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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
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It seems that I chose 26 actors
for my life's drama and those 26 actors chose me! One
common trait of all roles is "mutual dependency"
between them and me.
With 16 actors - my family - the mutual
dependency is life-long! With my landlords
at Arad & with my 6 starchildren, born
between 1986-88, it may be temporary.
My children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha; my
children-in-love: Efrat, Uri, Ra'ayah; my 10 grandchildren [born
1987-2005): Elah-Alon-Tomer-Mika; Jonathan-Rotem-Yael-Itamar;
Arnon-Ayelet
My landlords: Ofir & Meital+ Lior (2002) & Amit (2005).
My starchildren: Lior Oren, Zipi Winkler , Dina Strat , Meshi
Taib, Gal Mor, Boris Arons [26=YHWH=13+13=ahavah+ahavah =LOVE!]
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2008
December 11
Kislev
14
Thursday
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Actions:
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
washing dishes,
exercises ( too few..!)
TV: Te Deum:
Gehorsam: Jesuitenorden |
Interactions:
Efrat & Mika
Ph.
to Ultrasound analysis: not ready. therefore SMS to E. no appointment
with doctor .
Ph.
from Efrat: we'll return late, activity with friend Adar.
e-mail to Micha, SMS to & fro
e-mail to Boris
70 min. phone-talk w. Immanuel |
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The FOCUS of MY INTENTION
TODAY
8:33
I desire to go on and practise this
healing process which I followed in tonight's sleepless hours:
feeling all I feel ~~~the worry for my loved-ones~~~the sorrow,
if I couldn't help them ~~~
~~~the guilt if some attempts to help triggered them~~~the doubts
if I was right to even try~~~
all this while breathing strongly & asking Body expressively
to move all those feelings, sometimes
- when the mind drifts away - returning to Body's work with
the help of a Paula-key,
like stretching a leg or toe or putting my hands on my eyes
until the guilt leaves, and even the worry and sorrow, yes even
the "betterment-pattern"
and humor returns: "Life
is just a game" and
"you have to be very allowing,
even if they destroy themselves",
for they all chose their scripts and
the co-actors for their dramas, and I am just present with love
and compassion,
just available with my whole being, and if I can't avoid triggering
them, because it's a trigger they attract from ME,
or if I make mistakes and trigger them because of a
pattern or a judgment of my own, then I trust,
that in the bigger puzzle the curse will t urn into a blessing,
& my mistakes will act as dung that fertilizes the soil
of their seeds.
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my
paper-bin, turned upside down,
serves as Mika's stool in my room,
with a folded cloth as a cushion...
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
9:55
My Body, my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to another Aya-Paula-Key,
which seems to do the same work
as the exercises given to me by the Physiotherapist, only
without rope
(15) Standing - feet parallel -
without leaning sidewards - I lift one foot,
while the strength comes from the foot and not from the thigh
or the back .
The other foot is rooted firmly on the ground.
I lift my foot a bit and then more, but not to the extent
of pain in the thigh.
I lower the foot in the same way - i.e. the emphasis is on
the foot,
not on letting fall the leg.
The alternating between the feet can be done faster or slower,
the point is that Body doesn't lean to the left, when the
right foot is lifted .
I can also watch out, if the arms want to do something.
At 20:15 yesterday evening I was very
grate-full and "thanked to God".
It had seemed to me, that my "Intentions for the day"
had been fulfilled:
- that there was true and helpful communication of 45 min.
with Tomer,
- that Efrat loved herself for how the meeting at Ben-Shemen
proceeded
- and that the coincidence of Levi's call, just when Tomer
entered
(and I could make them fix an hour for fixing an appointment)
was "a sign from heaven".
But soon enough everything seemed to be an illusion,
and the only gratitude I feel now, is for having grown through
this myself...
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The little table, which usually stands to the
right of my computer table, is today moved in front of the screen,
so that Mika can do both - draw on paper , listen to the dances and
sometimes look up and follow the steps,
explained - on their DVD
- by Levi
or by Ayelet, or by both, - or watch the dancers - parents and
children .
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When they danced the song: "The Sleeping
Beauty" - I was transported - in my mind - to the early 19th
century to a German castle,
after having - only recently - seen a Tchechian movie of this story,
heard perhaps from a grandmother by
the Grimm brothers
and then written down, then translated into numerous languages, and
resurrected in movies - animated or with life actors.
I wished that German grandmother or the Germans of the Grimms' times
to see into the future
and be stunned by what they see and hear:
Sleeping Beauty sculpted into a Hebrew song, danced by my foster-son
Levi and his wife,
listened to by my granddaughter in a small room in a village in Israel....
[I now - Dec. 14 - learnt
from Wikipedia "Sleeping
Beauty", that the original story wasn't told by the Grimms,
but as the first in a set of fairy tales published by Charles Perrault
in 1697 .
It doesn't matter... - for me, and probably for many people - it was
first told by a grandmother in a forest...]
Since
we are alone in the house - a rare chance .... - Mika, of course,
wants to have her supper in an unusual place, in this case, on
the little table in front of the screen. She - somehow... -spreads
the table-cloth, which I recently retrieved from her parents'
closet
(my embroidery in 1959! intended for the signatures of my mother's
guests... ) - to protect the cover
of my bed, when Mika wants to draw there, & I try to teach
her to eat "like a big girl", without dropping crumbs
of cottage and omelette on my carpet.
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She enjoys it, when Ayelet appears on stage alone,
showing the steps of a certain dance
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Now Mika dances herself... |
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The images above were taken yesterday, when we
were alone in my room,
while Efrat drove with Tomer to that meeting with the Ben-Shemen team,
which - when she reported it to me - produced a horrid trigger...............
