The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries


[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]


I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'

pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill
>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

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InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Nourishment from Others
September 7- 20, 2011: enriched by more nourishment



Heaven to Earth - Page 6   continued from Heaven-to-Earth -5


I am Firing the Grid on 07-07-17 at 11:11 GMT
14:11 in my time zone in Israel

 

The Sixth Parcel for Rotem, on May 3,

There are three types of humans today that will bring power to this project.
First, we have those of you already practicing in an organized religion.
I am not asking you to change any of your faiths or truths,
just know that if the God of your understanding is truly omnipotent,
then all things are possible - so why not this.
What better use of our human energy and prayer
than to heal the earth
and unite mankind with God
's grace and goodness.

Then we have those who have been searching outside the organized religions
to find a different, more individual way
in which to believe and live in the light of our creator.
We each search for a more individual way in which to know God.
These people I refer to as the new age light workers.
These light workers will feel the truth of these words
and will simply know deep inside
that the plan of which I speak is indeed a truth,
a clear direction in which you can be of assistance to the Earth.

The fence sitters make up the third type.
I call you fence sitters because you truly wish you had faith
but the state of the world has beaten any faith out of you.
… you feel that God has abandoned us.
Two and a half years ago this was me.
I had become hardened to the reality of the world …
I was angry at God for letting us down and delivering us such chaos.
However I have seen
that God has only provided us with that which we desired.
We believed we were sinners and not worthy of Gods love.
We were lost to the fact that we are a piece of God
and therefore able to participate in our lives with the Creator
.
Now to all of you who were like me, I issue a challenge.
Suspend your scepticism for just one hour of your life,
and just sit, alone or with others,
to think about the beauty of this planet,
to appreciate all that you have
and all that you are,

and to give hope for an improved future for us all.

The Sixth Part of the Video
An example of how to invent a daily ritual,
in order to - morning and night -
practice GRATe-FULL-ness:

{there was a sound-button with this practice, but I deleted it in 2011,


I included
a song
in the parcel
for Rotem,
that asks "God"
to teach me
to bless - i.e.
be GRATe-FULL
for-
the tiniest thing
in my life
.

The famous song
is by my
cherished
Lea Goldberg.
I added
a third stanza

 

from former source of nourishment from others, 2007 and 2011 to next source of nourishment from others in 2007
If you wish, you can already continue to "Heaven-to-Earth-7" 2007 and 2011


 

 

Lovolution towards Union-Consciousness
continued from Heaven-to-Earth 5

Arad-Shoham, Wednesday, September 7, 2011,

Closing and Opening, Darkness and Light - a threefold sculpture:

It was the last time, that I could swim and swirl freely in the outside summer- pool, not confined to back-and-forth tracks as in the inside pool
My eyes were caught by the composition of two contrasting trees, one of them a cypress, framing a (never-used) spiral slide into a (never-used) deep pool
.
After much frustration and patient watering and pruning and talking to my 3 rose-bushes, planted for my 3 Rosenzweig (rose-branch) children,
they suddenly, with the beginning of autumn produced green leaves and - today even three red buds from one of the three bushes. What a joy!


When Ra'ayah brought the Quartet to me, she entered for a moment, and there she paid attention to the composition on the wall:
My first family with my father in uniform during his last visit before he got himself killed during the invasion of Sicily in Aug. 1943.
and my 3 children, when they were small, in a play-pen, converted into a pyramid by creative Immanuel, and when they were big,
mother and daughter embraced, Immanuel in uniform, a pilot in the Israeli air-force, and the Israeli flag between him and Micha.
All this framed by 2 flower-pins from Hathra (2004), and the mystical ivory rose, a gift (1981) from an artisan-shop in Bethlehem.

A week later I myself was caught and stunned by a momentary illumination of what is hidden behind TV set and pyramidal lamp:
The afternoon-sun played a game of less than a minute with darkness and light....

 

 

 

Shoham, Thursday, September 8, 2011 [once the birthday of my ex-husband, Rafael Rosenzweig, born 1922, died 2001]


The Divine Name - The Sound That Can Change the World
“How 11.11.11 Becomes The Divine Name”.
Healing Sounds® pioneer Jonathan Goldman
demonstrates in a video , accompanied by overtone-singing,
how the magical numbers 11.11.11 transform into the Tetragrammaton;
YHVH
the four letter name of God that was revealed to Moses on Mt. Sinai.
the Divine Name is actually a universal sound composed entirely of vowels
that when intoned resonates our chakras and puts us in touch with the Divine.



my own overtone singing
2002_06_09
inserted above all
Learn&Live pages

It's for many years, that Jonathan Goldman's Soundhealing makes me rejoice.
This video reached me today, and what did occur yesterday?
In the bus from Tel-Aviv to Shoham I was continuing to read in my folder
but I had taken with me only the pages from 100 to the end , 135,
not wanting to carry the entire folder .
By chance the text , sculpted exactly 40 years ago, was about the divine name.
"Or"
(=light) a young man, religious, soldier in the Intelligence, from Shoham, asked: "What is it you're reading, is this by Nechama Leibowitz?"
I wondered, for who knows Nechama Leibowitz, one of the two people in Israel,
who 40 years ago interpreted the Hebrew Bible like me according to
the "leading word" , the method, which Buber and Rosenzweig rediscovered.

