The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]


I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 27th day, August 2002

 



The more I limit the occurence of exterior situations, the more intense become the situations I still allow to occur - consciously or subconsciously.
The simpliest situation unfolds its richness of past experiences, present understandings and future visions.


To balance all these overwhelming impressions, sensations, feelings,
I let Body do vigorous movements -
twice a day despite the summer heat:
running up the path to the figtree
after sunrise
and the still not completed path
to the nabouq tree after sunset,
and then doing hard "mens' labor",
sawing dead branches from the figtree
and - sawing thistles
and - worse -
wild asparagus
where the path should pass.

 

 


 

2 hours later it's "alarming

2013

1ter it's "alarmin

The FELT days 107, 108, 109, 110 ~ of the next 15 FELT years

1 5   y e a r s  = 5 4 8 0   days   of
g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e   Z e i t   "inmitten der Ewigkeit",
f e l t - f i l l e d   t i m e  "amidst eternity"
from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all]
The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013

On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness.
Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines

To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged"
in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2013-12-14-Shabbat- still 5377 days

Though my heart ached, for both, my son and my daughter-in-love, when it turned out, that - after a year of intense learning he did not pass the exams at the flight-simulator for becoming flight-captain - against what his instructors thought he deserved, I can see the "hammer":
Let not your multiple skills hide your vocation!

song: Everything is a gift - angel and satan
2013-12-15-Sunday- still 5376 days

2 main feelings:-I. did not react! Did he find it absurd that he should give up on the captain-carreer? I'm scared of seeing in k-v-r-nt =captain "k-v-r"=grave, but whenever the fright comes up, I pray "Let my 2 sons find their vocation!" b) I got the date of Tamar's birthing wrong! Is "Yahel", "my" name for him wrong,too?

song: ba-tzel sham omaedet agur ve-qoreet
2013-12-16-Monday- still 5375 days

Still no news from Maya that she delivered the scroll to Avi. Is my TRUSTING tested? Yes!
Grateful for the completion with my son! (below)
-For Arad & my home having been spared the Middle East's plight of storm, snow, cold!-for 71/2 hrs. sleep. -For a new kind of dreams- no "haespeqitis", but people's cocreating attitudes

song: ha-zor'im be-dim'ah (Psalm 126)

2013-12-17-Tuesday- still 5374 days
I still feel deserted by Maya! at night I even felt -what was delayed so far (or denied?) - that I felt not honored when she twice "had no time"
for being with me or taking serious what she promised herself: "I'll finish the poster today!"
-Will Avi receive my message in another way?

2013songs Oct. Nr.4: at, gali, bekhol mafri'a

 


-"

At the end of my consolation I added a song,
which last month I modified for myself,
[songs 2013, Nov.]
and which I sing every day.
Now I added some more modification,
so that it suits us both, Immanuel and me


Near Jerusalem - Arnon & Ayelet yesterday..
Suddenly I get a phone-call from Mika:
"Arnon's family and my family
are in a restaurant together.
I said to you that Ra'ayah is very sick,
but I confused her with Tova.
It's Tova (my stepson Joel's wife) who is sick!"
"I appreciate it very much, Mika,
that you wanted to get this right!"
The rest of the vivid talk was about snow!
At Shoham
there was only hail all over the cars.
But earlier, during Immanuel's talk with me
(not about my letter! He had not yet read it!)
he called her:
"Look at the mountains of Jerusalem,
they are all white!"
Now she said:
: "I heard you went out in the storm to the pool.
I in your place would not have done this!"
I, indeed, went out again today,
not in storm but in constant soft rain,
to bury the pictures of the Succayah
and to clean up the garbage from the Wadi.

