index-2004-wholeness

The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

Scroll down to:
2012
Practising towards the new Hebrew website shemshem

2004_03_01-13; Last Update: 2011_02_23
[this, too, is part of the Intro to Healing-K.iss. on "triptych" and part of the Bio on .indexJuly2003]

Click on the sound-buttons (triangular pyramids and others) to listen and click again to stop

A Demonstration of how I heal myself into Wholeness

Note in Febr. 2011, i.e. 6 years after having sculpted this page:

Essentially I still agree to what I demonstrated on this page.

There are only two "updates":
A) I did not follow through with practicing the five "Sound Appointments"

It seems that any fixed, rigid format of exercise has become unbearable.
Even the "Paula-Keys" and the "Better Vision Exercises" I practice only,
because I succeed to integrate them into my functioning of daily living.
For instance,
my getting-up procedure in the morning is "naturally" accompanied
by round breathing, by twisting body, and by unstructured sounding
On the other hand: I S I N G, when I swim and swing in the pool,
and when I walk to it to and fro - I always learn or rehearse songs.

B) I now mostly experience gentle waves on my sea, no big storms :

While 6 years ago I still suffered of what I call the "big" feelings,
the waves of my Sea are now most of the time gently on-going;
"gently" - they move between more or less zest and full-fill-ment
- while the third condition of Heaven-on-Earth is the water itself:
constant grate-full-ness, that never dries up, never evaporates! -

This is both, the cause as the result of what I stage in my drama:
It is not only that I managed to limit "actions" and "interactions"!
Even in my most continuous relationship there is more wholeness:
I just compared two "storms" with my daughter-in-love and me
which occurred in Febr. 2009 and in Dec 18, 2010 - Jan.4, 2011.
While in 2009 the "lesson" ended with Efrat's "I want to forget it",
in Jan. 2011 she called it "an establishing occurence" eru'a mekhonen
meaning, that we had to "refrain from embracing" , at least partly.
Qohelet's famous statement, if not followed in time voluntarily,
is always turned into reality by more or less painful processes.
"There's a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing".

".......Among the makers of humanity are those of you
who are doing this healing work~~~
manifesting your own healing into wholeness
and by extension, the healing of all Creation."
From "A Letter from God to Those Doing the Healing Work"

Wholeness of being will be yours,
if you are willing
to take responsibility
for all that you experience,
if you are willing
to bring your own light and healing intent,
bring your own consciousness
lovingly and intentionally
into Hell ~

In the face of these two heavenly views of "my" Salt Sea

- I attempt to sculpt a fresh answer to the question:

How can I heal myself into wholeness
- and as a hologram - all of Creation?

While trying to practice the five "Sound Appointments" ,
I train myself in asking and answering four questions,
with the purpose of heightening my awareness.

What am I grateful for today?

Which of my colors
- so far resisted, rejected, ignored, denied, made wrong -
am I ready to add to my palette today?

What judgment do I want to release?
Like: "I should not fall into those abysmal depressions, if I want to train dreamers."
This "should" or "should not" is a belief, a judgment, which no longer serves me well.
I know better -
exactly because I'm experiencing the same pains as the trainees,
I can train,
if only I admit the pain.

What among my wishes and dreams, plans or intentions do I want to manifest today or in this time?

in order to become whole

Differentiate between feelings brought up by exterior situations, events, interactions,
An example today for myself: "I don't want the experience with this flat and flat-partners!"
An example today for Yuval-David: "I don't want the experience of feeling an obligation".
and the feelings of downs or self-hatred which come and go like the tides of the Sea!

If I am in the flames of a painful, shameful, frightful experience,

or in the claws of undefinable "downs" or diffuse, rambling worries,

I surrender first - to feeling all the feelings which these bring up,

while asking Body to breathe, to move, to sound,
what I feel from moment to moment,

until huge yawnings or tiny tears will indicate,

that Body,
the Master Healer of Creation,
has taken over the process of healing.

[2009_09_09- See a reinforcement of this process in

And if it's still too painful, shameful, frightful,

too disgusting, maddening, unbearable,

instead of escaping to a side-tracking activity,

I ask myself, what judgment is involved

(like: "I should not wake up worrying , but ..."
"I have no reason to feel down..."
"I should be more advanced and not feel such ridiculous feelings about tiny matters!"
"I should not attract situations like this"
"I should not be treated like this.")
I say out loud:
"I release the judgment that I should wake up joyously",
"I release the judgment that feeling down is bad, the Sea has tides"...

until I feel, that all resistence has melted away.

Only then I ask myself, or let myself be asked by a peer,
if I am ready for more of this manner of healing and training,

or if this is the kind of experiences I truly can not stand,
then,
- if it's possible to get out or avoid this situation,
I do so,
if not, I ask my Higher Self or whatever,
to choose gentler ways for my healing and growing.

