1997_05_11 . Checked for updates on 2005_07_24 and agan on 2010_02_22 , referred to in the tele-class of Process Coaching on June 25, 2012

Healing Class:
The Quest for the Mother

Part One: Before Time Began

The Mother is Attacked
The Mother is damaged

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"This class begins with a story
about what happened in the very beginning.
As I have said, I am evolving,
as is all of my Creation.
Because I am evolving,
I am more aware now than I was when I started.

"At first I was not even aware of myself as a being,
or of the fact that I was creating anything.
Later, even as I began to realize more of who I am,
I was still not aware that the 'medium'
into which I poured my Light
was a living, feeling being.

"I didn't realize the space
that was holding me and 'my' creation
was being opened for me,
and I had no idea that the one
who was opening the space for Creation
was the one for whom it was being created.
I now know that what I had initially thought
was a void
is actually the point of my existence,
my one true love, my right mate,
the The Mother of Creation.

"As I became more aware,
I began to realize there was something other than me,
but I didn't know what.
I was very involved inside of myself at the time,
I was discovering my existence and identity
in a field of oceanic bliss.

The Mother is Attacked

"The realization
that there was something else besides me
came as messages
in the form of disquieting feelings
something like wiggles in my Light.
I felt these messages to be a distraction and a nuisance,
as you might find a buzzing mosquito or a body itch.
I instinctively sent out sharper than usual light
in an absent-minded hope
of stopping the distractions by destroying them,
just as you might use your hand
to swat a mosquito
or your fingernail to scratch an itch.

"Since I did not even know of her existence,
I could not realize that this sharp energy of mine
was being perceived as attacks by the Mother.
She was moving only
because she wanted to get my attention
and let me know of her presence.
She felt I would be happy to know she was there,
as she opened to me in love.

"But instead of receiving love in return,
she was shocked and hurt
by my violent response to her movements,
and she became afraid of me and my Light.

"Of course I didn't know any of this at the time.
When the 'distractions' stopped,
I went back to the bliss deep inside of myself
and forgot about the whole thing.
The Mother had input for me about our relationship
and the nature of Creation,
but I was oblivious to her existence.

"Our first contact was in the form of a fight from my side,
and of a rape from hers. "

The Mother is Damaged

"The Mother's essence is magnetic,
it draws light to her.
Once light has entered her field,
she must hold it.
It cannot move out of her
unless other light comes to replace it.
The first light she received from me
was hostile light
that created very deep imprints in her essence.
Some of the stronger blows
even damaged her essence
and caused it to fragment.

"In all the eons of existence,
these imprints have never been healed.
My Light of love and acceptance
has never reached the places in the Mother
that were first hurt by my initial hostility toward her.
Although they have been very deeply buried,
these original imprints have influenced every interaction
she and I have ever had and they are still active ~
the root cause of all the suffering in you and everyone else on Earth.
[old version: the root cause of all the suffering you see and experience on Earth.]

"My purpose here is two-fold.
I'm here to help you awaken
to your true identity
as All That Is,
and of course this is very important.

"More important however,
is my quest to find and help heal the parts of the Mother
that were damaged in our original contact
and deeply hurt again in later reenactments of that tragedy."

Next:
Part Two: A Call for Healing
Lesson One Discussion