The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 


MY

LIFE'S

HARVEST

 



Driving Backward
into the Future -
68 Years of Living

Last Update of one of the many chapters:
2006_11_26

 

The image symbolizes the path I've walked.
"Driving backward" helped me to rejoice
in how I have lived my life and my vocation.


This part of "Healing-K.i.s.s" emerged without intention,
as a series of "appendices" to the "Puzzle Pieces".
They finally organized themselves into 12 aspects of
MY LIFE'S HARVEST


My BODY, my BIBLE, my BIO, my BOOK


Then 4 aspects of my work for and with
THE COMMUNITY:

PARTNERSHIP between ISRAEL-PALESTINE
DESERT ECONOMY - "SUCCAH"
DESERT ECONOMY - "RIHLAH"
DESERT-SEA-PEACE in the Syrian-African Rift

Then 3 aspects of
COMMUNICATION with Deity
Right Use of Will - New Heart - Communication

and finally
"The TIME of FRUITION"

The sculpture of "A Time to Harvest", created in 2003,
is engulfed by clouds of water above the desert
and by waves of water in the Salt Sea.

"Noah's Dead Sea Vision" was not yet born then,
but ever since 1998 my path has been leading me to the Salt Sea,
which contains the un-wept tears of humankind
- waiting to be wept...


A TIME to HARVEST
My HeArt work of
"Driving backward into the Future"



RedSeaPartnerSHIP

A Space for Training Feeling



Grandmother

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                       


                      The rising sun over the Jordanian desert
                        colors the waters of the Salt Sea.
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The setting sun bursts through watery clouds
over the Ramon-Crater cliffs in Israel's desert.

 

 

Structure of Healing-K.i.s.s. - as perceived in 2009 - including a second website: ARARAT
March 13, 2011:
After 10 years of almost daily creating and playing, learning and healing with the help of Healing-K.i.s.s.,
I find it a bit ridiculous, that in 2007-08 I wanted to point out a "structure" behind the websites' content.
And yet during the weeks of trying to at least present that content in somewhat systematical overviews,
 I finally- on March 13, 2011 - played the kids oracle: "Leaving" or "Deleting" ? Answer: "Leaving!"  
"Leaving", of course, has a double meaning.....- what else is new with "oracles"???

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FINE-TUNING
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MY PRESENT

 
       

K.I.S.S. - L O G    2 0 0 8
Keep It Simple Sweetheart
whole&full-filled, never perfect&complete

 

Lass dir alles geschehn, Schoenheit und Schrecken.
Man muss nur gehn. Kein Gefuehl ist das fernste.
Lass dich von mir nicht trennen.

Rainer Maria Rilke, aus "Gott spricht zu jedem ehe er in macht"
Learn the song

Let everything happen to you, beauty and horror.
One must just go. No feeling is the farest.
Do not let yourself be separated from me.

Rainer Maria Rilke, from "God talks to each one before he makes him"
Learn the song

 

 

 

 

 

Enhancement in 2011, completed on March 13
Exemplary   I n t e g r a t i o n   of two time-periods in my life:
Diary Texts of 1978 ~ and ~ Desert Photos of Dec.1989-Jan.1992

.integration 2001-2003
.integration 2001-2003
God has Evolved
.integration 2001-2003
My Life's Harvest
INTEGRATION
or
Eliyahu's Lesson

Continuation from .integration 2001-2003: God has Evolved

 


Helpers, guests, visitors!
- but would there be a "Succayah" at all, if not for Dani Kish [Qish] , the sculptur and succah builder?

 









Dani Kish
begins
his first project - ordained to fail - the Succah
at the rock of
the Hills
of the Angels' Flight.



After two days
Dani's work is done - the first succah is constructed.

I have to undertake
the difficult task
of attaching two triangles
on either side,
one of them with a door-opening.
It takes me 26 hours
in bitter cold
to get the chore done,
while Irene, our first guest,
is waiting
to move into the succah .




 

 

 

 

 

 

 

For the subsequent succahs,
Dani hired a laborer
from the Community
of the Black Hebrews.
This was about the time,
when these people
- after 20 years in Israel-
were finally permitted to work....