Tonight Efrat sits herself in front of the computer screen in my room,
enjoys what she sees and then moves with it according to Mika's instructions..
She squeezes a cushion
between desk and the little table
(which today had to be placed in front of my bed) "this
is where I'm going to sleep!" |
I'm
sending all these Levi-dances photos
to Immanuel at Atlanta (flight-similator!)
"for consolation"...
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A letter to Micha, my son ,
about Grandma-Day on Shabbat
Nourishment
from Others
"Driving
Backward into the Future" = "Closeups
to the Past" = Healing&Harvesting
my Past
When I visited my daughter's
family in Boulder, Colorado, in 1994,
I went to a shop with "Spiritual Literature",
and the one book, to which I was attracted,
was
"The Bringers of the Dawn".
I wouldn't have bought it for myself,
but thought it might be a gift for Yael
Gavish,
whom I then believed to be my successor in Succah
in the Desert.
But before I gave it to her, I read it myself,
in the plane and after,
and discovering some passages, which enriched
me
(which doesn't happen often for someone who
internalizes "Godchannel"...)
I decided to record them on a casette and I
learnt these passages,
whenever I was walking on a road, waiting to
hitchhike somewhere.
To my regret I lent the casette to someone,
and "as usual" never got it back.
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But some sentences pop up in
my memory in certain situations,
and one did so during the sleepless hours of this
night:
"You have to be very allowing,
even if they destroy themselves!"
(it refers to the law,
that each one chooses his lesson and the pace of learning
it)
When I now tried to find the quote on the Internet
(in vain),
I came across these excerpts from "The Bringers
of the Dawn",
which are still helpful to living my own lesson:
Excerpts
from Bringers of the Dawn
From Chapter
1, "Ambassadors Through Time," Page 3
We are here. We are the Pleiadians,
a collective of energy from the Pleiades.
We have a long history. Our ancestors came from another
universe that had achieved completion, a universe.
You are simply working on a planet coming to completion,
and we are here to help you with that task. This completion,
or transformation, has been heralded by many for eons.
It is an important time. What happens on Earth now
will affect the entire universe.
Completion consists
of you understanding who you are so that you can go
further with the experiment. Our ancestors
came from a universe that had completed itself and
then understood universally that it was Prime Creator,
the First Cause, or the journey of Prime Creator in
time. They came from a universe that had discovered
its essence-creativity. By discovering that essence,
we found out that we are creators.
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From
Chapter 3, "Who Your Gods Are," Page 23
There are many misconceptions
about the idea of godhood. The universes are full of
intelligent beings who have, over time, evolved and
developed all sorts of capabilities and functions
to serve their needs
to express themselves creatively. The importance behind
existence and consciousness is creativity, and creativity
takes many forms.
Eons ago, Earth was but
a thought in the minds of great beings who had set before
themselves the task of creating new forms of existence.
Many of these beings affected the creation of this universe,
and you have termed them God. In actuality, they were
extraterrestrial light-bearing energies far removed
from Prime Creator. We rarely use the term God with
a big G. If we were to use that term, we would be referring
to the entity we know as Prime Creator. Prime
Creator, in its own personal implosion through love,
endowed all things with consciousness. All things are
Prime Creator on Prime Creator's journey.
We see ourselves as an
extension of Prime Creator — always gathering
information, going off on adventures, and doing whatever
we need to do to make our lives more interesting and
challenging so that we can feed Prime Creator.
As we feed Prime Creator through our schemes and our
endeavors, we endow Prime Creator with greater energy
to give to new creations.
From
Chapter
8, "Outside the Ultimate Tyranny," Page 87
The ultimate tyranny in a society is not control by
martial law. It is control by the psychological manipulation
of consciousness, through which reality is defined so
that those who exist within it do not even realize
that they are in prison. They do not even realize that
there is something outside of where they exist.
We represent what is outside of what you have been taught
exists. It is where you sometimes venture and where
we want you to dwell; it is outside of where society
has told you you can live. ...
From
Chapter
11, "The Name of the Game ," Pages 117-118
Thought comes first. Experience is always secondary.
It is never the other way around — that you have
the experience and then you base the thought around
it. Always your experience is a direct reflection of
what you are thinking.
... You must, as a species,
make it your intention to stay very clear, to stay centered,
and always to bring yourself into the moment. Stop living
in the future or living in the past, and always live
in your now. Say to yourself, "What do I want?
I want to accelerate my personal evolution. I want Spirit
to assist me in a greater capacity. I want my body to
regenerate itself. I want to emanate health. I am willing
to give up difficulty so
that I can be a living example of what humanity can
be." It is this
line of thinking — this commanding from your being
and calling out what you want with clarity — that
brings you everything in acceleration.
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Big
Brother Drama - Daily report during the last week
images: Shifra, Yossi,
Leon and an ad about registering for the spring semester at
Ramat-Gan College
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2008
December 11
Kislev
14
Thursday
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Actions:
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
washing dishes,
exercises ( too few..!)
TV: Te Deum:
Gehorsam: Jesuitenorden |
Interactions:
Efrat & Mika
ph.
to Ultrasound analysis: not ready. therefore SMS to E. no appointment
with doctor .
Ph.
from Efrat: we'll return late, activity with friend Adar.
e-mail to Micha, SMS to & fro
e-mail to Boris
70 min. phone-talk w. Immanuel |
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Intro
to
k.i.s.s.-l o g + all
dates
~ Library of
7 years ~ HOME
~ contact ~
SEARCH
( of Latin characters only!) my
eldest granddaughter's video-gallery
whole&full-filled,
never perfect&complete 
Keep It
Simple Sweetheart
K.I.S.S.
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