The
Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - by extension - all of CREATion!" |
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
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It seems that I chose 26 actors
for my life's drama and those 26 actors chose me! One
common trait of all roles is "mutual dependency"
between them and me.
With 16 actors - my family - the mutual
dependency is life-long! With my landlords
at Arad & with my 6 starchildren, born
between 1986-88, it may be temporary.
My children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha; my
children-in-love: Efrat, Uri, Ra'ayah; my 10 grandchildren [born
1987-2005): Elah-Alon-Tomer-Mika; Jonathan-Rotem-Yael-Itamar;
Arnon-Ayelet
My landlords: Ofir & Meital+ Lior (2002) & Amit (2005).
My starchildren: Lior Oren, Zipi Winkler , Dina Strat , Meshi
Taib, Gal Mor, Boris Arons [26=YHWH=13+13=ahavah+ahavah =LOVE!]
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2008
November 30
Kislev
3
birthday
of Eberhard,
my dead brother
Sunday
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Actions:
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
Often with sick Efrat,
also when she drove to Shoham to fetch Mika & then to Ben-Shemen
to bring things T. "forgot"...
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Interactions:
with Efrat -very sick, but
except for washing dishes & helping Mika to brush her teeth,
and making her ice-coffee, she didn't let me do anything
and with Mika, who
was partly rebellious, but very communicative with me during
dinner until sleep |
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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION
TODAY
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may
10:38
I desire to radiate pure trust in her
own power to heal herself -on my suffering daughter-in-love
I desire a breakthrough for Efrat's self-love: to heal her smoking
addiction- I learnt: Laser-Therapy
I desire that Efrat will use the family's
financial predicament for a leap into her true job-vocation
I desire to be a cheerful model for Efrat in what is a lesson
for both of us (see Nomi Heifetz on
Jan. 1!)
"to learn to know the
limits of our responsibility for those around us",
i.e., I desire to differentiate between identifying with her
suffering and acting on any worrrying. |
image
of the day
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
My Body, my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to you for balancing the
renewed pains in our leg, groin & back
in a way that allows us to move around in the house and sit
at the computer.
I'm grate-full, that last night, when the pains in my leg
were waking me up whenever you needed to turn around in my
bed ,
I was given the answer to the question which I've been asking
for 5 days,
ever since my fall on the slope down
to the Wadi of Compassion:
"Is there a reason, i.e.does the fall point out a denial?
Or is there a purpose?"
"It is just one of
those nano-pains which are meant to remind you,
that you are to vicariously feel what many humans still cannot
feel.
Except that this time the nano-pain will stay with you for
some time."
I'm grate-full that I also understood, that I should surrender
to E's caring,
and see a doctor and probably physiotherapist
Immanuel told, how he - years ago
- had injured his PCL the same way.
"I dragged myself along for 6 weeks,
until Efrat found an Arab physiotherapist,
who worked with me - including via electricity - for 1 1/2
hours. I was healed!"
I am grate-full for the 27 years,
in which Eberhard agreed to be an actor in my drama...
Colored
Internet image : Monastery
Schoental, from 1810 till 1975 used as
a
"Protestant Seminary", a boarding-school for future
ministers or teachers.
The title of this scanned postcard in my folder is:
1956 "the
place of Eberhard's two years of torture".
Though I think, that the boarding-school at Ben-Shemen
is the best option for my grandchild Tomer,
I can never forget my brother's suffering in the boarding-shool
at Schoental,
though at that time our home with our mother seemed to be
a worse place.....
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My
brother Eberhard Guth,
the youngest of us 3 children, was born in 1942
[my mother:
"people said; how irresponsible
of that soldier father
to bring a child into the world during war!"] |
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his animals helped him to survive...
