my "Almond-Neighborhood" down and up the little wadi, which I called "Nakhal Khaemlah", another word for Compassion The "Grave of Compassion" was once probably a "device" of the Army. At first I filled it daily with the little stones, that fell into the path through the wadi, a path which I had made passable for me, and which I keep maintaining. Some days ago, just when I was thinking of HEART [see "Heart's Emergence", Violet Book p. 25-27] I saw this black heart-stone in the middle of the path, on my way from the pool down the Wadi of Compassion and up to my "Almond Neighborhood". I'd never seen it before in all those 7 years. Today, when pruning the once so small but now overgrowing two Passiflora plants, a ripe fruit won over my heart. From "Compassion" to "Heart" to Passionfruit against the cloudy evening sky... |
At one time I decided to put on the grave, what remained from almost daily pruning of the plants in "my garden" , [after my attempt to turn them into compost, had not really succeed through all these 7 years]. This desert stone on the "Grave of Compassion" was only recently painted by me with the words: "Nakhal Khaemlah" - "Wadi of Compassion" |
The Awakening of the Planetary Heart is the entry to this page of 2007, and THE EMERGENCE OF HEART is the latest passage which I copied from the Violet Book. p. 25 |
Three
weeks ago I came to my Shoham family for the last time. The last week there was not even a phone-call from my son, nor did his sister, my daughter, renew contact with me. Other people in my life have receded, too... Except for working with Ofir Mor, on installing a new Mobile Drive, and while waiting for the material on my old drive to be transferred to it, talking into depth - and as to me, being triggered by him several times, I've not talked to anyone this week, neither face to face, nor on the phone, and even my e-mail box is empty of personal letters, except for the correspondence with my brother-in-law whom I asked to get my cousin Gretel-Elisabeth to help me with the Spanish verse in the "Unity-song". I haven't even seen my landlords or their children, or my neighbors , except for neighbor Albert in the Jacuzzi. As to Gal's father, Ofir Mor, the last time, on Nov. 20, he parted from me: "I'll be nothing but your computer expert!" I, from the beginning, hadn't wanted anything else, but he had asked; "When shall we take a walk into the desert?" The final disruption occurred after the following scene: We talked about "Zman Midbar" and the couple of its founders who don't like me. I said: "But I love E, though I don't like that she teaches "A Course in Miracles"." Ofir: "I pity the people who are addicted to the "Course in Miracles". "why?" "this I won't share with you". After several stories of mine I said: "I feel uncomfortable, like I'm sharing with you, while you're not sharing with me. This is lack of equality". "What do you want to know!" he blurted, "Like what you said about the Course of Miracles!" "I was a co-editor of the Course of Miracles," "What?? you were not even born then." "I was born before you and will stay after you, and you don't understand anything." "But I want to understand, you could at least tell me, what it is I don't understand." "No, you don't understand . It will take time, till you do". "You said, how much "love" means to you, but the way you handle me now, shows definitely a lack of love." |
(It
was only on Nov. 23, 2011, that my son called me - to hear if I was
alright and to tell, that they were doing "work" on their relationship, and that things were "not as usual, but good". Except that my daughter-in-love was still furious at me, expecting from me "to relate to all that has been written between us" 3 weeks ago. I did not ask, how this expectation went together with her : "You are removed from my life", nor did I say, that there probably was a lot of guilt on her side, which she turned into blame, but I did share with him my ever growing insight, that the old law got played out again: If we do not part "be-itto", "at the right time" (best expressed in the composition of 3 biblical verses, which I put into one song and tune) then a terrible blow comes down on us and forces us to part. That's what happened to Israel, when it got too attached to "security" 3 times, from 721 B.C. till 70 -133 A.D.m Israel was conquered, destroyed and driven into exile, and that's what happens when people do not part from partners or from a workplace when it's.time for parting. I reminded him, that already around their daughter's 4th birthday such a blow came down... , and it was only after 3 months (during which she wanted me to come as usual,"but not talk"), that she confessed: "I've come to the understanding, that not only Mika, but I, too, need you"! and then again in Dec 12+Dec. 20, 2010 till Jan. 6, 2011, an occurrence "happened", which his wife herself called "a historic [mekhonen] event". [See Learn&Live 11 , Learn&Live 12) Then it was decided, that I - when Immanuel was on flight - would come only on weekends. But this decision, too, became more and more eroded towards and since the summer-holidays. I now said,"I must not give in to her expectations and not interfere with her process of parting, this is what I keep reminding myself of, when "feelings come up" despite my insight". I felt, that his own understanding was not far from mine. |
I am totally at peace with this al-one-ness,
and glad, that people with whom the "az nidberu" can not occur at
this time,
are dropping away from me.
and when a feeling comes up - of pain (longing for Mika)
or of doubt ("perhaps I've been wrong after all"),
then I move-sound-breathe it
and trust, that the actors and actresses in my drama need once more a break
from me,
and this time, in order to really set out on a path which will bring them
grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment.
I think and think and think of the purpose of working on my website 8-10 hours
per day.
and it seems to me, that especially by integrating "new" material
with past material,
which in itself is already an integration of far-away past, less-far away
past and present,
I am training in "holographic/spherical time/experience",
just as the fact, that I don't want to travel in the world,
because traveling with the help of TV is so much richer,
or like watching a distillation of 8 movies is much more for me today,
than seeing one good movie 2 or 3 times, as I used to do 5 years ago....
Continuation of Healing-Exploring-Creating in FULL-FILL-ment in Godchannel's Message