I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
See
below this Godchannel message:
Following the 99 pages
with photos, episodes and insights concerning the "WALK
ABOUT LOVE 2009"
~ continued from~ Godchannel.com,
Old Heart - New Heart
which accompany my graphical edition of the Godchannel filesin
the chronological
order in which they were given,
I now (May 28, 2009) want to open a space
for quoting written as face to face interactions with The Walkers. Please
scroll down (until the end of the 3rd contribution to the "Truth
& Reality Class III">"in and around Body")!
postes
to the Channelers, published on 1999/11/26 ~~~~ studied again on
2006_02_25 ~~~~ "I recognize myself" re-studied and enriched
by a sequence of images on 2009_02_21
Truth & Reality Class III Discussion
Hello, I have found your site today
and was delighted by the coincidence of the most recent addition
of the Body page, only 11 days ago...
From the beginning of my work with this material
in 1992,
I identified most strongly with Body's experience (as described
in the RUOW books).
I have connected to the Body in my studies of martial arts,
as an artist and craftsman,
as a massage therapist, and as a gardener.
It was in massage school that I met the woman who has introduced
me to the RUOW books.
I did some work with her that year
and was able to heal my relationship with women in a way that I
value most - effortlessly.
Over the years I have found
that while I can generate insights and understandings about any
situation;
they often help only momentarily
and often take me away from emotions.
When I try the mother's way
I often find such lack of consciousness and such absence of direction
that I am unable to make that work move in any way. The Body on the other hand has helped consistently
and I have recovered enough of my personal power to make my life
better.
I would like now to take my place
and to take responsibility for those parts of the story of creation
which resonate with me.
(I am assuming here
that your website can serve as a point of connection
between my expression and those of others who resonate with it.)
I recognize myself in the part of the story
which describes blue,
and which describes the homicidal maniac
who attacked the Mother when she dared to disturb the Spirit
and again when she dared to choose Him over me.
I recognize myself in the story of Pangea
as parts of the essence which manifested as satyrs
- both as those that schemed to control the Mother of Earth
and as those that fought on the side of Father of Manifestation.
I recognize myself in that part of Spirit essence
that hated to have its plans disturbed by allowing the Mother a
place in them.
I recognize myself as that essence
which shames women who are raped
by being detached and unsoiled by either side of the experience
- of the rapist and of the raped.
I recognize myself as that essence which has chosen the past life of a Buddhist monk
as a way to avoid the terror of direct experience
while struggling to remain connected to it through understanding.
My relationship with my wife is my spiritual
path
and I seek simply to make my life better.
I recognize first of all
that I will most likely live about 80 years
and so my desire to heal everything
is tempered by the limitations of daily existence
and by a need to fix the old house I live in.
It is further tempered by a desire to have some fun
and to not bore my wife with my spirituality. I am interested in others who resonate with
Body
and who are interested
in manifesting tangible expressions of their healing process.
My interest here extends to hearing about their stories and to small
bursts of cooperative effort.
I honor the way of the Spirit and the Mother,
and look forward to the time
when words will regain their full power
and when emotions can move freely.
I end with a poem I wrote for my wife.
the cleaning, the cleaning
the cups race madly back to the saucers
Christine's coming
the gray cloud
hides a friendship
waving orange from below
the messy table
ordered into submission
of stacked plates
at my feet a birds eye periphery
of a crowded sky
the rebirth of order
promises again
only a pause
as blue greets red
in the bright place
by the door
Following my understanding
and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
that - after 7 years
- I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that
on existing pages.
I was searching for "birds" on my website and reached
the poem above - about "a birds eye periphery"...
The purpose for the search was to insert part of an anonymous
slideshow which was sent to me in Dec. 2007.
It documented a campaign of labeling vultures at the Dead
Sea by the Israeli Society
for the Protection of Nature. There are only about 150 of these
majestic birds left
and by inserting the images on this page , I want to strengthen
them,
since these vultures were my friends, not only at
the Dead Sea, but even more so during my time in "Succah
in the Desert"
This insert was done before the "Walk about Love"
and before my documentation and evaluation of it.
