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The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013 and Overview of its main libraries [If you look for a word on this page, click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

channeled on 99/07/07

2005_02_13 While doing my present daily one hour routine work on re-creating the edited Files Overview ,
I was pushed to open this page.
Every single word in it is relevant to me right now.

Personal Channeling
Healing & Judgments

Hello God.

"Hello, how are you?"

I'm well thank you. Haven't talked to you in a while, at least like this. I've missed it.

"I am always with you you know. We keep talking."

Thank you God. I am aware of your presence.
The world feels pregnant.
Are we getting ready to deliver?

"There is much going on under the surface.
Yes, pregnant is a good word.
There is a new world developing, growing, waiting for it's time to arrive.
Yet there is still a lot of preparation
that needs to be finished in order to bring this about.
It is happening.
Even in times of seeming lulls, there is work being accomplished."

What can I do to help God?

"You know the answer to that.
Keep healing into wholeness.
You're doing fine.
All that irritation you're feeling is good.
It keeps you moving
and moving keeps you healing.
Seems tedious I know,
but this is the nitty gritty we're into now."

Thanks God. You're right. I am irritated.
I don't really know why though.
It just feels as though I have some sand inside my shell,
kinda rubbing me the wrong way.
Just not entirely comfortable.

"That's right.
I want you to feel everything, every little thing.
Comfortable can sometimes be the last thing you feel before you die.
I want something different for you."

You know, it kind of irritates me
that I can't just come to you and get some direction for myself.
I never seem to hear you say anything I don't already know.
I really wish you could just once give me something to let me know
that you really are indeed in control of things
and that you have answers
that the rest of us haven't heard yet.
Like the class on body.
[Since there is no link in the original, I suggest you go to BODY PAGES in my Context Overview,
or you take a look at my way of integrating the message about "Body is the Master Healer of Creation" on my site.]
Can you give this information to me,
or must I wait for the channelers to get it so that I can get it from them?

"Well, I think you already know what you are doing.
And I think you are going to keep doing things the way you do them,
regardless of any other information coming at you from anywhere else.
You know your body pretty well,
and you and your body seem to have a pretty good connection and understanding with each other.

"I would say, listen more to your body.
Give your body what she needs to be happy.
Try not to judge too much what that is,
and also try to discern when it is your body talking
and when it is your spirit or will instead.
There are many ways to be and exist in life.
What is right for you is what feels best to you.

"Judgments take many forms and they are truly pervasive.
Keep working on releasing all judgments
and before long you will see exactly
how to be in your body in a way that is right for all of yourself
and feels best to all of you."

Thank you God. Anything specific you want to suggest to me?

"Nothing you don't already know.
You know certain habit patterns are not in your best interests,
and you also know denial is not right either.
You know what feels good to you and what feels bad.
Now you just have to try and flow with your changes
and allow your feelings about letting go of habit patterns
to flow along with the habits that are leaving.
It is this that makes you uncomfortable.

"The act of judging everything you are doing as good or bad
is enough to make you crazy right there.
My most important piece of advice would have to be
stop judging and start living, and feeling, and being in the moment
what it is you want to be and feel in the moment,
and release any and all judgment you have around
what that should look like and just be."

Okay God. Thank you. This is very hard to do you know.
It is hard to get past the conditioning of accomplishment.
Having to accomplish something all the time.
Yet it is precisely this judgment that paralyzes me into accomplishing nothing.
So releasing the judgment would free me up. I get that.
It's just very hard to do
cause there are so many judgments
that crop up around every area of life.

"Tell me about it.
It's not like I don't have some experience with judgment.
But I have found
that simply allowing things to unfold as people choose
is working just as good as trying to force stuff.
People will invariably choose what is right for themselves eventually.
If you want to stay stuck in habit patterns,
you will go where those patterns take you,
and it will feel right to you,
because this is what you have chosen.

"Free will does work,
but I'm not sure people will really understand or appreciate this
until they have finished choosing,
and find themselves in the place they have created for themselves.
In the process they will have ample opportunity to have chosen
what really feels good to them,
and so this is how things will eventually sort themselves out."

It seems to be taking a long time.
But I am really glad, because I am not where I want to be totally yet,
and don't feel inclined to push myself to get there any faster than I'm going.
Actually, there is a part of me that feels impatient,
but it is starting to calm down and get with the idea
that it is just part of me,
and that other parts of me have rights as well.

