Introduction to Body Mind Centering
http://www.bodymindcentering.com/About/

by Bonnie Bainbridge Cohen
Material in this article is adapted from the book
, Sensing, Feeling & Action

Body-Mind Centering® is an ongoing, experiential journey
into the alive and changing territory of the body.
The explorer is the mind
—our thoughts, feelings, energy, soul, and spirit.
Through this journey we are led to an understanding
of how the mind is expressed through the body in movement.
There is something in nature that forms patterns.
We, as part of nature, also form patterns.

The mind is like the wind
and the body is like the sand;
if you want to know how the wind is blowing,
you can look at the sand.

Our body moves as our mind moves.
The qualities of any movement are a manifestation of
how mind is expressing through the body at that moment.
Changes in movement qualities indicate
that the mind has shifted focus in the body.
Conversely,
when we direct the mind or attention
to different areas of the body
and initiate movement from those areas,
we change the quality of our movement.
So we find
that movement can be a way
to observe the expressions of the mind through the body,
and it can also be a way
to affect changes in the body-mind relationship.

To make this teaching even more applicable for me,
some quotes from
Konzentrative Bewegungstherapie
[which I once learnt from Mirjam Goldberg in Tel-Aviv]
may serve as point of reference

Im bewussten Erleben des eigenen Körpers
werden Erinnerungen und Gefühle reaktiviert,
die im Laufe des Lebens ihren Ausdruck
in Körperhaltung, Bewegung und Verhalten gefunden haben;
das Aufeinanderfolgen von
w a h r n e h m e n ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ f ü h l e n ,
de n k e n ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ h a n d e l n
und " S i c h - M i t t e i l e n s "

Im - Liegen, Sitzen, Stehen, Gehen -
kann ich die eigenen Bewegungs- und Wahrnehmungsmuster
und deren emotionale Bedeutung erkennen
…
Die differenzierte Wahrnehmung ermöglicht
ein Vergleichen meines Koerper Verhaltens
zu verschiedenen Zeiten,
in verschiedenen Situationen,

Ich gehe und nehme wahr wie sich das Gehen anfühlt.
Es könnte schwerfällig, leichtfüßig,
schleppend oder federnd sein.

Während des Gehens schaue ich mich im Raum um
und schaue auch nach draussen,
um wahrzunehmen,
was bei dem Blick aus dem Fenster ins Auge fällt.
Bin ich mehr im Raum oder mehr draussen?
Welches Gefuehl herrscht vor?

Nun lenke ich direkter zu den körperlichen Empfindungen.
Zum Atem,
zu den Fußsohle,
den Fersen,
den Fußgelenken.
Welche Informationen erhalten [enthalten?] die Kniegelenke,
die Hüftgelenke,
die Wirbelsäule usw.?
Ich spuere nach, ich vergleiche, ich halte inne.
auf der leiblichen Ebene Trennung und Neubeginns
[bei jedem Atemzug und jedem Schritt]

The finer this alignment,
the more efficiently we can function to accomplish our intentions.
However, alignment itself is not a goal.
It is a continual dialogue between awareness and action—
becoming aware of the relationships
that exist throughout our body/mind
and acting from that awareness.
This alignment creates a state of knowing.
There are many ways of working toward this alignment
such as through touch,
through movement,
visualization,
somatization*,
voice,
art, music, meditation, through verbal dialogue,
through open awareness, or by any other means.

* I use this word "somatization" to engage the kinesthetic experience directly,
in contrast to "visualization"
which utilizes visual imagery to evoke a kinesthetic experience.
Through somatization the body cells are informing the brain
as well as the brain informing the cells.
I derived this word "somatization" from Thomas Hanna's use of the word
"soma"
to designate the experienced body
in contrast to the objectified body.
When the body is experienced from within,
the body and mind are not separated but are experienced as a whole.
While Tom spoke of this during the >60's,
his first book utilizing the term "soma" was
Bodies in Revolt
which came out in 1970.
Tom coined the term "somatics" in 1976
when he founded and named the Somatics Magazine
- Journal of the Bodily Arts and Sciences.
Somatics also names a field of study
—the study of the body through the personal experiential perspective.
Body-Mind Centering® is a small part of this burgeoning field.

….
Though we use the Western anatomical terminology and mapping,
we are adding meaning to these terms through our experience.
When we are talking about blood or lymph or any physical substances,
we are not only talking about substances
but about states of consciousness and processes inherent within them.
We are relating our experiences to these maps, but the maps are not the experience.

The study of Body-Mind-Centering includes both
the cognitive and experiential learning of the body systems -
skeleton,
ligaments,
muscles,
fascia,
fat,
skin,
organs,
endocrine glands,
nerves,
fluids;
breathing
and vocalization;
the senses and the dynamics of perception;
developmental movement
(both human infant development
and the evolutionary progression through the animal kingdom);
and psychophysical integration.
….
The following are brief descriptions of tissue territories
we have thus far mapped
in twenty-five years of study at The School for Body-Mind Centering®

Das Geschenk der Vereinigung

Maitreya durch Julia Schuricht am 25.5.2011

Dies ist ein langes Channeling- weswegen ich es in zwei Teilen versende..