I think it was me
who bought this bird for him |
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1961 with bike to Venedig |
perhaps 1962- with motor-bike |
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Last picture before is death 1970,
in front of the school,
where he was the teacher of a 5th grade class |
There is not a single photo, which documents
our last togetherness - summer holidays 1969 in Israel -
But there is his gift, which I'm exhibiting on this website over and
over again: "The State of Israel"....
(see a good reproduction for instance on
July 8)
"You felt self-pity, because "Ranin
erred once and already is eliminated,
while others are often outright vicious , but "the public"
wants them to play on!"
But Ranin plays one role and Yossi or Shakhar play other roles,
would you like the pieces in the puzzle to be all the same,
all "Ranin"?
"I want you to explore the "co-play"
of all, all, all actors in your drama,
even if those actors have no idea about your existence and
your watching.
Any virtual person who triggers or pleases you, is also an
actor in your drama,
and you heal, learn, create through him-her,
and this in a much easier lighter way than with "Mutual
Dependency Actors"!
.....
"Again, your re-action to the doc
"Blue Card" was
"a bit out-dated"
You know, that your task in the exterior world,
your "Peace-through-Desert-Hosting-Economy"
is finished.
What you did, is not lost, though the fruits are not visible.
[See below, what I learnt from "Seth"
in the train yesterday]
Remember the sentence from a channeled phone-talk with Nomi
Heifetz 2003
[mentioned
on August 21!]
"What you want to
manifest,
has already manifested in another dimension.
There is a "tribe" of ten-thousands or more.
All you have to do is le-hit'aneg, to delight in it."
Do no longer focus on all the strife, all the oppression ,
which pains you .
Do not take sides!
Both , Jews and Bedouin, have chosen their roles in the common
drama.
Trust, that both need these circumstances in order to heal
and grow.
Focus on your present assignment:
to embrace and womb all your aspects , all YOUR colors,
in New Heart,
and live this as you know that you must live it:
finding what makes you zest-full and full-filled
and radiate this like a Laser
ray to all these people,
be they nations in the Negev, or players in the Big Brother
community. "
Thank you sooooo much!
This morning you
added another sentence, reminding me of our communication
on Oct.
28]
"... and feel and breathe all your nano-problems in body
and soul
v i c a r i o u s ly for those humans who still have such
a hard time to feel.."
October
28
I desire to train in FEELING
VICARIOUSLY for humankind,
if and when the "ridiculous, unjustified "
feelings come up.
My mission is
to expand feelings about nano-pains&problems into
'World-balloons',
i.e. to feel in and through them vicariously what
humans still avoid feeling.
2013: "to
be a pioneer of Evolution in knowing how to feel"
November 2
What is the purpose of this night's bothering experience,
that I can neither manifest such a small desire as
making a dog shut up,
nor integrate the feeling of torture in a way that
I enjoy the very feeling,
i.e. apply what I came to call "zest-full-ness"?
"Remember,
that you are to use "the barking-dog-stinging-insects
bothers"
in order to "feel vicariously"
2013: "to be a pioneer
of Evolution in knowing how to feel"
whatever your fellow
humans are afraid to feel.
If the issues of your sensing and feeling would be
"bigger",
you would still be preoccupied with your own separate
being.
solving problems
in the exterior world, releasing
judgments and beliefs,
healing your own small self into wholeness.
"But you are now a manifestation of New
Heart in Body on Earth,
and without constant reminders of your task of feeling
vicariously
and thus healing into wholeness all of Creation,
you would falter in the realization of your task.
" We suggest, that you trust !
Trust that the barking-dogs-stinging-insects issues
in your life
are not there to be "solved" by "thought
creates your environment"
nor integrated into breathing "zest-full-ness',
but have this purpose of reminding you
to feel vicariously for all humans!"
2013: "to be a pioneer
of Evolution in knowing how to feel"
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Nourishment from Others
Chapter: "Probable Systems...." in
the German translation
(I don't know from what book,
Jane Roberts-Seth)
p. 261-2
"Die anderen wahrscheinlichen Handlungen bleiben jedoch
ebenso gueltig, obgleich ihr vorgezogen habt, sie physisch nicht
zu verwirklichen.
