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Though I hate
it, if someone - in this or any other dimension - talks to me,
Magic was eclipsed by Logic,
Women striving to gain control (in society)
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November 12-22, 2010 -
Closeups to my Past, Finetuning to my Present, Nourishment
for my Living -
- which enhance and enrich my experience of "Mika's
Heaven on Earth"
November
12, 2010 7:00 Now [see Nov. 8, a Great Insight!] that I've "solved" the problem of sharing my riches by understanding, that this did not have to happen nor does it have to happen from now on with words or writings, but by radiating what I want to share - towards my co-humans, there seems to be space for my other huge problem: identifying with the pain of others, which was so terrible ever since I remember myself, that I, for instance , after the accident with the organ [age 15], on my way home from the doctor, who gave me first aid, thought: "How good,that this happened to me and not to someone else in my family". Now this "problem" has become more intricate by what I discern in my daughter-in-love more than before. She not only suffers the pain of everyone else even of the snail in Mika's plastic-cup, which crept up the piano, but with my discomfort in the car and , what I discovered too late, with Mika's discomfort in her kid's seat , when she couldn't sleep and I in my lack of sensitivity (can I believe that word in connection with myself, the supersensitive?) said several times, how "Mika suffers, since she cannot sleep, wherever she leans her head on, towards the window, on my shoulder, on a cushion, wrapping herself in a blanket." I said it actually in order to praise Mika for not pestering anyone with her suffering, but why then didn't I say this aloud, instead of "she is suffering"? Yesterday I was so content and at peace with all the harmonious flowings, with the people - Micha, Alon, and with the answer to my prayer about "exchanges of warm loving between the couple the moment that Immanuel returns from flight !" - I rarely was priviledged to watch so much love between them,- and with the answer to Efrat's quest to me and to Mika, to "take care of" a parking-lot. I said to myself - back in the car, when Tomer was so talkative (relatively) and even ready to sing to a song of Pink Floyd, whom his father had opened to him, and whom Tomer now tries to play with his guitar, and I could really convey my appreciation and make Tomer glad, I said on the inside: "everything is perfect and miracles do happen!", and now in the morning, after yet another dream with the theme of "cooperation between people, which is beginning to happen, though still stumbling", I only feel this pain of identification with Efrat's pain of identification. I can not put out the quest, that she should not suffer, just as much as I myself do not even WANT not to suffer other people's pain. As long as the world is not healed, I want to be with The Mother in Hell. And yet, something is missing, for I am to radiate joy, to make others feel joy. What is it? Can you help me? I remember Dr. Prager, one of Franz Rosenzweig's doctors in the twenties, whom I visited in a Parents' Home in Haifa in the seventies, after I had sent to him - perhaps the summary - of my thesis. He warned me: "It is not helpful to identify with the sufferings of others". But that's the basis of what my thesis is about: epitomized in a midrash about God: the mother upstairs is cross with her daughter downstairs, But when the daughter gives birth and is in pain, the mother senses and feels every pain with her. "Abraham" would say, that I have to change the pain of identification into "good-feelings thought". And this is, indeed, what I must do in my case. "Good-feeling-thoughts" about the suffering person or group or nation. But what about my pain of identification with Efrat's pain of identification? Please help me to find the right approach, without denying my or her pain! In any case, I want to be glad about the fact, that I feel all these feelings, and not blame myself, for slipping from yesterday's peacefull-ness so fast into the troubled waters of pain and sorrow. It's not pain and sorrow, it's liveliness!. Now that I've finished spilling out my feelings and thoughts, I'm reading what I'm finding on this page of 2005! "Dealing with Emotions!" Yet another beautiful coincidence (Tomer in the car yesterday: "It's only you who sees coincidences!" but Efrat reminded him of the UFO's he believes to have seen twice, which meant, that Tomer now got involved in the car conversation!) |
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I now (10:20) looked up Abraham's email quote today:
If you make your relationship with your Inner
Being your top priority, and you deliberately choose thoughts that allow
your alignment, |
A translated letter from my father to my mother on May 5, 1942,
may complement what I told about my father on November
7, 2010
and about my mother on October
30, 2010>Your Grandmother's Grave,
I sent it to my children on Nov. 12, 2010, preceded by a letter:
A new view of my Parents, Comment about Frau Wahl, who judged
my parents and thus produced this letter |
A bad scanning of a photo, which Frau Wahl's son,
a professional photographer, made of the three of us in 1943,
and a photo, which he made of us ca 1955, according to my quest, - as our
birthday present for our mother.