"Yes, this is complicated, this journey we are on,
but we are making progress,
and I don't want you to feel pressured to go any faster than you are.
You will be able to adapt very quickly if that becomes necessary,
so don't worry about that.
Do try to have some fun in the process too."

Okay God, thank you.
I have been doing that, and I feel it's important too.
I get way too serious at times.
I know it's because I really care,
but it's also because I think I know what's best for others quite often,
and I would appreciate your help with this.
I would like to feel able to relax a little more
and just allow and be
and flow with things
instead of always feeling like it is my job
to somehow help shape events
According to some master plan
that only I seem to know about.

It is exactly this thing about some others that irritates me so much,
like they have some superior knowing that gives them the right to tell everybody else
how to go about this healing.
It feels as though others are trying to usurp my power sometimes with this attitude
and I know they wouldn't trigger this in me
unless I was carrying this judgment as well.
So it is within me that I need to go and heal this,
and get into the allowing I say I'm advocating,
yet really, internally I'm still trying to control things.

"I acknowledge you for this insight
and I will help you all I can in this process.
Free will, if practiced fairly and without judgment,
allows all viewpoints.
And all can coexist with each other
when respect for others is practiced
and there is no attempt
to override anyone else's freedom to create whatever makes them happy.
If you begin to concentrate on what makes you happy and create this for yourself,
it will be far easier to allow others the same freedom.
You know this already, but you have yet to practice it
to the extent to which you are able, and in my opinion, ready."

Thank you God. Your help will be much appreciated.
And any help you can give me
to help me design and create my own happiness, or right place,
will also be welcome and I feel, right on time.
Much of my time in this lifetime has been spent
trying to contribute something to the world
which I have not yet figured out how to give myself.
The right to be free and happy doing what I want.
Be with me in this process
and help me to release the judgment that it is selfish of me to contribute to myself first.
I understand the wisdom of this mentally,
but other parts of me are deeply imprinted with guilt around this concept.

"Thank you for asking for my help.
I am with you at all times
and ready to receive all judgments, guilt and pain
that still need to be felt and moved
in order for you to manifest your right place.
My desire for you is for you to have all that you desire,
withholding nothing from yourself out of guilt or fear.
And there is still tremendous fear inside of you
that says this cannot be,
and this must be allowed to move in an atmosphere of acceptance,
for you to begin to manifest at the level that you and I desire for you."

Yes, fear. My old nemesis.
I'm tired of being fear ridden.
I ask you for help with this,
and in doing so, I am triggered into fear,
for fear triggers are not pleasant things to experience,
and fear moving feels really bad,
or at least it has in the past.
I am going to ask you to help me move my fear,
and I'm going to ask you for something else.

Once, long ago,
when I was trying to heal myself of the eating disorder that held me prisoner for so long,
I asked you to help me.
I dared ask you to make it easier.
I remember it clearly.
Instead of asking for patience, or perseverance, or fortitude or courage,
things I had prayed for in the past,
I took the brilliant step of asking for it to get easier.
And miraculously, it did.

It was then that I began to see
how I had asked for the way it had been,
and how I could ask for it to be another way, a way I liked better.
Things didn't change over night,
but I noticed a subtle shift after that.
Healing didn't come so hard,
changing my ways didn't feel so impossible.
Gains were made with less effort.
I felt the current change directions
and start to flow with me, instead of against me.
Once again, I am asking for this.
Help me allow the flow
and help me relax into it, instead of fighting it.
Take my fear of doing this from me as I allow myself to flow,
and let the movement be as gentle as the flow.

I release the judgment
that emotional release of fear must be an excruciating process,
and I ask for a breathing in and out of emotional movement
that feels relaxed and gentle,
so that I may fully immerse myself in my process instead of clenching.
Help me unclench,
by allowing the emotional movement I still need
to be as natural and painless as is possible,
by keeping your light so present and palpable
that the expression of pain is simultaneous with its relief.
I release the judgment that it has to be any other way,
and open myself up to the possibility
that healing can feel good, even when it hurts.

"This is wonderful judgment release
and I am in full alignment with it.
I will be and already am ready to help this movement,
and working together
I feel we can undertake the completion of your healing in this way as much as it is possible to do.

I also agree that healing does not have to be as painful as it appears to be for so many,
yet there is no doubt that some pain is going to be involved,
as what needs to be released must be felt as it is leaving.

