I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
K.I.S.S. -
L O G 2
0 0 8
Keep It Simple Sweetheart
1
2
3
4
5
6
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"AZ
NIDBERU"
- My
new Midrash and song
in 5 languages
about the prophecy of Malachi
3, 16
["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The
Name]
1 2 3
How Learn And
I The Train
Heal Conditions In
Myself For Creating
Into Heaven Those
Whole On Conditions
Self-acceptance Earth Daily
Click!
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
50th day of "having died to
righteousness" - did
I?
to Rami: "other
old people like me may not care about time, but I do" ,
I felt "better than they", and this, after before
I had stumbled, when running up the stairs and hurt my toes
Actions:
To thepool
(2) climbing up and down
the Wadi of Compassion
Garden: working watering
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
Technical learning: again
how convert .amr to .wav
Interactions:
LIOR & AMIT complaint
to pool-manager Rami : why is a chip needed to exit the pool-hall;
we reached a solution. Since he was so nice, I - after my swim
- asked for a clock, visible for me. He was less nice, and I
was defensive. ~~~Tzippi - Boris - Shai
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may
8:10 winter-time
I desire to savor those 3 fantastic
movies, 'Camel's Tears', 'Keys to the house',
'Not Afraid,not afraid'
while practising Godchannel's advice:
imagine something good in Creation. When you
have chosen something~~~
observe it carefully and then say to yourself, 'I
did that.'
You were speaking for Us, the Creators in you.
I desire to enjoy every breath of this day, healing, learning,
creating - al-one in my castle
An
erronous click on my cell-phone camera- the vent spirals cooling
air on to me! Thanks
hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
My
Body, my Partner I give thanks
to the smooth functioning of our Pituitary gland
"a small oval endocrine gland that lies
at the base of the brain... sometimes called the master gland
of the body
because all the other endocrine glands
depend on its secretions
for stimulation"
I am grate-full that there are signs for Heaven-on-Earth
and that I do see and emphasize these signs,
not only in those 3 movies with tears ....
but also in a sentence I heard just when I opened TV during
breakfast: the
British economist Sir Anthony Atkinson - said,
that COOPERATION and COMMUNICATION is becoming better, and
that he is surprised, how in general sessions of the EU for
instance,
there is so much concern for the problems of the different
nation partners
Nourishment from Others
Nourishment
from Others
Like a title to today's work
on this page:
"We are responsible for cocreating the New
Earth.
We will accomplish this transformation by using the
creative faculties
of our thoughts, words, actions and feelings.
Every single moment,
we are either adding to the Light of the world or
to the shadows depending on what
we are empowering
with the focus of our attention"
There is a saying in the Talmud,
that at the End of the Days it will not be the parents who'll
help their children,
but the children who will redeem their parents.
The two films "Keys to the House" and "Don't
be Afraid" demonstrated just this.
In "Keys to the House" it is a father who is redeemed
by his son,
in "Don't be afraid", it is a grandmother who is
redeemed by her grandson. "Why are you doing all this for
this child?"
said the mother of the daughter, whose predicament was much
more severe than that of the boy. "Do you want to atone for something?"
she laughed, not yet knowing, that it was his son.
"Perhaps", said the
father and later, when he had admitted, that this was indeed
his son,
she wanted to know the details about his previous denial and
his present admitting.
While walking away, he said: "Let
me not talk about this so as to not add more lies."
Indeed, I did not really undestand, what had happened in the
past,
why he was blamed for the death of his son's mother during
delivery,
and why he suddenly responded to the quest of the people who
took care of his son
to take him from Italy to Berlin for surgery and physiotherapy.
This and other "openings for dramas" were not utilized
by the movie.
For the point was - as I see it - the point of the last verse
of the prophet Malachi,
which is also the last verse of all the prophets in the Hebrew
Bible,
and in its translations - the last verse of the "Old
Testament" altogether:
"See,
I will send you the prophet Elijah
before that great and dreadful day of the LORD comes.
He will turn the hearts of the fathers to their sons,
and the hearts of the sons to their fathers;
or else I will come and strike the land with a curse." Malachi
3:23-24
Plot
Summary
"Prepare yourself for suffering if you intend to
be close to him."
So speaks the mother of a young woman with severe disabilities,
speaking to Gianni, the father of 16-year-old Paolo,
himself developmentally disabled.
Gianni abandoned the boy at birth, when the child's
mother died, and Paulo's aunt and uncle have raised
him.
