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52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 35th day, August 2002
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The FELT days 135, 136, 137, 138 ~ of the next 15 FELT years
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of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me! |
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January 13, 2014
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 The "Ohalah" [from ohel=tent] of the desert invites to serenity, to the contact with yourself. The well of your power you'll detect in the desert the power to create your life On the page in SongGame 2007 I wrote about this song which "came to support me" with the start of the realization of my Desert Vision in August 1989: The last version of a second stanza was never sung. It tells about the goal of the "Ohalah", or "Rihlah" in Arabic, "Pyramidion" in English the mobile hosting-business based on the pyramidal tent |
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The
On-line-Magazine "On the Left Side" of Naftali
Raz publishes
"... And what about the Bedouins?"
by Huda abu-Hamid
I quote it though "fighting for the rights of the Bedouins" is not
the way I believe in.
Who said, that big problems have to be solved from outside their context?
In Europe they did fight for the rights of the Jews, for instance, - see where
this brought them to.
The solution was "to wake up the create powers of the Jewish people"
inside,
towards self-determination outside.
As I repeated over and over on this website,
for instance in "Hagar&Ismael":
"There will be no peace here,
until we, the Jews, will become the guests of the Desert People,
and let them connect us to the earth (adamah).
Once we shall be dependent on them, they will feel equal
and then they might forgive us the expulsion of Ismael."
Haggai
[sometimes spelt Hagai] Lev, Dead Sea, April 13,
2004
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different relationship towards "land", towards "adamah" I see in the song, which we sung on Mika's 8th birthday, but which I learnt by heart only now - a video 
I'm suddenly wondering, if I am right. I read again 2 entries on Healing-K.i.s.s., where I cope with this eternal enigma: Can I, by showing a new and big picture, wipe out the conflicts, e.g. "over land"? And will my "big picture", even if applied, not ignite new conflicts?
Yet the only goal I can stive for in my personal life, is to truly show "the bigger picture", I see, but without making wrong or small or stupid any of the other pictures people cling to.... As if to comfort me, that it is wholly right, that I - with tears in my eyes - DO WANT Heaven-on-Earth and an end to mutual hatred Tzippi shared a video about the loving embrace between a wild lion and a human doesn't it manifest the biblical prophecy: "I'll make a covenant between you and the animals of the field, and...  |
  I also quote some of the 6 responses so far: 
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Gadi's immediate, responded to the letter I wrote him 2 days ago, on Jan. 11, and which included some critical hints.
I feel grate-full, that he stands up to me, but I also feel not yet understood and want to hang my head because of this...
Also: lately he called himself an "uncorrectible optimist", and I can see now , though it was there in all those years,
that he aggrandizes positive trends, which in itself is a good thing, but it seems to hide from him the bigger picture.
I feel down today, tired, and though my vision becomes clearer each day - when, when, when will my peers show up?
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January 14, 2014
Nourishment
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January 15, 2014
Usually the first thing I do, after opening the computer
in the morning, is to see if there are relevant e-mails.
Usually there aren't, but today I saw one from Gady.
I don't know, why I was afraid, but I preferred to first sculpt my "felt
day", s. above, and only then I opened it.
It was not a response to my letter, but a swift note, that he was invited
to the interview concerning the assignment,
which I so much want him to get, him, Gadi - as the Aaron of Moses... - already
tomorrow at 17:30.
"I'm on my way back from the Kineret",
he wrote, "stopping in Tel-Aviv to buy some proper
clothes for the interview".
Now I knew, why I was afraid: it means, that today I have to complete the
"presentation" - in the hope to "infect" Gadi with
it after all.
Yesterday I felt urged to work on it very hard, though I kept telling myself:
No pressure needed! Don't fall back into your former pattern!
I still hurried to the pool, both Jacuzzi and pool were totally empty, a sight
I never saw before...
The quiet highlighted a line in the new song ["the air is quiet, as if
one didn't breathe"]
which I had rehearsed already yesterday, but now sang over and over again,
feeling "the most beautiful fruits falling from every tree",
but only those "loosen themselves from the twigs,
which the mild ray of the sun lets fall".