I think , this was the succah,
which I later called
Rivkha (Rebecca)
on one side of the wadi.
What can be seen in the background
is still the bus and the temporary succah.
Nothing else existed at that time.

 

 

 

All the succahs,
including "Abraham"
and including the one which flew away
and had to be built elsewhere from scratch,
were constructed within 2-3 months.
Even the work that had to be done by myself
or later with a little help from a few people,
needed to be completed till Pesach,
when the first guests came,
and at least the triangle
on the western, windy side,
needed to be closed.


Selma Lagerloeff, Ein Stueck Lebensgeschichte:
(copied on July 30, 1978)
"Man schien (in dem Haus ihrer Kindheit) groessere Liebe zu Buechern und Studien zu haben als anderswo, und immer lag ein stiller Friede ueber dem Haus. Da durfte niemals ein Jagen bei der Arbeit oder ein Zank mit dem Gesinde vorkommen. Hass oder Zwietracht durfte es da auch nicht geben; und wer sich dort aufhielt, durfte das Leben nicht schwer nehmen-: die allererste Pflicht war, sorglos zu sein und zu glauben, dass der liebe Herrgott fuer jeden, der in diesem Hause lebte, alles zum Besten lenkte."
"... sie schrieb... und wartete auf das Glueck, dass irgendeiner ... entdeckte, was sie geschrieben hatte, und es wuerdig faende, gedruckt zu werden. Dann wuerde alles von selbst kommen. Doch es begab sich nichts Derartiges, und als das junge Maedchen ueber zwanzig Jahre alt war, begann es ungeduldig zu werden ... Sie konnte nicht begreifen, woher es kam, dass das Glueck sich gar nicht einfinden wollte... Und da es so lange waehrte ... musste sie etwas lernen ... damit sie einen Broterwerb haette, davon zu leben, waehrend sie auf sich selbst wartete. Vielleicht war es ganz einfach so, dass die Saga [?] die Geduld mit ihr verloren hatte. Sie dachte sich vielleicht: Da dieses verblendete Menschenkind nicht sieht, was dicht vor seinen Augen liegt, so muss es eben gezwungen werden, von dannen zu ziehen. Es muss durch grade Steinstrassen gehen, es muss in engen Stadtraeumen wohnen, ohne andre Aussicht als graue Hausmauern. Dieses Maedchen muss unter Menschen einhergehn, die alles, was in ihnen eigentuemlich ist, verbergen, und die einander alle zu gleichen scheinen. Das wird sie vielleicht lehren, das zu sehen, was vor der Tuer ihres Heims wartet, alles, was zwischen den blauen Huegelketten lebt und webt ... (Saga ueber den Mann), der Freude und Heiterkeit mitbrachte, wohin er auch kam (Goester Berling). Er konnte singen, ... spielte zum Tanze auf ... dann tanzte nicht nur die Jugend ... Wenn er Torheiten machte, so verzieh man ihm; war er einmal betruebt, so wollte man alles Erdenkliche tun, um ihn nur froh zu sehen. Aber grossen Erfolg in der Welt haate er trotz seiner reichen Begabung nicht gehabt."

Aus Heidelindes Poesiealbum:
Wo Frucht wachsen will,
muss Jahre hindurch
zuvor in Sturm und Stille
ein Ast wachen

 

Der verlorenste aller Tage ist der,
an dem man nicht gelacht hat
[see, what I inserted today, March 3, 2011, about my laughter in 1978]



When Dani Kish came and asked where I wanted to have the first succah
- later called
succat-Ya'acov ,
I led him to this spot
and said:
"This is where I feel the first succah should be located,
but it's probably not practical because it's so high above ,
and the spot itself is so steep."
He answered: "If your heart says this, then let's go from the difficult to the easy", But soon after, when I showed him that rock of the Hill of the Angels' Flight, he was not true to himself, leave alone to MY heart, and decided to build the first succah there.
the left photo shows,
what the succah looked like without palmfronds.
Irene watches "Ya'acov" being covered,
but soon Dani's first succah, where she lived,
would be blown away!


After Dani Kish had completed some of the guest-succahs, he launched the huge project of the Abraham-succah.
This photo with Irene watching him, must have been taken a few days before a little catastrophe occurred:
On that day I left early in the morning, in order to travel by bus to Eilat.
My son, a pilot of transport and intelligence planes in the Israeli Airforce,
suggested that we meet at Eilat, since it was closer than Tel-Aviv.
A terrible storm arose, so terrible, that a huge metal poster fell to the ground, almost on top of our heads
- see what I told already, when I had the chance during "The Walk about Love" to photograph this poster.

 
still on August 31, 1978


Later, in summer, my son Micha is seen working on leveling the entry to the succat Ya'acov!



3/8/78

Mutti: Darin, dass man nicht tun kann, was man gern tun moechte. Ich bin
    ja auch  gar nicht zuhause. Man ist ja so eingesperrt hier.
Rachel: Was moechest du denn tun? - M. Ja, das weiss ich jetzt nicht so genau.
R. Einfach ueberhaupt etwas tun? - M. Einfach ueberhaupt etwas tun.
R. Frueher hast du zuviel zu tun gehabt. - M. Ja, die Zeiten aendern sich.
  

The source of oppression: She claimed to have been oppressed as a child. To me it sounded, as if she was quoting her children, especially my sister, as being oppressed by my mother
M. Ich war ja ein unerwuenschtes Kind frueher.
R. Woher willst du denn das wissen?
N. Ich hab meine Mutter mal heimlich gefragt: Gelt , Ihr habt mich doch gar nicht haben wollen.Da sagte sie: du hast recht.
R. Worin hast du das denn zu spueren bekommen?
M. Ja mein Bruder war doch soviel intelligenter als ich und wenn ich in der Schule was nicht gekonnt habe, dann hiess es immer (scharfer Ton)"Wieso bist du denn nicht wie dein Bruder?" und der Lehrer schlug mich. Dann hatte ich so Angst, dass ich dann natuerlich erst rechts nichts wusste.

It must have been a year later, in 1991,
when it was vital to have a cabin for the hosting volunteers.
I differentiated between succahs for the guest - seven -
and the - eventually 5 - cabins for hosts and for group activities.
Itamar Kechteil, one of my helpers through all this time,
suggested that I hire Alan Sabag,
like himself a member of the French-Israeli community
in Mitzpe-Ramon.

The wondrous structure - on two levels - was called "Hagar",
while I lived there myself for half a year,
until Renata, the carpenter, joined us,
and I returned to live in my bus.
[Ever since Avi Dror is "the manager" of Succah in the Desert,
it is him, who lives in this what he calls "succah".
After the later "Hagar" was built, closest to "Abraham",
I called this one "Keturah",
in the Bible Abraham's wife, after Sarah had died.
See about all this the Succah "Glossary". ]

There are many photos of Alan's beautiful creation,
but for this composition I chose the view from the window
on January 1, 1972: Snow and Ice above the Desert!
[Most of the magnificent sequence of Snow and Ice see in SuccahStage 6 onward]
I'm so grateful to Alan Sabag, and I want to apologize again,
for at first not having appreciated the interior architecture,
which he - during my absence - created in "Abraham",
and which looked to me like a tavern in the Wild West.
But soon I came to see his point of view
and I'm still deeply grateful for his immense creativity.

What a pity, that Abraham altogether got burnt down in 1998...,
2 years after I had made my "lekh-lekhâ" from Succah in the Desert

 

 

21/8/78
Coach from Barton-upon-Humber (Barry!) to London:
... So many things happened we [probably Don and I] did not share,
so many a stress we could not support each other,
so many opposing relationships...

Margaret from Ireland: "What stops you from finding adaquate people?"

An insight while taking a walk in Barton: I've got courage, Mut (in German),
but I've to learn boldness, Kuehnheit (in German),
"I want you to work with me." "I ask you to contribute 10000 Pounds!"
(Barry: each of the 10 committed members of his community pay a 10% tithe and two young men pay his salary!)

London-Purley: we spent half a day with Ursel Merz and her daughter Julia.
[Ursel had been my best and only friend from age 13 to 17, but she had other friends too,
"with whom I can make fun, since you are so serious!"]
Ursel said: "It's a wonderful time for being a woman!"
That hilarious laughter, that sense of fun! That smile and smiling word to everyone- the porter, the ice-cream-seller, the policeman, the guard - and on the other hand - she says- tending to be a "stickler", "pernickety" (= everything as to be accurate) and "impersonal", not able to invest any feelings in a closer relatonship. Will she be a model with regard to laughter and fun
and her smiling, validating approach to people?
4/8/78


Dani Kish had "a good day",
and therefore the superhuman strength
of moving theses rocks in front of the "bed"...


The Rachel Succah was the farest up into the wadi .
It took guests (and working hosts) 15 minutes
to reach it from the Abraham succah.

 

 


I caught a guest in the intimacy of her rest.

 






I can't identify this succah,
but the style of the interior was exemplary
and is so up to this day


My daughter in the Rivkaj-Succah,
the first relatively "simple" succah
(but already provided with a gas-stove)
which Dani Kish built
after the complex but not lasting succah
leaned on a rock.
Iin the background,
on the other side of the wadi: the Lea-Succah

 

 

 

6-12/8/78
Ripon College, Cuddesdon, Oxford, RC Workshop with Harvey Jackin's son , Tim Jackins

Excerpts from Tim Jackin's workshop

Tim: Workshop means also: to live as well as you can in between sessions… an example of what our lives could be like… and not just work on heavy distresses. – We face immense challenges , but we mustn't take them that serious. – Go out and play and be part of life, look how good it is, rich and fascinating whatever you have to face.
Injustice: You must differentiate between something incorrect happening and your getting upset about it. You need to take full responsibility for the feelings, the distress you have, even if somebody does somethng very incorrect and acts out his own distresses. They need your help and not your being upset. On occasion you interrupt somebody who wants to do harm, by knocking him down, but in your session afterwards you ask yourself, why you couldn't think of anything else. There is a very real person - an ally - in the person who smashes others down. We must always g back and reach out for them, after we have worked on our beng upset. We have no hope of success unless we reach everyone. It just will not be safe enough.

About young people: Sessions of adults look as if two grownups go into a room, close it hold hands, tell eachother horrible stories, till one of them cries. But that's a limited way of looking at RC. Sessions with your children look a lot like play: peeping or hide-and-seek - they work on their fear about someone leaving. Mind you, they must always find you. There must be the contradiction to fear. Their fear comes off in lightness.
If they have heavier distress, they pick at you, pick at you, till you turn round and snap at them - then they can cry, though it has nothing to do with you. They hope you'll understand. That also happens to you - to find a pretext for getting your anger out.

Playing doesn't mean to win, it means to be aware of whom you are playing with. Maybe the other never had the chance to play, so you must gently play it over to him. If he knows a little better, you play a little harder. You always provide the appropriate challenge for the other, for him to learn a little more, to grow a little more - that's the challenge for you, your awareness, your ability.

About getting up in the morning. "Only one advice: to suffer fully the agony of getting up - let yourself fall ut of the bed, crawl moaningly to the bath-room - play out your feelings so fully, that not even you will believe them!

About anger: Anger is the top part of a fear distress [that's also what Godchannel claims: underneath the anger is fear!] Differentiate between acting out anger and discharge anger. A person with a pattern of anger, work it back and forth, help build up the pressure and then, when he's just about to explode , say something like: "Please, don't do that to me!" "You can't do that!" (a 7 year old boy to a 12 year old, that came in being pushy).
7/8/78
I deserve money to be spent on me. ------Money is non of my priorities!


Since the cold of ice and snow in January-February 1992 had let the bubble-nylon between the layers of net-shade and juge crumble,
- except for the wooden structure - all the succahs had to be renewed, and if not for Renata's decision to leave Findhorn,
[where she actually volunteered and had committed herself for half a year],
and helped me rebuilt the succahs, I don't know what I would have done.