 


History of the protection of Nature: Nature Reserves
Though there were Nature Reserves in the world before,
a paradigm shift happened in 1872 in the USA and in 1963 in Israel.
Now another paradigm shift will manifest:
It has to be learnt how to integrate Man and Nature,
and not so much "in school" or by "warnings through the media"
but
by hosting and being guests
in Mobile Desert Economy Enterprises.
Yellowstone National Park
How significant, that I - who has not traveled the world like other people of my kind - was granted to visit Yellowstone - in the company of my daughter's family- in 1995, and the only paper-memory I reserved is that of Yellowstone

Park creation
See also: Expeditions and the protection of Yellowstone (1869–1890)

In 1871, eleven years after his failed first effort, Ferdinand V. Hayden was finally able to make another attempt to explore the region. With government sponsorship, Hayden returned to Yellowstone region with a second, larger expedition, the Hayden Geological Survey of 1871. ...His report helped to convince the U.S. Congress to withdraw this region from public auction. On March 1, 1872, President Ulysses S. Grant signed The Act of Dedication[6] law that created Yellowstone National Park.

Hayden, while not the only person to have thought of creating a park in the Yellowstone region, was the park's first and most enthusiastic advocate.[25] He believed in "setting aside the area as a pleasure ground for the benefit and enjoyment of the people" and warned that there were those who would come and "make merchandise of these beautiful specimens".... the site should "be as free as the air or Water."...

Hayden and his 1871 party recognized that Yellowstone was a priceless treasure, which would become rarer with time. He wished for others to see and experience it as well. Eventually the railroads and, some time after that, the automobile would make that possible. The Park was not set aside strictly for ecological purposes; however, the designation "pleasure ground" was not an invitation to create an amusement park. Hayden imagined something akin to the scenic resorts and baths in England, Germany, and Switzerland.


THE ACT OF DEDICATION ...
Be it enacted by the Senate
and House of Representatives of the United States of America in Congress assembled,
That the tract of land in the Territories of Montana and Wyoming ... is hereby reserved and withdrawn
from   s e t t l e m e n t ,   o c c u p a n c y ,  or   s a l e
under the laws of the United States, and dedicated and set apart as a public park or pleasuring ground
for the benefit and enjoyment of the people;
and all persons who shall locate, or settle upon, or occupy the same or any part thereof, except as hereinafter provided,
shall be considered trespassers and removed there from ...
Approved March 1, 1872.

Nathaniel Langford was appointed as the park's first superintendent in 1872. He served for five years but was denied a salary, funding, and staff. Langford lacked the means to improve the land or properly protect the park, and without formal policy or regulations, he had few legal methods to enforce such protection. This left Yellowstone vulnerable to .......

The Act of DEdication was signed by:
JAMES G. BLAINE, Speaker of the House. SCHUYLER COLFAX, Vice-President of the United States and President of the Senate. ULYSSES S. GRANT, President of the United States.

There was considerable local opposition in the beginning
and no help whatsoever from the State,

And yet the paradigm began to spread not only in the USA, but all over the world.

In Egypt, for instance, there are 29 nature reserves which cover 12% of Egyptian land.

From "Yellowstone, The Story behind the Scenery", 8th printing 1994- I bought it there in 1995



Tzippi sent a link to building sustainable earthships -
I want to quote
what is relevant for the "new Man&Nature paradigm" in general

6) Freedom

With all of your basic needs provided for and NO bills each month, you’re free! You don’t have to work a job you hate just to survive. So you can focus your time on doing what you love, and bettering the world around you.

Imagine if the entire world was able to focus on doing extraordinary things instead of just making enough to get by. Imagine if even 10% of the world could do this. What would change?


10) Think Different

The most powerful thing Earthships do is force people to think differently about how we live. If housing can be this awesome, and be beneficial to the environment, then what else can we change? What else can become more simple, cheaper and better at the same time?

