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52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 36th day, August 2002
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JOY about FRACTALS |
2014 |
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The FELT days 139, 140, 141, 142 ~ of the next 15 FELT years
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5 y e a r s = 5 4 8 0 days
of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me! |
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January 17, 2014
11:30 AM- The composition about fractals on
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January 18, 2014
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Lior thinks she has "a Jewish look".
When watching her next to me - blowing her nose and trying to oppose, like Moses, Eliyahu and Jeremiah, who she is,
I could see an ancient Hebrew profile in front of my little old model of the pyramidal tent....
Lior was meant to meet with Boris, but on the phone he shared with her that his father (actually his stepfather) may die on this day.
This dying came after 2 months of agony- also the time of a rift between Boris and me. I told Lior the metaphysical reasons for this.
Now, after Lior had gone, to meet Andy, Andreas Lintz, a German, who walked with us on the Walk of Love almost 5 years ago,
I took my wooden treasure-box with the clippings of wisdom I've gathered throughout my life, to a bench opposite the Desert,
and the first two clippings were so relevant ,and the second pertaining directly to Boris' situation ,
that I ran home to my phone and read it to Lior, asking her to convey it to Boris, if he would still be available for communication.
Death and Desert
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From "Earth: Pleiadian
Keys to the Living Library" 18:20 |
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An everyday example of how to womb and to evolve feeling and behavior towards wholeness
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[added on Shabbat,
after I used this example for showing Lior -against her despair "nobody
will ever be whole, for wholeness is a fragile thing, it's there in a moment and then it's gone again." She understands well, that "wholeness means self-acceptance of all I am and feel, with no denial present". I told her, that wholeness IS, when the time between denying and accepting becomes shorter and shorter. The "fractal" episode with Ofir was staged so that I could watch, how fast a process towards wholeness can be: I had judged myself for having been haughty and critical. When I wombed myself and the way I had felt and talked, the first reaction was: "I must correct it I must apologize".. I sent an SMS apologizing. But the "higher idea" was still to come. When I saw that my behavior had happened on Ofir's birthday, I felt even greater shame. I went to see him, but he wasn't there. The idea came to write, though it was exactly "e-mail" that had been the issue: "I see again, that you don't open e-mails, so I'll never use this means again." Understanding quickly, that I could have sent an SMS: "I wrote you an e-mail, please open". Now this second e-mail allowed me not only to express my shame, but also to sculpt a thoughtful/feelful blessing to his birthday, for which he then thanked me - by e-mail : "meragaeshet me'od". It was truly "turning mafri'a la-mafrae", the frightful into the fruitful. For a blessing enwrapped in a bit of turmoil will become more imprinted in his mind and heart. |
 Ofir and Meital from among the sequence of images which Meital published on Facebook. |
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Joy in the house of Ra'ayah: return of her family from skiing
tears and tissues in the house of Rachel: tissues are not enough
Return to ancient handkerchiefs - "a proposal for your artwork"
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January 19, 2014
Though "I have" still 2 days of "a
break" in occupying myself with the Mobile Desert Hosting Economy,
the TENT comes to ME! Yes
even the vision, phrased in a dialog with the Bedouin Yahya, comes to
me.
A composition on a page in ARARAT-HEART,
which I called "signs????"
, See also what is written further down on that page, in big fonts:
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YHWH was seen by him by the oaks of Mamre as he was sitting at the entrance to his tent at the heat of the day He lifted up his eyes and saw: here, three men standing over against him. When he saw them, he ran to meet them from the entrance to his tent and bowed to the earth and said: My lords, pray if I have found favor in your eyes, pray do not pass by your servant! Pray let a little water be fetched, then wash your feet and recline under the tree; let me fetch a bit of bread, that you may refresh your hearts, then afterward you may pass on- for you have, after all, passed yor servant's way! They said: Do thus, as you have spoken. Avraham hastened into his tent to Sara and said: Make haste! Three measures of choice flour! Knead it, mak bread-cakes! Avraham ran to the oxen... then he fetched cream and milk ......and placed it before them. Genesis 18:1-8, translation Fox |
2005 : I pleaded with Yahya: "If you do not understand me, at least do not judge me! Know that what I want - in the name of God - is a true revolution, and it will need hours and hours and maybe
weeks and weeks to understand it, Instead of you, the sons of Abraham, running after the Jews and the West, the West and the Jews among them need to run after YOU, they need YOU, they need the treasure of the desert: Space, Purity and Silence, and they need the personal hospitality only You can give." I felt, that I got some help from above, but I still felt terrified. Then when I really wanted to put a stop to it myself, he said gravely: |
Holy Geometry: the shape of the Ohalah/Rihlaah tents
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"Eventually,
some of you will build houses that are geometric shapes that are not
simply squares or rectangles. Many of the dwellings in the
Pleiades do not have shapes as you know them, and it is understood
there that shapes and angles hold energy. In
astrology, it is understood that certain angles have power points and
that certain things happen with certain angles. It is the same with
shapes. The Great Pyramid is all about the use of angles and shapes.
Energy collects in angles, in shapes, and in forms, and
you can learn to create these shapes and live in and around them. Energies
are formed and transmitted in this way.
