I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
K.I.S.S. -
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Keep It Simple Sweetheart
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My
new Midrash and song
in 5 languages
about the prophecy of Maleachi
3, 16
["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The
Name]
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How Learn And
I The Train
Heal Conditions In
Myself For Creating
Into Heaven Those
Whole On Conditions
Self-acceptance Earth Daily
Click!
az
nidberu yir'ee YHWH ish
- el - re'eehu
va-yaqshev [YHWH]
va-yishma'
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may! 7:37 I desire -during
this break of 9 more days towards my birthday
- while still healing" the
sun eclipse trigger"
- to achieve the goal of my "Driving Backward":
to convey the message of the heroic failure of the life of Franz
Rosenzweig, my father-in-law,
and discern the repercussions of this heroic failure in the
lives of his son and grandchildren
so as to light a light of hope for healing for all his offspring
and for humankind altogether. I
desire an intimate relationship with my
six children, in which each child can heal and grow I desire to understand what role I'm
suddenly meant to play in the life of a dead friend's son
image
of the day
hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
8:25
I must repeat yesterday's thanksgiving
My Body, my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to you for always having been on the alert to
my denials
by expressing them in ever so many pains,
but for never having succumbed to these denials
to the extent of Franz Rosenzweig's body succumbed. At an age(35),
when his body showed him through the
most cruel expression,
how his spirit - despite utmost awareness and honesty towards
SPIRIT -
had squeezed, squashed, smashed his DESIRE and his FEELINGS,
I, his daughter-in-law and - more important - his daughter-in-SPIRIT
, attracted teachings
and trainings in acknowledging and moving FEELING!
Therefore you, my Body, are alive and at the age of 70 healthier
than ever
(despite my ambiguity towards living,
despite my frequent wish to not exist,
which was prevalent in the past and is still popping up nowadays).
Now, before 8 in the morning I read a good
biography
of Franz Rosenzweig in English
and re-discovered that already at the age of 11 he wanted "to
learn Hebrew properly",
and that while bridging between the Hebrew and the German language
as nobody had ever done before or after,
his eyelids dictated the Latin letters of his last sentence to Buber-
in the context of their work on HIS Servant,
Isaiah
53: "… and now it comes, the point
of all points, which the Lord really gave me in my sleep: the points
of all points, for which it …". "Here broke the thread of his life."
The
main actors in Franz Rosenzweig's drama of love, truth
& death:
Margrit Rosenstock-Huessi, with whom he fell in love
in February 1918,
"Eugen" = Eugen Rosenstock, Franz' closest
friend & "peer"
since 1913
and Gritli's husband since 1914.
"Rudi" Ehrenberg - Franz' cousin and "peer"
-and his wife Helene.
I now [August
5, 2008] want to start copying
passages,
which I've noted as "relevant",
since I first began to read
the more than thousand letters of Franz Rosenzweig to Gritli.
Relevant for me are what I perceive
as Rosenzweig's three main desires,
and the way he denied the un-fulfillment of these desires:
- the desire for wholly living his love
for the one woman, whom he believed was "like himself"
- the desire for learning and creating
together with peers "like
himself",
- the desire to bridge between being a Jew & being a German,
not only for himself, but for all Jews - in pre-Nazi Germany....
April 19 , 1918
Liebes Gritli, ich leide so sehr
unter der weiten Entfernung von Kassel und nebenher auch von
Berlin (Bradt), dass ich mir sehr ernsthaft ueberlege, ob ich
mich nicht nach dem Westen melde. Durchgehn tut so ein Gesuch
glatt. Frueher war mir ja diese Front sympathisch, wegen des
interessanten Hinterlands, der schoenen Suedlichkeit und auch
grade wegen der Entferntheit - das einsiedlerhafte Dasein an
der Peripherie gefiel mir-, aber jetzt ist es schrecklich, so
weit weg zu sein, nicht rasch schreiben oder gar, was im Westen
geht, telefonieren zu koennen. Im Punkt der Gefaehrlichkeit
ist es eher eine Verbesserung, da meine Art Flaks im Westen
weniger in vorderster Linie eingesetzt wird. Ich habe das Gefuehl,
zur Hand sein zu muessen, wo Vater nicht mehr da ist. Entgegensteht
eigentlich nur mein grundsaetzliches
Nichtsselberverschieben, dem ich im Militaerischen folge.
