The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!" Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013 and Overview of its main libraries [If you look for a word on this page, click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"] I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

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May 9, Friday, - at Arad - Yael's 12th Birthday [see on May 11]
re-edited on May 9, 2013, at Arad

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MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may! 8:00 I desire to digest and assimilate the uncountable feelings, also the new info and old memories, which almost crashed me in these 2 days of exposing myself to my identification with Israel, though I balanced the "input" via TV with"output" on Kisslog + pool+garden+cleaning my Wadi. I desire to bring this overstimulating season (from Pesach to Independence) to a closure today.

image of the day: an erronous click when I photographed "Rachel at the Piano"

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today 9:04 My Body, my Partner, my God I give thanks to the inconceivable orchestration of all your systems, especially how the intake of air, water, light, food from the outside world as well as the movement of your limbs, joints and sinews during the day and the sleep and rest of consciousness during the night, spur the smooth , synchronized functioning of all the systems, lungs, heart, blood, hormons, skin and so many, many more. I am grate-full for my full-filled al-one-ness all day long till an hour past midnight. I am grate-full to the uncountable people, who have worked and created on the Israeli TV channel 1 and 2, so that "Israel" could come into my castle the way I chose, without me having to go out and meet only casual aspects of "Israel". I'm grate-full to the people who cared for uninterrupted electricity supply. I am grate-full for my camera, my computer, the Internet, which all let me catch the fleeting "input" and add it to the treasures in my sparkling memory-mind and my receptive, compassionate heart, I'm grate-full for having been pushed to open 3 SAT at 23:30 and meet Franz Werfel's novel about 1936 -as the closure of the day

 

My old piano returns home - this (damaged picture) was painted by Mona Yahia during the years 1980-1985 in Ramat-Gan.

I had just completed my altar (except for "image of the day"), and was just about to leave for the morning-pool, when I got a skype-call from Immanuel: "Well, the mountain of the house (har-ha-bayit = the Temple Mountain) is in our hands! ~~~~~ the piano!" He had let it be transported from the cellar of his ex-wife in Tel-Aviv, after having decided to risk, that it perhaps can no longer be restored. He has two experts in mind, who will give their opinion and do the repair. He doesn't yet know to whom to give the electronic piano, which I bought in 1999 for the "Concrete Succah" at Ein-Gedi Fieldschool, and which - when I was evicted from there - moved to Immanuel's. It has been used and overused by his sons and I deemed it as beyond repair. "I want to save for a new piano-keyboard, not only for your children, but also for Yael (clarinet) and Arnon (piano), so they can play together here." He stressed several times, that this was not his priority. And now see! - my intention was fulfilled beyond any wishful thinking! My old piano returned home! A little history? When I married and immigrated to Israel with Immanuel, then aged 1 1/4, there was no question about even asking my husband to buy a piano. It took me 10 years to gather the courage and determination to ask for it. I don't remember, how the info about this old Russian piano reached me. It wasn't very expensive, so my husband finally agreed. I didn't use it as much as one part in me wanted to, - since I was constantly "trapping my Will" with "I should be doing something more important" , i.e. fulfilling my "vocation". But whenever "water reached the soul", as we say in Hebrew, i.e. I was about to drown in pain, frustration, powerlessness, depression, I would sit at the piano, open Mendelssohn's Elias, sing and cry.... After Rafael and I had parted (how simple this sounds) and sold the house at Ramat-Hadar at the ridiculous price of 120000$ (it was a time of economic depression in Israel), Rafael chose from the interior what suited him and left the terrible job of clearing the rest to me. Immanuel (then exactly 18 years old) and I managed somehow. to transport the piano to the house at Bethel-St. in Ramat-Gan. But to carry it up to my rented flat on second floor was impossible. We had to summon a porter, which cost us 10000 Israeli Pounds (inflation!). When I moved into my bus and "Bethel" was dismantled, the piano went with Ronnit and Uri to their first flat, since Micha, the only one who had learnt piano, lived with them at that time. and then it moved to Immanuel&Ruth through at least 15 different flats, and then, when this couple separated, it moved with Ruth through 3 flats, and now it has come home to ... Mika... and us.... [addition in 2013: It was on Mika's 7th birthday, 2012-12-20, that she started with official piano lessons]

In this skype-talk Immanuel also told me about T. and a new chain of dire dramas,
"you can imagine what this does to Efrat and the prospect that T. will move in with us."
He hopes, that the coming Shabbat together - together with Mika - will heal something.
"Let's ask Mika to cooperate", I said, meaning Mika's Higher Self.
The same meant Immanuel, when he responded: "Mika doesn't need to be asked!"
To reinforce what Mika "knows" and can accomplish, I'll insert the 3 images of March 15,
which I chose - "by chance" - when I had a look at Immanuel's archive lately:

 

 

 

It was, as if 3 SAT had been in sync with Israel's calendar,
when it put the second part of Werfel's filmed novel on its program
at the end of the days of Memorial and Independence..
I hadn't seen a relevant movie or any movie at all for at least 2 months, and now this!
Eine blassblaue Frauenschrift Fernsehfilm von Kurt Rittig
nach der gleichnamigen Novelle von Franz Werfel,
As to the background - despite my thorough knowledge of that time-period in Germany,
I knew nothing about Austria in 1936, i.e. the years before the "Anschluss" (annexation),
nor about pre-war faschism in Italy and the collaboration between Italy and Austria.
But the way the story of the inner process of the central character was told in the movie
- and obviously in the original novel - was moving me beyond expression.
It is through such a closeup and finetuning
that some aspects of the possibility of a holocaust can be grasped.

 

 

 

song of the day One of the first Zionist songs: Much peace will grow from my country....

 

Continuation of the TV images of Independence Day on May 8, which I let enter my feelings and mind,

I didn't see Mercury next to the moon, but maybe this constellation occurred only once - i.e. 2 days ago as promised, and then I missed it.
Also it wasn't the moon of Iyyar 5, the official day of the Declaration of the State of Israel in 1948, but 2 days before Shabbat!
In any case the street lamp through my pomegranate tree and the small sickle of the moon above was a sight worth to be seen!

Despite being immersed in singing and learning songs on my way to the pool, twice to and fro, suddenly a spot of beauty strikes me and catches my whole attention - like these two!

 

Dalia Itzik, the Speaker of the Knesset. I liked her speech,
but the random quotes I found on the Internet,
are distorting the message she conveyed, as I understood it.

 

The 12 torches symbolizing the 12 tribes of Israel

Above the stage of the celebration:
"And the city streets will be filled with boys and girls playing in her streets."
Zecharia 8:4-5

I was grate-full for the balance in the speech of Dalia Itzik , the Speaker of the Knesset, despite the harsh criticism in "Ha-aretz". If we do not see the wondrous achievements of this State, we will not have the strength to become parental to its faults.

For the first time each torch was lit by two people,
a grownup and a child or youth.
I connected it with the last verse of the prophet Maleachi,
which is the last verse of all the prophets in the Hebrew Bible,
and in its translations - the last verse of the "Old Testament",
"See, I will send you the prophet Elijah before that great and dreadful day of the LORD comes.
He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their children,
and the hearts of the children to their fathers;
or else I will come and strike the land with a curse."
2013- see the song which got birthed with this verse of Zecharia 8:4-5 and expanded in time

Dr. Erika Landau, who has been working for 40 years now to educate generations of gifted and talented children to lead in all areas of life. She lit the torch with Zurarish Weba, 18, who is about to join the IDF and is active among youths who immigrated to Israel from Ethiopia.

Rabbi Yitzhak David Grossman, founder of the Migdal Ohr education network, which is active in the fields of education, welfare, aiding children at risk, immigrant absorption and bringing people closer together. He lit the torch with Tamir Abukasis, 13.5, an eight-grader at the Bnei Akiva yeshiva, who escaped a Qassam rocket attack in Sderot but lost his sister Ella who protected him with her body. {I thought, the following image showed these too, but in the meantime - May 15 - some of the torch-bearers appeared on an English site, and the 12th pair - missing in the Hebrew list - above, suits this image better:

Dr. Yitzhak Kadman, CEO of the National Council for the Child, which engages in a variety of activities for the sake of Israel's children. He lit the torch with eight-year-old Niv Caspi, a resident of Kibbutz Kerem Shalom near the Gaza Strip.

Sana Elbaz, the daughter of a Bedouin family from Tel Sheva and the head of the first of its kind daycare center in the Bedouin sector, who had led a revolutionary educational program and brought about changes in the Bedouin society. She lit the torch with Fahoum Fahoum, 16.5, a Muslim 11th grader, who takes an active part in efforts for coexistence between Jews and Arabs. He is considered an outstanding tennis player and a member of Israel's youth delegation.

What is "interesting" is, that these two - a Bedouin woman and an Muslim pupil came to symbolize the tribe of Juda, which was the one who gave the Jews their name

Galila Ron-Feder-Amit, one of Israel's most prominent and renowned children's book authors, a foster mother of children from broken homes a nd a volunteer helping underprivileged kids. She lit the torch with Ronni Ackerman, 13, an actress in The Orna Porat Theater for Children and Youth.

Prof. Pnina Klein of Bar-Ilan University who works in Third World Countries on behalf of the United Nations Children's Fund (UNICEF). She lit the torch with Oren Almog, 13, a ninth grader who lost his eyesight four years ago in a terror attack in Haifa which left four of his family members dead, including his father and younger brother. [see May 7]

Ronny Douek, a businessman who has been working for 20 years now as a social entrepreneur for the welfare of children and youth. He lit the torch with Pnina Nivetzag, 18.5, a graduate of the Aharai! ("Follow me!") youth movement.

Ralph Goldman, 93, honorary executive president of The American Jewish Joint Distribution Committee.

He lit the torch with Shmuel Falik, 13, of Miami, who was born on Independence Day.

