The
Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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intro
to k.i.s.s.-l o g+all dates
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March
15,
SHABBAT, - at Arad
back
to past ~~~~~ forward to future
MY INTENTION and PLAN for
TODAY
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may!
I desire to live every breathing
in and breathing out on this Shabbat
in holy whole aloneness, all-one-ness,
"celebrating every movement in my feeling,
each sensation in my belly, on my skin"
and "doing" only what spontaneous
desire asks me to "do",
instead of succumbing to the pattern
and pressure of "completing what is uncompleted"
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image of the
day, Dorothee
with my Three, Ramat-Hadar, Israel,
1968
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
7:10
My Body, my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to the 26 muscles in
our face,
which allow us over 10000 nuances in expressing our feelings,
and thus show my aliveness as well as my responsiveness to
others.
[Ika's mother 1956: "You
look very similar to Dorothee", another
classmate.
I exclaimed: "But she is
so pretty!" with no intention to fish
for compliments.
"A lively face is always
pretty!" she said and helped me love
myself a little.]
I give thanks for the chance of talking with my son,
arranged in a cafe at Shoham yesterday
in the tight time-space between his arrival from Thailand
and my return to Arad.
I'm grateful that I could convey relatively clearly,
not only the details of the "Initiation-Journey
into Adulthood",
but also how I see the good that came out of it,
despite my big mistake of not having communicated the rules
of the game.
I'm also grateful, that I could depict - though without getting
a response -
his need for strengthening his backbone by taking over legal
custody for T.
and the evil of his goodness (inherited from
me) - towards his firstborn.
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My family, Rafael, Rachel, Immanuel, Ronnit,
Micha with
my classmate Dorothee Kneser in Munich's Zoo, 1969,
and "Sisters in New-York", Immanuel's
video of
his daughters Elah and Mika, October 2007
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A
memory of a touching, sad sentence said by Tomer during supper,
4 days ago:
"When I was the age of Mika ~~~ did
my siblings love me as much as I love Mika?"
The age-gap between
him and Alon is 3 years and between him and Elah 6 years.
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Nourishment from Others
(from TV, 3SAT
- Nano)
More than 10000 micro-expressions betray our feelings.
Forscher aus Österreich und den USA
haben mehr als 10.000 Mikroausdrücke
in der menschlichen Mimik ausgemacht, die viel über
eine Person verraten können. "Sie
können Mimik schlecht trainieren",
sagt Verhaltensforscher Karl Grammer. "Das
läuft auf unbewusster Ebene ab." Man
könne nur absichtlich lächeln. "Die
restliche Mimik kann gefälscht werden, aber das fällt
auf, dass das vorgespielt ist." Doch
auch ein falsches Lächeln lasse sich am Spiel der Muskelgruppen
erkennen.
Eine entscheidende Muskelgruppe um die
Augen, die für die Krähenfüße sorgt, könne
man nicht bewusst anspannen. "Lügen
kann man im Gesicht erkennen",
schildert Grammer. "Es ist
aber sehr schwer. 40 Prozent der Menschen können perfekt
lügen."
Im Gesicht Bill Clintons will er die Lügen über seine
Verhältnis zu Monica Lewinsky erkennen können: Die
Videoanalyse zeigt ein verräterisches Stirnrunzeln in Sekundenbruchteilen.
26 Muskeln steuern die Mimik.
"Lügen erkennt man vor allem
daran, dass der Ablauf der Muskel-Kontraktionen im Gesicht asymmetrisch
ist. Und das zeitliche Verhältnis des Ablaufs zueinander
stimmt nicht." Dennoch könnten
Computerprogramme Lügen nicht sicher erkennen und Hinweise
statt Beweise liefern.
Sein Computerprogramm will eher Mimik simulieren. "Das
Programm kann die Grund-Emotionen: Überraschung,
Traurigkeit, Glück, Furcht, Angst, Wut und Ekel.
Wenn man diesen ganzen Raum abfährt, dann findet man alle
unterschiedlichen mimischen Ausdrücke, die ein Mensch machen
kann."
Eine dieser Basis-Emotionen sei die
Angst: "Das
kann man simulieren. Hier werden
zunächst die Brauen gehoben. Als zweiter Teil werden die
äußeren Brauen gehoben. Dann werden die Brauen nach
unten zusammengezogen. Und dann wird die Unterlippe nach unten
gedrückt und der Mund wird in die Breite gezogen. Insgesamt
sind sieben Muskeln an so einem Bild der Angst beteiligt."
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Nourishment
from Others (from
an e-mail) 
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declaring: "Everything is sound!"
2008_03_15- 2013_03_15 DELICIOUS
DELETION
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Impressions from my journey from Shoham to Arad
yesterday
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I
didn't want my flight-tired son to bring me to the airport -
train-station.
But the last bus - with a gap between bus and train of only
20 min. - was gone already.
The bus available would leave at 10:00 and I would have to wait
for the train until 11:14.
It was then that I saw a pattern breaking apart!
The pattern of "always saving money"!
It was five minutes to 10:00 and while walking to the bus-station
I said to myself:
' If an empty taxi will pass by before the bus, I'll afford
myself a taxi!'
I had hardly finished this sentence, when a taxi arrived.
The driver wanted to talk: "Do
you live in Shoham?" "No, in Arad!"
"Oh I have relatives who live close to Arad!"
He was a Bedouin, who lived with his family in Lod.
This information made me tell him about
Nuri Al-Uqbi.
It was unavoidable, that we entered the dire subject of "Israel
and the Bedouin".
And as if to demonstrate this -
at the entry to the airport area the guard took my driver's
identity card away.
I've photographed a Hananiel,
a Jewish driver when waiting for the guard at this entry.
Hananiel had to stop, but he was not questioned, nor did he
have to show anything,
nor was, what he had to show, taken away for systematic examination.
At first my Bedouin driver played it cool, but when he saw that
I was upset,
he used the rest of the time to spell out his anger, pain and
frustration....
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Though my backpack was heavy with all the food I had
"inherited",
I felt like getting off the train at Lehavim
and hitchhike to Arad.
The spring- weather was gorgious and I didn't mind,
that I had to wait for 25 minutes, until a car stopped.
As usual, I did not stand, but strolled along the road.
That's how I got these pretty perspectives of Lehavim.
The impressive "dome" is - a mall
or a market.
How could it be otherwise in this time-period...

Every 10 seconds I turned around to see if a
car was coming from the west.

I walk on - further east - and get a glimpse
of the last houses of Lehavim

'Will it be this car?' - No, it can't be, since
it's followed by a lot more cars.
Usually only when a car comes along with no other car in front or
behind,
is there a chance that the driver will stop.
After a short while I was invited.
When asked, I told that I was commuting between Arad and Shoham,
since my son was a pilot etc.
"I may know your son! I'm a pilot
too!"
It was Zwicka Dominitz, 3 years older
than Immanuel,
but during a year and a half or so they were both trainers
on "Pipers" at Hatzerim
Airbase
"that was a long time ago, but
it was only a month ago that I met Immanuel somewhere!"
Realizing that - unlike my son who had
left the airforce after 12 years - Zwicka was still there,
I couldn't help asking, if he was doing other things as well,
and conveyed as cautiously as possible that my son thinks,
that pilots who stay in the airforce or go directly to fly
for El-Al,
are stuck.
"Yes caught in a honey-trap",
Zwicka agreed.
But he himself does do other things and he was - right now
- on his way to the desert,
where he would join people from the Nature Reserves Authority
to count predatory birds.
I don't know how it occurred that I told him how glad I was,
when my son hadn't made it to become a "fighter-pilot".
He insisted to know why.
Again - I was very cautious not to hurt him:
"Immanuel was smashed ,
when he became "only" a pilot for Transport and
Intelligence,
but soon enough he saw the terrible competition among the
fighter-pilots
and was glad not needing to be part of that.
But my own reason for being glad was,
that I did not want my son to ever get into a situation,
where he would have to kill.
I've listened to several people in my life,
who could never sleep in peace,
because they always carried with them the people they "had
to kill"...."
Zwicka explained that all pilots, yes
all army-people, yes all the people of Israel
were responsible for the killings.
I agreed:
"I've written my PH.D.-thesis
on "kol Yisrael 'arevim zae le-zae" - how we are
all responsible for each other,
And you are absolutely right ~~~ there really is no difference
between the one who physically kills,
and the others who are dependent on him and don't find a better
solution than killing."
"What other solution?"
Zwicka became excited, as if so far
he hadn't thought of a better solution himself.
From then on he succeeded in drawing me out about my "Partnership
Ideology and Experience",
until we stopped in front of my house, where he wanted to
leave his car for the next 5 hours,
and from where his colleague Ohad Yahalomi (a new generation
of rangers...) fetched him.
I wondered about the clarity and conciseness, which his resonating
drew out of me.
And I wondered, why I was suddenly in that role again,
teaching "how to turn a negative
dependency into a positive dependency, a partnership. "
Thank you, Zwicka Dominitz!
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And then I was home!
Struck by the spring burst of new reddish leaves from all the branches
of my pomegranate tree.
[on this date in 2012 the buds of the
leaves are still much smaller, almost closed]
All this occurred to me yesterday.
