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InteGRATion into
GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound
[see - below - the continuation of our re-union in the Desert on June 11, 2011]
Purify our heart to serve you in truth
| 2007_09_08 See below, how this became relevant for me 2 years later, 2009_09_08, the day, on which my ex-husband would have become 87 |
lyrics:
From the Jewish Shabbat Prayer |
tune: Chassidic I must have learnt this song already during the time I studied Hebrew at the Ulpan-Aqiba in Natanya Sept.13-Oct.31, 1960 |
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The original song consists of just this one line:
"purify our heart to serve you in truth"
A witness tells how for her this song became meaningful in Auschwitz
 
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September 8-10, 2009
continuation
from "I have a heart like a bird - that's why I love so much"
This is one of those songs, which "say it all"....
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2009_09_08-09
Purify our heart to serve you in truth |
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2009_09_08-Listen
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pretty clip with a different tune, from which I also took the pulsing heart image. Following all my "heart-work" in these last days this tune magnitized to itself 3 additional stanzas, which interpret the old prayer in a way, that it is relevant for me today |
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Heaven
on Earth: Ecstasy "Purify our heart to serve you in truth Purify our heart to serve you in truth" Expand, my heart! Contract, my heart! with the exstasis of grate-full-ness, of zest-full-ness, of full-fill-ment! Then the heart of my fellow, too, will expand and contract with the exstasis of grate-full-ness, of zest-full-ness, of full-fill-ment! Inhale, my lungs! Exhale, my lungs! with the exstasis of grate-full-ness, of zest-full-ness, of full-fill-ment! Then the lungs of my fellow, too, will inhale and exhale with the exstasis of grate-full-ness, of zest-full-ness, of full-fill-ment! Open, my eyes! Close, my eyes! with the exstasis of grate-full-ness, of zest-full-ness, of full-fill-ment! Then the eyes of my fellow, too, will open and close with the exstasis of grate-full-ness, of zest-full-ness, of full-fill-ment! |
Ecstasy through grate-full-ness,
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On February 2, 2011 another stanza created itself -
a stanza of gratitude
(see bio-context in Learn&Live
16>Febr.2, 2011).
It can be sung either instead of the first or after
the last stanza:
As to "ani modah"
- I thank
see the special page "Wholeness",
created in 2004
and as to "ani modah be-khol me'odi"
,
see one of many
contexts in which I explain the Shma Yisrael and the interpretation of
the ancient rabbis:
in K.i.s.s.-Log 2008_08_11-
in the right frame to Franz Rosenzweig's letter
dated October 19, 1918.
and the reference to the little book modah be-khol me'odi
which I sculpted in 1995.
My Search for it is mentioned in "How
I've been learning to Live" >March 3,
2010.
Since all 48 copies were distributed to friends in 1995,
only a professionally recorded cassette exists.
Of this only a small part has been transferred into writing so far and is
not yet inserted on Healing-K.i.s.s.
May 1979 - Rachel and Rafael
Intensely focused on my heart-work on the Song-page:
"My heart is like a bird,
therefore I love so much",
I prayed to be given symbols which would help me to hold on to my understandings
and apply them.
So this morning, I felt like opening the page of this day in Song-Game, the
birthday of my husband.
And there it was: "Purify our heart so we
may serve you in truth".
The associations I once had to the old-fashioned terms "purify"
and "serve God" are replaced by
"may my heart be balanced
in ecstasy,
because only from this ecstasy,
not from my suffering with or for the sake of the bored-to-death people
can I make them search for what will cause them ecstasy on their part,
ecstasy born of grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment."
I found my crown - concerning challenging feelings see
song"I inhale God - I exhale love to whatever
I feel just now!").
I found the jewel in my crown - the four graces-process of judgment release,
evoked by me, "a Cosmic Human",
I found the sun shining in the jewel of my crown - only my own ecstasy will
catalyze my fellow humans' ecstasy.
From, in and back from the pool the new lyrics came to the old song.
I am so grate-full!
For the lyrics not only show,
how I can kindle grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
in other people,
but also how these three have to be brought to life by Body,
more exactly: by the three main moving in-moving-out movements of Body:
my heart expands and contracts
my lungs breathe in and breathe out
my eye-lids open and close
Rafael
said, in that one-night in Jerusalem 1960:
"You have first to become strong yourself,
before you are allowed to take the hand of a stronger one."
He meant my childish dependency on being helped by "God".
What I heard in these last days, is similar:
"Your suffering of other people's frustration
with their life and work,
their lack of grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment
- a suffering of 55 years now
will not help them.
It is time,
that you yourself be a Laser beam of ecstasy,
of grate-full-ness, zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment,
anchored physically in the expansion and contraction
of your physical heart, your physical breathing, your physical seeing."
2009_09_09
Masaru Emoto's observations
of crystals....
The message of "H2O"=
"two parts of gratitude and one part of Love will balance us"
I see photos of crystals - with a length up to 11
m and a weight up to 55 t - in the
Crystal Cave of Naiva, Mexico,
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INNER SPACE TERRANAUTS: This week, while astronauts orbited high above Earth installing new science equipment in the laboratories of the International Space Station, a team of terranauts descended into the Earth on their own mission of discovery. "We were not in uter space, but inner space," says explorer George Kourunis, who sends this picture from the Cave of Crystals in Naica, Mexico. Three hundred meters below Naica lies an alien world of giant crystals and nearly unbearable heat. "With an air temperature of 122 F [50 degreew Celsius]and a relative humidty of more than 90%, it feels like 228 F [109 degrees Celsius] in the cave." "To survive in this extreme environment, we enter the cave wearing special suits with cooling packs inside and a backpack respirator which allows us to breathe chilled air. Even with all this equipment, I will still be able in the cave for no more than 45 minutes at a time." Unprotected, even a scant 10 minutes could prove fatal - and that is why this amazing cavern discovered by miners nine yeas ago remains relatively unexplored. "Some of the crystals are 11 meters long and weigh as much as 55 tongs," marvels Kourounis."We had to be extremely cautious not to slip and fall. Doing so could get you impaled." |
and I imagine the hearts of suffering people
as such crystals,
and if my own heart will be in "ecstasy" of grate-full-ness and
therefore (?) in "ecstasy" of zest and full-fill-ment,
I might influence these hearts just like Masaru Emoto says that consciousness
influences crystals.
And I understood - thank you for this morning insight - after the e-mail talk
with YOU yesterday night
that "ecstasy" is not necessarily joy, but simply the state of FEELINGS
into which LOVE IS EXHALED,
FEELINGS WHICH ARE WHOLLY ACCEPTED HOWEVER UNBEARABLE THEY SEEM TO BE AT FIRST
IF I INHALE GOD and EXHALE LOVE to THESE FEELINGS ~~~~
THEY WILL TURN INTO ECSTASY!
Doesn't ecstasy mean - standing outside of myself - i.e. outside of my narrow mind's interpretation and judgment of a feeling?
"A cosmic human" - doesn't this mean to feel all feelings vicariously for all humans' feelings?
And the difference between ordinary humans'
feelings and a cosmic human's feelings is,
that by grate-full-ness combined with the love which I exhale on them
- expanded and contracted in the physical heart
I truly breathe H2O not only into the other person or persons
but onto the entire planet, and perhaps creation (if it depends on H2O)
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I'm trying to give my own meaning to "ecstasy".
It is not - at first - "rapture and bliss" (as used in Godchannel
and elsewhere).
It is "standing outside" , and I understand it as "standing
outside" of my personality.
If "God" had already succeeded in uniting Spirit and Will in Heart,
then s/he would be the laser-beam,
which would create grate-full-ness, zest and full-fill-ment in all human aspects.
Evolution has not yet reached that integration
and therefore it is up to me to propel it.
My new song is optimal in that it points from my body's threefold balanced
expansion-contraction
as influencing (=flowing into) My-Other (how beautiful
again: the existence of re'i and zulati in Hebrew!).
What I - as a person and as "God" - have to do,
is
(1) to move and womb ALL my feelings, including the "black hole of depression",
including the suffering by identifying with the sufferings of others,
by the body process of "inhaling God - exhaling love to whatever I am
feeling just now".
(2) to melt away all my judgments, against others, against the World, against
myself, in past and present,
by identifying with the judged and the judge and saying:
"I am sorry, forgive me, thank you,
I love you"/
(3) to believe in and live
being a Cosmic Human, or a color of the One rainbow,
thus knowing, that my ecstatic heart, or my heart in ecstasy,
will influence all the world which is in me,
like "I am grate-full" influences the C2O of water
and creates the most beautiful crystal.
I emphasize this again:
Ecstasy does - at first - not mean joy and elation and rapture and bliss,
it only means, that I feel, move and womb ALL my feelings "vicariously"
for everyone else.
A definition of ecstasy with which I resonate is in
Wikipedia
"It is used in philosophy usually to mean "outside-of-itself."
One's consciousness, for example, is not self-enclosed,
one can be conscious of an Other person, who falls well outside of one's own
self.
In a sense, consciousness is usually, "outside of itself,"
in that its object (what it thinks about, or perceives) is not itself.
This is in contrast to the term enstasis which means from standing-within-oneself
which relates to contemplation from the perspective of a speculator."
[some years ago I was able to create
animations, and among them these hearts in "Moving
and evolving Emotions Manual"]
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By My Attention to Things, I Am Making
Choices...
e-mail quote on September 13, 2009 |
September 17, 2009
Rehearsing what I'm learning
Instead of constantly blaming "spiritual"
etc. people
for spreading half-truths,
and for not applying what they believe in in their lives
(Y. saw a comparison between something I said and Buddhism,
and when I asked: how is this applied in your life,
she hesitated: "it's not really applied, it's only
a thought!")
