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2007
InteGRATion into
GRATeFULLness
Nourishment from Others
interspersed with my questions, observations or experiences
June 22-July 8, 2011: enriched by more nourishment
Body is the Healer
2007_06_03
From a documentary in 3SAT, today a year ago:
3 million women every year : genital mutilation,
genitals removed partially or totally or injured in some way,
the children born of these women have a 50% greater chance of being deadborn,
the women need more often a Caesaerean and they have enormous bleedings when
giving birth.
I see the faces of the girls – in an African(!) movie -
when dragged – by their mothers – to the act of mutilation.
I think of my short delight and longlasting self-hatred connected to my own
genitals
and I cry and implore thee:
Mother,
help me to redeem the Mother's Body,
so this horror which is not a one-time holocaust,
but something that has been done for centuries , maybe milleniums,
and goes on year after year, day after day,
will stop.
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Yesterday
I read a critic's sentence about Rembrandt's Batseba,
"the sensual recollection of a woman alone with her body" If I could redeem my, our , female Body by sensing the melting of Baraka and Charisma in my heart, ever so often during an hour of my day! Would this stop the victimhood of those 3 millions? All that "ascension" stuff seems to be so premature. What is needed is descension, descent into the Hell of God's female manifestation Does what I think or do or say right now cause me to sense one sensation in Body? "If there is no sensing or
feeling of the energy
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I read pp54
about my intent to dwell with the Mother in Hell.
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In biorgonomy
I found Psalm
11:4 as motto on top: |
cause me to sense one sensation in Body?
to former source of nourishment
from others in 2007 and 2011
to next source of nourishment
from others in 2007 and 2011
Nourishment in 2011, June 23-July
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Arad, June 23, 2011
| While trying to make the
new "Search" of "Godchannel" work, |
"Abraham" e-mail quote on June 23, 2011 As you deliberately look for positive aspects |
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"I have asked that
this material be published here
"Talking to you from
these pages now is like me talking to myself.
"I should
say that you are waking again,
"If you ask me to,
I can help you become aware of your true identity "Above all, you have
free will.
"You can, if you
choose, channel my light, If this is your choice, |
Arad, June 24, 2011
| The
Channelers [s. above]
advised me to try a different browser. While searching - in vain - for "Firefox" in my "bookmarks" I met the recently marked site: "What rhymes with breast..." What would be a more meaningful word for "bookmarks"? Answer: "Accept!" The next bookmark I came across was "Lessons of Love". I opened it and saw "Lektionen der Liebe" in Facebook. There was a quote [March 17], which I had not come across. "People ask, why only negative things happen to them now" Though I myself have no reason to ask this, I read the quote. It was a chapter from the "Seven Lessons of Love" called: Acceptance! What hits me, is the advice, yes command: Vergesst Eure Musterarbeit. Forget about your "working on your patterns"! I immediately remembered a sentence, which I read before sleep in my cabin in Succah in the Desert. It was the only time - for a few months - I didn't live in my bus. I quote, what I sculpted in "Jacob wrestles with himself"
"Recognize the gifts, which lie in your patterns, for they are the other side of your God-given tools." |
Annehmen/Akzeptieren
.by Lektionen der Liebe on Thursday, March 17, 2011 ... Nehmt Eure Rolle in diesem Stadium Eurer Entwicklung an. Erkennt, dass Ihr einen göttlichen Kern habt, der aber erst in Verbindung mit Allem - Was - Ist zum wahren Mitschöpfer werden kann. Akzeptiert, dass es einen Plan gibt. Für jeden von Euch und für die Gesamtheit des Seins. Und dieser Plan ist so allumfassend und voller Liebe, dass man es mit Worten nicht beschreiben kann. An diesem Plan habt Ihr selbst als Teile Gottes und der Göttin mitgewirkt. Durch das Vergessen auf dieser Ebene fehlt Euch der direkte Zugang dazu und Ihr Lieben: all Eure Versuche, diesen Plan zu schauen, sind vergebens.Es wäre die sofortige Verschmelzung mit der Urquelle allen Lebens.Euer physischer Körper ist nicht in der Lage diese Information auf einer bewussten Ebene aufzunehmen. Weswegen all Eure Versuche, Fragen in der Art wie: “Warum soll ich dies oder das tun?” oder “Warum geschieht mir dies oder jenes?” zu stellen, nie zufriedenstellend von Euch beantwortet werden können. Seid Euch bewusst, dass ALLES, was Euch widerfährt ein wohl platzierter Ton in der Symphonie der Schöpfung ist, für den es KEINEN linearen Auslöser gibt. Ihr habt wohl Eure Konzepte von Mustern: “Weil ich dies oder jenes Muster habe, geschieht mir dies oder jenes immer wieder.” ... Wenn Ihr sehen könntet, was sich gerade vollzieht. Welche Schönheit und Liebe dabei ist, sich vor Euren Augen zu entfalten. Ihr würdet in Ehrfurcht den Atem anhalten. Vergesst Eure Musterarbeit.
