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InteGRATion into
GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound
[June 19, 2011: This page is now "overweight": 1345 kb instead of 1300, but all my endeavors to delete or downsize files even more, ended in: "It would be a pity!"]
and three other psalms , written obviously in the same
tiredness of soul
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tune
of Psalm 63: Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam 1999 On October 15, 2011, Succot I recorded the song with the addition of "In the shadow of your wings I sing" tune of Psalm 143 + Psalm 142 +Jonah 2 September 2010 + January 5,2011 |
A Psalm
of David, when he was in the wilderness of Judah. O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. .... My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. |
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on Oct.
14, 2011 - Succot - I discovered, that in this
Psalm 63 , I had missed out on 3 words in verse 8,
which are so important for me, both the metaphor - in
the shadow of your wings - and "I
sing."
I'll adapt the "in
the shadow of your wings I sing" to
the last line of the tune
by replacing the repetition of "your right hand upholds me"
Three Supplications:
"David's Psalm"~~~ David's "Prayer in the Cave"~~~ Jonah
"prays from the Fish's Belly"
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In David's prayer from the Cave and in Jona's prayer from Fish's Belly - I added the last lines of Psalm 143 as a chorus.
In both prayers I arranged some lines in a different order, to adapt them to the tune, and I repeated one word "shiva'ti".
The line in Jonah's prayer [2:4], "all Thy waves and Thy billows passed over me" didn't fit into the rhythm of my adaptation
But the sentence - so cherished by me ... - , appears also in Psalm 42:8 -see my tune
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2 3 I called out of mine affliction unto the LORD, for
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142 for
in Thee do I trust; |
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143 And my spirit
fainteth within me; |
Added on June 19, 2011 [see also in Nourishment on June 21, 2011, Summer Solstice]
After my birthday, August 15, 2010, which was celebrated at Shoham, only with Immanuel~Efrat, Ronnit and Micha,
my daughter and I corresponded for a while about her idea ("probably not to be realized", she warned herself or others),
to write a novel about the "telenovella" of her grandfather, Franz Rosenzweig +his best friend's wife, his love + this friend.
She wanted to know a lot about her grandfather (who died in 1929), and was touched by his deep understanding of language.
Since she, too, explores language from a psychological perspective, she sent me an article by "our" "old" Haim Nachman Bialik:
"What is open and hidden in language",
It's in that article , that I discovered the biblical verse "And my spirit fainteth within me" , which gave birth to the threefold song above.
[excerpted on June 19, 2011]
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"....Manifestation is meant to be
a playground
where being and doing are fun..."
[Godchannel,
Second Interview with the Folks]
April 30-May 1, 2010
I promised myself on
April 26, 2010,
that my intense creation of photo-compositions of Mika's Heaven-on-Earth is
completed.
Since today, May 1, 2010, I'm looking for criteria,
which will help me to choose only certain aspects of Mika's life and my life
with Mika.
The criterion for the composition on this and the following page -
which documents my presence at Shoham from April 30 till May 4, 2010
is: outstanding experiences with Mika and her family.
Since on Fridays after 12 o'clock there are no trains in Israel !!......
I traveled from Arad to Shoham by 3 busses and a short hitchhike.
Tomer was there.... and would be
there until 7:30 PM.
He came to meet me and to show me these paintings!
I did not foresee, what dire prophecy they implied.......
which would manifest 3 days later, in the morning,
just before I was supposed to leave,
since Immanuel returned from flight.
I stayed for another day and night....
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While the paintings are Tomer's original creations, the following drawings are based on the only book, he wants to own: a book about fairies and trolls.
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Then we went for a long walk into nature, as we did so often in the past...
I promised myself to take just one picture - as a memory of this situation.
He picked a fruit from a 'Ziziphus Spinachristi' tree (see "my Hill, my Path, my Tree")
We had the deepest of talks, mainly about true freedom, which he defined:
"If pleasure is not dependent on any exterior conditions or people, then I am free.
But I am still far from that."
I shall remember this desire for freedom and this picture and say no more!
In the evening - the Eve of Shabbat - Efrat suggested that I watch a movie, newly bought by her for Mika
DVD Disney
movie "UP"
Disney-Pixar's
Up – an animated comedy adventure about a 78-year-old man who ties balloons
to his house and flies away, with an 8-year-old stowaway
Wikipedia: UP (2009 film) The film centers around an elderly
widower named Carl Fredricksen and an earnest young Wilderness Explorer named
Russell
who fly to South America in a house suspended by helium balloons. The film
has received overwhelmingly positive reviews.
Perhaps! But they didn't take into
account an extremely sensitive little girl,
who cannot bear to see people - animated or not - in sorrow, pain or fear!
Again - I took only one shot, in order to remind ourselves of the situation,
though at this moment Mika felt safe in Imma's arms and liked what she saw.
After 20 minutes we had to cut the movie - perhaps in 4 years it will suit
her!
This experience led Efrat to her question,
how to cope with Mika's nightmares
"I cannot sleep alone with the darkness",
said Mika and crept into my bed,
and this after she had - in vain - tried to
do the same with her mother.
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After
some futile attempts to soothe Mika, I had an idea: Instead of fighting the bad dreams, I suggested to focus on imagining good dreams. "Image a dream, in which you do what you like to do!" "Oh, I like to do many things!" And so she numbered Dream Number 1, Dream Number 2 till Dream Number 27, when Imma came in and sent her to sleep, but in the morning she stormed into my room: "I know Dream Number 28! The bridegroom and the bride marry, and one loves them and the audience claps their hands and all the people are doubly glad, what fun at the wedding there is much joy etc. etc. - in a rhythmical, even rhymed form. Most dreams involved other children, or Nature, or were phrased as rhymed "poems", or dealt with something that still troubled her, like: "I am dreaming about (this and this boy), when we played (this and this), each one said: 'I caught it, I caught it!' " Seeing her sad, I said: "But you want to dream good dreams! In a dream everything is possible!" "Yes! in the dream we are getting along well with each other!" |
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Shabbat, May 1, 2010, morning-noon-afternoon:
Under "our" olive-tree on that piazza
at Shoham:
Mika keeps combing her hair for at least 10 minutes...
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Mika merges into the olive-tree, up in its branches and later underneath - among its leaves and dry olives
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Continuation of Mika's
"Heaven-on-Earth" , in March 2010, on the Song page of April
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