The
Purpose of HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS to
HEAL ourselves
into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms -
all of Creation!
I
focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
pp13 Feel All There Is to Feel
2001_09_06 ; last update: 2006_01_03; new
entries below: 2010 yet another update on 2008_01_10: I came across this
page a day after the coincidence
with Diana's sharing about "Emotions have to be moved" and Victor's
e-mail with the link to the
Hebrew Site about Right Use of Will.
The entry of 2006 is the answer to Diana, and , of course, a valuable reminder
for myself!
On
January 2, 2006, I came "by chance" across
this passage in "Right Use of Will"
and realized that it demonstrates the most practical way
of integrating Will-Body-Spirit or Feeling-Body-Consciousness!
"Now I want
to explain what I mean by emotional release.
When you have an emotion such as grief or fear come up [Rachel: or any vibration of discontent
or uneasiness with yourself] you need to feel it in your
Body until your Body
urges you to express it in some way. Then express in the way your
Body is urging you to do.
Express in this way until you feel no further need to do it.
Surrender to the expression while it is happening
and let it take its course freely.
Be in as much a state of openness and acceptance as possible.
Let the emotional release show you what it has to teach.
Pay attention to everything
that comes into your consciousness at this time. Let everything that happens find acceptance
with you instead of denial.
Release any judgments that surface and seem ready to go.
When the release subsides, rest and remain open.
IF more emotion surfaces, release it as your
Body directs.
The understandings
you will receive from doing this
are not anything I can put in a book.
You will find that your emotions
have so much to teach you that you did not realize previously
that you will soon find yourself wanting your emotions
to release their old charge
so that you can remember your past, learn
and feel free
again.
Your Body is going to soon realize how much better it feels
when it no longer has to hold old charge.
... I may speak to you and tell you how to do it
or I may send you an experience to
trigger it
... This is why I am now sending this book to Earth.
Even though many people do not at present want to hear from Me
and would prefer to face their own reflection without knowing it,
some want My help.
2005_12_12
A strange technical occurrence:
The left frame
[=quotes from Godchannel.com
or from the 8 books of "Right
Use of Will"]
disappeared
from the local (working) site
of this puzzle piece,
though it is still listed in the pp folder as a separate file.
The only way I can correct this now
and at least save the text,
is to establish a double table:
puzzle piece 13 Feel All There Is to Feel
p.237 "You have to allow yourself
to notice
what you feel
more than
what you think,
if you want
to throw the balance
where it needs to be
with any kind of speed
Introduction
"Feelings give
movement
to Creation.
Without feelings,
there is no desire
and without desire
vibration
would stop.
Vibration is life
and so it follows
that you must have
desire to have life."
Introduction
p. VIII "I have been impelled
to channel
Right Use Of Will
to Earth at this time because
the beings there have not been expressing
freely enough
to adequately
vibrate their space
and hold it open
for themselves. "
"My created
beings on Earth
have been experiencing
their reality
as seeming to close in on them, and their power
as seeming to be insufficient
to meet the situation
facing Earth now."
" You need
to realize
it's not true; denial of the Will
has made it that way.
You must now start
reversing the situation."
"Guilt is a problem
because it makes the feeling much harder to feel,
and this is the main reason
most people have tried to get away from their feelings.
"Judgments
hold the guilt in place.
Rather than try
to ignore the feelings,
it's much better to find the judgments
and release them,
so the guilt can leave,
and the grief can be fully felt.
"When you
have no judgments against yourself, the grief can well up
and flow through you. Grief that is free of guilt
is a beautiful, deep feeling, very much like love.
And as the grief
moves through,
space opens for joy.
Erect the shrine if it feels right,
and allow it to remind you
of your grief, and your love."
The following
quote is about
how "God" felt the first feeling
- FEAR -
but, since he didn't understand it,
- he just felt that he didn't want this-
he cast it out - the first denial
p.1
"THE FIRST CREATION"
I had always been,
but realizing
I had existence
took a long time.
"There was a point
in My progression
when I became aware
that I had existence.
When I became aware of Myself,
I already knew many things
but I had to realize them.
"...Consciousness
had to feel also
or it could not know.
In fact, a feeling
of having consciousness
is the way in which I realized
I had consciousness.
There were no words at first, only a feeling
that I had existence.
I had desire to know more.
"Already,
although I did not know it,
I had ...[fear] that did not believe
I could know more.
