I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
K.I.S.S. -
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Keep It Simple Sweetheart
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"AZ
NIDBERU"
- My
new Midrash and song
in 5 languages
about the prophecy of Malachi
3, 16
["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The
Name]
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
Actions:
To thepool
(1) climbing up and down
the Wadi of Compassion
Garden: working
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
Preparing food. Cleaning.
Sowing (repairs)
Interactions:
2 SMS toImmanuel: T's song
Oree, Narda and Offer
Muhammed Abu
Hassan Kabua
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may
7:21 [after writing
a double SMS to Immanuel] I desire Tomer to take his quantum-leap
by composing the song
t o d a y - on his father's
cellphone!
I desire my son to believe in Tomer & help him grasp this
chance of his 14th BD & Ben-Shemen
I desire Tomer to heed my belief: "it's
not a band that makes a song, but a song that makes a band!" I desire for Tomer to discover
his talent, his courage, and for me to succeed in empowering
him
Please! let my 10000 failures in empowering people & peoples
be balanced by Tomer's success!
I desire the encounter with Narda, Oree & Offer on "Rakhaf"
to be pure enjoyment.
hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
On this fourth of November -
the day when I first united with a man, Tomer's Jewish grandfather,
1960
and the day, when Israel's
Prime Minister was murdered by a Jew, 1995
and the day which I chose to move into a mystical "tent-in-garden",
2000
I am expressing my deep gratitude
for being granted the chance to help Tomer light up his light
Tomer [= 1
in gimatria] as a hologram for all to-be-empowered
humankind!
click
The
Vision of Heaven on Earth
at the end of the
last book of the Right Use of Will series
"We all like to feel
that We have someplace to go
where We are received
with love and without judgment;
when that is real,
that is a place that really feels good...
...and there is no place for
you to really do it like Earth.
If you have a body,
then that is what you have wanted to have for a long time, that is what you need
to have and that is what you shall have.
Healing is possible if you have a loving heart.
The Light of My love is all
Four Parts, Spirit, Will, Heart and Body,
moving together in the true understanding and balance
that is My Love...
the
e-mail I sent Immanuel yesterday,
with the attachments of the song for Tomer
and my notes about the rhythm
which imitates a line in two Punk songs
about "turning the other cheek" Immanuel answered not to my contentment: "What optimism-naivite is it to assume,
Tomer will compose the song so fast and even sing it in front
of all?" That's why I sent him a double SMS
at 7:20 this morning,
asking him to encourage and empower Tomer.
At about 9 AM, Oree fetched me from Arad
to "Mish'olee Rakhaf", where
we all lived and worked in 2004 .
It had been Narda's
fantastic idea to meet there, where they lived like paying guests
in one of the tent-cabins,
instead of in my flat at Arad.
I went into a frenzy of taking pictures of this splendid spot on earth.
On this page of November 4 there is space only for two of them.
While standing behind the second empty shape of
my tent,
which was erected here from September 2004 till March 13, 2005,
after Narda couldn't bear the sight of the tent at its first location
in the east, I view the "Ararat-Breasts"
and beyond my beloved Salt Sea
Next to the tent shape I see graffitis on a stone:
a heart and an Arab name, probably of an adored girl
As to more
images of my visit to Rakhaf tomorrow
(and 3 views of the eastern outskirts of Arad
taken from Rakhaf-west on October
13)
I want to repeat and expand
the quoting [see the "altar"
above]
from the last passage of the last book of the Right
Use of Will series,
the Indigo Book: "The Search for True Understanding and
Balance":
click
The
Vision of Heaven on Earth
at the end of the
last book of the Right Use of Will series
"We all like to feel
that We have someplace to go
where We are received
with love and without judgment;
when that is real,
that is a place that really feels good...
"You must take all of yourself to healing,
immortality and all of the other things you would really like
to have, and there is no place for
you to really do it like
Earth.
If you have a
body,
then that is what you have wanted to have for a long time,
that is what you need to have
and that is what you shall have.
"All of the hatred that has been pressuring against this
possibility
needs to move off of Earth...
Healing is possible if you have a loving heart.
....
"The Light of My love is all Four Parts,
Spirit, Will, Heart and Body,
moving together
in the true understanding and balance
that is My Love...
