Just last night I added Ezechiel 39:22
to what I called "Israel's Soul-Search"


And the nations shall know
that the house of Israel went into exile
because of their iniquity,
or - since I came to understand "avon" as "denial":
because of their denial.

"It means, that through Israel,
the pioneer of Evolution, [-like me, but as a nation-]
everyone will understand in time,
that nobody is a victim or the object of arbitrary events,
but all people and peoples are masters of their destinies,
all people and peoples are free to create their lives."

Here I add - on Oct. 24, after having re-studied the David-Code:
This can manifest, if all people/s learn from Israel,
to become their individual selves: "this depends on ME!"
"If I am here, everyone is here,
if I am not here, nobody is here!"
(Moshe and Hillel, s. my books, the entire chapter and Moshe: S.161/p.177)

Why or for what purpose does Israel's destiny
seem to be harsher than that of other nations?


Israel's "avon" is not a dramatic "sin",
like the sacrifice/slaughter of firstborns
though this was still the usage in the time of Jeremia,
s. my research in the context of my grandson's recruition to the army,
and in the context of my song "To redeem from victimhood I've come")
as was or is still the usage in Columbia's rainforests,
[as I read in ca. 1982 in "Times' Magazine"]
and not the "vendetta", blood-feud,
as I just now learnt about (Christian!) Crete,
where a quarrel about a sheep that led to murder, wipes out families,


Israel's "avon" is
their preferring other Gods over YHWH (=who is, was, will be).


On a low level of understanding this sounds like "God's" Ego-issue.
But   WHY   did the Israelites, as many people on Earth up to now,
 prefer gods,  who want sacrifices, kneeling, prostration -- HONOR?
Is it not, because it is easy to get away with bowing to them, hoping-
they will give me what I want without any responsibility on my part?


"It's khaesed [mercy, grace] I desire , not zaevakh slaughtered sacrifice ,
da'at elohim [the knowing of/uniting with God] rather than burnt-offerings."
Hosea 6:6, see 2013 Songs, March Nr. 2


If it's not an Ego-issue of Israel's One "God",
then what should be the interest of anyone
to adhere to a God who demands responsibility?


If Moses and the prophets were so adamant about "serving YHWH",
it was, because this "God" represented the law of this manifestation:
the   l i n k   between what I do or omit doing
and what I attract to me in my life or destiny!

Yes, I attract it not only to my personal life,
but to the lives of the generations after me,
see below: quotes of "Poqed Avon" Nr. 1-4
yes to the people of my community,
be it my family, my neighborhood, my nation, my humankind.
see below: quotes of "Poqed Avon" Nr.6


[My entire Hebrew-German books is about this law, see an exemplification
in the English summary of the main Moses-chapter
Moses is a prototype of a singular and solidary man.
.... the base for solidarity of the outstanding personality
is the same as for any other individual:
the dependence upon the community, the need for the community.
Yet Moses exemplifies the evolution
which leads from the feeling of dependence to responsible action:
"This matter, the rescue of the nation, depends upon myself!"


"Values" or "morale" or "ethics", are called "mussar" in Hebrew.
This word comes from "yissurim", i.e. pains and sufferings.
Doing "bad" things or not doing "good" things
is not a matter of "bad character",
it's not the bad qualities of a person,
it's not the breach of a value taught by parents and teachers.
It's the consequence of denying my knowing,
what is good for me,
for me as a person as for me as my community.
If you heal yourself of all denial-
"...you know what to do
because you find yourself following a stream of intuition.
And you know the effects of your actions
on a moment-by-moment basis
through what you feel..." [from "Channelers' note]
"Good for me" forever includes good for "your other".
in Hebrew connected by the very grammar of 'zulatkha', 're'ekha'.

Israel as a nation was and is like other nations,
"good and bad", "wise and stupid".
But it was chosen as "a pioneer" of evolution
for understanding and living according to the laws of manifestation.
[Manifestation allows for Experience, through which Deity/we EVOLVE!]

