3h-2002_08

The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 26th day, August 11, 2002


my youngest sibling	my youngest child	my youngest grandson
	what made them coincide today urging my soul to seek sounds of sadness, but finding only sad silence ???

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2013

1ter it's "alarmin

The FELT days 103, 104, 105, 106 ~ of the next 15 FELT years

1 5 y e a r s = 5 4 8 0 days of
g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit",
f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity"
from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all]
The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013

On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness.
Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines

To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged"
in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2013-12-10-Arad-Mitzpe-Ramon- still 5381 days

Suddenly Razi came - to work out her confusion:
how to combine vocation with making-a-living.
All she told about her short life (22) seemed to designate her as "the first swallow that announces the spring" of my world-vision.
I'll now travel to Mitzpe-Ramon, with the prepared scroll for Avi. High excitation!

Song: ha-zor'im be-dim'ah [Ps 126 today!]

to feel better you have to get better at feeling..

no computer on this extra-ordinary day

11-12-13

(see below)
therefore no "7 felt lines"

2013-12-12-Thursday-still 5379 days

Storm outside - since 36 hours-
storm inside: the intended meetings with Gadi, his wife Efrat, their daughter Maya, also their sons Nimrod, Yuval, Amit (on the phone-he's the only carpenter in the army), The Dutch-Swiss band in Gadi's Jazz-Club. The unintended meetings with Itai Kenan and above all - with Yael Gavish. Also:the birth of Tamar's son in Berlin. My name: Yahel, Shining!

song: menorah ve-anfe zayit...shemen ve-or yahel

2013-12-13-Friday-still 5378 days
YOU gave me 5 chances to train how to verbally present what I'm meant to ignite. With Tzippi I vowed that I'll no longer tell stories about Avi, which make him look like a monster. Please let me complete the healing of the pain I attracted from him and let me find the clear phrasing of what all should learn from what has n o t worked .

Song: ani rotzah livkot, gam ha-shamayim

g", how un-"charming" I feel.
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continuation

How should I deliver my message to Avi Dror , if not by forcing him to face me?
"Through a desert scroll!" I was told.
On Monday, Dec.9, before I even knew, that I would go to Mitzpe-Ramon the next day,
I suddenly felt driven to find a canvas for the scroll in the treasures of my storage-corner.
There it was! and in it, same size, a map of Jordan in Arabic, bought by me in 1998 in Jordan.
I glued paper and map together, boiled onion skins in water and brushed this over the canvas,
so the scroll would look desert-like. The shades of my veranda-plants painted it, and then I left it,
not guessing, that the scribing itself and the delivery to Avi should not be done by me, but by Maya.
I completed the sculpture in the bus from Arad to Beersheva and from Beersheva to Mitzpe-Ramon.
The last line, which I wasn't content with, came to me after I voiced my frustration about it to Gadi:
"hayêe la-evolutia maqor" - "be for Evolution a source"

On Shabbat, December 28, 2013 - I myself delivered this scroll- graphically scribed by Maya - to the cabin of Abraham Dror .

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RECALLING experiences with the temporary model of my Desert Hosting Economy vision

On 11-12-13:
before I left my former partners' home, I photographed the "icons", which Gadi had brought to my attention:
the iron collapsible model, which inspired Ram Eisenberg while creating the pyramidal tent, as Gadi remembers;
tiny scales, which I gave them - says Gadi - after their son Amit's birth, announcing: he will balance your family,
and mainly an album for Gadi's 40th birthday, composed mostly of Gadi's Succah-photos, greatly enlarged.
One day - after the clearing of the desert wadi - this could be edited as a book in memory of a flawed model.

"Touching-not-touching" - the Succah tries
to not disturb, as if being aware of the fact,
that a long time after she will disappear,
everything around it will stay as it was."
How relevant is this sentence by Eyal Yezreeli,
who - among the 14 participants - helped me with the scorpion-bite
during our first and only "experiment" in July 1989,
and who later took beautiful black&white photos of the Succayah..