In diesem erste Teil geht es allgemein um die Situation auf der Welt
und „wo“ wir uns befinden. Im zweiten Teil geht es um die verschiedenen Aufgaben, in die man nun wächst und die Entdeckung der „neuen Welt“, Maitreya wählt in dieser Durchgabe öfter das „wir“ an Stelle des „ich“- hierzu wird er im 2. Teil etwas sagen.

Teil 1 von 2 Es beginnt nun, was einige von euch als wahre Befreiung empfinden werden-und andere als wahre Bedrohung dessen, was für sie Leben ausmachte. Es ist tatsächlich die Befreiung von unmessbarer Schwere und Dichte, die auf euch lag für so lange Zeit.

Die Bewegungen der Erde, die Bewegungen der Dimensionen, der Sonne, der Reiche, eurer Zellen, alles beginnt nun ineinander zu fließen und dies vermittelt euch an manchen Tagen das Gefühl, nicht zu wissen, wo oben und wo unten ist.

Wisst, dass die Realität der 5. Dimension für sehr viele von euch Wirklichkeit ist und wisst, dass das bedeutet, dass die meisten der euch bekannten Wirkmechanismen sich stark verändert haben.

Die Befreiung von „Negativität“ und Dichte

Der Prozess des Aufstiegs ist nicht linear und ist dies nie gewesen. Wenn ein Wesen aufsteigt, so geschieht dies meist in Stufen und Etappen-so dass es die Gelegenheit hat, all das, was in der höheren Dimensionalität des Seins nicht existent ist und was den Gesetzmäßigkeiten der Dualität unterliegt, auszuagieren- in einer kurzen Abfolge von Leben oder Erfahrungssequenzen.

Ihr wisst all dies. Und wisst, dass dies der Grund war für all die körperlichen Symptome, die ihr in den letzten Monaten und Jahren an euch feststellen konntet- die emotionalen und energetischen Schwankungen- und dennoch ist es so, dass innerhalb des Wesens, das die Menschheit bildet, einzelne Seelen sind, die hierher kamen, um das Licht, das es hierfür braucht-die Liebe, die hierfür entfacht werden muss, zur Verfügung zu stellen.

Sie sind Teil der Menschheit.

Auch dies ist nicht neu für euch.

Wenn ihr eine Wasserstrudel in eurer Natur beobachtet, so wisst ihr, dass ein Blatt, das am äußersten Rand des Strudels beginnt, sich dem Zentrum zu nähern, sich ersteinmal relativ langsam darauf zubewegt- doch ab einer gewissen Nähe zum Zentrum wird der Sog so stark, dass die Geschwindigkeit zunimmt und das Wasser am Blatt zu reißen und zu zerren scheint –Dies ist der Punkt, an dem der Teil der Menschheit, der nun beginnt zu erwachen, sich befindet. . Der Sog ist so stark, dass die Beschleunigung des Vorgangs, den ihr Aufstieg nennt, dazu führt, dass sich die Ereignisse zu überschlagen scheinen.

Wisst, dass es keine „Negativität“ in der 5. Dimension gibt. Es gibt lediglich Ladungen und Wechselbeziehungen zwischen diesen Ladungen und Kräften, die etwas anders geartet sind, als euch dies vertraut ist.

Das bedeutet-es existiert keine Wertung der Kräfte, die herrschen. Doch existiert diese Wertung noch in den Feldern eures Bewusstseins- und in den Feldern des Bewusstseins der Zeiten, die ihr durchwandert habt..

Die Transformation dieser Negativität vollzog sich auf Ebene der 3. Dichte durch die Integration in eure Herzen. Durch die Aufhebung der Dualität der Muster in euren Herzen. Ihr nahmt sie ins Herz und erkanntet dort ihre göttliche Natur. Durch die Liebe, die sich in euren Herzen vergrößerte und

die euch erkennen ließ, dass Negativität und alles, was damit verbunden ist, Illusion ist. Doch ist noch genügend davon vorhanden und sie wird weiter „produziert“.

Was geschieht also damit in der 5. Dichte?Hört sie einfach auf, zu sein?

Auch in der 5. Dichte gibt es ein Zeitgerüst. Es ist loser, als das Zeitgerüst der 3. Dichte und ihr könnt euch anders darauf bewegen- doch gibt es Zeit als erlebbare Größe.

Und somit auch immer noch so etwas wie Vergangenheit , Gegenwart und Zukunft. Die „Zukunft“ der 5. Dimension liegt in den höheren Dimensionen der 6. und 7. Dimension, in die ihr gleichzeitig aufsteigt, da sie zur Erfahrungsebene der 5. Dimension gehören.

In den unteren Ebenen der 5. Dimension gibt es so etwas wie Strudel, die magnetisch wirken auf bestimmte Ladungen. Dies könnt ihr sehen, wie ein Filtersystem, das bestimmte Energien anzieht und „absaugt“ und in die darunter liegenden Dimensionen transportiert.

Der Aufstieg vollzog sich so, dass zunächst eure Energiekörper „aufsteigen“- stellt euch dies vor, wie Schablonen eures Seins, die bereits vor euch dort waren und in die ihr- eure Körper nun einfügt. (Mit Euch meint Maitreya hier den Körper- den materiellsten Teil und die Bewusstseinsanteile, die hiermit am engsten verbunden sind)

Das, was an dichter Schwingung jedoch in euren Zellen und in dem , was ihr Körperbewusstsein nennt, an dichte noch gespeichert ist, wird nun, da ihr die Ebene der 5. Dimension erreicht habt, angezogen von den „Filtersystemen“. Der Effekt, den dies hat ist der, dass ihr das Gefühl habt, dass es plötzlich eine Schwemme der „Negativität“ um euch herum gibt. Oder ihr von einer Krankheit in die nächste geht.