They have contacted Gianni and asked him to take Paulo
to Berlin for a battery of medical tests.
Images of people walking, running, skating, and dancing
dot the screen as Gianni and Paulo get to know each
other. Over a few days, Gianni tries to sort out his
obligations and his desires. Will he accept his role as father
to this engaging, mercurial, disabled youth
Unlike "Don't be afraid" [see
below] , this movie received many reviews
I'll quote one - from the
New York Times - which understood, what I understoud
: a track to redemption
A Father's Arduous Trek to Redemption
By MANOHLA DARGIS / Published: December 22, 2004
A love story about a man and his son, "The Keys
to the House" is the kind of quietly unassuming
tear-jerker that works its way into your heart despite
the occasional cries of protest emanating from your
head. On a train from Milan to Berlin, a young appliance
repairman, Gianni (Kim Rossi Stuart), takes charge of
the son he abandoned at birth. Now 15, that child, Paolo
(Andrea Rossi), has been under the care of his aunt
and uncle who, after ministering to his developmental
and physical disabilities, have decided to turn him
over to his father, ostensibly for therapeutic reasons.
Like a few of the film's other bothersome
details - principally an inexplicable side trip to Norway
that leads you to suspect it has to do with the Norwegian
company that helped produce the movie - the reasons
for Paolo and Gianni's reunion don't track especially
well. The story opens with Paolo being delivered
into Gianni's care while the teenager is en route to
Berlin for physical therapy. The
German therapist turns out to be one tough cookie. She
barks instructions to her tiny, underdeveloped patient
with the ferocity of a drill sergeant, and initially
I wondered if we're supposed to think that Italian therapists
are too soft for this kind of heartbreaking job. Like
the Norwegian company, the German production companies
listed in the credits may afford a better explanation.
The brave new world of international film
financing occasionally means that stories that might
once have been better served by one locale are sometimes
forced to hopscotch from financing country to financing
country. This matters to the rest of us only when, as
with "The Keys to the House," the different
locations and players intrude on a story's integrity.
The director here, Gianni Amelio, has several powerful
features under his belt, including "The Stolen
Children" and "Lamerica," and while it's
a pleasure to see his name on the screen again (his
last feature, "The Way We Laughed," was released
here in 2001), it is disconcerting to find him navigating
around such geographic obstacles. It's particularly
unfortunate because the story he tells here comes fraught
with considerable peril.
That peril takes the shape of a teenager as bent as
a kinked pipe cleaner and wearing a smile so disarming
it could slay an army of thousands. Disabled people
generally get a raw deal in the movies. In most fiction
films they tend to be on tap mostly
for their symbolic value, as representations of life
gone out of balance, or as the means for the emotional,
spiritual and psychological redemption of the nondisabled
characters invariably at the story's center.
("Rain Man," ad nauseam). Redemption
is certainly central to "The Keys to the House,"
which is, after all, about a man trying to right his
wrongs. But Mr. Amelio suggests that redemption is not
just a matter of making amends; it's also hard, unforgiving
work.
None of this would matter if
Paolo weren't as charming, irritating and, finally,
as mysterious as any kid his age. He's difficult not
only because he is disabled - Mr. Amelio addresses his
difficulties with a pitiless eye - but also because
he is a teenager."The
Keys to the House" is frustrating on numerous counts,
including a diffuse, unsatisfying performance from Mr.
Stuart and the sudden introduction (and disappearance)
of an underdeveloped character played by Charlotte Rampling.
But it is with Paolo that
Mr. Amelio works a modest miracle. Because the young
actor who plays Paolo is himself disabled, it's impossible
to know whether he is playing a character or a version
of himself. Whatever the case, he keeps you hooked by
virtue of his humanity, not his disabilities.
'
Recalling the affecting parent-child dynamic
of his award-winning 1992 film, Stolen Children, Gianni
Amelio's House Keys (Le Chiavi di casa), is an equally
outstanding, entirely unique father-son
portrait.
User-Comment July 2005
USA
[unlike "Don't be afraid", this movie received
many review and many user-comments,
I'm quoting just one"]
touch everyone with a story that, BECAUSE
of its subject matter, gives more insight into the human
condition than almost any other film to date.
...In the opening scene Gianni (Kim Rossi Stuart) is meeting
with Alberto in a frank discussion about the status of
Paolo (Andrea Rossi), the son of Gianni whom he has never
seen, the child being born as his girlfriend dies in childbirth.
