03_19

The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

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March 19, Wednesday, - at Arad

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MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!
7:10
I desire to understand the real, exact, crucial difference
between my former doing on what I called "the exterior level" and my present doing.
I desire that "more normalization between Germany and Israel" will mean,
that "Israel's best friend" will help Israel to convert her enemies into her partners

image of the day- see context

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to our inner clock, of which I've learnt for the first time,
the functioning of Seratonin and Melatonin and the Pineal Gland,
which I can't grasp with my mind, but can thank for with my heart.

I am grateful for the ideal circumstances of my life,
which allow for the natural rhythm of day=awake and night=asleep!
I'm grateful that I rarely need to awaken myself against Body's need,
and I'm grateful, that all my life I've - unwittingly - listened to Body,
when it urged me to go out into light and air as often as possible.
contrasted by the memorable one week in my life,
when I had to stay indoors for continuous 7 days,
after the birth of Immanuel on January 23, 1963.
I'm grate-full for my former life in the light and air of the desert,
and for my present routine, which sends me into light and air
while working in the garden or cleaning the Wadi of Compassion,
or while walking to and from the pool, altogether 40 min. in the light.

From these glorious views through the palm-branches into the moving, dramatic sky
back to earth, bending down to the ground, to the small and smallest situations.

last communication next communication
see in

"and walking humbly with your God" [ Micah 6:8]

Thanks for the message of the tiny sound-pyramid above!
It's the perfect inspiration for the work I want to do with you today.

"I'm glad you paid attention to it!"

I'm stunned, that it took me so long,
in fact, ever since spring 1995,
when I for the first time heard that voice: "Stop doing! BE!"
to understand that the differentiation needed
is not between "doing versus not-doing, "
nor between "on an exterior level" versus "on an interior level".
and, may I say this, even your "cease to manifest!" was misleading.

"As you know, I like it, when you are more exact than me! "

In order to express with words what has taken so long to evolve,
and became a quantum-leap only yesterday on my way to the pool,
I want to first exemplify my DOINGs in the past,
and use for this Nomi Shemer's popular song: "With these hands!"

"Go ahead!"
[I went to the pool and coming back I started to work on the right frame]

When I went to the noon-pool I asked you to inspire me.
Instead - you let me have an exemplary experience,
short in time - 1 minute -and as to the consequences - bateel be-shishim
[a Hebrew idiom meaning "neglectable" : an egg with only 1/60 blood in it
may still be eaten without trespassing the prohibition to eat blood],
but strong in emotions.

"You could have easily shoved it aside and forgotten.
But you "set your heart" to it, as you say in Hebrew.
Let us hear the story!"

Though there were 5 people sitting in the jacuzzi,
there was one place left for me and I sat down.
The Russian speaking woman across me grumbled,
then her foot touched me
but instead of withdrawing it and saying "sorry", she said:
"ani rotzah",
meaning: I want to leave my foot there, on the side where you sit.
I uttered some sarcastic
"Ho, hoh!"
and threw my own feet
towards the cleft between her and her neighbor.
Unfortunately my left foot landed on her left pompous bosom,
not causing pain, but triggering her badly
- which was understandable.
Her neighbor hurried to get out and so did I, still saying loudly:
"I too shall leave, I don't want to sit next to such a woman."

" Now that you reported it in writing with absolute honesty,
the episode looks worse than it was, doesn't it?"

Yes, but this will render it all the more exemplary.
If it takes so little to trigger one woman into provocative behavior,
and if it takes so little to trigger me - ME! - into a violent reaction,
how can anyone "hope for peace"?

"Yes, indeed!
And the beautiful Hebrew stanza which you sang often today,
"I also believe in the future,
even if the day is far away,
but the day will come - they'll carry peace then,
and blessings from nation to nation",
makes you sad, if not cynical.
So now go on and correct my phrase:
"cease to manifest!"

Nomi Shemer "be-ellae ha-yadaim",
see in 2007 Song-Game -both the original song and my own version of 2009

(First Stanza)

"With these hands I haven't yet built a village,"
Yes I've built the first model of "Succah in the Desert"

"I haven't yet found water in the middle of the desert,"
Yes, I've discovered a sweet spring and a hot sulphor spring!