Forget about your "working on your
patterns"! Vergesst Eure Musterarbeit. Forget about your "working on your patterns"! Eure Art mit Mustern und somit mit Energien umzugehen, ist sehr oft die Vermeidung der Annahme Eurer eigenen Göttlichkeit und somit auch die Vermeidung der Annahme der Göttlichkeit in Eurem Gegenüber. Ihr “arbeitet” an Euch, um Zeit zu gewinnen, Ihr Lieben. “Bevor ich mich wahrhaft mit meiner eigenen Göttlichkeit auseinandersetzen kann, muss ich erst noch dieses oder jenes Muster bearbeiten, dass mich davon abhält. Bevor ich mein Gegenüber lieben kann, muss es erst noch diese oder jene Eigenschaft ablegen.” Ihr Lieben. Eure sogenannten Muster sind einfach eine Seite der Münze. Die andere Seite ist immer eine göttliche Eigenschaft. Das Spiel, dass Ihr solange gespielt habt, ist bald vorbei und die Liebe ist jetzt da! Ihr dürft Euch Ihr öffnen. Sie bedeutet keine Gefahr. Nur Heilung, geliebte Menschen. Und Licht auf die andere Seite der Münzen, die ihr Muster nennt. .... Erkennt die Geschenke, die in Euren Mustern liegen, denn sie sind die andere Seite Eurer Gottgegebenen Werkzeuge...In ihnen liegt große Macht und der Schlüssel zur Ergreifung dieser Macht ist die Liebe. .... So repräsentiert jeder
von Euch in seiner ursprünglichen Essenz einen gewissen Aspekt
oder Strahl Gottes und der Göttin und dieser Strahl bestimmt
die Erfahrungen, die Ihr als Wesen sammeln könnt, um wahrhaft
zu wachsen. Nach ihm richtet sich die Anzahl und die Art der Münzen,
die Ihr von Anfang an seit Eurem ersten Schritt aus der Quelle, als
Zeichen Eurer Herkunft bei Euch tragt. ......
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Arad, June 24-26, 2011
[Arad,
June 8, 2012: Meshi, one of my Arad starchildren, sent an e-mail to me and
the other starchildren,
in which she warmly recommends this movie, which very much reminded her of
me, Rachel
and this after I hadn't heard from her since Dec. 4 , 2011,
when
we came together in my home to celebrate the first encounter of the Arad
starchildren on Dec. 4, 2004]
"så
som i himmelen"~~~"as it is in Heaven"
"A movie that celebrates a life, that is here and
now , and not tomorrow!"
"Kmo
be-Gan Eden": a Review in Hebrew (2006)
I am awed!
this 2004 Swedish movie with
2 million visitors the most successful in the history of Sweden
(I saw it in 3SAT),
is a demonstration of a process towards the creation of "Conditions
for Heaven-on-Earth"
See a trailer with English subtitles and a
trailer which stresses quite different, but not less important scenes
See
also a trailer in German, which begins with the most relevant first scene
of the movie:
Daniel as a child plays the violin in a golden wheat-field (the
tune reminds me of a Yiddish song)
"Ever since I was a little boy, I dreamt to
create music that opens people's hearts...."
"It's up here, all around, vibrating, it's all a matter of listening,
of being ready to take it down."
" Open your throat, open your chest, release your sound!"
[See parts of my homepage: "Sound-incarnatus",
"Sounding keeps me Sound",
and above all "Noah-Pages":
"Not Silence but Sounding is sound for me now"]
| Reviews
on the Internet:
Daniel is a renowned conductor, who suffered a painful childhood in his native town in Northern Sweden. There, Daniel was bullied by his school mates while he was trying to develop a musical career with his mother's support >>>> A heart attack... Despite having professional commitments for the next 10 years, he decides to return to Sweden and retire indefinitely...The local reverend asks Daniel to work as the church choir's conductor, formed by all kinds of villagers, with all kinds of problems. Daniel's first task is to teach the choir members to find their own voice... |
 Daniel helps each one to find their own voice tone Kay Pollak in a video: "the singers stop being victims" Inger, the reverend's wife: "There is no sin, God will not forgive us, because God never condemned us!" |
What
touched me, Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam: Daniel has to learn through his Body (a heart-attack), that success and fame - reached via pressure, stress and strain - are not fulfilling the dream of his childhood: to make music open the hearts, music that changes lives. He did not die, but he left his career and "hid in HIS face", as I would call it, - in the village, which he had left at the age of seven, since some boys there were taking "refuge" to violence, when they saw the gifted child in the golden wheat-fields playing the violin. With the simple people in the village (who include even a retarded man) he begins to fulfill his dream: the miserable church-choir turns into a community of j o y and love - though verbal or even physical violence, the result of people's self-hatred , is lurking everywhere and is not covered-over at all. Yes, the lack of self-worth - most strikingly in the reverend of the village - seems to take over. What I have experienced through all my life, at home and in my public work, is brought to the forefront - not only by showing people's behaviors and actions, but - a n d t h i s i s n e w - by verbally pointing out, how the d e n i a l o f s e l f leads to the d e n i a l o f t h o s e around, be it the wife of the minister, or the desire of the choir-members, or Daniel, the conductor, who has brought joy to the village. But these dynamics of "the plus pole activating the minus pole" are never played out or followed through. They are like attacks from the dark, which will - in time - be melted away by the path of music, which Daniel shows the villagers, with the SOUNDING which flows out from their bodies and feelings and catches on. The end of the movie moved me to tears: A choir-member had applied for the choir's participation in a contest in Salzburg. Daniel, the conductor, -- at first-- considers this "as totally opposing music". Music cannot bear competition. Yet he yields to the strong desire of the choir, which is growing in number from week to week. And then,when trying to be in time for the performance, he collapses. What now? While the audience, i.e. the competitors, wait for this choir to finally start, Tore, the retarded man (and now I'm sobbing) begins with sounding, till more and more of his companions join in, and then a man in the audience gets on his feet and, sounds till the whole community of singers sounds together - "as it is in Heaven"! |
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Gabriella's
Sång, with Swedish subtitles on landscapes Britta
von Anklang sings in German "Fly
with me", Lena's English song |
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Gabriellas Sång in
Swedish Det är ändå vägen jag valt Jag vill känna att jag lever Jag har aldrig glömt vem jag var Jag vill leva lycklig för att jag är jag Jag vill känna att jag levt mitt liv |
Gabriella's
Sång, with German subtitles 
"I want to live , as I want"See the old woman and how Daniel behind her comes to stand next to her   "I never lost my Self" - among the audience: her violent husband |
Gabriella's
Song in English
It is now that my life is mine I’ve got this short time on earth And my longing has brought me here All I lacked and all I gained And yet it’s the way that I chose I want to feel I’m alive I have never lost who I was All I want is to be happy being who I
am I want to feel that I’ve lived
my life |
"It is an adventure to find your own paradise"
How great, that the end of the movie, that glorious demonstration of "as it is in Heaven" can be seen on a video - slowly - and my tears of joy can flow:
 the retarded boy begins to sound, Lena catches on |
 now all the choir - old woman and soloist and all - are sounding |
 Daniel wipes his blood with dirty toilet-paper |
 "Let the People Sing and Sound" from the 3:42 min.sound of the end of "as it is in Heaven", I cropped 20 sec., which will be looped by my sound-button |
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 two couragous men in the audience |
 two radiant women in the choir |
 the conductor in the toilet |
 redeems the child in his past |
No competition, only singing-sounding of all nations and all individuals: Hallelu-Yah!