Wir sprechen nicht von euren Mustern oder Münzen-sie dienen als Anker für Energiesysteme, die sich über die Äonen als Realität manifestiert haben, aber sie sind nicht die Dichte selbst. Diese Realität löst sich nun auf. Im wahrsten Sinne des Wortes.

Und so nehmt Eure restlichen Muster ins Herz und erlaubt der Dichte, die sich um dieses Muster herum angesammelt hat, "abgesaugt" zu werden. ( Dies können Gedanken und Emotionen sein, aber auch "Krankheiten usw)

Je nachdem, wie viel Dichte ihr bereits transformiert habt, ist dies für euch stark körperlich spürbar- denn dies betrifft vor allem eure Körperlichkeit.

Doch es betrifft ebenso Glaubenskonstrukte, denen ihr als Menschheit noch unterliegt.

Und all ihre Erscheinungsformen in der euch bisher bekannten materiellen Welt. Seien sie rein energetischer oder manifester Natur. Es gibt keinen Unterschied zwischen Materie und Bewusstsein. Zwischen Energie und Form.

Der Unterschied liegt nur in eurer Wahrnehmung.

Seht, dass diese Filter in zwei Richtungen arbeiten- nach „unten“ und nach „oben“ - je nachdem von welcher Seite des Schleiers man darauf blickt. (Dies ist nur ein Bild-es gibt kein oben und unten innerhalb der Dimensionalität- doch dient dies dem besseren Verständnis)

So transformiert sich nun die Dichte für diejenigen Anteile, die noch innerhalb des Bewusstseins der 3. Dichte leben, damit sie den Schleier , der die Dimensionen „trennt“ passieren können- sie erleben die Szenarien, die sich nun vor eure Augen entfalten anders, als jene, die in der 5. Bewusstseinsdichte leben.- Aber es ist vornehmlich die Qualität des Erlebens, die hier einen Unterschied macht. Auf Ebene der 5. Dichte seid ihr euch eher gewahr, dass das , was ihr meint wahrzunehmen, Illusion ist und könnt euch sehr leicht in eurem Herz zentrieren und beobachten, wie sich das, was ihr erlebt vor euren Augen wandelt.

DEVELOPMENTAL MOVEMENT

Underlying the forms of our expression through the body systems
is the process of our movement development,
both ontogenetic (human infant development)
and phylogenetic (the evolutionary progression through the animal kingdom).
Development is not a linear process
but occurs in overlapping waves
with each stage containing elements of all the others.
Because each previous stage underlies and supports each successive stage,
any skipping, interrupting, or failing to complete a stage of development
can lead to alignment / movement problems,
imbalances withing the body systems,
and problems in perception,
sequencing,
organization,
memory,
and creativity.
The developmental material includes
primitive reflexes,
righting reactions,
equilibrium responses,
and the Basic Neurological Patterns.
These are the automatic movement responses
that underlie our volitional movement.

Das, was ihr als Körperbewusstsein bezeichnet und das lange Zeit geprägt war auf Kampf und Eliminierung von Eindringlingen ist am stärksten betroffen von diesem Sog und so mag es euch erscheinen, als würden plötzlich von überall her Seuchen ausbrechen. Dies ist ein vorübergehendes Phänomen der Reinigung. Das ihr auch in der euch umgebenden Natur beobachten könnt. Plagen von „Ungeziefer“ und ähnliche „Anomalien“, die einige unter euch dazu bewegen, die Apokalypse erneut auszurufen- dabei ist es alles andere, als das.

Die Menschheit steigt in „Wellen“ auf- Bewusstseinsebene für Bewusstseinsebene- wie bei den Stockwerken eines Hauses- und dies ist abhängig von Jedem einzelnen von euch- in welchem Stockwerk er sich befindet. Dies ist eure Wahl. Wie wir euch dies immer sagten und erneut sagen- es gibt nichts außer euer Herz.

Verankert euch in eurem Herzen und vergrößert es, lasst Liebe alles sein, was ihr seid und ihr werdet euch immer sicher und behütet fühlen. Denn ihr seid es. Doch ist das Bewusstsein in Aufruhr.

Denn der Sog nach „oben“ in Richtung der 5. Dimension ist stark- und der Sog nach „unten“- bei denjenigen, die sich bereits in der 5. Dimension befinden- und das sind mehr, viel mehr, als ihr denkt, der auf die dichten Anteile eurer Bewusstseinsfelder wirkt, ist stark.

Und so unterliegen auch die Bewusstseinsfelder des Planeten auf dem ihr lebt, diesem Sog. Sie sind untrennbar mit den Feldern eures Kollektivs verbunden.

Wie lange ihr euch in der Nähe dieser Wirbel aufhaltet, hängt davon ab, wie sehr ihr Widerstand leistet- und auch, wie sehr ihr der aufsteigenden Dichte aus den Tiefen eures Zellbewusstseins folgt.

Was bedeutet dies?
Es bedeutet, dass ihr euch der letzen Reste von Illusion gewahr werdet, die ihr in euch tragt.