There
is nothing about your physical awareness |
November 14, 2010
From the book, lent to me by Yanina, following my
visit in Chartres
and in Ireland
Jean Shinoda Bolen, Crossing to Avalon A Woman's Midlife
Quest for the Sacred Feminine 1994-2004
In
Iona Jean and her women friends, all on a pilgrimage, encountered the echos of Fiona MacLeod/William Sharp(1855-1905) " I have thought often of ...Mother of Songs and Music - She who breathes in the reed, on the wind, in the hearts of women and in the minds of poets. ... I believe that we are close upon a great and deep spiritual change. I believe a new redemption is even now conceived of the Divine Spirit in the human heart, that is itself as a woman, broken in dreams and yet sustained in faith, patient, long-suffering, looking towards home. I believe. that ...who shall save us anew shall come divinely as a Woman - but whether through mortal birth or as an immortal breathing upon our souls, none can yet know. Sometimes I dream of the old prophecy .... the coming of a new Presence and Power, and dream that this may be upon Iona, so that the little Gaelic island may become as the little Syrian Bethlehem. But more wise is it to dream, not of hallowed ground, but of the hallowed gardens of the soul, wherin She shall appear white and radiant. Or that, upon the hills, where we wander, the S h e p h e r d e s s s h a l l c a l l us h o m e." |
Jean: "There are two images of the Goddess in Fiona MacLeod's writing that touch me: "the Woman that is in the heart of women" and "the Shepherdess who shall call us home." They both seem familiar to me. I have felt their presence and I also recognize that they are archtypal images of the feminine and feminine divinity that is reemerging into consciousness, mostly through women. This Goddess is waiting for us to remember her. She is the divinity at Chartres who was there thousands of years before the cathedral was built. ... "I found god in myself, and I loved Her, I loved her fiercely." |
"He
who lies deceives himself and disintegrates in the process, whereas he who tells the truth (to him/herself]) heals his soul and makes it whole." The lie I told myself was that I wasn't being traumatized because I understood why the people I loved where behaving toward me as they were. And had I continued to be out of emotional touch, I think it might very well have been translated into physical disease. Healing and reintegration of the psyche have to do with telling the truth. But it is a truth that often takes some doing to discover. It requires that we get in touch with what we really feel and face that we are in pain over something significant in our lives*). The Perceval in us must ask: "What ails thee?" When we know, we will need to make change in order to be true, which is to be healed. *) not only what is significant , even the fact, that I feel "lack of intensity" , for instance sometimes with my most wondrous Mika and then feel I'm bad and ungrateful, because I do not savor all the blessings to the fullest,--- even this has to be told to myself and moved and accepted without judgments, even if I cannot change it, in this case, even if I cannot let go of my need for intensity! |
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Directed By: The stories of three generations |
AJAMI Israel, 2009, 120 minutes Directed By: 2009 Oscar nominee
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Directed By: Shai Capon Amjed is an Arab journalist working for an Israeli newspaper, who will do anything to be part of the bourgeois Jewish Israeli society. He makes every effort to neutralize his Arab identity, culture, and national affiliation and continuously being mocked by his family, and both Arab and Jewish societies. In this season Amjed moves with his
family to a Jewish neighborhood in pursuit of “equal water pressure”
for Jews and Arabs, facing the neighborhood dogs who recognize him
as Arab and bark at him on all occasions, and being invited to participate
in an alternative ceremony on Israel's memorial day... Cinema Village screening followed by Q&A with Creator Sayed kashua and Producer Danny Paran |
BACK AND FORTH Israel, 2010, 55 minutes Directed By: Made up of four short films, all of which are directed
by Bedouin directors in their debut as film makers, this unique film
is an unprecedented authentic self-portrait of current life in Bedouin
society. Portraying the struggle for progress Cinema Village screening followed by Q&A with Director Uri Rosenwaks and Vivan Silver of NISPED |
Directed By: On a hot summer day in 1943, 14 year old Pnina left
her home in the Galilee province of Yavniel and disappeared. 24 years
later she sends a letter, revealing that she now lives in the Askar
al Jadid refugee camp near Nablus, married to a Muslim and mother of
eight. The director, granddaughter to Pnina's sister, tracks the family
secret and finds that Pnina's children, who live in a refugee camp,
only half an hour away from her home in Tel Aviv, have been waiting
for their Jewish relatives to call for years. Renewing the contact between
the families leads to unpredictable events that take place in front
of the camera over the course of three years in both Israel and Nablus. |
COFFEE: BETWEEN REALITY AND IMAGINATION Israel, 2010, 68 minutes Directed By: Israeli and Palestinian filmmakers embarked on a journey
to create short films, fiction or documentary, inspired by Coffee, which
takes part in Middle East cultural identity and social reality. Coffee
creates a connection between different people, no matter who they are.
