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52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 47th day, October 9, 2002
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The vulcanic
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2014 |
The FELT days 177, 178, 179, 180 ~ of the next 15 FELT years
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of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me! |
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March 2, 2014- OHEL 32 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
[again I wonder (s. Febr.27), why Fox translated "heart" with "mind", as if he didn't believe that "something technical" could be and needed to be built by the "wise of heart"] when I, for some reason, slept in the heightened bed, which Ilan Sabag had suggested to create there to provide space for storage underneath. It was then that I came in contact with this fascinating double account of the building of the Tent of Appointment - the Mishkan in the desert, double: first all details were given to the wise-of-heart Bezalel and then - after the insert of the story about the "Golden Calf"- the building itself was accounted with the same details and in similar wording! Exodus 25-31 and Exodus 35-40 |
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continuing: (30)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
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a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
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RECALLING
experiences
towards the MANIFESTATION of the TENT-VISION from 2004_01_07-11 Noah's Diary- 40th Day of Realization
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right after having re-sculpted that experience on Noah's Shore,
I opened "Blooming Humans" about a re-view of their video.
For me it was and is the re-view of all I did in the past
towards manifesting what I now call "my Tent-Vision"!
What dreams will you bring to fruition this year?
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Day 28-
from among 42 days - UNIFYING HEARTS AND MINDS
The video is designed to be a time-capsule, The video is available
[at the bottom of] our
homepage ...our mastery for Birthing New Reality
we amplify our connection to All that IS - the Collective Field of consciousness - and fortify our personal ability to go, grow and thrive. |
Focusing our thoughts in a cohesive, life-affirming
manner Through our emotional state, our vibration,
It is so in our Hearts, and so it is. In Gratitude, we grow~
"What we
do - Grandfather Juan Ten Bears Yraceburu, aka Apache Juan |
March 3, 2014 - OHEL 33 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible - Doomsday even for Tents?
but the tents of the nomads in the deserts from Cushan and Midian, the destruction of which would be minimal compared to that of towers. |
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continuing: (31)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
- in one go =2006:
a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
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PONDERING I no longer agree
with the "victim-tone" in the sculpture above.
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 mosque at Abu-Gosh, where Lior lives |
 synagogue near my home at Arad |
 synagogue at Mitzpe-Ramon |
The
experience with Lior Oren and the Tent-Vision artwork When I asked Lior - 2 days before she was to visit me at Arad, if she would paint my Tent-Vision in a way, that it would touch the audience at Mitzpe-Ramon on March 11, she agreed, even with some enthusiasm, and immediately had a better idea: not painting on paper, but working with fabrics. The next day, while - in her scarce time - she was in a Jerusalem shop, to buy fabrics which she thought suitable, she got my call: "I found the most fitting 'desert-background'" It was a kind of shawl which went through transformations, mostly with costume playing of my grandchildren. When she came, she informed me of how little time she had, needing to prepare for her lessons in her college for democratic education, "but it will not take more than 2 1/2 hours." I mumbled with humor: "more exact: 2 1/2 days" If this discrepancy of her planning and my foreseeing wasn't enough, our unplanned Shabbat Eve with Tzippi, Nadav and Nisso and Lior's early morning hike, after she had slept in the tent, limited the time for the art work to a minimum of 5 hours. At least once in an hour I had to vibrate~womb my fear, that Lior was deluding herself terribly regarding "time". But I always could let go of my own fear, that "in the end" I wouldn't have that "illustration of the Tent-Vision". I surprised myself by never falling into the old pattern of admonishing her. I felt~thought: "She has to learn this lesson through experience!." |
When she had to leave at 3 PM, to make use of Nisso's drive to Jerusalem, and also to deepen the togetherness with him and Tzippi during the drive , she had to face me and admit: "I have to take it home." I was ready to travel to Abu-Gosh despite the strain for me, but I wanted her to have the satisfaction of a complete artwork. Even at that moment - my point was not my own interest: touching the people whom I would meet at Mitzpe-Ramon on March 11, When she was gone, - it was Shabbat 3:10 PM - I figured out, that she wouldn't have the time needed until my coming on Thursday, but I behaved, as if a miracle would happen and even announced my visit on Friday to Yael at Modi'in. A day later, Sunday, while Lior was with a friend at Tel-Aviv, who advised her to use the sowing-machine, which she owned, Lior dared to call me: "everything is totally impossible". While listening to her in silence, awaiting her quest: "Please say something! What should I do!". I could work more on LETTING GO of my own interest. "It is your lesson, Lior! You cannot accomplish anything in life without the discipline in time." "But I feel so bad, that I cannot give you anything". In the beginning I had told her, that she "owed" me a painting, as she had promised for my 70th birthday, more than 5 years ago. Yet I also made it clear, that "if you do not do it with zest, I don't want it. " "If now your zest is gone, and you even feel victimized, as you said twice in your discharge, then let it go! Don't do anything for me, which you don't want to do for yourself!" |
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In the meanwhile-Wednesday morning, March 5, during waking up - I myself have a new idea:
a three-dimensional illustration...
But since this whole day is reserved for articulating my big, big lesson,
- see further down, on March 5 -
I won't allow myself to put the technical details of my idea into writing!
What dreams will you bring to fruition this year?
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29- from among 42 days - BEE-COMING Like every flower born, A Great Coming Together Thought merging with
emotion Pay attention to the
pollinators BEE-Loved's With appreciation, feel each arriving inspiration |
As we open our Hearts
to the Light of each day, resonant projects, ideas and resources find their way into our lives. These connections inspire our growth, shifting our blooming ideas into fertilized, viable containers for our visions, dreams and callings to bear fruit. Our inter-connectedness is a blessing beyond measure, as we cross-pollinate and co-generate new possibilities, choosing to Birth New Reality together. ".... This is the year that we have the opportunity to co-create anew ~to physically build something better, more sustainable and with the intention of the highest good for all. This is the moment where we apply our VISIONary leadership skills and share our inspired ideas with others. There are those already well-versed in these new creations... which will be guided heavily by sacred geometry and the electro-magnetic vortices which align all major power-centers... "We are so looking forward to seeing your physical creations take form, the building of a new world based on the needs of the people & the planetary body as a whole." ~ Lauren C. Gorgo |
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A
cutting from "Living
with Joy":
I have learnt this truth for myself,
but now I must take care that those who attract me into their lives
and promise me and themselves to work for "my" vision, will
heed every word of this "advice": p.186 "To look at your life purpose, look beyond the mass thoughtforms that exist. Many of you have grown up with a great deal of pressure to do, to accomplish, to be, to make a name for yourselves, to feel worthy in one way or another. When you look at life purpose, ask your soul and your self, "Am I doing this for me, for my highest good, or am I doing it to please others, to live up to their image of me? Am I accomplishing this purpose so that I may receive a pat on the back, or recognition? Or am I doing it because it is something I want to do, that fits who I am, that brings me joy?" There are so many programs and beliefs I see in your culture about being a good and valuable person - by making a lot of money, or being well known, or being quite pious. All of these things can be good if they are done from the soul's desire. But they can be off your path if they are done only to fulfill an image that comes from the ego or personality. Look at yourself right now and ask, if society had no images it held up and admired as being good or right, what would you do with your life? There has been an emphasis on outer productivity in your culture rather than on inner peace, joy, love, and compassion ((Rachel: why these overused terms -, peace, joy, love,- instead of "knowing how to feel" and "zest and full-fill-ment?"]] There is a sense of TIME that pervades everything - accomplish this or that... or be a failure. There is a sense of pressure, that everything must be done fast. I will say you have been given all the time you need if you come from life purpose in your actions. You can relax and know that as you go through each day, you have the time to accomplish your purpose [[again: what about zest and full-fill-ment? "accomplishing my purpose" is nothing but space and time for actions and interactions, for thinking, feeling, experiencing, in order to feel zestful-and fulfilled.]] If you do not feel you are accomplishing your purpose, that you do not have enough time, then I will say that what you are doing is probably not your purpose. When you are creating your life purpose you will have enough time, for you will create the time. You will find it so joyful that everything else falls away, and your determination, focus and your concentra-tion is there. If there is anything you are forcing yourelf to do out of duty or obligation, out of feeling that people will admire you or respect you when you do it, then you are probably not honoring the light of your soul. Each one of you has a different purpose, and you cannot judge others by what you see them doing. Each one of you has set out to learn certain things in this lifetime, to grow in every way possible. Many of the blocks ot manifesting life purpose come from the cultural mass thoughtforms, a lack of training, and other people, particularly those close to you. In a close personal relationship, people tend to take on the goals and the thoughtforms of the other. As you look at your life purpose, look at who you are close to in your lfe, and ask, have you been manifesting what they wanted for you? Or are you clear about what you want for yourself? [Read another quote from "Living with Joy", which is relevant to the issue above !!!] |
November 1, 1994 This is the second of four big photos which I prepared in Gadi's and Efrat's photo-studio at Tel-Aviv for ~~~~~~~advertising................. each photo+text with an aspect of the first model of a Desert Hosting Economy. Though the term "Succayah" is about to vanish from Earth, much of the structure of the "Midbaron" and much of the structure of the "Midbaryah" will be relevant also for the second model, the "Mobile Desert Hosting Economy",  [2014: The last two passages are not relevant for the Ohalot/Rihlaat] 
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The first of the four photo-prospectus is addressed to the kind of people who will be guests in the future Ohalot/Rihlaat.