User Comments
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...The film is masterfully directed and each character brilliantly
drawn so that by the end you really know these people and care about
them .. It is a film that unites us in this divided world and shows us the potential of the human spirit. |
* But most of
all this movie makes you feel, and that is the most important thing.
You cry, you laugh, you hate and you identify. I don't know about you
guys, but that does not happen that often. ____________________________ |
* Turkey: A superb
film, among the best I've ever seen. First I was caught totally off guard
by the film's initial lyricism and then I became totally enchanted with
the unfolding story and engrossed with the brilliant directing. The characters
were all fully developed, not bigger-than-life but just like the people
we live among anywhere we are in the world, in Sweden, in Turkey or in
America, all completely believable human beings with foibles and nobility.
Hollywood could learn so much from this beautiful film. It shows that
there is no need to go into every little detail behind every action to
bring out the whole theme clear and bright, and that shows the brilliance
of the director! Hearfelt thanks to Kay Pollak and the wonderful cast
for this superb treat!!
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A symphony of love,
this humble masterpiece by Kay Pollak. A world famous conductor brilliantly played by Michael Nyqvist seeks peace from stress by moving back to his childhood village. The villagers...are slowly tempting him to share of his greatness. Each role in this movie, has a very specific purpose and shows a remarkable potential in each of the actors playing their own chord in short but precise words, a symphony of love. Not love in the sense of relationship, but in the tone of the spirit deeply buried within each of the characters, each revealing their own present story, their needs, their skeletons, desires and much more. ...the two main parts played by Frida
Hallgren and Michael Nyqvist, ...touch each other with a pain connected
in their own disability to love themselves. |
"Wie
im Himmel", an atrociously critical Review in German (2005) "Die Kritik Foersters begreift in der Tat
das Wesentliche des Film nicht. See also the responses
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German
Wikipedia: Kay Pollak, geb. May 1938. Zudem ist Pollak Autor eines
psychologischen Ratgeberbuches mit dem Titel „Durch Begegnungen
wachsen“, von dem in Schweden mehr als 100.000 Exemplare gekauft
wurden.... Pollak ist seit 1986
mit Carin Pollak verheiratet, und die beiden haben drei Kinder: Klara-Maria
(* 1995), Johannes (* 1993) und Mattias (* 1989). Pollak hat einen Doktortitel
und ist Universitätslehrer in mathematischer Statistik. His
book: 2007
- Durch Begegnungen wachsen. Für mehr Achtsamkeit
und Nähe im Umgang mit anderen. "Ich bin im Einklang mit mir, weil ich auch mit Dingen im Einklang bin, die schwierig waren oder die ich „falsch“ gemacht habe. Das gilt übrigens auch für das, was ich als Kind mit meinen Eltern erlebt habe. Ich kann heute sehen, dass auch sie immer ihr Bestes getan haben, und konnte deshalb aufhören, ihnen für Schwierigkeiten, die ich hatte, die Schuld zu geben. Es ist wichtig, irgendwann die Verantwortung für das eigene Leben zu übernehmen, das macht uns frei." "Was sagt denn das Ego, wenn es nicht mehr die Schuld bei anderen suchen kann?" "Ach, das Ego. Es klagt an und verurteilt. Aber ich habe gelernt zu sehen, das Ego ist hier und der Teil von mir, der Menschen ohne Verurteilung sieht, ist da. Es ist möglich das zu trennen. Das funktioniert nicht immer, aber ich durchschaue den Mechanismus immer schneller. " "Wie haben Sie am Set gearbeitet? " "Wir haben jeden Morgen ein Meeting gemacht, haben gesprochen und zusammen gesungen. Vor Beginn der Dreharbeiten hatte ich mir von jeder Person am Set ein Foto machen lassen, eine richtig schöne Porträtaufnahme. Und jeden Morgen habe ich eins genommen und angeschaut – mit einem Gefühl von Dankbarkeit in meinem Herzen. Dann habe ich zum Beispiel gesagt: „Anna, vielen Dank, dass du dieses wundervolle Kostüm gemacht hast. Es ist genau passend und Michael konnte seine Szene wunderbar darin spielen.“ So habe ich mich auf die jeweilige Person eingestimmt, und wenn ich ihr später am Tag begegnet bin, dachte ich „Oh, da ist Anna“ und war tatsächlich erfüllt von einem Gefühl von Liebe."
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One of the jewels in "As if in Heaven" would have escaped me,
if it would not have been pointed out in one of the posts sent by people between May 2007 and Dec. 2009
What did she (Lena) mean at the end?
