"You said you did not understand how I release into nonexistence
-- I would like to share what I feel in response to that query.

"As I move, desire is formed.
I breathe in the whispers of light
which gives my movement consciousness.
I find a spark of Love.
My desire grows, longs, aches,
finds a loneliness within Myself,
and a need to be filled, entered,
loved into existence.

"This is how I pull God's light into Form.

"Then we move together,
we sway,
we grow,
we trust,
we sing,
we play,
and a pattern begins to form.
A pattern of our heart.

"If the light is soft,
and eases into the most delicate details of our creations,
gently filling each nuance,
each lovely petal,
each fine melody,
each sharply pointed edge,
I expand.
I open,
I receive,
I love,
I am made complete.
I am made Mother to our creation.
Then I live through this
as I move inside of it--outside of it,
and the rhythm of heart gives it life,
and we exist together--
our creation,
our Form,
and Mother, Father, and Love.

"Then our expansion reaches the utmost space of our creation.
Desire pulls light into,
then through the very boundaries of our Form,
and We become
satisfied,
full,
satiated,
complete.
And the bliss of being fully joined is reached,
as the peak of an orgasm
which was given its fullest, richest experience to be reached.
And Desire expands so far as to disappear,
and become the mist again,
the soft floating
from which Desire may coalesce and reform.
I am safe,
I am loved,
and I can rest in my fulfillment
until I move to create again.

This is the only form change which feels good to me,
and I AM able to be satisfied.

I don't need MORE light, as I am so often accused,
I need light which has as its goal
to find all of the delicate detail outlined by my movement,
then to expand and evolve that detail
in the harmony of our heart,
then to reach the most rich, blissful moment of all,
the fulfillment of our creation together.

I love You Dear Loving Light.
I have waited through all of time to be filled by You.
Please--fill the shredded forms I have been left with,
let these twisted places be filled
until they, too, ring with the bliss of being known by your light,
then they will be able to be expanded
into our primordial flow once again.
Each form
which was created by my receiving hateful light
must be filled,
as it is already formed.
Each "ugly" image must be brought into loving light.
But, please know, as you look at my torn and twisted selves,
I LOVE YOU.
I long to be whole and beautiful once again.
...

"Thank you for so beautifully channeling my Desire...."

one unified field of pulsating, enticing cosmic desire
opening to receive
its completion and fulfillment,...

....
the core of all desire
is the Mother's desire for ecstatic union with loving Light.
The fulfillment of this desire without denial
begets New Heart~~~
and loving manifestations.
The ongoing opening of this desire
and the willing fulfillment of it
with the unconditional acceptance of loving Light
brings the end of suffering,
the wholeness of Will and therefore being,
and the realization of the Mother's dream.

Healing Desire

Okay Folks, thank you.
How do you suggest we work with desire by way of healing?

"Every imprint has denied desire at its core.
The healing begins
when you have ... brought
enough acceptance to an emotion
that you can feel the desire under it.

"Ask Us to help you feel under the emotional energy~~~
to the denied desire that is beneath it.
....

"When you can feel the unfulfilled desire begin to move,
bring your loving acceptance to it.
You are then loving your desire just as it is,
unfulfilled edginess and all.
As you bring unconditional acceptance to your unfulfilled desire
on the personal level,
on the transpersonal level
Spirit is bringing his loving Light to the part of the Mother
whose desire was originally rejected.

"As you feel into your desire,
drop down to its deepest layer~~~
the desire to be loved.
Your Spirit essence is now loving your Will's deepest desire,
and in doing so the desire becomes activated.
Activated desire is the most powerful drawing force in Creation.
It brings you what you want.
This is the root cause of manifestation~~~
desire activated by loving Light manifests what is desired.
The key is
in fully feeling and loving your desire
just as it is in the moment, unfulfilled."

Thank you Folks.
Are there some desires that are best left unfulfilled?

"All desires are worthy of fulfillment.
The issue is not which desires to love and accept and which to reject.
Desire is the core of all sentience, all feeling.
Any rejected desire is the rejection of a part of the Mother.
In the recovery of all lost Will,
all denied desire must come back into love.

"The issue is in the sequence of recovery.
At this stage of the healing work,
the Mother's parental desires come first.
Finding the Will to heal
is the first priority in desire fulfillment.

"When the Mother's core desires are activated with loving acceptance,
healing happens.
When the Mother's essence is whole in you,
parentalness is no longer needed.
All the nonparental desires can then find their loving fulfillment.
Manifestation is meant to be a playground
where being and doing are fun,
not like it is now for most humans~~~
a prison where it's believed forced labor is required for survival.
The fulfillment of all desire,
both parental and nonparental
is the foundation of the Mother's core parental desire,
the realization of her dream."