Alberto and his wife have been caring for Paolo for fifteen
years, loving him, admiring him, working with the fact
that Paolo has cerebral palsy with he concomitant handicaps
of distorted limbs but with a mind and heart completely
normal [this doesn't seem to be
the fact to me!]. Paolo's doctor has informed Alberto
that perhaps having Paolo connect with his birth father
may aid his progress in walking normally and increasing
his self-care. So at this meeting Alberto, regrettably,
turns Paolo over to the hesitant Gianni, an appliances
worker who is now married and has a new child.
Gianni and Paolo meet for the first time, board a train
to Berlin for the best Children's Orthopedic Hospital
available. Very gradually the two begin to learn about
each other; Paolo wants to prove he is self-reliant,
Gianni wants to prove he is an adequate caregiver. In
Berlin Gianni observes Paolo's intensive physical training,
finding the boy's strengths and qualities and need for
love. While Paolo is hospitalized Gianni meets Nicole
(the brilliant Charlotte Rampling) whose 20-year-old
daughter Nadine (Alla Faerovich) is severely physically
challenged: Nicole has devoted
her life to being at the bedside of Nadine and shares
with Gianni the truths about parenting challenged children.
Their conversations are sage and realistic and enormously
touching.
Gianni and Paolo begin to bond, to share their lives,
to explain the fifteen year gap in their relationship,
and Gianni agrees to fulfill Paolo's dream of going
to Norway to meet Paolo's pen pal love Kristine. Along
this 'road trip' the two ultimately face the idiosyncrasies
life has offered each, they grow from each other and
.... well, the ending is far too beautifully formed
to spoil.
Obviously the easy way to make this film would have
been to hire actors to 'mimic' challenged characters,
but it is to Amelio's credit and for our good fortune
that he has cast unknown physically
challenged youths in the pivotal roles. Andrea Rossi
as Paolo is a revelation: he gives the kind of performance
that is at once honest and yet delicately nuanced.
Both Kip Rossi Stuart and Charlotte Rampling are extraordinary,
each playing their roles without a trace of pathos.
This film does not stab for emotional response; it simply
allows connection with a story about the importance
of human love and compassion and family commitment.
I cannot recommend a film more highly
The father has grown a lot,
both through the encounter with his son
and through the encounter with the mother of a daughter, whose
sickness was much more severe.
He now feels confident, that he can invite his son into his
life with his wife and baby.
But the reality of the fulfilment of the prophecy is not kitschy.... [for Hebrew readers: please
read the images from left to right]
but you'll have to help me dress
don't worry
in your house - can I open the
door with my keys?
Everything was so very sweet:
When the father had taken the decision to become a father,
he took the son out of the hospital and drove him to his imagined
girl-friend in Norway,
but when they drove back from there - with the final aim of
Milano in Italy - there came the setback:
The son wanted to drive,
the father was not careful enough in "being a boundary"
and let him participate in driving,
but, Of COURSE, the teenager overstepped the boundaries and
even endangered them both.
The father manages to stop the car, leaves it, and visibly
falls into an abyss.
Nothing is said, but I identified - with tears - with his
despair , which said without words: "How shall I
ever live up to this boy!
and how on earth do I dare to demand from my wife , the mother
of my baby, to cope with this son?" My great teacher,
Tomer, a perfectly "normal" healthy teenager now,
makes me feel just like that: "I cannot cope
with him>>>> I am no good >>>> I am
worthless!"
The feeling of utter powerlessness - that's how I felt it
- made the father walk away.
But now his son - just like Tomer so often - transformed into
his angel and was at his side,
and when the father could finally cry, the son was there to
comfort him. "Don't cry! I am with you!"
A pity, that nobody told him, that these
tears were not the pain, but the healing...
The father is bewildered, even
shocked: What is it you say?
It's late. I have to go home.
Do you know, where I live? Often the son seems to be also
mentally handicapped.
Don't cry:
Tears are running down your cheeks.
Don't cry.
I am with you.
I know. You are right. Forgive me.
It is strange, that today - at an unusual time for me, at 18:00 -
I paid attention to a doc in the series "Maedchengeschichten",
girls stories, in 3SAT
about a girl, 2 years older than Paolo, whose half body is also inflicted
with C.P.
and who can see things, like auras - "around children they are
stronger" -
and through the telescope -" flowers on Mars, in spring they
are colored, in winter transparent"
and talk with trees (the young ones have thin voices, the thick and
old ones have low voices).
She painted herself as Jesus "the lamb", believing, that
she cannot escape,
until she'll have fulfilled her task.
