I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
K.I.S.S. -
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Keep It Simple Sweetheart
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"AZ
NIDBERU"
- My
new Midrash and song
in 5 languages
about the prophecy of Malachi
3, 16
["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The
Name]
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
It seems that I chose 26 actors
for my life's drama and those 26 actors chose me! One
common trait of all roles is "mutual dependency"
between them and me.
With 16 actors - my family - the mutual
dependency is life-long! With my landlords
at Arad & with my 6 starchildren, born
between 1986-88, it may be temporary. My children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha; my
children-in-love: Efrat, Uri, Ra'ayah; my 10 grandchildren [born
1987-2005): Elah-Alon-Tomer-Mika; Jonathan-Rotem-Yael-Itamar;
Arnon-Ayelet
My landlords: Ofir & Meital+ Lior (2002) & Amit (2005).
My starchildren: Lior Oren, Zipi Winkler , Dina Strat , Meshi
Taib, Gal Mor, Boris Arons [26=YHWH=13+13=ahavah+ahavah =LOVE!]
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may
8:48 I desire to be given the strength to
cope with what frightens me again today:
the togetherness between Efrat, Mika, Lior and me during an
entire Shabbat together.
I desire to radiate ease and joy on all three. I desire that
Efrat will discover a friend in Lior.
I desire, that Lior will get the nourishment and coaching which
she seeks from me.
I desire to practise the "Gate" lesson of "sharing
in a way that enhances Lior's sharing".
image
of the day
no time
hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
No time
Lior accompanies Mika and me to the "bearable"
playground
In the evening Lior dresses as a soldier so as
to be entitled for free rides on her busses home
Finetuning to my Present
16:47
I'm again not content with myself at all.
The togetherness with Efrat, Mika and Lior in the house,
and also with Mika and Lior outside,
was good and harmonious, but something in me yearns for more
intensity.
Since Lior and I had completed talking about the present issues
of her life,
and I couldn't share more than general things about My main
issue: the Gate...
the talk - as much as talk was possible with Mika present
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was partly about other people, - expressions of worry, not
gossip,
but still not really worth---while.
She also asked me why I was so fiercely against her studying
medicine,
and my response to that was important,
but I'll mention only the gist of it: "Why
should you take care of people
who have become sick,
instead of taking care,
that people won't need to get sick?"
20:41
Lior is gone, Efrat drove her to El-Al junction , to her bus-station
to Jerusalem.
During the some 50 minutes alone Mika kept encouraging me
to paint with her "Strings in the Succah".
The result of our first co-creation is worth to be guarded!
The rest of the time we spent together in my room,
sometimes only I and Mika, sometimes the three of us,
- I let Efrat hear "Bach in Lambarena", and felt
nostalgic to the extent of pain,
when I heard the organ play, as I did for so many years,
- by chance the following folder, which continued to play
automatically,
contained organ music played by Albert Schweitzer himself
----
All this was very lovely and harmonious.
But now I can't find myself, feel confused in my feelings,
and the best is, to leave the computer for today and start
anew tomorrow.
After Lior and Imma had left,
Mika invited me to draw "Strings
in the Succah".
She told me, where to add my own painting,
and what colors to use.
For about 40 minutes we were both immersed in this
our first Co-Creation...
Later Efrat made these photos for me,
and the painting itself now ornament the outside of my door
at Bet Nehemya...
song of the day: Finally my own
singing of "I'll always stay myself" [Links to
professional performances see on
Sept. 19)