Sie werden effektiv ebenso in die Tat umgesetzt wie die von
euch akzeptierte Handlung. War eine der abgewiesenen
wahrscheinlichen Handlungen emotional stark aufgeladen, so kann
derselben sogar eine groessere Gueltigkeit zukommen als der
von euch gewaehlten.
....Wenn ihr eigentlich Arzt werden wolltet und habt einen anderen
Beruf ergriffen, dann seid ihr in einer anderen wahrscheinlichen
Realitaet Arzt. Wenn ihr Gaben besitzt, von denen ihr keinen
Gebrauch macht, dann werden sie anderswo ausgeschoepft.
... Die Seele laesst sich
... als eine multidimensionale, unendliche Handlung beschreiben,
wo auch die winzigste Wahrscheinlichkeit irgendwo wirklich und
existent wird, als ein unendlicher Schoepfungsakt, der sich
unendliche Dimensionen erschafft, in denen Erfuellung moeglich
wird.
Der Kanvas eurer Existenz ist einfach so beschaffen, dass er
fuer den dreidimensionalen Intellekt unsichtbar bleibt. Diese
wahrscheinlichen Selbst sind jedoch ein Teil eurer Identitaet
oder Seele; und wenn ihr nicht in Kontakt mit ihnen
steht, dann nur deswegen, weil ihr auf
physische Ereignisse eingestellt
seid und dieselben zum Wirklichkeitskriterium
erhebt.
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"Jede geistige Tag schliesst eine neue Wirklichkeitsdimension
auf. In ge-wissem Sinne gebiert der geringste Gedanke von euch
Welten. Das ist keine trockene metaphysische Feststellung.
Sie sollte in euch staerkeste
Empfindungen der Kreativitaet and der Spekulation ausloesen.
Es ist keinem Wesen moeglich, steril zu bleiben, keiner Idee
moeglich zu sterben, keiner Faehigkeit moeglich, sich nicht
zu erfuellen.
p.267-8
...Die Beschaeftigung mit der Wahrscheinlichkeit
von Krankheit und Katastrophe ist strategisch ...unklug, denn
ihr errichtet ...ein Netzwerk von Wahrscheinlichkeiten, das
... vermeidbar ware. Theoretisch
koenntet ihr eure Vergangenheit , wie
ihr sie gekannt habt, veraendern, denn die Zeit ist
ebensowenig abgesondert von euch, wie die Wahrscheinlichkeiten
es sind. Die Vergangenheit
ist auf viele verschiedene Weisen dagewesen. Davon habt ihr
nur eine wahrscheinliche Vergangenheit erfahren. Wenn
ihr diese Vergangenheit jetzt, gegenwaertig, in eurer Vorstellung
veraendert, dann modifiziert ihr nicht allein ihre Natur, sondern
auch ihre Wirkung, und zwar nicht bloss fuer euch selbst, sondern
auch fuer die andern.
[See Godchannel about "POST-DETERMINATION"!!!!]
Nehmen wir an, ein bestimmtes Ereignis
habe euch zutiefst verstoert. Dann solltet ihr es euch nicht
einfach als ungeschehen denken, sondern
es in eurer Vorstellung durch ein Ereignis positiver Art ersetzen.
Dies muss jedoch mit
grosser Lebhaftigkeit und gefuehlsmaessiger Beteiligung und
viele Male geschehen.
Es ist kein Selbstbetrug.
Das von euch gewaehlte Ereignis wird naemlich automatisch zum
wahrscheinlichen Ereignis, das tatsaechlich eintrat, obgleich
es nicht dasjenige ist, das ihr in eurer damaligen Vergangenheit
habt wahrnehmen wollten.