Let me prove this by exploring the verb p-q-d in the Hebrew Bible.
The German translation by both Martins (Luther and Buber)
is "heimsuchen", a verb which is sorely missing in English.
It means: "home-searching", and I interpret it like this:
don't search the reasons for unwanted happenings outside.
Not in other people nor in punishments of some god or gods!
Search at home, in yourself,
what denial of yourself has attracted what you don't want?
unhealed feelings, unfulfilled needs, unaccepted qualities, unrecognized greatness
Your denial has attracted something to "trigger" you,
so you may heal the hole in your wholeness, heal your separations!
Become conscious of your denial and release it
by feeling, wombing, moving, sounding it and then understand.
(Also the often repeated phrase - you have forgotten me, your "God-
must be understood as: you have forgotten yourself, you are denying yourself.

(1-4) Parents and children
[grandmother and grandson, e.g. pp16, 2002/01/16]
In the 10 commandments: Exodus 20:5
and 3 more times in 3 books of the Torah
Ex 34:7~~~Numeri 14:18~~~Deut. 5:9
In this context - the first context of Law-Giving -
p-q-d is not a verb like I have.... or I shall....,
poqed avon is really a title of YHWH ,
a God who represents the law of manifestation:
the connection between what I do~omit doing~deny
and what "happens" to me   a s   i f   I were a victim.


In the Torah p-q-d in the sense of "calling-to-account"
appears - except in the father-sons context- only once:


(5) Exodus 34,35

(6) Isaiah 13:9-11 All the World is called-to-account




(7) Isaiah 26:14-21 + 27:1 + 27:2-6
All the land, even the sea-animals are called-to-account




(8, 9, 10) Jeremiah 5:9 ~~5:29~~~9:8
3 times the same phrasing:
the calling-to-account is depicted as "God's" revenge

(11) Jeremiah 6:13
Young people as grownups, prophets as priests,
all are called-to-account


(12, 13) Jeremiah 6:16 + 8:12
"the TIME of being calling-to-account"
for their "abominations"



(14) Jeremiah 9:24-25
Juda (Yehuda) as Egypt as Edom as Ammon as Moab
every nation will be called-to-account,
like all the nations are arelim (uncircumcised)
so all Israel are uncircumcised-if-heart


(15) Jeremiah 11:21-23
Now it becomes personal: the citizens of Anatot,
Jeremia's birth-place, are called to account for persecuting him.


(16) Jeremiah 13:20-22
In this poem the one who is called-to-account
is depicted as female, yes as a woman giving birth

Why did all these (things) happen to me?



(17) Jeremiah 14:10-12
"God" does "not want them",
"by sword, famine and pestilence
I, I , will annihilate them"

(18) Jeremiah 23:2
Here it's the leaders, the shepherds,
who will be called-to-account

See this passage of Jeremia 23
also in the context of the sheep-shepherd ideology (below)
and see the same mixture p-q-d and sheep-shepherd
in Secharia 11 (below)

(19) In Jeremiah 30:18-20
Here it's not Israel, but its "OPPRESSORS",
who will be called-to-account

(20) In Jeremiah 36: 31-32, it's a king, Yehoyaqim,
who makes his children, his slaves, yes all Jerusalem,
yes all Yehuda guarantors for what he did~omitted doing~denied



(21) Jeremiah 44: 1 + 7 + 11 + 13-14
And yet another, specific collective,
which will be called-to-account:
The Jews who settled in Egypt to escape the destiny of Yehuda
will have no different destiny in Egypt-
"sword , famine, pestilence",
and even if they should want to return to there homeland,
this is the destiny they'll meet there.

(22) Jeremiah 49: 7-11
Here it's a specific neighbor of Israel, Edom,
in sore memory of its forefather Esav,
which will be called-to-account.


