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52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 49th day, October, 22, 2002
The further I continue with this chapter - 2002_10_22, 0.15 PM - the more tears it brings up~~~ because of what happened then and seems to happen again, and because there were people in Israel then, who became "parental" to what happened. and because the Christians, who are my people too, have not yet become parental to it, and because their Christ does not circle the earth and trumpet all over the universe: "It's MY RESPONSIBILITY THAT I GOT MYSELF KILLED, SO THAT IN MY HOLY SACRED NAME MILLIONS AND MILLIONS COULD BE SLAUGHTERED". Now I'm sobbing my heart out of my chest. |
2014 |
The FELT days 185, 186, 187,188 ~ of the next 15 FELT years
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5 y e a r s = 5 4 8 0 days
of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me! |
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again and again between March 10 and 13, 2014 WHAT the TENT-VISION INTENDS to EVOLVE
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March 10, 2014- OHEL 40 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
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continuing: (38)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
- in one go =2006:
a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
After my lekh-lekhâ Tamir and
other "partners" were supposed to begin a mobile twin
business with a Palestinian village - Ujja...
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Ran Lichtner chooses the best bamboos in Thailand, 2014 |
Day
36`- from among 42 days - ONE AS MANY, MANY AS ONE poem by Chuck Danes .................. I am grateful for the right to dream, to
hope, to wish, and know I'm grateful for the fact I've learned
that we consciously create I'm grateful too for false beliefs which
led me on my quest I'm grateful for the fear I feel at times
because I know I'm grateful for the joy I feel, I'm grateful
for the fear |
My gratitude goes deeper still for breath,
for sight, for life I'm grateful for all nature, the birds
the grass, the trees I'm grateful for the time to spend to deeply
go within I've learned to stay in gratitude no matter
how things seem There's so much that I'm grateful for though
sometimes I'll forget One final thought I'll share today before
I say I'm through
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March 11, 2014- OHEL 41 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
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continuing: (39)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
- in one go =2006:
a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
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PONDERING In the jacuzzi I wondered, why among "the questions to be asked" [s. above] I didn't mention: "What was the purpose in March 2000 to live for 3 months at the SaltSea with nothing but a silvery shade above my head during the hot hours?" The answer came right away: "You didn't mention it in 2008, because no exterior project was involved. "But on this day, during this time, the purpose becomes obvious: "You are not a pioneer of the TENT-VISION, but a pioneer of Evolution in learning how to feel! "The TENT-VISION is a gigantic framework for Evolution to make a quantum-leap in humans' capacity to feel, but your main task is still and will always be !!!! "to feel better by getting better at feeling!" "The line in the song which came to you in the jacuzzi: adam rokhem kol regesh be-raettet, raettet (from the 2012 song Nr. 1 "Shamayim bli Shi'amum") let you reinforce this morning's re-understanding, that whatever you feel, from depression or stamiut to zest or ecstasis, is your joy, if you womb and vibrate and become aware of it. See the 2013 song March Nr. 4 : I want to sound you my feeling and to embrace every one of you, be you kicking or uplifting, you are God, through awareness you full-fill . "In 2 days it will be 14 years, that you descended to the SaltSea (in the car of your daughter, who helped you to carry your stuff), in order to do nothing but feeling. "Now you don't need a special place to do this, but you need to be aware, whenever "depression" or "stamiut" attack, that this is your vocation: to rejoice in the very feeling that you feel and to manifest "Heaven-on-Earth" in this." |
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What dreams will you bring to
fruition this year?
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37`- from among 42 days - INTUITION FRUITION
The fruits of our Tree of Love All happy-ning in Divine Order, of course. ... We see the fruits of our efforts taking shape for the subtle energies and signals of shift in our environment. When fully present to each moment, our intuition provides insight and awareness allowing us to act in accordance with our Highest Good. |
Be present to the subtle messages, guidance
and signals Gift yourself the experience of listening within,
Just like a fruit come into season, Our reality is a dynamic, continuously shifting
orchestration of opportunities By tuning in ...to Intuition, we access our
inner genius
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PONDERING Of course, I know all this and apply it constantly. Yet there is one phenomenon which I need to explore once again: "...guided towards people...." This "guidance" rarely brings what I expect it to bring. a "partber:, People like Orr Scharf or Yussuf [Dec.28] or- recently- Reshit or Nadav seem to fall into my lap like ripe fruits and then they're gone. Would it be right to assume, that they attracted me into their lives in order to remember themselves, and I was just an instrument? No! It is always a mutual attraction. Though why am I - time and again, time and again - deluded? I've no problem with wombing~vibrating the disappointment, but what about understanding finally why I'm attracting this? |
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S S I O N S
Omissions from
the English The beginning is so good,
that I want to quote it here:
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The background:
Thorns and thistles, yet I discern "water" as if flowing out from the cactus-blade.