Or was bewildered, when I said, that the Bible has been helping me "learn to live"!
"I sometimes ask myself, what's the meaning of life, but "learning to live ?"



perhaps I'll have the "time" to copy more of this not accepted first version of my PH.D.


"GoodNews" today shares with us this video

"How the residents of Vermont, plagued by "Irene", give us a lesson,
in helping each other, solving problems and making a difference..."

symbol of Vermont/USA

"The worst is behind us
and the best is in front of us,
because we have each other
and that is all that really matters."

How a daughter-in-love lets herself be helped by her mother-in-love

"I didn't close an eye", said Mika about her last night,
and indeed, pestered with psychosomatic symtoms,
her mother let her sleep beside her [Abba was on flight].
"She - like other first-graders - got it now that life will never be the same."
"I've such worries", Mika says,
'You mean 'responsibilities, commitments", her mother corrects her.
But this doesn't help the child to cope with all the things
she has to think of and care for,
leave alone the homework, that needs to be done
and her mother even reprimanded her for doing it "carelessly"

When we came back from school, my daughter-in-love cried:
"I'm doing exactly the opposite of what I know she needs.
It's like a devil is grasping my throat, making me push and blame her.
I so desperately want her to have a mother who comforts her,
and what am I doing???
Sometimes I think it would be better if I died and she would be better off."



We park some 200 m before we reach the school: cars and cars of parents and kids

" Efrat, I began, it's neither "raping her" nor "oppressing her",
it's simply acting out the pattern of the "old world"
of wanting the best for the child by squeezing it into the box,
the box which seems to guarantee a "good life" for her "later".
But fighting this pattern, makes it stronger
("what you resist, persists")
Let me tell you a story from the metaphysical perspective:

Beyond time and space Mika desired to become your daughter,
because you could provide both worlds,
the New World, which she came to bring to Earth,
and for which both of you are already working
and the "old world" of "box-squeezing", of which both of you are still a part.
She needed the second element in order to understand the "old world"?

I showed Efrat one queer piece in the pretty mosaic of her veranda-table.
"It's like me, who needed to let myself be born into circumstances,
which drove me into horrid self-victimization for 40 years.
How else would I have understood all humans who feel victims all the time?
But for Mika it will not take 40-50-60 years to understand and become free.
She is ready and the time is ready and all you have to do, is two things:

"Becoming whole with your pattern,
see how tiny it is compared to all your beauty,
the beauty of your mind and of your body and of your soul,
the beauty of your sensitivity towards other people
And don't pity Mika for having the same sensitivity as you,

[her teacher said after 4 days: "Mika feels everybody in class" ]
each aspect of God. each color of the One light, each wave of the one ocean
would have this sensitivity and this compassion towards others,
if he would have been taught how to breathe, move, sound his feelings,
instead of escaping into all kinds of defense-mechanisms..

And the second thing and the only thing you should and can do,
is finding a way to let Mika see, why you do things you don't want to do.
Children don't see their parents as human beings,
and even when you say:
"I'm sorry that I screamed at you.; Please remind me next time",
she understands it as a way of you trying to educate her better
When could you see your mother as a human being for the first time?
"When I was 40".
"You see? Now , Mika is old enough for you to tell her a story,
which let's her see you as the human being you are.
And then she can help you with your process
towards the wholeness which you desire,
and does no longer need to defend herself
and to hide herself under a facade of goodness."

 

 


Shoham, Friday, September 9, 2011 [once the birthday of my mother, Maria (Berge) Guth, born 1909, died 1985]

Amsterdam and Shoham, Anne Frank and Mika Rosenzweig, 1945 and 2011
Just before the beginning of Mika's first school-year, the threesome visited for 4 days in Amsterdam -see SongGame 2007_10_14.
And see also the Mika-Anne sculpture on the last page of the 64 pages of my Re-creation-in-slow-Motion of the Masterchef show.


Today I learnt, that Mika, who after lingering "incarnated" in Amsterdam.
As a girl, her mother, from Moroccan background, looked like Anne Frank.
Abba and Imma showed Mika Van Gogh and visited the Anne-Frank house
.
They had to wait outside for 40 minutes - time of Mika to prepare herself...

Mika sits and does her homework in one of several modern schoolbooks.
After she'd finished what she was obliged to finish, she came to my room.
"WORD, Savta" she demanded, meaning: I want to write letters in "WORD"!

Tthe day before she wrote a proper sentence: "with love to Abba from Mika, the child.
May you win in "Masterchef". 3 letters are"
she wanted to write "in the word ABBA",
but misclicked, the doc vanished and by chance the power of the computer got cut off.
This was 10 min. before Abba's leaving for his flight to China - he managed to repair it

Now on this night she swept swiftly along the keys, till after some 20 lines-
the word "ABBA" produced itself "by chance" - her way of writing a diary?