(23) Jeremiah 50, 31
Here it's not as usual paqadti al--- but paqadtikha,
with a direct object, as if it was meant to be positive
[s. above p-q-d in the meaning of "to remember for the good"


(24) Jeremiah 51: 44-47+52
In this passage it's not only humans ,
but a god (Bel) and the Babylonian idols that are called-to-account




HOSHEA
[ Hoshea and Jeremiah are considered
prophets of reproof, rebuke, admonishment, of "doom"]


(25) Hosea 2:15
Here, too, Israel, who is called-to-account,
is depicted as a female, yes as a whore


(26) Hosea 4:9 ordinary people or priests are all the same
and have to be called-to-account


(27) Hosea 8:13 YHWH does not "want" them,
they as well go back to Egypt



(28) Hosea 9:7-9 The slaughter of "Giv'ah" [Judges 20:5) is vivid
[s. "the Concubine of the Levite" in my book:
All Israel are guarantors for each other]
The "time of being-called-to-account" will come now
as surely as it came then (some 300-400 years earlier)


(29) Hosea 12:2-3
While Jeremiah [s. Nr. 22] drags Esav into the admonishments,
Hosea drags his twin-brother Jacob (Ya'aqov) into it

(30) Amos 3:1-2

(31) Amos 3:14
Israel will be called-to-account for its "crimes"

(32) Zephaniah 1:12
This is an "evil" that has not been mentioned by anybody else.
As to the expression: ha-qof'im al shimrehaem,
see my tune to Jeremiah 48:11 about Moab




(33) Zechariah 11:15
Like in the shepherd speech of Jeremiah 23 [Nr. 18] ,
the verb p-q-d appears also in its positive meaning: to care for ,
though here it's about a shepherd who does NOT care,
see more what the caring of a shepherd involves
in Zechariah 11 in the sheep-shepherd ideology below

In later books p-q-d in the sense of "calling-to-account"
appears only once in all the 150 Psalms-
not as a prophecy, but as a general warning
(34) Psalm 89:31-33


and once in Lamentations - against Edom:
(35) Lamentations 4:22,
this follows the passage quoted above in "WHAT IS SIN"?

Oct. 16, 2013
I'm obsessed with the biblical metaphors of ro'aeh-tzon,
the shepherd and the tzon (flock of sheep and/or goats).
tzon, tzon, tzon - doesn't it associate Tzion, i.e. Zion?
See Isaiah 53 and my song, and in it

And in the New Testament: The Good Shepherd.
It was the "Good Shepherd Church in Jericho",
to which I bequeathed my electronic church organ.
They promised me that I could always come and play there.
But the 2nd Intifaada which ended with the closing of the border,
put an end to it after a few months -until now, - can this be real?
In 2000 the phone of the convent was 02-23225232
POB 23, Jericho, Fr. Simon Herro (?) Latin Parish Priest,

The "Midrash Bereshit", as I call the book of Genesis,
chooses to tell us twice about the fighting
between the shepherds of Abraham and Lot and
between the shepherds of Yitzkhaq and Abimelekh
In both cases peace is reached in ways
that could be models for our present world!



In the story about Yosef and his brothers
the profession of all of Ya'aqov's sons
is emphasized in an exaggerated manner:

Genesis 43:32
To eat with the Hebrews
was an "abomination" for the Egyptians.
Because they were shepherds???


Genesis 46:34
Here it's said explicitly:
"for Egyptians every shepherd is an abomination"


Genesis 47:1-4
Here they tell Pharao, what Yosef hat told them to tell,
but added the reason for their emigration to Egypt:
in their homeland their flocks found nothing to each.


Why did the story-teller or the editor of the Bible
(whom Franz Rosenzweig calles "R" = Rabbenu, our master)
find it necessary to say twice,
that the Hebrew shepherds -
so glorified in the Bible
were less than honorable in Egyptian eyes?
And why were also in the reality of the Land of Israel
shepherds honorable
even after farming became more widely spread?

The metaphor of the shepherd also serves
to harshly rebuke the leaders .
In the following two passages
p-q-d appears in its double meaning
The shepherds did not "take care" of their flocks
therefore they will be "called-to-account"
and finally "God" will take care of his herd, of the house Yehuda.