Es waere ein "Schritt" und ich habe seit meinem Eintritt
im Fruehjahr 15 keinen "Schritt" beim Militaer getan.
April
19 , 1918
.... Man
ist ja wohl immer machtlos, wenn man "will".
Aber hier freilich ganz besonders. Dabei, es ist ja so gar nicht
das Uebliche: ich will ja nicht selber gehoert werden, ich will
doch nur dass sie (his mother) vernimmt. Aber
schon das ist "gewollt", -
Du darfst auch mit Eugens Depression
nicht viel "wollen". Ansprache
von aussen wäre doch nur Betäubung. Ists wirklich
ein Altersruck, so musst du es eben rucken lassen, schieben
kann da niemand, auch du nicht. Bloss
halten kannst du ihn, halten und nochmal halten. - Ich
habe ihm auf seinen Brief gleich zweimal geschrieben, aber Ansprache
von aussen ist das ja nicht, und die brächte ich auch nicht
fertig. Ich bin ihm nun nicht aussen
genug. (Leider, müsste ich hier wohl sagen, in diesem
Zusammenhang, - aber ich kann es nicht sagen, sondern nur: Gott
sei Dank).
Ich sitze nicht mehr in dem Loch am Rande der grossen Ebene,
sondern mehr in den Bergen drin.
Dein Franz.
April
21 , 1918
Liebes...
Ist es nicht merkwuerdig das Cohens Namensvetter Jecheskel (denn
sein juedischer Name ist Jecheskel -Ezechiel
or Hesekiel - "dass ich Jecheskel
der Soundsovielte kommen musste, um Jecheskel den Ersten zu
rehabilitieren" sagte er mir im Januar-, auf der
Chaiselongue liegend, weil es der Arzt befohlen hatte - und
jubelte mir dann Hesekiel
18,31 vor), also dass auch wieder dieser Entdecker
der Einzelnen Seele es war, der auch die wechselseitige Verkettung
dieser Seelen (33,
2-9) zuerst ausgesprochen hat? Die bewusstlose Gestalt in
der diese Verkettung zuvor da war, die Gemeinschaft, der gegenueber
der Mensch gar nicht wusste, dass er Einzelner war, diese bewusstlose
Gestalt hat er, sollte man denken, zerstoert, indem er aussprach,
dass "die Seele suendigt" [18,4.20]
und grade er stellt sie nun auf dem neuen Menschenbegriff wieder
neu her, in der "Suende des Bruders", fuer die ich
verantwortlich gemacht werde. Er
loest das Volk in Seelen auf und dann baut er es aus Seelen
neu.
Werft von euch all eure Abtruennigkeiten,
mit denen ihr abtruennig wart!
Bereitet euch
ein neues Herz und einen neuen Geist!
Warum wollt ihr sterben,
Haus Israel?! Jecheskel
18, 32 Rid yourselves of all the offenses
you have committed,
and get a new heart and a new spirit.
Why will you die, O house of Israel? Ezekiel
18:32 To Rosenzweig's interpretation see
my my entire book:
All Israel are Guarantors for each other - and specifically the
chapter about Jecheskel in
"The
Guarantorship of the Emissaries"
See
also the funny song about Yecheskel in SongGame
‘Love is as Strong as Death’:
The Triadic Love of
Franz Rosenzweig,
Eugen Rosenstock-Huessy
and Gritli Rosenstock-Huessy.