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"... at the end of the film she says to Daniel "I think grandpa
has to go to the school to draw a little angel". I can only interpret
it as she's saying she's pregnant with him... I really feel sad for
her, considering she had been left by that doctor, and then she
got pregnant with a man that dies only moments later. " |
* "I have been
grappling with all the clues and symbols in this film - and yes, I was
thinking the same thing: she is now pregnant with his baby, therefore
a new angel needs to be painted in the school as it was when she was born.
I was taking it too literally and thinking it was sad too, that she was left once and now again, etc but think perhaps this whole thing is meant to be viewed on a symbolic level: Note that she is also the one who says she saw wings on people - the older couple, the retarded boy and on Daniel - I think that means that she can see that they are closer to dying. She also said she can see that he (Daniel) is afraid and she tells him there is nothing to be afraid of, there is no death. AND at the very beginning she is dressed up with some 'angel'-ish stuff - I think she is meant to be some sort of symbol of life or love or an angel... Am I making too much of all this?? " |
* "You have made some good points ~ I see her as some kind of loving earth-mother symbol, with knowledge of life and death. That's why some people may perceive her as having "loose morals" - the earth-mother figure of literature attracts many men and satisfies them, as she loves Life (and babies, such as the "adult baby" in the form of the village idiot). An earth-mother is also fertile, so the references to pregnancy are not out of place." |
and indeed, in one of the posts to another question: "What was the ending", someone wrote in Jan. 2007:
"Daniel doesn't die. He just finds a way to the little boy within (it is Daniel who lifts up himself as a little boy in the last scene)
- so he can live his life without fear - there is no death - and therefore no fear of death - so it is possible to live without fear!"
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 Tore, the retarded young man shows them - that sounding with them - is his right place |
| Gabriella's
Song in German Jetzt gehört mir mein Leben Ich lebe eine kleine Weile auf Erden Und meine Sehnsucht hat mich hierher geführt Was mir fehlte und was ich erhielt Es ist trotz allem der Weg Den ich wählte Mein Vertrauen weit hinter den Worten, Welches mir ein kleines Stück vom Himmel, Den ich niemals erreichte, zeigte. Ich will spüren, dass ich lebe Alle Zeit, die mir verbleibt Will ich leben, wie ich will Ich will spüren, dass ich lebe Wissen, dass es gut genug war Ich habe niemals vergessen, wer ich war, ich habe es nur ruhen lassen, vielleicht hatte ich auch keine Wahl Nur den Willen da zu sein. Ich will glücklich leben, denn ich bin ich Stark um frei zu sein, sehen wie die Nacht in den Tag übergeht Ich bin hier und mein Leben gehört nur mir Und den Himmel an den ich glaubte, gibt es Ich werde ihn irgendwo finden. Ich will spüren, |
Abraham,
e-mail on June 25, 2011 If we were talking to you on your first day here we would say, "Welcome to planet Earth. There is nothing that you cannot be or do or have. And your work here —your lifetime career— is to seek joy. "As you think thoughts that feel good to you, you will be in harmony with who-you-really-are. And in doing so you will utilize your profound freedom. Seek joy first, and all of the growth that you could ever imagine will come joyously and abundantly unto you." |
| June 26, 8:30, before focusing once more on getting the Hebrew lyrics in line with the rhythm of the Swedish song, I continued to work on updating the Godchannel file "Who is God", and there the second chapter: "The Mother" . And what was it that made me feel exhilarated? That exactly on this day, I find the word "Sound" [since 1997) replaced by the word "Sounding" [the change must have occurred only after May 18, 2010, the last time that I checked this file! Open the file "Who is god", and put "sounding" in CTRL/F "FIND"] |
"In
the class called Quest for the Mother I will tell you "The Mother
has her own voice, You can only know
her essence and hear her 'voice' |
"Love taught us to sing together and to find the sound of song ever deeper within each of us." [from Godchannel>The Language of Heaven quoted already on homepage III, 2001] |
Arad, June 27, 2011
A 360° view
of Caral/Peru ~ See today's sculpture
about "peripheral vision - seeing everything at the same time",
emphasis on TIME
Abraham
(2001), e-mail on June 28, 2011 All is well, and you will never get it done. Life is supposed to be fun. No one is taking score of any kind, and if you will stop taking score so much, you will feel a whole lot better — and as you feel a whole lot better, more of the things that you want right now will flow to you. You will never be in a place where all of the things that you are wanting will be satisfied right now, or then you could be complete — and you never can be. This incomplete place that you stand is the best place that you could be. You are right on track, right on schedule. Everything is unfolding perfectly. All is really well. Have fun. Have fun. Have fun! |
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Abraham,
e-mail on June 27, 2011 Abraham,
(1997), e-mail on June 30, 2011 |
Abraham
(1998), e-mail on June 29, 2011 You want the desire because it is the idea or the goal or the Creation that is responsible for a good amount of Life Force to flow through you. The main event is the Life Force that is flowing through you, not the manifestation. And if you don't believe us now, wait until that manifestation has popped, and realize that its power to draw life through you will be greatly diminished. That's why you keep wanting another goal and another goal and another goal... But what happened after i finished 5 years of my PH.D.? I had a clear practical plan for already 2 days after, And yet I fell into a depression for 18 months, and only my strong discipline in "functioning" and the belief that I was allowed to take my life, when my youngest would be 14, (then he was 6) let me live from day to day.. |
This is yet another day on which I'm re-studying the pages of K.i.s.s.-log August 5-14, 2008, which were mainly dedicated to Franz Rosenzweig, my father-in-'love'.