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March 12, 2014- OHEL 42 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
which - in 1963 - led me to create the song about the birth of my son Immanuel. In fact, "tents", as a term for nomads, who attacked peasants, were often tantamount to raiding enemies. What has this to do with the myth, that 600000 slaves plus women and kids lived themselves in tents for 40 years? |
continuing: (40)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
- in one go =2006:
a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
October 29, 2004 The Messiah and the White Donkey? |
PONDERING The shame is healed! I never failed! I am like the seven fruit-plants in 'my' garden: the Pomegranate, the Passiflora, the Chinese Ziziphus Spina-Christi and the Chinese Orange, the Lemon, the Pitanga and the Tuttit-Guyava! For many months no fruits can be seen, yet they never fail! They grow and their fruits ripen day by day, hour by hour. |
What dreams will you bring to
fruition this year?
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38`- from among 42 days - IN GRATITUDE WE GROW During our Blooming Humans journey we have
Our journey has taken us through cycles of
creation, Practice |
Consider making a Gratitude list In Gratitude we grow ...
"Gratefulness in the character ~ Inayat Khan |
P O N
D E R I N G In different TV programs there were different references to how people, especially women and girls, torture themselves, because SELF-ACCEPTANCE is lacking . "rodanut ha-yoffi" Beauty's Dictatorship there seems to be no woman who is pleased with her looks. (Lior Oren (25), though totally aware of the craziness of this pattern, depicts this torture vividly: "I can stand an entire hour in front of my closet, until I'm finally choosing what to wear"). The other phenomenon: mostly girls from the age of 12, but also boys, injure themselves, believing, that thus they can bear their self-hatred better. In the western world it seems that the guarantee of all survival needs and rights are achieved.. But the less they need to simply "function" in order to survive or in order to fight for their rights, the more people are "free" to feel self-hatred and lack of worthiness on the one hand, and boredom and lack of fulfilment on the other hand. "To feel better, you have to get better at feeling!" And since they don't know how "to handle" feelings, there are more suicides and drugs than ever before. |
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N V I S I O N I N G That is what the Desert is waiting for: le-hafriakh aet ha-neshama ba-shmamah. The paradox will be that the Desert's seeming bleakness (shmamah) will make blossom the screaming bleakness of the soul (neshamah) |
from K.i.s.s.-log
2008_04_08 "Communication with Deity":
I was reminded of an
outbreak of a friend towards his father, |
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March 13, 2014- OHEL 41 from among its 365 appearances in the Bible
I am glad, that "the house" is attached to "the wicked", while "the upright" live in tents. What heightens my gladness is the use of the hif'il grammar of p-r-kh = to make flourish, like in Psalm 92:14, a verse to which I've adapted a once popular tune [2013 Songs, May]: . |
continuing: (41)
"Nebo-Let-Go"-slow
and "Nebo-Let-Go"
- in one go =2006:
a sculpture of 21 years of my exterior creating
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What
a gift for the 13th of March! Samira, Hathra and Ateeq! This day - at 6 - began with vibrating~wombing my "grey" feelings. Then 2 TV experiences engulfed me with feeling and thinking: Saint Nicholas of Flüe, 1417-1487, the patron saint of Switzerland and Nof Atamneh Isma'il, born 1981, from Baqa-al-Gharbiyya/Israel All the while trying to understand, what this day wants to bring me. It is the 13th of March: *1951 - I was bullied by a classmate, Ulla, and another classmate, Ursula Merz came, comforted me and said: "let's be friends, and let's celebrate this birth of our friendship forever!" We celebrated each 13th of March for about 5 years, and saw each other the last time in London , in 1978. She died 2 years ago * 1994 - David came into my life, though 10 years younger than I, with a brain 10 times bigger than mine, he said - when we were given a totally unplanned chance to meet for 2 weeks in Europe: "You must get it into your head, that we are not equal and never will be. I'm the one who follows you! You have no choice but accepting this!" He followed me even, when I, at the end of our happiness in Europe, demanded, that his wife must slowly learn about our love. While I was living in my bus in Eilat, Moshe, my "twin-brother" once said to me on the phone: "Your love-project is as big as your Desert project." I said: "Bigger". And yet, it was too big for David and his wife. For 16 months I urged him to part from me. In Oct,1999, shortly before the end of my desert-"projects", as I thought, we parted. * 2000 - 10 weeks later, I spent the night between the two milleniums all alone between water and non-water of the SaltSea. A message came to me: "You should - for some time - live here, right at the SaltSea." Ever since our move from the Red Sea to the Salt See in June 1998, I had been at and in the SaltSea innumerable times, but now I was asked to live there day and night, not even in a tent, just under a shade during the sunny hours. The message was, to "go out" there on the 13th of March and live there.. |