"I
had given birth to fear
and did not know it
because I had no understanding.
"This fear
then became Lost
Will
because I did not realize
that I had to allow Myself
to feel it.
"I had a
desire not to believe
that I could know nothing more about Myself
and so I ignored the fear.
"I did not know then
that I was love,
and I did not realize
I had given unlovingness
in the form
of denial of My love
to My fear.
"I had had
an experience
and I pondered it.
I had a beginning concept
of progression or time,
although no way to measure it. I realized
that I had pondered this
"not feeling good"
someplace in Myself
for a while.
Introduction
p.III "I want to introduce you
now to some feelings you have not known before,
no matter what your impressions are of Heaven...
"These feelings
are feelings of joy
that do not have to deny anything in order to be joyful,
feelings of joy
that have no undercurrent feelings
of being only an intermission
in an ongoing war and joy
that need not hold back
because of what tomorrow may bring.
"To have these feelings,
you must be free of denials.
The more you have limited
the expression of some emotions,
the more the capacity
to experience and express
all of the other emotions
is also affected.
"...Denial
is everyplace
you are not fully conscious.
If you have denial,
you have guilt
because you are not allowing
your true vibration.
"Another
part [of me, Spirit]
began to be drawn
into the smooth, rhythmic wiggling
of the magnetic essence.
I found her movements pleasing then,
and I felt for the first time
in my existence ~
JOY.
"I decided
to focus on the pleasant new feelings,
so I disregarded
my curiosity and suspicions
and paid attention to the JOY
that was becoming
the foundation of my heart.
"In the
presence of the Mother
I was experiencing love,
but I didn't know
that's what it was at the time.
It was different than
what I'd felt
in my earlier inner reveries.
Whatever it was,
I knew I liked it,
and I wanted more.
"But soon
curiosity returned,
and with it came the feeling
that I must detach
from this thing,
or I wouldn't be able
to learn more about it.
I did detach and study
the magnetic essence again,
and that's when I knew
that I wanted to use it
to help me understand myself better.
I noticed its reflective nature
and I wanted it to show me what I looked liked.
"In my detached,
separate state
away from the magnetic essence
I could study it,
analyze it,
and make judgments about it.
"But when
I came into contact with it,
I came under its spell,
I lost my sense of being myself. Although I felt enraptured by
the closeness, love and joy,
a part of me felt somehow confined and enclosed.
"I knew
if I wanted
to use this thing as a mirror,
I'd have to get close enough
to see myself,
and yet stay separate enough
to avoid being caught up in its energy.
"I became
an engineer then,
adding to my already budding talents as scientist..."
"I
did not know then
that
I was love,
and I did not realize
I had given unlovingness
- in the form of
denial of My love
to My fear."
When
the intellect has failed in everything
and the feeling is buried underneath its ruins
God is too remote - there - abooooooove
And I , in God's big plot of miiiine,
almost loose my mind
on the way to a neeeew renaissance.
2010_10_08-
I came across Tamir's song about 7 PM, just half an hour
before he sent me an SMS: Hilah and I are in the delivery
room, pray!
He desired, that their son would be born during the New Moon
of Cheshvan,
and so desired I. The prayer was heard, the son was born today
before dawn!
Maryam, 2001/09/10; last update:
2006_01_03
Fine-tuning in "Feeling Totally":
My individual (!) outer reality is
almost perfect.
I'm also improving my skill to enjoy, to be happy.
I have thus created the space for feeling
totally.
15 minutes ago, sitting on the loo,
I had an idea:
While breath-move-sounding
I focus and detect,
which is the event or the inner or outer situation
that produces the strongest emotion right now.
Right now, 9.07 A.M. , it is
fear for my left ear. (continuation: pp19)
Maryam, 2001/10/09
I reread THE
FIRST CREATION, [in the second, violet book of RUOW]
and I'm amazed and deeply moved.
So different from any creation-myth:
Appropriate
lines, said by the "TOR",
the Fool who started to Feel and live,
when "TOD" (Death) took him away:
Dann schwinde alles blasse Leben hin.
Erst, da ich sterbe, spuer ich, dass ich bin.
Wenn einer traeumt, so kann ein Uebermass
Getraeumten Fuehlens ihn erwachen machen,
So wach ich jetzt, im Fuehlensuebermass,
Vom Lebenstraum wohl auf im Todeswachen. Er sinkt tot
zu den Fuessen des Todes nieder.
Here is my attempt to translate
this poetry:
Then
all colorless life fades.
Only in dying I feel that I am.
When someone dreams,
the excess of dreamt feelings
might awaken him.
That's how I now, since feelings abound
in the waking death,
wake up from a life only dreamt. He collapses dead at
the feet of Death.
"My education and training
had led me to believe
that emotions were complicated events
that needed to be analyzed and scrutinized
in order to be understood.
I believed it necessary
to expend considerable time and energy
‘processing’ emotional experiences
to ascertain their origins, their influence, and their meaning.
All of this changed for me in 1986
when I read a book called The
Right Use of Will.
The book had a message that resonated deeply for me.
The message was this:
emotions don’t need to be analyzed or processed
if their energy is allowed to move freely in the body.
This alone would be sufficient for insight to be gained.
And I have found this to be so.
When I simply breathe
deeply and allow emotional energy
to move freely in my body,
without ascribing meaning to what I am experiencing,
whatever insight is needed
to integrate the experience into my life
is revealed automatically.
I’ve found that it’s much easier to explore emotional
depths
when I don’t get bogged down in endless processing and psychologizing.."
"...
you might have to start with judgment
release
so that held energy can start moving.
Follow this with the release
of emotions,
and then, understandings
will come.
Release, if you reach ignition,
will bring understandings.
You need only practice this to find out
what it has to teach you."
Judgment release can only happen,
if I know what judgment is blocking me.
To find it, I do need to use my mind after all.
But often, my mind cannot find the
judgment,
that is why - for me - the first healing
step is
"Feeling totally".
Nor is it true for me,
that movement always "brings understandings".
Therefore quite often the only thing
I can do, is
to feel totally ,
and to move at least by breathing and dancing,
even if I cannot discern the connection
between the feeling and the movement.
3
days ago I felt, that
I'm wholly satisfied with my life,
and in harmony with Body, all humans and Creation,
and today I feel, I cannot handle this 'TOO
MUCH'.
Every single second of this day a child has starved to death,
every 4 minutes a person, lacking vitamins, has lost an eye, 200
000 children in Africa are sold into slavery every year,
in Benin with its infamous "King's Palaces of Abumey",
its history of chopping heads and selling their own kin,
and all this while the planet could feed 12 billions,
almost twice as many as its population today.
This "TOO MUCH", which closes
in on me more and more,
restarted with an urge to follow the "24
Stunden um die Welt",
yesterday's program of the "3 SAT" television channel
with videos [interactive on the Internet]
about 120 places from among the 700,
declared as "Cultural Heritage of Humankind" by the UNESCO.
Contrary to my creative skills, which can keep me going up to 12 hours
per day,
my receptivity, the ability to take in, to respond to stimulations,
is limited to two.
In this case I forced myself to take in as much as time and vigilance
allowed,
for almost every video or in-between discussion were of extreme interest
to me.
But too many emotions drowned me, too much thinking pushed me,
too many ideas, of how to sculpt information-feelings-thinking into
ONE,
exacerbated my frustration concerning all the sculptures I've not
yet completed.
And to add guilt to the pressure and
the frustration: Tomer
wanted to come for some hours and I agreed,
but I could hardly conceal my lack of enthusiasm.
"I need to work", said the slave driver in me.
Oh, the shame about pain, that has
no legitimation!
Who can possibly understand, leave alone justify my predicament?
How can I not judge myself?
2003_05_07;
The State of Israel
after 55 years of existence:
6.7 million people,
i.e. 8 times more than
when the state was founded
81% are Jews,
who are 38% of World Jewry.
Since 1948 immigrated to Israel
about 3 million Jews.
During the last year more than
140 000 babies were born.
[81% = 5 427 000 Jews
= less than the 6 millions murdered
by the nation into which I was born.]
The Day of
Independence - the official ceremony in Jerusalem - on my television:
320 young people from my dancing town Modi'in moved into a Menorah-candelabrum
Later they moved into two hearts
Why
is this puzzle piece so miserable?
It should be the center piece of this site!
After 26 years of "owning" the information,
that I should feel and accept my feelings,
I see myself still fighting them ever so often.
"I
shouldn't feel this!"
"Why didn't I avoid this situation,
so I wouldn't have to feel so bad!"
"Why do I keep torturing myself
with unnecessary suffering."
The only thing I can do,
when watching this constant nagging,
is to accept myself doing this nagging..
But I also want to remind myself ,
that "to feel all there is to feel",
means to make a conscious effort,
to feel the feelings I'm grateful for.
Like - if I get a complement,
I pass over it within a second.
If I get blamed or humiliated,
I dwell on it for days & years.
or:
As every year 12 candles were
lit by 12 representatives of the nation.
I was most impressed by this candle:
not one , but two soldiers, who serve in the Border-Guard,
a Jewish girl
who immigrated only 4 months ago from Morokko, without her
family,
and a Druse boy from Sajour in Western Galilee,
whose brother was recently killed in a terror attack.
This could have been my granddaughter
Elah,
who also was among the 320 dancers from Modi'in
I'm very aware of the feeling
of not wanting to exist,
which "attacks" me often.
But I am rarely aware of the feeling of "Yes, at this moment I do want
to live."
The reason for having opened
this page right now,
- while still focused on the Tomer
pages -
is an "insight" , which I want to catch before
it's gone. (I laugh at what I feel coming
to me as "insights",
because I mostly had had them before and forgot)
All the time I preach to
myself and others,
that feelings have to be felt,
because DENIAL of feelings
is the cause of all misery on earth,
and I can prove that eloquently.
But now I remember a line in the "Blue
Book"
which I've started to copy and edit on this site:
"Right Use of Will offers ....to recover
the powers of the Will .... an opportunity ...of
enjoying life to its fullest".
In other
words
- it's so banale, I'm ashamed to call it an insight -
it's not only for saving myself and humankind from misery,
that stopping denial is asked for,
but in order to enjoy life to its fullest.
Enjoying life doesn't mean, that the feelings have to be"good".
I KNOW, that I can enjoy almost all feelings,
for the very reason, that they are feelings,
which means I am vibrating and therefore living.
Which means, that instead of judging
myself
for creating bad feelings (mainly three:
"I should work and complete what I've started!"'
"I shouldn't have said or written this or that, or I shouldn't
have talked so much,"
and: "I don't want to exist".)
I want to be GRATE-FULL
for all these OPPORTUNITIES TO FEEL.
Also when I've done something,
which causes a turmoil (Ruth's letter)
for others and for myself,
instead of blaming myself, I should be grateful for this great chance
to feel,
even if it's anger and fear, guilt and shame.
The foot
of the
Menorah,
into
which
my town's
dancers
moved,
changes
its
shape
40
minutes later:
I'm watchful right now.
I let myself feel, that I enjoyed my breakfast,
Ra'ayah's bread and butter, Ronnit's fantastic jam,
I also felt the pressure of setting out for my daily
break:
going to the pool, and choosing to take the
path of my Hill,
both back and forth, which is becoming ever
more difficult.
I want to do both, pool and path,
but neither do I want to leave my home and my home-page, [especially since I have an intuition
or a fear~~~,
that the "time of gestation" might come to an end,
and that in some months I may be "on the move" again.]
so I feel my ambivalence of taking this break at all,
and also the ambivalence of taking it now or later.
And
then came a phonecall from my landlord, on this day of Israel's Independence
and Palestine's Naqba, that my check for the rent had come
back,
for no reason I can imagine.
I said:"Uff!"feeling a strong resistance to
a) having to deal with something so unnecessary,
like going to my local postal bank,
standing in line
which will "waste my time",
b) having to feel, that I have to deal with
this,
while I do everything to be free of "hassles".
So now you can apply your insight,
M'dam!
I'll do so, while going for path, pool and path.
83 minutes later, path, pool, path, thorns in my
sandals & clothes
a bunch of flowers and a big bunch of feelings.
Meeting the crowds in the pool I felt punished:
"What do I expect, arriving at 11 on this day!"
Now comes the choice:
Should I feel the suffering of the crowds?
Or should I get away from the situation?
I chose the latter, by choosing the outdoor pool.
I jumped head-on into the cold water, but alas:
there was a new reason for "suffering":
The lifeguard listened to a "stupid" radio program.
On request he reduced the volume, but it didn't help.
Noise at the wrong time and place is torture for me.
Did I again have the choice between feeling what IS
and getting out of the situation that forces me to feel?
Not really. Even swimming mostly under
water, when on my belly, or with cap-covered ears under
water, when on my back,
making vigorous, splashing movements to drown the noise,
did not let me get away completely from the torture.
I tried to feel it, to breathe it, to accept it, I couldn't.