Hadara Rosenblum, head of the Education Ministry's student council unit, who has invested great efforts in cultivating youth in the different forums she has established, including Seeds of Peace and Young Ambassadors. She lit the torch along with Genia Grishkov, 8.5, a young and talented violinist, who takes part in the unique music project of the school for young violinists in Migdal.

Major Avihai Hayun, an Israel Defense Forces officer, who as part of the Navy training center is in charge of cultivating special populations and the Givat Ada Children's Home. He lit the last torch with 17-year-old Salman Nabuani, the brother of Staff Sergeant Tamir Nabuani, the first Druze fighter to join the elite Sayeret Matkal commando unit, who died during a navigation in the Negev on January 1, 2008.

Uri Jakobovitch, an agriculturist at the Sdeh Bar farm for youth at risk, where he arrived about four and a half years ago in the footsteps of his older brothers. He lit the torch with Reuven Bentolila, 17, who immigrated to Israel from France in 1999 and was evacuated from Gush Katif as part of the 2005 disengagement plan.

 

The 12 torch-bearers were joined this year by 12 youths representing the State's future generation.
The torch-bearers at the Mount Herzl ceremony included also:

Naftali Deri, secretary-general of the Youth Movement Council.
He lit the torch with Yael Barzilai, 16.5, head of a youth movement in Hod Hasharon aiding brain-damaged children

 

The symbols of the State of Israel manifested by dancers. In that Haaretz article, of which I read only little, since it was unbearable, I also encountered critique of the Menorah and the Olive Branches as well as of the flag . Usually it's myself who is critical of things like the method of saying "Hi" instead of "Shalom", "Bye" instead of "Shalom" and "ma ha-inyanim", "ma nishma", "ma koraeh" instead of "ma shlomkha?". [See below: 2013] I detest flags (a Nazi-trauma), but if a State must have a flag, then I like Israel's flag best. I also saw a small doc about that Tel-Aviv shop which sew the first flags, and about the proportions of its colors and shapes. And I much cherish the "Star of David"!

fifth and last Continuation of the 70th birthday gathering at Ne'ot Kdumim on Friday, May 2 for Gil Huettenmeister, my German co-student at Jerusalem University in the year of the Eichmann Trial 1960-61

Opposite Hilleke with her glorious braid - I - next to Sami Kamaal

My little speech on the background of : "so that you may gather in your grain, new wine and oil" Deut. 11:14:

Michal Henkin (with Gil's profile) and Malka Golan were two more women, who approached me thanking me for my speech.

 

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Ronnit must have written this at the same hour when I myself discovered Gabi Nitzan's post,
and this "by chance", since my reason for having opened it
was Nitzan's "ashmah"-"guilt'
which why Efrat sent me this link
and not "Shalom, I'm called G and I'm a sexual molester"!
But this title on the left side of the article "ashmah" was so intriguing
that it caught my eyes!
I read it even before I entered the "ashmah" article (which wasn't as deep as I hoped).

And why did I discover this rare post of Ronnit on Facebook?
This, too, was a coincidence.
It was only a few days ago that I discovered that Ronnit was on Facebook since 2011.
When I studied her page I saw that - in the category ' favorite music'
she mentioned only two items.
One was the band "Biluim, Horra-Haslamah". I didn't bother to find out who they were.
But on this evening the comeback of this band was an item in the main news of Channel2!
Recalling the "Biluim" on Ronnit's page I opened it
and ~ detected her post about Nitzan!

Only 4 people "like" Habiluim (so far), obviously because of their political peace agenda. Jonathan, Ronnit's son +girlfriend Shir, in the middle, Ronnit to the right and Na'ama Ya'ari to the left. "Na'ama" is not known to Ronnit yet hints at another coincidence, connected to Nitzan's article.....

Today the transparency of sexual perpetration and victimhood is expanding.
But nobody, including me, understands, what it really is and how it can heal.
A famous opera song offered itself as a frame for this disastrous distress.
What opera? I don't know. The tune now runs in my brain, even without words.
Thus I hope - that even without conscious intention - the prayer does its work!

Come and redeem us
from sexual shame and pains
from all this guilt that
keeps earth and sky in chains

Those who are tortured by vexing lust
or who deny what they dream

Bring understanding what makes this happen
what makes us do or suffer
and bring us healing

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Come and redeem us
from sexual shame and pains
from all this guilt that
keeps earth and sky in chains

Those who are acting out and hate themselves
or who feel victims all their lives

Bring understanding what makes this happen
what makes us do or suffer
and bring us healing

***

Bring uns Erkenntnis [bring us knowing]
bring uns Verstaendnis [understanding]
bring uns Befreiung [liberation]
bring uns Verzeihung [forgiveness]

Verwandle diese Scham transform this shame
hamir aet ha-asham [Hebrew: transform this guilt]
heil', heile, refa'enu, El [heal, heal , heal-us, God]

Bring understanding what makes this happen
what makes us do or suffer
and bring us healing
[inserted first on May 2, 2013 in SongGameCalendar]

read on in the original or in pp52-2013