hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

11:40
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to your capacity to walk with your two legs
and even to climb down and up the Wadi of Compassion,
and this despite the pain in the right groin and the strain in the left PCL.
Please let me know, if there is any other reason for this pain & strain
than your making me aware, how blessed I am with you as my partner!

I'm grate-full for this Shabbat, alone in my castle,
and finally (and hopefully "forever") free of the self-created stress
of having "to complete" past creations on K.is.s.-Log and Healing-K.i.s.s.!
I'm grate-full for the leap in my consciousness,
implied in my "Communication with Deity" following my "Ranin-Nuri" grief.
I'm grate-full that my reaction to Ofir's "it's too cold to swim in the Red Sea"
brought up two feelings connected to the Red Sea: my longing to dive&watch,
& my shame concerning the debacle with my invitation of Yael, Arnon, Rotem,
which both gave me a chance to vibrate these feelings without acting on them!
I'm grate-full that this woman in the cloak-room -"Shifra"- rescued my glasses!
I am grate-full that I am grate-full for my Don Quichote Dead-Sea "project",
with no regret or bitterness concerning its failure in the visible world....

And what about the Arabs and the Palestinians?
What about them after 61 years?
This is what the famous moderator Haim Yavin heard from a Jewish farmer in my area - in his documentary "Blue Card" :

"the Palestinian problem? That's nonsense!
That's a scratch that will heal some day.
The Bedouins? That's like cancer,
and no chemotherapy will help here."

Dr. Ali el-Huzeil, Director of the Dep. of Education in the municipality of Rahat

Haim Yavin: "Again and again I learn, that the Zionist solution is to subjugate. Not the endeavor to live together. What did we think to ourselves, when we arrived here? To transplant the European life-style to here?" Of course, Yavin also shows the other side... and it's this side "seen" by my neighbor "Shalom" (!) "They are overpowering us, those bandits... This State is OURS!"

NOAH'S Noah's Diary-Intro and Links

VISION 4th Day of Realization

2003_12_06

Noah's Diary- 4th Day of Realization (from 2003_11_29 till -2003_12_03)
[today, on November 29, 2008, I corrected some things and added some links to this copy of the original page]

The symbolic date this time was the 29th of November.
In 1947 this was the date, when the United Nations voted for the establishment of a Jewish State.
But AUschwitz-BirkenAU reinforced the already imprinted victimhood,
and except for the most sophisticated military force with which to hit "the enemy",
the immense creational powers of self-determination of the early Zionists are lost.
We still cling to sheer survival.
We are not yet able to truly live.
The Palestinians, on their part, call this day "al-nakba"," the catastrophe".
They never even experienced the surge of their creational powers.

This is, what both, Palestinians and Jews, have to learn or re-learn:
true self-respect, true self-determination.
The goal of "Noah's Shore" is meant to create the situation, the arena,
in which people, especially young people, can train in dreaming ...

Therefore I set out to the site, which chose itself as "Noah's Shore"
on the 29th of November.
I am grateful to the three people, who helped me on this first day,
and patient with three other people who only promised to do so.

Four days earlier I had hitchhiked to Noah's Shore for another preliminary examination.
I asked my last driver to let me off exactly next to the sculptures which indicate the Palestinian border.
Rarely anyone knows, that this is the border,
not even the many "Israeli Arabs" [as differentiated from "Palestinians" outside the 1967 borders],
who stop there on their way to Eilat, in order to watch the view.

Turning around I discovered a waterfall just across the road, ten meters to the north.
How strange, that I hadn't perceived it before.
"How wondrous!
Maybe the rainwater-gathering-system can start right here
and not beneath the waterfalls high up in the mountains, as I thought."
After I had surveyed the data of the site,
I returned to the sculptures,
and while approaching I hear:
"Do you want coffee?"

It was a family from Sikhneen, a large village in Western Galilee, on their way to a holiday in Eilat.
I realized - what a coincidence -that this day was the first day of Id-al-Fitr,
the feast which closes the Ramadaan month of fasting.
Later I met more people, mainly from Nazareth, but also from Nahaf, a Bedueen village in the Galilee.
But the "sign from Heaven" was this invitation
from Labiba Um Naaser, her husband Suhbi abu Naaser, and two of their 7 children, Naaser and Hilaal.
First, because Sikhnin made sad history:
it's where in 1976, on the "Day of the Land" demonstration
four people- from among seven - were killed by Jewish Israeli forces.
I was in the middle of working on my Bir'am Model,
and on my way to Bir'am (in Upper Galilee) made a detour to Sikhnin to comfort the mourners.