"If you want to grow, dive into something
which brings up feelings;
for these are the techniques
which expand you beyond your boundaries of identity and behavior."

"If you have a pattern, which you repeat over and over again,
don't make it wrong,
for it is exactly by coping with this pattern,
that you grow."

Is it possible to demonstrate, how I heal myself into wholeness?

Can I invoke pictures, feelings and sensations
by what I photographed and sculpted with words
in one of a million situations?

I am grateful,
that after almost 3 years of learning to communicate
via computer and Internet,
I am granted to create and re-create pages on Healing-K.i.s.s.
not on a desk in town,
but right here on the spot of my dream,

on the shore of this small DeadSea peninsula [see album],
which has emerged in recent years between the 1967 borders of Israel/Palestine,
and which - at this moment - looks as if embraced by the reflections of the clouds in the Sea [see album].

'ani modah! I thank.

I've seated myself on the Arab cushion I've been carrying with me from "Succah in the Desert",
the laptop on a water container, swept to this shore, the mouse on my cave kitchen cutting board..

In the left corner on the top I discern the rock
which hosts my cave and its solar electricity system [see album].
I listen to the delicate sounds of the calm waves on the fine pebbles,
and to wafts of chat between the lovers over there at "my" hot sulphor spring [see album].

The Sea has experienced formidable storms lately,
which ripped off the salt teeth
of "the Bereaved Mother" sculpture
in front of me [see album],

[in the winter of 2006-7,
the Salt Sculpture
has disappeared altogether...]

and my life hasn't been calmer...

But I feel whole at this moment,
whole also with this website,
praised by a few,
maligned by more,
not read by most,
and harshly judged by myself.

I accept what I feel:
shame, pain and frustration

and I release the judgment,
that I must live up to my expectations of myself.

I release the judgment,
that it depends on the perfection of my website creation,
if and how and who will be helped by this site
on his/her way
to self-acceptance, self-esteem and self-determination.

I also release the judgment,
that I must avoid pain and shame,
by controlling what I write and say.

It is true:
Tuning in
to what others need to hear or read
is both,
a deep desire of mine
and a high challenge.

The desire flows from my caring,
which is my essence.

The challenge
propels me beyond my limits,
helps me grow.

But so does the pain,
so does the shame,
so does the fear,
if they should result
from my speech or my writing.

I release the judgment....

I savor the composition in the 2001 introduction to Healing-K.i.s.s.
I do not just read these quotes with my mind,
but click on one of the sound-buttons and listen with my ears and my heart!

Introduction to the fifth book of "Right Use of Will"
HEART SONG

"Feel the heartlessness present on earth and react to it
with the sounds of your emotions,
heightened by the depth of understanding...

"This wailing, wrenching, keening,
long lost Heart Song
must be allowed to be sung.

"Allow sound - even your breath
or a tiny sound at first,
to bridge another gap in you which is
between the feelings you have
and the expressing of them that you do...

From the message about September 11

"As bad as these events may feel,
this is the opportunity to heal
w h a t i s y o u r s t o h e a l ."

"Come to the most difficult feelings
of terror, rage and grief ~
with love, acceptance, appreciation and encouragement."

"When your own spirit
is truly loving all of the feelings
triggered in you by world events,
y o u a r e d o i n g p l a n e t a r y h e a l i n g w o r k ~
inside of yourself,
the only place it can truly happen"

"Wholeness of being will be yours,
if you are willing
t o t a k e r e s p o n s i b i l i t y
for all that you experience,
if you are willing
to bring your own light and healing intent,
bring your own consciousness
lovingly and intentionally
into Hell ~
and FEEL ALL THERE IS TO FEEL THERE."

I keep remembering , that

"This Creation is based on vibration"
and that "S O U N D is vibration."

Direct expression without words is what the feeling needs.
I hum, I buzz, I whizz,
I moan, I wail, I sob,
I scream, I tremble,
I let the sound take a rhythm,
until I reach
"the wailing terrified, deep wretched crying of heartbreaking,
that will let us know, HEART is coming to life in the gap"

Then, and only then, am I guiding my consciousness
(="the Loving Light of Spirit"),
to say:

"What am I grateful for?"

"What feeling do I accept now and not resist or judge any longer?"

"What judgment or belief do I release?"

What is my desire and intention for the next 4 hours or in my life in general?"

For, as it's said somewhere in the "Mother Teachings" of "Godchannel.com"
"We'll ... kill heart,
if we try to move emotions without Loving Light present"

i.e. if - while breathing, sounding, moving -
I do not bring the light of my consciousness
into the darkness of my shame, fear and pain,
into the blindness of my powerlessness and depression
the emotions will overwhelm and kill me.

