I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
A
magnificent full rainbow
appeared above the barbed wire of the once deadly fence,
when 57 people from 8 nations crossed this gate to BirkenAU
on November 3, 2003.
Outside - under the birches, then bare and bleak, since
any leaf would be instantly eaten,
women and children were herded together before being sent
to the close gas-chambers.
Inside - the remnants of Crematorium IV, blown up by the
"Sonder-Kommando" in 1944.
It was at a time, when 400 000 Jews from Hungary were
exterminated within 2 months.
Those who were forced to do " the job " were
mostly Jews from Salonikae in Greece,
who started their life-span of three (!) months "fresh",
i.e. not yet emaciated by hunger. "If someone refused,
the head of his wife would be knocked into the fire and
burnt."
Witnessed and told to me today - 2003_11_28 - by Helena
Hammermesh~~ in Israel.
"We
were four women in the camp resistance,
Three of us worked in the ammunition factory.
It was the women, who were hanged,
for they had smuggled the materials
to the Sonder-Kommando
for making the bombs.
"Tell the world, Rachel, save Jewish dignity!
We were not sheep dragged to slaughter,
we were human and we were humane."
Already in 1986 I taped Helena's stories
about the small lights in the darkness,
resistance and support for each other,
self-respect and self-determination.
AU-schwitz-Birken-AU Retreat - November 2003_11_3-10
The
rainbow joins earth and sky ~ merges rain and sun,
and displays multiple, distinct colors of the ONE Light
!
It is the sign of the Covenant between YHWH and Noah,
that never again will there be intent to blot out humans.
But there was this intent! There still are such attempts! "God"
and Wo/Man need to heal, grow, evolve,
towards
aligning with the Rainbow Covenant.
My
research in ancient Jewish Thought
"Solidarity with the Sufferers"
is dedicated to three "NAMES" of the year 1943,
three people I never knew,
one was killed - my soldier father Siegfried Guth, 32
one was executed - the German rebel Sophie Scholl, 22
and one was murdered - the little poetess Eva Pikowa, 12: "No, no , my God! We want to live!
you must not dilute our ranks!
For a better morning we strive!
there will be so much work to do."
We were reading or chanting NAMES, at the "Selection Place"
or in the Children's Barrack.
Usually several people were reading at the same time, and the last
time all of us together.
We were given alphabetical lists by our coordinators, but some of
us brought their own lists.
I copied part of the list, which I was given, in
order to feel the persons behind the names.
I made Yanina, my friend, help me to pronounce the Polish names correctly.
When the date indicated, that the murdered person had been under 25,
I mentioned the age.
I focused on one name:
Kristin Mehrstein, from Lille in France, 8.11.43-24.2.44.
"Kristin" is similar to my own name "Christa".
She was born 3 months after my father was killed as a German (Nazi?)
soldier during the Allies' invasion to Sicily,
She was born on November 8, 60 years before this year's "Harmonic
Concordance",
a date which I intended to live even more fully than any other date
- in Harmeze - and I did... [If you don't know about this extraordinary
cosmic event, search for it on the Internet]
Kristin's life-span was three months.
I hope, Kristin, the baby, was murdered less cruelly than other babies.
Then I chanted the 36 names of my own LIST.
I was frustrated, that no one could hear my names, since others were
reading names too.
The purpose of the ceremony was not to feel into individual names.
A ceremony is always meant to uplift spirit and soul.
I am not sure, that this is what should be done in Birken-AU.
With the following sculptures I tried to do the work,
which I missed in those readings.
One of my "twin-brothers" since 17 years
is Moshe Klein
A pioneer of organic mathematics
and true e-ducation in his "Gan-Adam" "Kindergarden
of Man"
I had a chance to at least mention him several times in my pages about
my
work in Sinai
I asked him for a token contribution .
And this is, how I learnt about his family for the first time
MOSHE KLEIN
Mother Miriam Hoenig Miriam Klein, born Hoenig,
told me on the phone on Oct. 29, 2003:
"We were a family of nine and I am the ony survivor.
My brother Mendel Hoenig went
underground in Budapest, "survived",
went to Palestine, even married,
but then got killed by an electrical accident.
My brother Mordechai Hoenig came
with us to Auschwitz,
but was transferred to Bergenbelsen.
He too "survived", made it to Palestine, only to
die soon after.
My parents Moshe Hoenig and Sara
Hoenig and my three little sisters,
Sidi Hoenig, Shaindi Hoenig, Goldi Hoenig
were sent to the gaschambers.
To be near my sister Enia Hoenig,
I committed a crime,
I exchanged places with another girl in another block,
so that during the "Appel"l I could stand next to
my sister
and that girl next to hers.
They caught me and were about to kill me.
I said: "Go ahead, kill me,
Without my sister I don't want to live anyway."
They didn't kill me.
After the Nazis were gone,
we got hold of food and though we ate the same,
Enia died in my arms, while I survived.
From a "Block" of 1000, about 20 were still "alive",
but of these only four "survived" the "liberation".
"
Miriam thanked me again and
again for listening....
Father David Klein Moshe now helps his father,
age 81,
to write his story and sent me the draft
Occupation of Hungary -March 1944.
(The greatest number of Jews
murdered in Auschwitz were from Hungary:
400 000, four hundred thousands, were liquidated within two
months.)
In June 1944 David, then 22, falsified papers
to save his uncle Wilmush and his family.
They had been deported to another town and were without food.
He came 2 days too late:
they had been deported to Auschwitz.
In the end only Wilmush "survived".
From then on David and his brother Shaike worked underground
full time.
They succeeded in saving many Jews,
first with falsified papers,
and later in disguise of faschists,
But they could not save their parents:
Moshe and Hanna Klein could not believe their sons' information.
"The Germans would never do that".
They refused to falisfy papers.
They perished and so did their son Naftali Klein
and their daughter Nelli with her son Pinchas.
As to Nelli and Pinchas:
Shaike had rescued them from the Ghetto.
But when Nelli went to see her parents,
that very day the Nazis came to deport them all and kill them
all at Auschwitz.
As I said, my friend's father only now -60 years later - has
the strength to write his story.
Water, the element of feeling and healing,
misused to murder babies and toddlers...
While I've been working on this sculpture, an e-mail from Moshe to
his friends came in,
which had one purpose only: to share a painting, made by his daughter
Yuvâl (="river"),
who is to become 8 years old soon. [I
saw her on Ran Lichtner's wedding, May 11, 2009)
"How was it possible that you survived?"
I asked Yuval's and Gan's, her brother's, grandmother Miriam: "I was determined to stay alive - to bear
witness!"....
2004_10_12
Moshe will be going to Auschwitz in 2 weeks.
He made this poem:
In memory of my grandmothers Hannah and Sarah
and in memory of my grandfathers Moshe and Moshe
When you happen to pass by the Milky Way Galaxy,
somewhere next to the Solar System,
you should know
- but you will never understand -
that you are close to where Auschwitz was.
Moshe Klein - Israel - 2004_10_12
Gedalyahu Lybrock and Daniela Manne
Gadi
and his wife Efrat were my official partners
in the realization of my Desert Economy Vision and
much is written about Gadi.
Though his financial situation , too, is not much better than
mine, I begged...
He was "surprised", that I had forgotten, or never
realized,
that "the holocaust was one
of the leading threads in my life".
He wrote, he wished to participate in the retreat, but he didn't
have the money. "Maybe the time hasn't come
yet." Peace-Process w. Gadi/Efrat 2002 Is this true, Gadi-Gedalyahu, that the
time has not yet come
to cope with being the grandson and nephew of so many murdered
human beings?.
2 days ago I surprised them in their home at Mitzpe-Ramon, the
town near "Succah in the Desert". First only Efrat was there. I discovered,
that she knew nothing about my retreat in Auschwitz,
and nothing about our e-mail exchange about Gadi's murdered
uncles, aunts, grandparents.
I was deeply
shocked.
There it was again - the multiple monster called
Silence!
Gadi's father
lost all his family,
his parents Yuda Leibrock
and Miriam Leibrock,
his wife (name not known),
his daughter (name not known)
his elder sister, married,
who would have been Gadi's aunt Reizele
Katz,
and his younger sister,
who would have been Gadi's aunt Hanna
Libe Leibrock
and all the less direct family members. .. "Until his last day he felt guilty
for having been the only survivor of his family."
He had escaped to Russia at the beginning of the war,
fought in the Russian and Polish army
and was severely wounded 2 weeks before the end of the war,
while marching with the Russians against Berlin.
Gadi's mother
lost her sisters and her beloved brother Gedalyahu
Winzigster,
after whom Gadi is named: "I hated that name so much , that
I changed it officially,
but something told me, I should keep it at least as my second
name:
Gadi Gedalyahu."
Gedalyahu seems to have been a very special man. "He was one of the first to be deported
from the ghetto of Wilna to the extermination camp.
I would be grateful, if you would read his name: Gedalyahu
Wincigster, Auschwitz".
At the age of 25 that uncle was already a psychiatrist and doctor
of philosophy,
He had a close communist friend, who wanted to escape to Russia
before the war.
They felt they would never meet again and as a sign of a friendship
exchanged their names.
That is why it was "Serioja Wincigster" who got murdered
in Auschwitz.
So was his sister Ester Wincigster,
Gadi's aunt,
and his younger sister Rujca Wincigster.
also Gadi's aunt.
She was taken from Ghetto Wilna, like Gedalyahu and Ester,
but it is not known, where she was murdered.
Daniela Manne
Gadi also said in that e-mail: "In all the years, when our friend Daniela
was still alive,
she and I would share the experiences of the second generation.
Every year, on Holocaust Day, we would call each other
this was for us like 'a festival'."
Gadi (left), Efrat
(right), and Daniela (front, with her back),
at that time "Frequent Guests" of "Succah in
the Desert",
were the only non-team people who joined the Succah team
in a 6 day SURVIVAL TRAINING in the Judaean Desert in 1993.
Once Nir Gur, our trainer, (next to Efrat and in front of me)
approached me sadly: "Daniela feels exhausted and
wants to leave us." I pleaded with her, for I could
not let this happen,
if I wanted our Daniela to live some more years. [Oct.
7, 2009: Now Nir Gur himself has been found almost dead in the
wilderness]
I knew nothing
about the reason for her fatal sickness.
And though the help she needed took a toll on our men,
there was no doubt, that her soul's survival was at stake.
2 years later Daniela started to work as a hostess in "Succah
in the Desert"
and lived
in one of our pyramidal tents close to my own tent composition. Living in the desert, working
in the Succah,
her friendship with the other hosts
and healing meetings with me,
prolonged her survival for some more years.
Now, that I know
about her being "second generation of survivors",
now, that Gadi and Efrat gave me her father's book "Journey
to Memory"
dedicated to his daughter, who didn't live to see it printed,
now my question screams once more:
Why is it, that Moniek-Moshe Manne broke his silence
only after 55 years?
Why did Marian Kowodzieja need to attract a paralyzing stroke,
before he took a pen and painted the images of his memory?
Tamir Peleg Tamir,
my closest peace-partner,
though 33 years younger than I,
and who inherited my mobile home, [photos in and outside
of it, on January 1, 2003]
is the fifth and youngest son of Shim'on Peleg.
How miraculous, that Shim'on could create
such a closely knit, harmonious family
in the poor desert town Dimona in Israel.
For Stazek Polyshuk,
as he remembers his name,
is not even sure of his mother's name.
It might have been Genia Polyshuk.
Before the Auschwitz retreat
Shim'on responded to my quest,
and wrote me some short hesitant
Hebrew e-mails,
cut-off in the middle.
He was such a small kid, when some man in a long
coat came along to their home near a forest.
"It may have been Kobel, near Khaelaem."
The man took little Stazek, they walked for many hours and then drove
away in a car.
He delivered him to a place with hundreds and hundreds of children.
"The conditions there were very hard,
winter was at its peak , we had nothing to wear and eat the herbs
from the fields."
"The daily ritual began with shedding millions of lice into a
barrel with kerosine."
Then the Nazis came and stuffed the kids into an endless train.
It dragged along extremely slowly for days, maybe for weeks
Peasants in Ukrainan villages, who wanted to save Ukrainan children,
snatched him out of the window.
They wanted to adopt him as their son, brought him to "little
Sebibor" and gave him to eat.
But when they bathed him in the river, they saw, that he was circumcised.
"Zid! Zid!" they screamed.
A Jew? That's not what they wanted.
"I myself didn't know, what that was - a Jew."
They threw him into the cowshed.
"I was naked - for they didn't want to put their own clothes
on me.
This disgusted them, and if I touched anything that was their's, they
immediately hit me and threw the dress to the laundry or to the garbage.
God forbid, that they would give me something to dress."
Little Jewish Stazek tried to keep warm under the cows, in the dung..
And at night, when no one saw him, he secretly drank from their udders.
Shmuel Shaul
A new friend, who has the faculty to sense the message
of the earth,
and who pointed out the spot, where the pond of Noah's
Shore needs to be manifested.
When I asked him for a contribution, he responded: "With
all my heart",
and when I inquired, if he had a family connection to Auschwitz, he
said: "My grandfather was murdered.
I bear his name: Shmuel Shaul."
Samuel, the Israelite prophet, who was at odds with Saul, the first
Israelite king,
integrated into one name,
which in turn integrates the murdered grandfather with the living,
radiating son.
Ra'ayah Rosenzweig, my youngest son's
wife
In the year of my birth, 1938,
Ra'ayah's father Ben-Zion was 3 years old,
when his father, her grandfather, Yecheskel Landau, was killed,
not by the Nazis, but by terrorists in Palestine (.......!!!!).
Ben-Zion's mother Yente Weg remarried Naftali ?
While Yente and Naftali stayed alive in Palestine,
both there families where murdered in Auschwitz
Yente's
brothers and sisters, Ben-Zion's uncles and aunts:
Israel Yuda Weg, his wife Miriam and their daughters
Selda Weg, her husband Chaim Arie Baer and their children
Yitzchak Esra Weg
Guetel Henia Weg
Yecheskel,
Naftali's father
Chaya-Lea, Naftali's mother
Simcha Bonim, his brother, and family
Shraga, his brother, and family
Ester, his sister, and family
Baile, his sister, and family
And closest to my own children:
Greatgrandmother Elise Hahn She had 3 daughters.
The youngest, Ilse Strauss, went to Palestine right in 1933,
when her husband, a medical doctor, was fired like all Jewish doctors.
Gertrud, the middle daughter, followed in 1937.
Mother Hahn came to visit them in 1939,
but did not heed her daughters' pleading to stay with them.
She went back to Berlin....
The eldest daughter, Edith, Franz
Rosenzweig's widow, and her only son Rafael,
made it to Palestine just in time, with the last ship before the war.
Mother Hahn was deported to Theresienstadt, where she perished.
Her daughter Edith,
married to Franz
Rosenzweig,
with their son Rafael
Her grandson RafaelRosenzweig
with his son Immanuel,
born from a German woman
- Christa.
For
the sake of uniting
the Holy-One-Blessed-be-He and his Shekhina
(Divine Presence in female gender) to unite Y-H with W-H in complete/whole unity
in the name of all Israel and let's say: Amen.
These Aramaic
words are said
before blessing over the fulfillment of
certain kinds of commandments.
YHWH is the so-called name of God,
but is actually a verb: he who happens