Present Time:
Amit, "the only carpenter in the Army", confirmed - via phone - that I'm to receive his creation,
for hanging up my stick and my coat at the entry to "my" one-room-flat, which belongs to Ofir.
When I pondered, where Ofir should install Amit's device, I cut that Succah-prospected in two,
so that only the desert and symbolic palmfronds would stay on the wall above my 1979 Yoga.

A beautiful composition - relevant for today:
Above: A closeup of the interior of the first tent, Ram's photo.
To the right: Dorothee from Germany helps me to sow the model tent
with electricity from the sun ---under the light of the full moon,
A photo by Ram Eisenberg.

Above this scene: Gadi's photo-
a pyramidal tent on desert earth amidst clouds that match it....

Elah, my eldest granddaughter,
outside "Eliezer", the succah,
where she had slept that night,
hugging Shiva, the bitch,
brought to the Succayah
by hostess Michal Dror,
against my will,
after my bitch Larqa was kidnapped.
In the background my bus.

Also in that album,
which I composed
shortly before I got
the inner message,
that I had to leave
Succah in the Desert,
together with my bus,
as well as
"the Company for Realizing Desert Resources".
Gadi and Efrat
were owners of a photo-studio,
in famous Shenkin-Street
in the center of Tel-Aviv.
It must have been there,
where I enlarged the photos.

Drawings by Elena,
a Jewish-German guest,
The desert,
as she viewed it
from her succah [Sarah?].
What is touching me now,
are the spaces
which I clearly identify
in the desert wadi,
where - in October 1989-
I felt
that I should "establish"
the model of a "temporary"
Desert Hosting Business.
These spaces
are shown by the artist
as virgin land.
Except for pathes
there is no sign
of human interference...

A prospectus
[probably of 1994]
[graphic edition by Immanuel, my son]:

Though it's Succah in the Desert,
which is advertised here,
the image shows a pyramidal tent!
And also the title points to the future:

TOURISM IN THE THIRD MILLENIUM

More and more city-people crave for

Re-creation for the soul
and creating for the heart
honor for the Earth
and a clean environment

Succah ba-Midbar

A vision about the integration
of Man and Nature

7 succahs dispersed in the landscape,
beautiful , with electricity from the sun,
invite guests to recreation of soul
and hosts to creating

Sometimes it's worthwhile
to BALANCE
the life in the city in the desert

versus noise - serenity
versus polution
- purity
versus pressure and routine
- creating
versus traffic congestion-
space

Why search this abroad?
We in Israel have
desert - and sun
that provides electricity
for everything

"Succah" in tradition:
a symbol of "walking in unsown land"
symbol for creating:
everyone builds a succah once a year

Chaim Weizmann in his autobiography "Trial and Error",
claims, that Zionism is not so much a call for a state,
but
"the great call for the creative powers of the Jewish people"

The work of/with the Adamah
and the work of/with the Adam

It is not by chance,
that "adam" and "adamah" come from one root

The Adam will womb the Adamah ("the environment')

only after he'll learn to womb himself.

For how will an Adam
who does not accept his feelings and his needs,

because in them there is pain or fear or so-called evil,

accept the needs of the Adamah?

The work of the Adamah demands the work of the Adam

See also in Nuri Al-Okbi,
what else I quoted from Chaim Weizmann's Autobiography
and adapted to my vision about
awakening the creative powers of the desert sons of Abraham.

And yet another quote from "Trial and Error" in Bio-Testimony 4

T'ruah: The Rabbinic Call for Human Rights --11-12-13
BREAKING NEWS: Bedouin Relocation Plan Suspended

Dear Christa-Rachel,
Prime Minister Netanyahu announced just a few hours ago that he is suspending the bill that would have forcibly relocated 30,000-40,000 Bedouin Israelis.

This announcement came just a few days after T'ruah rabbis delivered a letter from nearly 800 rabbinic and cantorial colleagues to the Israeli Embassy urging the withdrawal of this plan (the Prawer-Begin Plan and Bill on the Arrangement of Bedouin Settlement in the Negev).

