The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!" Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013 and Overview of its main libraries [If you look for a word on this page, click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"] I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"     K.I.S.S. - L O G    2 0 0 8 Keep It Simple Sweetheart   1 2 3 4 5 6 7 1 2 3 How Learn And I The Train   Heal Conditions In Myself For Creating Into Heaven Those Whole On Conditions Self-acceptance Earth Daily sanctus-qadosh sanctus-holy sanctus-heilig   intro to k.i.s.s.-log+all dates ~ library of seven/eleven years ~ HOME ~ contact March 8 , ROSH-CHODISH, SHABBAT, - at Arad back to past ~~~~~ forward to future   MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may! I desire to sense this New Moon Shabbat in my body all through the day and let it guide me in balancing my receptive and active and resting living. As to my activity, I want to immerse myself in the "Nebo-Let-Go" sculpture, and create the fourth page of the story about 21 years of following Abraham. image of the day Samira and two of her children in the Zealots' Valley, Nov. 2004. The similarity? the quiet! The contrast? the comfort and beauty. hodayot [thanksgivings] for today My Body, my Partner, my God I give thanks to you for moving our lips, tongue, vocal chords and lungs in perfect harmony to project sounds that already Mika will translate through her own auditory apparatus and the skills she learned in the 26 months of her experience to decipher those sounds into meaningful words and even sentences. I give thanks for the peace and quiet in my heart inside as in the space of my time today - with no "interruptions" expected, as in my place, in this castle, in this neighborhood, something which was accentuated by a rare incident: I was awakened in the middle of the night by the loud hysterical talking of a young girl on her mobile phone. At first I became angrier the longer she talked on the street outside. But then I became grate-full for her making me aware again, that though I live in the house of a young couple and their kids, no screaming and no disturbing music spoil my holy silence.     On my way back from the noon-pool I passed this lonely tree, hearing from it the first Tristrams in this spring: I so much love these birds, indigenous only around the Dead Sea, with their orange underside and their sweet twitter.   song of the day 70 years ago the Zionist pioneers promised themselves to go south, to the vast spaces of the desert...       Nebô - LetGo Page One 2008_01_26 Nebo-LetGo Page Two 2008_02_09 Nebô-LetGo Page Three 2008_02_16 Nebô-LetGo Page Four 2008_03_08 Nebô-LetGo Page Five 2008_04_05 Nebô-LetGo Page Six 2008_06_14 Nebô-LetGo Page Seven 2008_06_21 Nebô-LetGo Page Eight 2008_07_12 Nebô-LetGo Page Nine 2008_07_15   Second stage: Development of a temporary model of a hosting business in the desert: Succah in the Desert Overview of and links to the Pages of Desert Vision     This photo was taken in August 1987, at "Ha-Bonim-Beach" south of Haifa. I've not a single photo of winter 1988-89, When I parked above the beach, next to the "Accadia Hotel", south of Herzlia When I returned from Wardit, from Timrat, after the "landing" of the vision, to my bus on the beach, I feverishly searched in "Concordance to the Bible" and found the term "Succot", temporary dwellings, in which the slaves from Egypt had lived.in the desert. The usage becomes clear in the story of Jona 4:5: "Jonah went out and sat down at a place east of the city. There he made himself a shelter, a succah, sat in its shade and waited to see what would happen to the city. " For some lively glimpses see 7 Succah Diary Fragments with many flash-backs written in winter 1992-93 during my New Moon Silence Meetings with myself   Ten months of pregnancy with the idea! And 3 more months till the first hosting! And only 3 details changed in the vision: (1) Instead of one Succah - seven to ten! (2) Meals have to be taken together instead of individual cooking in a succah! (3) The host will stay not 5 but 1 to 3 years at a "Succayah", as I came to call such a structure in the desert: 7 succahs for guests, 5 cabins for hosts, water from a tank, electricity from the sun.   A Succah Glossary A Succah Introduction A Succah Timeline 1988-2003   Most of the time of my "pregnancy" I worked as a secretary of the secretary of Therese, the legal adviser of "Koor". I had a job, i.e. "a right to exist", a computer, a phone, a copy-machine, freedom.   Exactly 20 years after the landing on the moon, 14 people gathered for a "Succah-experiment", 5 km from Mitzpe-Ramon, close to the Crater. At the end of 48 hours, on July 22, 1989, I announced - in the circle of my partners there, that the time was ripe, and that on Rosh-Hashanah, the Jewish New Year, I would begin with the realization of my vision.     