I intend to feel whole and free

M o v i n g & E v o l v i n g E m o t i o n s M a n u a l

First Experiment: 2002_07_07 last update: 2002-11_15

Sometimes I immerse myself
in the images and sounds
of what was once the first introductory page to this website,

the page which is dedicated to "The Mother", Deity's emotional aspect.

It's here, in the Dead Sea, where she has her most focused physical abode.

This is a myth, of course, my personal myth,

may you smile tolerantly and move and sound...

I want to close this "Demonstration of how I heal myself into Wholeness" with a dedication:

The dough for a cake is stirred: Immanuel and Efrat celebrate their daughter's third birthday, Dec. 20, 2008

I feel immense gratitude towards my eldest son, Immanuel Rosenzweig,
who patiently taught me the computer skills needed to use my creativity
for healing my pains, searching for partners and manifesting my dreams.

Also on Mika's third birthday, but in kindergarden. See more inserts in "God's Letter"

It was also Immanuel who - together with Efrat, my daughter-in-love -
[see "The Actors in my Drama" in "2001 Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s", somewhere in the middle of the left frame]
created the woundrous animation of the entry to "Healing-K.i.s.s." in 2001.

- doesn't it predict the 2003 vision of "Noah's Shore"?

26 months later -during a renewed virtual interaction: Mika tells Grandma about her 3 day experiences in Berlin, the place of our beginnings in 1960

From my 2007 perspective as well as from my 2011 perspective
the merging of the Water from above with the Water from below
symbolizes something, which I do not want to put into words...

I repeat, what I said at the end of the Introductory Page:
When I reached the end of "Learn&Live 16" on February 20, 2011
[remember , I'm limiting a page to 1300 kilo-byte!]
I felt, that I was mature enough to let go of sculpting any new theme .
My purpose is now
to re-new, to re-learn, to re-create the messages of 10 years work on my websites.
An additional - different - example may be this:
if I compare the rift with Efrat as depicted in .folksinterview3 (and somewhere also in German)
with the "Historic Event" almost 2 years later [with which I coped in Learn&Live 14, 15, and 16],
I can definitely discern that both of us are more whole.
We also created a format of interaction which might exclude the mutual triggering altogether.
And if we each of us still needs triggers in order to heal, then I prefer – not from each other.
There now should be only love between mother-in-love and daughter-in-love.

Lass dir alles geschehn, Schoenheit und Schrecken.
Man muss nur gehn. Kein Gefuehl ist das fernste.
Lass dich von mir nicht trennen.

Rainer Maria Rilke, aus "Gott spricht zu jedem ehe er in macht"

Let everything happen to you, beauty and horror.
One must just go. No feeling is the farest.
Do not let yourself be separated from me.

Rainer Maria Rilke, from "God talks to each one before he makes him"

Rilke's passage - in both languages - is now integrated in a song in three languages!

quoted in "Blooming Humans are We"

The Yraceburu Family is dedicated
to evolutional earth consciousness and community. Guided by the tlish diyan philosophy
of matriarch Maria Yraceburu,
we co-created a connection and eco-spiritual lifestyle
for t5th World Humans.
We believe that Coming Together
– rooted in the timeless wisdom
of indigenous earth philosophies,
epitomizing a truly all-encompassing attitude –
is essential
for the co-creation and existence of world reality as peace.
By touching the earth and honoring tradition,
of individual and communal,
of sustainability and responsibility,
the extended, traditional system of the Yraceburu Family seeks to motivate a dynamic Web of Life engagement
with the greatest potential
for self actualization and fulfillment,
a lifestyle for the ongoing tradition
of humans evolving into humane.

Taa-naash-kaa-da Sanctuary is
a collaboration between highly respected individuals
conscious of world changes,
who, in addition
to fully embracing their own particular paths,
have come together to co-create
a Sustainable Community and Mystery School from earth.
Taa-naash-kaa-da Sanctuary will feature ancient lifestyles reformatted for contemporary times,
an educational-healing retreat center,
earth and wild horse preservation in a wilderness area
where a Tipi Camp shall transport workshops
through time and space,
and an eco-village dedicated to a path for tomorrow.
All of this set in the majestic San Juan Mountains
of northeastern New Mexico.

Erich Neumann, Tiefenpsychologie und neue Ethik p. 94

... In dieser Begegnung wird ... das Grundphaenomen bewusstgemacht,
dass der die Menschen voneinander unterscheidende Ich- und Bewusstseinsbezirk
nur einen sehr kleinen Teil der unendlich ausgedehnten psychischen Welt teinnimmt.
Das Menschliche und Individuelle
bildet nur die oberste Schicht des kollekiven bis zum Tier hinunterreichenden Unbewussten.
Deswegen ist die Bemuehung des Ich, sich von diesem seinem Fundament zu loesen
und sich mit igendwelchen absoluten,
von der Einschraenkung des Irdischen unabhaengigen Werten zu identifizieren,
toericht und wirklichkeitsfremd.