   Annelies Marie "Anne" Frank 1942

Ruth (Efrat) Avitan perhaps 1982

           

 

 

Shoham-Arad, Sunday, September 11, 2011

Published 12:40            11.09.11
"Netanyahu: Cairo embassy attack was an assault on Israel-Egypt peace"

That assault and that rescue 'happened" yesterday morning.
before sleep I read in the "album" with excerpts from diary-entries and pictures of 1979, created for my 3 children in 1995

March  26,  1979:    P E A C E - T R E A T Y    W I T H    E G Y P T

The sculpture next to this naive announcement was meant to symbolize the meaning of this embryo-peace.
[the cartoon shows Saadat and Begin paint the first stroke in the hollow 'SHALOM" as contrasted to the blatant "MILKHAMAH" (war)

And this is what I wrote in Hebrew in 1995
:
"Poli Zittenfeld
[a Jewish pupil, to whom I gave private lessons in Latin, in 1956, a year before I finished school]
- in her Anne-Frank look and with her "Arian" friend Irmi :
her parents, holocaust survivors, like Esther's parents, reached Stuttgart from a DP Camp

(DPs = displaced persons, not as I wrote here: Deserted Persons)
never recovered.
Poli's father committed suicide, Esther's father lay in hospital for years with MS, and her mother died young.

"In March 1979, I discovered the address of Poli, by then a psychotherapist, and wrote to her.
I did not get an answer,
but on this day
(18/1/95) it is clear to me, why I came across Poli on the Day of Peace."

 
Our neighbor at Ramat-Hadar, Gershon Litman said after Saadat's visit:
"Now I know why I survived Auschwitz - to experience this day!"
Only during the time of my last "Peace"-initiative , in summer 2003,
did I learn and understand from Nimr, my "Partnership-Partner":
"we , the Israeli Arabs, were mad at Saadat for making peace with Israel
 without considering the Palestinians!!      No wonder, he was murdered."
 

     

 

Arad, Monday, September 12, 2011


On our way back from school, Mika knelt on the ground
and let me re-discover the mysteries of the Judas-Tree,
the spirals of its pods, the intricacy of its "lentils"
(Mika's word)
with which we so often had played, when she was little.
I stuck two on the iron frame of the mirror in my room at Mika's .
Today, in my room at Arad something reflected the afternoon-sun
up to the ceiling and drew a pattern,
which reminded me of those double spiral pods.
At the same moment I knew, what these two signs meant...........
And there was a third sign:
When I came back to Arad, I could not enter my e-mail.
the password didn't work. and nothing I did, could repair it.
Yet Immanuel, my magician, was in the air for another 10 hours,
and it was only this afternoon, that he could solve my problem.
He replaced the password "strength" which I had never chosen,
-it sneaked in - wherever a password was demanded, I didn't know how
with the password, which had accompanied me for many years.
This word, too, must stay a secret.
Efrat 3 days ago: "They (Masterchef) wanted a picture of you, so I sent them the one I like best".
Yet it was only, when I sculpted the experience with Mika and those pods and beans, that it hit me:
that's the tree called Klil Ha-Khoresh,
on which I sat in spring 2008, while with Mika on a playground. Then the tree stood in full blossom!

 

 

Arad, Wednesday, Septemer 14, 2011

7:46 Time! Everything is about learning Time now!

"The time you take to just be with your creations,
is the time you spend in the eternal love of source"

[see my song on August 11, 2011 and in SongGame - with the tune]


My way of learning is to slow down time.
Since 2006 I have been doing this by limiting actions and interactions to the minimum.
No exterior manifestations, no people in my life
with whom I'm not on the same frequency,
except people with whom there is a mutual dependency,
mainly with the 16 actors of my drama.
Instead I "drive backward, drive backward, to heal and to harvest, to harvest my past.
and to finetune to my present, yes to more and more and more finetune to my present.


And now, since my work on "Masterchef" something paradoxical is teaching me.
Slowing down movies and cropping relevant scenes frame by frame by frame
and then edit them as a new composition, a new creation, a new sculpture.
I'm not talking about the contents which I find -"relevant".
There is my son, of course, and all the mystical story his appearance brings up.
The prophecy about the "almah", who "gets pregnant" and gives birth to a "ben".
I'm talking about the incredible creation and creativity manifested in those films.


To bring this way of slowing down time and living even more 'home' to me,
Mika lately began to make little movies with my camera, despite my protest.
And now, when cropping these movies too, frame by frame, I stand in awe:
how - in her 52 sec. movie about the resting, not moving, Nella , the dog, -
and how in Mika's imitation of the "Octopus Camouflage", filmed by me -
much more "happens" than even I who truly "takes the time" am aware of.


I want to live this day - as the two days before - in "crazy" concentration
on editing and composing the already cropped images of the 14th program
though on TV tonight already the 17th will appear, one of the four last ones.
As usual, I'll disperse the "functioning" activities exactly throughout the day ,
so as to give Body and especially my eyes a rest - by turning to physical work.

Till the computer uploaded itself - which nowadays takes 15 minutes in the morning-
I've "done" ever so many things which belong to the daily, necessary "functioning".
Including rushing through the group-emails on which I'm subscribed,
like "Good News" [a new battery which replaces Lithium], "Spaceweather", "Abraham".
There was only one personal mail with 2 words: "ezae yoffi"what beauty from my son,
to whom I had pointed out that page with the coincidence between the compositions
about his crystal ball, and Mika's and my delight in the "bride of the wood" 'lentils'.
If I would detail these "things", I would "loose time" which I need on this last day,
before .....

But rushing through these "physical things" doesn't mean, I'm not enjoying them.
My enjoyment and grate-full-ness is  everywhere,  every moment,  in every detail.