She knows, that she is handicapped for the sake of other people,
"so they know, what real problems are"
(this is said, while we see the superhuman effort of crawling to and
up the door to reach the handle)
and also in order that they won't avoid handicapped people when they
meet them.
When she looks into the clouds, she sees angels - millions fly around,
with 2, 4 or 6 wings...
They see her to and wave their fingers to her. [a pity, I didn't take a picture, there
is none on the Internet]
Alexandra Nicolaescu lebt mit ihren Eltern in einer Einzimmerwohnung
in einer Plattenbausiedlung in Bukarest.
Die heute 17-Jährige ist seit ihrer Geburt spastisch gelähmt,
auf ihren Rollstuhl und ständige Hilfe von anderen angewiesen.
Wegen der Hänseleien und Demütigungen ihrer Klassenkameraden
haben die Eltern Alexandra aus der Schule genommen und lassen
das intelligente Mädchen von einer Privatlehrerin zu Hause
unterrichten.
Die Kosten für den Unterricht und die notwendige Krankengymnastik
verschlingen den Großteil des Einkommens der Familie.
Höhepunkte in Alexandras Freizeit sind die täglichen
kleinen Besorgungen, die sie zusammen mit ihrer Mutter erledigt.
Während ihre Mutter im Laden einkaufen geht, muss Alexandra
jedoch draußen warten,
weil die Läden zu enge Eingangstüren und keine Rampen
für Rollstühle haben.
Manchmal träumt Alexandra von einem großen Haus,
einer eigenen Familie
und einer Karriere als Anwältin, Psychologin und Heilerin.
Denn Alexandra hat eine besondere Gabe:
Sie kann Engel sehen und mit ihnen sprechen.
Sie glaubt, ihre Mission auf Erden sei, den Menschen durch ihre
Behinderung zu zeigen, was echte Probleme sind. Außerdem
sei sie dazu berufen, mithilfe positiver Energie, die sie von
Gott bekommt, Menschen zu heilen. Manchmal sitzt Alexandra stundenlang
auf ihrem Balkon und beobachtet den Himmel durch ihr Teleskop.
Tagsüber winken ihr dann Engel zu, und nachts sieht sie
dieBlumen auf dem Planeten Mars.
Die Autorin Andrea Asch, 1977 in Bukarest, Rumänien, geboren,
studierte Dokumentarfilm und Fernsehpublizistik an der Hochschule
für Fernsehen und Film München. Sie kennt Alexandra
seit Jahren und hatdas begabte und willensstarke Mädchen
für ihren Film mit der Kamera begleitet. Bereits mit ihrem
Abschlussfilm an der HFF München - dem Dokumentarfilm "Der
rote Teppich", der 2007 mit dem FFF-Förderpreis und
dem Prädikat "besonders wertvoll" ausgezeichnet
wurde - ist ihr das berührende Porträt eines behinderten
Menschen gelungen.
"Blumen vom Mars" ist ein Beitrag der 3sat-Dokumentarfilmreihe
"Mädchengeschichten". Die Filme porträtieren
17-jährige Mädchen aus verschiedenen Ländern
der Welt. Regie führen ausschließlich Frauen, von
denen die meisten aus den Herkunftsländern der Mädchen
stammen. So repräsentieren die "Mädchengeschichten"
nicht nur verschiedene Lebensentwürfe junger Frauen,
sondern auch unterschiedliche dokumentarische Erzählweisen
internationaler Regisseurinnen.
After being abandoned by her husband after 28 years,
an overbearing, self-centered psychologist embarks
on a quest
to revisit her past loves, accompanied by her 6-year-old
grandson,
who has Down syndrome, after he turns up unexpectedly
in her van
From
the Irish Filmboard
Left by her husband of 25 years and convinced she
is dying of cancer,
Paula decides to embark on an obsessive quest: first
poisoning her wayward husband and then killing herself!
Her Downs Syndrome grandson, Thomas, decides to accompany
her and the film charts their growing friendship with
caustic humour and unsentimental insights as they
take off on a belligerent, eventful and often comical
journey
Paul McGlinchey - who acts
as little Tom.
How can that be? I was sure, it was a real child with
Down Syndrome!
Sentences I remember:
"I had more fun with this child in one day than
in the 27 years of my marriage".
(Previously she had called this child a "monster"
before,
worthy only of being dead)
Song of the Day
Dive like
a sea-gull
sing like a sparrow (?)
.... like an eagle.
fly like a ...
don't be afraid
life is just a game.
remember
tomorrow
? to follow
like .....