While watching the video:
"Ready to dream a new world into being" in "Blooming Humans we are"
"...revealing the unique gifts, visions and talents encoded within..."

[When I now (Febr. 15, 2012)
put "bored" in the "Search" of Healing-K.is.s.
I discovered a wealthy well of entries
about my coping in the past
with the theme of my "future".
On the first one, K.i.s.s.-log 2008_09_08,
my late ex-husband's birthday,
I related specifically to the "boredom"
of the Big Brother family,
a reality-show,
which I was cherishing for 3 seasons,
but which now
- during the present season -
seems to me to be "outmoded" -
with their ridiculous dramas
and lack of consciousness and knowing
and I have to ask myself every time anew,
if there is still something to learn for me.]

I told Boris about the prophecy and my song:
"be-shuva ve-nakhat
will they be set free...."
and showed him my sentence :
Is this not one of the reasons
for all the wars in the world:
the yearning of
frustrated , unfulfilled men
to become heroes
and he asked, if "shuva" is connected to
"shovav" and "shovavut" in modern Hebrew.
That's why I began this research
but I didn't come around to complete it.
In any case - since my research of translations of "shuva" showed,
that nobody can be sure about what it means,
I can just as well decide,
that "shuva" means "shovavut"-having fun

The dictionary reminds me of the verb
le-shovev = to gladden, to cause joy

the clip says,
that in the singing of this song [by Nomi Shemer]
about being one and being different
participated children of foreign workers
from Bialik School in Tel-Aviv, ISRAEL
and not in Petach-Tikva as I noted,
perhaps unconsciously trying to make up
for the racism against Ethopian children,
for which a school there has become infamous

Nourishment,
Das Herz ist wach

p.243
.... Euer Kreis
ist immer so muehelos auf sich selbst eingespielt
und - ganz unabsichtlich-geschlossen.
Ihr bildet doch - Du natuerlich nicht, Ben,
- eine Art von seelischer Autarkie,
Ihr braucht die Anderen gar nicht,
und vor allem mit uns [Deutschen]
koennt Ihr eigentlich nicht viel anfangen.
Mit uns kann jetzt keiner viel anfangen!
Manchmal fuehlt man
diese ganze amorphe Masse
der ungenuetzten
und irgendwie dumpf werdenden
deutschen Kraefte
wie eine schwere Last auf der Seele.
[dump=muffled, dull]

Ich lebe mein Leben in wachsenden Ringen,
die sich über die Dinge ziehn.
Ich werde den letzten vielleicht nicht vollbringen,
aber versuchen will ich ihn.

Ich kreise um Gott, um den uralten Turm,
und ich kreise jahrtausendelang;
und ich weiß noch nicht: bin ich ein Falke, ein Sturm
oder ein großer Gesang.

-I live my life in growing orbits,
which move out over the things of the world.
Perhaps I can never achieve the last,
but that will be my attempt.

I am circling around God, around the ancient tower,
and I have been circling for a thousand years,
and I still don’t know if I am a falcon, or a storm,
or a great song.

More from K.i.s.s.-log 2008_10_31 -
[which includes a good image of mine and the insert of my Paula-body-work with Aya Goldhammer in March 2006]

Enthusiasm, hitlahavut (actually becoming inflamed),
which is something momentary and therefore not fitting my definition of zest
"an ongoing vibration of the heart-in-God".
But there is an additional term: heshek! or cheshek [correct: khesheq]
And my association is the line in "Oifn Pripetchik",
where the rabbi admonishes the little kids in the Hebrew class
Lernt, kinder, mit groys kheyshek - learn, children, with great zest!
The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

'heshek' is indeed the utter opposite of dullness and boredom, of "akedia",
but how is it achieved as
"an ongoing vibration of the heart-in-God"?
Ongoing just like breathing in and breathing out is ongoing?
There is so much to be investigated.
For instance Sefer HaCheshek a book that deals with Prophetic Kabbalah
and was written by Rabbi Abulafia in 1279.

I must postpone this exploration
and focus on my training "to feel vicariously"..
for this is part of reaching the vibration of zest and heshek!

But I know how I want to sculpt my altar today,
photographing myself dancing, in pretty and less pretty postures,
which then should remind me daily of my INTENTION

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may

9:27 [after having sculpted the "akedia-zest" frame below]
I desire to no longer try to change the reasons (patterns, beliefs, judgments) for choking feelings
but to feel, move, accept them - vicariously - for all humans who are afraid to feel "the Mother".
I desire to contribute to human evolution: the capacity to LIVE zest-full-ness and heshek
as an ongoing vibration of the heart, ongoing like the vibration of breathing in & breathing out!
I desire to practise this today while alternating between being al-one & being with Efrat & Mika

Now, what you’ve seen here is the evolution of populations,
not so much the evolution of individuals.
And in addition, if you look at the time scales that's involved here--
two billion years for life, six million years for the hominid,
years for mankind as we know it--
you're beginning to see.
the telescoping nature of the evolutionary paradigm
And then when you get to agricultural,
when you get to scientific revolution and industrial revolution,
you're looking at years, years, years.
You're seeing a further telescoping of this evolutionary time.
What that means is that as we go through the new evolution,
it's gonna telescope to the point we should be able to see it manifest itself...
within our lifetime, within this generation.