At 8::35 , I begin with completing the 13th program on SongGame 2007_10_24
adding the English subtitles to the so touching sequence of Avi Levi's confession:
"Once I would not cope with any feeling, neither sadness nor joy, there was the drug,
but now - I don't give up on myself, I try again and again"


14:08 I've worked even faster then ever, if that would be possible,
and just reached the page with the beginning of the Octopus sequence.
Just before running to the pool now, I uprooted an enormous heap of plants
which grow like crazy, I'm always behind their wild, exuberant, exaggerating growth.
Not my 3 precious rose-bushes, but a plant, which I once stole from an official park.
Now I'll have to carry a very heavy bag to the "Grave of Compassion" in the Wadi.
I hurry to climb down and up and to the pool, which is now no longer outside, a pity.


22:16
All my assignments are completed, except for "Masterchef".
I reached only the "Dismissal-Assignment" of experiencing blindness'
i.e. I didn't even complete program 14, leave alone program 15 and 16,
and right now I'm seeing program 17 and tomorrow? at Shoham?
If I stay for the evening and night after the TV interview in the afternoon?

23:30
The end of the program was truly wondrous.
The female judge Michal helped the female doctor Gili,
for once to get out of her head and into her heart.
These were moments of "Heaven-on-Earth",
so much compassion, so much love all around:

And then - in the middle of bringing this sculpture to completion -
I made a terrible mistake by wanting to go towards tomorrow - whole!
I called Yanina, whose phonecall at 22:10 had brought up old doubts.
I wanted to sleep and travel to her in the love we had just refound.....



Once again I quote from

Archangel Michael's "New Pattern of Manifestation" , 2006

and
Archangel Michael's "Time is slowing down", 2007

"
You became addicted to the "highs" of rapid manifestation...
But now, .. consider your creations with gratitude.
.....Are you enjoying it,
or are you seeking for something else already?

And with your relationships,
are you exploring the commitments you have made,
or are you seeking for something or someone new?


In the New Earth, you will need to develop
that sense of gratitude and commitment to your creations.

For the need to keep creating and re-creating
does not allow you the time to enjoy your creations
and reflect on who you are through your creations.
Indeed, time is of the essence in the New Earth.

Time to "be" and enjoy. Time to be still and to reflect.

For the stiller and calmer you are,
the more gratitude and respect you show,
the higher your internal vibrations will be,
and the more at ease you will feel in the New Earth.

Time is the key to the multi-dimensional reality.
For time and space are illusions that hide the essential truth
that all is in perfection and all is of the Source energy.

The time you take
to just "be" with your creations,
is the time you spend
in the eternal love of Source.
...

And so, the expression of gratitude
is the key to the Flows of Time.

Not only expressing, but also feeling that gratitude,

... the vibrational frequency of Earth plane has increased significantly
as Earth entered the Fifth Dimension.
And yes, as the frequencies increase,
the experience of time on your planet slows down.

Well, by 2012, you will enter "no time".
You will release the concept of linear time
to enter into holographic or Cosmic time.

....
You live in a state of total immediacy,
what we will call ultimate presence.

Your rational mind is learning to perceive these changes
as a gradual slowing of time.

Now, as time slows to the point of ceasing altogether,
and as you prepare to enter holographic time
by raising your vibrational frequency
to match that of the Cosmic hologram, that is outside of linear time,
you will become more proficient at the skill of manifestation.
As you align with the Cosmic pulse,
you will also align more fully with your inner Light and Divinity,
and your ability to create and manifest.
And, since you are manifesting at an increased rate,
it will appear as if time is speeding up.

... What is in fact speeding up is the rate of manifestation,
since that is where your planetary energy is primarily focused right now.
…The deep emotional and mental changes
are a result of this recalibration and re-alignment.

As you align more closely to the Divine Essence within you,
your core center of light and love,

Rachel: what about Will, Desire and Feelings as also being my core center?

you move into a clearer and purer sense of your own being,
that which we call the Absolute Truth of Who You Are.
.... and it is your true identity
as you bring heaven to earth "




Arad, Friday, September 16, 2011
travel to Yanina to Ramat-Hadar, from there by taxi to Shoham, now, 14:00 , back in Arad


Mika is already the best friend of Elihav, [one of "the amazing trio" of "Masterchef", as they call themselves], when he was ordered to interview Immanuel in his home.

Yesterday, Thursday morning 7:38 [completion on Sept.17 + Oct.12]:
I have 12 minutes before going out to two big assignments.
My head aches a bit - something that hasn't occurred in years.
But "Paula" will put it right, round breathing will set it right, too.

After feeling and moving and thinking this night, I no longer suffer pain or anxiety with regard to meeting Yanina. I'm free now to demand for myself what I need, so that I can trust her.
She has to let go of the denial of her ambivalent feelings towards me - ambivalent ever since I first came to her after the birth of our first pair of twins in January 1965 - or take her time until she can do this and contact me only when she "really feels like
- raq kshae baa lakh". After 45 years of friendship [it began with the birth of our second pair of twins on Aug. 31, 1966] I want to relate to her as to an equal friend. Now, after her husband has died, she could be free from the need to "function". I want her to face herself in my presence, through me as her sounding-board, through me as her mirror.
My compassion in this case will not express itself by protecting her from me, but by giving her space to know and decide, if she wants to be with me or not.

