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52 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 38th day, September 2002
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Joys on the second of September:
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2014 |
The FELT days 147, 148, 149, 150 ~ of the next 15 FELT years
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5 y e a r s = 5 4 8 0 days
of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e Z e i t "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d t i m e "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me! |
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January 26, 2014
3 days have passed since Immanuel's 51st birthday,
I want to honor him -and myself-- by a composition,
beginning with Mika's incredible song for her Abba,
adapted to the
song about the steadfast cypress.
{as to the English letters on the shirt, she
says it was meaningless,
perhaps she wanted to write IMMANUEL in English and regretted it}
Immanuel
is born - January 23, 1963 (s. more) |
Christa
is pregnant |
Immanuel
is 4 weeks old, Heidelberg, Germany |
Immanuel's
father, Rafael Rosenzweig, 2 years before I divorced him. This is my, Rachel's favorite image of him |
Immanuel's
mother, since the divorce, March 1981, called Rachel Bat-Adam sitting on a rock in the river Jordan, 1981 or 82. |
Elah
(with her boyfriend) and Alon and Tomer, Immanuel's
children, Mika's stepsiblings |
"One of the 8 doves was meant to bring peace... and failed" |
And what about my vision?
My childish quest to get a "Sign from Heaven" each day, is answered
day after day.
For instance the written phone-conversation with Yusuf on Jan. 23,
and the verbal phone-conversation with Ezri Alon on Jan. 24,
and the encounter with "Gingie" from Mitzpe-Ramon on the market
of Acco on Jan.25:
"in the snow of 1992 we drove to you to
see, how you were managing,
and what did you say? "why are you making
collises in the pure snow?"
"I'm sorry for this", I laughed like
he did, "do you know Gadi and Efrat in Mitzpe?"
"Of course , I do!"
and the last dream this morning after a night of having woken up and stayed
awake often:
there was a list with names on a big poster - I don't remember for what,
but on top of it was written "Pyramidion, Rachel Bat-Adam",
and in the bus from Shoham to Tel-Aviv,
I suddenly lift my eyes and above the driver see
how the name of a station appears again and again,
and when the driver stops I see it also on a sign outside:
"Khittah", "Wheat-Street",
Hadn't I given much thought to "wheat" in the desert in the future?
Hadn't Micha brought me 2 kinds of "Durum Pasta"
["we don't like it!"]
made of the hard wheat that grows in Israel and can also grow in the desert?
And last not least - the news weather expert showed
a live scene:
Irrigaton sprinklers water wheat in January!!
No sprinklers during biblical droughts! Nor imports
of soft wheat!
January 27, 2014
"They" postponed the decision who will get the job of the director of tourism development in the Negev. Is this a "good" sign or a "bad" sign for Gadi & me? |
SEGULAH - a Special-Treasure
The
morning-book: Amos Elon about the history of the Jews in Germany 1743-1933, in my German edition called: "At another time", in the original called: For the pity of it all. p.229 "Ueberall war die Saekularisierung auf dem Vormarsch. Protestanten und Juden legten immer weniger Wert auf religioese Riten. Fritz Mauthner pries an den Juden ihre starke Neigung zum Saekularismus. Wieder sei es ihre historische Aufgabe, die Welt zu fuehren, diesmal als Pioniere einer modernen Gottlosigkeit. Freud sprach von Spinoza als seinem grossen Bruder im Unglauben." I translate: "Everywhere secularization was proceeding. ... Mauthner praised the Jews for their strong tendency to secularism. Again it was their historical task, to lead the world, this time as pioneers of a modern Godlessness." This sentence (if Amos Elon quoted Fritz Mauthner well) shows how even a "secular" Jew feels, that the Jews have a historical task, On the background of Mika's strange utterance: "Maybe I am a segulah-child", I want to go again into the ancient question, what is Israel's mission in this world? And is my vision connected to this mission? |
How
often do I think of Israel as the 'am sgulah,
the pioneer of humankind. How often did I tell the evolution of the biblical God from wanting to annihilate humankind, but seeing one human as "whole", not "good", but "tamim", who would reproduce humankind, yet again: the same patterns>the tower of Babel, "so we won't disperse" By confusing their language, "God" forced them to disperse. yet again: Terach, Abram's father, "settled". Finally "God" comes to the understanding. There has to be a pioneer, who will "go", part from safety and security and "go to himself" A terrible destiny for Israel to be an outsider among nations. Only one in several generations became a Yakhid Sgulah, who exemplified what a human has to learn to become whole and thus create a life of freedom and fullness. It still has not been learnt, but Israel - in his Yekhidê-Sgulah - led the world: Marx, Freud, Einstein [all from German background, by the way!] , an unproportional high procentage of Jews who got the Noble Price, and also "going out" from a stifling religion to resurrect a decrepit nation, resurrecting their petrofied language, resurrecting their creative powers in agriculture . away from a stifling religion to resurrecting a decrepit nation. It is now, that Israel has again to function as the 'am sgulah, by balancing the slavery of technological Babel by dispersing in the desert and learning there how to become whole. |