The new evolution stems from information,
and it stems from two types of information: digital and analog.
The digital is artificial intelligence.
The analog results from molecular biology, the cloning of the organism.
And you knit the two together with neurobiology.
Before on the old evolutionary paradigm,
one would die and the other would grow and dominate.
But under the new paradigm, they would exist...
as a mutually supportive, noncompetitive grouping
Okay, independent from the external.
And what is interesting here is that evolution now becomes an individually centered process,
emanating from the needs and the desires of the individual,
and not an external process, a passive process...
where the individual is just at the whim of the collective.
So, you produce a neo-human with a new individuality and a new consciousness.

But that's only the beginning of the evolutionary cycle...
because as the next cycle proceeds,
the input is now this new intelligence.
As intelligence piles on intelligence,
as ability piles on ability, the speed changes.
Until what? Until you reach a crescendo in a way...
could be imagined as an enormous instantaneous fulfillment of human,
human and neo-human potential.
It could be something totally different.
It could be the amplification of the individual,
the multiplication of individual existences.
Parallel existences now with the individual
no longer restricted by time and space.
And the manifestations of this neo-human-type evolution,
manifestations could be dramatically counter-intuitive.
That's the interesting part. The old evolution is cold.
It's sterile. It's efficient, okay?
And its manifestations are those social adaptations.
You're talking about parasitism, dominance, morality, okay?
Uh, war, predation, these would be subject to de-emphasis.
These would be subject to de-evolution.
The new evolutionary paradigm will give us the human traits
of truth, of loyalty,of justice, of freedom.

These will be the manifestations of the new evolution...................

I heard that Tim Leary said as he was dying~
that he was looking forward to the moment~
when his body was dead, but his brain was still alive.
They say that there's still to minutes of brain activity after everything is shut down.
And a second of dream consciousness, right,
well, that's infinitely longer than a waking second.
For example, I wake up and it's :
and then I go back to sleep and I have those long, intricate,
beautiful dreams that seem to last for hours,
and then I wake up and it's... : .
So then to minutes of brain activity,
I mean, that could be your whole life.
.....
There was this article by this biochemist that I read not long ago,
and he was talking about how when a member of a species is born,
it has a billion years of memory to draw on.
And this is where we inherit our instincts.
I like that. It's like there's, um,
this whole telepathic thing going on that we’re all a part of,
whether we’re conscious of it or not.
That would explain why there's all these, you know,
seemingly spontaneous, worldwide, innovative leaps in science, in the arts.
You know, like the same results poppin' up everywhere independent of each other.
Some guy on a computer, he figures something out,
and then almost simultaneously, a bunch of other people all over the world...
- figure out the same thing. - Mm-hmm.
They did this study. They isolated a group of people over time,
and they monitored their abilities at c r o s s w o r d p u z z l es ...
in relation to the general population.
And then they secretly gave them a day-old crossword,
one that had already been answered by thousands of other people.
Their scores went up dramatically, like [20?] percent.
So it's like once the answers are out there,
you know, people can pick up on 'em.
It's like we're all telepathically sharing our experiences.
.....
We're gonna stand up and we're gonna be human beings!
We're gonna get fired up about the real things, the things that matter:
creativity and the dynamic human spirit that refuses to submit!
To say yes to one instant~~~
is to say yes to all of existence
....
These multiplicities and distinctions and differences...
that have given great difficulty to the old mind...
are actually through entering into their very essence,
tasting and feeling their uniqueness.
One might make a breakthrough to that common something...
that holds them together.
And so the main character is, to this new mind,
greater, greater mind.
A mind that yet is to be.
And when we are obviously entered into that mode,
you can see a radical subjectivity,
radical attunement to individuality, uniqueness to that which the mind is,
opens itself to a vast objectivity.
So the story is the story of the cosmos now.
The moment is not just a passing, empty nothing yet.
And this is in the way in which these secret passages happen.
Yes, it's empty with such fullness...
that the great moment, the great life of the universe...
is pulsating in it.
And each one, each object, each place, each act...
Leaves a mark....
I think that what we don't take into account when we’re young is our endless curiosity.
That's what's so great about being human.
...
And the funny thing is, our cells are completely regenerating every seven years.
We've already become completely different people several times over,
and yet we always remain quintessentially ourselves.
...
Ours was a quest for a new story, our own.
And we grasp toward this new history driven by the suspicion...
that ordinary language couldn't tell it.
...
The way we lived created a new situation,
...
Art was not the goal but the occasion and the method...
for locating our specific rhythm...
and buried possibilities of our time.

