The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

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InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Close-ups of my Past

 

2007_05_25: Closeup of 1971
Immanuel: age 6-8
Levi, his foster-brother: 1970-

 

Immanuel (born January 1963) 1971

His need to relate to Others

 

Immanuel
about November 1969:

"a Child watches TV.
There also a child appears,
but that child doesn't talk to him.
He turns his head away.
Therefore the child on the chair cries!"

 

 

Television,
established in Israel only in 1969,
was still a new experience
for our children.

They were allowed
to watch "Tarzan"
at the house of our neighbor,
Shlomit Adler,
who served as a close grandma for them,
since the real grandmas
lived in Germany.

 

 

April 1971:

Imma returns from a devastating talk
with Dr. Jacob Licht in Jerusalem.

She had been referred to Licht, an expert in Bible,
by one of her two PH.D. supervisors, Prof. Shmuel Safrai,
"I don't know, how to relate to your work, Rachel!
Since you rely so heavily on the Bible,
while I'm an expert in Talmudic History,
Licht might give you some advice!"

Well, Jacob Licht had read my 120 machine-written pages,
and - for a change - really understood me.
Exactly because of that he had to tell me,
that I had no chance in the academic world.
"Your style is poetic, but no university will accept this as a thesis.
And as to me personally: You believe in 'science engagée',
[Jean-Paul Sartre's term...],
while I believe in "l'art pour l'art", science for science's sake, particularly after scientists
let themselves be so abominally misused by the Nazis."
It was the same trauma - the holocaust - which was motivating me,
to focus my scientific research towards what would bring about
action and change in the world....

See yesterday's "accidential closeup of my past"

When I came home to Ramat-Hadar and reported to his father,
8 year old Immanuel witnessed the tears.
He drew a drawing to comfort me, and commented:

"Here, this is how you look, sad and with tears,
I made this to make you laugh and no more think about it."

He then explained the details of the scene,
based on the outstanding furniture in our shelf-surrounded study,
which I had deviced for the carpenter in 1966:
a huge "couple-desk", to sit on from both sides,
with drawers from both sides,
and adjacent to each side a small table for the type-writers
(Hebrew, Latin, later also Arabic)

"This is the desk,
above it the lamp
[to the right] is abba's table with the type-writer,
[underneath] these are the books of your thesis and the type-writer"

[To the left below]:
"There I come from school and ask you: why are you gloomy?"
[To the left above]:
"This is the shelf with the aeroplane, which we are building right now"


More about Immanuel:
His Creativity this time embarrasses his mother: he found an iron cross from her past...

 

A composition of
Immanuel's New Year wishes,
September 1971

and
"Rachel with Immanuel
on the tustus"
[a small motor-bike]
a drawing
made by Mr. Dan,
the deaf father of Michaela (11),
Immanuel's neighbor friend

See also the letters (November 1971) to my husband, from me and Immanuel, when he was not yet 9 year old,
which give a glimpse into the life of my children's early childhood,
while I was immersed in completing my Ph.D. thesis and Naftali Raz brought joy and delight into the family

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From my diary, September 17, 1978 -
about the amazing changes in Immanuel's life
after our "session" on the lawn towards supper
(Rafael: "when shall we finally eat!!!!!!"),
where I succeeded in applying "SUPPORT"!
After two international workshops in Re-evaluation Counseling in August, in England,
I had become truly "professional" in letting myself be supported and therefore !! in supporting others!
Unlike my husband, who's inner "Cain" became much more triggered because of that proficiency
Immanuel, more even than Ronnit, who was with me in one of the workshops, truly benefitted from me.

 

 

to former accidental closeup of my Past to next accidental closeup of my Past

May I add energy to "launching the rocket of my desire" for Levi Bar-Gil
by creating a composition of the photos which I took when Levi was a child.



Levi with Ronnit and Micha and Immanuel




July 1970, when my husband was abroad for 7 weeks, Levi (dark hair and barefoot), came to us.
My children - Ronnit (to the farest left), Micha (to the farest right) and Immanuel (on the swing)
are visited by Yanina's daughters - Yael (next to Ronnit) and Iris (on the swing in the left photo) -
who bring with them Jeanette (white ribbon) from Bet-Shean, a girl assigned to Yanina's family.
During the "War of Attrition", 1967-1970, Beit Shean suffered badly. Shelling reached a peak in June 1970:
3 children were killed and 21 residents wounded.