Except for the fact, that the format of an "Aetgar ba-Midbar" was enwrapped in the structure of the first/last Succayah,
all aspects of a mobile hosting enterprise - its purpose, how to live and what to do in it - was foreseen already in 1994!
How far did I stray from my own heart? what language is this: March 9, 2014, 8 PM There is no need, to point out where I strayed. What matured in me in these days and became birthed now, is the paradigm of the Tent-Vision P u r e ! |
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What's the idea? to make the treasure of the desert: Space Purity and Silence accessable to humans. When to come? Always In winter it's cold, yet warm in a succah and the spectacles of sky and Nature are mighty. In summer it's pleasant, . for a slight breeze blows between the palmfronds. What to do? Inhaling space and purity and silence Exhaling stress and routine into the wind resting, wandering, simply enjoying The Desert opens space of silence and purity, of splendid sunsets and sunrises, your spirit will feel elated and your life of routine and stress balanced . Your vitality and creativity. will be renewed |
March 4, 2014-March 3, 2014 - OHEL 34 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
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continuing: (32)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
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a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
2002 Reconstruction of the way I sowed the first tent of the third generation in the Table-Wadi holding an umbrella between my teeth during 3 days in the heat of July 1996 after I had received 3 bamboo-poles as a gift from "Basata" and had brought with me from Israel the familiar black netshade and the newly developed silvery netshade bought from Polysack at Kibbutz Nir Yitzhak,  The one tent left of the six we created together, erected next to the shack of Abdul Aziz - today the place is called "Bamboo-Beach" because of the bamboo-poles of the tent, but I'm told - 2002 -that the tent is no longer there. |
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 A postcard - an expressionist church at Kopenhagen, see the play with triangles - sent to my mother in Aug. 1958, when I was on my way from Stuttgart to Stockholm, where I worked as an au-pair, teaching children German (in vain), - and "Stuttgarter Stolpersteine, Traces of forgotten neighbors", which opened at the "Jewish Nurses' Home", built almost at the same time as that church [all nurses murdered in the Holocaust], see the Stuttgart architecture - far from a tetrahedral tent - The story about the Nurses' Home touched me even more this time since I'm in the midst of exploring 2 movies about "Hope", the first female physician in Germany. and learning through her, how different my path of "Saving the World" must be - from hers. Attached to that church postcard was a cutting with the poem "Die Mondnacht" by Eichendorf and someone's sarcastic addition: Juedische Tragoedie Es war als haett' die Hoelle die Erde vollgepisst, dass sie in Dreck und Feuer vor ihr erzittern muesst. Der Tod ging durch die Felder, hat Ernte eingebracht und tausend Massengraeber zum Rand hin vollgemacht Und meine Seele weinte sich ihre Augen aus ihr einstger Flug verirrte und fand nicht mehr nach Haus. |
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29- from among 42 days - DIVINE UNION Imagine a Tree of Love~ Both dark and light, root and branch, Divine Union IS ... it is simply ours to
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Humanity is being asked to take this next evolutionary leap
Flow
and alignment become the natural experience of life Donna Aazura |
March 5, 2014 - OHEL 35 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
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continuing: (33)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
- in one go =2006:
a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
continuation of:
2014: Exterior Shalom = 'PEACE" can manifest only, if interior Shalom = Wholeness will permeate a critical mass of humans. That this was not yet clear to me in the nineties, is probably the reason, why all "projects" of a Mobile Hosting Desert Economy till 2006 failed. If even I, intended to become the pioneer of Evolution in how to feel, was not yet "understanding", how could "Time" have been ready? |
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30- from among 42 days - ACTUALIZATION FERTILIZATION
Like a flower,
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Once fertilized, a flower
drops its petals, In our journey ... we, too,
shed what no longer serves ...Feel the Great Coming Together Rejoice knowing With full presence, witness
the shift in form Using inner vision and imagination,
Nature does not hurry, Always changing and re-arranging
form, Many transitions are taking
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PONDERING My biggest lesson is to follow the manifestation of my vision in the uncountable roots, shoots, branches, twigs, leaves, blossoms and even if fruits will come , they are not more important than the roots, shoots, branches, twigs and they will be just another step towards more roots and shoots. What is extremely important is to not mix up this view of the process of manifestation with all the poetic and spiritual advices to have patience. NOOO, it is not patience that is needed! It's the capacity to discern HOW manifestation occurs. I'll therefore first say "good-bye" to the metaphor of Rilke's tree, a passage in Rilke's "Letters to a Young Poet", quoted on the Song Page im e-pa'am aabdekh which has helped me to survive the decades of not knowing my true purpose |