1. The Background
... . Like Rosenstock, Rosenzweig had been born into a liberal
Jewish family, but whereas Rosenstock insisted that
the triadic unity of God, man and world
was best understood and hence God was best served by entering
in the Christian faith, Rosenzweig, on the verge of converting
to Christianity, had the overwhelming conviction that he had
to devote his life to the Jewish faith and that faith was the
true faith, of which Christianity was an inferior, but essential
relation.
While both were fighting for the Central powers, Rosenzweig
in Macedonia, Rosenstock on the Western front, they exchanged
a passionate correspondence about their respective faiths. That
correspondence of 1916 was first published in Germany after
Hitler had come to power, in 1935, by which time Franz Rosenzweig
had been dead six years from amyotrophic lateral sclerosis;
he had also become probably the most
important intellectual leader for German Jewry. That role had
largely derived from his establishment of the Jewish Lehrhaus
in Frankfurt, his translation of the Bible, with Martin Buber,
and his unflagging devotion to the promotion of the benefits
of the Jewish life and tradition. ....
The reason that Rosenstock-Huessy knew that the letters between
Franz and Gritli were of overwhelming importance was because
he knew it was not merely a bit of personal gossip, but that
it was an essential component of the way of thinking and being
in the world that he and Rosenzweig had brought to the public.
He also knew that once the existential condition of The Star
became public then the nature of the forces and faiths that
formed Rosenzweig would have to be seen in a different and truer
hue than the popular one of that of the paragon of Jewish life.
It was not merely his love of God and His people that drove
The Star’s composition and the uniqueness of its accentuations
– all of which were the forces which elevated his own
star among his people – but the love he had for
and received from a Christian woman. In many ways it
is not going too far to say that The Star is an attempt to woo
Gritli towards Judaism, in the full knowledge that she must
not leave Eugen if the love is to be a redemptive force for
all three – for Eugen, in that he would see that the struggles
between them in the foxholes were but stages on the way to the
creation of The Star and that he, Eugen, had helped build the
edifice not for Christians but also for Jews, but also for Gritli
in that her love would not just be directed at her Christian
husband but would fill her Jewish beloved with the energy to
be more than he would otherwise be and by so doing show to His
people the love that existed
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between him and a Christian woman was indeed divinely sanctioned
because it too was integral in the world’s redemption.
And that this love between Gritli and Franz was transgressive,
that it was sensuous and because it was sensuous, in contravention
of the decreed walls of the sanctimony of marriage, it revealed
that all three accepted the compulsions of the pagan.
That the truth of this love story which lay concealed for so
many years finally burst out, and like all repressed truth it
came into the world like a lacerating blade damaging the ideal
portraiture of Rosenzweig’s marriage with Edith was yet
but one more verification of the truth that “love
is as strong as death. [Song
of Songs 8:6]”
Wayne Cristaudo - see my letter to him tomorrow
The Rosenzweig-Rosenstock
Triangle
or
What Can We Learn from Letters to Gritli ?
A Review Essay " The lover who says
"thou art mine"
to the beloved
is aware
of having begotten
the beloved in his love
and given birth to her in travail.
He knows himself
the creator of the beloved.
And with this awareness
he now enfolds her
and envelopes her
with his love in the world--
"thou art mine."
Franz Rosenzweig,
The Star of Redemption
Franz Rosenzweig (1886-1929),
a historian,
a Jewish intellectual,
and the spiritual inspiration
of an ongoing movement of Jewish renewal, is an outstanding
figure
among modern thinkers.
A Hegel scholar of some renown,
he made a lasting mark
with a philosophy of revelation
written in some of the most difficult
and enchanting German prose
produced in the twentieth century. Memorialized as a courageous
sufferer
of amyotrophic lateral sclerosis
(ALS, or Lou Gehrig's Disease)
who translated the Bible with Martin Buber even as he lost all
voluntary muscle control and the capacity of speech,
Rosenzweig has come to symbolize
the best of the legacy of German Jewry,...