A letter to my husband, in which Levi is mentioned for the first time: June 4, 1970

 

 


After having heard already about "the troublesome child" Levi, I first met him at the end of the school-year,
when the first-graders went on an annual excursion and I was among the parents who accompanied them.
When the bus came back, I simply invited Levi to come home with us.

According to this double picture I was with that class also on their excursion in 1972

   



 

 

 

Levi was born 3 months before Immanuel,
on November 19, 1962.
This meant, that his Bar-Mitzva would be the first one
to be celebrated by our family.
My husband agreed!
He even agreed, that Levi's father would be present,
this only one time.

Two other guests were Hava Kaufmann
and her daughter Edna.
Edna was inflicted with C.P. since birth,
and since I, for years, kept her company
on evenings on which her parents wanted to attend concerts,
I had the guts to ask Hava,
if she would give private lessons in English to Levi,
since I was too nervous and impatient with him,
when I had tried to teach him myself.

Levi will admit up to this day,
how Hava's lessons advanced him not only in English,
but in his self-esteem.

The letter to the left is from Levi's teacher in that school-year
1975-76.
I had invited her, too, to participate in the celebration for Levi,
and she agreed!

To my regret there is no photo of the celebration
or of Levi at that time.

Again four years later:
Levi and Ronnit take part in a workshop of "Partnership",
in which young people are trained to act as coaches.
As far as I remember, nothing but this photo came out of this.
But nowadays Levi's Dance-Teaching-Empire concerns itself also
with making kids in Jewish and Arab kindergardens dance together,
"so they will - at this early age - not even be exposed to the usual prejudices",
he told me about half a year ago (2009!)



to the left: Chanukka 1979 in our family

1981-three soldiers: Levi, Immanuel, Ruth (I's later wife), (Micha not yet)

 

I'm very glad about the existence of this photo:

My bus was still parked at Hatzerim airbase,
where Immanuel, my pilot and carpenter son,
completed the last furniture in my mobile home.

In April 1986, I had to drive the bus to the airport,
obviously in order to park it there for a month,
while I was on a teaching-assignment in Germany.
(I only remember a seminary about Cain and Abel!)

I asked Levi to take over and drive instead of me.
In the army he had functioned as a truck-driver.
Though I was considered a good driver myself,
the strain and stress connected with driving,
and especially with parking-in and -out
were always wearing me down.
Should I justify myself and mention,
that I was 46 years old and a woman?



Levi's celebration of Tomer's 8th birthday
here with little Itamar, Ronnit's youngest, then 4 years old.

(see more pictures in
Tomer - Training)


Levi and Immanuel at the age of almost 40, and the second generation: Itamar, Tomer, Rotem and Yael. Only Levi has no children yet. (But see in the year 2008!)

Towards a new stage in the life of Levi as in the life of Immanuel and Efrat since July 2009,
I copied some letters to my husband, which give an idea about "Levi within our family" ,
hoping to motivate the three even more to cooperate and cocreate despite everyone's fears.


 
 
 
 
 

Already in January 2007,
after Immanuel, Efrat & Mika
move from the Galilee
near the airport, to Shoham
Levi had proposed to Efrat
to work in his business.
She was afraid then,
one reason having been:
"one does not make business
in the family".
Now after her experience
and --- her disgust
with her job (not "work")
as the producer of
a local Shoham newspaper
- she felt ready,
under one condition,
that Talli,
her colleague at that newspaper
would resign from her job, too,
and be employed by Levi, too.


The entry was bumpy,
and the integration
of two "systematical" women
into a couple partnership,
which is far from systematical,
is not easy,
but I hope
all the four will grow through this.
 

 

 

2011_01_23 - Immanuel's 48th birthday

My desire did not manifest:
No fruitful co-creation between Levi and Efrat!!!!
[see the background in "My Desire", Nov.5-6, 2009]
see also "My Desire", Nov.18-19, Levi's 47th birthday


But this devastating failure might be a classical example
that sometimes first something "frightul" must happen,
so that the "frightful" can be transformed into "fruitful".
My pun in Hebrew is:
Turn the mafri'a (disruptive) into the mafraeh (fruitful).

Today I am once more "launching a rocket of desire":

that the co-creation I so yearn for between all people

will manifest in way that will be exemplary for others:

the co-creation between self-employed, equal peers,

as my son Immanuel and my daughter-in-love Efrat.

 

My letter on the Eve of Immanuel's birthday and Immanuel's immediate answer

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