Please let me be absolutely clear with myself and with her.
Please let me be in contact and communication with her Cosmic Self. Please help us two!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As to the "message" which I wish to transmit through that TV interview, which will be broadcasted before the Masterchef finals, I hear you saying:

"It is not a sentence or two, that you must think about.
This is the great day of your coming out of the closet, of revealing yourself through your son, as the one who came to this planet for this time. You survived seventy years of "not belonging", yes of frustration because it seemed that all you did was futile, except for your children and for - now and then - helping a few human beings to become more themselves.

"On an ego level you can be proud of your stamina , just like you're proud of your son's stamina.

"You are glad, that the message to the world now rarely comes through the direct verbalizing of "prophets", but through singing, fun [like the song about Prophet Ezechiel] and -----------c o o k i n g.
Just lean yourself into this way of redemption and you'll know in the right moment how to use Elihav's dictated interview-questions as a chance to ride on those waves: singing, fun, cooking."

Thank you!

Today, Fridaymorning, still at Shoham, 8:00
I'm awake since 5 o'clock and I seem to have one hour till I must set out to travel home.
On the exterior level all experiences on the strenuous last day were to my best expectation
[addition on 18:21: yet a horrid attack of back-pain began at 16:00, just when the program began, which included the Masterchef-team's cooking for the soldiers which have to "stay Shabbat" in a basis on the Golan-Heights..... The unbearable pain and immobility told me, that the great emotional (and physical) efforts didn't pass "unnoticed" by Body - but soon I could even water my garden, somehow, and the pain became weaker with the hours until it vanished in the evening].
And yet, there were and are so many feelings, which need not only to be moved,
but understood, accepted and integrated.
I want to mention one suffering, to which I never paid attention before:
it is "caused" by my identification with a person who judges him/herself.
Like when Efrat - after the Masterchef interview (staged and repeated too often) - mumbled:
"I said the same things many times - what an idiot I am",
"they will cut out what you said twice, so don't worry"
, Immanuel comforted her ,
or like when even Immanuel - who by now is used to being exposed - asked me,
if his singing (to the guitar), which Elihav "suggested", was terrible out of tune.
"When you played and sang "Tzippor Shniyah" - [Second Bird] , your voice was hoarse -
how else could it be, when you have to perform without any preparation,
but you were not out of tune at all".

but behind his constant smile, also Elihav was self-conscious,
(it turned out, that the interview-questions were dictated to him,
but luckily I could answer what I wanted to answer,
and convey my message, which had come to me clearly -
[comment on October 12, 2011: Only one sentence was selected for the edition on TV,
but it was the sentence which people really grasped,
as I and Immanuel could see later).

What made us laugh, me and Efrat, was the phenomenon,
that she couldn't help feeling my "suffering",
during the intense, noisy, chaotic situation, and more so, when Mika and I were sent upstairs for most of the time,
without even be told, that the reason was, "that interviewed people are not natural, when they are asked to tell about their childhood and relationship with the family".
"but now I identify with your pain of identifying with me and suffer twice..."

Turning inside I ask: 'How should I relate to this constant feeling of identifying myself with other people's pains, except that I know, of course, that I'm often, but not always projecting on them my own pains? And by the way, "by the way"...., I again wonder, how you, who know all your aspects, all your rays and waves and colors, can bear all their pains? It even occurred to me again, that all this personification of YOU is nonsense... But I tell myself - as always, that the fact that we are "persons" means   o b v i o u s l y, that you are "persons", who do feel all our pains. But what if you aren't?

"We smile! why do you have to go back and down to such philosophical questions? We are you and you are us, and the only thing that should concern you, is the suffering all the worlds suffering that you feel whenever you have the strength to feel it.
Why this separaton between us and you? We pushed you to re-learn your password! Stick to it, especially when you suffer because of identifying with others' pains. And we appreciate it, that in this so vital , crucial point, you do not follow "Abraham" * but that you allow yourself to feel the suffering and to move your pain and only then to "change your vibrations of pain into vibrations of acceptance", acceptance of your feeling this, acceptance of what others feel, and then do the work of "releasing judgments" for yourself and for them, even if that doesn't seem "to help" them in that moment.
You are a hologram, you know.


*Later this day I read today's email quote of "Abraham": "Get so fixated on what you want, that you drown out any vibration or reverberation that has anything to do with what you do not want."
This is heavy denial!


In order to not forget the bigger, bitter picture:

On my way
from Shoham through Tel-Aviv,
through Beersheva, to Arad,
I lifted my eyes from my book "by chance",
and looked through the window----
there! the remnants of the Beersheva tents
(see about the "Israeli Spring" and its "tent-revolution")
and within it a huge poster: "we are all Elarakib"!
Aren't these the lands of the tribe of Nuri Al-okbi?
Isn't this yet another stage in his 40 year struggle
to get the lands of his father back?
Luckily it was a bus-station where people descended,
so I could grasp my camera
and take a photo through the window.