"The judgment around emotional movement
is most of the reason that this healing work is so difficult and painful,
so any release of judgment about how this movement takes place
or what it takes to trigger it
is going to help the whole process,
and the more willingness one has and agreement
about accepting and allowing the needed movement,
the less forceful triggers need to be,
and the less traumatic the whole endeavor becomes. "

Okay then, thank you God. I am glad we had this talk.

"So am I. Thank you too."

I follow my understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
  that - after 7 years - I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing pages.
Since March 2009 I've been "synchronizing" the chronological process of the Godchannel.com files
with the chronological process of my photos and - if there should be time - observations of the

"Walk About Love"
continuation of April 29, 2009 ; latest update of this page on July 29, 2009

A spontaneous circle at the edge of "Nahalat Benjamin" and "Carmel Market",
with the Spices Shop, where I used to by the spices for the cakes and cookies ,
which I made for Chanuka, though they were my mother's recipes for Christmas...
People who don't know Tel-Aviv! this is one of the most important places in the city.

Even I feel pushed to invite by-standers to join in the circle and hold hands...

Just as famous is "Shenkin-Street", into which we now enter,
with Eran, Avi and mainly Evi (Hungary) in the picture.
In my personal history it was the street of many events in 1994:
two of them: Tomer's growing in the womb and becoming birthed,,
and the founding of the "Desert Resources Company, Ltd"

 

Shenkin Street Nr. 26..... Once -"Studio Borochov" for Photography of
Gady and Efrat Lybrock, my partners in the "Company for the Realization of Desert Resources"

I called Gady, whom I had met at Mitzpe-Ramon "by chance",
while hitchhiking to The Walk at Sapir Park:
"I can't find a trace of your former shop!"
"It's a shop for shoes now, unless they too have sold it in the meanwhile."

A bit futher up in the small Shenkin Street I have to meet another spot in my history (1994),
connected to a very painful memory, connected to David~Eilat whom I also met "by chance"
on that strange hitchhike to Sapir Park.
It's the junction Shenkin St.-Rothchild St.

I left the Walkers for a few minutes, running up to the next corner in Shenkin Street. It's the house, where Immanuel, my eldest son, lived with his first wife and his 3 children. Above them, on the top, lived Gadi and Efrat and their 2 children (2 others were born later).

The two families, too, wanted to establish a partnership: "Studio Borochov", with Immanuel as an expert in computer and in strategic planning, and his wife as an artist in graphics. I had warned : "Don't do this! My son is a genius in everything except in managing money." It turned out, that none of the four partners was good in "managing money", and the dire consequences didn't take many years to manifest.... In the meanwhile a third child was born to my children. The one "detail" of the story, which I can and must tell in front of these pictures, is this: I stood on the huge veranda of my children's flat, overlooking Tel-Aviv, thinking of the soon-to-be-born child . 'His siblings have the names of trees: Elah and Alon [Isaiah 6:13]. What should the name of this one be?' A name came to me: "Tomer" which in the Bible, in the story about the prophetess Debora, means "palm-tree". The following morning TOMER was born. His name is probably the one, which appears on this website more than any other name...     This is "Gilboa-Street", along which I used to carry little Tomer, when he - as mostly - couldn't fall asleep... At the end of the small street, I turned left, back to the Rothchild Boulevard, where the Walker-Dancers were resting.

I came to talk with a young woman, who was sitting next to a huge suitcase,
which was - among us Walker-Dancers - out of place.

Her name was "Christine", and she had just arrived from Nuernberg, Germany, that morning.
At some time she introduced another woman to me, a few years older, "Jessica", also from Nuernberg,
The reasons why they had met and why they wanted to take part in The Walk, were such,
that I decided to not continue with the Dancers after the break,
but to accompany the two Germans to the camp near the sea,
helping even with rolling the heavy suit-case of Christine.
Shortly before we reached the camp someone was running behind us.
It was Lior Oren!
And when we just got the camp in sight, a man came out: Oren.
"I cannot stay in the camp today.
The terrible music.... The low energy... and my 500 NIS were stolen."
Oren was the one over whom I stumbled at Arad and got my glasses scratched.
What followed, my strong encouragement:
"You must work all this out with The Walkers ,
not only for your own sake!
How will the Walk grow up, if nobody takes responsibility for it
and everyone, who feels distressed and disappointed, retreats?"
was really the beginning of the process
which made me leave the Walk myself - 3 days later.

 

When we entered the camp together with Oren- I said to the German girls:
"Now you are truly prepared!
You have seen the sunny side and the shade!
Now you must take responsibility for yourself
and find the people who can welcome and hug you."
There is a followup to this story - with Jessica , - on May 11....