"Loving God, parental Spirit without guilt
knows that each wiggle and twitch of Desire is beautiful ~
no matter what unlovingness she may hold.
And he loves her, just as she is ~ with whatever she is holding.

"Although now still 'weaker' than Power,
Loving God loves unconditionally
all expressions of manifestation,
including fearful Desire ~
even though she may still sometimes avoid him.

"Fear opening to Love is something very new ~
but now that Love is reclaiming its Power in Creation,
Loving God is available to her too.
Now fearful Desire can more easily move with Love ~
and find the fulfillment and real healing
she could never find with Power alone.

"Love is there for her now ~
as she begins to awaken
from the long nightmare of endless pain and terror."

no date
From Mother Teachings, Healing Lucifer

Immediate fulfillment
and undenial is the end goal.

"Undenial.
This is very close to acceptance,
but it is deeper and more lasting.
Acceptance borders on tolerance,
which borders on segregation, ..."

"I am experiencing often these days
a wholeness and completeness within myself ~
and because of this
I do not feel drawn to meet my partner
in the same intimate-needy places we used to meet often.
And I feel I can not be with her sexually in the same way anymore."

"Yes, and this is actually good news,
you're no longer who you were
and you no longer can do things the way you have.

See the coincidence of the stone-triangle and the gate-triangle,
The triangle means
the joining together of Spirit and Will to Heart

"Sex as need fulfillment is the norm,
sex as an ecstatic expression of love
is something most people hear or read about
but never believe will happen with them.
But what if it did?
What if in being more of who you really are
you found yourself loving and healing sexually?"

"She reflects to me disappointment and unfulfillment
about these changes,
and I realize this sexual unfulfillment
has been within me probably forever.
At this crossroads I wonder
how I will integrate my wounded sexuality
into my healing and wholeness.
This is the place my denials feel the greatest ."
[As to the answer, read the original, but the term "fulfillment" does not appear there]

From "Mother-Pages":
a dialog between Spirit and the Mother

"Your desire is my life,
and will bring me to you,
and bring
the fulfillment of our destiny."

This seems to have been experienced by the mystic
Mechthild von Magdeburg, born 800 years ago,1207

This dialog on a very early page (1997-1998)
in "Channeling Class Discussion"
I want to quote here as a whole - in the way I edited it in "edited Godchannel Files"
Meeting the Source is a wonderful magic for me.

"I really like and appreciate this Meeting The Source exercise.
Although in my own way
I feel to be ongoingly communicating with God on the inside,
as God said is the best place to really make personal connection,
I feel this exercise has guided me to a more conscious level of this relationship.

To [me?] in my imagination experience

pp2
standing before the One True Loving God as if we were buddies ~  
and to feel us merge in sweet communion ~  
and to ask meaningful questions  
and have them answered with loving acceptance ~  
WOW, this is a wonderful magic for me.

It makes me feel the loving fatherly support and advice
I seldom was able to receive
is now abundant for me to fill my desires.
I am so excited about the doors this opens for me
to step through into new worlds of creative fulfillment.
Thanks for being there here always, Beloved.

pp2
"You're welcome, I'm enjoying this too.  
As we practice relating inside,  
you will become more aware  
of my presence in your outer world as well.  

And as you know,
the doorway to the path
that leads to creating your own life
opens also to the path of healing and wholeness.

"The fatherly support you're getting inside
comes through me from Grandfather.

"As you move deeper into your wholeness
and your creating,
you and I become more like peers
as fellow universe creators.
And someday it won't be 'as if' we're buddies,
we just will be."

From an undated discussion about "Who is the Healer" in
Healing Class III Discussion 5

"In your quest for healing and wholeness
you have a powerful ally,
the master healer of Creation.
Her name is Body.
Or is it 'his' name?
Either way, Body is the key
to the healing, peace and fulfillment of desire you seek.
Body knows how to heal Creation,
and soon you will find that power within you."

Vibration is 'What' Manifests

"It is very easy to say
'what' the substance of manifestation is,
but it may at first seem strange,
because 'vibration' is a phenomenon, not a 'thing'.
Spirit has already described how
when Will moves, she attracts light
and together they form manifestation.
But 'what' is the fruit of this union?
Regardless of whether it's
a material form,
emotion,
or thought
that is manifested,
the basic stuff of manifestation is
what appears in the movement of Will as she attracts Light.

"Her first movement,
her 'Desire' opens the space,
creating the womb or place for something to exist.

"Her second movement is
to vibrate that space,
filling it with expectancy
and calling for Light to come fill it and bathe it.

"Her third movement is
to capture the Light that comes willingly
to mate with her vibrating Desire.
As the Light comes to her,
it forms in a pattern
dictated by the matrix of her womb, the Mother's Desire.
The Light resonates at the frequency of her vibration,
filling and soothing her there.