...no matter how degraded and used up the world appeared to us,
we knew that anything was still possible....
those who suffer from a lack of life...
and those who suffer from an overabundance of life.
I've always found myself in the second category. ...
Actually, the gap between,say, Plato or Nietzsche and the average human...
is greater than the gap between that chimpanzee and the average human.
The realm of ...the true artist, the saint, the philosopher,
is rarely achieved.
Why so few?
Why is world history and evolution not stories of progress...
but rather this endless and futile addition of zeroes?
No greater values have developed.
Hell, the Greeks years ago were just as advanced as we are.
So what are these barriers that keep people...
from reaching anywhere near their real potential?

They say that dreams are real only as long as they last
Can't you say the same thing about life?...

Really, it's just about the two opposing states of consciousness...which don't really oppose at all.
See, in the waking world,
the neuro-system inhibits the activation of the vividness of memories.
This makes evolutionary sense.
...
So you have these serotonic neurons...
that inhibit hallucinations...
that they themselves are inhibited during REM sleep.
This allows dreams to appear real...
while preventing competition from other perceptual processes.
This is why dreams are mistaken for reality.
To the functional system of neural activity that creates our world,
there is no difference between dreaming a perception and an action...
and actually the waking perception and action....

The trick is to combine
your waking rational abilities
with the infinite possibilities of your dreams.
We walk around like there's some holy moments and there are all the other moments...- that are not holy, but this moment is holy. - Right. Right.

And film can let us see that.
We can frame it so that we see, like, "Ah, this moment. Holy."
Like "holy, holy, holy" moment by moment.
But who can live that way? Who can go, "Wow, holy"?
Because if I were to look at you and let you be holy--
I don't know. I would, like, stop talking.
Well, you'd be in the moment. The moment is holy, right?
Yeah, but I'd be open.
I'd look in your eyes and I'd cry..
and I'd feel all this stuff and that's not polite.
It would make you uncomfortable.
You could laugh too. Why would you cry?
Well, 'cause-- I don't know.
For me, I just tend to cry.
Uh-huh. Well--
Well, let's do it right now. Let's have a holy moment.
- Everything is layers, isn't it? - Yeah.
There's the holy moment and then there's the awareness...
of trying to have the holy moment.
in the same way that the film is the actual moment really happening,
but then the character pretending to be in a different reality.
It's all these layers.
And, uh, I was in and out of the holy moment, looking at you.
To rupture the spell of the ideology of the commodified consumer society...
so that our oppressed desires of a more authentic nature can come forward.
To demonstrate the contrast between what life presently is and what it could be.
To immerse ourselves in the oblivion of actions and know we're making it happen.
There will be an intensity never before known in everyday life..
I'm trying to change all that, and I hope you are too.
By dreaming every day.
Dreaming with our hands and dreaming with our minds.
Our planet is facing the greatest problems it's ever faced. Ever.
So whatever you do, don't be bored.
This is absolutely the most exciting time we could have possibly hoped to be alive.
And things are just starting. A thousand years is but an instant.

Exercise your human mind as thoroughly as possible,
knowing it is only an exercise.
Build beautiful artifacts, solve problems,
explore the secrets of the physical universe.
Savor the input from all the senses.
Feel the joy and sorrow, the laughter, the empathy, compassion...
and tote the emotional memory in your travel bag.
I don't want a straw. I want real human moments.
I want to see you. I want you to see me.
I don't want to give that up. I don't want to be an ant, you know?
I don't feel like an ant in my head, but I guess I probably look like one.
It's kind of like D.H. Lawrence had this idea of two people meeting on a road...
And instead of just passing and glancing away,
they decided to accept what he calls "the confrontation between their souls."
It's like, um-- like freeing the brave reckless gods within us all.
Then it's like we have met.
I'm doing this project. I'm hoping you'll be interested in doing it.
It's a soap opera,and, so, the characters are the fantasy lives.
They're the alter egos of the performers who are in it.
So you pretty much just figure out something that you’ve always wanted to do...
or the life you’ve wanted to lead or occupation or something like that.
And we write that in, and then we also have your life intersect...
with other people's in the soap opera in some typical soap opera fashion.
Then I also want to show it in a live venue...
and have the actors present so that once the episode is screened,
then the audience can direct...
the actors for subsequent episodes with menus or something.
So it has a lot to do with choices and honoring people's ability...
to say what it is that they want to see...
and also consumerism and art and commodity.
I'm talking about being in a dream.
you can do whatever you want to.
You're, uh, dreaming, but you’re awake.
You have, um, so many options,
and that's what life is about.
I understand what you’re saying.
It's up to me. I'm the dreamer.