"I haven't yet drawn a flower,"
Yes, - though not talented, but the granddaughter of a painter -
I have painted flowery pictures now and then,
here is a detail of what I called "Manifestation". 2002

"I haven't yet discovered how
does the way lead me and where I'm going."
Yes, I've discovered how I'm led and where I'm going,
not "once and forever", but "time and again".

"Ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet loved enough,"
I've loved too much, and I'm still learning HOW to love.

"the wind and the sun are on my face,"
Yes, all my life and several times a day even now

"Ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet said enough"
I've said too much, and I'm still learning WHEN to say.

"'and if not now, then when'?"
Yes, to learn the balance of loving and saying, is NOW.

(Second Stanza)

"I haven't yet sown a lawn, I haven't yet erected a town,"
I'm no friend of lawns and no advocator of towns

"I haven't yet planted a vinyard on all the limestone hills,"
I planted a nut-tree at Ramat-Hadar -1976- but it's no longer mine.
and a fig-tree at the Lotz-Cisterns - 1989 - but it burnt down,
and a laurel in the desert -1995 - but it was uprooted by a ranger,
and an apple-tree at Ein-Gedi-Fieldschool - 1999 - but it was discarded,
and an apple-tree in my garden at Arad - - 2005 -but it never took root...
addition on March 19,2013
and ten trees in 2010, but only a dwarf orange tree stayed alive.
But what I planted in 2012, -see April 3 & April 26 seems to grow, despite some "bugs".

"I haven't yet done everything with my own hands,"
Oh yes, I've done everything with my own hands,

"I haven't yet tried everything, I haven't yet loved enough."
Oh yes, I've tried everything, believing love would overcome anything.

"Ay-ay-ay, I haven't yet loved enough..."

(Third Stanza)

"I haven't yet established a tribe,"
Yes, I've established a family of 16 members, and tribes of "partners",
"I haven't yet composed a song,"
Yes, I've composed 140 songs so far [2013 many more]- lyrics or tune or both .

"snow has not yet come down on me in the middle of the harvest,"
If this is a metaphor for the destruction of what I created,
then it snowed an amost all my creations before the harvest.

"I have not yet written my memories,"
Yes, I've written my memories, once systematically, and often partly,
and I'm doing this - now constantly - healing and harvesting my past.

"I have not yet built the house of my dreams,"
Yes I've often built the kind of homes which fit my dreams:
my mobile home 1985-1999,
my cabin "Hagar" [later called "Keturah"] in "Succah in the Desert", 1991/2
the 3rd and 4th generation of my pyramidal tent, 1996-2001
and my cave at Noah's Shore -150 days in winter 2003-2004
As to the 3 rented flats I lived in - I turned them into castles:
at Ramat-Gan 1981-1985, at Modi'in 2001-2004, at Mazkeret Batya 2004.
My one-room flat at Arad since Dec.2004 is truly the house of my dreams.

"with these hands"
"I did it all",
"I tried it all"

photo by
Mona Yahia
1979/1980
about a year
before I threw
my wedding-ring
into the Kinneret.

"and walking humbly with your God"
[Bible,

I can analyze, why I was triggered, but that brings me nowhere.

"It will at least help you to become parental!"

(1)
- being touched by foreign people makes me mad beyond proportion,
perhaps the result of men in packed trams reaching for my genitals-

"You could control yourself, but that would be close to denial!
There is still a lot to be healed in you and in your past,
and not only from this incarnation !"

(2)
- unfair behavior - stretching her feet to where I had "a right" to sit- doesn't it trigger everybody?

"Yes, like a nation is triggered, when its land is occupied.
The question is, why does a person or a nation attract this?
In your case - why did you attract being "victimized"?

(3)
- There was also an accumulation of anger and disgust in me,
against all the old-fat-ugly half-naked women and men in the pool.
I've often wondered, if this disgust is the result of a projection,
the projection of my own former (?) hatred against my body:
"it's fat, it's ugly, the posture is crooked, etc. etc. "

"Yes, of course, you are projecting what you do not accept in yourself.
At least you are aware of this,
isn't that something to be grate-full for?"