The reason for this must still be a secret.
There is one sculpture, in which I invented a new root in the Hebrew language [roots are mostly based on 3 consonants], by turning around l-kh-m and kh-l-m into l-m-kh.
Though the "sun-eclipse-trigger", which demanded deep work on myself, was one of the last triggers in my life since then (except the one from Dec. 12, 2010 onward),
I'm sad, that I did not make use of this new root , nor did I internalize the intention of being "a lightning-rod", despite having phrased it so clearly and exactly then.
I, therefore, insert my "daily altar" on 2008_08_08, with a few omissions, in order to once again learn, how "to heal myself and - by extension - Creation into wholeness"
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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY
- August 8, 2008 Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may! 11:24 I desire -during this break of 7 more days towards my 70th birthday - following the healing of "the sun eclipse trigger" - to integrate the deeper insight about my task as a healed, whole color of the One rainbow, with the insight concerning the tragic failure of the life of Franz Rosenzweig, my father-in-law, I desire to apply this integrated insight - NOW - on the feelings & thoughts towards my children. I desire to clarify the newly invented root, term and concept of "lomkhah" as an embrace of "lokhmah" |
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with
my pregnant daughter
1991 |
hodayot [thanksgivings] for today |
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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY-
August 9, 2008 Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may! 6:17 I desire to accept the distance between me & my 3 "Leo-grandkids": Elah Aug.7,Alon:Aug.8, Ayelet: Aug.14 I desire -during this break of 6 more days towards my 70th birthday - following the healing of "the sun eclipse trigger" - to integrate the deeper insight about my task as a healed, whole color of the One rainbow, (through clarifying the newly invented root, term, concept of "lomkhah" as an embrace of "lokhmah") with the insight concerning the tragic failure of the life of Franz Rosenzweig, my father-in-law, I desire to apply this integrated insight - NOW - on the feelings & thoughts towards my children. .... |
Arad, June 28-29, 2011
Still more about sounding and singing: addition
to June 23-26, 2011
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I'm drawn into another family-drama, which exemplifies again, that the 3rd and 4th generation has to bear the effect of "the sins of their fathers" [Ex. 20:4], i.e. the effect of their denials ~~ in this case: of a mother's weakness and self-victimization, I'm opening a "youtube" in my "Bookmarks": three soloist women, ~~~~ like in my youth - my mother, my sister Ursel and me [seen partly], are singing, but singing-rehearsing in the toilets. [see above "Daniel, the conductor, in the toilet"] what the biblical poet expressed in his anguish and the Jewish-christianized Felix Mendelssohn composed for an a-capella trio "I lift up mine eyes unto the mountains: from whence my help comes!" Psalm 121:1 Thank you, my biological mother Maria Guth -have I ever thanked you on this website? - that you taught and encouraged us to sing! |
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While searching for a link to "my sister Ursel", I opened a "wrong" page, Nov. 6, 2008, and thus a coincidence was staged:
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Shoham, June 29, 2011
Still more about Sound & Sounding
| Foreword
by Gregg Braden Three thousand five hundred years ago a shepherd walked away from the safety of his home and the love of his family to follow a calling that only he could hear. ...Moses asked God to reveal His name! ... In what can only be described as one of the most profound, mysterious, and compassionate revelations of human history, God answered Moses with the actual sound of the heavenly code that had never been shared on Earth before that moment: the sound of His personal name—the Divine Name... Rather than the general names that biblical texts often use to describe the character or attributes of God, such as El Elyon (God Most High), El Shaddai (God Almighty), or I Am, God revealed a unique, direct, tangible, and very personal name through his gift to Moses. In Exodus 3:15, God describes the signifi cance of what he has done, stating: “This shall be My name forever, This My appellation for all eternity.” Throughout the many years I have known Jonathan as a colleague and friend, many of our weekly conversations have revolved around the topic of the Divine Name. Our friendship and deep reverence for the power of this ancient code became even deeper with the discovery that God’s ancient name is encoded in the DNA of all life (see my book The God Code, Hay House, 2004) and the statistical proof that this discovery was beyond chance. ....In a way that only he can do, Jonathan reveals how the Divine Name affects our bodies, relationships, and lives. And then he invites us to go one step further—he shares the ancient instructions for creating the sound of God’s name in a way that honors the reason it has remained hidden for centuries. Knowing that the Divine N • ame lives within every one of us gives us the reason to feel beyond the differences that have separated us in the past. • Sounding the Divine Name catapults us into the next level of acceptance, anchoring our feeling at the deepest levels of awareness. |
 After the movie " As in Heaven" [s.above] emphasized "the sound in each of us", it's exhilarating to get a group e-mail about the SOUND in the Divine Name. I love the idea, that YHWH is a SOUND. Though there is a logical answer to the question: why is YHWH not to be pronounced? Not at all, because the name is too holy! YHWH is not a noun but a verb: he/it happened, happens, will happen. A name like Zeus would "make an image" [Ex.20:3], would freeze 'God's' vibration, 'God's' sound. If, for practical reasons, YHWH needs to be verbalized it is done by saying"Ha-Shem"= The Name". scroll to the bottom song of all AUschwitz-BirkenAU-pages I won't buy the book, as I don't buy any other book, since I need to cordon off the flood of info, whoever relevant, stimulating and interesting it might be. But I shall s o u n d YHWH - I shall vibrate vowels a~e~i~o~u in a way, that overtones will reflect the basic sound, and I shall feel the joy to be Me> |
Introduction
by sound-healer Jonathan Goldman ...Of all the vehicles for effecting positive change that I’ve encountered, the most potent has been the use of our own voice. And of all the ways of using our voice, the single most powerful sound that I’ve discovered and utilized has been that of the Divine Name. ... The premise of The Divine Name is this: there is a universal sound that when properly intoned can bring us harmony and healing on both a personal and a planetary level. The fact that this vocalization is composed of vowels that can resonate both the physical body and subtle energy fields and that when properly intoned, it sounds strikingly like the personal name of God found in the Abrahamic traditions... ....In truth, ...YHWH, the tetragrammaton—as I interpret it, is composed purely of vowels. This sequence of vowels can resonate both the physical and subtle energy centers of anyone who intones it. .... ...Part III of The Divine Name is a step-by-step process of vibratory activation focusing on sonic exercises designed to teach you how to intone the Divine Name. You’ll begin by experiencing the power of vowels to resonate your chakras, and progress to being able to sound the Divine Name using a special series of vowels. .... ...this journey into the realm of the Divine Name-fi rst learning about the significance of this name, then about the power of sacred sound, and finally how to actually generate this sound yourself. To all the people who have already received and experienced the Divine Name through workshops .... To my beloved wife, Andi—you know I couldn’t have created The Divine Name without you. You understand my work and my purpose. With your love and wisdom, you have helped me in ways far beyond just editing this book—we are partners together in all that we do. ... my thankfulness for your essence and for your being with me. You are my favorite psychotherapist and sound healer. And of course, you are my Angel of Love. .... To all the beings of light and love who work with and through me, ... to Shamael, Angel of Sacred Sound; and to the Voice that continues to guide me. |
Shoham, June 30, 2011
Coping with a problem of
our Planet
"TheGoodNews" inform me
of a
new Technology of making use of Solar Power.