Each film gives a personal and courageous point of view on the reality
in which we live in. The project was created and produced by The Film
Department of Tel Aviv University.
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Directed By: NY PREMIERE A six-year-old blind girl of Filipino origin who was born in Israel is adopted by a loving Filipino worker. Together they try to bridge the gaps of language and mentality in a country in which one of them regards as her homeland and the other still feels like a stranger. Followed by Q&A with Director Anat Tel, and local advocates on the plight of migrant workers. |
Directed By: The final JCC screening followed by Prof. Leonard Grob of Meretz USA in conversation with News Correspondent Aharon (Arale) Barnea and renowned Historian Prof. Benny Morris.
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Directed By: Amal High School in Lod is the last opportunity for students who failed other educational frameworks to complete their high school education. We follow three students' stories through the eyes of the school's principal, who is determined that his students will succeed against all odds. JCC screening followed by a conversation with Director Orna Raviv; Mary Ann Stein, founder of the Moriah Fund; and NIF Fellow Ruth Carmi. Cinema Village screening followed by a conversation with Director Orna Raviv
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Directed By:
The tiny sect of Samaritans date back to the first temple in Israel and are constantly in danger of extinction. The Samaritans hold their traditions sacred, and do not assimilate. After TV star Sophie Tzdaka and her three sisters leave this closed community, the family becomes subject to terrible harassment by sect members. Followed by Q&A with protagonist Sofi Tzdaka.
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PRECIOUS LIFE Directed By: Four-month-old Palestinian Mohammad will die without a bone marrow transplant, a procedure that can only be done in an Israeli hospital. Israeli journalist Shlomi Eldar documents complex and emotional story, as Israeli and Palestinians put aside their differences to save Mohammad’s life. JCC screening followed by conversation with director Shlomi Eldar and Closing Night Reception. |
THE
WEEKLY PORTION (PARASHAT HA'SHAVUA) Directed By:
This hit TV show follows the drama of four families from different social and economic backgrounds in Israeli society. Love, hate, friendships and secrets mix together when the families connect. Starring Keren Mor, Menashe Noy, Clara Khoury, Kais Nashef and more. Followed by Q&A with Actor Clara Khoury and Director Rani Bleier
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Directed By: Netta Loevy An Arab, a Jew, a Chinese, and a Philippine walk to school one morning…”—sounds like the beginning of an old joke, but that’s not the case. These are some of the second-grade pupils attending the Tel Nordau Elementary School, in the heart of Tel Aviv. The film follows the pupils’ interactions among themselves and with Meirav, their teacher. Meirav has to adapt the ill-suited educational materials, which are in contradiction with the needs of her classroom’s post-modern melting pot. The film follows the class throughout one school year, which becomes volatile as the Gaza War upsets the social dynamics in the classroom. JCC screening followed by panel discussion with Producer Edna Kowarsky; Maura Milles, US Representative of Hand in Hand; and Nate Geller, Director of Corporate Relations, The Abraham Fund Initiatives Cinema Village screening followed by Producer Edna Kowarsky in conversation with Brooke M. Goldstein, Executive Director of the Children's Rights Institute.
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Directed By: Yariv Mozer Follows the Jewish-Arab duo: Followed by Q&A with Mira Awad
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Directed By: With touching personal style Followed by Q&A with Director Mohammad Bakri |
Monday, NOvember 15, 2010
"You look like a fairy", I
said, [s.
context in Mika's thread]]
when Efrat came down, ready to go to a show, organized by her.
"Fairy Fiona"
- complemented Mika.
Remembering the quote from "Fiona MacLeod" (above,
Nov. 14) I asked:
"Who is Fairy Fiona?" - "She is a figure
in 'Shrek'", the movie.
"Dealing with Emotions", Like waves are the movement of water
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20 minutes after the completion of this sculpture:
It is clear, where and when that "hole" began.