It’s time for us to re-think much of what we consider normal.
Though the Ohalot/Rihlaat are composed of tents,
these, too, need to balance heat or cold.
As much thought as I've given to this ever since I built my bus,
I see now, that others are advanced enough in their experimenting,
to take over,
and once the Ohalot/Rihlaat structures in the desert will manifest,
there will be multitudinous creators to solve problems like this one
or like having water, cooking, or what to do with unavoidable garbage.
(All the advices concerning composting and planting etc. are , of course, not valid in this case)

I found a passage in my Hebrew diary,
excerpted for the 50th birthday of Uri, my son-in-love,
who organized his family's and my experience with the Yellowstone park: p.70 - Sept. 1, 1995

About the visit in the Park itself, see those Hebrew excerpts from p. 105 onward


ing" I feel.
Contrary to my present

LETTING GO
of seven Succah paper-photos

There are four big photos
of how the Succayah was at my time,
i.e. from Pesach 1990 till October 1994
(the Abraham-Succah
seen on the first two pictures,
burnt down in 1998,
and Avi Dror rebuilt his own version.)

I began to talk to myself harshly:
"You want Avi to clear-off
all traces of human creation
in this wadi,
but you can't even let go of
your paper-photos,
and this though they have all been inserted
in your website long ago."

Finally I dressed warmly,
went out into the cold and endless rain,
down and up the "Wadi of Compassion"
to "the Grave of Grace"
 which I've been planting and watering
for about half a year,
after having brought soil from far away
to cover the year long cuttings
once carried from my garden,
and thrown above the stones,
with which I had filled the old army -pit
for more than a year.

Now I buried the Succah pictures there.



As to this picture of the interior
of the Abraham Succah,
I see the couch outside on the veranda,
in front of the table.
It's there where I sat, trying to device a tent for meetings and workshops,
when suddenly Ram Eisenberg entered,
it must have been in February 1992,
re-sent - almost by force - by Idit Eisen,
the partner of Gordon,
who had created the stained window
[s. further below]
I had to evict him sometime in 1991,
and I would have to evict him again in 1992,
[still not having learnt to not let him override me]
but now he was there, looking at my designs
and said:: "No, not like this! - Like this!"
taking 6 matches
and modeling a pyramidal tent....
"Wait!" I ran to my bus around the hill,
grabbing Elisabeth Haich's "Initiation"...
Read: "Invention of the Pyramidal Tent".

This is one of my favorite pictures:
In the foreground
the first-built cabin for hosts:
Hagar, later called Keturah
(Abraham's wife after Sarah's death).
It's where I lived for half a year myself,
until I yielded it to Renata,
our great carpentress,
and moved back to my bus around the hill.
In the middle, a bit to the left,
the second generation of
"the Tent of Appointment",
further up across the wadi
the first-built Succah - Rivka (Rebecca)
(the first was actually at the foot of
"The Hill of the Angels' Flight",
but it flew away after a month
in a winter-storm like we have it today)

Even one of the pyramidal tents is there,
I wonder for what temporary purpose,
and of course, some of the paths I made.
Towering over all this is the mountain,
which I came to call "Mount Lekh-Lekhâ",
It almost hovers over the Makhtesh-Ramon
(not visible here
and in fact half an hour walk from the Succah Wadi)
The book I took from the shelf on this Shabbat morning, was the Qur'an in German, I opened blindly, as usual,
and detected - in Sura 21, The Prophets, verse 71 - the Qur'an's version of the biblical prophecy for Abraham:
"be thou a blessing for all the families of the earth": Gen. 12:3 and photographed it in my Arabic-English edition.
What is missing in the Qur'an version is the command "Lekh-Lekhâ" , with which "everything began"...
", ho
w un
This picture was stuck to my fridge for 9 years. It shows a human and an animal outside a cabin, often used as a succah for guests, if the rule of 12 guests is not followed.
- my eldest granddaughter, Elah, the bitch Shiva
and the cabin Eliezer, (named after the servant of Abraham).
The view is into the opposite direction of the picture above: -towards the Abraham Succah and the Esau cabin and the storage room and the shower-hexagon, all three built by the three men among my children and children-in-law.


I can discern also the bell-triangle and the new Hagar cabin on the soft ridge with the water-tank, and I imagine my bus on its other side.
An outstanding characteristic of both, the Succahs and the Cabins were (and as for now still are!) the palmfronds,
See them on Eliezer, the cabin, as well as on "Leah" , the succah, and - a rare moment - spread out on the ground,
after they were gathered, prepared and brought - by myself or by members of the team from the southern Aravah.
In the Ohalot/Rihlaat there will be neither need nor use for palmfronds, - this will be something I'll miss.