From Succah Diary 2 Moshe Klein, then the best friend of my son-in-law, one of the most independent and creative spirits I know, once met me "by chance" in a little restaurant at Tel-Aviv Dizengoff Center, out of all places, maybe in May 1989, and - learning about my idea - said: "I want to support this with all my heart". photo by Eyal Yezre'eli A major milestone was the " Succah Experiment" with 14 participants, on 20-22/7/1989. Each one built and lived in a simple succah for 24 hours. During the sharing in the closing circle I suddenly knew, that I was almost ready and that on Jewish New Year (that year Sept.26) I would start. There is deep significance for me in this triangle dance on the edge of the Ramon-Crater, of the mathematician and inventive educator Moshe Klein (right), Itamar Kashteil (lives partly in Mitzpe-Ramon and partly in Paris) and Muhammed, a Bedouin, who later changed his name to "Ha-adam Ha-universali" - "The Universal Man". This and more photos on the page "Succah - Nine Stages>Second Stage This photo - also by Eyal Yezre'eli,- is typical for my 21 years of wanderings: I'm sitting at the very edge of the Ramon-Crater, under an extended shade, erected with the help of Eyal (at that time I could not yet do such things alone). Eyal and his wife Hanna were extremely caring and helpful in the year 1989 - before and after the birth of "Succah in the Desert", and I want to use this opportunity to thank them again! For instance on that day, July 22, 1989 in the morning: - how would I have managed with that scorpion sting , if not for Eyal's icy bottle and his calming me? It hurt for 26 hours, terribly, but "you don't die from it, unless you are a child or your heart is weak ." With this experience I acquired a kind of immunity, so as not to be worried about my guests in the Succah. "Whoever needs the lesson of such a sting, will know, why s/he attracts it, if you don't need a lesson, no skorpion nor snake will bother you." Eyal and Hanna have founded their own desert business in 1998, and I just now discovered their site with beautiful photos, including photos of the snow at the end of January this year   I recruited my new friends for setting up an NGO. When the man who registers NGOs called me, saying that my chosen name "Succah" was already taken, I had a flash of the name : "Succah in the Desert"! This was in September 1989 Yet , in the month in which we started to build, in January 1990, I was informed, that no NGO would be registered, "for Succah in the Desert is intended to work as a business." Though this claim could be refuted [many a business works under the auspices of an NGO) I accepted the verdict as a message concerning the vision:   'If Succah in the desert is a model for economy, then the model should function as a business!'   At "Koor" they proposed me "permanence", but I did "go out", An the eve of the eve of Rosh Hashanah, September 28, 1989, we parked bus and minibus at the edge of the Ramon-Crater opposite the Observatory, "we", i.e., me and "my lesson"....   The Succah's 9 stages 1985-2002 [Most of them not completed] 1.Stage: 1983-88 : Becoming Prepared 2.Stage: Nov. 1988 - Nov.1990 : Conception and Pregnancy 3.Stage: Nov. 1989 - Pesach 1990 : Birth of the Succayah as a scientific model of an SPS business 4.Stage: Pesach 1990-February 1994 : Arrival of Paying Guests and Consolidation of Concepts 5.Stage: Febr. 1994 - Succot 1994 : Expansion of Responsibility and Experiment with optimal target guests 6.Stage; Succot 1994-Pesach 1996 : The Succah's "Coming-of-Age" 7.Stage: Pesach 1996 - August 1998 : Fragile Independence 8.Stage: August 1998- August 2001 : Forced partnership of Four 9. Stage: September 2001-July 2002 : Conflict between Partners and Parting-in-Peace This is, how we started in the wadi, which I chose, or which chose itself, for "Succah in the Desert," on November 19, 1989. I had seven criteria for choosing the right place: not a military zone, not a nature reserve, not too close to town, not too distant from it, no light-pollution, no noise-pollution, an intimate niche between gentle slopes. But if not for the miracle, which occurred with the authorities 4 months later, all I did, did, did, did, would have been in vain, as everything, everything, everything, which I did, did, did later on (from 1993) outside this wadi, was in vain, failed, was "before its time"... There is no photo of our 7 weeks on the edge of the crater, on the other side of the observatory seen here between the two "guarding" hills: the "Hill of the Angels' Flight" to the left and the "Mount Lekh-Lekha" to the right (both names have their stories...) Next to my bus I erected a provisional structure, where I received visitors and promoted my vision. From Hannah, "my lesson", I demanded to place her minibus 150 m away from this compound, in order to try (!) to prevent the terrible scenes, which occurred when she seemed to loose her sanity, and which caused witnesses to warn me: "she is going to destroy what you are building." When I sculpted the Hebrew text in July 2006, I inserted a note in brackets: "[I want to mention here, that each sculpted line summarizes a book! And each line brings up uncountable feelings!]"     Without the training of my life with and in the bus, I would not have endured the difficulties for a week! * the training in solving technical problems! * the training in winning over representatives of the authorities! * the training in surviving depression and self-doubting.   Nebô - LetGo Page One 2008_01_26 Nebo-LetGo Page Two 2008_02_09 Nebô-LetGo Page Three 2008_02_16 Nebô-LetGo Page Four 2008_03_08 Nebô-LetGo Page Five 2008_04_05 Nebô-LetGo Page Six 2008_06_14 Nebô-LetGo Page Seven 2008_06_21 Nebô-LetGo Page Eight 2008_07_12 Nebô-LetGo Page Nine 2008_07_15   back to past ~~~~~ forward to future home ~ library of seven years ~ intro to k.i.s.s.-log ~ contact whole&full-filled, never perfect&complete Keep It Simple Sweetheart K.I.S.S. - L O G    2 0 0 8