1951 - hunger for food and for books |
The
letter of my father to my mother -see above- "illuminated" the scenes that produced my hole. And in these 20 minutes - while eating breakfast I often (!) came across my fear of being blamed and I also became more aware of my tactiques of 'how not to be discovered', if I , for instance, take some ingredient from fridge or cupboard, 'which might cause someone to blame me': "Was it you, who ate all that?" Taking food which I was not allowed to take, is one of the most acerbated guilt- fears in me. "Then" -my 15 min' way home from the grocery was shortcut by passing through a graveyard. I see myself sitting on the edge of a grave and stealing brown sugar from a paper bag. This was not discovered! But when I stole a spoonful of sugar from the sugar-container in the kitchen, which we had to share with out landlady, it was not only Christel, who was punished! But Ursel and Eberhard were punished, too. Now I felt like "stealing" from a Nutella-glass! I saw myself with a Christmas-gift of Nutella! I ate up the entire content on Christmas-day! When I now noshed from the much bigger jar , I heard -almost literally- the projected blames! |
When Mika and I ate our self-made Aya-Lia ~~~ Mika took the camera |
Still on November 15, 2010: I had just "finished"
the text in the sculpture above and opened my e-mail:
Yanina forwarded a link to a 3 minutes video. Someone (not Yanina) had commented on it: "Very touching and heart felt. While watching this video we could look back in awe and wonder.. Others can only imagine and relate of what some of our parents and grandparents went thru." I saw it - twice - and cried my heart out. http://www.porcelainunicorn.com/ even more so in contrast to the second movie, Youth Festival, Nahalat Benjamin [Tel-Aviv] , March 2010, though in terms of art this one cannot be compared to Porcelain Unicorn |
RSA
Films: The contest, |
By the way, the older actress in the 1943 movie Porcelain Unicorn is called "Fiona"...
And if I would be missing coincidences today - in
a shop Efrat asked Mika, if she wanted a ball with a unicorn.
She chose a ball with a princess sitting on the moon, but the white socket
below shows the relief of a unicorn!
In
the evening I saw a
movie, released only recently a movie of the kind which I favor most: "Live is Life". where the usual elements of drama - good vs bad, and erotic love - are minimal while the aim of the narrative is to show how people are growing , empowering each other and thus empowering themselves, in this case : people in an old-age home and a naughty boy, their temporary social worker. Their band succeeds with a cover-version of the 1985 song: ...When we all give the power ....Life is life when we all feel the power And you call when it's over |
"Roccos
(Jan Josef Liefers) Chance auf Ruhm und Reichtum als Rock-Musiker scheint
dahin, als sein Auftritt im Finale eines Star-Wettbewerbs ausfällt.
Zu allem Übel verschlägt es den ziemlich erfolg-losen Rockmusiker
und Lebenskünstler auch noch in ein Seniorenheim, wo er für
seine kleinkriminellen Aktionen Straf-ersatzdienst ableisten soll. Schon
bald gerät er mit der Heimleitung und dem Pflegepersonal heftig
aneinander. Denn diese sind nicht bereit, sich von dem Schlitzohr Rocco
auf der Nase herum-tanzen zu lassen. Doch mit der Zeit erkennt Rocco,
dass es sich durchaus lohnen kann, die alten Menschen ernst
zu nehmen. Ein Erkenntnisprozess, der schließlich in der Gründung einer Rockband mit den alten Leuten mündet. Das wiederum bringt bei der Heimleitung das Fass zum Überlaufen. Rocco muss gehen und ihm drohen Festnahme und Haft. Vorher jedoch will er unbedingt noch an dem wichtigen Band-Contest, einer Talentshow für "Nachwuchsbands", teilnehmen. Mit der Cover-Version des berühmten Songs "Live is Life" schlägt die Rentnerband schließlich alle Rekorde" |
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"When
your happiness becomes your highest priority, you deliberately keep active the best-feeling aspects of others" I have no problem applying this with regard to people, on whom I am dependent or on whom I choose to be dependent. But what about people whom I don't choose? People who yearn to have ME in THEIR life, be they "nice" people , like Fel... or "unbearable" people, like Jib... In most cases I succeed in keeping such people away from me. And even with Fel. and Jib. I manage to keep them at a distance, but now this Jib. wants to visit me and demands from me to help him with some paper he has to write. Right in the beginning of negotiating a time for this visit, he again behaves as insolently, unabashedly as in the past. How am I attracting this? I understand, that it's his akward way to deny his insecurity. But if in the beginning I thought I could empower him, I know, that this is one of the "cases", where my very being prevents people from feeling empowered. ("your husband feels invalidated by your very presence", see pp1b) And if I can't help giving attention to this insolent aspect of him, and if I can't cause him to feel secure and validated by my presence, why am I not allowed to remove him from my life? Just because he is a Bedouin, an Arab? Please help! |
Wednesday, November
17, 2010, still at Shoham
(I'll travel to Arad only after Immanuel will
return from flight at 3:40 PM, this time by train and bus)
The requested help which I received concerning J.,
is: "Lead
him out of your life!"