How strange - also in Zechariah 11
- the connection between p-q-d , often in its double meaning,
and the sheep-shepherd metaphor.
As one means to "call-to-account"
"God" will appoint a "foolish" shepherd
who will neglect all of the tasks of the shepherd,
tasks that only someone who was a shepherd himself, can know.
(See about Yusuf, the young Beduin shepherd, Samira's son,
on my Ararat website!)

David, the shepherd and his sheep:

2. Samuel 7:8 and 1. Chronicles 17:7
I imagine the Chronicler some 2500 years ago copying the books of Samuel
and - if he agrees to a story or a passage - quoting the full text,
correcting only "mistakes'.

What the Chronicler saw as a mistake, may be a secret:
instead of "tribes of Israel" there should be "judges of Israel",
a correction, which Fox adopted even for "tribes" in Samuel
have I (ever) spoken a word with one of the judges of Israel
whom I commissioned to shepherd my people Israel
The original "tribes" may be a mystical secret after all:
the merging of the "shepherds" with the "sheep"......



Another aspect of the sheep-shepherd ideology in the Bible
is the fact,
that shepherds did not own land,
which is very important for the lekh-lekhâ ideology,
or the sha'anan Moav mi-ne'urav ideology Jeremia 48:11

Why is ro'im mostly, not always, written in ktiv khaser,
i.e. without the vocal "o"
so that it could be read as ra'im , the evil ones?
There are 2 extreme warnings against the "ro'im ra'im",
the bad shepherds,
one in Jeremiah 25:34-36 and one in Ezekiel 34
who lived partly at the same time
before, during and after the first Destruction,
around the year 600 BCE



This, by the way, is one of the contexts,
where the slaughtering of the sheep is mentioned,
outside the contexts of religious sacrifice
(which doesn't make it less disgusting)

I said,
this entire sheep-shepherd ideology has to be thought over:
It's not only because of the slaughter involved in shepherding,
but because this metaphor for the shepherd and his tzon,
- may the shepherd be a mystical king or even "God"-
is totally "counterproductive" to the application of the law
which Israel and through it humankind are meant to learn:
Each and every human is responsible for his/her destiny,
as for the destiny of his/her community,
as for the destiny of humankind.
"shepherd and sheep",
a metaphor which inplies an abhorrent lack of equality:
and if so, how can Moshe's desire be fulfilled,

that "all Israel would be prophets"?



I already mentioned this appendix to the David-narrative:
Someone found it necessary to correct the image of David
in the last chapters of the 2 Samuel books.
But even this corrected image is pathetic:
David wants to take responsibility for his "sin",
so that the "sheep" will be spared.
But 70000 of his 'sheep" have perished already .
2.. Samuel 24:17

"David is the very image of Israel's" vocation "to understand itself."
If Israel will understand itself
- through the image of the feeling, failing David -
humankind will begin to understand itself.
see Everett Fox quoted in "The Bible of Feelings"

................................................
David certainly knew how to feel and how to move his emotions through Body.
He knew how to sing and to dance and he knew how to weep and to mourn

How David dreads the news about his rebellious son's death
and despite all denials of his presentiments had to face his death.
Yoav's blame against David's excessive grief is justified.
And still - it touches my heart, I who never knew a father,
how both Ya'aqov and David could weep and cry about a son.

.....

But again:
It was not Abraham who became "Israel",
but Ya'aqov, the 'Heel-Sneak', the bypasser, cheater, deceiver
[who, too, was infatuated with only one of his sons, whom he favored and becried]
and it was not Moses who became "Messiah".
It was this D A V I D , the naked king of feelings
who leaped and whirled ...

From Ya'aqov's wrestling with himself
Ya'aqov   is  Israel -  not  because  he  is  an  ideal  person,
but  because  he  wrestles  with  his  being  not  ideal  at all.