"... to receive Me in the Heart ...
is not harsh...
but soft, loving and deliciously wonderful.
It is the Will's colors rising to meet me
in the gentle pastels of a purple dawn,
gentle breezes stirring in a beautiful, blue sky,
morning like sunlight coming down through the green trees
and subsiding with Me
into the gentle golden evenings of the Will's deep colors
when We need to rest;
"the Moon rising,
first golden and then white,
in the stars sprinkled, indigo night
and subsiding
into the excitement of another pastel morning,
colorfully rising,
stirring you to return from your dreams,
as you are nestled in the arms of romantic heart,
to find them real
"and dance again with the Sun
in the warm encouragement and rich abundance
of a nurturing and colorful Earth
that lets you know
life is good and you can live it.
There is music and excitement in the air!
Can you hear and feel it yet?
And now, I
would like to close with Amen, to that!
AMEN
I also want to quote, i.e. "drive
backward"
to the last puzzle piece:
Heaven on Earth,
to the very last mystical part about the Tent-in-Garden,
which I came across this morning,
just before Oree and Narda returned me to the place,
where my
pyramidal tent could still be
erected,
if I hadn't escaped the storms and flooding - 4 years ago...
2002_09_08 ; Rosh Hashanah[the
Jewish NewYear], my late ex-husband's
birthday
...
all these exterior dramas need to be played inside of me.
That is the kind of new movie I yearn for;
...
No one fights, no one is defeated,
it's a contest between me and me,
I am amused watching it:
Are they fighting ('avaq')
or
are they hugging ('khabaq')? See the contest betweenYa'acov
and Esav,.
A mysterious prophecy came back to me,
about that contradictory non-moving tent.
Carefree oasis, tent not-to roam
{the habitation in the garden}
its stakes for ever-and-ever
and its cords not-to be-cut-off.
Biblical
Prophesy
Isaiah
33,20
I had added a tune to it and another line,
when I lived in my tent in Uri's garden,....
Uri, my son-in-love, is the one who
tends the garden. [for which I had given my last money
2 years before]
Uri is the name of the grandfather of Bezalel,
the artist who built the "Tent-of-Appointment",
or "Dwelling" or "Habitation" or "Tabernacle".
The twofold Biblical "report" on tent and habitation,
with its numerous technical intricacies [Exodus
25-39],
became so meaningful when I created the Succah!
It is integrating the physical and the spiritual world. [a summary is in Ex 40; a good
interpretation in
Fox to Exodus]
The'ohel-moed'of the desert becomes the'mishkan
ba-gan', the Tent-of-Appointment now dwells
in a permanent garden.
This is a symbol for living polarity and contest on the inside.
Heaven on Earth.
I feel, I've not made it clear enough, what I envision.
So be it - not yet clear, not yet complete.
[Not in September 2002 and not in November 2008]
Finetuning to my Present
Oree, when he brought me back to my house: "You say, you had 10000 failures
in empowering people.
This is not true, you haven't failed even once.
For all what you have so much desired
went out into the world as vibrations,
which will be felt in time."
While still at Rakhaf, he said: "I once heard that Michael Jordan["the
greatest basketball player of all times"]said: 'I have such great success because I had
such great failures.'
I hadn't made an issue of my failures,
I had only asked them
- amidst the exaltation of our re-encounter at this place
with all its memories, woeful and joyful,
to help me give energy to my great desire as phrased in today's
intention. I desire Tomer to take his quantum-leap
by composing the song t o d a y - on
his father's cellphone!
I desire my son to believe in Tomer
& help him grasp this chance of his 14th BD & Ben-Shemen
I desire Tomer to heed my belief:
"it's not a band that makes a song, but a song that makes
a band!" I desire for Tomer to discover
his talent, his courage,
and for me to succeed in empowering him
Please! let my 10000 failures in empowering people & peoples
be balanced by Tomer's success!
Here, at my gate, Oree also told me, how much he grew with
both his "bosses",
Sa'ar Carmieli at "Rakhaf" and his present boss
at the healing center of Alumot ?. "I could see my weakness and victimhood
and I am learning to become a ribbon,
i.e. the master of my life, more and more."