The next day I also buried the "Succah Blessing", created by an anonymous guest in the Rachel-Succah






 

 

rinc

December 15, 2013 - Schalom, Tamar

Dass ich mich im Datum getaeuscht habe, verstehe ich nicht,
also taeusche ich mich vielleicht auch in dem Namen.
Zieh dies in Betracht bei allem was ich jetzt - sehr assertiv - sagen werde...
Allerdings sind es immer noch dreimal 1 in dem Datum 10-12-13

An der - alten - Stelle in meiner Seele, wo ich mir noch Sorgen mache,
wenn etwas nicht so passiert, wie ich es mir vorstelle, war ich besorgt:
"Der Name gefaellt ihnen nicht", als ob es m e i n e Sache waere,
welchen Namen Euer Kind durch meinen Resonanzboden hat laut werden lassen.
Denn das bin ich - wann immer ich im tiefen Gespraech mit einem Menschen rede.
Der Resonanzboden der "Geige" des andern..
Wir alle sind die Schoepfer unsres Dramas, laden unsre Mitspieler ein , usw.
Und also hat das Kind seinen Namen durch mich wissen lassen.
Die andre Sorge ist schon mehr die meine,
naemlich dass Du Nach-Geburtsschwierigkeiten hast,
aber da sind ja Menschen um Dich,
die naeher sind und auch mehr Wissen und Erfahrung haben.

"Weil er aus der Bibel ist", da ist der Grossvater ja schlimm "getriggert" !
"A trigger comes to point out a hole in our wholeness that wants to heal".
Beobachte die drei h's in dem Satz,
obwohl alle 3 Woerter etymologisch nichts miteinander zu tun haben.
"er fühlt sich durch seinen Namen irgendwie angekettet", sagt Martin,
das zeigt ja ein altes und sehr tiefes "Loch".

Yahel/Jahel ist kein Name in der Bibel, sondern ein Verb, das nur 2mal vorkommt
In Jesaja 13:20 ist es eine Variante von "er wird zelten",
und nur in dem Hiobvers (31,26) bedeutet es: "er leuchtet".
Nachdem ich Deinen Brief - noch im Nachthemd - gelesen hatte,
ging ich erstmal zu meinem Regal (um mein Bett herum),
um mir das fuer heute bestimmte Buch herauszunehmen.
Ich musste es gar nicht - blind - aufmachen
(und als ich es spaeter tat, war da nichts Relevantes),
denn auf dem Umschlag stand gross der Name Rahel und "stach" mir ins Auge,
(Titel: "Rahel Varnhagen, Die grosse Frauengestalt der deutschen Romantik")
Also Rachel (hinten betont, als ob es einer der vielen Namen mit 'el (Gott) waere,
wie Rafael, Gabriel, Immanuel, aber eben "auf deutsch" Rahel, reimend auf Yahel.

Dabei fiel mir zum ersten mal auf, dass indirekt - nicht etymologish -
der "Name" YHWH oder auf deutsch JHWH - in Jahel/Yahel vorborgen ist.
"ja' oder "yah" wie in Hallelu-ja oder Hallelu-Yah.
Ich versuche Dir jetzt zu erklaeren, was Deine Eltern vor 26 Jahren bei mir gelernt haben:
die Buchstaben yod-he-wav-he sind eigentlich ein Verb: er war/ist/wird sein
(in der Bibel ist oft kein Unterschied zwischen Vergangenheit, Gegenwart und Zukunft,
was ja der Wirklichkeit entspricht, -
denn ausser in unsrer 'linearen' Vorstellungs-und Lebensweise gibt es ja keine Zeit).
Da man - sinnvollerweise - YHWH nicht aussprechen soll, auch gar nicht kann,
denn es fehlen die Vokale [die als Punkte unter den Konsonanten erscheinen]
sagt man, wenn es nicht anders geht, 'adonai, also Herr auf deutsch, Lord auf english.
Fuer mich geht das nicht an, denn 'Gott' will kein "Herr" sein, sondern Partner.
Buber-Rosenzweig haben - genial - das Personalpronomen dafuer eingesetzt,
also Ich, Du, Er - Mich, Dich, Ihn, z.B. "Zeit ist's zu tun fuer DICH" [Ps 116, 126]
Ich selber habe [von den religioesen Juden]
das ebenfalls geniale "Ha-Shem" = der Name, also der Name aller Namen, adoptiert ,
wenn ich einen Bibelvers mit YHWH zitiere, z.B. einen meiner Lieblingsverse:
"an jenem Tag .... wird YHWH sein Eins, und sein Name Eins" (Sacharia 14,9)
Wenn man in Israel YHWH schriftlich zitiert, schreibt man immer nur H',
also den Buchstaben "he" mit einem Apostroph, so als wolltest Du Tamar abkuerzen: T.
Verzeih, wenn ich Dich jetzt ueberflutet habe.

