InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Close-ups of my Past

December 17, 2011 - See context in En-Joying and Growing with Mika!
In time I want to crop my few old mini-movies of Mika in "slow-motion"!
While searching for space in an old page, I came across this one,
and found it confused with the page: Depression and Accident and War.
I removed all material from this page to that page,
so that this one is available for : .....see yourself!

I begin with the promo, in which I merged the two scenes from Mika's life:
5 minutes in 2007 and a day in 2011
the second is inserted from the first of the last Mika-at Shoham-pages in 2011
En-Joying and Growing with Mika!

The slow-motion presentation
of a 5 minutes video of Mika's activity before sleep,
as I could enjoy it on Dec. 23, 2007, 3 days after her 2nd birthday!

Grandma: "at lo matzlikhah?" (don't you succeed, can't you thread the cord?) Mika: "lo-tzlikhah" [don't 'cceed] Mika tries to thread a tiny piece of a plastic cord into one of "our" four pearls These for the two of us so precious pearls belong to set of vessels which I guarded for her, as so many other "things", which her mother would have discarded.

She seems to ponder: "If I can't thread them, what else could I do with these pearls?"

"So now we can go to sleep?" "Lo!" Mika ignores my quest and finds other ways of creating with the boxes , pearls and beads

"Oh yes, there are also these bracelets from Savta"

"Mika-leh , what do you want?!"

"They fit exactly into the box, don't they? But what now?~~~ Oh, I could spill beads and pearls into another box!"

Grandma: "gamarnu, Mika" (we are finished)

Mika reacts and relates to Savta and utters a strong: "Lo!"

"So when will we go to sleep?" No answer

"There must be something else, which could enrich this composition..."

Mika utters a giggle Grandma: "Mika, what are you doing now?

She balances the bracelet around the vessel, but thinks of something more exciting...

"Should I try and let it fall?"

Enthusiatically: "Nafal!" [it's fallen down] "Nakhon!" [that's right] And again: "Nafal!"

She hopes I'll pick it up for her. But I don't move. So she knows she has to get it herself, a difficult, strenuous, even dangerous undertaking: how to glide down from the bed and not fall? And more serious, how to climb up again?

Now, her pride comes into a play. She is unable to climb up herself. Finally I come to her help, asking: "Eekh omrim?" "What does one say in such a case?" 'waqashah' be-waqashah = please!

Grandma and Mika laugh, as Grandma shoves Mika's little behind up to the bed with one hand, while photographing with the other.

She sees and hears Abba standing in the door-frame, but she again tries to win time

to former accidental closeup of my Past   to next accidental closeup of my Past

By contrast to the slow-motion scenes, cropped from a movie,
which show 5 min. of Mika's life 3 days after her 2nd birthday,
I created "slow-motion" by clicking many "stills" of the scene,
where we celebrate "Fare-Well" from 442 days within 5 years,
and this on the first evening of Chanuka,
which coincided with Mika's 6th birthday.
This was staged for December 20, 2011, -11 days before 2012.
[See several pages about the context of my last hours with Mika at Shoham]

In Zen Architecture there is a law, that whatever beauty is created, there must be one spot, that is left ugly. It also is a Jewish custom, that when a new house is built, one spot on a wall should stay unplastered - in memory of the destruction of the Temple repeatedly in ancient times. This is how I feel about my image, the "best" among those taken by Mika, and I leave it here, so as to emphasize Mika's beauty even more by contrast....

Continuation of our Light-Uniting in SongGame 2007_12_11 - "turned-off was the sun that glowed"