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Dies ist ein
Herbsttag, wie ich keinen sah! Die Luft ist still, als atmete man kaum, und dennoch fallen raschelnd, fern und nah, die schoensten Fruechte ab von jedem Baum. O stoert sie nicht, die Feier der Natur! Dies ist die Lese, die sie selber haelt; denn heute lost sich von den Zweigen nur, was vor dem milden Strahl der Sonne faellt. see 2014 Songs, Jan. Nr.2 |
May
this be the day to herald the falling of the fruits! May I be inspired to create and complete a presentation that will resonate in Gadi as well as in his future employers. May the right choice of photos complement the sculpture of words. 63 years ago I read a girl's novel, of which I remember only this: She didn't feel capable to write an essay about a sports-event, so she bought the cheapest camera, photographed the event, developed the photos, wrote subtitles and delivered her essay. I do n o t remember, if her teacher received it as valid! Following this morning's postcard: Picasso's apples |
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my garden I see a tree standing firm, yes standing its ground from its firmness comes softness of leaves held and supported by trunk and by boughs, and like magic comes the finenes of the blossoms different - with beauty and with scent and these three are promising that fruits are yet to come this tree is content with what it is. see 2013 Songs, May Nr3 |
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January 16, 2013
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When
I had enough of my nightly squirming, squalling, squeezing I did, what I always do only after waking up in the morning: I grabbed the daily accidental book and the daily postcard. Nothing more meaningful could have come to me: Weizmann whom I quote constantly: Zionism is the waking up of the creative powers of the people, and who looks into the future , and a Muezzin in Acco, on a postcard, which I didn't even know I had it in my treasure, from Christine Rogge, a pupil of mine in Berlin in 1986-87, who came to Israel in summer 1987 and could not find me . The Muezzin also seems to look into the future, and in this composition: in the direction of my idol: Chaim Weizmann |
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Quotes I found on Healing-K.i.s.s.
from "Trial and Error", 1966, a gift from my husband
in 1977
and a book, which has helped me enormously in my strife for my own self-determination
From "Bedouin Self-Determination" [p.
354, 176 and 138]
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this would be the task of a Bedouin Moses
"The DEVELOPMENT of INDEPENDENCE, INITIATIVE and INNER GROWTH"
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is what Chaim Weizmann
called "Zionism", and it is what I see as the "Re-Creation". which will begin with the Desert People around Mount Ararat and spread out from there to all the "Victim Nations". |
From
"Partnership Diary 1977" on the page "Rejoice in your
potential peers", 2007 "Partnership Diary",
1977, 137 Zionism is not simply an answer t
o p r e s e n t d i s t r e s s: The Jewish people are sitting on a volcano, and this position will continue until an appalling disaster occurs. … Then ultimately the solution to the Jewish question will be found. This unique solution is that of national Zionism: the revival of Israel in its historic land!" |
"Zionism as a force for
life and creativity residing in the Jewish masses, Jewish homelessness was not just a physical discomfort; It was also, and perhaps in larger measure, the malaise of frustrated capacities, ... the creative capacities with which the Jewish people had been entrusted." All this is true just as well for the descendants of mythical Abraham's first son, Ismael, the Bedouins In fact it is true for all human beings, once they are past the struggle for survival. I could see it today once again: Both my landlords are a bit sick, but not too sick to simply rest. I found them sitting in front of their entrance-door, in the sun, each one occupying him/herself with their i-phones, hardly lifting their eyes, even when I came to them in order to ask about their non-well-being. When I heard, that Ofir had another week of sickness-leave, I asked: "Won't you be bored?" "Yes, I fear, I'll be bored", saying actually that he was bored already, and this though he - unlike his wife - has lots of chances to apply his talents. Will my Desert-Vision accelerate the quantum-leap of people's finding Zest and Full-fill-ment? |
I felt elated:
Can I rejoice now in Gadi? During these very minutes he is interviewed by those
who decide who of the candidates will get "the job", for which he and I so yearn.