Now - that this page is available for inserting the pictures
and sound of Marc Oysermann's visit on Sept. 1-2-
I see, how fitting the vulture sculpture is to Marc's song:
"We've got to break
free!" which
I could finally record and edit.
The vultures must tolerate being labeled
This vulture is about to be released
The fulture passes the cliff and starts to
soar into the sky
While the Bedouin helpers
prepare the coffee, ravens are attracted
by the leftovers of the foul meat, the vultures had
been fed in their cage
The photographer is sorry, that he
is not permitted to reveal the exact location of this place
I'm Overwhelmed
I honestly and truly like your website.
Just for the fact that you (channelers) are out there
and you desire a world of magic and love and healing and immortality.
I love you for that.
I do too, thank you!
I am overwhelmed by this life
and totally and honestly don't see things turning around for me
unless I win the lottery which I don't even play.
It takes me years to manifest something
that someone with money doesn't even have to think twice about
and it is done
and they are on to the next thing.
Jealous, yes I am.
I am definitely an economic slave, which is a slave.
There are times when I just want to surrender
and get a very easy low paying job
just to lower my stress level
without the hope of ever getting ahead financially.
But at least I might have a small pocket of peace ~
and then there are times when I want to completely drop out
and just eat whenever I can afford something,
and then there is a part of me that really doesn't feel all that
good
but says that I need to work harder and harder
and learn how to sleep less
and work more and more
until I reach a higher level.
Hustle my ass off and try anything and everything
and keep hustling and hustling and don't stop
until I feel more powerful.
Aside from all of this (yes, I'm kind of crazy).
What are your thoughts on kundalini yoga?
Do you feel that it is a helpful process for moving energy
or just more conditioning?
Channelers: Kundalini Yoga can be a very powerful tool,
but in our opinion not at all safe or responsible without very good
grounding.
We suggest practicing the running energy
exercise first,
with special attention to the Mother or "earth" energy.
A solid connection there is primary to any other energy work.
As we understand it, balance is the way to healing,
and grounding and releasing
the judgments you mentioned
can go a lot further in the healing work
than winning the lottery.
At least for right now.
And thank you very much for your kind comments,
you're pretty out there too.
Very Free Expression - In and Around Body
Dear Channelers,
The Father of Loving Light runs this station ~
I sense you must be scared for so recent a Change.
Thank you very much for supporting and not leaving me as is.
I don't have much sense right now
but wanted to herald in as well this update by body-folk.
I welcome so much your status in coming home through the human being.
I don't know how to channel well consciously
but can-do much else with this.
Nor do I talk like these selected for this website,
except for looking for heart daughter(s),
but I remember I can.
You know I appreciate participating in all this.
I'm handling a lot of guilt with this further said confusion of
Body's.
I'm often stuck wondering abysmally of the 'spirit-polarity',
and actually, I'm worried sick about that.
I don't even know how you respond between paragraphs of someone
writing here, per my situation.
The channelers have said, ask a question, and I've gotten no response
yet.
OK, I wait. Try me.
I can talk with God; hello?
Channelers:
Yes, you can ~
on the inside is much better, you know.
See you in channeling class?
We love hearing from you, and this time we're posting your piece
~
(Body's making us do it.)
Anyway, I'm listening to all these on the website.
I therefore, wish strongly for more connecting points,
until they find their balances.
I've told the channelers well of who I am
and took a risk with mentioning the mother's torture in Greece;
you must attend with parental parts first!
Who are we and 'where'?
Yah, well, then God talks to heart daughter oft and before me;
is that per the channelers?
Or my blocks per overpowerings here upon me?
I still sift blindly and am waylaid
because humans on these paths don't see me?
However, it happened that what I told the channelers was of the
spirit side.
I'm also of body side
and in the meantime, knew the will.
I'm blessed but most forlorn, and get regret trying to talk.
Thoroughness was suggested by God and I dam well know it.
Thank you to those in Russia et al;
I listened there as best I could.