We're communicating on so many levels simultaneously.
It's like the dream.
It's like I'm being prepared for something.
"On this bridge," Lorca warns,"life is not a dream. .....
We are all coauthors of this dancing exuberance...
where even our inabilities are having a roast.
We are the authors of ourselves,
coauthoring a gigantic Dostoyevsky novel starring clowns.

....
Life is a matter of a miracle that is collected over time...
by moments flabbergasted to be in each other's presence.
The world is an exam to see if we can rise into the direct experiences.
Our eyesight is here as a test to see if we can see beyond it.
Matter is here as a test for our curiosity.
Doubt is here as an exam for our vitality.
Thomas Mann wrote that he would rather participate in life...
than write a hundred stories....

An assumption develops that you cannot understand life and live life simultaneously.
I do not agree entirely. Which is to say I do not exactly disagree.
I would say that life understood is life lived.....

And as one realizes...that one is a dream figure...
in another person's dream, that is self-awareness.
You haven't met yourself yet.
But the advantage to meeting others in the meantime...
is that one of them may present you to yourself.

... Just--Just... wake up.

See also The Green Beautiful, the forbidden movie:
The video: La belle verte, the green beautiful: 9 parts

January 30, 2012 - Talk with Eran Solo about http://tamera.org/ -
It's community training, but I ask: is it also a training in becoming unique?

"As the eternal soul seeks evolution and experience,
it encounters and inhabits the linear physical body.

As in all partnerships there is a give and take between the energy.
The spiritual side often labeled as the soul
has an agenda
to perceive life lessons, pursue them
and to make great strides to resolve them.

The physical form with ideas of its own,
perceives the soul
but then becomes very attached to the "me" of the moment~~~
Forgetting other lives in the identification of the self
as it dwells in the current physical form.

It depends upon the evolution of the soul
how much the ego plays into the plan of enrichment the soul has planned.

It is extremely difficult to separate the identification of the self
when the soul is new to the idea of incarnation and the opportunity it offers.

Younger souls often completely embrace the current life
as the one and only opportunity.
In doing so there can be a complete abandonment of eternal sight
or a concentrated one
that clings to the idea of salvation from one experience.

Dear VERONICA,
With the Mayan calender and earth cleansing coming,
along with the dark agendas goals seemingly happening,
what purpose is there these days in the human physical world.
I've lost so much inspiration for life.
It is getting hard to keep my sanity.
Debi

Dear Debi,

When there is heightened focus in the linear
the omnipotence of the eternal feels unattainable.
Any calender may prohibit energy
through concentrated thought based in linear.

Remember who you are
and the multiple linear moments you have participated in.
This seemingly turbulent time frame
is actually a condensed opportunity for evolvement.
Growth is not comfortable.
It is a stretching of one's experience
often accompanied by perceptions of misaligned agendas.

Do not become distracted by the current surroundings.

Reality is created by one thought at a time.

Perceive thought eternally not in a linear fashion.

Eran Solo - who lives in a van and visited Daniel- came to me,
since Daniel had told me, that Eran could tell me about
Tamera, a community, a "healing bio-top",
where "zest and full-fill-ment" are achieved.
I explored the website of one of the 2 founders
Dieter Duhm
and listened to his audio in German

Comment on Febr. 16, 2012,
after the song, which contains all I am, know and want,
seems to be completed,
though the - already recorded and edited tune -
will appear only on the shemshem = shamayim bli shi'amum website.

A - frustrating - response to this letter came only from Shuli Natan's producer....

While practising this song "Shamayim-bli-Shi'amum"
with its line: "We are all YAH"
there was a pretty coincidence:
In the reality-show: "Running after the Million"
the 5 combattant couples had this assignment:
to load coconuts on a wagon, whose front and back was open,
and then to make a buffalo transport the wagon somewhere.
They had to urge the buffalo to move with "Ya, Ya,Ya, Ya",
and since the buffalo often simply refused to move,
I heard this "Ya,Ya" over and over and over again!

February 2, 2012

Michelangelo-Pietá in Florence -his last - and not completed - work
[see context in letters to my daughter, inserted on her birthday, SongGame 2007_01_04]

"Abraham" ,[2002] e-mail quote today

Your choices of action may be limited
—but your choices of thought are not.

Following the Hebrew passage to the right,
a song came to me- based on a line by Bialik

The tune - recorded and edited on Febr. 15-
with the help of Daniel and a new audio software
will appear in the future www.shemshem.org website

Also: that last song of 2011 "wenn ich frueh erwachen tu"
expanded itself by a translation to the last stanza:

February 4, 2012

Quantum Leap

Kindness Boumerang
I registered and in the response I read this quote by Margaret Meade:
"Never doubt that a small group of committed people can change the world
– indeed it is the only thing that ever has".
This fits what I've written to my daughter about "the morphic field".