He connected it with my desire for Tomer and Tomer's becoming
such a master.
And I was glad for both:
that he reinforced my great desire for Tomer's empowerment,
and that he - indirectly - showed me, that he, after all,
hadn't missed the chance
of having had me as an actress in his drama in 2004....
"Driving
Backward into the Future" = "Closeups
to the Past" = Healing&Harvesting my Past "Mish'olee
Rakhaf" 2004
2004 Sa'ar Carmieli with his stepson Uri (!) in my tent A rare moment of cooperation, when all
four men were present,
Sa'ar, Hagai
and Tamir,
and Oree,
[who had worked with Sa'ar from the
beginning of Rakhaf(July
6, 2003)]
to install the new generator in a thief-proof manner.
The old generator had been stolen during a night,
in which I was the only one on Rakhaf - supposed to guard it...
As to more
images of my encounter with Oree and Narda on "Rakhaf"
see tomorrow
Just after I came back from the mystical encounter with Oree
and Narda
in the Desert on "The Pathes of Rakhaf", I came across
this song
on "Heaven
on Earth",
which I had opened this morning "by chance"
Recorded at my Salt
Sea spring, May 2000?
HE is comforting Zion, is comforting
all her ruins,
and he sets her desert like Eden
and her wilderness like His garden,
joy and gladness shall be found there,
thanksgiving , and the voice of singing. Bible, Isaiah 51,3
Immanuel called his girls from New York,
while we drove home.
And from New York back to the New York like highways and bridges,
impresses not only Micha, my son, and Arnon, my grandson,
but even me - old grandma [which reminds
me of little Offer's question today:
"why does she have wrinkles"?]
Project
until 2012: High-speed railway to Jerusalem
"The high-speed railway to Jerusalem
(also Plan A1 and Railway 29)
is a railroad from Tel Aviv to Jerusalem, Israel,
under construction since 2001.
It is set to be completed in 2012 and will be the first high-speed
rail in Israel by definition,
although it will employ regular locomotives.
It is set to replace the old Jaffa–Jerusalem railway
as the main rail link from Tel Aviv to Jerusalem.
The railway will span about 55 km.
The bridge over the Valley
of Ajalon,
possibly the most recognizable landmark of the project
I'll alternate
between how I saw these bridges when we drove south and how I saw
them when we drove north:
On our way back north to Ben-Shemen
Junction and Bet Nehemya
Before we parted
back home at Bet Nehemya,
Micha had to manage with returning Mika's seat
to her parents' car. "Why do you have to photograph
even this",
Micha said a bit annoyed. "You don't know,
what an issue this seat was this morning!!"
I didn't tell him,
that it was the reason
for Efrat's
initial resistance
to his proposal,
and I didn't remind him,
that even he,
when he learnt,
that Mika would be with us, doubted a bit
that he could find a solution
for her safe sitting
in the jeep.
I, of course, always remember, how Micha grew up
in the shadow
of his technically so gifted
elder brother,
and how it took time
until he learnt
and trusted his own talents!
After
the afternoon nap we left the house - just the two of us. On the playground she missed
Lior Oren,
and it was just in that moment that Lior called!
I refrained from taking more photos of this overflooding day,
and chose only this scene in order to remember the delight of
our togetherness.
Here she plays with the tiny doll
found within "Kinder", the "Chocolate Surprise-Egg"
,
which she was allowed to open -
I wanted to wash the breakfast dishes,
while Mika wanted to play with me.
So I did, what I did with my kids,
when they were small,
I sat her on the cleaned surface of the sink
and let her have the pastel colors for drawing
and the boxes with the acorn fruits and cups.
She enjoyed this "working together",
though each worked on a different task,
and from now on she may ask her parents
to do the same and seat her on the sink,
when they wash dishes or cook there.
Or perhaps they've done this before
and I haven't seen it.
But soon even this family will succumb
to having a dish-washer as has everyone,
and gone will be the idyll!
Actions:
To thepool
(1) climbing up and down
the Wadi of Compassion
Garden: working
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
Preparing food. Cleaning.
Sowing (repairs)
Interactions:
2 SMS toImmanuel: T's song
Oree, Narda and Offer
Muhammed Abu
Hassan Kabua
mishkan-view.jpg)