So what about "enjoying life to its fullest?"
At the end of unbearable situations/feelings (shame on me calling such
ridiculous torment "unbearable")
there is only one savior: "getting used to it".
The magnetic Divine Feminine force expresses itself through
emotions and through the physical plane.
Feelings are
intense now because great healing is underway.
Some people
are ending lifelong relationships,
leaving projects that they have faithfully given their all
to,
experiencing death of loved ones,
and facing uncertain futures.
They may be feeling great fear and trepidation
about politics, health, and the future of earth.
Wounded feelings
from childhood are coming up to be healed in everyone.
There are feelings that need to be healed now.
This is necessary for the transformation of consciousness
in the physical body.
In flowing
into these feelings, sometimes memories surface that feel
violent.
They have so much pain associated with them
that the programmed instinctual reflex is to do everything
to avoid feeling them.
It feels like life itself is at stake...This is a true panic
attack.
Everyone has
experienced panic and these feelings are surfacing now to
be healed.
Emotions heal through flowing.
Use eye movement to
relive the tragic event, if you can remember it.
Relive the memory over and over until all the feelings associated
with it have time to flow.
If you cannot remember anything, but just have the feelings,
flow with them using eye
movement and deep breathing.
These are
times when overwhelming feelings are coming up to be healed.
KEEP BREATHING.
Deep rythmic breathing is the foundation of holotropic breath
work.
Just as a woman breathes while giving birth, keep breathing
when panic feelings come up. "now will I cry like a
travailing woman, gasping and panting at once" Isaiah
42:14
In
addition to deep breathing, use eye movement
and stay focused on the feelings for as long
as it takes for good feelings to return.
Usually this happens quickly.
Traditionally
when panic attacks happen~~~
the old paradigm of shutting DOWN the feelings IMMEDIATELY
takes over.
This has been
accomplished
through medication, alcohol, diversion, disassociation,
denial, magic, hypnosis, etc.
Break the
habit and STAY WITH THE PANIC.
The panic
passes in SECONDS~~~
BREATHE and use EYE MOVEMENT,
and use every bit of will power and mastery
to stay with the feelings
and to FEEL THE FEELINGS through.
Conscious flowing is how feelings heal.
This is important,
everything depends on GETTING THROUGH THE FEELING
and NOT AROUND IT.
Flowing is how EMOTIONS heal,
denial just makes them unconscious
and the body stores them as tension and stress in the musculature.
Use eye movement and deep
breathing
instead of giving into disassociation
or destructive acting out.
It is wonderful
when panic comes up.
By healing these emotions, the Divine Feminine Force is
healed.
By healing the emotions of the dark dark wounding, the body
is healed.
It is like having an emotional bowel movement.
Whether it is fear, anger, hopelessness, suffocation, betrayal,
shame, etc,
this is the healing process at work.
The next time
feelings become unbearable,
stay with the feelings
no matter how painful they are,
use eye movement and keep
breathing.
The feelings heal so fast it is amazing.
2010_01_19
I've been reading this message now,
after I had re-immersed myself in learning about
VISION ACUITY.
What is not mentioned in the Angelic Message, is my MAIN FEELING: Pressure,
when I "believe" that something is expected from me.
It was this feeling which caused my near-sighted-ness in the first
place.
And now, that I want to heal my eyes, because that's what they deserve,
I wonder, how I can heal a life-time of such pressure.
Right now I believe, that only by limiting "the situations
of expectations",
can I free myself, and not so much by "feeling all I feel".
When expectations from others cause
tension,
I'm giving my own eyes more loving attention.
I tried this in the
last "situation of expectation" I found myself in,
or more exact: "which I staged in my drama": the
grandma-day with the quintet at Shoham on January 9, 2010.
I was aware of how I projected "expectations" on all around
me!
Yet the very stress prevented me from giving attention to my eyes.
What I'm grasping lately, by watching friends like Irene and Yaacov,
is how megalomanic I have always been in playing the super-woman.
And I am not talking about my super-human "projects" like
my
bus!
I'm talking about ever so many "small" and daily assignments,
just like what I did the last weekend.
If I would have been in my own flat with the five grandkids,
it would not have been difficult for me, the super-grandma.
But there were grownups around and there was a schedule,
and in the background a seething volcano in someone's soul,
which had nothing to do with the Quintet Grandma-Shabbat.
