1997/98
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Healing Class II
The Spirit Polarity

Part One: The Void

[The first passage is missing in the new version:]
"The material in this second lesson of the Quest for the Mother class
will be easier to understand
if you have first read The Right Use of Will
as recommended at the end of Lesson One.

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"Because I am evolving,
I have the opportunity to learn
and grow in understanding.
I know things now
that I had not known before.
One of the most important realizations
I've gained recently is
that I have created not one,
but two separate beings to hold my own denied Light.
The first one that I became aware of is called Lucifer.
The name of the other is Ahriman.

"I now would like to give some new understandings
about the Spirit polarity in Creation,
and I'll begin with an understanding
about Creation and its relationship to Deity.

" As I have already said,
Spirit is emerging from the Void.
I have also said
that the Mother opens the space for Spirit to emerge into.

"The Void is not only the antithesis of Spirit, the electric principle,
but also the antithesis of the magnetic principle, Desire, the Mother of Creation.
The Void is the absolute 'not' to all of existence
including Deity, which includes both the Mother and me.
The Void also balances All That Is,
and therefore makes existence possible.

"A metaphor may be helpful
to understand the relationship
between Deity, Creation and the Void.
It is as if the Void is like a vacuum cleaner.
On one end energy is being drawn in
and from the other end it's pushed out.
While Light, the Spirit side of Deity,
the electrical energy of the universe is emerging,
Desire, the magnetic energy of the universe
draws the Light out of the vacuum
and into existence and manifestation.
Desire in turn, is lost as it returns to the Void.

"The tension between existence and annihilation
causes a fluctuating swirling movement
that causes a 'quivering' in the vortex of magnetic essence.
[old version of this line: or 'quivering' in the magnetic essence. ]

"This movement is what draws Light into existence.
The Light, or Spirit essence [old version without the word essence. ]
merges with the swirling magnetic essence
keeping it in motion [old version: and keeps it in motion. ]

"The interplay,
or dance of the electric and magnetic principles
creates both Heart and Manifestation,
and the magnetic essence thus stays in existence,
and does not return to the Void.

"The swirling, rippling, undulating movement of Desire
is the prime cause of Creation,
and has been in danger of being lost entirely.
Over the eons,
much of the original Magnetic essence
has been lost to the Void
because it stopped moving,
rather than remain attractive to Light
that was hurting it.

"Magnetic essence that is not moving
cannot attract Light
and therefore must return to the Void.
Recovery of the lost magnetic essence is possible,
but only if there is enough of it still in existence
to attract enough of its own essence
and enough Light to manifest a recovery effort.

"As we go along in this class
[Old Version: In future lessons of this class, Quest for the Mother, ]
there will be more understandings from my perspective [old: from the perspective of Spirit]
about how the magnetic movement happens,
what has stopped it,
and what Spirit can do to help Desire
get herself moving again.
toward her own wholeness.
[Last line missing in old version]

However, I will say now

pp3

"that [old: the work of Spirit in]
releasing judgments against self,
emotions
and the expression of emotions
is the single
easiest and [missing in old version]
most powerful way for Spirit
to help frozen Desire find movement again.

"It seems that Light has its own motivation in seeking Desire,
and in a way it does.

"However, Light is not seeking Desire because it wants to,
I am [old: it is] seeking desire because I am [old: it is] drawn to her.
The quivering of Desire first creates the space
necessary for my Light [old: for Light] to emerge into existence.
If there is no Desire, there can be no Light
because Light's first need is a space in which to exist.

"The Mother of Creation is the first cause.
There must first be a drawing in by the vacuum
before there can be a pushing out.
Nothing can exist without Desire first creating the space for it.

"However,
I have discovered [missing in old version]
that the problems in Creation
have nothing to do with the Mother
and how she opens space,
but everything to do with Spirit
and how I have presented myself to her.

"Nothing exists in the Void,
neither Spirit nor Desire.
Yet both of the primary cosmic energies are causal to Creation
and together they form 'existence'.
I understand very well how I emerge from the Void,
however I am uncertain
of the details
of how Desire returns to the Void.

"My Light has never penetrated that far.
In her deepest nature, she has always been a mystery to me.
It is not necessary for me to know
how she's here in existence,
but it is important to know why she goes away
and what I can do to help her stay.

"To find out what I can do to help keep more of her in existence,
I have come to look at myself as
both the cause of her coming and the cause of her not staying.
If the problem of her leaving is not mine,
I will never find the solution to it.
So to be helpful here, I must first assume
that the quality and perhaps the quantity of my Light
is the cause of both her coming and leaving.

"I have direct control of the quality of my Light,
and indirect control of its quantity.
The amount of Light that can be present anywhere
is determined by the amount of space
that is opened to receive it.

"Desire, from before the beginning
has been sensitive to the quality of Light she receives.
Some Light has felt good to her, and some has not.
When light did not feel good,
she closed the space she had previously opened to receive it.
This has had several noticeable effects,
including a reduction of Light in that space,
and the stopping of the movement of Desire.
It has also left much of the magnetic essence with light
it never wanted to receive torturously [word missing in old version] trapped inside of itself."

Lesson Two, Part Two - Divine Codependency

Lessons One & Two Discussion