I
find my song about "yekhide'-sgulah" 4 times on "Healing-K.i.s.s.",
but never explained. After all the original verse in Exodus 19:5-6 talks of an "'am-segulah", of a "special-treasure PEOPLE" not of "special-treasure individuals " "You shall be to me a special-treasure from among all peoples, Indeed all the earth is mine but you, you shall be to me a kingdom of priests, a holy nation" translation of Buber-Rosenzweig pupil Everett Fox |
But
what I came to understand in time, was, that Israel is "a people of treasure" only in a passive sense, a dire result of its denying its uniqueness, its attempt to escape it, yes fight it, i.e. the task of its uniqueness (ye'ud yikhudo) for the rest of humankind. What kept this uniqueness and this task of uniqueness alive, was the fact, that this concept and the exemplary manifestation of this concept in Moses "zae talui bi" - "this depends on me", [a midrash put in the mouth of Moses]-Talmud, Berachot 32,2 and "o who would give that all the people of YHWH were prophets" Nu.11:26), "produced" "special-treasure-individuals" , who took care - often by endangering their lives, or at least by going through intense loneliness and frustration [see the song "My 3 Peers"]- to make their people aware of their responsibility for their destiny. |
from a 2013
entry
If it is a
law of this Manifestation, In other words:
from
bio-testimony 2
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See the comment to the
song "zakharti lakh", Looking into the "history" of the
Slaves' Exodus from Egypt, But why is Jeremiah's God so grateful, |
ENVISIONING January 27, 2014: I desire to be guided - by this metaphor yes, this physical reality of THE DESERT not as something that already happened, but as something that will happen NOW!
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January 28, 2014
Moments of Grace, when my own uniqueness became palpable
Yusuf:
"Through all my 40 years I've never lived, except on
that one day which I spent with you".
My granddaughter finds herself in my presence:
SEGULAH
One of Mika's piano-pieces, "Romance"
by Anton Diabelli.
The seemingly simple tune touched me so much,
that I knew I would adapt a song to it.
And the song came to me:
segulah - the precious-treasure
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From timeline3b
- an early stage of the present vision
And I heard:
"When humankind did not learn what 'God'
wanted them to learn through the FLOOD,
and instead of becoming each one unique, built
the Babel tower "so we won't disperse",
he called one man to
leave his comfort-zone and walk through the desert for months,
and never settle!!! but even in his intended country
move from time to time, all his life.
When the Hebrew slaves did nothing to become free, instead preferred their
comfort-zone
where food was provided
and the question: Who am I and what am I here for? was solved,
'God'-Moshe led them into the desert, where "
ani yeda'tikh ba-midbar,
s. 2012songs Nr. 17,
meaning: here, where you own nothing, and even food and water comes only as
a surprise,
here you will be able to ask the true, real, relevant question: "Who
am I and why am I here?"
Your VISION about PEACE through DESERT SPS HOSTING ECONOMY
is meant - among numerous things - to give humankind a new chance,
to learn to create "civilizations" without depleting their very
resources
and after having demonstrated through a model how this can be done
you now
run a sword into this model - to dispel people's complacency.
addition on January 28, 2014:
"among numerous things"
my desert-vision appears to be ever more comprehensive, yes all-inclusive,
nothing less than a quantum-leap, a paradigm shift, a new time-period,
that I'm often scared of being megalomanic.
I was consoled a bit, when - in a program about Einstein - I heard him saying,
that he didn't want to dedicate his time and talent to this or that phenomenon.
"I want to learn, how God worked, when he created
the world".
It was then, that he came out with his E = mc2
From my website "ARARAT-Heart"
Looking out from my tent on Rakhaf, towards the two Ararat-breasts - and beyond - towards the Salt Sea. |
Before going to sleep, I felt like opening a folder in my archive - randomly.
What came my way were pages of my 1971 research about the am segulah,
The "special-treasure" stands out only in its horrid holocaust consequence: