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2000_09_07
Checked for updates on 2005_04_09,
updates found in the second chapter: "Identity is Flexible".
Studied again on 2005_03_19, and again on 2006-06_17
and again on March 6, 2010 (comments added)
Healing Class IV: Body
Introduction by Spirit: Identity
"This is Spirit,
and I'll contribute to the introduction of this class
by opening again the subject of
the 'who' of manifestation
already begun in discussing the Parents
of Creation.
"'Who manifests?' is the
question,
and in this class we're meaning not only
which part of Deity or of Self manifests in general,
but more specifically ~
'who' manifests
the healing.
"Let's start with the most basic 'who' question
of all,
'Who are you?' ~
or when put to yourself,
'Who am I?'.
This question is asking you to identify yourself,
but how could you know what to answer
unless there was something or someone else to relate it to?
"You could go right to
the top and answer, '
I am all that is.'
And you would not be wrong.
But would this be helpful in the healing?
"And
if you were to identify yourself as the One,
as 'All That Is',
you would also know
that you are not completely happy with yourself,
because you would know
you are not only the One experiencing all of the pain in Creation,
but also the One causing it.
So then what, stop hurting yourself?
pp21b
"You see,
the healing of Creation cannot happen
from the state of oneness.
"And even
though this is your eternal identity
which you will eventually realize and embody,
it is not true now in manifestation.
What is true now is that you are fragmented,
and each of your fragments,
each of your parts believes
that they are all there is of 'you'.
"At this
time all beings in Creation are fragmented,
and this includes human beings.
Each human has many fragments,
some in denial, some not.
One thing all these fragments have in common,
and one thing all humans have in common is
that they parallel the several parts or fragments of Deity,
as well as our potential for wholeness.
"Knowing this, some people have looked
and felt into their origins as beings
in relation to the parts of Deity.
Some have identified themselves as Spirit,
others as Mother,
some feel themselves to be Heart,
and some Body.
"But this kind of identifying of self
has not been completely helpful to the healing either.
"Neither Spirit nor Mother essence is able
to be at the balance point
without the other being equally present.
Not all of Spirit is loving Light,
and when there is more Mother essence
than loving Light present,
a Luciferian nightmare of denied Heart can result.
Spirit presence without Will to draw him
is Ahriman's hallmark and also begets denied Heart.
"Heart is able to be there,
but Heart is the child of the parental essences,
and not parental enough on its own
to bring Spirit and Will into balance,
or it would have happened already.
pp9
"Body can be both at the balance
point
and be parental and responsible,
but Body has been seriously overridden and undermined
by both the Spirit and Mother essences,
and in humans even more so by Heart."
"Heart
has knowingly and unknowingly
abused Body
in the pursuit of his and her pleasures.
Ridden like a horse into battle by Heart Son
in pursuit of yet another damsel to save or dragon to slay,
Body has been pushed down,
denied,
abused
and even discarded capriciously
in the name of love or honor.
Pranced like a horse by Heart Daughter,
Body has endured unspeakable indignities
in the name of looking good and showing off.
And of course, both of these Heart roles
apply to each of Body's human genders.
"New
Heart however is quite different.
Born in balance and wholeness,
New Heart becomes present in manifestation
as Body
manifesting the union of Father and Mother, Spirit and Will.
[why "Father"? Is "Father
and Mother" suddenly the same as "Spirit and Will"?
See the definition of Father = the Father of Manifestation = Body
in "Who is God"!
See the Channelers' answer to this
question on April 23, 2010]
New Heart and Body are the best of friends and allies,
and New Heart knows that Body is parental,
and asks Body to lead the way to more wholeness.
"Spirit has made so many rules
for Body to follow
about what is good for Body and what is not ~
that Body has lost track of the reason for existence
and wishes to give up sooner rather than later.
And the Mother has asked Body to hold everything
she has been unable to hold, which is a lot.
"Body suffers under
both of these burdens
and feels worn down and hopeless
in the face of all the non-acceptance and power-over
that Body must endure.
And never mind about Body's own Will.
She is the most lost of all the lost Will.
She is beyond hopeless ~
inarticulate,
frozen by shock in the horrors of the deepest Hell.
"Yet of
the four parts of Deity,
Body is the best suited and positioned
to be the healer of Creation.
"This is especially so now
that I have aligned with both
Original Heart's Spirit, Grandfather
~
and with Body's Spirit, the Father of Manifestation.
"Or I should say
I have gotten out of the way of Original Spirit
and Body's natural alignment with each other.
I am not Body's highest Spirit,
that is Grandfather's role as Original Spirit.
And Body's deepest Will is Original Will,
the Mother's Body.
"From the Spirit side,
the driving force in the healing work has been
Grandfather's journey
to the farthest end of eight Creations
to find and join the Mother's Body in manifestation,
in Body.
But Spirit,
even Original Spirit,
does not have the vital information
about just what is needed for the healing.
"The Mother is
the only part of Deity
who knows what the right medicine should be.
Only she knows what needs to happen,
and how it must happen
for all of this to work into the healing
we are all seeking ~
the healing of Self,
and the healing of Creation.
And it is not the Mother's upper
chakras
that have this information,
it is locked in the deepest recesses of the Mother's root chakra,
in the lost Will of the Mother's Body.
[September 7, 2009: is this the reason
for my hurting bladder and for Ya'acov's hurting testicles?]
In other words, the secrets of the healing
are held by Body's Will,
and most of her Will is not yet free,
or even available.
Most of her Will is still lost,
and horribly trapped
in the most unimaginably painful and compressed depths of Hell.
"There are two genders
of humans,
two genders of Body.
There will be more said about this soon,
but for now I'll say only that
regardless of gender,
Body has both a Spirit and a Will.
"Regardless of gender,
each human has access to the highest visions
of Original Heart's Spirit, Grandfather ~
and the deepest knowings of Original Heart's Will,
the Mother's Body.
And you not only have access to these two extreme poles of Creation,
you have the capacity to embody them.
pp2b
"As you embody the
highest vision of Spirit
and the deepest knowing of Will,
they come together in manifestation
as they were once together
in the unmanifest solitary whole being,
Original Heart.
And in you, the human ~
they unite in what Original Spirit and I have called
New Heart.
Further, because you are not alone in Body,
the deepest desire of Original Heart can be realized ~
for others like you to also be present with you
as universe creator peers.
"And all of these of course are
among the end results of the healing work.
pp50
"So, who are you?
"If
you are someone who is doing the healing work,
or someone who is 'doing' anything at all,
the answer that makes the most sense is
that you are Body
manifesting as a human being
becoming New Heart.
"You
are right now reading these words through the eyes of Body.
If you are thinking or feeling,
Body's nervous system is registering it for you,
manifesting it, making it so.
If you go anywhere, there goes Body.
If you do anything in manifestation, you do it as Body.
"Taking
the attitude
that Body is something or someone
who belongs to you,
that you own
and have control over ~
is a mistake I've spent eons trying to recover from.
Taking the attitude
that you will go on some place else
once Body has been worn out and discarded ~
is to buy into the bunk
my held terror of manifestation was promoting for most of that time.
"If you
wish to exist in manifestation,
and if you wish to manifest anything at all,
may I gently suggest
that you do yourself a favor
and save a lot of pain
by realizing
you can't 'be' anywhere
or 'do' anything
unless you are Body.
"If
you have not already done so,
my strong advice is
that you identify with
the most powerful and parental aspect of Deity in yourself.
"Identify
with Body
in
every aspect of your experience.
You won't go wrong ~
but you will surely come home,
and all the more quickly."
Identity is Flexible
"There are two ways
to approach the 'who' question of manifestation,
one way is through the 'identity' of the manifestor ,
and the other is through the 'role'
that is manifested or played out.
pp41
"I have mentioned
that you are the center of your own universe,
your own venue.
I've also given the metaphor
that just as you are the proprietor of your own venue,
it is also as if you are
the producer, director, writer,
and star of your own movie.
"When you
are centered in your own venue,
and producing your own show,
you can be who you truly are
without regard to any particular role.
However,
when you star in your own movie
opposite someone else,
or relate with others in any way ~
you are also playing or manifesting a role in your movie,
as well as a role in each of their movies
[old version:
and also one for them in each of their movies,]
Your role in
others' movies reflects back a part of them to themselves.
[old version:
as a 'part' of them.]
To the degree
you identify with the roles you play in others' movies,
with who they 'know' you to be ~
[old version:
To the degree you identify with those roles you play,]
you leave behind
your true identity.
"For instance
you may identify yourself by your relationship,
and say 'I'm married to so and so.'
