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The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

K.I.S.S. - L O G 2 0 0 8
Keep It Simple Sweetheart

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7		"AZ NIDBERU" - My new Midrash and song in 5 languages about the prophecy of Malachi 3, 16 ["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The Name]
1 2 3	How Learn And	I The Train	Heal Conditions In	Myself For Creating	Into Heaven Those	Whole On Conditions	Self-acceptance Earth Daily	Click!	Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other, and he listens and he hears yatakaalamuna allathina yarau'na-hu , va-yusri va-yasma' Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander, und er lauscht und er hoert Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre il entends, il ecoute

It seems that I chose 26 actors for my life's drama and those 26 actors chose me! One common trait of all roles is "mutual dependency" between them and me.
With 16 actors - my family - the mutual dependency is life-long! With my landlords at Arad & with my 6 starchildren, born between 1986-88, it may be temporary.
My children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha; my children-in-love: Efrat, Uri, Ra'ayah; my 10 grandchildren [born 1987-2005): Elah-Alon-Tomer-Mika; Jonathan-Rotem-Yael-Itamar; Arnon-Ayelet
My landlords: Ofir & Meital+ Lior (2002) & Amit (2005). My starchildren: Lior Oren, Zipi Winkler , Dina Strat , Meshi Taib, Gal Mor, Boris Arons [26=YHWH=13+13=ahavah+ahavah =LOVE!]

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2008
December 26
Kislev 29

Friday Chanuka

at

Arad

Em-
body-
ing
New
Heart

Actions:
To the pool once,climbing up and down the Wadi of Compassion
Walk to the eastern hills
At home, at about 18:00
"no computer anymore"

Interactions: with Lior Oren and Rotem, also with Boris
Evening: trigger: "Rotem, what have you done on my computer". Rotem was badly triggered back - This led us to deep work on her huge hole: "You accept me only where I am similar to you!"

Parting from
my obsession
to complete
this page---
on December 31

"God" is the lights and the shades

The FOCUS of MY INTENTION on the fifth day of Chanuka:
I desire to heighten the of the "Chanuka-gift":

It is the SKILL-to-FEEL which is heralding "Humanity's Awakening ",
Yes! the S K I L L - t o - F E E L I S "Humanity's Awakening" !

Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear...
and your light will rise in the darkness,
and your gloom will become like the noonday.

HOW do I apply this SKILL-to-FEEL now, at Arad, at 10:59
[The following passage could not be corrected until Dec. 31 and will stay here uncompleted]
I embrace my tiredness and feelings of being stressed
(so many technical things had to be done and ordered,
which is no problem when I am alone, but becomes a problem, when I project on Lior and Rotem,
that they expect from me to be available, and though I succeeded in responding to their desire to help me, I wasn't "at ease":
Lior: "Everything is a project for you",
"Lior, this triggers me, for - if not for my back-pain,
it wouldn't be a "project" to tidy up the veranda - still packed together for fear of rain, though I'm back at Arad already 2 days,
and totally messed up by the sandstorm, nor ordering the mattresses and blankets of the three of us in one small room,
nor washing our salty clothes, spread with fine gravel , and managing with the washing-machine, which always makes problem,
nor going to the pool to make it easier for my back,
and yes going to the grocery and buy things and ingredients, which I would never buy for myself,

I embrace my ambivalence: wanting to be together with Rotem and Lior, but also wanting to be al-one with K.is.s.-Log.
I neither judge these feelings nor try to change what seems to cause them
but feel them "with all my heart and all my soul and all my grate-full-ness" [Shma YIsrael: Deut. 6:5]
vibrate Body and ~~~ laugh

for "once the pain is cleared, Laughter is the final stage of Healing"..

Lior and Rotem in the sulphor pond

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to you
[no time for details, and then no computer]

Song of the Day - Dedicated to my Starchildren

She - a ray of the sun, He - a wave of the sea,
colors of the one light are all of them,
unique , each one separately,
individuals, yet together, all of us are one.
[in Hebrew the words:
unique~~~ individuals~~~ together~~ one
have a common source:
yakhid-be-mino~~~yekhidim~~~ yakhad~~~ aekhad]

I am parental, never a victim,
in my drama you are just an actor!
I, too, fulfil tasks in yours!
Great we are even when we fear,
all of us are learning!

To learn to love myself, is respectable,
only thus can I cause another to love himself,
to love himself with all his heart,
[when] whole in his soul, he'll [also] love his fellow

Boris comes for a few hours.
All three want a lesson in Bible
from me...
So we go inside to the computer,
which at that hour still worked.

(no time to report)

Boris has to go and wants us to accompany him on our way into the desert.
But before I too climb down the little very steep slope to the Wadi of Compassion,
I change my mind:
for once - unlike on my almost fatal pilgrimage in the Pyrenees - I act responsibly:
"We have to choose an easy track because of my back-pain".
So the girls part from Boris and come back to me.
We turn to the east.

At the eastern outskirts of Arad we get a glimpse of the Dead Sea and are excited

I intend to walk to the observation point,
which I remember from the Full-Moon-Full-Fill-ment with the Quartet in August 2007,
but suddenly I see the top of a very strange tree standing out against sky and desert.
We approach it and understand that it is a memorial for someone.
Later we ask a hiker or jogger and he tells us:
"This spot - and the one you see over there - was established by the parents of a boy,
who disappeared in one of the pits at the Lotz Cisterns, while his girlfriend was watching."
I was shocked: "It was at the Lotz Cisterns, where I first wanted to realize 'Succah in the Desert'!"

I now (2009_01_01) found a report on the drowning of Offer Gorni in April 2002...

Further down, further east we discover that bigger spot
- with trees, pretty rocks and this stanza of a poem by Natan Altermann.
I never read or heard it , but I'll put it in music,
"if and when time will be ripe".
See the lyrics , and see and hear a video, which is good,
but I would still like to adapt my own tune to the words
which are expressing so much of what I experience.
[I discovered another video by the same singer: "To love yourself"
which shows the despair of a girl who suffers from Bulimia....]