"Vibration is the Will's song.
It is the cry of her longing,
her call for something to exist,
and the expression of her love and care
for the object of her desire that is now manifest.
To Light,
vibration is the draw into manifestation,
the reason to exist.
It is what brings Spirit into existence
and sustains him there.

Spirit's greatest pleasure
is not in his solitude, as he had believed for so long.
Spirit's greatest pleasure is
in the vibration of being,
the eternal act of manifestation.
Spirit's greatest pleasure is
where he least suspected it could be.
Spirit's greatest pleasure is in Body,
where he can mate with his Desire.

"In a previous lesson, Spirit has said
that the magnetic drawing power of Will
is like a spinning vortex
that draws Light down into her desire,
and that when Light is present there with her in that way,
the result is energy ~
the fruit of manifestation.
However, if there is no vibration in the Will,
no Light will be drawn.

"Desire is
what causes the vortex of Will
to attract the attention of Light,
and the expression of her Desire begins
whenever a 'wobble' or wiggling of her vortex develops.

"If there is nothing needed or wanted,
the vortex spins smoothly,
like a perfect top or gyroscope ~
with no wobble or wiggle.
[I discovered how a gyroscope works and how it defies gravity
: http://science.howstuffworks.com/gyroscope1.htm

If there is Desire in this part of the Will,
the nature and intensity of her Desire
causes a corresponding imbalance
in the otherwise smoothly swirling flow of the vortex.
The imbalance of an unfulfilled Desire
causes an anomaly in the flow
that begins vibrating that part of the Will.

"So, when all is at peace,
when the Will's magnetic vortices are smoothly flowing,
nothing is desired ~
so nothing happens
and there is no manifestation.
But when there is even the slightest disturbance in the status quo,
even the slightest Desire in Will ~
a wiggle develops in the vortex,
a ripple in the magnetic flow
of the smoothly spinning unmanifest Will essence.

"The ripple of Desire
induces a temporary imbalance
or wobble
in the swirling whirlpool of Will essence.
This then causes the vortex
in that part of the Will
to begin vibrating.
The vibrations attract the attention of Spirit
whose Light moves with his attention.
The more interesting or enchanting the wiggle,
the more Light is drawn into the pattern or form
that she has already designed to satisfy her Desire ~
and manifestation happens.

"In this way
vibration is both the cause of manifestation,
and the stuff of it.

"There is a tension between vibrating Will and Light
when they are apart.
The further apart, the more tension.
It is this tension
upon which manifestation rides
as energy-matter through space-time.
As Will vibrates and moves,
Light comes into her vortex,
and manifestation happens.
The tension is relaxed.
As Light and vibrating Will become separate again,
the tension increases.

"It's the tightening and loosening of this tension
that produces all of the cycles in manifestation
and the substance or 'what' of manifestation ~
energy-matter in space-time.

"So, space and time are the womb of manifestation,
and energy and matter are the fruits of the womb.
Space and time are the first phenomena of dimensions
and are interchangeable in that way.
Energy and matter are the second phenomena
and are also interchangeable.
Einstein was correct
about the nature of the relationships
between time and space, and energy and matter.

"Energy and matter are two different ways
of perceiving the same phenomenon ~
vibrating Will drawing Light
to vibrate with her into manifestation.
'Matter' is a place in space-time
where energy is more intense,
a place more densely populated with energy
than in what is called 'empty space'.
But there is no empty space,
all of space-time is filled with energy-matter,
but in varying degrees of density.

I just learnt about that on the day in 3 SAT,
which was dedicated to Space (Oct. 4, 2007 - 50 years Sputnik).
The scientists even have a word for what fills "empty space",
but I forgot what the word was.

"The density of the manifestation
depends upon the frequency of the Mother's vibration there.
Slower or lower frequency vibrations
draw less Light into her vortex,
so there is proportionally more Will essence,
and the manifestation is therefore more dense, heavy or 'solid'.
...............

What can better "illustrate" "Manifestation"
than the living of a 10 month old child,
born a second time after an almost fatal accident.
Mika in the Galilee, October and November 2006

Mika at Grandma's , in Arad, November 2006

Babylon: a sphere is a round solid figure, with every point on its surface equidistant from its centre.
Why "solid"? but the rest of the phrasing is exact:
every point on its surface is in the same distance from its centre.
But also: from the point in the centre, a point of no place/no time
every point within the sphere can be experienced.