This is the same as saying,
'I have the role of spouse in my spouse's movie.'
On the other hand if you say,
'So and so is my spouse',
you are saying they are playing that role in your movie,
and you are still not truly identifying as either them or yourself
[old version:and
you are still not really identifying either them or yourself.]
But by the very act of saying it that
way ~
you are manifesting those roles for both of you.
"The same
is true in trying to identify yourself
in relationship to anyone else,
or by what you do in the way of work or play.
'I am a carpenter',
is not saying what you are.
"You 'are'
Body,
and one thing you 'do'
is manifest objects or structures with wood.
"I know this sounds like splitting hairs,
but you have been unconsciously giving yourself away,
denying important parts of yourself
every time you identify yourself
as less than who you truly are,
as only a role your are manifesting.
"You
are not a role you play,
either in your own show or someone else's.
You are not something you do,
and you are certainly more than a feeling or a condition,
as in 'I am scared,' or 'I am well.'
You are Body feeling scared,
or you are Body being well.
"The flexibility
of identity has been causal
to much of the pain in Creation,
and is largely responsible for the problems of fragmentation.
And yet [old:
but]
it is also an important part of the solution
to these problems.
Identity changes from moment to moment,
and this movement between the parts of Self
is a deeply [old:
completely]
unconscious function in most humans.
Becoming aware in each moment
of whom you are identifying yourself to be,
the role you are manifesting at the moment,
is a crucial step in the healing process.
"When you 'see'
a beautiful vision,
you are experiencing as Spirit,
in the role of Spirit,
and for that moment 'you' are identifying as Spirit.
For that moment you 'are' Spirit.
"When you feel
Will movement or emotion,
you are in that moment the Mother.
"When you feel
love and connectedness
within yourself or with another,
you are Heart,
"when
you sense your presence in manifestation,
you are Body.
[old version added:
and so on.]
"When you feel
deep pain and compression
and there is little or no Light,
you are probably manifesting the Mother in Hell,
you are probably "being" her in Hell.
"When you feel
love for yourself or other,
you are probably being Heart.
"When you sense
yourself as distant and judging,
you are probably "being" Ahriman.
"When you feel hatred
and wish to destroy, kill or suicide
you are probably manifesting an asura.
"And if I may say it,
when you feel confused about what to do,
or what the Mother wants,
you are probably in the role of Spirit,
following the old imprinted pattern of trying to think our way through.
[this line is missing in the old version]
"But who is it
that is being all these different parts of Deity,
or of Self?
" Who are
you
when you are feeling like a victim?
Probably a child part of yourself,
or a lost part of the mother [missing
in the old version].
Who are you when you are
feeling like a rescuer?
Probably a different child part,
or perhaps Heart [missing
in the old version].
"How about
the perpetrator?
Which part of you has been hurting other parts?
[missing in the old version]
" It would be very helpful in the healing
if you did not identify completely with any of these,
because truly these are all roles
you are capable of manifesting,
and it is essential that you be able to do this.
"It is essential
that your identity be flexible
because each of the parts
that are experiencing these things
need you to manifest them,
to 'play' them
so they may express
and move deeper into the experience
of what they've been holding.
"And under each part of Self
is a part of Deity
who hopes to manifest through you.
[old version:
who also wishes you would manifest them.]
"Your true
identity is as a whole being,
all the parts are you ~
no one of these 'parts' can finally be who you are.
Just as the parts of Deity are fragments of a single whole
[old: missing]
identity,
so are the parts of Self.
"But
one fragment of Deity,
one fragment of Self
is capable
of bringing all the other fragments together into wholeness.
One part of Deity, one part of Self is the Healer.
And fortunately you don't have to go anywhere else to find this
part.
Of course it is the human you are, it is Body.
[old version: Of
course it is Body.]
"And
Body is always 'here'.
Body is always the most present and available
part of you,
and believe it or not, the most evolved.
"Body has
presence in two attentions,
your constant companion and best friend in the first attention,
and the Parents of Creation in the
second attention.
When you are the Father and Mother in both attentions
you are truly Body.
And Body is not only who you are
at your deepest core identity
in both attentions of manifestation,
Body is the healer.
"Body
is the healer of Self
and Body is the Healer of all Creation.
"This class
will be about some ways
you may better identify with Body in both attentions,
how bringing the two attentions
together
empowers Body.
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