Second, because the father was sharing with me his worry about Naaser,
his mentally retarded son, who now lives in a hostel in the village.
I saw, how difficult his coping with having "such a child" had been
and I said - with a shining face and voice:
"Know, that this son is a great gift for you!
He draws out your powers of creativity and love."
Utterly taken by surprise by my approach
(I've tears welling up now)
he changed his own approach
and started to tell me, how happy Naaser is in the hostel,
and that the combination of hostel and home next to each other
works out just wonderfully.
Saying this I also looked at Hilaal, who stood next to him above the Dead Sea...

When Hilaal wanted to take my photo with my camera, I asked Labiba to pose with me.
She said something about being a Muslim, who is not allowed to be photographed.
But I urged her:
"It is very, very important, that you , a mother, are on this photo."

Great strength poured into my heart from this encounter.

Later that day I discovered "my" cave,
a huge boulder on the slope
between the road to Jerusalem above
and the army dust-road along the shore.
There was enough hollow space underneath,
to let me understand, that with digging
- I could make myself a place of living.
I was amazed.
This place was so much nicer than the dark cave, I had thought of before.
These miracles one after the other!
First the emerging of the peninsula,
then the discovery of the hot sulphur spring,
and now this airy, relatively comfortable cave!

Now, four days later, Micha, my youngest son, waited for us on the same site,
together with my grandchildren, Arnon and Ayelet.
"Us" , i.e. Hartmut and Eva Hahn, who moved to my town Modi'in 9 months ago.
I'm trying to win over Hartmut,
who has a PH.D. both in Judaism and in Physics and worked as a tour guide until the Palestinian Intifada,
to use his time of unemployment to reinvent the Gathering-Rainwater-Cystern-System.
Driving me and my equipment was a chance for him to get involved and to enjoy a wonderful trip.

After some "site-seeing" Hartmut and Micha started to dig out the "veranda" of the cave.
while I myself started with making steps from the road down.
"Making steps on a slope needs experience", I said and my son laughed: "You don't trust me."
After about an hour and a half enough space for my "bed" had be carved out by the men.
During the next two days I worked on a "second storey" inside the boulder.

(a cutting from a Seth-book - perhaps : Seth speaks: The Eternal Validity of the Soul
in a German translation)

p. 293
.."Alle Symbole bemuehen sich um die Darstellung von Gefuehlen, die sich mittels der Sprache nur unzulaenglich ausdruecken lassen. Symbole bringen die unendliche Vielfalt eurer Gefuehle zur Anschauung, und obgleich sich dieselben auf den verschiedenen Bewusstseinsebenen in immer neuen Gewandungen zeigen, sind sie doch ueberall eure Begleiter.

Nun gibt es zwar ein paar Ausnahmen, wo reines Wissen oder reines Fuehlen auf die symbolische Bruecke verzichten kann, aber solche Bewusstseinszustaende sind selten und werden nur ausnahmsweise in eure normalen Bewusstseinsbegriffe uebersetzt.

[Beispiel : Symbole fuer Freude]

p.294 Die verschiedenen Erlebnisweisen muessen als Schoepfung betrachtet werden; als einzelne Schoepfungsakte, die dem Bewusstsein auf seinen verschiedenen Stufen arteigen sind.

Jenseits dieses Bereiches gibt es noch Stadien, wo die Symbole selbst zu verblassen beginnen, wo sie verschwimmen und in die Ferne ruecken. Hier betritt man Bewusstseinsregionen, in denen Symbole immer ueberfluessiger werden und die vorwiegend unbewohnt sind. Bildliche Darstellungen blinken hier auf und aus und verloeschen endlich ganz. Das Bewusstsein ist immer weniger physisch orientiert. In diesem Zustand ist die Seele allein mit ihren von aller Symbolik und bildlichen Darstellung entbloessten Gefuehlen und beginnt , die ueberwaeltigende Wirklichkeit ihres Selbstverstaendniss zu erfahren

Ihr Erleben ist nun unmittelbar. Um bei unserem Beispiel der Freude zu bleiben, so wuerden alle Bilder und Symbole sich schliesslich aufloesen. Sie waren aus der Freude entsprungen und fallen nun von ihr ab, weil sie nicht die urspruengliche Erfahrung, sondern nur ein Nebenprodukt von ihr waren. Die Seele erlebt nun die Wirklichkeit ihrer Freude auf eine Weise, die sich kaum mehr erklaeren laesst, und lernt dabei Methoden der Wahrnehmung , des Ausdrucks und der Verwirklichung kennen, die ihr zuvor ganz unvorstellbar gewesen waeren.