See my pages about "Bedouin Self-Determination"
and see the extensive info in Wikipedia: Al-Araqeeb,
which is definitely a result of Nuri Al-okbi's restless work.
[I don't know about that village, that keeps being demolished.
Nuri himself has always live in Lod with his family,
and not in the village, from which his father and he were evicted]

"Al-Araqeeb
[also spelled Arakiv, Arakib, Arakeeb, Araqib, Kafr al-Araki]
is a village of the al-Turi Arab Bedouin tribe in Israel,
five miles (8 km) north of Beer Sheva,
population 200–300,
regarded as illegal by the Israel government.
On July 27, 2010, the village was demolished
by the Israel Land Administration
overseen by 1,300 police.
Residents immediately began to rebuild,
and it was demolished again on August 4.
It was rebuilt and destroyed an additional seven times between the beginning of August and mid-January 2011.
See one of many articles in Hebrew and English about Nuri Al-okbi (or Al-oqbi)


18:30

 

19:50
I just heard - in 3 SAT "Nano" - that there are planets
which surround
not one sun, but two suns!


I felt joy!
For often when I'm yearning for my true peer,
I wonder, how this could at all happen,
For if I am a sun, not a planet,
how can another sun be with me?
They circle around each other,
the astronomers say.
How wondrous, this metaphor for true peership!

 

 

Arad, Sunday, September 18, 2011
my focus is still on the slow motion study of the "Masterchef" workshop-- now program 15

 

See the video about Spencer Tunick's artwork with naked people at and for the Dead Sea

I'm very happy about this event and all its effects, may people be aware of them or not.
but I ask: why had this to take place on a beach, which belongs to Palestinian land????

Saving the Salt Sea is the interest of both nations, but the timing may be a provocation!
[See my library about my own work in 2003,on and for the Salt Sea , which is not really dead!!]

Haaretz Published 00:32 18.09.11

Why I undressed for Spencer Tunick, and why you should too
Against the backdrop of the Dead Sea, some 1,200 people stripped for Spencer Tunick’s nude photo shoot.

Although we live in a world in which the brand makes the product, where people go to great lengths to look good and where we live in fear of the appearance of one more wrinkle or a bulge around the waist, there was none of that attitude when Spencer Tunick did his photo shoot of 1,200 naked people against the backdrop of the Dead Sea.
Everyone was attired the same, wrinkles and all, and no one could care less. They just came in different sizes.
Rabbi Ohad Ezrachi from The School for Love and Kabbalah ,
a website which features a naked, mudded woman at the SaltSea,
already reacted wondrously::
The Jewish nakedness and THE HOLOCAUST

    

Today Achinoam Nini in "Words I must say before Sept 20" quotes President Abbas:

“Our first, second and third priority is negotiations.
There is no other way to solve this.
No matter what happens at the United Nations,
we have to return to negotiations.
We don’t want to isolate Israel but to live with it in peace and security.
We don’t want to delegitimize Israel. We want to legitimize ourselves”...)

 

Arad, Monday, September 19, 2011

L., in her "clinical" depression, called: "what  should  I  do ?!"
Whatever I said to support her, the weakest of voices repeated:
"what can I do?"
Her assignment is to let herself be supported by her boyfriend,
into whose rented flat she has recently moved in as a co-tenant.
But since this human being even refuses to look at his holes,
which are horridly triggered by L.'s despair and despondency,
they push each other into feelings/judgments of unworthyness.
In the end I had to give up and admit my own powerlessness.

"I feel guilty like hell, L., but the only thing I can do now,
is to appeal to your cosmic self to help you help yourself,
b y   b a s i n g      y o u r    r e l a t i o n s h i p    o n    m u t u l   s u p p o r t.

You are 23, you've learnt from me concept and techniques
of supporting others and guiding others in supporting you
.
If this concept of mutual support is NOT working for you,
if you think, your relationship with A. can work without it,
if you go on "having sex" while your souls are NOT whole,
then we must admit , that it is not ME who can be of help.

If, on the other hand, you can win over A.
and come to me and take a minimal lesson
in how to heal feelings, release judgments,
and take total responsibility for yourselves,
then I invite you to me, but only after the 24th."

We agreed to part in admitted feelings of powerlessness.
And thus I woke up: filled with grate-full-ness as always,
but with this sting of letting my 'starchild' grope in mud.
And yet -
I once again became certain of this week's assignment:
to totally focus on my desire for the Masterchef finals:
not one person will win, but all three will be victorious.
The most wondrous though strenuous way to focus is
by sculpting the path of competitors as well as judges
i n   s l o w   m o t i o n.

Today (now it's 9:14) I start with the 16th program,
and I do desire to find the technique for completing,
what has been shown on TV and appears on videos.
before the occurrence of the live Finale on the 24th,
while all the time feeling how the world is changing



22:45,After a very good togetherness with starchild Boris,
[after having seen this sun-metaphor, he said to his love Madleine:
"You are a sun, and everyone is circling around you,
but know, that I am a sun , too!"
]

I complete this day with a wonderful short video:
"Look at yourself after watching this"
There is a peer, who does what I do -
Celebrate what is right with the World!

 

 

Arad, Tuesday, September 20, 2011
This last sculpture on this page may be an example of living in "holographic", non-linear time...