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In my garden I see a tree standing firm, yes standing its ground from its firmness comes softness of leaves held and supported by trunk and boughs and like magic comes the fineness of the blossom different - with beauty and with scent and these three are promising that fruits are yet to come this tree is content with what it is. |
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2014: But knowing this I still didn't understand or even ask the question: how can I full-fill my vocation day by day without rushing towards it as if it were a specific, limited goal, towards accomplishments and achievements measured in time and because of this - being stressed and denying myself and often expecting from others - and overriding them? My dear, dear Rainer-Maria, More than one hundred years after you wrote: "Patience is everything" I must renounce this belief! It is not a matter of "patience"! Once I've defined and decided what I desire, it is a matter of discerning, detecting the manifesting of what I desire, dream, envision, in every exterior occurring or interacting and in every thinking and feeling and acting. In cosmic, holographic, spherical "time" it is already manifesting, so why should I need "patience" in linear time? I'll just open my arms and mouth under the trees with their falling fruits, as I quoted in "The Time of Fruition" in 2003, but didn't understand, what 'fruits' are or what 'fruition" is: |
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When, after the beginning of my"pregancy" with my Tent-Vision, I felt that the old "pressure to do" was lurking around the corner. I added an additional stanza to "itfini", "enwrap me", Nov. 2013 Within a few days the old pattern dissolved!.No pressure anymore.  At ro'ah be-midbar lehavah-You see a flame in the desert rediscovery of the second stanza of my oldest desert song It was never sung until now, yet now its time has come. The whole message is contained in these 4 short lines. 
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
Avishai
Perlson in 1984,
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But as a result
of the experiences with Maya and Lior, together with less deep interactions with people, whom I wanted "to win over" for my Tent-Vision, I feel an overwhelming breakthrough: only marred by the fear, that I may forget what I understood. My p a t h t o the manifestation of the Tent-Vision is the manifestation itself: though the Tent-Vision is not like other dreams, be it the building of a house or the founding of a state or the fighting for Womens' Rights, i.e. a goal that, when it's reached, it's reached, and often depression follows, [that sad joke about industrious Suabian men: "schaffe, schaffe, spare, spare, Haeusle baue, sterbe" "labor, labor, save, save, build a little house, die"] the goal and the path are the same: to create a training-arena for people to learn how to feel, to learn how to vibrate-womb-evolve what they feel, and from there to find their dreams and the strength to fulfil them. If the Dreamer's Training intended for Noah's Shore, did not manifest, it was also because I had not even understood myself, that manifesting occurred all the time, The goal gave me and whoever was attracted to me then constant chances to feel and evolve his/her dreams. Like all the things that happen daily with myself , with Lior, with Nadav, with Reshit who doesn't call, with Lea in the Jacouzzi, and even with "accidental" memories that come up, some of them still pleading: "do feel us!" All these are not only full-fill-ment in themselves ki kol simkhati be-muda'ut le-rigshi. [see song "itfini"] but advance my vision, yes manifest my vision . Again: my goal is fantastic: tents all over the deserts where people will come in touch with themselves on a large scale. On a small scale - this already happens on the way to that goal: Whenever I or someone else needs to feel a feeling, or a lesson or a full-fillment, YOU will make this encounter happen, physically or virtually. And if whatever I think should happen, like this art-work, but does not happen the way I imagined it, or not at the time I thought it needed to happen, then I know, what DID happen, what DID occur was a training for all involved, most of all for myself. I'll see how many - not imagined - things happened between my desiring this artwork and my communicating it to Lior and beginning to work on it together and testing many small ideas throughout the work and realizing there was not enough time to complete it or perhaps it wasn't the best idea to begin with and needed to be replaced by a more feasable one, which - in the end - may even have a better effect, etc. etc. this is the training-arena. From now on - the tiniest thought, feeling, writing, singing, accidental or intended interaction, - will be like an additional root or branch on the tree of my Tent-Vision. If I adhere to this way of relating to manifesting my vision, I can also foresee the end of my "shame": "you're not doing anything". So instead of whining : "I deluded myself when putting my hope on this or that person", or : "again something didn't work out or failed" or "people will say, I'm not serious" I'll see the thought or feeling or interaction or understanding as a tiny shoot or sprout that the tent-vision has added and rejoice in this. Indeed: "my honor is new with me and my bow in my hand you replace" |
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Rilke, but Laotse (s. the quote of 1982 in Nourishment)
is my prophet now "The great of earth, How softly do they live The lesser ones it is are praised, revered; Still lesser, feared. but these, One hardly knows that they are there, So gently do they go about their task, So quietly achieve; When they have passed, Their life's work is done, The people look and say: It happened of itself..."
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