... the ocean
feel your emotion
.... forever
will be together
don't be afraid
life is just a game.
melody without text and then
again
.... forever
will be together
don't be afraid
life is just a game.
User Comment:
January 2007, Lima, Peru : IT IS
ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES I HAVE SEEN IN A LONG TIME.
Completely original content, humorous, and thought-provoking
without being pretentious. In essence, a highly intelligent
(but charmingly despicable) woman confronts divorce, death,
the inadequacy of her children, and most powerfully, her
grandson with Down Syndrome. It is pleasant enough if
you just want to sit back, have a laugh and shed a tear
or two. But it would be a shame to miss the observations
on the human condition. ...; the perspective and humor
is a pleasant mix of Irish and English. No one in the
film is "normal", which allows for some wonderful
perspectives on each other's condition. The acting is
excellent. Conclusion: unless the
word is spread, this film will remain an undiscovered
gem.
[these are the only user comments and there is no professional
review!]
July 2005 , Taiwan: Handicapped people is everywhere,
physically or psychologically. The depiction of the Down
Syndrome kid is lively but not overwrought, and the interaction
between him and Dianne Wiest is very moving. Sometimes
the line doesn't intend to dramatize but still makes you
sob a little. Dianne here gives a great acting consists
of neurosis, sensitivity, and tenderness. .... Handicapped
boy is amazingly true to life. The way he talks and frowns
is just like real Down Syndrome patients. Also worth mention
is the wonderful rural scenes of Ireland.
The Oscar-winning American actress, Dianne Wiest, takes
the leading role in the feature film, Not Afraid, Not
Afraid, which starts shooting here on May 29th and will
be directed by by the French writer-director, Annette
Carducci. Wiest has won the best supporting actress
Oscar twice, both times for Woody Allen movies - in
1986 for Hannah and Her Sisters and in 1994 for Bullets
Over Broadway.In Not Afraid, Not Afraid she will play
a woman who summons her son (Jack Davenport from This
Life and The Talented Mr Ripley) and his wife (Elsa
Zylverstein from Metroland) to tell them she is dying.
Going on a nostalgic journey to the homes of her ex-lovers,
she inadvertently brings along her eight-year-old grandson
who has Down's Syndrome. The boy will be played by Michael
Weir, who is from Belfast.
I'm writing an e-mail to
the Irish-Times
Sir, On Sat 05 May 2000 [yes! 8 years ago!]you
announced "the feature film, Not Afraid, Not Afraid"
will start "shooting here on May 29th and will
be directed by by the French writer-director, Annette
Carducci."
I have a question and a quest:
the question:
your entry says, that the child with the Down Syndrome
will be played by a child from Belfast: Michael Weir.
On all official – though meager – info sites
I read, that the actor was Paul McGlinchey, a grownup
man.
Since I was so enchanted by the child's play, if indeed
it was a play and not simply acting as himself,
I would really like to know the facts.
The quest:
The song at the end of the movie: "Don't be afraid",
written by Annette herself, is so beautiful,
that I would like to sing it myself.
I managed to record it from the TV on my cell-phone,
but – since English is not
my mother-tongue and the recording is not the best –
I can't understand all the words.
Is it possible to get Annette's address so I can ask
her myself
and also acknowledge her for this fantastic movie,
about which one of the two only "user comments"
(no review, nothing!) remarked:
"unless the word is spread, this film will remain
an undiscovered gem."
Thank you for your relating! Christa-Rachel
Bat-Adam
I changed my plans (of dying)
Sarah, your son speaks: "Holy,
holy...."
"Thomas, tell your mother, please:
You can speak, yes or no?"
As to her housekeeper Knopf, Thomas'
grandmother came to the understanding, that after all
- the nicest place to be buried would be under her herb
garden
As to the third movie in the weekend loop
of Channel 23, see on October 8
50th day of "having died to
righteousness" - did
I?
to Rami:"other
old people like me may not care about time, but I do" ,
I felt "better than they", and this, after before
I had stumbled, when running up the stairs and hurt my toes
Actions:
To thepool
(2) climbing up and down
the Wadi of Compassion
Garden: working watering
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
Technical learning: again
how convert .amr to .wav
Interactions:
LIOR & AMIT complaint
to pool-manager Rami : why is a chip needed to exit the pool-hall;
we reached a solution.
Since he was so nice, I - after my swim - asked for a clock,
visible for me. He was less nice, and I was defensive. /~~Tzippi-Boris-Shai