Ich finde Jahel auch schoener als Yahel, wegen des deutschen "Ja" darin.
Aber die spanische Aussprache?
Ihr koennt ja jeweils die eine oder die andre Schreibweise benutzen,
nur in der Identitaetskarte muss natuerlich eine Entscheidung getroffen werden.

Die "spirituelle" Tante: sie muesste eine Erklaerung geben,
sonst kann es ja ihr persoenliches Gefuehl sein oder vielleicht ist auch sie 'getriggert".

Warum Martin Jael/Yael dem Jahel/Yael vorzieht, hast Du nicht geschrieben.
Jael ist "Steinbock" (lateinisch: capra), und maennlich,
ein weibliches Tier wuerde Je'elah genannt werden.
Ihr koenntet Euer Kind also durchaus Jael nennen,
wie gesagt, in Israel gibt es viele Namen, die sowohl maennlich als weiblich sind,
allerdings nicht Jael.
Die gesprochene Silbe 'el in Jael hat - wie in Jahel - nichts mit 'el - Gott zu tun,
und wenn ich es mit Ya'el transcribiere, also mit einem Apostroph,
so weil nach dem jod/Yod ein 'Ayin kommt, ein gutturaler Laut,
den es in den indogermanischen Sprachen nicht gibt.
In diesem Fall verhindert das 'Ayin, dass die Vokale des Wortes,
zusammengeschmiert werden. Also man muss sagen: Ya-el.


Tamar's parents had been my pupils, not yet married then,
when I was a guest-lecturer in Judaism at Berlin in winter 1986-87.
In October 1987 they came to visit me and Israel,
and Utz, who had a truck-license,
helped me drive my bus down the road to the Dead Sea and to the Aravah,
After a night together at a ? -Ov, we parted.
Utz and Margret went off to walk through the desert.
It's there where Utz met this impressive, almost falling, rock....
while I drove up to Neve-Zin, where I stayed for 3 weeks, not yet finding al-one-ness...
until Mimi took me down to a Nakhal Karkeshet,
where during 3 weeks I met only 2 Bedouins, one on a camel and one on a motorbike.
It was during those Forty Days, that I fell in love with the DESERT....


Normalerweise, wenn ein Name mit 'el endet, dann steht "alef-lamed", also Gabri-El
Wenn im Hebraeischen von "Gott" gesprochen wird, heisst es "ELOHIM",
eine Erweiterung der Mehrzahl elim=Goetter durch ein "H".
Die Erweiterung eines Namens durch das "goettliche" H ist auch in Abraham,
der zunaechst Abram hiess.

"Mama findet es bemerkenswert, was ein "H" alles bewegen kann." -
Wie Du siehst, mit Recht!

Ich freue mich, dass Yahel/Jahel soviel Kommunikation in den Familien "bewegt".
Und gewiss findet Ihr noch den kolumbianisch/indianischen Zweitnamen,
den Euer Kind schon jenseits von Zeit und Raum gewaehlt hat....