It seems local people bar me from relating with you.
Period, and yet, without judgment;
guilt there yet, I suppose.
I know where we're going,
like you're going to hear all of this
while at the same time, I wait for some good reason
that can only blend with me anyway,
in that middle heart zone as wretched as some NYC,
would I 'chill' with body,
~ and romance demands heart daughter
but, she's so perfect and torturous;
poor world...
The net screen turns cold with a turn of my blood;
God calls it 'better back away from THAT. will' ~
Yet who respects blood;
us 'few'?
The dead?
You left a bloody heart alone?!
Wow, "constriction".
God cannot prove he didn't send me into war when I couldn't handle
it, even now.
And now, they can't leave me, yet they leave me suffering it;
my Love Body.
Can't fly, folks?;
check.
Speaking of imbalanced money, not asura.
Who ARE your buddies now, God?
My blood bubbles the world's;
sarcasms to heavens to bitterness to joys and yet, I'm denied.
One girl shot will do you, God.
Me, I gotta handle ALL of you,
far away from marriage, somehow.
Who's puttin all these girls on net, body?
I didn't ask for techy tech.
O, your gap with god;
running over me, oh yea, right,.
Whoops, I gapped:
between girls on net and reality;
oh yea, I remember: I wrote to you about that.
Channelers are here,
authors of this are there
and you, you, you didn't respond about that;
a fine line between reality and fantasy;
very, very important fine line,
as I listen on to god here;
and you get/got your sympathy;
fine;
'it didn't come through,' right?
Well, just don't go past my lifetime;
you don't want THIS weight to go down on you.
Or maybe you'd relish it?
War here or bust.
You put your proof in my pudding.
I can't just watch a movie,
~ you make me that bitter,
and inbetween, I have to reflect 'bitter'.
So, now I go to court,
simply from your going 'around the side, so to speak';
butt manifesting, ~ aww, couldn't handle a romantic of romantics...
I'mnot
done;
I can't be done,
with this God speaking so and relating with all parts of us at the
same time, upon loving ways.
Here's my mother,
over there somewhere while I can only chance upon her.
Man, where's this rage from, body?
Here's my mate and you give me black;
here's my 'mother' and you give me white.
But only in one place is my right place ~ for now;
who isn't handling it?!
Why?
No problem, let's just die, is a word ~
But for me, that's denial. You see?
Why am I parental,
only to wait for you and you and you and heart to lovingly hold
each other?!
When I drift with You, this tragedy happens;
if I hold off, that one happens;
that's all;
everyone lives that,
but what if I could be there?
You don't really start.
As I say of my will;
she can save millions of lives
or she can murder millions of lives,
and that was half a year ago upon a nanosecond.
And I say thank you in the meantime ~
Where's my one and only LIFE?!
Why should I ask you?!
Can't I just wait when I'm not so peeved?!, people?!
No, I can't stop;
I must give heaven's language until it's rote or so.
Being so good, I must be so bad-a curse until Godparts align.
Well, I'm THIS God-part; want details? Well?
I'll just blow off Blue then;
twist him like a broken neck in a daily routine I can't admire.
That's alright, he was very illegal all along.
And then 'godly' so.
I have nothing else to do, for the will is where it's at.
Another movie beyond my times eh?
Oh, and now an ad from the 'spirit polarity' ~
yep, you're 'still there' ~
I'm a pointer in Essence,
but give me imbalance,
I'll have to point wherever;
I got my role ~
But God has managed ~ all this ~
I'd be dead by now of course, without his change(s).
I can talk of that and him.
I can talk of body and his' ~
and I can talk of the will;
and I can talk of hearts, so ~?
There you go-
and we're supposed to be moving-
and we are-
but when it comes to me, spurt, sput, spurt, sput ~
it drives me nuts
because now I know better of grace and what I was of that,
especially combining right place and this lost-driven world.
You frickin neighbors.
You frickin lucky will,
takin mine and talkin to God with it.
Get real, get straight.
What is God?
Loving Light.