2012

Purim, March 8, 2012, Arad

On Purim one "has to" drink a lot of wine.
For "if the wine enters, the secret exits" -
the numerical value of yayin 60 is like that of sod 60.
The denial is gone, the person is authentic, is himself.
The paradox:
while the wine shakes off the masks
the habit of Purim is to hide behind masks....
Not so my Mika-
she neither drinks wine to be authentic,
nor puts a mask to hide who she is,
on the contrary , she exposed to everyone,
that she is "kokhav ha mish'alot",
the Star of Wishes.

There is another "item", I want to add to yesterday's sitting in view of the Dead Sea:
I said, that you are 180 degrees different from me , by nature and in life-experience:
Versus Rachel's overdoing all her life, you can just sit at the sea or even in your room
and think ~~~ think~~~~ doing nothing.
You: "Recently I learnt about a famous physiotherapist, who went to South-Korea,
to see and understand the background and people of her cherished tele-novellas".
Since her return "she is doing nothing!" "Just like me!" you thought,
but your friend Uzi, with whom - in 1985 - we experimented with our vision,
to do the "lekh-lekha" in my bus (s. above) together, you, the handicapped, and me,
reminded you: "But she is whole with what she is NOT doing, while you are not whole".
You then recalled Magie, your old - handicapped - friend, saying (where?):
"Don't you think, that being handicapped is a full-time-job?"
This is exactly what I think, when I think of your 55 years,
of which you - for 53 and a half years - lived in a wheelchair!
I once against felt tortured, when I saw you here with me:
as you - with superhuman strength and determination -
wiggled yourself from my sitting-corner into your wheelchair.