I can now be grate-full and appreciative of those
"parts of me",
who do have insights and who do spread insights, even if partial,
even if they don't live up to it,
for I – a part of them - do have the more comprehensive insight
and I – a part of them – do apply what I understand.
So, it is not really important what "they" understand, or what "they"
apply.
What is important is
that I appreciate and turn attention to what they do
right!
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Abraham:
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Also on Sept.17, 2009
Two insights in the pool:
I'm still only seeing what I left undone on my website,
Just like in Ramat-Hadar, when I realized,
that whenever I watched my garden,
I never saw what I had succeeded in doing,
I only felt pain about what I had not yet managed to do.
If I want to get things "done", I have to be grate-full for everything
I've done.
G r a t e – f u l l f o r e v e
r y t h i n g in e v e r y
m o m e n t.
That grammar in German and English: I
should, ich sollte, instead of I
must,
indicates how widespread this feeling is: 'falling
short of what I should do'.
Is there in biblical language even a word for :
"ich muss"?
Leave alone: "ich sollte"?
Even in English there is no infinitive for the word
"must", "ought to", "should"!
I forgot the second insight!
I must remember, that I do not have to remember.
What is important for me, will return once again!
An hour later I remembered the second insight:
There is still this "desire" in me, to be "slim"!
Instead of being grate-full for the exact weight of my Body
(height around 1:74 m – weight around 74 kg)
I'm still constantly nagging my precious body: you should loose a few pounds.
Suddenly, while sitting in the empty jacuzzi ,
with my back to one end , facing – beyond the pond – the pool
with the people,
a thought appeared:
'But why do I want to separate myself from the masses of people
who are suffering from overweight?
Isn't it bad enough that I feel so triggered when I see a fat person?
I have to move the hole in my wholeness and heal this fear of overweight,
heal it until I'll be able to womb all my fat, i.e. unattractive, therefore
unworthy, "parts"!'
On Sept.18, 2009 I discovered a pretty metaphor of
what the feelings need -
in RedSeaPartnerSHIP>
The Pathetic Partneror - a letter to the Aqaba volleyball girls:
An image which symbolizes the threefold "ecstasis"
of sky, earth, human.
I was inspired by this statement but don't really feel and understand it yet.
(September 22, 2009)
2011
Re-union of my WHOLE family with Naftali and Naomi Raz,
June 10-11, 2011
See
context in Nourishment June 14-15, 2011
- Page VI- 
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sequence of photos (phI=a photo by Immanuel)
is spread on 7 Song-Pages. I so much enjoyed the constantly changing "electrons and atoms" within this temporary oneness, unity, union, unison [which - naturally - also included fosterchild Yanna] that I photographed the changing "constellations" again and again. Since this "repetition" of "similar" scenes might be boring to look at, I'm going to play a game, and - in "constellation-photos" - mention those who are NOT visible. Those who are seen only from the back or only behind someone's head or body, are "visible" ! All 20 "players" are always mentioned according to t h i s o r d e r : |
Naftali Naomi |
See the "dynasty" of Rafael Rosenzweig's family on the pages of Itamar's Bar-Mitzvah in Febr. 2011 |
Everybody left the observation-point above the Grand
Makhtesh,
so I allowed myself to take a vast view of this magnificent desert,
in order to balance my only other person-less photo of the desert:
the view of what I would call a "closeup of the desert". [see
3rd pagee]
I
again drove in the car of Naftali Naomi, since Itamar wanted to take my place in Micha's car. This time we triggered each other, "like two cats", mentioned Na'omi. Our memories often resemble "Rashomon", and sometimes not yet healed pain is stirred up.... But then we reached "Havat-Ne'ot", one of the "Khavot Bodedim" , "Desert Farms for Individuals", which were once propagated - (and then almost strangled) - in order to limit the "expansion" of Bedouins. Now, as Naftali informed me, Eyal Yezreeli, for a short time (1989) my Desert Vision partner, has won the fight with the authorities and those farms are now legal and supported. |
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When I wanted to catch, how "my people" passed
by this pretty mosaic of the desert farm,
I felt irritated by a "non belonging" couple between Arnon in front
and Uri behind them.
But when I myself reached the space in front of this adobe-structure,
I saw the "disturbing" woman, being hugged by ......Ronnit!
It turned out, a) that Ronnit and Sepha [Josephina Hassin?]
had met each other (in a workshop?),
and b) that the couple came just now from a weekend at "Succah
in the Desert"!
Ronnit revealed my identity and Sepha and I had a quite deep talk, right then,
and again later, after we all had been served food in the farm's restaurant.
Last continuation of the Reunion of our Family with Naftali~Naomi in the Desert on Song Game 2007_09_09