52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 37th day, September 2002

What a fine morning, a day for celebration, The first of September. The firstgrader of 1944, evacuated to this village, her father missed, killed, sees nine grandchildren in school&kindergarden, and princess and prince they enter First Grade with sandals & satchels, their country too at war, but their parents alive, their enviroment intact, their feelings honored, creativity encouraged, surrounded by love.

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1 5   y e a r s  = 5 4 8 0   days   of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e   Z e i t   "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d   t i m e  "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2014-01-21-Tuesday -still 5339 days 2012song Nr.16: nafalti, qamti 2014-01-22-Wednesday- still 5338 days "Time-Pressure" was ruining my joy of creating most of my life. Ra'ayah: "I always wished I had more time! You, Rachel, have enough time, right?" "Right", yet I felt a bit guilty, though I am so grate-full, that this dictator, who spoiled even my work on Healing-K.i.s.s. -is gone. Embraced by Eternity Song: Wie sehr ich mich muehte 2014-01-23- Immanuel is 51! -still 5337 days Lior called me while I was recalling 14 hours of unbearable birthing-pains 51 years ago. She asked what to do with her unbearable separation pain, despite moving~wombing~understanding, that separation was right. I felt powerless- I had no advice nor consolation for her. At night: sleeplessness became unbearable pain. song: elohim al domi lakh... te'udah...be-Yisrael 2014-01-24-Friday-Shoham-still 5336 days song: Alas my love, you do me wrong

January 21, 2014

After 4 days of "roaming around" seemingly far from my Desert-Vision,
and yet being reminded of it by this or that coincidence every single day,
I again turn my full intention to manifesting a quantum-leap in the desert.
Maybe, I should dedicate this day to poetic expressions about the desert.

Seven "Desert-Jewels" from another website:

From a letter I, Rachel, wrote to whom, when? Nicht zufaellig haben im Hebraeischen die Worte Adam und Adamah dieselbe Wurzel. Erbarmen gegenueber der Erde (der "Umwel') wird der Mensch dann haben, wenn er gelernt hat, sich seiner selbst zu erbarmen. Wie sollte einer, der seine Gefuehle und Beduerfnisse nicht anneh-men kann, weil sie zu schmerzlich oder aengstigend oder beschaemend oder in seinen Augen boese sind, die Beduerfnisse der Erde annehmen koennen? Arbeit an der Erde verlangt Arbeit am Menschen

V I S I O N S : May 24, 1993 [I didn't know then, that my granddaughter Rotem would be born on this day] May 24, 1993 - to Rebecca Dinaburg: .... You are right, you are not ready for the desert or for the Succah, much as I desire to have you close. But my other sons and aughters - the biological and the spiritual ones - are also far from me today, except for Sarit Haifler ~~~ It's a feeling that we are all preparing for our work in the world and that the time of exstatic gatherings is still ahead of us. But then - we'll not need so much - those old fashioned primitive means of being together. The communication, the exchange of loving support, of shear love, will not have to be technical in order to be physical. I don't know exactly what I am talking about. It's you who lets me flow like this. I've taken this and your letter to the edge of the Ramon-crater - it's the hour where the strong contrasts of light and shadow give such depth to all the wadi- veins and arteries in the vast abyss underneath me. It's here that I want to part from you, beloved star-child.           Rachel

Another poem about the Desert by Haim Gouri, perhaps written down for me by a Succah-guest Your Negev, Haim Gouri, will no longer be a curse! It will become the destiny of Israel, Israel's blessings!

continuation of my excerpts from an unnamed bunch of clippings in my treasure-box - about Eliyahu, the prophet, and the Desert and "God", today as 3000 years ago p.113b p.114 p.113 from p. 116 from p.114-115 from p. 123 from p. 117-118 p.127-128 p. 124 p.135-136

Israel, the unique people, is meant to be the pioneer
of all humans on earth in becoming each one unique.
For only then "All-that-is", or "Deity" can evolve.
And Evolution is the purpose of "Manifestation".






January 22, 2014

ENVISIONING The intense work on editing the Desert-Eliyahu pages followed me through the night, SQU (squirming-squalling-squeezing) for hours, but then, among the morning book+postcard 2 gifts which complement each other, an essay in Hebrew, 1939, and a German photo. The scene of the young Zionist dreamers sowing wheat in the dreary land of the South at a time, when doing so was the right dream for drawing out Israel's creative powers, reminded me even more of the vision of 1993 which I re-discovered only yesterday: sowing hard wheat in the desert wadis + hosting town people in the desert mountains. Combining futuristic Mobile Desert Hosting Economy with this land's oldest agriculture - growing desert wheat - which would make Israel independent from importing wheat - elates me! 1939: A verbal sculpture by Bracha Habas, in the Land of Israel, published in: be-qarov, From Close, one of the 2 little books my husband left - by error? - in our library, when he took his part away 1981. The image , from a "Mother-and Housewife-Calendar" of 1983 probably does not show Sinai. But Sinai is what I see in it, and Ohalahs/Rihlaahs/Pyramidions which I envision! While in my kitchen, I suddenly heard a paper fall down - from no-where. I found what I published here long ago, between kitchen-sink and TV-shelf. I desire that Immanuel will change "Succah-Vision" into "Ohalah-Vision"!

My elation about the combination of futuristic and ancient economy
causes me to further explore "growing wheat in the land of Israel".
For the LORD thy God bringeth thee into a good land,
a land of brooks of water, of fountains and depths, springing forth in valleys and hills;
a land of wheat and barley,
and VINES and FIGS and POMEGRANATES; a land of olive-trees and honey;
a land wherein thou shalt eat bread without scarceness, thou shalt not lack any thing in it
Deuteronomy 8:7-9 , see on the page with my song "Admat ha-midbar", Desert-Earth!

I immediately found an article of 2011, which gives me many details about growing wheat in Israel I need, except there is no reference to what wheat and where our ancestors, including the Nabateans, grew in the desert

EXPLORING I read a Hebrew sentence, that encouraged me to expand my vision to grow wheat even more, in "Agriculture of the Future - Back to the Roots"? [based on an English article]. I cannot, now, contain the flood of information, but I already see not only the future of the Midbaryah-Wadis but also the metaphor of "growing the roots of wheat" as applied to growing roots to the hosts' creative powers.   Agriculture’s Next Revolution – Perennial Grain – Within Sight Perennial wheat .....Earth-friendly perennial grain crops, which grow with less fertilizer, herbicide, fuel, and erosion than grains planted annually, could be available in two decades,... Perennial grains would be one of the largest innovations in the 10,000 year history of agriculture, and could arrive even sooner with the right breeding programs,... Published in Science’s influential policy forum, the paper is a call to action as half the world’s growing population lives off marginal land at risk of being degraded by annual grain production. Perennial grains expand farmers’ ability to sustain the ecological underpinnings of their crops. Perennial grains have longer growing seasons than annual crops and deeper roots that let the plants take greater advantage of precipitation. Their larger roots, which can reach ten to 12 feet down, reduce erosion, build soil and sequester carbon from the atmosphere. They require fewer passes of farm equipment and less herbicide,... By contrast, annual grains can lose five times as much water as perennial crops and 35 times as much nitrate, a valuable plant nutrient ... The authors say research into perennial grains can be accelerated by putting more personnel, land and technology into breeding programs. They call for a commitment similar to that underway for biologically based alternative fuels. Searching for "growing wheat in the Desert", I was led to this prophecy of my children in 1972. I never understood, what little Ronnit's "wheat" had to do with my desert-vision. Now I "got it"!

HE is comforting Zion, is comforting all her ruins, and he sets her desert like Eden and her wilderness like His garden, joy and gladness shall be found there, thanksgiving , and the voice of singing. Isaiah 51,3 -listen to my 1991 song

January 23, 2014

At 8:00, the time of Immanuel's birth 51 years ago, I sent him an SMS:
Noladta! Barukh ha-Ba u-mevurakh ha-Qayam,
blessed-be the one who comes and blessed-be the one who exists.
After 12 hours of "No Server" I again put "wheat" in my Search for a test
and clicked blindly on one of the links.
This is the song that opened - a song transformed by me from mourning to jubilating-


to make me even more rejoice in Immanuel's existence:
"Did you see, in what whiteness blossoms the Khatzav?
The tears turn to water and irrigate the fields in autumn.
Did you see what became so golden there?
These arewheat fields that were forsaken in summer
but now they jubilee!"

From the edited Godchannel file "Heart"-I am awakening

"I close even the most subtle gaps I once turned from,
the little whispers of ... judgment around the edges.
....
I am becoming my wholeness.
For all of me to feel good and receive as Heart desires.
...
Come one and come all as we create together
the full healing of our Mother Earth
and its evolutionary will beings.
We make Heaven's Dream our manifest reality.
Blessed be us all.


psalm 126, s. my song


At 9:30 Gadi wrote, that he's still waiting impatiently for an answer. So am I!

And the last quote I allow myself here,
before using the few hours till traveling to Shoham
for enriching the presentation of my vision.

"..Our bodies bring us untold wealth.
They are really invaluable.
We are millionaires with our physical bodies,
yet, a lot of people don't seem to appreciate them.
We are not even aware that our feelings and emotions
are like a crop, such as wheat that can be harvested. .."..
[quoted from the Pleiades in K.i.s.s.-log March 24, 2008-2012]