Dass ihr sie verabschiedet.

Dass ihr nun endgültig eure Feindbilder begrabt, die ihr bis auf Zellebene tragt.

Versteht, dass ein Dämon , ein „dunkler Kabale“, ein tödlicher Virus, eine euch auf welche Art auch immer übelwollende Wesenheit- Ausdruck ein und desselben Gedankenkonstruktes ist- oder auch Glaubensmusters, das ihr als Kollektiv aufrechterhalten habt und dem ihr somit die Macht der Manifestation gabt. Hört auf, ihm Energie zuzuführen, da dies nur dazu führt, dass es stärker „schmerzt“, wenn sich dieses uralte Muster der Trennung verabschiedet.

Verabschiedet diese Bilder, auch wenn sie sich euch– noch- einmal- in all ihrer „Gewaltigkeit“ zeigen wollen. Zieht diese Idee, dass es einen Feind im außen gibt, dass es etwas gibt, das euch schaden könnte- mit dem ihr nicht eins seid- oder das kein Teil der Göttlichkeit ist- tief in euer Zentrum und übergebt sie der Quelle allen Lebens- auf dass sie geheilt werden kann- und sich der Frieden in euren Herzen ausbreitet.

Erlaubt die schnelle Transformation dieser Abbilder der Dualität der 3. Dichte.

Auch wenn es zwicken mag- auch wenn eure Knochen schmerzen, die die größre Ansammlung von „Dichte“ in eurem Körper aufweisen- auch wenn ihr plötzlich nie

Development of the Basic Neurological patterns
establishes
our basic movement patterns
and corresponding perceptual relationships
-- including spatial orientation
and body image,
and the basic elements of learning and communication.
In spinal movements, for example,
we develop rolling,
establish the horizontal plane,
differentiate the front of our bodies from the back of our bodies,
and gain the ability to attend.

In homologous movements
we develop symmetrical movements
such as push-ups and jumping with both feet,
establish the sagittal plane,
differentiate the upper part of our bodies from the lower part of our bodies,
and gain the ability to act.

In homolateral movements
we develop asymmetrical movements
such as crawling on our bellies
and hopping on one leg,
establish the vertical plane,
differentiate the right side of our bodies from the left,
and gain the ability to intend.

In contralateral movements
we develop diagonal movements
such as creeping on our hands and forelegs,
walking, running, and leaping;
establish three-dimensional movement;
differentiate the diagonal quadrants of our bodies;
and gain the ability to integrate our attention, intention, and actions.

vermutete Ängste in euch aufwallen fühlt. Lasst sie in Liebe gehen. Wisst, dass sie Teil einer Illusion sind, aus der ihr erwacht.

Erlaubt euch, voll und ganz zu erwachen

Auf Ebene der 3. Dichte kulminiert der Tanz der dualen Kräfte- es ist nicht euer Tanz. Lasst es einen Tanz auf einem leeren Spielfeld werden. Denn ausagieren müssen sie sich. Dies ist göttliche Physik.

Folgt nicht den Gedanken der Negativität, die nun gehäuft auftreten können- lasst sie ziehen und wisst, dass sie nicht wiederkehren werden.

Richtet euch ganz auf euer Herz aus und die Kraft, die ihm entströmt und die euch nun beginnt, mit dem zu verbinden, was ihr seid. Eurem größeren Sein.

Eurem Sein in der höheren Dimensionaliät der 5.-13. Dichte.

Wir werden euch einige kraftvolle Übungen geben für die Momente der Schwäche und Erschöpfung, die nun zahlreicher auftreten können. Doch vertraut der Freude , die aus eurem Inneren nun immer öfter aufsteigt und euch sagt: Es ist wirkich und wahrhaftig gut. Ich bin da, wo ich sein soll. An meinem Platz in der Schöpfung.

Denn so ist es,
Amra nuber assai
-ich bin Maitreya

Änderung/Wetterbericht ..

Dies ist der vorerst letzte Wetterbericht in regelmäßiger Form.

Alles ist Wandel und so wandelt sich auch ein Teil meiner Aufgabe.

Ich habe sie nie sonderlich „gemocht“- die Welt der Channelings aus allen möglichen Himmelsrichtungen mit allen möglichen Energien versehen. Zu sehr waren es Berichte von „Egos“ versehen mit bunten Namen und abgedroschenen Phrasen. Die wenigen Perlen unter ihnen konnte man mit der Lupe suchen. Dies ist keine Wertung, auch wenn dies so klingen mag. Alles hat seinen Platz und alles seine Zeit. Aber wir sind als Menschheit nun wahrhaftig auf dem Weg der Selbsbestimmung und dazu gehört wirklich ernsthaft ins eigene Herz zu gehen. Und die Verantwortung für das eigene Sein zu übernehmen.

Ein Teil von mir hat sich hinter Maitreya versteckt-dieser wundervollen kosmischen Liebesenergie, die die Dinge so viel schöner sagen kann, als ich.
Aber es ist nun wirklich an der Zeit-auch öffentlich vollkommen zu mir selbst zu stehen-alles, was gesagt werden musste-ist gesagt. Bei dem, was wir jetzt tun-als Menschheit und als Individuen-ist der einzige Kompass, den wir haben unser Herz. Und ja. Auch die Welten und Ebenen der Engel und Meister. Doch sind das auch „wir“-wir haben auf jeder Ebene der Schöpfung „Verwandschaft“..Doch haben wir einmal wirklich unseren Platz eingenommen, als Wesen und Menschen- braucht es die Brücke des Channelns nicht mehr. Wir sind göttlich....