This victory wouldn't have been possible without people like you, who hold Israel to the best of Jewish and human rights values.

Send an e-mail to Prime Minister Netanyahu thanking him for withdrawing the Prawer-Begin plan.

The struggle is not over. In the next few months, we expect new plans to emerge. We will continue to work with you to encourage the Israeli government to involve the Bedouin in the process of determining their future.......T'ruah's continued work in partnership with Bedouin communities.

-------Joshua Bloom Director of Israel Programs

I want to state here "for the record"
though not mention it in my presentation
for the time being:

the first step of Bedouin Self-Determination
could occur in this way:
the structure of mobile Hosting Enterprises in the Negev
will return the Bedouins
to their "Abraham-Vocation":

[see in Glimpses into the beginnings
of the conception, birth and raising
of my Desert Economy Vision
what Roibe said to me 25 years ago:
"Though he was absolutely opposed to my "project",
he liked the Biblical image of "Abraham, the desert host",

and as to those
who want to live in modern civilization,
they will
- after permission to stay where they are -
but now as "recognized villages" -
upgrade their settlements into little towns,
which will - among other economic targets -provide services
to the "Rihlaat" of Bedouins and "Ohalot" of Jews.

To office@truah - subject: The Future of Bedouins in the Negev

Shalom, Joshua Bloom, T'ruah: The Rabbinic Call for Human Rights --11-12-13 [I sent this answer only on Dec. 19]
BREAKING NEWS: Bedouin Relocation Plan

On the level of 'values' I am, of course, grateful for what you do.
But "Fighting for Rights" is not enough or may be even counterproductive
(reinforcing the + pole may reinforce the - pole!).

I was born a Christian German (1938) and became an Israeli Jew (1960-64),
In this biography my goal for Israel is implied....
The beginning of my "acting" in the exterior world culminated in
"Turning Enemies and Adversaries into Partners" (1974-1980).
Any partnership is based on 3 conditions:
Common Interest, Mutual Trust, Equality of Self-Respect.
My vision about "Desert Hosting Economy" (1998-2006)
has - as one (!) aspect - the goal to create these conditions.

After 7 years of dedicating myself mostly to healing the roots of what doesn't work on this planet,
[DENIAL, i.e. lack of self-acceptance, resulting from not knowing how to deal with -
- unhealed feelings, unfulfilled needs, hated qualities, feared greatness]
I'm again "called" to ignite the manifestation of a structure in the desert (Israel 60%, Palestine 40%),
which will be based on two scientific models of Desert SPS Hosting Enterprises.
These models show the principles of how to preserve what they want to sell:
SPS or Space, Purity, Silence, the treasures of the Desert [its "comparative advantage"],
so much yearned for in the cities with their crowdedness, pollution and noise .

The first model (since 1990), also a beta-site called "Succah in the Desert" near Mitzpe-Ramon,
has proven that it is possible to integrate Man and Nature, but it also has exposed its flaws:
the law of "temporariness" ['ara'iyut] needs to be replaced by the law of "mobility" [niyadut].

Indeed, the second model of a "Mobile Desert Hosting Business" (Ohalah/Rihlah/Pyramidion),
based on 12 pyramidal tents with a "mishkan" for 3 hosts, cooking, eating, meeting, teaching,
began to evolve already in 1992 with the invention and R&D of the tetrahedron pyramidal tent.
Yet my only "chance" to model this kind of business, was in Sinai in 1996, and only for a weeks.
Now, since November 2013, the time is ripe to clear-out the physical traces of the flawed model
and to accelerate a quantum-leap towards the INTEGRATION of MAN AND NATURE
-----------------------------------------------------who so far were enemies, but are meant to nurture each other
by manifesting an economic-educational structure all over the deserts of Israel and Palestine:
"Mobile SPS Hosting Enterprises" of mobile OWNERS, who will create & run them, sell/buy them,
to be authorized and controlled by the INPA (Israel's Nature and Park Authority).