This day is meant to be a breakthrough for the Palestinians. In "GoodNews" I find another though small breakthrough which occurred on Sept. 14:
Nearly four decades after severing ties in wake of Yom Kippur War, Israeli Embassy reopens in Accra, the Captial of Ghana
"It's hard to describe the sense of pride we felt, standing here with a local orchestra playing the anthem and seeing the flag flying in the background," newly appointed Ambassador to Ghana Sharon Bar-Lee told Ynet "on the sides of the road, we were greeted by 'talking drums' – when you play them the sound they make sounds like actual syllables, and they played the word 'Israel.' There was an electrifying vibe in the air!" Israel currently has two ongoing projects with Ghana, in the fields of medicine and children's education.
           At 23:20 I went to bed joyously and healthy.
        2 min. later I wanted to get up to stop the vent,
     but my back was stuck and hurt like an apokalypse.
With screams and unbearable Octopus squirmings (see my slow motion creation with Mika) I reached the vent and fell back into bed, screaming. When I reached a certain position, it was alright, but as usual I woke up for turning around - oh hell... I suffered my full bladder till 7:30 and then crept to the loo like a worm. Forcing myself to raise my body and sit somehow - oh hell. Body decided to make it even harder - diarhea, then and 15 min. later again. In bed again I tried to detect - by chance - what would be a fitting contrast to the present Masterchef sculptures. I did come across two compositions in my "Hologram of Rachel 1984" - two huge folders of sculptures in paper. I dragged myself - with the funniest and most torturous movements to preparing a cup of coffee and then to the computer and this entry. But now I'm "finished" and must creep to bed. What about my plans? Obviously I must let go of them!!!

At 12:15 - after I allowed myself to swallow two of the only pills I have,
they are "against" coughing, but since they contain Codein, they might relax my back a bit,
I returned to the computer - still with excruciating pains, but a bit more mobile -
and the first thing I did, was to watch another movie, sent, like the above, by Jean Hudon:

Succeeding against all odds - with Emmanuel Kelly, the "handicapped" singing star
(On Sept.22 I learnt from the Israeli TV, that an Iranian (or Iraquian?) mother put her handicapped twins in a shoe-box,
which was found by an Australian woman and it was this woman, who decided to raise them.)

Gitta MALLASZ Talking with Angels
[see my work with the parts of the book, which I found online in May 2011
,
When I shared my joy about some of these messages with Yanina, she ordered the book. Now she gave it to me as a gift to my birthday.


End of the last of the messages given to "The Four" during 17 months, 1943-44:

p. 466 Victory over death!
In jubilation the Four Who Sing:
... THE TWO HALVES OF LIFE HAVE BECOME ONE.

Believe: Eternal Life is already yours


Gitta ends the book, which appeared for the first time 33 years after the experience of The Four, with this story:

"The Red Army is slowly but surely descending upon Hungary: ... Everything in the city begins to disintegrate and a sense of the inevitable end is in the air.
On December 2
(1944), the young girl who has been keeping watch suddenly crashes into the workroom... a company of Hungarian Nazis has broken down the front gate and is approaching the house.

I (Gitta, the only non-Jew among the Four) race madly out the back door and through the secret opening in the fence to our German SS neighbors to call them to help us. ....The German soldiers immediately grab their hand grenades and run with me to the clothing factory! At the sight of the approaching SS, the Hungarians retreat in confusion.

p. 468 My calmness returns and I gain a clear presence of mind. While the Hungarian commander hesitates, I discreetly signal to one of the women that all of the others should take flight through the garden of the SS.
As we stand in front of the house (
in the book a sketch is attached), an incredible development unfolds in the backyard: the German Nazis stand guard for the Jewish women and children so that they can escape from the Hungarian Nazis. Two German soldiers take position on either side of the escape hole through our common fence and hedge, ready with their hand grenades to defend against any intervention by the Hungarians. With powerful gestures, they encourage the women: "Quickly! Run fast!" At the same time, the German corporal, the Hungarian officer and I are engaged in an animated discussion in front of the house.......[Gitta does everything to win time, but under the pressure of the Hungarians)

p.469 the German corporal makes contact with his superior and, as I had suspected, the German commander has not had the slightest inkling of the friendly relationship between his soldiers and their next-door neighbors, and he reprimands, then sternly instructs his corporal to "not interfere in this affair."
With that, my delaying tactics come to an end and the SS soldiers retreat. Together with the Hungarian Nazis

p.470 I leave the office and he is horrified to see that no more workers are present; the house is empty! I look out into the garden, and now it is my turn to be horrified: a group of thirteen women, guarded by Hungarian soldiers, stands lined at attention and ready to march. It is those who are too old to flee, or too weak, and those who have made the decision not to flee: Hanna and Lili (two of The Four).

I know how much both of them love life and how foreign the idea of voluntary martyrdom is. They are not submitting to deportation without reason. On the one hand, they fear that I will be shot on the spot if the Nazis find no one to deport and it is obvious that I have been deceiving them. I suspect an additional reason: Hanna has often said to me that, of the four of us, it is I who must stay alive to save the message of the angels and give it on.

The thirteen women are deported to Ravensbrueck. Only one of them survived. She later told me that Lili was such a radiant, loving force in the death camp that her fellow prisoners would volunteer to work with the hard-labor detachments, or Kommandos, as they were called, where Lili could always be found, so as to be in her consoling, strength-giving presence.

p. 471 ...As the SS guards shaved the heads of the prisoners, one of them
called out to Hanna: "Hey, what are you doing here, with your blue eyes, your straight nose and your long, blond hair? Are you an Aryan?" Hanna replied;
"I am a Jew".
It was certainly not a desire to be a victim that caused Hanna to answer in this way. She had conveyed the word of truth for seventeen months
(Hanna was the channeler among the Four) and must have become incapable of uttering even the smallest lie.