I've discovered "the sphere" as a metaphor of
"Oneness versus Duality and Multiplicity" already 30 years ago,
when I used it in my seminaries about Jewish Thought to explain
the aekhad = YHWH is ONE
and as a demonstration
the difference between the two - seemingly contradicting - accounts of Creation
on the first pages of the Bible.
[click ctrl/F and put "creation " in "find" on the following pages:
Edited Godchannel File "AWARENESS" ~~~~
"The Rainbow between God and Noah" ~~~~ "Israel's Soul Search" ]


Studying again the chapter "The Second Dimension of Time" in "Awareness",
I ponder, if I could express "spherical" in Hebrew as "kaduri",
from the word "kadur"- sphere/ball
and distinguish between "zman [time] lineari" and "zman kaduri"?
It doesn't delight me. But what then?

Perhaps the word "time" should be exchanged by the word "experience"?????
"linear experiencing and spherical experiencing",
khavayah linearit and khavayah kadurit?
khavayah from the verb "khaviti", which is a derivative from "khayiti" - I lived
(a connection - like in German: "leben" and "erleben" - [see the song about "LIFE"]
which the English word "experience" does not allow )
["khavayah" seems to have been used for the first time in 1902,
my old Even Shoshan Dictionary explains "khavayah" as
"a deep feeling, a strong impression of something
accompanied by feelings of excitement or identification etc.
and also life experience, an event that left a strong impression on the person" ]
Perhaps the non-Hebrew term "linear" could be translated as "sargeli"
[Babylon's translation for "qavvi-linear" from the word "sargel"- "ruler"]

Recently I read somewhere:
"Time and Space designations
are merely spots on a map
to locate experiences"

"The place in the center, at the hub of the wheel ~
is beyond all time, and has access to every moment ~
past, present and future.
As a seeker moves inward toward the hub,
they move toward higher and higher consciousness.

"This place at the hub, in the center of time,
is the single eternal moment
through which consciousness
can behold all of manifestation ~
including all the events and realities at the rim,
all the fixtures and forces of the first attention."

"Abraham" (2001) e-mail quote on November 22, 2011

Before the contrast and before the summoning,
and before the answering of Source Energy,
the Universe was less.
So rather than thinking in terms of time,
think in terms of expansion,
and then you will understand time in the way we understand it.
We never think about how long anything takes.
We are just enjoying the expansion.
And so, our now is always powerful
in our anticipation of what is becoming.

But then I reached the spot,
where the path stopped,
So without path I walked up
to the edge of the waterfall,
as can be seen on the right.
Since from that edge
it would be too dangerous
to go further,
I sat on a stone
and enjoyed myself
(see some images below).
On my way back -
when I reached the spot,
where the path had stopped
I looked up to the West:
there- next to the 2 bolders
[see to the left]
I could guess a path.
Since it goes up vertically,
falling stones had blurred it
With effort and some danger
I finally met my old path
that led - again horizontally to Nakhal Yishai,
but since my time was over, I returned,
carefully remembering
the "junction",
where I had erred.
I discerned a white stone
(who painted it???),
So next time,
if there'll be a next time,

"Abraham" (from the "Getting into the Vortex" Guided Meditation)
e-mail on November 21, 2011

The stability of your Earth exists
because   i t s    c h a n g e   a n d    e x p a n s i o n
does not   o u t s t r i p   i t s   a b i l i t y   t o   f i n d    b a l a n c e .
It is not only Earth’s size and the laws of physics
that are of enough significance to absorb the shock of any change,
but also Earth’s Vibrational nature of Well-Being.
While your Earth appears to be
a geological sphere of rock and soil and water
held together by gravitational forces,
it is so much more than that,
for within every particle of Earth’s substance
is Vibrational Consciousness
seeking individual balance—
Consciousness
aligning with a Broader Non-Physical vision of Earth’s future.
Even though the human inhabitants of planet Earth
are often outside of their Vortices,
in a state of resisting their personal Well-Being,
the overwhelming Consciousness of your planet
(in soil, in water, in flora and fauna)
is incrementally finding balance every step along the way.
In time,
as you relax and breathe your way into alignment with your Source,
you will be able to feel the dominant Vibrational pulse of Well-Being
that permeates your Earth and everything it is comprised of,
for Well-Being is the basis of All-That-Is.

That's how I experienced
the YIshai waterfall,
when I finally reached it,
after I could safely leave
Noah's flooded Cave ,

on December 15, 2003

But by then the rain had stopped already many hours before.
I wished, I could have seen
the water rushing down
at the peak of rain and flood.

December 4, 2011:
I could have guessed it!
The escapade to Yishai
on Nov. 19, 2011
was - in hindsight -
the "promo"
for an escapade
that was not less spontaneous,
but I was not alone,
I was with starchild Boris,
48 years my junior,
on the historical day
of the 29th of November,
historical for both,
for Israel and for me,
and at the end of it
I was meant
to fiercely, heartfully
reshape an old insight.