Despite my scepticism, which - I admit - interferes with focosing
on what I want....., I studied the info a bit.
With such enormous efforts all over the World I desire to believe,
that the World will ask the right questions concerning the production of ENERGY
and then find the RIGHT answers....
Coping with
a problem of my Family
Mika:
"children
waiting for the bus"
. She drew
this for Grandma towards her
coming to Shoham on June 28, 2011,
but what is strange, that she called the vehicle: "Oto-Bayit" -
a house-car, a house on wheels,
though she now heard for the first time,
that Grandma, indeed, drove
and inhabited a "house on wheels" for many years.
House
of Wheels
(Beit Hagalgalim) founded in 1979, works intensively with 350 children, teens and young adults with severe physical disabilities to provide them with the essential life and social skills needed to integrate into Israeli society.
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After
I sent the carefully sculpted letter to my eldest granddaughter, I searched for a group e-mail in the "trash-box", received on June 26 from Igal Tartakovsky, whom I learnt to appreciate during the Walk about Love 2009 
I , indeed, found Igal's quest for volunteers relevant, and forwarded it to Elah together with a second letter. 
Only after I had sent this second mail off, too, I felt urged to look into the organization of Igal: "House on Wheels", also inspired by a strange "House on Wheels", which Mika had painted towards welcoming me at Shoham - "with "Panda-colors, Grandma!" , she tried to please me! So I asked Elah to forgive me for writing a third time, telling her, that I opened the English page of that NGO, and that I was impressed by the gates-for-growth for volunteers. 
[Elah, now almost 24, with her mother at the
organ in my Mobile Home in 1988] |
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Coping with the problem of all humans - the problem of self-worth
While Elah is now almost 24, Mika, her stepsister , 5 1/2, will enter school in 2 months and her mother learns "parenthood as a matter of miracles" and about how to not fall into the trap of former generations, which equated the worth of a human being with his achievements. If you are not successful, if you are not better than others, then you are "no good", you are "not worthy". That this is changing now in the world, is truly one of the signs, if not the main sign, that "Heaven-on-'Earth" is close, The article , which Efrat studied, pointed to a 15 year old song, which puts the message of "I am what I am and I am alright" in the singing mouth and throat, eyes and movements of a little girl: |
"exactly
as I am - it's good" 
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The Shield of Love: lyrics and tune: Shai Or [means "gift" "light"] Chorus: "I almost, almost, almost fell deep down into a hole of shame but a moment before I began to fall I suddenly felt the feeling~~~ and I remembered ~~~ that ~~~. exactly exactly as I am - it is good that I am whole. I'm not lacking anything and I am allowed to love myself!" |
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Shoham, July 1, 2011
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Abraham
(2000), e-mail on July 1, 2011 Who you really are is Nonphysical Energy focused in a physical body, knowing full well that all is well and always has been and always will be. You are here to experience the supreme pleasure of concluding new desires, and then of bringing yourself into vibrational alignment with the new desire that you've concluded — for the purpose of taking thought beyond that which it has been before |
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A
song that was overdue, created during these days at Shoham: Enwrap me, my Shekhinah, in your feeling! Free every judgment about how I felt that I don't have a right to FEAR or to lack of full-fill-ment... Free me and enwrap me! And all my joy is in the very fact that I feel! And all my joy is in the very fact that I feel! [see more in SongGame] |
Arad, July 4, 2011
I saw Rabbi Ohad Ezrachi's clip "Something
out of Chaos" -with a beautiful song and beautiful images,
and I felt sad again, that for me 'the time has not yet come' ~~~to co-create
and live LOVE with a PEER,
as long as I still need to sing that song above about releasing
all judgments about The Will, my feelings.
On the other hand, when I now completed and tore page after page of the novel
"La Femme Rompue",
which, in summer 1980, played a crucial role in maturing
me towards the very option of leaving my
husband,
I was joyous, that I never needed to cope with emotions which are as "banale"
as "feeling betrayed",
emotions Simone
de-Beauvoir describes ~ along some 200 pages ~ from ever so many
perspectives.
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During
the recent weeks, I re-read the book every night before sleep, checking if there was still something to learn from. I delighted in some very wise passages, as well as in beautifully phrased observations but for me there was nothing to learn. That's why I tore each completed page and let it flutter to the carpet from my mattrass. The last time I did so, was a night of little sleep. So the next morning I took this picture, for the sake of remembering "The Broken Woman". The last passage is: Je n'ai pas voulu que Colette [her daughter] rest dormir: il faudra bien que je m'habitue. Je me suis assise devant la table. J'y suis assise. Et je regarde ces deux portes: le bureau de Maurice [her husband, who finally left in order to live alone]; notre chambre. Fermées. Une porte fermée, quelque chose qui guette derrière. Elle ne s'ouvrira pas si je ne bouge pas. Ne pas bouger; jamais. Arrêter le temps et la vie. Mais je sais que je bougerai. La porte s'ouvrira lentement et je verrai ce qu'il y a derrière la porte. C'est l'avenir. La porte de l'avenir va s'ouvrir. Lentement. Impla-cablement. Je suis sur le seuil. Il n'y a que cette porte et ce que guette derriere. J'ai peur. et je ne peux appeler personne au secours. J'ai peurs. |
S E E i n g
After
I was again pushed towards the blind-seeing Meir Schneider (s. SongGame>May 22-July 4, 2011) I got a group e-mail from Rabbi Ohad Ezrachi - about Tammuz He says, that this present lunar month - with so much sun - is "the month of S E E i n g". "We often see a person only as the function s/he fulfils in our lives." I know that! It has hit me painfully over and over again for 50 years: My mother! I didn't see her as a human being with her own needs and pains. As a child I couldn't see anything but her being my mother (and - as so many children - noticed only those points, where she, in my suffering eyes, was a "bad" mother...) Nowadays I do see the human in the bus-driver, when I pay my ticket! I do see the lifeguard in the pool and the security-guard at its entry. |
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When
my children begged me, to come and radiate my peace on a difficult family drama, I hurried to get to the rare bus which would bring me to Tel-Aviv from where I would get to Shoham. I hurried - and forgot my glasses! This was the opportunity, for finally renewing my glasses, scratched and distorted since the "Walk about Love", when we came to Arad in 2009. I had postponed this renewal, in order to force myself to train for "Better Vision". In any case, I would no longer agree to "multifocal glasses", which I wore since 1987, but ask the optometrist (right), to whom Efrat (from her back) had brought me, to subscribe glasses just for watching TV and reading road-signs etc. |
March
27, 2009: "And then rain-drops fall on the non-scratched lense:"  "My glasses above - those~scratched~glasses above - watch, that I identify with ALL-that-Is, the Cosmic Human who heals!"
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Abraham
), e-mail on July 4, 2011 The most valuable skill or talent that you could ever develop is that of directing your thoughts toward what you want —to be adept at quickly evaluating all situations and then quickly coming to the conclusion of what you most want —and then giving your undivided attention to that. There is a tremendous skill in deliberately directing your own thoughts that will yield results that cannot be compared with results that mere action can provide. |
 Pam's Poem 'Live, live, live' |
 Adam's Dream for a world of wholeness |
Kathleen's
Poem: The biggest Love 
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Arad, July 6, 2011
| "TheGoodNews"
inform me, that the Israeli Weizmann
Institute of Science, was declared as "Best Place to Work in Academia 2011" outside the US [see "The Scientist"]. Among many other criteria the question: "Are you satisfied with your work" got 5 points out of 5. So there, too, an evolution has taken place >>>>>>> in the direction for which I've striven so hard all my life. That there could even be a question about "feeling satisfied with your work", was "out of the question" , when I - since the age of 16 - began to ask this people around me and help them in their process to answer it. And yet - the question is not yet asked right out loud, when it comes to children past the age of 6, 7, 8, 9, after which their natural zest-and-fulfillment tends to fade away. And what about the most endangered "species", the adolescents? In a time, in which most of them no longer have to toil with survival laboring? It's 8 days ago, that, I was again faced with "NON-sense" of such an adolescent among my grandkids. |
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What helps me to cope with this, is a remark by my friend Yanina: "It seems to me, that only good will come out of this staging: it reminds me of the wrestling between Jacob and his angel. To hear this from her!! who knows not much about biblical metaphors!! Nor did she know of my 6 pages about "Ya'aqov wrestling with himself", which I created when I had to wrestle with my grandson eight years ago. Last night, before going to sleep, I did something unusual on the computer: I checked my "bookmark">Bible and felt like opening "The Ratner Museum" and - without any association to Yanina's metaphor - once more watched the beloved sculpture "Jakob's Angel". |
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Then, when
I couldn't sleep (coping with a scratching mouse somewhere in my room) , I blindly pulled a postcard from my collection (a collection from all those years of my life when people still used such devices for communication). And lo - my favorite "illustration" of Ja'aqov's wrestling! - the last masterpiece of Eugene Delacroix, discovered by me -"by chance" - in 1986 in the church of St. Sulpice in Paris [now famous because of the novel "The Da-vinci Code"] It's only on this morning (I learnt that my son - after another "day of shootings of 20 hours - passed another test in "Masterchef" ), that I see the coincidence between the Ratner sculpture and the Delacroix painting. The wrestling of 3 generations: T. with himself, my son with himself, I with myself, till each of us and the seemingly outside wrestler/angel will become one and the same, i.e. "whole". Again: what is the first stage of wholeness? Accepting myself, loving myself ! (one of 3 desires, which Efrat yesterday voiced for her 46th year). And what helps me to begin to love myself? Training in grate-full-ness and discovering what grants me zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment ! |
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Still on July 6, 2011 - as if something important is missing in the sculpture above which I created this morning:
in "Osim Seder Khadash" ("making a new order", in Channel 22+23, 4 times a week, each day with 6 interviews about current matters)
I learnt about the "Ayalim Foundation" - a beautiful woman told about one of the students' communities, her own:
in the center of Acco - Jewish and Arab students in service of the old town.
- what can I say more about "Ayalim" than what appears as the entry on their Hebrew as on their English website:
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While I watched the fascinating video of Ayalim in Action (in English), and on youtube (in Hebrew) I was hit by the name of this student seen with one of her "foster-children" in a kibbutz-like community "Neve-Or": Michal Hezkelovich. The family name comes from "Yecheskel", [Ezechiel]. I had just completed to learn and sing the funny song "The Prophet Ezechiel"! Is there a meaning to this constellation that beloved ancient prophet Yecheskel, that scientific institute called after Chaim Weizmann, one of my beloved idols of true Zionism and these modern Jewish-Arab "Zionists"? Will it help the present adolescents "to fulfill themselves"? |
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Abraham (2000), e-mail on July 6, 2011 Law of Attraction says, "That which is like unto itself is drawn." Which means vibrations are always matched. So as you experience the contrast which inspires the new idea within you, this new idea —this desire — whether it is a strong one or a soft one, is summoning unto itself proportionately. And as it summons, it is always answered. It is the basis of our Universe: When it is asked, it is always given. The confusion that humans feel is that they think they are asking with their words — or even with their action — and sometimes you are. But the Universe is not responding to your words or your action. The Universe is responding to your vibrational calling. |
Abraham (1998), e-mail on July 7, 2011 You are on the leading edge of thought, taking thought beyond that which it has been before. Who cares what thoughts have led up to this. You're standing in the fresh now, and many of the thoughts that you vehemently oppose are the very thoughts that have given you the desire that has attracted the clarity of where you now stand. No matter how awful you think they might be, all were of value in the evolution forward. Every one of them. |
July 7, 2011:
After the
completion of the Mika-pages I re-studied and worked on the
last page of 2007 that was specifically dedicated to "Closeups-to-my-Past"
Arad, July 8, 2011
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And I will
plant them upon their land, and they shall never again be uprooted out of their land Book Amos - end |
Another stanza added itself to this tune of a true Zionist who died at the age of 29, in 1965 |
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See other Prophecies of Heaven-on-Earth in the Hebrew Bibel, which I keep singing
The Prophet Amos is not the only one who used
this beautiful metaphor:
"I shall plant them in their land".
See
my adaptation of Johann Sebastian's song of Jeremiah's usage of the same metaphor.
It is a song of Full-fill-ment, but it makes
me sad.
Amos "promised" this in the name of God in the 8th century B.C.
It didn't help the 10 tribes, exiled by the Assyrians in 721 B.C., to come
back to their land.
It may have encouraged the "Jews", the people of Judaea, exiled
by the Babylonians in 583 B.C., to dream,
and some of them indeed came back , and thus fulfilled the first part of the
prophecy.
But what about the promise, that they would never again be
uprooted out of their land?
They deserted it and were deserted - big time - in 70 A.C. and even more after
133 A.C.,
for almost 2000 years. [See
my "Synopsis"]
Then, in our time, they indeed came back, and again the prophecy fulfilled
itself in them.
But what about the last sentence - now????
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You can never have a happy ending
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The very
fact, that some of the people of Judaea never stopped believing in all those prophecies, though they came from the mouths of the very men who scourged them for their "abominations", proves "The Law of Attraction". No other tribe or nation of that or later times "came back to their land". But what about the contrary - those Israelis today - who feel anger and pain, since they fear that "Israel" once again barters away, what we have achieved so painstakingly? What does "Abraham" mean by "until you do something about the way you are feeling"? Later, when searching for my sequence "Celebrate what is right with the world", I came across the quote to the right:: |
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Of course, this isn't enough! The danger of "dumping" feelings
is still great.
What I've been learning for 25 years from RUOW
and Godchannel. com, is,
that e-motions [from the Latin verb "movere" = to move !!]
[see the
last of the 5 puzzle-pieces of "how I learnt Moving Emotion techniques"]
have to be moved physically so they can evolve into seeing,
what "Abraham",
"Go
Gratitude", "Jones
Dewitt", "GoodNews"
want us to see.
Singing the biblical prophecies with joy and gratitude is possible for me,
because I'm continuously moving the emotions which contradict the joy.
I believe "I'm not the only one"
[John Lennon's song: "Imagine"],
Amos' prophecy - this time - will be fulfilled fully, wholly!
Also on this day: since the words above are a bit too bombastic,
I want to contrast them with a small example of "doing
something about the way I'm feeling":
the
wound, which I attracted above my left heel, when a tiny twig under my
foot snapped into it!
As long as I worry:
"4 weeks and you are still not healed!"
there cannot be "a happy ending".
But if I "look for things to appreciate"
- for instance singing the line in my
body-song
"Replace the infection with loving affection
between all the cells of thy Kingdom to be",
"anything that does match it will gravitate into
my experience!"
When my family visited me at Arad on Shabbat, July 9, 2011, Efrat asked about my wound.
"My experience is - though no doctor will tell you so - that antiseptic ointments are efficient for a while.
But if after a while they were not helpful, continuing with them even encourages the infection.
I suggest, that you stop applying anything at all."
Already a day after, on July 10, I can see that under the now small scar all redness has disappeared.
There is still a faint pain and itching,~~ but doesn't the very advice of Efrat prove "Abraham" right?
Continuation of "More Nourishment in 2011" in ~~~~~ New Pattern of Manifestation