I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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this page, too,
is overloaded (1446 kbs instead of maximum 1300) , but after much
endeavor I let go now (April 6) of getting it "right"
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may! 8:00 I desire to live this - hopefully
l-one-some - Shabbat in "Driving Backward into the Future"
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before plunging deeper into the bothering contradictions in
the new Godchannel prophecy.
I also desire to freeze the completion of the sculpting of the
past 7 days of my experiencing, to be free to drive backward
- with my whole being - into the "Nebo-LetGo" process
of 2006,
the letting-go of Full-Filling my Desert-Peace-Economy vision
in present 4-dimensional reality.
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"Self-Esteem"
hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
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My Body, my Partner,
my God I give thanks to the appearance of our
eyes and eyebrows,
once ridiculed by my mother("you
have the small eyes of a pig"), and finally redeemed
by my Bethlehem-Bedouin friend
Samira,
who gave me this self-made Kukhul
and urged me to beautify myself.
Thank you, Samira, young mother of eight
in a miserable tent-shack,
for being my pledge,
that the lowest "children of Abraham",
the Bedouin in the Zealot's Valley, will
some day be
the self-accepting, self-honoring, self-loving pioneers
of a Desert Hosting Economy for the good of the Earth and
of Humanity.
During the few weeks in which bus and minibus
(in the latter: Hannah, "my lesson")
were permitted to park at the edge of the Ramon Crater
- thanks to the intervention of Ezri Alon -
I looked for an area which would answer to 7 conditions:
1 - not a nature reserve
2 - not a fire-practice-area of the army
3 - not too far from the town
4 - not to close to the town
5- no lights of town or roads will be visible
6 - a hilly landscape, attractive to tourists
7- access to a jeep
(which I had bought in the meanwhile,
a gift from my
oldest friend Anke in Berlin)
On
November 17, 1989, I parked my house
on the spot where in 1992
the "Tent
of Appointment" would be erected,
and invented a temporary Succah for hosting visitors.
A day of Khamseen above the sea, north
of Kibbutz Ga'ash.
The last 6 months of being pregnant with my vision were spent
here.
From there, on Sept. 26, 1989, bus and minibus, moved to the
desert.
One morning I climbed up Hill 884
(the name on the map according to its height above sea-level)
There was mist at the bottom of the hill as well as in my
soul.
Suddenly I remembered a saying: "Angels fly,
because they take themselves so lightly!"
I
felt relief...
I called Hill 884 - "Hill of the Angels' Flight"
and met at the Mitzpe-Ramon Bank - Dani Kish! [While
searching for this name I came across a "Dan
Kish",
and learnt how he rides a mountain-bike despite being blind,
having learnt from bats: echo location, seeing with sound!]
As to "my" Dani Kish,
the Israeli sculptur,
I detect at least a sculpture of his
at the edge of the Ramon Crater east of Mitzpe-Ramon
(not west of, like "my" edge).
"I was told that you sculpt not
only in stone!!
Can you imagine a succah in the desert?"
How much did I toil to discover the
model of "a
succah"!
I even worked with students in Haifa,
- not one of the 30 models they came up with, was right!
But when the time is ripe, it happens
in an instant. "A triangle composed of electricity
or telephone poles,
a few boards to combine between them,
a material against rain, wind, cold,
which you have to find yourself,
and above all palm-fronds!"
Half a year later: Dani Kish has just
finished the Abraham Succah.
Hannah's minibus is still parking next to it to guard it.
The jeep in front and 3 donkeys and a shed behind complete
the scene...
At this stage of my sculpting[July 2006] I breathe my frustration:
there is to convey so much information,
and to tell such moving stories,
and to thank to such wonderful helpers.
But who today has the time to read?
We started everything from the beginning,
how to integrate Man, adam, with Earth, adamah?
Water,
electricity,
forms of building, materials for building,
sewage,
transportation,
communication,
business administration,
advertising,
registering,
routine of hosting and serving meals
....