Where must he go?
Into Body.
Where's the 'romance' even when Grandfather comes down?
You're not here, how can I answer?
I, therefore you, cannot know
if God isn't aligned and so,
here we suffer.
(taking a break here...)
I follow my
understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
that - after 7 years
- I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing
pages.
"Walk About Love"
- a space for interactions after the end of the Walk on May 29 continuation
from "Old Heart - New Heart"
; latest update of this
page on July 31, 2009 - exactly five months after the beginning
of the Walk about Love
See pictures of me in Albums about "the
Walk about Love" on "Facebook,
with my expressions of gratitude to those Walkers, who "tagged
Christa-Rachel",
i.e. pointed out on what group-photos they had discerned me.
Sari
agreed,
that I quote this passage from her report
about her visit to The Walk on the last weekend, May 22,
2009
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam to Rotem Malenky
on June 26, 2009
Rotem
Malenky
"tagged" me on "Facebook"
in a photo from the album of
Konstantinos Papanikas, Greece
On June 25, 2009, I received a letter from a man
called Yair,
whom I had met on May 10, on my way to my "Parting-Walk"
on May 11.
Yair addressed me in the very moment, when the door of the train
to Acco opened and I had to get out.
He hardly managed to tell me, that he had seen me during our
walking from Ein-Karem,
and that there he had decided to forget about his idea to join
the Walk for 10 days. "Please write to me,
what made you decide against the Walk !", I managed to shout.
On May 14 I reminded him by mail and now, on June 25, he sent
me the feedback I had asked for.
I answered, that I inserted his letter here
on this page and that I hoped this was alright.
Only on July 13 he requested to take the letter down.
I am sad,
that Yair and probably other people "tried" us, the
Walk about Love, only for the hours of a day.
And that he "tried" us in a time and in a space, - during
Pesach and near Jerusalem -
when many 'short-timers' peeped into the Body of the Walkers,
while its energy was diluted and dispersed by the very infiltration
of these "hitch-hikers" ...
I'm also sad, that Yair couldn't live up to the message his feedback
had to give to The Walk.
I now, on July 13, wrote, that the time-period of transparency
has come,
and that - in his letter - he had already watered down the expression
of his feelings,
but that I would respect his wish,
since it wasn't my task to accelerate his process towards self-acceptance
and wholeness.
On July 18 Ieva from Lithuania sent me a letter
about the good experiences in her present life and added:
"i wanted to say ,that if you
want
you can mention my name,
i never meant to be an annonymous person in the website...
Just last time
i wanted that you mention all my feelings
and not only one day's talk... ".
I did not publish what she said there on Poleg-Beach,
in order to slander the Walkers about Love.
I would have slandered myself,
since I believe, that
I and the Walkers are One. And I do hope,
that all committed Walkers will understand,
what I tried to convey towards
the end
of my 99 pages of documentation and evaluation:
I had to leave the walk,
because I was no longer empowering people
(which is my deepest desire),
but I was more and more
triggering people.
I was triggering them by constantly pointing out,
that "Openness" must mean first of all
openness towards our own feelings,
and "Love" must mean first of all
self-love and total self-acceptance.
If I could not manifest my deepest desire,
then I am probably not whole enough myself.
On July 31, 2009 I wrote a message through Facebook to Gal Mor, "Gal, where are you? In Europe?
You promised to teach me "Facebook".
This morning, exactly 5 months after the Walk's beginning
I've completed the 99 pages
of my documentation and evaluation
of the Walk about Love.
I would like to send the link
http://www.empower.co.il/healingkiss/edited%20godchannel%20documents/index.htm
to all my Facebook "Friends".
How do I do that?
Since the Walk's website is no longer active,
my creation might be important for some people.
Since you were the one who "brought" me to the Walk,
you now might be the one who brings me to the Walkers... "
September 5, 2009
Two of my encounters with the walker
Marc Oysermann (Holland) were very strong:
The one, when I escorted him out of the desert
night towards the Ashram of Shittim
and the other one, when I met him in Yatir
Forest while he prepared with 53 walkers
to break off from the body of The Walk about Love and to walk
through the Westbank.