I did not simply write: Please leave me alone,
but explained as short, but also as deep as possible,
why a relationship between two people and two peoples who are NOT EQUAL ---can
not work.
Only if they are dependent upon each other (family, work ~~
Jews-Arabs) are they forced to work it out,
by intending and striving to create the
three conditions for any partnership.
Though I demanded from him, NOT to react to my letter in any way,
he did!
This time I got "technical" help: His e-mail disappeared into Gmail's
"Spam"!
When I wanted to retrieve it from there the next day, it was gone altogether.
What I desire for him is, that he may find true peers, with whom he can grow!
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Still
on Nov. 17, 2010: See the chapter in the right frame: I studied it - slowly like a snail - pausing, rereading, pausing, rereading when I could not sleep this morning, between 4:30 and 6:00 There was not much new for me in this book, but what was new, was most relevant, and worthy to be copied and restudied. I identify with this chapter wholly and am expressing my gratitude for my life daily, my life at Arad which allows me my Holy Solitude, Du meine Heilige Einsamkeit, as I sing with Rilke's poem, but also the assignment with my daughter-in-love and my granddaughter! This is not the kind of "company of other women", which was experienced by Jean Shinoda Bolen during her pilgrimage, For the kind of company which she describes, I'm still waiting. But I know, that this dream, too, will manifest, ~~~~ "soon". As to manifesting what we want, as emphasized by "Abraham" in the daily e-mail messages, I had an insight, after I had parted from Mika at the gate of her kindergarden. In front of the building, outside the fenced-in area, is a strip of lawn. What stood out from the green grass, was a huge heap of dog shit. When I see such disgusting ugliness, I feel the potential for cutting the throat of the dog's owner. I myself had just picked up little Nella's little shit, though she had placed it under a plant where nobody could see it. Often I pick up nearby shit of other dogs, but not this gigantic heap! As I walked away, I heard on the inside: "Turn the disgust and the anger into 'Good-Feeling-Thoughts'!" I actually succeeded in doing this: envisioning that huge dog's owner as caring for the environment, desiring the public lawns in his town to be green and clean. While making this experiment, my thinking expanded: Why am I so angry at "Abraham" for omitting so many aspects of "desiring and manifesting"? If "Abraham" would tell people all the conditions that I know and see, nobody would understand what they teach, leave alone be able to apply it. . I recalled Leon Pinsker's "Auto-emancipation", which for me makes Pinsker the real founder of Zionism, Though that doctor from Odessa is my idol, I used to blame him for leaving out the central line in his motto: "If I'm not for myself, who'll be for me [but as to myself, what am I?} And if not now when?". [listen to the chorus of the Partnership-Hymn in 4 languages!] But he NEEDED to leave out this line of ancient Hillel, which I interpret as: I am always dependent on others, and if I want to be responsible for my life , the master of my life, I must take responsibility for shaping my dependencies,. If he had added this condition to his incredible appeal: "For how long shall we Jews wait for the Messiah to save us? For how long shall we implore the Nations to embrace us?" that in the land of Israel live other people, not Jews, and if we do not win them over as partners, we cannot survive there, then people would have discarded his message altogether, his message about auto-emancipation, about self-liberation. [I now found (part of?) Autoemancipation online, but there the claim is, that Pinsker returned to Odessa to write it, while I learnt, that he hid in an attic in Berlin and published the book anonymously, see my "sculpture" - below ,on November 20, 2010] The same was probably true for Paulus, the missionary of Christianity, about whom Martin Buber said: "He came up with an important antithesis against Judaism at that time. But this antithesis became the justification for Christians to slaughter Jews. If someone feels an antithesis growing in himself, he must wait with publishing it, till he has found the synthesis." I've believed that all these 50 years, [see my sculpture of 7 pages in SongGame about "1960-11_04~~~Christian & Jewish, Israeli &German~~~ 2010-11-04"] ever since Buber said this to me. But now I begin to understand, that evolution doesn't work like that. Even if someone comes up with a synthesis, another will make this his antithesis. People will see it as a contrast to what has been before. Therefore, I'm now at peace with "Abraham". I myself am learning and applying what he teaches. I don't need Abraham to see the whole picture, since I have it already. And as to what I called "Abraham's misleading of other people", causing them often even more despair and self-hatred, if it seems to them , that they cannot manifest their desires, I must transform this blame into "Good-Feeling-Thoughts", like: "other people will get the missing information from elsewhere at their right time." I hope, that now, that I've removed my resistance to Abraham's Teachings, I myself can benefit from those in a much faster and more effective way! |