Wird diese Technik richtig angewandt, dann
wird sich eure Vorstellung auf telepathischem Wege auch den
Menschen mit-teilen, die mit dem urspruenglichen Ereignis zu
tun hatten. Es steht ihnen allerdings
frei, ob sie eure Version annehmen oder zurueck-weisen wollen.
[the page-number
is not identifiable:)
...eine Metamorphose... bei der die inneren Faehigkeiten des
Menschen akzeptiert und entwickelt werden. Das Ergebnis wird
eine neue Existenzweise sein... Kein Mensch wird auf einen Angehoerigen
einer anderen Rasse herab-blicken, wenn er erkannt hat, dass
seine eigene Existenz diese Rasse auch in sich schliesst. Kein
Geschlecht wird sich dem anderen ueberlegen fuehlen und keine
gesellschaftliche Stellung als besser als die andre gelten,
wenn jeder einzelne um seine persoenlichen Erfahrung mit vielen
Gesellschaftsschichten und in vielen Rollen weiss. ...
Das Kind wird sich an viele seiner frueheren geistigen Existenzen
erinnern koennen und wird imstande sein, sich mit dem alten
Mann oder der alten Frau zu identifizieren, die es euren Begriffen
nach einmal sein wird.
Viele der Einsichten, die "mit dem Alter kommen",
werden dann schon der Jugend zugaenglich sein, aber die Alten
werden die geistige Elastizitaet ihrer Jugend nicht verlieren.
Dies ist an sich schon wichtig.
Doch das Wissen um kuenftige Inkarnationen wird euch aus praktischen
Gruenden noch eine Weile unzugaenglich bleiben... Waehrend diese
Wand-lungen vor sich gehen, werden im Gehirn neue Zonen
aktiviert werden, um die neue Entwicklung physisch zu unterstuetzen.
Infolgedessen werden sich auf physischer Ebene Gehirndiagramme
aufzeichnen lassen, mit deren Hilfe man die Erinnerungen an
fruehere Leben wachrufen kann. ... Dann werden psychische Strukturen
anstelle von physischen die Grundlage der Zivilisation bilden.
[Pause, mit geschlossenen Augen.]
Euer Erfahrungsbereich wird sich dermassen ausweiten, dass in
euren Augen das Menschengeschlecht ein anderes sein wird. Das
bedeutet nicht, dass es keine Probleme mehr haben wird. Es bedeutet
jedoch, dass dem Menschen weit groessere Hilfsquellen zu Gebote
stehen werden.
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An hour after Immanuel and Tomer had fetched me
from Lod train-station,
and half an hour before Immanuel went on flight to Los Angeles,
Efrat agreed to drive Tomer back to Ben-Shemen - after his first weekend
at home -
so that Abba would have enough time for the ritual of putting Mika
to sleep
The next morning Efrat is again very sick, but
she insists to do all the little tasks with Mika herself,
before she - insists - to bring Mika to kindergarden and go to her
office at least for a few hours...
Every morning Imma combs Mika's hair
into 'kukiot' |
Every morning Imma asks: "Do
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Mika,
the compassionate little girl,
feels her mother's plight and tries
to counter it
with sweetness, merriness, gladness, cheerfulness.
Later that day ,
in the evening, she will say, while trying to stroke the
spots
on Imma's body, which hurt most:
"zae meod koew,
k-shae-koev
le-immot (imahot)"
"It is great pain, when mothers have pain!" |
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While Imma gets ready, Mika watches
TV with great delight
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Big Brother Drama
In "Little Sister" in the
"Laughter Channel" Ranin was interviewed.
One important info was,
that in the "Confession Room" she actually was allowed
to speak Arabic.
"But since nobody there
[in the BigBrother organizational team] speaks Arabic,
I was asked to translate myself - after speaking -
or to be translated by someone, whom they would provide."
There also was a pretty joke:
When showing the scene, in which Yossi and Ranin failed to
multiply 6 X 8,
"Little Sister" asked:
" perhaps the reason was
that Arabs have a problem with the number 48?"