..... It is not that a spaceship comes down, makes crop circles in the night, and then takes off. Although some circles have been caused by ship landings, intelligence can take the guise of any form it wants, and very often intelligence comes in the form of a wave. A time will come when there will actually be a wave of light that sweeps Earth. Intelligence is beyond the spoken word and beyond the written word, for it is frequency that sometimes comes in geometric shapes. Pythagoras had a beginning grasp of this, but his geometry was not understood by others. Geometry is an evolved intelligence, a collection of experience that can communicate huge amounts of information. Actually, crop circles all over the planet are put there by sounds above human frequency to implement these language shapes. Many times, in the beginning, these shapes are circles. They will evolve into triangles, lines, and many other things. ......The circles and shapes being put on Earth are here to assist you in holding and managing your frequency and having the courage to live your light. ..... .... The glyphs come onto Earth
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FRUITS from my dead brother and and FLOWERS from
my dead father
The metaphor of "bringing fruit this year" came to me again - in the most touching way:
While - on Shabbat - flipping through my wooden
wisdom treasure-box I came across a feeble page, on post-war paper, a birthday letter from my brother Eberhard , probably written in summer 1956, when he was 12 and I was 16. After asking me about my "mountain-tour" (with my school-mate Reinhild and her father, the Nazi-judge, forbidden to work after the war) and telling me about an experience during his own holiday, at the waterfall of Urach, he ends with: Here I've noted for you some verses, which are suiting you (die sich fuer dich eignen) . The verses from Luke 13:6-9 in the New Testament talk about bringing fruit and after quoting them he writes: Think of it, that you in this your new year will bring fruit!.  This delicate painting, too, hid in my treasure-box. The name Kretschmer reminds me of the secretary of the Institutum Judaicum at Tuebingen University, Johanna Kretschmer, with whom I became friends, when I worked there as an assistant -Aug.-Dec. 1963, and who then hosted our small wedding congregation - after the Chuppah in the synagogue in Stuttgart, in her home in March 1964 |
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He began telling this parable: "A man had a fig tree which had
been planted in his vineyard; and he came looking for fruit on it and
did not find any. 7"And he said to the vineyard-keeper, 'Behold,
for three years I have come looking for fruit on this fig tree without
finding any. Cut it down! Why does it even use up the ground?'“‘Sir,’
the man replied, ‘leave it alone for one more year, and I’ll
dig around it and fertilize it. 9 If it bears fruit next year, fine!
If not, then cut it down.’”…Luke
13:6-9 Related: He dug it up and cleared it of stones and planted it with the choicest vines. He built a watchtower in it and cut out a winepress as well. Then he looked for a crop of good grapes, but it yielded only bad fruit. Isaiah 5:2 I will take away their harvest, declares the LORD. There will be no grapes on the vine. There will be no figs on the tree, and their leaves will wither. What I have given them will be taken from them.'"Jeremiah 8:13 Seeing a fig tree by the road, he went up to it but found nothing on it except leaves. Then he said to it, "May you never bear fruit again!" Immediately the tree withered. Matthew 21:19 The ax is already at the root of the trees, and every
tree that does not produce good fruit will be cut down and thrown
into the fire." Luke 3:9 |
And as if it was not enough to hold this fragile
reminiscence of my
beloved brother,
killed in a road-accident, at the age of 27, by a drunken American soldier,
44 years ago, near the town where he worked as a teacher, in Germany
my hands touched another precicious document, the last letter written by my
father,
before he was killed in war, at the age of 31, by American soldiers, 61 years
ago,
10 days before my 5th birthday, on August 5, 1943, in Sicily.
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 "I love you all very much and I wished, that you had as good nerves, health and balance of soul as I have.. .During the next leave I'll have much to tell you. - Included are some little flowers for Christel's birthday, [and again] you are very much loved by Peter" [the nickname by which my parents called each other] |
These two poems of mine were also in the treasure-box
(which I now decided to let go of and bequeathe it as a gift to Immanuel on his 51st birthday on January 23, 2014)
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feel, that both, my father and my brother, and maybe even my mother and my sister, and y e s ! m y h u s b a n d ! and for sure the one who is alive - Mika, are all at my side to help me and the world manifest my vision! From: A new pattern of manifestation You cannot create only out of your limited
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January 20, 2014
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RECALLING
experiences towards
the MANIFESTATION of the MOBILE DESERT HOSTING
ECONOMY From K.i.s.s.-Log January 6, 2008
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ENVISIONING Jan. 20, 2014, there were, after all, already in 2004, solar lamps which didn't need solar panel and battery! I haven't heard about simple devices for a vent leave alone for a labtop, but if it's not yet invented it will soon be invented, once the Mobile Desert Hosting Economy will spread |
Again: though I intended to take another day away from my "obsession" with the Mobile Desert Hosting Economy,
I'm drawn to it magically, - e.g. to a bunch of clippings with the fragment of a story about a modern prophet Eliyah,
which bear no name of author, nor do I remember to have read the book or to have emphasized what was relevant.
It is - from an artist's point of view - excellent Hebrew prosa, leading us physically and emotionally into the Desert!
 
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