I had hardly looked around, shuddering because of the terrible "music",
when Lim came towards me and Lior and hugged us warmly.
I told earlier , that she had left for Jordan,
to help two people to get permission to cross the border to Israel.
The three of us left the camp and the 'music'
(which thanks to Oren's initiative was replaced at least for 20 minutes, as he told me later)
and sat opposite the sinking sun at the sea.
Lim told her frustrating story...

It was already dark, when a young, very pretty woman came along in order to jump into the sea.
"Are you Elah?" I asked, for the night before, when I called Gil's phone,
in order to get the info about the location of The Walk the next day,
a fresh (not exhausted) voice answered :
"You don't know me, I am Elah, but I can give you the information."
Now - exhilarated by this coincidence - that I suddenly met her in person and knew who she was -
I decided to go into the water after all.
"No way, that I'm at the sea and not going in!" I had bragged to Lior earlier.
My sore throat warned me ~~~ but I didn't listen to it...
In hindsight - the sickness which followed,
was part of the staging which helped me to part from the Walk...

While struggling with the outgoing waves in order to reach a spot,
where we could - not swim - but swirl the way I so far never saw anyone else swirl,
I asked her: "When exactly were you born?"
"On October 12, 1987!"
"I guessed it!" I said,
" for "my" Elah, my eldest granddaughter, was born in 1987 too, 2 months before you!"
After that I never met Elah again, nor do I have a photo of her - she did not walk with us...

That night I did not sleep in camp either.
Sari and Shlomi came from Hod-Hasharon, though quite late in the evening.
I accepted Sari's invitation as a chance to deeper connect with her.
Sick Suz (Holland) had been with her for some nights already,
and both of us slept on the sofas in the living room.
Much, much info came to me from Sari,
which I had been lacking all the time.

20009-04-30- 2013_02_20 DELICIOUS      DELETION Once upon a time, when I immigrated to Israel with my 16 months old son, - after 3 months in a rented flat in Haifa, so as to await the ship with all my stuff- my husband bought a house in Ramat-Hadar, close to Ramatayim. A few years later Ramatayim was changed into "Hod-Hasharon", and Ramat-Hadar became a part of Hod-Hasharon. It's where my children went to school through all my married life, it's where my own life was centered. Sari's many-storey house, from which I took this picture, did not exist at that time... 1964-1980

 

Since on the following day, Thursday , April 30, 2009, 3 events were scheduled,
Sari put the care for Suz and for her own sick daughter in the hands of Shlomi
and drove with me to The Walk's campsite in Tel-Aviv.
The first event - the filming of the Israeli TV Channel 2 - was postponed.
The video is now linked to the site of The Walk.
[Aug.21,2013 I discovered an amateur video about our walking in the desert March 2009]
{and the trailer to a professional one, which shows some scenes of the pictures on this page}
(see the professional video of Rotem Malenko, one of my partners during walking)

The second event was,
that a group of soldiers were supposed to join us for walking and cleaning up the beaches.
An argument , mainly between Thorsten (Germany), who claimed,
that the Walk-about-Love was a "Peace-Walk",
and it would hurt our image, if soldiers in uniforms were seen on it,
was settled nicely:
The soldiers would take part, but not in uniform.

At the southern outskirts of Herzliya we rested. Hoping the hotel management would permit us to use the toilets. It was not permitted. I sat next to the soldiers on this bench and inquired, from what unit they came. But now I can't remember. I also asked, what made them join us. The reason was, as I had guessed, not for "ideological" reasons.... since between the Day of Independence and the weekend, there was just one day, it wasn't worthwhile to go back to the army, nor did they want to waste the day away at home....

 

Sari had left earlier,
and since I felt weaker and weaker,
I wanted to walk silently,
focusing on the immense difficulty of wading through the sand.
An angel came along to sidetrack me from the tiring effort and the physical pain,
by insisting on talking with me.
It was Adam, Stephanie's young brother (USA), walking with us only for a day.
I'll tell about this later. I regret that I didn't make a photo of him,
especially because he must have played a role in the "peace-process",
which Stephanie initiated with me during my "Parting-Walk" on May 11.
We walked-talked together until the third event took place - in the "Marina"

20009-04-30- 2013_02_20 DELICIOUS      DELETION

 

 

Continuation of the photos of the "Walk about Love" in the Godchannel file "Energy Running Discussion"