This economic-educational structure in the desert will provide - among many things;
numerous "spaces for training dreamers" = the hosts, and as for the weeklong guests:
numerous spaces for experiencing - and from there - honoring - Nature on the one hand,
and for learning-healing-growing in soul, heart, body, mind on the other hand.
And , of course, - since this is your main concern right now-
it will show part of the Bedouins a way back to their culture of Abraham, the desert host,
which should be the interest of the Israeli, land-possessed, land-obsessed government.

I'm only in the beginning of the pregnancy with how this will evolve.
Hoping for your sincere interest, I'm asking you to open the page [this page!]
where I copied your "Breakthrough" joy.

Please publish my letter and if possible not with my name. It's absolutely vital,
that all the CREDIT for the scientific "temporary" model will be given to Avi Dror,
who has been the "guardian" (there is no owner!!!) of Succah-in-the-Desert for 15 years,
and that all the credit for the future scientific "mobile model" will be given to the INPA.

This is Aida, daughter-in-law
of my Bedouin friend Hamda,
appearing above the crest
across the first
(and last)
"Succah-in-the-Desert"
in the Zin-Wadi

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December 12, 2013

RECALLING experiences with the temporary model of my Desert Hosting Economy vision

From the second fragment of my Succah diary, about my "Pregnancy with a vision":

"From the beginning of November that year (1988), "Manpower" could not find a job for me. I utilized the time to write the first draft of the vision, or the "project", as I called it then more modestly - paying for the usage of a computer somewhere.

"At that time I did not believe, that I could realize this project myself, so I tried to "sell" it to the "Nature Reserves Authority", believing that they would be interested in my first motive behind the project, the integration of Man with Nature. Already on Dec. 12th I got an appointment with Uri Baidetz, then the General Director of this Authority. I knew, that he appreciated me ever since my appearance before the board of the "Israel Land Authority" in 1976, concerning my Bir'am Project.

"After that major "failure" in 1976 it took me another 4 years of intense "Partnership Work" to understand, that people are not able to turn adversaries into partners as long as they do not really believe in self-determination but continue to make themselves victims~~~

"It was then - by the end of 1980 - that I decided to retreat into my inner desert and find out, how I could work on the root of so many maladies: self-victimization!

"The Succah-Vision is
- beyond its more obvious aim of "Man's Integration with Nature" - the mature fruit
of this understanding:

"the Succah is a situation,
where I and other creative people train
in becoming masters of our lives.

"Though there was a real understanding on the part of Uri Baidetz, ---the "Nature Reserves Authority" stated later, that they had no interest in my idea, on the contrary, they were opposed to it, since "Man is unable to live with Nature harmoniously. Wherever Man is - Nature will be destroyed."

"One good result of this meeting was, that Baidetz sent me to Mitzpe-Ramon, and it was 3 days later, that I first made the aquaintance of the Negev-Heights, and its little desert-town - so far from any town or settlement.

"It would fill many pages to tell the many things that I learnt during those first 20 hours at Mitzpe-Ramon~~~

"I understood, why Baidetz had sent me to this town: exactly that week an affair had exploded which was to teach me a lesson: a ranger, Motti Shamir, had lived a lonely year at the Nature Reserve of the Lotz Cisterns, until more and more people of the hippie kind found out about the place, lived with him at his expense and slowly took over, to the extent that the ranger had to ask his bosses to help and drive his companions away. Since those guys had nowhere to go, they were actually camping in town, when I arrived, and the affair was the main issue in the talk of the many people I introduced myself to. The message was clear: "See, what is going to happen to you, if you pursue your idea of a place in the desert."

"I was extremely grateful to Uri Baidetz and to Motti Shamir: the warning saved me from making the dire experience myself. There will be a place in the desert for the hippi-kind too, but not as long as the germ of "Succah in the Desert" is still so vulnerable."

"The second most important experience at Mitzpe-Ramon was my encounter with Dan Rubin,
the "soul" of the Nature Reserves Authority and Uri Baidetz' friend.
During that meeting in Baidetz' Jerusalem office, he called his friend "Roibe" in, introduced me and said:

"Rachel is right, we should also offer possibilities "off the beaten track" for those hikers who want that."

"I then met Roibe again "by chance" at the house of Ezri and Hanni Alon,
two pillars in the Nature Reserves Authority,
and since then my challenging friends.
Though Roibe was absolutely opposed to my "project",
he liked the Biblical image of "Abraham, the desert host",
and, despite himself, he gave me two advices,
which were to become the only major alterations in the original vision:
" One succah at a site, as you envision, cannot work. There have to be at least ten succot."
( I decided upon seven).
"A five-year concession to the host of a succah would break your rule of temporariness,
because after 5 years a human being feels attached, settled and unwilling to move on."

"What would be an optimal period of functioning as a host?" I asked. "One year".
( I adopted this view-point as a guide-line.)

(To my deep distress I myself am still living in my bus
at the site of the first Succayah - against that adopted rule,
- I'll explain later, why the "child" still fails to walk without me ~~~)
This was written in winter 1992- two years before I finally managed to part.

"When I parted from "Roibe", I was happy to have found my match:
his thoughtful, wise opposition would have a fruitful effect on my own thinking.
But four weeks later he suddenly died - a man exactly my age ~~~

"On the day I learnt about this death
I was on one of my many study-tours during those 10 months of pregnancy with the Succah Vision.
This one was about "looking for natural sources of water in the Negev". ..."

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December 13, 2013 - Shalom Barbara
Again - you care for me, but you don't let me care for you.
At least you let me know that you are alive - though not HOW...

Yes the weather is terrible, - "my" garden and "my" veranda in shambles,
and inside "my" tiny castle it's cold, even when the electricity (stove!) works.
But a) this is nothing unusual in winter at Arad
b) who dares to complain on the background of the Philipinians' plight.

The hip-joint's repair has to wait till September 2014,
but I can better handle the pains and the movements.
Walking on asphalt etc. is difficult with my desert-stick,
so I try to cope with the inconvenience of buses (time-table, stations).
I still walk to the pool up and down through my "Wadi of Compassion" twice a day,
walking on desert-earth and climbing up and down
activates the sphincter-muscles...

On the level of soul, spirit, heart, mind I'm "called" once more,
- after 7 years of mostly dedicating myself
- to healing the roots of what does not work on this planet
- (because of DENIAL -i.e. lack of self-acceptance of -
- unhealed feelings, unfulfilled needs, hated qualities, feared greatness)
to manifest a quantum-leap towards the integration of Man and Nature,
- so far they were enemies,
but they are meant to be friends and nurture each other
by manifesting the structure all over the deserts of Israel and Palestine -
of "Mobile Hosting Enterprises" of "Temporary Owners"..

But don't worry! I'm not meant to "do" anything.
Even my name is meant to be "hidden".

Christa-Rachel, your ancient classmate....

[Meital, my landlady, brings me hot soup and a fresh bun
and then asks me to wait, so she can bring her i-phone
and put a photo on Facebook, showing the snow,
which - as yet - covers only other parts of Israel.
I cooperate with her need of being seen as a "tzaddiqah"]

Bamboo in snow- a photo by a friend of Ran Lichtner today:
I dream about Ran providing thousands of bamboo-pools for the future Pyramidions

Arnon and Ayelet, two of my 10 grandchildren, posted this un-Israeli scene....
I also came across fantastic snow-photos taken around Mitzpe-Ramon in Jan. 2008

Everywhere I find images which have to do with Succah in the Desert.
Before Ofir, my landlord, established the artwork of Amit Lybrock,
- next to the entry door, for my stick and my coat -
I removed the part of the text of that nice prospectus
and left only the scenery - above my Yoga-triptych of 1979...

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