From David's Ancestry:
kmo shae-ya'aqov ha-ramai ve-ha-oqev[Gn 25:26+27:36] hafakh le-yisrael
kach David ha rotzeakh ve-ha-no'ef hafakh la-meshiakh
see also k.i.s.s-log 2008-08-05 David-Bat-sheva vs. Franz-Gritli
Oct 17, 2013, David from the Yehuda-tribe?
Yehuda from the word le-hodot, in both meanings, to thank, to admit,
suits David well.
From Efraim-Efrat - ge'ulah perushah shae-ani be-atzmi ashiv kol dawar shae hikkhashti, hidkhakti, dakhiti, hishlakhti
[there are 2 importants text.gifs -Efraim&Efrat 6a and 6b, that do not appear on the page. See if they appear somewhere else]

From Mystical Names




From Nakedness


see continuation there

From victims-of-sex-drive

Everett Fox has enlightened me now [2004-06_25] ,
through his introduction to the Samuel Books,
see in "the Bible of Feelings"
that the two central stories about the "Feeling King" , are intricately connected.
David didn't die after the Bat-Sheva-Uriyya adultery, murder and abominable lack of solidarity,
but Amnon and Avshalom, his sons,
reflected back to him
everything he had not healed in himself.
The beginning of the "Great Rebellion"
started with the rape of David's daughter by David's son,
right after the Bat-Sheva-Uriyya scandal.

How amazing is it,
that there are not even 14 million Jews in the world
[Before the Holocaust: 16,7 millions!]
"If not for the Holocaust, there would be as many as 32 million Jews worldwide,
instead of the current 13 million", demographer Prof. Sergio Della Pergola 2009

If - in the 3250 years -
since the Exodus from Slavery and the Receiving of the Torah,
the Hebrews or "the House of Ya'aqov" or "the sons of Israel",
or the "Yehudim" [since the exile in Babylon in the 6th century B.C.]
[or - at the same time - the often voluntary exile in Egypt, s.Jeremiah, above "Poqed Avon" Nr. 21]
would have multiplied in a natural way
- without wars and pogroms, without exiles and emigrations-,
there probably would be hundreds of millions of Jews today.


All this is true, too, for all other nations mentioned in the Bible:
Yet there is not one Ammonite, not one Edomite, not one Moabite left,
[see a map with these nations]
and though the Palestinians draw their name from the ancient Philistines,
there is no biological or cultural or religions connection between them.


Let's focus on exilation and emigration
Ammonites, Moabites, Philistines assimilated to the nations of their exiles.
And so did most of the Yehudim, Juden, Jews.
So why not all Jews?
Why could even Hitler, who said - "there cannot be two chosen peoples",
not exterminate the Jews?
And this after already a psalm - I don't know in what century - quotes
nations as consulting each other how to exterminate Israel,
so that even its name would disappear from this planet?
'Come, and let us cut them off from being a nation;
that the name of Israel
may be no more in remembrance.' [see my song "Immanuel"]


It's understandable, that many people in Israel - me included - are furious,
that so many Israelis wander "off" - from so small a population
(6 1/2 million Jews among 8 million Israelis compared to 1400 millions Chinese)
see "Demographics" in the English Wikipedia "Israel -
the numbers depend on the counting of Jews in occupied territories or not:
"In mid-2013, Israel's population was an estimated 8,051,200 people,
of whom 6,045,900 are Jews.
Arab citizens of Israel comprise 20.7% of the country's total population
Over the last decade, large numbers of migrant workers
from Romania, Thailand, China, Africa and South America have settled in Israel.
By June 2012, approximately 60,000 African migrants had entered Israel ")


There seem to live 10000 Israelis in Berlin now,
which is just one town - and what a town ! with its holocaust connotations!!!...
And in USA universities there are up to 10% Israelis in faculties like
business-management.
And yet, it has never been the number of Hebrew, Jews, Israelis,
that promised the continuation of the pioneers' existence on this planet.
[I even can guess what the meaning of the Israelis in Berlin is...]

October 10, 2013
To be able to take responsibility for EVERYTHING that happens to me,
as a person as well as a people as well as humankind,
I must learn to know who I am,
an individual ray of the one sun,
an individual wave of the one sea,
an individual color of the one light,
I must learn and live my uniqueness!