I'm teaching my friends
what I
inserted above all 2008 "Communications with Deity";
"and walking humbly with your God"[
Micah 6:8]
but what about myself?
Only twice I remember myself having said to someone:
"This is too difficult for me to do! You must do it alone!" (I could tell the story with Ram Eisenberg in
Succah in the Desert...)
(or about how I cancelled the invitation of 3 grandkids to Eilat...)
My children and grandchildren never ever heard this!
I'm always there, always available,
yes, taking upon myself more than anybody demands!
And then I'm wondering, that nobody can follow me!
I must , I desire to heal myself from this megalomany!
2010_12_01, Eve of Chanuka - holidays of
grandkids....
Did an "angel" push my eyes into this last passage?
For this morning I suggested to my daughter-in-love
exactly the same kind of megalomanic "Quintet-Day"! 2010_12_02, First day of Chanuka - holidays
and guests....
I listened! And I cancelled what I had suggested!
Now I'm afraid of the reacton to the cancellation!
In any case, as to the pressure of this day: Dec.2, I've
created a sculpture which will
help me today
to continually breathe, blink and en-joy all I feel!
Back to 70 Puzzle Pieces Guide
which
helps me to learn and
to live that"God
has evolved"
.pplistPUZZLE PIECES GUIDE
2001-2002 .pplistpreface
-Preface to Puzzle Pieces Guide .pp1 - Driving backward .pp1b-Driving Backward
to Retrieve Goodness .pp2 - Peer Companions .pp2b-
Peer Companions .pp3 - Moving Emotions .pp4 - Identifying
Triggers .pp5 - Trapping Will .pp6 - Releasing Judgments .pp6b-Releasing Judgments
.pp7 - Total Self-Acceptance .pp8 - Understanding
and Choosing Experience .pp9 - Body the Master
Healer of Creation .pp10 -Denial of Will .pp10b-How God started
to feel and to deny .pp11 - All of Creation .pp12 - The Goal:
To become Parental and Whole .pp13 - Feel all there
is to Feel .pp14 - God's and
my Will and Desire .pp15 - Guilt&Blame
are the same .pp16 - Reality reflects
Denial .pp16b- Reality reflects
Judgments .pp17 - How I learnt
Moving Emotion Techniques .pp17b- Moving Emotions:
Sound .pp17bb-Sound +
17bbNote: Heart .pp17c- Moving Emotions:
Breath .pp17d- Moving Emotions:
Body Movement .pp17e- "Releasing"
Emotions
or Moving & Evolving them? .pp18 - Good and Bad .pp19 - Body's Illness
and Aging
.pp19b -Body's Death .pp20 - Everyone a
Hologram .pp21 - Oneness and
Duality .pp21b-Fragments
and Fragmentation .pp22- Perception and Projection
.pp23
- Loving Hearts' Denials .pp24 - Lucifer and
Ahriman
.pp25 - Denial Spirits and Asuras .pp26 - Redeeming
Lost Will .pp26b- Redeeming
Lost Spirit .pp27 - Movement of
Lost Will .pp28 - No overriding,
no letting override .pp28b- No overriding,
no letting override .pp29 - Reclaiming
my Power
.pp30 - Unconditional
Love .pp31 - Sacrifice
what you don't want .pp32 - Doing the
Healing Work .pp33 - Greatness
and Grandeur .pp33b-Reflection
of Denied Greatness & Power .pp34 - Communication
with Deity .pp35 - Following
Will's and Body's Lead .pp36 - September
11, 2001 .pp37 - Gaps and Eruption
of Gapped Rage & Terror .pp38 - Unconsciousness,
Amnesia .pp39 - Deity and
Manifestation .pp39b -The Process
of Manifestation and Creation .pp40 - Cease Creating
New Manifestations! .pp41 - I Create my
own Reality .pp42 - Victim and
Perpetrator .pp43 - Self-Victimization .pp44 - No one needs
Correction or Punishment .pp45 - I need you
to feel how I feel .pp46 - Love&Light&Joy&Peace??? .pp47 - Mary and The
Mother .pp48 - Rage and Terror .pp48b -FEAR .pp49 - Ego .pp50 - "Let
Consciousness Serve Sentience!" .pp51 - "Laughter
- the Final Stage of Healing" .pp52 - Loving and
Healing Sexually .pp53 - JOY .pp54 - Light's Way
to Dwell in Hell .pp55 - Heaven on
Earth