I'll record only a few titles of
'books'
I ordered 33 tons of gravel from
the Dimona
quarry.
The driver of the semitrailer hit upon a jeep: "Do you know the place
of "Succah in the Desert?"
That's how we were detected by the "Green
Patrol"
What terror! I hurried north the 80 km to Beersheva,
to the director of "the Israel
Land Administration".
Yet half an hour passed and a great
miracle happened
between "within one week no
succah will be at that place!!!!"
and "the Land Administration
will grant you a one year contract!"
A rare photo:
I'm working on closing
a still open side
of a succah,
Succat-Sarah.
March or April 1990.
Across the wadi:
the Hill of the Angels' Flight
On
Pesach arrived - prematurely - six families.
All the succahs were still open on one side.
Fury!
Cancellation of the second day!
A talk and-:
"We were surprised that each family stayed in a
succah, the name of which was connected
to a father or mother in the family!"
Sarah and Rebecca and Isaak and Jacob and Lea and Rachel!
1990: Not only guests came, but visitors,
who encouraged me. The cups seen here, were made, together
with all dishes etc., by Debbie, a very open ceramicist from
the US.
But since I was about the only one, who ordered her products,
she left Mitzpe-Ramon and went back to the US.
In November 1990 I ran out of my money: 30000$.
The request for a loan from two friends
had not yet been responded to,
and in the end I received only a quarter
of what I had calculated.
But guests were coming and the model held on.
In May 1991 the first volunteers
appeared.
I called them "Hosts" in a team of equals.
In time we made some laws, also concerning money.
"During the first 2 months pocket money, then
1500 NIS"
I myself lived "from hand to mouth", as
we say in Hebrew.
The problematic reality of
"Succah in the Desert"
can be glimpsed in my last 'Succayah document',
sculpted in Hebrew 2 months
before my lekh-lekhâ:
Jute from the inside,
black Polysack
shade net from the outside,
and 'bubble nylon', produced at Mitzpe-Ramon, in between.
The nylon disintegrated into dust. The winds penetrated.
It was clear that the "angel on duty" was
already on her way.
On January 6, a carpenter from the USA came as a visitor.
She left, but a week later she came again: "I've decided to help you
with repairing the succahs!"
Renata (see
about her in Succah diary 3)
stayed for a month and went home,
and again came to us, and thus she "commuted"
for two years.
She - for instance - built the cabins for the hosts:
"Hagar" - following the model of "Ketura",
which was the creation of a former "angel on
duty", Alan Sabag,
and "Ismael" and "Eliezer" following
my own imagination.
to the left: Renata, originally
a therapist, then a carpenter, nowadays a ceramicist,
works in "Esau", a cabin with a room for a
volunteer and a shed for tools and materials.
built by my son Immanuel in early 1990.
Here she sits on the top of "Hagar" covering
it with palm-fronds.
Above - the jeep can be seen - next to the 1000 liter
water tank.
I or another host brought water in the jeep's 2 mobile
300 liter tanks.
The building of "Hagar"
was accomplished in January 1993.
Renata is helped by a volunteer from Germany, Andrea,
a sculptress.
Most of these paper photos
were sent to me by Renata only in 2002,
following my wish to digitalize them and return them.
I didn't have the best of scanners, though.
A few months later Micha stayed in the
Succah for a month,
to prepare for some exam, all the while helping me.
Here he works on the Ya'aqov Jacob-Succah
My two sons, Immanuel
and Micha, and my son-in-love Uri,
helped when they could.
The three of them built the first shower-structure,
a hexagon, according to my plan, in March 1990
I did not yet have a generator, so they sawed it all by hand. My intuition told me, that the difference
of height
between the little rock above and shower and kitchen
would be enough for letting the water come out of the tap
by gravitation.
A trail was built to that rock by my son Micha
and two boys from Germany (paid by their mother, Irene
Hahn,
who was also the friend who gave me money,
when I asked for a loan in Nov. 1990. She gave it as a gift.
With my sowing machine, connected to our
generator,
since the solar system would not render the power needed for
such jobs,
I am constantly preparing and repairing equipment,
in this case Ram Eisenberg's "Tent
of Appointment"
This photo I took - with a digital camera
- in July 2006 - in the Ja'aqov-Succah,
thanks to the guest Gai, who had come for 5 days
Between May and October 1993 there
was an excellent team in the Succayah, as
I called the composition of succahs then
(most other people simply call it THE Succah,
not differentiating between the "municipal" structure
and a separate Succah,
nor do they differentiate between a "succah" for
guests and a "biktah" (cabin) for hosts.) and I tried "to go out"
, to make my "exodus" -
according to the laws of the Succah-Economy.
I also tried to continue with the realization of the whole
vision.
There was no end to my initiatives and my efforts,
but none bore any fruits...
I was granted only one more "nakhat" - (a beautiful Hebrew
word, which I now interpret as "feeling of full-fill-ment")
in summer 1994:
"Aetgar ba-Midbar" = "Challenge in the Desert".
Once a guest from Germany, a tourism journalist,
had rebuked me heavily:
"You
did the work of a man!!
you took care of the structure!!
What is missing, is the content!!
What is missing is the work of a woman!"
"Aetgar ba-Midbar" is a model for content!
for the content of "nofesh la-nefesh",
re-creation for the soul in the desesrt:
7 guests - 7 tents - 7 days
and a focus of learning, healing, art.
3 hours per day guidance and providing tools
either by the hosts or by trainers.
Three "aetgars" were conducted
with young people (14-18) during the summer holidays of 1994,
by me and my excellent team-workers: Yael Gavish, Uri Goldin
and Michael from Sitriya,
a village in which at that time both my daughter Ronnit and
my son Micha lived with their families.
The first "aetgar" was the
most challenging one, not only because it was our first experiment,
but because the first two candidates: Jonathan Troim and Shakhaf
Alon agreed to take part only,
if Jonathan's five friends -boys - and Shakhaf's 3 friends
-girls - were also allowed to take part.
These added up to ten people between 14 and 15, which demanded
to break the rule of Seven!
Not less scary was the fact, that
Jonathan [s. photo]
was the son of the man whom
I loved,
and Skakhaf (no photo of her to
my regret)was the daughter
of Ezri Alon(see above!). A
few months later, when Yael(here
seen as helping the 10 teenagers to cook)took
over my place in the Succayah,
she managed to arrange another Aetgar.
The graduates of the different "Aetgars" came back
as volunteers on weekends etc.
They now called themselves "Khotter"
shoot , i.e. first khotter, second khotter etc.
according to the famous first verse of a famous prophecy in
the Bible:
A
shoot will come up from the stump of Jesse;
from his roots a Branch will bear fruit.
One of them, Natan, grandson of
the famous Israeli writer Aharon
Megged became a team-worker,
which now - 1995 after I was no longer part of the Succayah
- was the preferred term for "host" .
But then the "Aetgar ba-Midbar",
this magnificent "content" of a Succah desert hosting
business
sank into oblivion....
Sunset from Mount Nebo on the North Eastern
side of the Dead Sea.
The sun sets in the west beyond the country, into which "Moses"
was not allowed to go.
"But" on my last visit in "Succah in the Desert",
a visit for the sake of "Nebo-LetGo",
I found the following in the last succah in the wadi, called after
Ya'aqov''s beloved wife: Rachel:
The Succah Blessing
Into this Rachel Succah
may come a blessing
upon all who guard the earth,
iInto this succah of peace
may come quietness not only in dreams,
in this succah of love
may rest all your lovers
on laurel wreaths
in this succah in the
desert
may your soul 'teshovev' [or 'teshuvav']
like a child in constant wonder
see
also April 8, Communication with Deity
as to the 2 words from Ps. 23, "YHWH
is my shepherd" Hear
the tune, which I learnt from a Succah-guest,
There I also mention the song, which I expanded
by a line with these 2 words "nafshi
yeshovev".
The song closes the Intro-Page to Healing-K.iss
2012-12-31
There are those who think
it a miracle
to walk on the water
there are those who think
it a miracle
to walk on fire
I think that the greatest miracle is
to walk on earth
The children
desire freedom!
And every particle of their being from their Source says,
"You are free.
You are so free, that every thought you offer,
the entire Universe jumps to respond to it." And so, to take that kind of knowledge and
try to confine it in any way,
defies the Laws of the Universe.
You must allow your children to be free,
because the entire Universe is set up to accommodate that.
And anything you do to the contrary will only bring you regret.
You cannot contain those that cannot be contained.
It defies Law.
April 5, 2012, Thursday, Arad
It is one day before the Eve of Pesach,
Pesach celebrates the Exodus from Slavery.
My awareness of what exodus I still have to intend and to accomplish.
In the
6 interview series "Osim Seder Khadash",
"Making a new order" (4 times a week in the Israeli channels 22 and 23)
there was one "item": human
trafficking and slavery in Israel -
that was so horrid, so nauseating, so revolting,
that after 5 sentences I skipped this interview and opened the next
one.
Even now I feel like ignoring, not wanting to remember, what I heard. There it is "the evil", "The
Destroyer", the "Denial Entity",
about which the last message of Godchannel on March 25 & is talking.
Today I'm thrown right back to the evil I wanted to forget
by a group mail from "Global
Coherence Initiative" with this call:
GCI April 6, 2012 Full Moon Synchronized Care
Focus
Over the past several
months,
there have been ongoing news reports about children and adults who are
bought and sold into slavery throughout the world.
The energies of the Shift along with the media and internet
are increasingly bringing issues to light
that have long been hidden from the public view,
like human trafficking.
For this full moon synchronized
Care Focus, let ’s send our collective care and compassion
to the children and adults who have been sold into slavery. Compassion is one of the highest frequencies we can
radiate,
as it helps to hold a heart space for others through their challenges.
We ’ll do this April full moon synchronized Care Focus together
for fifteen minutes. ... There will be music playing, or you can mute
the music if you prefer. Care Focus: Eradicating Slavery and Oppression
Start by quietly breathing through your heart area, and then visualize
aligning with your soul energy. This raises your vibration, which increases
the strength and effectiveness of your heartfelt intention...
Now radiate sincere compassion and care
to children and adults who have been or still are entrapped in slavery
or oppression. Visualize increased freedom for all involved and radiate
a compassionate, heartfelt desire for these violations
of human dignity to soon be a thing of the past. Through our heart-infused
visualization and imagination, we collectively can create a better world...
Now send the collective compassion to
other issues and planetary pain points as your heart intuition guides
you. Envision compassion becoming a new baseline frequency
for the planetary transition taking place.
I'm not content with the wording of the "Care
Focus".
It may reinforce the old law of "what you resist, persists".
On the other hand - my escape from this Evil - is sheer denial.
I'll dedicate my personal Eve of Pesach to coping with "The Destroyer".
COMPASSION AND PASSION
My passion for the "Passion-Dream", the Israeli hakhla'ah [artificial selection]of the Passiflora, the Passion-Flower
Now I want to enjoy more of the sight of the
beautiful flowers
and the taste and healthy nutrients of the fruits
2012-04-05--- 2013_04-05DELICIOUS
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These are the 3 purchased fruit-trees - still
in pots - each one about 7 years old:
Shezaf or "Ziziphus Spina-Christi" and "Tuttit-Guyava"
and "Pitanga". How wondrously intertwine the leaves and stems
and even some blossoms of these 3 trees
Ran's 11 bamboo-poles on my "freezed"
pyramidal tent
My granddaughter Elah Rosenzweig, actress and
dancer in the Kibbutz Theater Group,
inserted these images in Facebook
DELICIOUS
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