Was die Menschheit jetzt zu diesem Zeitpunkt einfach nicht mehr braucht , ist „Führung“ „von oben“. Es braucht keine Durchhalteparolen und keine weiteren Aufforderungen- und wer sie dennoch braucht, der mag sie in den zahlreichen Channelings lesen, die kursieren.

Wir betreten Neuland. Vollkommen neuen Boden- für den es keine Landkarten gibt in den Chroniken des Alles. Was sollte also noch gechannelt werden?
Das 125.000 Tor des Übergangs?

BREATHING AND VOCALIZATION

Our ability to embody the structural and physiological processes
underlying breathing and vocal production
gives us another important way
to establish our relationship to ourselves and to our environment.

Breathing is automatic.
It is influenced by internal physiological and psychological states
and by external environmental factors.
The way we breathe also influences our behavior and physical functioning.
Breathing is internal movement.
It underlies movement of the body through external space.
Movement, in turn, alters our breathing.

Breathing is organized in patterns.
These patterns are influenced by emotional stimuli.
They also evoke emotional responses.
Our first breath, at birth, influences the pattern of our adult breathing.
Breathing can be consciously known.
As the breathing process is sensed and felt, unconscious blocks can be released.
It is through the expressive qualities of our voice
that we communicate to the outer world who we are.
Our voice reflects the functioning of all of our body systems
and the process of our developmental integration.
Bringing kinesthetic and auditory consciousness to our vocal structures
opens pathways of expression
between our unconscious and our conscious mind
and between ourselves and others.

Dance and movement:

dance technique;
a full, body-systems warm-up;
improving alignment,
flexibility,
strength and integration;
injury prevention and retraining;
creating themes for improvisation;
expanding choreographic possibilities;
increasing movement vocabulary;
providing a language for analyzing dance styles
historically, contemporarily and cross-culturally.

Bodywork and massage:

communicating subtly through touch by differentiating different layers of tissue;
multi-body-systems approach for evaluation and treatment;
creating a bridge between table work and active movement repatterning,
giving clients a way to integrate changes through their movement in daily life.


Physical, occupational, dance and movement therapy:

evaluating and treating through touch, movement and perception,
based on a comprehensive body-systems approach;
a subtle and encompassing approach to developmental movement;
ways of perceiving underlying components of problems,
such as fluid quality imbalances in neurological problems,
developmental movement aspects of a knee problem,
and organ imbalance influencing an inability to relate to others;
and approaching psychophysical processes
through movement, touch, breath and voice.


Psychotherapy:

accessing the mind by working with the body
through movement, touch, breath, voice and perception;
the psychophysical processes underlying emotional and cognitive problems;
tracing pre-verbal experience through movement and touch;
grounding the past and future in one's present awareness and movement.


Child development and education:

identifying from early infancy, movement and perceptual problems
that influence learning, and physical, mental and emotional development;
facilitating normal development in a uniquely individualized way for each child; establishing rapport through movement, touch and voice;
evaluating through a body-systems and developmental approach.


Yoga:

finding the organ, endocrine and developmental basis of the asanas;
supporting the asanas through the balance of the nervous and fluid systems;
deepening awareness and perception; embodying breath and voice.


Meditation:

the physical arts of sitting and breathing;
coming into the present in the body-mind;
being aware and letting go of being aware.


Athletics:

performance enhancement through improved alignment and increased flexibility, strength and coordination;
development of more efficiency by integrating movement and perception;
injury prevention and retraining


Voice:

identifying restrictions and freeing the natural voice;
increasing breathing and range of pitch, intensity and color of the voice;
using the whole body to support breathing and vocalization;
analyzing styles historically, contemporarily and cross-culturally.


Music:

improving performance through alignment, flexibility, strength and integration;
a movement-quality base for creating themes for improvisation and interpretation; injury prevention and retraining.

Visual arts:

a body-based and developmental approach
to freeing direct expression through one's art;
a language for evaluating styles.

continued from former page
"The initiative of Yusuf and Hathra is extraordinary in the Zealots' Valley,
but something vital is missing, in all the world and particularly in the Valley:
The self-esteem
the self-acceptance
the self-love

without these - victimhood is reigning
and there is no strength nor will to self-determination:

one monstrous terror suffocates every initiative as it is born:
the terror of disgrace and shame:
"What~~~will~~~ they~~~ say~~~ in the Valley~~~"?

The Hebrew word "Biq'ah" , used by me on this page,
means according to 'Babylon': valley, vale, basin,

and is - in Arab pronounciation - B'qi'ah - the name of the location,
where Hathra's family, together with 17 other extended families live.
See last sculpture on the previous page

Its Hebrew name is : The Zealots' Valley, Biq'at Ha-Qanna'im,
because of its vicinity to Masada and its history or ... myth.

My association is poignant: it symbolizes the "biq'ah",
into which - after the Flood -the first humanity "settled" and sunk,
not wanting to be like water, that "goes out and spreads".
See the story on the page "Lekh-Lekhâ", my life's story

June 7-8, 2011, Feast of Shavuot

I failed:
Hathra is  NOT  allowed  to study with me  in my castle:
"I do not want to cause problems for my father and family!!!
A Bedouin woman is not allowed to sleep outside her home!"