"My land of Israel, beautiful and also blooming"
+ a very pretty performance of the ancient song

From Right Use of Will, which I'm copying right now: BlueBook p.44
All of manifested experience so far has been
in search of self-acceptance. …
Returning to essence is not the goal of self-acceptance.
Self-acceptance must include acceptance
that individual consciousness has emerged
to evolve essence.
While many have believed
emergence was a denial of and a separation from Spirit,
the opposite is actually true.
Denial of emergence
is denial of the Spirit's opportunity
to increase its own Light through evolvement.

Abraham (2003) - email quote today

Everything you do
is for the purpose of the joy
that it is giving you. …
If you're lined up with it,
then it's joy
when you're thinking about it even before you start,
and it's joyful as you start,
and it's intoxicating as you're going,
and it's fulfilling as you do it,
and it's satisfying as you finish it
and you're in alignment the whole way on that.

February 5, 2012

"Wenn ich frueh erwachen tu"
aus einem wirren Traum
ist mein erstes Er-innern
ich bin ja in deinem Raum

Wenn dann die lineare Zeit
mich ziehn will in ihren Bann
ist mein groesstes Verlangen
dass ich Dir Partner sein kann.

"Healing Desire" in
Godchannel: Interview with the Folks 2

Abraham 1997, email quote today:
Whatever you're thinking about
is literally like planning a future event.
When you're worrying,
you are planning.
When you're appreciating
you are planning...
What are you planning?

Talila Hendel quotes in facebook:

~ To attain knowledge adds things every day
.to attain wisdom removes things every day ~

She added an image: the owl reversing her head

I saw a program, which dealt with what I've coined the "Cain-complex":
3SAT Sternstunden der PHilosophie, Axel Honneth - Anerkennungstheorie -
"non- and mis-recognition as a basis of social and interpersonal conflict"
.

While remembering "Cain"
and "God's" saying:
"We all want to be received"
it's fitting,
that I came also across
Ismael:
A little book with poems
by Ilana Horesh,
with whom I was befriended in 1998,
while my mobile home
parked
at the northern shore
of Eilat,
The poem,
which I now glued
to the painting
of "Mimi",
[see the story]
says:
"Hagar
a forsaken woman,
spirit of the desert
grooved in it grooeves,

the sand entered
into her eyes (wide open)
she saw
her son
in the shade of the tree,
she distanced herself (in her mind's eye)
in order to bear the sight "

February 6, 2012

Blooming Humans are We

Each fruit has its optimum harvest time,..
The fruits of our Tree of Love
represent our visions, callings and intentions
coming into BE-ing.....
We see fruits of our efforts taking shape
and come into material form.

Now aligned with, and witnessing,
the patterns of creation,
we are continuously receiving subtle signals
guiding us to take responsible action
-- to know when it is time to act or be still...

Be present
to the subtle messages, guidance and signals
arriving as you go about the day.
These come in myriad forms
-- a flash of insight;
a sudden impulse to call someone;
a feeling to take a particular path
or a nudge to wait;
to witness and perceive wondrous opportunities at hand.
Gift yourself the experience of listening within,
and following the inner genius guiding you.
As you do,
you experience full alignment
with the fruits of your intentions and efforts,
being made manifest NOW.
....
Our reality is
a continuously shifting orchestration of opportunities
to manifest our visions and follow our Bliss.
Thankfully, we are provided
a constant stream of current information.
If one opportunity was missed, a new one will appear ...
one that is energetically aligned
to the elements of creation at play.

By tuning in .. we access our inner genius
and are guided towards people, places and resources
to bring our visions, callings and waking dreams
into fruition.

Blue Book p.44

Returning to essence is not the goal of self-acceptance.
Self-acceptance must include acceptance
that individual consciousness has emerged to evolve essence.
While many have believed
emergence was a denial of and a separation from Spirit,
the opposite is actually true.
Denial of emergence is denial of
the Spirit's opportunity
to increase
its own Light
through evolvement.

[phrased positively:
Emergence, Manifestation, Creation is Spirit's opportunity
to increase his own Light through evolvement.
Irgendwie passt dazu die Energon Theorie von Hans Hass
But what about the increase of the magnetic essence?]

When I immersed myself in this sculpture, inserted e.g. in Puzzle Pieces' Guide
the words became the third stanza of the song about Yah's choice of "Ya'acov".

Let yourself feel and be full-filled
by feeling and healing what you feel*)
wombing first, evolving then;

breathing, sounding, moving
let go of judgments and beliefs
vibrating all in your Body's Heart:

I'll be whole, be who I am,
learn and create as I please!
That's how the One grows and evolves
till equal peers shall each other love.
Let ourselves feel and be full-filled

[*) modified in Dec. 2012:
A goldmine is offered in what you feel,
embrace your feeling and feel full-filled]

To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.
-- William Blake

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