The first encounter made me very happy~~ the second encounter
engulfed me in grief.
And yet, the mutual love and trust between us was not harmed by
that split.
Now, in the afternoon of August 31, 2009,
the day, on which 43 years earlier I had given birth to my youngest
child, Micha,
Marc came to visit me at Arad and stayed for two nights.
Our exchange was so vast and deep, that I cannot even start to
report on it here.
May the few pictures and a song give an inkling of the diversity
of our interaction!
Marc, who is not only a vocal coach
and a singer, but also a computer expert,
found softwares for me on the Internet, which would allow me to
record and edit sounds
(after my former solutions for doing this stopped
working...)
One outcome was,
that I could finally record the song, which Marc had modified
during his lonely walk in the desert,
and which he sang - with Eilam's accompaniment on the guitar -
on that Shabbat Eve at Shittim
(click)
Marc also shared with me his meaningful
participation in three shows:
one : "The
Fiddler on the Roof", but modified by the directress
of his school
into "Tradition",
in which "the Rabbi" was given a much bigger role -
played by Marc
the other one: An
homage to the Queen-band and Freddie Mercury,
a show in which they performed some 14 Queen songs of different
styles.
And the third one: "Jesus Superstar", " I played Jesus twice",
Marc said....
Christa Rachel Bat-Adam to Marc on September 8, 2009
Dear Marc,
thank you for the sweet SMS.
I wanted to send one back,
but ... I didn't succeed in making the phone write in Latin letters...
The most important experience with
you among the many, many, many,
was that we often became aware - in each others' presence -
when we got carried away into judgments of people and peoples.
And that we had the courage to admit that and to let go.
"Sorry~~~forgive me~~~thank you~~~I love you"....
As to the edition of your song:.....
(listen to it on this page)
.
I wish for you to follow through
with all your decisions
made in my presence,
especially in setting up the SUPPORT frame for
The Walk about Change!
September 28-29, 2009
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam wrote on Facebook about
Rotem Malenky's video "Musical Experience"
at 5:58pm on September 29th, 2009
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam to Rotem Malenky about your new WaL
video: http://www.vimeo.com/6727352,
I heard the "Musical Experience" 4 times, the last time
together with my rock-punk loving grandson (15).
Even he was moved! to my regret I wasn't present in the northern
tunnel,
but two of my most precious moments on the WaL had to do with
similar situations:
on April 10 in a Sheikh's tomb near Jerusalem. See and listen
on one of my 99 pages about the WaL: http://www.empower.co.il/healingkiss/edited%20godchannel%20documents/healingl.htm
and before that in the niche of a rock in the Neqarot Wadi on
March 17 (only photos):
http://www.empower.co.il/healingkiss/edited%20godchannel%20documents/escript.htm
Of course, there were many more moments of improvised singing
and sounding,
and it was always then that I felt wholly happy!
I'm glad that you edited this scene and made a special, singular
video from it,
-let us dedicate it to Eva's life and living!
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam to Rotem Malenky about my remark concerning
Eva.
You really came down with a hammer of shame on my head, which
I more than deserved
I had written (in Hebrew) : "and now also Eva - what is this
supposed to tell us?"
You answered:
I'll translate it partly: "I am not glad that you wrote "also
Eva" ' for Eva is alive,
and therefore she is not "also" in any way.
I foresaw the temptation of everyone to say this banale phrase
,
but there is no place for this. ...
e-mail on 2009_10_04
Marc Oyserman sent
a message to the members of a walk for change.
--------------------
Subject: Walk for Change Israel / Palestine postponed!
(please send this
forward, translate to arabic and hebrew!)
Beloved people,
->THE WALK FOR CHANGE israel/palestine IS POSTPONED!<-
the walk
in Germany from 10/10 DOES happen!
the gathering on 16/10 south of Jerusalem DOES happen!
In the vision of
the Walk for Change is written:
The time is there
We are the change
It is necessary that we have FULL accuracy to
the truth and to what is needed in any moment.