And yet I feel relief, that I am alone, all-one.

I had prayed like Jesus in the Olive-Garden at the Eve of his death:
"Lass diesen Kelch an mir vorueber gehn,
aber nicht wie ich will, sondern wie du willst"
"Take this cup away from me,
Yet not what I will, but what you will."
Markus 14:36, Lukas 22:44

But unlike Jesus I need NOT sacrifice my life,
and I don't mean 'life' as the opposite of death,
but life as the delight in zest and full-fill-ment,
life without pressure and panic, pain and shame.
[see my song, 2011_03_21 - ...I wish ... to co-create a life full of love, free of stress....]

The cup has, indeed, passed me by.
In healing Creation into Wholeness,
I'm not meant to suffer any longer.

What does "Abraham" say to such a contradicting desire?
And is this what "Godchannel" calls "Trapping the Will"?
Both desires were absolutely honest and ardent:
On the one hand:
To re-start a process of empowering "Hathra"
(the symbol of the most backward and degenerated societies,
on whom Israel, the Middle East, the World are dependent)
and on the other hand:
to continue NOT doing anything on the exterior level,
but staying "by myself", alone, all-one,
and "heal myself into wholeness and - by extension - all of Creation".


I'm lying down and "palming my eyes" with the double purpose
of giving attention to the pain in my left chest and the remaining backpain,
and of giving attention to my feelings and thoughts,
which are coping with "Hathra"
and the grand issues epitomized in the "Biq'ah".

"Trapping the Will", "Contradicting Desires" - what to do with that?

I'll first analyze/solve an example of other people's "Trapped Will":
[June 8, I decided to move this example to puzzle-piece 5>Trapped Will.
What a coincidence: the last entry there - on June 11, 2002 - is
about a Bedouin girl in 1961, and about a Bedouin man in 2002!]


As to my own Trapped Will concerning "Hathra" and the "Biq'ah":
The situation was staged, or so I see it now, for two purposes:

The      second      purpose     was
to once again give ardent energy
to my ardent desire for "Hathra",
so she and her father and mother
would be stirred up from their mud.
But it will not be me, Maryam, who will guide "Hathra"!
Another human, or another path, will come her way!

quoted in "Introduction to InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness"
and in Noah's Diary- 19th Day of Realization, Third Page

The      first      purpose     was
what in Hebrew we call "hishtalmut",
a re-training for people who are already professional in a field.
Like my pilot-son has to train twice a year on a flight-simulator.
Obviously, logically, having completed a certain lesson in life,
also has to be checked, trained and improved once in a while.

One of my lessons is called: "Walk humbly with your God".

I was right, to consciously override my desire for staying alone!
my desire to not do anything! and also to accept my frustration,
that I had to talk Arabic, after I gave up on ever conquering it.
The fears were so unbearable, that I, at least, needed to learn,
how to distinguish between necessary and 'unnecessary' fears.
Thus I was guided to waive all kinds of plans for Hathra's stay,
which would have overwhelmed-embarrassed both, her and me.
I've learnt once again "to walk humbly with your God",
but not only to walk humbly with other people,
but to walk humbly with 'God's walking' with MYSELF!
This is a new perspective on learning total self-acceptance!


Concerning my question of how to deal with contradicting desires,
my answer is now:
Ask 'God' like Jesus, to let the cup of pressure and panic pass by,
and if you still feel that "His Will" is for you -to sacrifice yourself,
go for it, but trust, that "in its right time" the cup will pass you by.

Concerning my body's part in the "hishtalmut" (actually: becoming whole),
my answer is now:
Usually it's Body's need and task to make us aware of DENIALS.
But perhaps the fact that I was ('was', for the two pains seem to weaken)
so torn between "let the cup pass me by, yet let Thy Will be done",
that Body could not stand aside, but had to be "solidary" with ME.

Du wolltest wie ein Sturmwind niedergehen
Und wie der Foehn im Tun gewaltig sein,
Du wolltest Wesen hin zu Wesen wehen
Und Menschenseelen geisselnd benedein,
In heissem Wirbel muede Herzen mahnen
Und Starres ruehren zu bewegtem Licht,

- Du suchtest mich auf deinen Sturmesbahnen
Und fandst mich nicht.

Du wolltest wie ein Feuer aufwaerts draengen
Und alles tilgen, was dir nicht bestand,
Du wolltest sonnenmaechtig Welten sengen
Und Welten laeutern in geweihtem Brand,
Mit jaeher Wucht ein junges Nichts entzuenden
Zu neuen Werdens seligem Gedicht,

-Du suchtest mich in deinen Flammengruenden
Und fandst mich nicht.



Da kam mein Bote ueber dich und legte
Dein Ohr ans stille Leben meiner Erde,
Da fuehltest du, wie Keim an Keim sich regte,
Und dich unfing des Wachsens Allgebaerde,
Blut schlug an Blut, und dich bezwang
das Schweigen,
Das ewig volle, weich und muetterlich,


- Da musstest du dich zu dir selber neigen,
Da fandst du mich.