(4)
There is also my inherent - not patterned ! - need for space.
That's why I live far from town, away from family and spouse,
as close to the desert as possible.
I even get off the train at Lehavim
choosing the inconvenience of hitchhiking, but in free air,
instead of traveling through the crowded bus-station of Beersheva.
Pool, busses & bustations (on certain days also trains & train-stations)
- are the only places and spaces,
where I cannot avoid being squeezed into crowds.

"Again I suggest that you give thanks to your ability,
to create the circumstances which allow you SPACE,
exemplified , for instance, in the fact,
that you learnt not to need malls, markets and supermarkets!"

You help me to see the "bright side" of who I am.
I grant , that it helps me to more accept myself.
But after years and years of - let me try this -
"manifesting more and more self-acceptance"
it's not exactly uplifting to see,
how I tumbled into the jacuzzi incident.

But that is not the point of my work with you now.
I may find a way to handle the 3 triggers and the one need,
but my expressive "Intention" for today and from now on, is
"to understand the real, exact, crucial difference
between my former doing on what I called "the exterior level"
and my present doing. "
It is simply not true, that I work on an interior level.
The very sculpting of this dialog with you~~~
the very analyzing of the jacuzzi incident~~~
are "exterior manifestations", aren't they?

"Yes, they are,
and I am very happy,
that you are so clear about differentiating
between the "inner work" the 'spiritual people' talk about,
and the "finetuning ", which you've been doing for 2 years now,
but have not yet conceptualized in a way,
that it can become the real and realistic alternative
to the "inner way".
But I feel, that now you are exhausted.
Let us continue this thinking together - perhaps tomorrow?"

Yes, my mind is tired,
and I also hope for more input via intuition, inspiration and dreams.

"You don't suggest more experiences , do you?"

Not really, it seems to me,
that the jacuzzi incident suffices to show,
why neither the peace-dreamers and peace-activists,
nor the prayers and meditations of the spiritual people
help to bring about Heaven on Earth.
But you may know better, if more experiences could help me.

"We'll see. In any case I'm with you. Let's stick to Our quest!

Let's sing AMEN!"

A few images which show my full-fill-ments of all the things,
which the singer of "with these hands" has not yet done:

Driving my bus 1985-1999
and playing the solar powered organ in it

Succah in the Desert - [Succat Sarah and Succat Ya'aqov] since 1990

One of the "tribes" I established Eilat 1997 and my family of sixteen...)

My cave above the Dead Sea winter 2003-2004

Nourishment from Others

Learning Self-Acceptance and Grate-Full-ness
Two pages from Yossi Rudoy's Book
(I hate his title and will mention only the subtitle:)
From an existencial crisis to a gift of life
Louise Hay's affirmation technique is mentioned in "My Desires today" 2009-11-28

Today I wanted to take a picture of one of the first spring flowers in my garden.
My shadow overpowered it...

song of the day

I haven't yet loved enough - and if not now, when?

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K.I.S.S. - L O G 2 0 0 8

2012

March 19 , 2012, Sunday, Shoham

There is much, much, much to celebrate on this day,
our "nidberu" at the edge of the ruins of Khirbet-Tzura.
with the phone-call of starchild Lior coming in-between.
There are images in "Right Use of Will" taken in 2002,
when Avi Dror of Succah in the Desert brought me back,
to what had to do with our reincarnation at Nabatean time,
while in 2009, during the "Walk-about-Love",
I slept among the ruins of Tzura in a tent.

The only image, I did take - for Mika's sake - shows our parting,
after we - in MIka's living-room - had tried to communicate with Lior,
whom we had invited to leave Jerusalem and meet us on our way to Shoham.

3 days later the Israeli GoodNews informed about a new technology
"that Just Made Wheelchairs Obsolete for Paraplegics".
The young man who features on the video, is called "Yusuf"!
I wonder, if this is relevant also for Ya'acov,
whose legs, not used for 53 years, might be too weak to stand on.

Cropped images from Mika's movies on Shabbat morning, when we walked Nella, the dog (see in a fitting context on next page)

"I want to make a movie! I want to make movies and publish them!:

"I am filming and I am telling about the flowers"

Mika's parents returned long after I had put Mika to sleep, close to midnight.
The next day we all sat in one car
Efrat let Mika off in front of her school and Immanuel and me in front of Ben Gurion train-station.
My son and I had 10 minutes while waiting for the train and 10 min. till the train reached Tel-Aviv.
There we parted, - he traveled on to Haifa, where people proposed him to lead cooking workshops,
while I traveled to Beersheva - this time by train and not as usual - by busses Shoham-Tel-Aviv-Arad.

10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org
2012_03_19- 2013_03_13

DELICIOUS DELETION

2013

The real voyage,,,How true this is,
I experience and understand
more and more from day to day

It is Lior Oren, my starchild, [see above in 2012]
who sent this quote to Facebook today!
It also stimulated me to learn about the author:
Marcel Proust best known for his monumental
À la recherche du temps perdu
(In Search of Lost Time;
earlier translated as
Remembrance of Things Past).
published in 7 parts between 1913 and 1927. .

its theme of involuntary memory,
a famous example: the "episode of the madeleine."
see in Wikipedia involuntary memory
is at present permeating my mind .

From "Synopsis" of À la recherche du temps perdu:
Volume One: Swann's Way [Swann is a Jew]
The Narrator begins by noting, “For a long time, I went to bed early.” He comments on the way sleep seems to alter one’s surroundings, and the way Habit makes one indifferent to them.
Volume Seven: Time Regained " He realizes that every person carries within himself the accumulated baggage of their past, and concludes that to be accurate he must describe how everyone gradually occupies an immense range "in Time".

"...believed that the focus of Proust was not memory and the past but the narrator's learning the use of "signs" to understand and communicate ultimate reality, thereby becoming an artist. ... that the work of art can recapture the lost and thus save it from destruction, at least in our minds. Art triumphs over the destructive power of time.
... (The last quatrain of Baudelaire's poem "Une Charogne":
"Then, O my beauty!
say to the worms who will
Devour you with kisses,
That I have kept the form
and the divine essence
Of my decomposed love!").

Thank you , Lior Oren, for inserting this on Facebook.
And now look into "Veronica's" message, which came to me today.
I've practiced it for decades...... but you still need to be reminded ot it!!!
BUT!!!! know, silence and focus even several times per day are not enough.
The real joy is in embracing each and every experience and be it the tiniest one,
each and every feeling and be it the grayest one,
in each and every moment,
let your voice sound it, let your body vibrate it
See my last song of 2012 at the end of "triptych"

A New Message From VERONICA

"Your Vibration Brought Forward"

"Often in the hustle bustle of the linear world the element of spirit is set aside.
Each one of you have incarnated to offer something to the reality.
Perhaps it is time to calm down the frantic responses to a demanding day
and just allow yourself to be.

There are a million excuses why this could not be possible.
However, somewhere in the essentially over crowded day
a few moments of silence could be created.

It is a matter of focus.
Decide that your soul has a place in the daily routine.
It would be reasonable to not worry how long time wise the moment is,
but to deeply connect briefly to reset the day.

At first it may feel hazy and elusive, but with each engagement
there can be an energy exchange that will alter the vibration.

Consistency to the practice will enhance your participation.
Allowing it to have a moment
will also bring what you have to offer as an eternal energy.
It is important to realize that what you have to offer
may not be a physical enactment,
but one so deeply vibratory
that it changes the texture of the reality without physical awareness.

It is not about immediate results.
It is a consistent practice of clarity
that the soul, who is without time constraints, wishes to share.

Your vibration brought forward is far more powerful than you realize.

Find the silence.

Engage it consistently.

It will be a valuable tool as you walk through your life."

I just now came across Ehud Banai's article about TIME again,
in connection with Pesach and the freedom from slavery....

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