The woman added: "Had it not been for Lili and Hanna, I would not have survived. When Hanna said to us: 'We are not the ones who have been beaten. All of this does not touch us...' - of course I still felt the effect of the blows on my body, but the human degradation lost its power over me. I didn't feel it anymore."

As Allied forces approached, the women were again herded away, N A K E D AND    S H O R N,
[see in my sculpture above, Aug. 18] and packed standing tightly together into cattle cars. Ravaged by epidemics and soiled with their own excrement, most of the women died of hunger. Lili died one hour after Hanna. ... Joseph died at about the same time in an Hungarian camp. All of the women and children who fled through the garden of the SS survived."

The last sentence of the message to the Hungarians was:
Eternal Life is already yours


When later I began to read from the beginning, the first sentence which hit me was:

p. 11: "Not the eternally repetitive is eternity, but the eternally new".

I thought of one of Boris' birthday blessings for me yesterday, that I may be freed of technology (meaning my "obsessive" need for computer and Internet to create, like Michelangelo needed a chisel to sculpt and Van Gogh a brush to paint). I told him, that only since the time that I can enjoy the completion of one small sculpture after the other - right now in the Mika-Masterchef-Pages - I am safe of the "clinical depression" which has been and might again be the curse of my life. I told him, that in that other life - 40 years in a dungeon prison - I must have be infected by the trauma of "boredom", and "eternity" often seemed to me like being - not 'shamayim'
heaven, but shi'amum boredom.

When I took the book into my hands, I wanted to receive a message - by opening it blindly.

p.158
To mirror is different from radiating, from being sun.
Ask!


Gitta: What is rhythm?
-First came rhythm~~~ then came song.
There is rhythm without song,
but no song without rhythm.
Rhythm is body; melody or song is soul.
Body and soul carry the third


Gitta: How could I come closer to my feeling of rhythm?
- First was rhythm - then the Word.
Original vibration~~~ first day ~~~
primordial ground of all mysteries.
In the mighty vibration of the new Creation,
new Names are born.
Your Name, too, is born of rhythm.
With rhythm you can create,
with rhythm you can destroy,
The new Ear hears it.


I think of what I read this morning about the drums on the streets of Accra, Ghana, sounding "Israel". And I'm thinking of the German book, which I'm reading - parallel to "Talking with Angels", which has as its central theme: listening to sounds.

Jan-Philipp Sendker, Das Herzenhoeren, 2002
In English: The Art of Hearing Hearbeats,
[haemmern,
klopfen,
knistern,
pochen,
rascheln,
rasseln,
roecheln,
rumoren,
schnauben,
schnaufen,
schluerfen,
schmatzen,
schuerfen,
stoehnen,

Tin Win and Mi Mi, the heroes of the extraordinary love-story in a village in Burma
[2013-05-27 see about Burma-Myanmar] are both 'handicapped'. Tin Win is blind and Mi Mi was born with her legs turned inward and can walk only on all four limbs, just like I "walked" to the bathroom several times today (now, 13:46, the pain is still harsh, but I can walk and sit almost normally). What coincidence is there between what I'm reading here with what I just saw on those two videos? Has all this to do with my lame Ya'acov, whom I so much want to be "my true peer"? Or has it to do with what I read in an interview with an Islam-teacher, when I returned by bus from Cairo to Israel in 1982: "Why is it, that Allah lets people born blind or lame?" "It is for the "normal' people, so they may appreciate what they have." The video above indeed has a line of text: " Sept. 5 2011 Succeeding against all odds Grab a few tissues and watch this moving video. It will change the way you view obstacles and may give you the courage to achieve just about anything.

But the other coincidence is hitting me even more: the theme of "rhythm" in "Talking with Angels" , and the drums in Accra, and the experience of multifold sounding in "The Art of Hearing Heartbeats".
Tin Win can hear the pounding of people's heart all around him - "and each heart has a different sound". Yes he can hear ever so many distinct sounds - in German there are perhaps 20-30 verbs used, which express sounds,
which reminded me of my own effort to find distinct ways of "sounding emotions" :"Direct expression without words is what the feeling needs. I hum, I buzz, I whizz, I moan, I wail, I sob, I scream, I tremble, I let the sound take a rhythm, until....."
and the bridge between his and Mi Mi's heart was, when he heard a sound in the thicket and asked her to see what it was.
"There is nothing but thorns and a nest". So he carries her on his back to the nest and she sees an egg in it. That's how she helped him to be sure, that indeed he could hear correctly and not only imagine it: What he heard was the heart-pulse of the embryo in the egg!

As if I hadn't heard enough about hearing today,
I received a book called: "Ich hoerte auf die Stille",
"I listened to the Silence",
by Henri J.M. Nouwen,
(in the English original: The Genesee Diary: Report from a Trappist Monastery
Martin, my sister's widower, had discovered it 3 days ago among old books.
The dedication says: "for Rachel, 22.4. 1986,
Kassel from Leonore Adams."
I don't remember the book, nor why I left it with my sister at Gechingen,
but I remember my 4 months in Kassel and I remember Leonore Adams,
a woman, who half of the year was sunk in deepest clinical depression.
Did she survive? Is she alive? And why is her gift coming to me NOW?


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