I am being  strongly  reminded of
a poem translated by me in 1983
which I inserted 3 months ago
on  the  page  INTEGRATION

E L I J A H U
[Eliyahu]
Martin Buber 1903

[I told Eliyah's story
for instance in "69 Thanksgivings"]

and it's also here and now,
that the channeling of 1988
quoted e.g. in "Mika's Small Creations"
needs to be quoted again:

"to be one who works among others
to help them put the pieces together
and not be responsible
for the pieces being put together herself,
is a lesson.
People must be given small steps
to turn their lives around.
Things that are within
their immediate grasp.
She must always give thoughts
to what is their next step
as an individual and as a group
and help them see the next step,
something that can be obtaned
rather than shooting for the stars. Depression will result from this
and falling back in to old habits
and lack of motivation."

Healing to Wholeness Expressing! has posted a new item,
If I Were to Love Myself

"If I were to love myself
The world would be transformed
No feeling inadequate, like I made a mistake
No comparing myself to others… no matter what
No feeling bad about how others respond to me
Their acceptance or not
No believing I’ve done anything to be sorry for
No feeling like I’ve let anyone down [...]"

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Comment by Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam [not sent] "I forwarded your post to all the people on my list, who would resonate with this vocation: "to heal myself into wholeness- and by extension- all of Creation " The response from my closest potential peer was: "THANK YOU , I don't want to expand (in February Ya'acov and I agreed to not communicate until each of us would be more whole), but the timing is amazing"

If I Were to Love Myself
Posted by Betty Idarius Jun 12th, 2011 in Featured Poetry

If I were to love myself
The world would be transformed
No feeling inadequate, like I made a mistake
No comparing myself to others~ no matter what
No feeling bad about how others respond to me
Their acceptance or not
No believing I’ve done anything to be sorry for
No feeling like I’ve let anyone down
Especially myself
Nothing at all wrong with me anymore
If I were to love myself.

If I were to love myself
I’d rejoice in all that I do
All that I am
I’d know beyond all doubt
That I’ve been doing the very best I could
For all time
And that it’s okay to learn
To be more of myself
Than I’ve every known before
Uncovering the goodness of my being
If I were to love myself.

If I were to love myself
Body would rejoice
Energy of love flowing to feed my cells
Finally getting the nourishment to live
Fully alive like never before
The gift that is me
That I was meant to bring to this world
Inspiring others to bring their gifts forward
Bring who they are alive
For us all to receive
If I were to love myself.

If I were to love myself
There wouldn’t be anything to be afraid of
Fear itself would be loved
And transformed by that love
Into knowing the truth
That I am important, vital
Inseparable from all that is
That it really is all about me
After all
Connected to all that is
One to the other
One large Body of creation
Made to open us to the truth of our being
Made to create a world based on real love
If I were to love myself.

As I began to love myself
I understood how much it can offend somebody
as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right             
and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me.
Today I call it “RESPECT“.

As I began to love myself
I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it “Maturity“.

As I began to love myself
I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time,    
and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE“.

As I began to love myself
I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer,
and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.
Today I call it “SIMPLICITY“.

As I began to love myself
I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations,
and everything that drew me down and away from myself.
At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.
Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF“.

As I began to love myself
I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time.
Today I discovered that is “MODESTY“.

As I began to love myself
I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future.
Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening.
Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT“.

As I began to love myself
I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me  sick.                sick.
But as I connected it to my heart,
my mind became a valuable ally.
Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART“.     
We no longer need to fear
arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves o           r others.
  Even stars collide, and out of their crashing
new worlds are born.

Today I know
T H A T    I S    “ L I F E “!

During the synchronicity of July 2006,
between the almost fatal accident of my Efrat and my Mika,
and yet another War - the Second Lebanon War - of my State of Israel
(see '2007- Closeup of my Past')
people asked ME, the ancient "Peace-Worker", what I thought of the war.
In order to not spill out my bitterness, but to nourish people and help them,
I phrased one thoughtful page, let it be printed & gave it away, when needed:

"The ambassadors of peace weep bitterly!"
Isaiah 33:7

Naftali Raz, too, benefits from the Internet -
- with the help of his blog "On the left side"
[from the idiom: to get up or start something awkwardly???]
But the difference or more exact - deep "cleft" between us is heart-wrenching:
he calls himself a "leftist", thus contradicting the very heart of "Partnership",
which claims, that any exterior enemy or interior adversary (e.g. the "rightests")
have to be turned into partners, if the realization of my goal is dependent on them.
On the other hand - while  I  am still yearning and sighing for true, real peers -
HE is surrounded by such, his wonderful wife being the first one among them!
more than 120 people, among them famous writers, participate in his blog!

Once upon a time there was a little girl, as old as Mika is now,
whose first question was: 'Can there be a world without war'?


Christa Guth, at her 6th birthday,1944_08_15, evacuated from bombarded Stuttgart to a village

25 years later, in 1969, she despaired of the "peace-work" of others,
and searched for a partner, with whom she could be more effective.
She met Naftali, who stuck out among the people of "HaOlam Hazeh"
They not only began to work together - Naftali became her kids' uncle!
For 3-4 years he came almost every second weekend and enriched us.


Lately Mika, Efrat and I learnt much about mulberry trees.
Now I pluck and eat berries and wonder about the large leaves,
"sunlit from Heaven" [see Cat Steven's Song "Morning has broken"]
which show the path of Naftali~Naomi out of their city-house into their Desert!