Suddenly I knew why I had woken up too soon: |
As
to Nof Ismael, who lives in present Israel:
Despite my personal connection to the reality-program Masterchef, I so far skipped most of the programs of the 4th season, and was interested only in this Arab woman. Nof , 32, married + 3, learnt in a Jewish school. PH.D. in biology, works on 4 post-doctorates in oceanic micro-biology, In the video-profile of Masterchef she explaines to her grandmother, that if she'll get one of those aprons, "everything will be alright ." Today the assignment was to cook with ingredients of just one color, and to cooperate with another candidate. The chefs were delighted by the esthetic sight of the food, which Nof and Shai delivered, but not by its quality. The rule of the game was, that the weakest from among the 6 couples would have to cook as a "duel", and the looser would have to go. When it turned out, that Nof and Shai would be this couple, Nof broke down and left the place crying: "I'm bringing bad luck to people, when they cooperate with me! I would rather leave than be guilty of Shai having to leave it.." "That's why I don't work with people, but with bacteria. If they die while in my care, they at least are not human." After Chef Haim Cohen had consoled her, she said - to my regret: " I have to put my feelings aside." Still, I rejoice, that such an "intellectual" woman can feel so deeply and express it in front of an audience of millions |
That's
the new look of the Grave of Grace or the Grave of Compassion, expanded lately by the content of overgrown flower pots from my veranda |
When
I crop the unpleasant new construction on the left side of the Wadi, it is so beautiful , now in spring, and on this sunny early morning. |
What dreams will you bring to
fruition this year?
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39`- from among 42 days - BE-MEMBER ...Consider this: As we BE-Member we are Love ~ In integrating this Truth, Our Unique Roles in Birthing New Reality are
fulfilled It is SO ... for One and ALL. |
As we become more aligned
"Love is not
a verb, it is a noun Excerpted from,
"The Essential Self, |
I've difficulties with all this Love, Love, Love!
Re-membering, be-membering is only possible, if I accept myself,
and in order to be able to accept myself, I must learn how to feel,
I must learn how to vibrate and womb my feelings .
The coincidence with this morning's
book is unbelievable!
In May 2013, I received the
"Right Use of Will" Book in both editions,
not only that of 2010, but also that of
that of 1984-86,
since my paper-edition had been lent to someone and never returned.
Now they are standing side by side on the shelf
around my bed-corner.
Yesterday it was the turn of the first edition and today the turn of the 2010
edition.
And lo! the passage that opened itself "blindly" was the same yesterday
and today!!
from "The Blue Book" p.109/104
+ p.110/105
1984-page
109-110 ["Atlantis"]
Conflict arouse
again within the self |
2010-page
104
["Atlantis"] Conflict arose again within the self, concerning morals and correct spiritual approach. Disagreements between individuals increased. Some people began to express more of what they were really feeling. In others, the Will began to have more influence over the way they approached their lives. Neat schedules and orderly procedures began to break down as people began to do a little more of what they felt like doing, rather than just what they had been told they were supposed to do. Many in Atlantis who began to do what they wanted to do made up reasons why they were supposed to do it or why they had to do it. The lack of alignment in Atlantis between the Spirit and the Will made them feel that what they wanted to do was something other than what they were supposed to do. The conflict between duty and desire made room for an increase in guilt that they should be feeling and doing differently than they were. The Spiritual presence in Atlantis had deeply denied fears about what had happened in Lemuria which they did not recognize as fear of the Will. They still believed that the Will was not willing to align with the Spirit. They still believed that control of the Will was essential and that if the Will got out of control, it would destroy everything. Because of its overwhelming initial experience of entry into Earth, the Spirit believed it must deny the Will in order to not be denied itself. In Atlantis this meant that the Will was to express only in the ways the Spirit allowed. |
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