I hoped for a Shabbat without any exterior occurrences...
"Rachel I've found worms",
LiorCohen screamed
across the Wadi
of Compassion,
when she spotted me from above, while I climbed down the opposite
slope.
Ofir, her father, accompanied her bike-ride through our neighborhood.
"You must learn the difference
between worms and caterpillars!"
I started to teach her.
"Worms stay worms forever, but
caterpillars transform into butterflies!"
She couldn't grasp this and "instead"
led me to a small, pretty dung-beatle.
"Its task is similar to that of
the isopods!" ("I've
seen isopods too!"),
about which I taught her
last time,
and what is also worthwhile to know
- I said this to Ofir -
is that the scarabaeus, as it's called
in Latin, was holy to the ancient Egyptians."
Ofir and I walked her home and stood
on my veranda talking,
while Lior continued her art-work on the
oval table,
she pestered us with: "I
want to stay with Rachel!"
Her father said: "No,
you come with me!" and I
reinforced this:
"No, not now, your father is walking
with you,
take advantage of this, take him to the desert!
"But he doesn't want to!"
"So try to win over his heart!
This is my expression:
Not 'convince him' , but 'win over his heart!' "
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Listing today's learning, creating, interacting.
Examining, if I fulfilled today's intention.
* Climbing down and up my Wadi of Compassion
and walking to and fro -
to the "morning-pool" between (9 and 10 AM) and to the "noon-pool"
between 1:30 and 14:25 PM.
*Following my intention for this Shabbat I took it easy with creating
on K.i.s.s.-log,
I didn't stick to preferences,
I let myself be led to read some "old" sculptures,
and I lay down sometimes to zap into
two relevant TV channels, 3SAT and Israel's educative channel 23,
or I worked in the garden, watering diligently and pruning some plants
in the soil or in a planter.
*Unexpected:
problems with G-mail and the Internet, about which I wrote to my son,
and the
final collapse of the sewage-pump, Ofir's dismantling it
and my needing to do without toilet and kitchen sewage.
* Also unexpected:
towards the evening I got a rare visitor,
perhaps the only visitor I really love to receive at present:
Tzippi.
She has always been unpredictable and this time
- after having hugged me - she said without introduction:
"Do you remember your work on "Nakhash Ha-Mashiakh"
Messiah's Snake ?
see what
I wrote above the song in honor of my starchildren
[In July 2006 I asked my "starchildren"
to support me in doing serious healing-work
on what I still hated in myself:
judging the people, whom I came to help,
in this case the
Bedouin in the Zealots' Valley
whose mutual hatred prevents any movement
towards a betterment of their situation,
leave alone towards becoming the pioneers
of my "Desert
Hosting Economy Peace Vision".
In Hebrew "Mashiakh "
not only sounds similar to the word "Nakhash" =
snake,
but the numerical value of the letters "Messiah"
are the same as the letters "Mashiakh".
The dark shadow of "Jesus, the Messiah",
for instance - his judgments against his people,
and the dire consequences of those through the centuries,
was and is a somber warning for me.]
"Of course!"
I answered.
"Let's do, what we then did several times:
put our palms on our eyes (a
"Paula - Key"),
and then sound and move
as our Body wants to."
"I'm glad you remind me of this!"
She lay down on my bed,
invited me to lie down beside her
and we started to breathe, to sound , to move,
with the palms of our hands on our eyes.
I couldn't help peeping at her sometimes.
The sounding and the moving had made her body get up and dance
on what little space there was
between mattress, desk, computer-system and keyboard,
it was great to see her so free!
About one issue of our talking - see tomorrow.
See also
"Tzippi walking in the Zealots' Valley"
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A BBC-doc about who was once
the greatest opera-singer of her time,
moved me very much.
Her rise and downfall,
her non-communication with her mother,
and all this in memory of my own acting
as Maria Callas, in 1987
when in the grand workshop "Joyspring"
each of the some 50 participants
was cast into a role
[see also SongGame June 9]
which would help him/her find his/her essence.
Most participants had to repeat their show ,
while I "was done" after only one performance.
As much as I was in panic
when I was given the role,
bought a casette with the opera "Carmen", performed
by Maria Callas,
I regretted to have performed so well
and not being allowed to "practise" more.
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From a doc about Shakespeare
I learnt a line,
which should have made history!
"Speak what we feel,
not what we ought to say!"
Shakespeare King Lear.
The
image to the right
is from a performance
on the 6th anniversary of 9/11.
The weight of this sad time
we must obey,
Speak what we feel,
not what we ought to say.
The oldest have borne most;
we that are young
Shall never see so much,
nor live so long.
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