Naftali did not really believe in the "Partnership-Way"
(though he co-founded the organization in March 1977),
and "following Anwar Sadat's visit to Israel in 1977",
was among the 348 Israeli military reserves officers,
who petitioned Israeli Prime Minister Menachem Begin
urging him to continue with the drive for peace,
a petition which led to the creation of
PEACE NOW, "

His friendship with the Rosenzweig Family continued - on and off - till 2001-02.
Then, suddenly, in March 2011, my daughter Ronnit and Naftali's wife Naomi,
met in the context of their social-psychotherapeutic work,
and since then Naftali put incredible efforts in re-uniting the  WHOLE FAMILY.



He also invited us to the commemoration of Lova Eliav's death a year ago,
an event which was relevant not only for Naftali as an ardent peace-worker,
but for me, also a friend of Lova, and a citizen of Arad, which Lova founded.
[See first passage in an article in "Jerusalem Post" : Lova Eliav, A Personal Appreciation]

Chanan Yuval: "Let's sing what should have been Israel's National Anthem! Psalm 126!"
Another singer- on the background of "Lova's Way" and two complementary portraits, sang: "If you'll understand"

Naftali                lo nafalti
Micha before this picture was taken: "I fell nafalti, but I did not break"

1 9 7 1 - 2 0 1 1

I couldn't have expressed my joy about our re-union
the reunion among ourselves and with Naftali~Naomi,
more clearly than Immanuel, my eldest son, did in his letter to Naftali.

Though my family had just 2 days earlier gathered around the wedding
of Asaf, my stepson Joel's youngest, this re-union was wholly unique:
Since there were 2 people, Naftali~Naomi, who really wanted to know!
each one of those 18 members of my family who were present ,
talked about him/herself, even the youngsters said a few words.
[from my close "actors" (16) only Elah, Alon and Jonathan were missing,
My stepchildren Joel and Dita only brought their foster-child, Yanna (23).]
This allowed for a perspective of both: the unique human being,
and the dynamics of the nucleus of any community, the FAMILY.

For Naftali and me it also was a step towards 'some' integration
of what each of us has done, suffered and lived during 42 years!

Excerpts from my enthusiastic response to Immanuel:

Naftali's first response:

See what I found about "Naftali"
in the English "Search" of Healing-K.i.s.s.
[he appears in my official Partnership-Diary of 1976-77 and in my personal diary of 1978,
but "Search" cannot scan the .gifs of Hebrew texts..]


* The story of our trip to the Dead Sea in 1971, on Immanuel's 8th birthday,
which Naftali now told even twice, but only his part of the story, not mine


* In a very sad letter to my "partner" Dr. Nimr Ismair in 1977,
which gives an idea of my excruciating suffering
during my work for "Partnership", as during most of my "active" life,
Naftali is mentioned twice.
One person on the photos on that page:  D r.   Y i g ' a l    E l a m
was among the speakers of the Commemoration for Lova Eliav.
But I didn't approach him: he was dispaired even at that time
and understood the "Partnership-Approach" even less
than Naftali or Nimr, or anyone except, maybe, Jonathan Jacoby....


* Naftali appears among
the 70 faces on my book "Kol Yisrael arevim zeh la-zeh


* 3 Letters to Naftali Raz, 1971-1973
The main point of the first letter is mentioned also elsewhere:
"and Naftali Raz brought joy and delight into the family".
The second - NOT joyous - letter is mentioned also in puzzle piece 6b


* See "Image of Today" in K.i.s.s.-Log 2008_10_23 : a collage about Naftali

* Dita's relationship with Naftali is mentioned in K.i.s.s.-Log 2008_09_11

* See the image and comment on the page about "Bir'am":
"on ancient Jewish ruins - they plan the camp:
Gasan Mtanes, the representative of the Bir'am youth, and
Naftali Raz, a parachuter, scout-leader, peace-fighter up to now,
was - on and off - my main Jewish partner in "Partnership"...."

* See in Sixty-Nine Hodayot - what I owe to Naftali: self-acceptance!

* See an image of Naftali and 5 year old Micha : "nafalti" , I fell, but didn't break
only now I realized the exchange of letters between "Naftali" and "Nafalti"....

"Abraham" , e-mail quote on June 20, 2011
[from The Law of Attraction, the basics of the Teachings of Abraham]

Rather than trying to monitor your thoughts,
we encourage that you simply pay attention to how you are feeling.
For if you should choose a thought
that is not in harmony with the way
that broader, older, wiser, loving Inner Being part of you sees it,
you will feel the discord;
and then you can easily redirect your thought to something
that feels better and, therefore, serves you better.
-

At 9:30 today - after deep body-soul work we had done,
by palming our eyes, letting body do what it needed to do,
and all the while pulling Lior away from "Future-Planning"
towards living her 27 days till the end of her study-year,
by savoring each moment, healing feelings, reaping joys -
- Lior went out for a thinking-feeling walk in the desert.
I ran after her - "you didn't take anything to eat!"
and when I returned to gate, garden and home,
I stood there transfixed by this view of contrasts:
the majestic tree of my neighbors leaning sideways
versus the rigid, vertical shadow within the far building.

Does it mean anything?? I fetched my camera.......

Now, 100 minutes later, I still don't know the answer.
And while sculping this composition, I ponder again:
what if Haim Nachman Bialik's question,
which touched me so harshly yesterday
must be answered with 'Yes'?