I've completed copying the Blue Book, "Right Use of Will".
The last 2 pages, corrected and edited graphically by me:

How come, that it is this example of how to start un-denying,
"someone who is talking to you for longer than you want to listen that you have to end the conversation.
Tell them exactly when you feel it should end and do not give them an untrue excuse for ending it."
which stormed into my life through my experiences
with Daniel at one pole and Ya'acov at the other pole.
But in my case the "problem" is much more complex,
for it's not only "someone" who is "talking to me for longer than I want to listen",
it's also me who feels that I am "talking for others longer than they want to listen".
See again the 4th stanza of my song (the tune of which is recorded, but waits for Daniel to be put on-line)
Talk, talk, talk is your temptation
Just remember your vocation
Empowering all who are with you
[2013: Redeeming Lost Will and dissolving the Guilt]
Let them bring their Heaven to Earth
to feel-heal what they feel
grate-full, zest-full and full-filled
to love themselves in each others' heart

loving themselves in each others' heart.



Look what a cute thing happened, just after I had sculpted the passage above.
Boris and Dafnah called: "Can we come and have our light dinner with you?"
Dafnah, a "new" starchild, has joined "us" in Arad, now "one" with Boris....
What a coincidence: I had just watched Boris among the 'old' starchildren

See another coincidence:
When I opened the very last page of the series of pages with "Right Use of Will",
I came across "the embodyment of 'realizing its potential'" as I called the dwarf-star.
How come , that during our meal we had talked about this so special desert plant?

2013

On this day a year ago I started a daily correspondence with whom I called "my True Peer",
expressing the hope that we would find a new way of writing to each other..

I also began editing and inserting articles he had published on a now obsolete website,
hoping to empower him and after 28 years to finally bring about total equality between us.

It was to become a gigantic learning process for me until I understood with deep sadness,
that it's pathetic to wish to co-create a website about "full-fill-ment",
when the space that calls for full-fill-ment is crammed with Lost Will.
I became more and more triggered by the flaws in our communication,
and he felt me to become more and more aggressive in my blaming,
not grasping, not getting at all, at all, at all, what I wanted from him,
to redeem his Lost Will - especially "lost" because of his disability...
He decided to part from me and from our co-creation dream.
I can live with the shame that I did delude myself so pitifully.
And I accept - with pain - that it's not me who can help him.
Does it mean, that I must redeem more of my own Lost Will?
I'm very grate-full, that through him I found my true vocation:
it is not "to empower people" , as I thought since the age of 16.
Many are dedicated to do this nowadays, and he is one of them.
My piece in the One Human Puzzle is
to go down to the root of what caused and causes
lack of self-love and therefore lack of power in the first place.
My task, my immense contribution to evolution is and will be:
to redeem denial, to redeem Lost Will, to dissolve the Guilt.

"The main issue now is that your Human identity
has been squeezed into a very small container
by the conditioning of the civilization that has sought to control you.
The time has now come for this conditioning to move~~~
your full, undenied greatness is needed for the healing at hand."
Since the content of the process is not important for this task,
I'm going to delete most of the correspondence with Ya'acov,
from today, March 8 till July 4, 2012

2012_03_08- 2013_03_08DELICIOUS      DELETION

2013

My meetings with Rabbi Fruman -
by Eitan Kalinkski, poet and Bible-teacher in Naftali's Magazine "On the left side"

Rachel: It's not my preference to try to understand Rabbi Fruman's dichotomy
between having been a settler on Palestine land and a friend of Palestinian politicians
My concern is, that yet another great man who gave hope to people, let himself die prematurely ,
and through what? through cancer, which, according to my life's observation
is -more than other illnesses - the result of "good people's denials"....

This poem about what I call "one of my wo greatest jewels" in the Bible, Cain and Hevel,
adds a detail I had - in my 40 years of interpreting the story - never thought about:
that the gift that was rejected was "fruit from the earth",
while the gift that was accepted, was meat and blood,
the kind of sacrifice, which we still cherish today,
be it the firstborn in "primitive religions" or the elite of our youth in "self-defense"...

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