Ranin laughed, and so did I.
The number refers, of course, to 1948, Israel's "Independence
Day",
called by Arabs "Nakba
Day ", the Day of the Catastrophe...
"Why did you cry so much, Ranin?"
"Because in The House
feelings are pushed to the extremes!"
And present Ranin has
to watch past Ranin.
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Crying |
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"Like it never pained me all my life" |
"I can not " |
Crying |
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Crying |
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"Ranin, we learnt,
that in the past you were an actor!
and even then you cried! "
"Yes, but there it was justified by the roles I played"
"Do not give up like I did" |
"I already missed the train,
but you - life is still before you" |
"I'll come back in a short while,
to take you to the border"
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I
don't understand, why it was made public only now ,
that Ranin worked as an actress since she was small.
Though
some website mocks her "unsuccsessfulness",
I owe this site info about Ranin in "The
Syrian Bride",
though she is not mentioned among the names of the cast.
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Kobi Shim'oni -
the original "Subliminal" |
Among the shows
there was one I liked very much,
with the Arab rapper "Sa'ad".
[I couldn't find him on the Internet,
though there is a rapper Baba Sa'ad,
but he is German of Lebanese origin]
Ever since Tomer - then 9 years old -
introduced me to the rapper band
"Subliminal"
I am a great fan of "Rap"
in all countries and all languages,
and I liked the joke of the moderator,
when the show was over:
"I believe,
that you are actually "Subliminal"
who became a Muslim!
The similarity between you is striking!"
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Sa'ad, the Israeli Arab rapper:
"From the small desk in class
I reached the biggest stages"
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"At first I was scared and afraid" |
In the background:
"We can do it".
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"We stayed
and we won"
Ranin and the moderator join him:
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"We did it despite the pressure" |
"I was so excited,
that I didn't know what to do
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All three on stage, entertaining all Israel:
the Jewish female moderator, the Arab male rapper and Ranin, who bridges
all splits
Big Brother Drama Channel
2, 21:00-22:30
After I did
my work concerning my lesson with Ranin's "elimination",
I could return to exploring the Big Brother experiment.
The show today was depressing - though fascinating - for yet
another reason.
Three people - Shifra, Einav and Yoni - were given a secret
assignment,
as the Lords of the House,
while the others would not know that they were the Servants.
This was already bad enough.
But it became much worse, when two other people - Leon and
Shakhar
were secretly told about the assignment of those three
and demanded to counteract.
Through the scenes of the bad game I constantly had the feeling,
that "Earth" so often seems to be "staged"
like this:
Wicked roles and wicked anti-roles.
I don't know what to make of this.
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Song
of the Day: May favorite Sura
In the name of
Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful.
By the morning
hours,
And by the night
when it is stillest.
Thy Lord hath
not forsaken thee nor doth He hate thee,
And verily the latter portion will be better for thee than
the former,
And verily thy Lord will give unto thee so that thou wilt
be content.
Did He not find thee an orphan and protect (thee)?
Did He not find thee wandering and direct (thee)?
Did He not find thee destitute and enrich (thee)?
Therefore the orphan oppress not,
Therefore the beggar drive not away,
Therefore of the bounty of thy Lord be thy discourse.
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2008
November 30
Kislev
3
birthday
of Eberhard,
my dead brother
Sunday
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Actions:
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
Often with sick Efrat,
also when she drove to Shoham to fetch Mika & then to Ben-Shemen
to bring things T. "forgot"...
|
Interactions:
with Efrat -very sick, but
except for washing dishes & helping Mika to brush her teeth,
and making her ice-coffee, she didn't let me do anything
and with Mika, who
was partly rebellious, but very communicative with me during
dinner until sleep |
|
Intro
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7 years ~ HOME
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whole&full-filled,
never perfect&complete
Keep It
Simple Sweetheart
K.I.S.S.
- L O G 2
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