And there was more on this page: no succahs yet , only a make-shift structure,
in which I received visitors, since there wasn't much space for this in my bus.
Instead of succahs
- there is Fatmah, Hamda's daughter-in-law, busy with her water-tank.. 1990
Later that first year, Hamda sometimes entered the
Abraham's Succah
(she would never have dared to enter a house just like that, be it of a
Jew or an Arab)
and in this case - with my niece from Germany
- we even made music together.
The most important passage for me
in Weizmann's Trial and Error is quoted in
bio-testimony 4
I excerpt from it what I relevant for manifesting my vision of a Mobile
Hosting Desert Economy
1931:
At the Congress in July 1931, Weizmann was DISMISSED from the Presidency
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I have followed this
belief through all my exterior doing, ever since "Partnership" and till the work with the one family of Bedouins in the Zealots' Valley. And yet, it was exactly there, that I finally understood, why any further application of this way would be futile. Since the true reason for all my failure and all the victimhood of the people is the lack of self-acceptance, and underneath that: the lack of knowing how to deal with feelings a change on the exterior level can not come from below. There must come a change of belief, from the belief that Man is Nature's enemy to the belief inthe integration of Adam and Adamah and then - in the exterior structure of the Ohalahs - both can be learnt simultaneously: inner self-acceptance and exterior creativity. |
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idea of the sculptor Dani Kish in Mitzpe-Ramon for the structure of
a succah - 4 electricity poles, some boards material to cover them against rain, cold, sun and above them palm-fronds was simple - contrary to all the fancy ideas which the students in a Haifa College who worked on inventing a "succah" for 3 months came up with - yet the pyramidal tent is much simpler: no crane for providing electricity poles, no driving to far away farms from which to gather, trim and load up palm-fronds, just bamboo-poles, netshade, thread, velcro - soon available in one shop in town |
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Did I think, that
"searching" for Chaim Weizmann on my webside could not lead to
something encouraging about Acco?
There
it is - inserted in "Body is the Healer"
2007 - in July 2011
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"TheGoodNews"[2014:
no longer exists] inform me, that the
Israeli Weizmann
Institute of Science, was declared as "Best Place to Work in Academia 2011" outside the US [see "The Scientist"]. Among many other criteria the question: "Are you satisfied with your work" got 5 points out of 5. So there, too, an evolution has taken place >>>>>>> in the direction for which I've striven so hard all my life. That there could even be a question about "feeling satisfied with your work", was "out of the question" , when I - since the age of 16 - began to ask this people around me and help them in their process to answer it. And yet - the question is not yet asked right out loud, when it comes to children past the age of 6, 7, 8, 9, after which their natural zest-and-fulfillment tends to fade away. And what about the most endangered "species", the adolescents? In a time, in which most of them no longer have to toil with survival laboring? It's 8 days ago, that, I was again faced with "NON-sense" of such an adolescent among my grandkids. ..... I (also) I learnt about the "Ayalim Foundation" - a beautiful woman told about one of the students' communities, her own: in the center of Acco - Jewish and Arab students in service of the old town. - what can I say more about "Ayalim" than what appears as the entry on their Hebrew as on their English website: 
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ENVISIONING January 16, 2014: The tent structure is so much simpler - yes, but technology is only a means or a frame, that allows the hosts and the guests to draw out their creative powers! |
Since there is still space on this
page, and since Gadi, of course, couldn't tell me the result of the interview,
I want to end this day, yes these four days on this page, with a composition
about creativity in painting.
In March 2011 my landlady,[ the one who played with her i-phone..., bored
even by my vivid presence],
begged me to accompany her children to an activity in the park, organized
by the municipality of Arad.
She never had asked something like that before from me, but her fear of
being dirtied by color was too big.
I still pass by these seats in town, though never the one Lior and Amit
have painted with such enthusiasm!
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but they didn't say a word about it when I came!
guess from my email to Ofir the next day, Friday,
how I attracted shame and how I dealt with it
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+ one of a million examples of the creativity of Mika (on this photo she was 5 1/2)
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