From the book of Jean Shinoda Bolen, Crossing
to Avalon Purification: Removing Obstacles
to Clarity |
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Arad, Thursday, November 18, 2010
From your human perspective, you often believe As you listen to our guided
meditation recording, [What about the extreme
tiredness which I feel today? |
THE
WAVE OF WORLD GRATITUDE seems to restart today, Nov. 18. See Day 1, Sept.8, 2010 - Now with the title: Wake to Dream. Day 1 Welcome Beloved! For our 42 Day World Gratitude gathering (and beyond!), let's use the following practice to connect with our world wide family of Gratitude: Focus on Gratitude just before drifting to sleep, As our gathering is World wide, Here - we meet as One, in Love - with Gratitude. Using Gratitude One by One, to move through a state
change, |
Facebook:
Stephanie Thaler November 17 , 2010 Hi there! How are you Rachel, ma matsav? I am great! I have been traveling a lot, as usual, and right now I am at home with my blood family. I have made a decision that I would like to make aliyah to Israel, and walkaboutlove was a big part of this, as well as feeling home in the country. One thing I need is a recommendation, and I felt that you would be perfect because you know me in my last few years, and you know how much Israel means to me. If you could do this for me, it would be wonderful! I will be applying with Nfesh b'nefesh... let me know if this is okay for you to do it for me? Thanks for your time and help, hope that all is well with you! Cheers, Peace Love and Stephanie |
Facebook,
Nov. 19, 2010 ~~~Shalom
Stephanie, [with whom I had a terrible experience in the desert and a delightful experience in the Galilee] I hope, this time I'll complete my letter! 2 days ago the computer shut down in the middle. I'm happy you want to make Aliyah. For whom do you need the recommendation, and what should it include? To say that "I know you", would be a big lie, though we DID touch each others' souls for a short moment. If you really think, I'm the right person, then the following condition will put you to test: Promise me, that once you enter Israel, you'll be among those who make the Israelis return to the word "Shalom!", when we meet, "Shalom!", when we part, and "Shalom!", when we care for the situation or the mood of another person: "ma shlom-kha", not "ma hamatzav" . Since "words are petrofied philosophy", I deem it extremely important that a nation who claims to want peace, at least sticks to the one word, which all the world knows: "Shalom!" When "the Walk about Love" (love!) left the Arab village Darijaat, where we were invited to stay overnight without paying a penny, and passed by a kindergarden, many of the kids were watching through the fence and screaming: "Shalom! Shalom!" But we Jews, we discard and trample over our so precious, so meaningful, so prophesying word "Shalom!". Shalom means "Wholeness"!!!! Herzl giggled when he imagined that someone would ask for a train-ticket in Hebrew. If not for Eliezer ben Yehuda, who did not let anyone come near his son Itamar, if he didn't speak Hebrew, we would talk Yiddish or German etc. , or probably: there wouldn't be any State of Israel at all! When I, a German, became Jewish and changed my very Christian name "Christa" [the full name, which my father, a young judge, insisted in giving me despite the protest of his Nazi Party members was: "Eva-Maria-Christa" - By the way, my German-Christian father fell during the American invasion to Sicily in August 1943, at the age of 31]----- I demanded from everybody except from my mother, to call me Rachel. I demanded it even from my sister and my brother. So please, Stephanie, become my partner in this demand from the people in the State of Israel. If you still want that recommendation, it might be more convenient to write via e-mail: batadam.c@gmail.com Christa-Rachel |
Precious rain at the border between Israel and Palestine above the Salt Sea and Noah's Cave, March 2004 |