There is something
happening at the moment in the energy in this region.
This moment is NOT the moment to do the Walk for Change
in Palestine/Israel!
Am I cancelling it?
No, it IS the right
moment to set the Walk for Change in motion!
But Israel / Palestine is not the right place now.
The Walk for Change
is starting in Germany, in Berlin.
On the 10/10 the world will start walking a heart around
the city. http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=132430045372
The vision
IS in motion and will never stop anymore,
more walks will come in the future.
Why postpone
the middle-east one?
It is very important that we do the right steps.
If we want
change, we need a world which is ready to listen.
At the moment is not the time to walk in israel / palestine.
There are things shifting in the energy and nor I nor
you want to endanger anybody.
The signs were
everywhere: people couldn't stand up and commit themselves
at this moment, organisations needed time, websites didn't
work, unrest in Jerusalem, tension of peace negotiations
in the air,
I and others coping with stomach-problems,
big energy-shifts around these weeks, a lot of restlessness
in the area at the moment.....
What is NOT Postponed:
The heartpoint
of the Walk for Change israel/palestine is the
"Gathering of the World march for Peace and Non-Violence"
on the 16th in Ein Haniya / Walajeh, south of the Jerusalem
Zoo. http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=266179200452
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=154269177248
This is the event
that the Walk for Change was planning to walk into and
is NOT POSTPONED.
So, I urge you
all to go there, to stand with eachother for our vision
and to start envisioning when the right moment will be
to walk in israel/palestine.
Go inside and ask
your inner truth wat is the next step that YOU have to
make.
We are living in a world where many changes are happening
at the moment
and everybody has a role to contribute what they need
to contribute.
Go to the Gathering
on the 16th the way you want/feel is right: walking, driving,
riding a donkey, bike, bus...
but DON'T walk with a large group before the 16th throught
the westbank!!!!!
save that for later.
We HAVE to start walking and never stop, and this starts
with the journey inside.
Every soul, everybody of us will know and find out what
his / her task is to do.
WE WILL
never stop walking anymore.
I will need to
go to Germany, so I hope to see you all in Berlin 10/10.
(see below)
Look on the website
for the Worldmarch for peace and non-violence here for
all the activities: http://www.facebook.com/l/beb90;www.worldmarch-israel.org/
Go to the events and join all on the 16th in the Gathering!
With all the love
The time is there
WE are the change
A Walk For Change
ps, Urgent request!!
Because I have been doing a lot of peace- and volunteer-work,
I have no money to pay the ticket to Germany.
If you can contribute to this ticket, I would really appreciate
it!
Please contact me on marc@oyserman.nl or 052-4099702
--------------------
2009_10_04
- a letter not sent, but radiated from all my heart
and mind:
I, Christa-Rachel, read your message, Marc, carefully,
with all the links and links from the links.
I am joining you, Marc, in your ardent desire to Walk
for Change in our country,
now sidetracked to Berlin ---- in my former country....
But after much thinking and some self-tormenting I have
now decided,
that I shall not put my response into writing. My
focus is - more than ever and now based on new information
-
to heal MYSELF into wholeness,
because from there peace in the outside world will follow
without effort.
In the meantime the work of you and your workers is
giving attention to what we all want, and in this Giving-Attention-To-What-We-Want (instead of bucking the vibration
of our desire by giving attention to the problems, to
what we don't want)
you are preparing the transformation on earth just like
I do.
Be blessed!
2009_10_07- following a facebook invitation to a "last-minute-party"
before Marc's departure to Berlin:
A
video about the Walk about Love , discovered
on Angelika's page in Facebook.
The uploading was so tedious, that I couldn't really enjoy it.
But at least one scene
- Robin waking us up by playing the recorder on a bitter-cold
morning in the desert -
is worthwhile to be remembered.
Also the invisible singers of "Shalom,
Salam, Hu-hu" on the background of people moving at the
Western Wall could be nice,
if there wouldn't be so many interruptions.