As I interpreted already long ago:
the descendants of Noah's sons were meant
to "be separate and scattered",
but instead they ended up in "settling" in a "biq'ah"
[something between a valley and a pit - Buber-Rosenzweig found the word "Gesenk"]
acting-reacting-behaving like a collective, having
"safah akhat u-dvarim akhadim",
"one language and one-set-of-words"
"so one couldn't differentiate between someone wise and someone dumb" (Ibn Esra)
a herd with the one goal, for which they built their tower:
"lest we be scattered over the face of all the earth".

So what did "God" do to make people grasp
that the goal of manifestation is the evolution of All-that-Is?
One man, Abraham, and one woman, Sarah, were chosen,
who - through terrible tribulations (the result of resistance?)-
begot one nation - the nation of Israel ,
meant to be a pioneer of Evolution
and as that pioneer not to mingle, not to melt into other nations,
so as to incessantly, throughout history be an example of:
"go-to-yourself from all security and safety of the collective,
for only then will be blessed in you all the families of the earth".
Genesis 12:1-3

Looking around me,
even the 16 actors of my family, even my "friends" and "peers"
surrender to the pressure of the collective,
saying "hi" instead of "shalom"
and "bye" instead of "shalom"
and "how are you" instead of "what is your shalom?"

And this is just one of a million examples of Babel-behavior,
which are contrary to Israel's vocation, mission and task.

It can't be "better" demonstrated than in the scene 3000 years ago, where the Hebrews screamed again and again at Shmuel, the prophet:
Give us a King
(I quote from the translation of Everett Fox,
the pupil of the Buber-Rosenzweig way to understand the Hebrew Bible,
He did not "make it" to more than the 5 books of the Torah
and the books of Samuel . The edition of the latter he called:
Give us a King
The prophet is shocked by their demand and details a frightening list
of all the horrid impacts such a king would have on their daily lives.
But the people refused to hearken to Shemu'el's voice,
they said:
No!
Rather, let there be a king over us
so that we, we too may be like all the nations!
Let our king lead-us-as-judge
and go-out before us and fight or battles!
Samuel I, 8:19-20

This scene makes me cringe with pain and dispair.
For in all these 3000 years nothing has changed.
Re-reading "God's" surrender to this fatal request,
I understand, that the people were not mature enough.
They had - as we all do - to experience on their flesh, as we say in Hebrew, how utterly stupid, yes begetting future catastrophes their desire was.

And yet, Moses, the Egyptian Hebrew or Hebrew Egyptian,
did have a nano-success with his yearning for people's uniqueness:
"A lad ran and told Moshe:
Eldad and Meidad are acting-like-prophets in the camp!...
My lord Moshe, contain them (in modern Hebrew the verb means: imprison them)
But Moshe said to him: Are you jealous for me?
O who would give that all the people of YHWH were prophets..."
a sentence in Numeri 11:29 that forever brings tears up in my eyes...

The "unique people" became - in time and terrible destiny - unique,
only because within the herd there stood up such "prophets" ,
the 'am-sgulah is a collective "give-us-a-king"-herd,
it's the yekhidee-sgulah who fulfill Israel's mission.
I believe, that even if there was no chance or is no chance
to "stand up", they lived their vocation,
as symbolized in the metaphor of the 36 hidden Lamed-Vav-niks

When I googled for the term, called Tzaddiqim Nistarim
I discovered what I'd never known:
the uniqueness of these 36 is not in their "righteousness",
there are millions who are "righteous" in the usual sense.
[Moreover Buber-Rosenzweig have shown,
that tzaddiq means "bewaehrt", i.e. s/he lives his/her truth.]
What makes them able to fulfill their - Israel's - mission,
is that they "accept the Shekhinah".

in every generation 36 righteous "greet the Shechinah,"
(Tractate Sanhedrin 97b; Tractate Sukkah 45b)

The Shekhinah is the female aspect of "God", Spirit.
Israel, the unique people, is meant to be the pioneer
of all humans on earth in becoming each one unique.
For only then "All-that-is", or "Deity" can evolve.
And Evolution is the purpose of "Manifestation".

Another aspect: I always say, that denial , Lost Will, ends up either in self-destruction, cancer,
or in violence etc. against the other.
But there is also the defense-mechanism of PROJECTION!
Cowardice is a result of shame , not in all, but in many cases. See David>intro II
Also anger (Cain) is covering over shame. A song about shame: ha-yom ba-kittah

Oct. 26, 4 AM , recorded in bed, then copied to this page - edited on Nov. 4, 2013
Why will "ethics, morale, mussar, values, and all laws" be outdated,
when we know how to feel? Because if I know how to feel, I'll always know what is good for me.
This includes that I'll not hurt anybody else, because this would have hurtful consequences for me
Yet, - as long as not ALL people know how to feel, there will be 2 problems:
1) the other might "expect" and therefore attract from me something from his/her victimhood.
{Is this so? Am I then a victim of their victimhood?????}
2) that my very yikhud, uniqueness, provokes the Cain in the other,
and that was so for the Jews who became unique because they were aware
of the link between what they did or omitted doing and what happened to them.
This consciousness of uniqueness led them to be different from others,
and therefore people could project their Cain-feelings on them, and make them the scape-goat.

One thing I thought I could do , if I knew how to feel, was to always empower the other,
but as I learnt (Rafael, Hagai Lev), my very being interfered with empowering the other,
and also empowering the other does not really help, if the other has the feelings of Cain.
- lack of self-worth and victimhood.
So the only thing that will help in the end is to be a pioneer of learning to feel,
and to radiate this on everyone around me.
Of course this is the task of any aware person on this planet,
but since Israel is not just a person but a collective
and with such a long history of having been unique by force,
it is - through me and hopefully through others - the vocation for the World.
to know how to feel, and then comes the rest of the chain as I pointed out:

As a pioneer of Evolution I learn how to feel:
I vibrate/womb my feelings, I become aware & I feel full-filled.
Therefore: no projecting, no acting out of denials and Lost Will,
and also no victimizing myself to others' projecting, acting out,
and no despair because others are not receiving this from me.
I know, how to grow from all that is still happening because of people's denial.
And as I heal and grow, Israel will heal, and as Israel heals, the world will heal.

What is new and has to be learnt is, that "sin" is not something bad I do, but a denial,
and there is a specific denial:
that I fear to be judged and even put to shame - even for wonderful things,
like David for his skipping around God's ark, and ridiculed by his wife Michal,
If I deny, override the shame, I might do something bad to another person,
on the other hand ,if I surrender to the shame,
I might shut up and not be myself and thus withhold my gifts from the Word ,
not full-fill my vocation and not reach zest-full-ness and full-fill-ment for myself
[David was great in this situation of "dancing before YHWH with all his might"
The punishment for Michal [barren till the end of her life] was the invention of the narrator,
for in another context, 2.Samuel 21:8 it's told, that Michal had 5 children,
yet they were all hanged as a condition for David's peace with his neighbors!]



It's the consciousness that makes a Jew a Jew, not biology!
There were 4 cities in the Land of Israel - Tiberias, Safed, Hebron and [Jerusalem ?]
where Jews lived throughout all the centuries till the revival in 1870 [check].
Biologically, the population in the country-side were Jews as well,
Yet when Byzanthine Christianity and then Islam infiltrated the land of Israel,
the people - in time - forgot who they were.
Only in the cities where there were schools,learning guarded Jewish consciousness.



Back to the question, what can the unique people or the unique person (Immanuel) do,
in order to not provoke the Cain in people and as a result not only damage 'the world',
but cause more self-hatred (Rafael).
And the solution I found for myself for not triggering the entire world (Tamir about me)
i.e. withdrawing from almost all people,
to never initiate but be available - and even this in homeopathic doses -
cannot be a solution, neither for Immanuel nor for Israel.
From a tiny calendar-diary in 2000
"By investing so much giving, e.g. for Micha's birthday,
in order to make people feel validated and empowered
I not only trap, deny, part of my own Will, feelings,
but make the receivers feel even more invalidated and powerless.
that's why I have ceased to manifest or to plan for any future
and instead I almost soleley drive backward"

Then [see above: Rafael's advice in the frame with Achinoam's song] I rejected his suggested theme "Jesus" totally.
Now I connect that Yeshua was a pioneer of wanting "to redeem the lost Sheep" and to dissolve "Guilt",
Yet having so much denial himself - he failed to reach his goal [put Jesus or denial in "Find" of pp16 and pp45].

[See what I - on the 4th of November 2013, 11:40 A.M. just detected in pp1b, 2002, while putting "Jesus denial" in my Search:

I am still very grateful for this gift from Rafael, and I'm moved by the fact, that it so happened, that I've scanned, marked & inserted this page as the first thing I've been doing on this morning. For on the 4th of November - 42 years ago - our bond was tied.

And yet - as the hit "Amazing Grace" shows - many people - on a personal level - were "redeemed".
But on a collective level his self-attracted death and the Jewish symbolic figure of Is. 53 -given to it,
aggrandisized the denial and the guilt among humans..
My insight around my 75th birthday:
that Lost Will can not be redeemed nor can the Guilt dissolve,
as long as we humans are such beginners in knowing how to feel.
Godchannel's message (where?):
"Your capacity to feel is far more vast than you have ever realized"



1.Samuel.10, 2
Shmuel tells Shaul that he will find 2 men at Rachel's burial place
who will tell him, that the atonot, she-asses have been found.
What do the atonot have to do with Rachel?

David, the shepherd, came to comfort and heal Shaul, the king,
but by his very being he deepened the lack of self-esteem
which Shaul had brought into his life as king
{Shaul didn't even tell his uncle - 1.Samuel 10:16, - that he was to become the King of Israel}
and conjured up a horrible Cain-Hevel story, except that David was not Hevel, a nothing.

Oct. 24 What I am meant to learn, obviously,
is the purpose of Israelis leaving Israel in such numbers
zerstreut in alle Voelker, Salz der Erde,
dispersed in all nations, salt of the Earth.
Many will get lost (=assimilate),
but some - and it's always "some" - will learn, and radiate,
what perhaps only the lekh-lekhâ-people can learn,
since the foreign culture,
yes their very not-belonging gives them a broader perspective
of why they let themselves be born as Israelis,
more exact - since I now learnt that there is no "Israeli nationality" -
as Jews in Israel.


My effort to make sense of the demographics of Israel
in mid-2013, Israel's population was an estimated 8,051,200 people,
of whom 6,045,900 are Jews.
Arab citizens of Israel comprise 20.7% of the country's total population
In 2009, over 300,000 Israeli citizens lived in West Bank settlements
20,000 Israelis live in Golan Heights settlements.
In 2011, there were 250,000 Jews living in East Jerusalem
The total number of Israeli settlers is over 500,000
led me to another insight:
Israel itself was never "clean of Non-Jews"
like Nazi-Germany tried to be"clean of non- Aryans"
I was told so even by Israel Koenig, the governor of Northern Israel, in 1976,
when I needed him for my Bir'am project.
Israel Koenig (what a name! Israel King!) was not honest with me,
but I appreciated his saying:
"In the land of Israel there always lived other nations
together with the Jews - right from the beginning!"

As if it was not "problematic enough",
that "70 nations" came together as Jewish immigrants:

and as if it was not difficult enough,
that in the land of Israel lived Arabs, before the Jews came,
and that despite the expulsion or flight of many,
there are still 20% Arabs in the State of Israel,

there are Jews who do not stick to the official and recognized state of Israel,
but disperse-"settle" among the Arabs, now called Palestinians,
claiming their land as Israel,
thus living voluntarily as a minority!
What is the purpose of all this mingling and merging ,
this mixing and blending, this chaos of identities?


Isn't it the Babylonian-Dispersion-effect ?
[See my Tower-of-Babel interpretation for instance in pp11]
Learning to know myself, become myself
by seeing the differences between myself and others/
And isn't racism the opposite -
the fear of becoming myself as differentiated from another?