From Rabbi Ohad Ezrachi's article about the present Hebrew month Kislev
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Energetischer
Wetterbericht für die Zeit vom 11.11.2010-30.11.2010 Maitreya durch Julia Schuricht Der 11.11. .. ist kein Tor im eigentlichen Sinne, sondern eher so etwas wie ein Spiegel auf dessen Rückseite eine Tür ist. ... Werdet ihr angezogen und betrachtet das, was ihr seht in Liebe, geht ihr durch den Spiegel hindurch und befindet euch auf der anderen Seite des Spiegels. Dort dreht ihr euch um und seht von diesem Augenblick an euer Gegenüber, euch selbst und eure Mitmenschen ... so, wie wir euch sehen. Oder aber ihr werdet abgestoßen von eurer Reflektion im Spiegel- dreht euch um und bleibt auf dieser Seite des Spiegels- und so seht ihr in euren Mitmenschen das, was ihr in euch selbst saht und ablehntet, als ihr in den Spiegel blicktet. .... Es kann Tage geben, an denen Ihr euch wundert über euch selbst und euch fragt, ob ihr jegliche Toleranz gegenüber der Selbstbestimmung eurer Mitmenschen abgelegt habt. ........ Zunächst begegnet ihr euch selbst und eurem Selbstbild. Und so sind es Themen der Selbstliebe und Annahme, die –wieder einmal- in euch aktiviert werden von diesem Spiegel. Ihr mögt euch teilweise fühlen, wie ein Teenager, der unzufrieden ist mit der Form seiner Hüften oder der Biegung seiner Nase ... Ihr seid nun aufgerufen, hinter das Bild zu blicken, damit ihr auf die andere Seite des Spiegels treten könnt. Und so mögen es „Banalitäten“ sein, die euch nun begegnen bis hin zu tiefen Formen des Selbstzweifels und Fragen nach eurer Bestimmung. Schicksal und Bestimmung Ist das, was ich tue, wirklich das, was ich tun „soll“? Diese Frage führt viele von euch nun an den Punkt der Entdeckung, dass es nichts mehr gibt was ihr tun sollt. ... Ihr werdet nun entdecken, dass der Sinn eures Hier- Seins das Leben selbst ist- und euer Teilnehmen und euer Ausdruck darin. .... Das Warten ist vorbei Blickt in den Spiegel. Betrachtet euch selbst und lächelt euch an, nehmt einen tiefen Atemzug und geht durch die letzten Reste von Selbstzweifel und Erwartung hindurch und dreht euch um. Und dann blickt auf euer Leben und das Leben auf eurem Planeten und seht, was ihr verändern möchtet. Seht, was euch gefällt, und was nicht. Und dann beginnt, es zu verändern. Die lange Zeit des Wartens ist vorbei. Das Warten auf Zeichen, auf Hinweise- auf eure Seelengefährten, das Entfalten eurer Aufgabe- das Warten auf- was auch immer ihr gewartet habt- wartet nicht länger darauf, denn das Spiegeltor fordert euch auf, euch ein letztes Mal anzublicken, wie ihr wart. Und dies anzunehmen, um dann zu verändern, was ihr zu verändern wünscht. Der Fokus erweitert sich aber hierbei und dehnt sich aus. Zunächst auf euer Umfeld und schließlich auf euer Miteinander als Gemeinschaft und letzten Endes auf euch und euren Planeten. Das Finden von Lösungen auf der anderen Seite des Spiegels Und so beschäftigen euch zunächst „kleinere“ Fragen, euch selbst betreffend, bis ihr euren Fokus ausweitet auf eure nächsten Mitmenschen und noch weiter erweitert auf die Menschen , die euch begegnen- bis sich Euer Blick weitet und ihr die Menschheit als ganzes Wesen betrachtet und schließlich eure Erde. .... Dies ist der Spiegel. Dies ist die Qualität des Spiegeltores. Blickt hinein und ihr seht die „Probleme“- Geht hindurch und dreht euch um- und Euer Blick wird auf die Lösungen fallen. Dies ist die Magie, die in diesem Spiegeltor liegt. Es bringt euch auf die andere Seite. Es bringt euch auf die Seite der Lösungen auf neuem Boden. Lasst die Energie des Neuen in euch den Platz finden, der euer Motor für die Ideen der Veränderung ist. All dies zündet nun in euch und ihr mögt euch müde fühlen, abgespannt, wie nach einer langen und beschwerlichen Reise- und dennoch- drängt das Neue nach und lässt euch teilweise nachts nicht schlafen, fordert euch, Lösungen zu finden für scheinbar aussichtslose Probleme- Und wie durch ein Wunder wacht ihr auf und aus euch werden diese Lösungen geboren. Wenn ihr aufwacht und Euer Herz und euer Kopf voll sind von Ideen und Lösungen und Tatkraft, dann wisst: Ihr seid durch den Spiegel gegangen. Dann geht hinaus und beginnt zu reinigen, zu erschaffen, zu verändern oder zu erhalten. Atmet das Neue aus euren Herzen in die Welt und die Welt wird antworten. (excerpts from thenext weather-report see Learn&Live 10>Dec.10,2010) |
Shabbat, November
20, 2010 |
See above - on Nov. 17, 2010-
my example of Pinsker's "Autoemancipation" of understanding,
that evolution works through "contrast" [Abraham!], or "anti-thesis",
and that even if I would "publish" the synthesis which I reached,
it would - for others, if they accept it - become an antithesis.
Also on November 19, 2010, I started to copy and edit:
LIBERTY THROUGH RESPONSIBILITY, 1975
[Soon I'll juxtapose another document to the ongoing edition
of this one: Excerpts from my Partnership Diary 1976-77,
the end of "Liberty through Responsibility" can be seen in "My
Being too Much" in Closeup-to-my-Past ]
My
own creation about "Autoemancipation", 1975 |
I had first inserted the photo from Wikipedia, where - on the cover - Hillel's quote is missing. A few days later I , "by chance", opened the bad copy of my 1975 manuscript: "Liberty through Responsibility". There I found the photocopy of another version of the 1882 cover of "Autoemancipation" which does show the incomplete quote of Hillel! |
The entry page to "Liberty through Responsibility"
(1975) claims a prepostorous authorship: Rachel - a mother in Israel
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Preface to "Liberty through Responsibility" |
page 1b-2a As to my seven favorites- Moses, Eliyahu, Jeremia, Hillel, R. Yochanan ben Zakkai, R. Yehosha ben Chananya, R. Yehoshua ben Levi, as well as to the anonymous sectarians of Qumran, s. my book |
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page 4b-5a |
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3c-4a |
Shabbat,
November 21, 2010
excerpted from Abraham’s new Getting into the Vortex Guided Meditation CD The perfect contrast of your time-space reality will continue to stimulate your thirst while also holding the promise to fulfill every desire that has been inspired. And so, whether you are focused upon contrast in this moment— and so, are in the process of asking for more— or whether you are focused on your breathing in this moment and are allowing what you have asked for, it is all part of the process, and it is all on your path. Your repeated listening to our meditation recording will allow any problems to move into the background, and the solutions to move into the foreground. Over time, your appreciation for the question will become equivalent to your appreciation for the answer, and your appreciation for the problem will become equivalent to your appreciation for the solution. And in your newfound ease with what-is, you will find yourself in the state of allowing what you truly desire. And then, all manner of cooperative components will reveal themselves to you in a delicious co-creative dance of Deliberate Creation. |
Shabbat,
November 22, 2010
excerpted from Abraham’s new Getting into the Vortex Guided Meditation CD Many people are approaching life from the flawed premise that if they work hard and struggle long and pay a big enough price, they will then be rewarded with financial well-being. And since they do not realize that in their struggle they are denying themselves alignment with the abundance they seek, when the abundance does not come, they attribute it to luck or favoritism... But there is no luck or favoritism. There is only allowing or resisting, letting in or keeping out the abundance that you deserve. As you gradually train your own thoughts into those of positive expectation, as you align with thoughts of worthiness and Well-Being, as you align with your true power by seeking good-feeling thoughts —you will no longer offer resistance to your own abundance. And when your resistance stops, your abundance will come. A flood of good-feeling ideas and possibilities will flow to you. Opportunities and propositions will be plentiful. And soon you will stand in knowing amusement that all of this was always there within your reach, but in your resistant state of attraction, you were not yet able to experience it ~ but then, it came—not because of your struggle but because of your ease. |
Living a better-feeling life
really comes down to one thing: ....
every aspect of our physical experience Abraham has helped us to understand “Everything that we teach
Anytime you try hard from your
position ?If you can find a way of focusing
differently The Getting Into The Vortex
hardcover with CD includes four powerfully guided daily meditations
that have been designed to get you into the Vortex Want to learn how to most effectively
apply these laws to your everyday life?
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1975
About 2 months after the completion of "Liberty through Responsibility", I appeared for the first time on a TV talkshow, with Yaron London: Tandou. My husband watched it and expressed his sadness in this poem |
1975 |
2010
I've seen most of the 4 part 2007 movie
sequence of "War and Peace" by Tolstoi (100th deathday). |
It
was difficult to
find info about this fifth screen version , Nov. 1, 2007: "The immortal work of the brilliant Russian writer – “War and Peace” by Leo Tolstoy – takes a new breath. The premiere show of the new screen
version of “War and Peace” The “War and Peace”
TV series |
Continuation of
"Detailed Process of my studies and work-experiences"
Appendix B to MY LIFE
and MY VISION about MAN and WORK
Continuation
of Closeups to my Past, Finetuning to my Present,
Nourishment for my Living -
- which enhance and enrich my experience of "Mika's
Heaven on Earth"