Since we were restructuring "Ya'acov" anyway,
we decided to create a "window" on the western side of the succah,
a difficult project - even for Renata! -
since there was nothing to attach the window to except one narrow plank.
If there would be a competition concerning who benefitted the Succayah most,
it definitely would be Renata Dobryn who would win.
In my novel "Alt-Neu-Land 2003", she got a special place!

Ivonne tried to pen down the process of a demonstration which Tim did with me in front of the class.
Rachel: I won't make it easy for you. All the others just touch you and are rightaway into discharge. The people I am with have no feelings. I am a hard nut.
Tim: What made you a hard nut?
Rachel: Maybe it was necessary (or so I feel) for my early life, the struggle to survive. What saved me was that I was always able to cry.
T: What was life like?
R: Is it worthwhile to go into that? ... I came here to detach from pressure. In this dream the stencil page symbolized pressure.... But here I have no responsibility.
T: Have you found anything that lets you discharge that pressure?
R: The fear behind it. Thinking ... of a person I know who said: "You don't do anything, you are impotent!"
T: What does it feel like?
R. ... We are doing something...
T: Louder
R: We are doing something
T: Loud and nasty.
R: I'm only angry (smiling broadly)
T: You don't have to decide how you should be.
R: We are doing something. Nobody can even imagine.
T: Don't bother to question what the people here know or really understand. Consider what you are doing now as an experiment. We'll analyze it later.
R: Just to please you?!
T: Yes, if that's the way it's to be.
R: I have done so much in the last 3 1/2 years. When my people say what? (something like - what can we see for all our work?) I tell them that we must plant the seed first. The tree has to grow for 4 years before we can pick the fruit. It is not 4 years yet! It's a marvellous tree. Someday everyone will see the work we have done.
T: Talk less, just keep it simple.
R: I want to say what I am thinking!
T: People who think a lot can use it to feel less. I know you are struggling so long and so hard without support.
R: I'm glad you didn't say 'without success'. I have a priority of distresses. My first is my fear for the future.
T: They are all the same - you would not be so scared about the future, if you had not been so scared in the past.
R: People hate me for taking leadership.
T: What do you want to say to them.
R: 'Get up and do something' (phrase suggested by Tim).
Then I am afraid of hatred. (Shouts:) "Get up and do something!"
T: You jump out and watch yourself and what you are doing. Stop hopping out and watching yourself. Don't analyze it!
R: (Probably protests here)
T: Try shouting it!
R: "Get up and do something".
T: This is your time (probably said in addition to : You just stay with the phrase)
R: (Tries to analyze why she should just stick to that phrase.)
T: Have I got you to do it?
R: It's boring to say the same thing twice! I never say the same thing twice.
T: Focus your feelings and don't keep running round in circles!
R: (wants to explain by expression her thought processes)
T: Don't talk about it, just shout it.
R: (Tries it but has difficulty)
"Get up and do something!" (wants to say it in Hebrew and needs to have Tim tell her that it's OK to say it in Hebrew). Repeats: "Get up and do something!" several times and cries. Voice gets stronger, cries more, repeating it several times in Hebrew, continues in Hebrew and cries more in very anguished tone then demanding, demanding and crying.
T: When in sessions- how will a counsellor get you to work in this area.
R: I don't know
T: There is a need here for persistence, keep her to a narrow track. Do you feel supported or are there ways your counsellor can help?
R: By paying very sharp attention to me. Physical contact is very important. I like to lie in someone's lap. I run around and try to do too many things. j(OK! so that is the same in my life! I run around try to do too many things).

This has been written in love by Yvonne Paris (Despite the difficulties I feel about the lack of warmth in this workshop). I have just taken time out to do this for Rachel because she asked me. Dear Rachel: I can now see you clearly.. how truly warm and generous and loving you are, and how understanding and aware! And you sing so happily - with special Love - Yvonne Paris.
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.integration 2001-2003
.integration.2001-2003
God has Evolved
.integration.2001-2003
My Life's Harvest
INTEGRATION
or
Eliyahu's Lesson

continuation in .integration 2003-2006