In diesen Tagen ist mir ein Photo Deines Vaters in die Haende gekommen.
Mich weist es auf Worte hin, der auch in einem Lied von mir vorkommen:
"wie Wasserborne in Duerre,
wie der Schatten eines maechtigen Felsens
in ermattetem Land".[Jes. 32,2]

Nun hoffe ich, dass dieser "schwere" Brief kein Felsen fuer Dich ist,
und dass Ihr bald Gewissheit ueber den Namens Eures Kindes bekommt.
Rachel



Also on Dec. 15, 2013 - Immanuel DID respond to my letter yesterday (s. above)

Imma   


Driving Backward to my story with Avi - excerpts

In November 1999 I was forbidden to be a paying guest in Succah in the Desert [s."Succah-Stages" VIII]:

What had happened, needed to happen:
the total, though temporary separation was necessary for all of us to grow.
And ~~~~~ it was then, ~~~~~~ that it dawned upon me,
that a succayah wasn't the optimal model of an economic structure in the desert.
It was TOO permanent. The future would lie in the mobile pyramidal tents, I felt.

........
On April 15, 2002 I came with Jonathan, my daughter's eldest son,
to celebrate his 11th birthday as well as my and my son's immigration to Israel in 1964

I had planned to take Jonathan for a hike and walk MY path to the Alpacca-Farm.
......
When we came back, we found Avi ---- ready to communicate.

Suddenly there was a moment of grace.
Avi told me the secret of his being here.
....

Once upon a time, or to be exact, 2100 years ago
there was a great culture in the Negev,
which was the desert of Israel then
and again is the desert of Israel now.
.....
North of the Ramon-Crater there ruled a local king , today Avraham Dror,
inspired/adviced by his oracle, today Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam or Maryam

See about our journey to Khirbet Tzura-April 2003
To internalize that "the kingdom was not lost a second time" ,
we made another, deeper journey into the past, to Khirbet Tzura and Tel-Godêd.
What Avi told me about this place, resounded in me:
"There in the desert we were attacked by some enemy and while I was dying,
I asked you to flee with the rest of the people to this place.
They were relatives-by marriage, and they welcomed you,
but you felt in exile and could never be really happy again."

See this story also in K.i.s.s.-log 2008-12-03
with this picture of Avi:

 

 

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Dec. 16, 2013 - Since the seven buried photos - together with the Mika compositions - fill the space of this page,
I'll not create any new sculpture today and tomorrow, but deepen the learning of the first month of my pregnancy.
It was on Nov. 21, ,2013 that I used this term for the first time, but the "conception" occurred already on Nov. 15.
Dec. 17: "not create any new sculpture?" See how I "used" the free space at the end of timeline 3b!

new:

not I have to convey the ecological-educational-economic concept
"Adam-Adamah"
to Sha'ul Goldstein,
the director of the Israel Nature and Parks Authority - INPA
but someone else, or much better two someone elses!
Always work as a duo, like the ancient rabbis,
so they can challenge as well as support each other.
new:

the INPA [together with the SPNI- the Protection of Nature Society, a huge NGO]
must challenge Israel's paradigm of "fire-zones",
according to Wikipedia one third of Israel, according to the Scouts' website: 80%
[some of those are also Nature Reserves, but, of course, not freely accessable]
which in the digital era are no longer needed to that extent for training armies.
They should start with one specific spot, at the border of a "fire-zone",
the [unknown] ancient Nabatean town, and declare it "A Free Nature Reserve".
Or with "Nakhal Kabir", where I had my great tent-experience in May 1992!

continuation

order "to be helpful",e more honest, - 2 hours later it's "alarming", how I feel.
Contrary to my present principle of not initiating anything,
I made a phonecall in order "to be helpful",
or, to be more honest, - to appease a faint feeling of guilt.
When I realized that my voice was hoarse and my speech messy.
I brought the interaction to a swift end,
but it's still alarming how uncharming I feel.
I asked for a helpful word from Godchannel and got this:

and my speech messy.
I brought the interaction to a swift end,
but it's still alarming how uncharming I feel.
I asked for a helpful word from Godchannel and got this: