The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.i.s.s.
as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential PEERS
to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
and - as holograms - all of Creation!
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

See below: December 25-31, 2010~~~~ Finetuning to my Present



Click! and click again to stop! And if you want to do yourself a favor, join in! Sing!
May my throat's overtone singing today - unite all my denied parts and lost fragments with me - today!



2005 LEARNING & LIVING TODAY
{13 - 2005_05_23}
 
"Learning to feel better requires that you become better at feeling"

Scroll down to enjoy the camels & and lovers in the desert of this day...

Today, 2005_05_23 - a great day towards the Healing of the Planet - I came again across this wonderful message [June 2003]
and edited and inserted it not only here but also in puzzle piece 17e "Releasing Emotions or Moving and Evolving them?"
I studied it again and again, most recently on Oct. 11, 2010]

The Eye Movement Exercise

An Angel Message on healing emotions.

 

Healing the Divine Feminine Force.


The magnetic Divine Feminine force
expresses itself through emotions
and through the physical plane.

 

 

 

Feelings are intense now
because great healing is underway.

Some people are ending lifelong relationships,
leaving projects that they have faithfully given their all to,
experiencing death of loved ones,
and facing uncertain futures.
They may be feeling great fear and trepidation
about politics, health, and the future of earth.

Wounded feelings from childhood are coming up
to be healed in everyone.
There are feelings that need to be healed now.
This is necessary for the transformation of consciousness
in the physical body.

In flowing into these feelings,
sometimes memories surface that feel violent.
They have so much pain associated with them
that the programmed instinctual reflex is to do everything to avoid feeling them.
It feels like life itself is at stake...This is a true panic attack.

Everyone has experienced panic
and these feelings are surfacing now to be healed.
Emotions heal through flowing.

Use eye movement
to relive the tragic event, if you can remember it.
Relive the memory over and over
until all the feelings associated with it have time to flow.
If you cannot remember anything, but just have the feelings,
flow with them using eye movement and deep breathing.

These are times when overwhelming feelings are coming up to be healed.

 

 

 

KEEP BREATHING.
Deep rythmic breathing
is the foundation of holotropic breath work.

Just as a woman breathes while giving birth,
keep breathing when panic feelings come up.

I will cry like a travailing woman, gasping and panting at once.
Isaiah 42:14

In addition to deep breathing, use eye movement
and stay focused on the feelings for as long as it takes for good feelings to return.
Usually this happens quickly.

Traditionally when panic attacks happen~~~
the old paradigm of shutting DOWN the feelings IMMEDIATELY takes over.

This has been accomplished
through medication, alcohol, diversion, disassociation, denial, magic, hypnosis, etc.

Break the habit and STAY WITH THE PANIC.


The panic passes in SECONDS~~~

BREATHE and use EYE MOVEMENT,

and use every bit of will power and mastery
to stay with the feelings
and to FEEL THE FEELINGS through.

Conscious flowing is how feelings heal.

 

 

 

This is important,
everything depends on getting through the feeling and not around it.





Flowing is how EMOTIONS heal,

denial just makes them unconscious

and the body stores them as tension and stress in the musculature.

Use eye movement and deep breathing
instead of giving into disassociation
or destructive acting out.

 

It is wonderful when panic comes up.

By healing these emotions,
the Divine Feminine Force is healed.
By healing the emotions of the dark dark wounding,
the body is healed.

It is like having an emotional bowel movement.
Whether it is fear, anger, hopelessness, suffocation, betrayal, shame, etc,
this is the healing process at work.

The next time feelings become unbearable,
stay with the feelings

no matter how painful they are,

use eye movement and keep breathing.

The feelings heal so fast it is amazing.


 

 


Two minutes from my castle - - and I am above a vast desert.
Towards sunset I walked down to search for Eliya's rotem shrub.
[Kings I, 19:4-5 - see "Integration or Eliyahu's Lesson"]
Instead I found 2 impressive tamarisks in two different wadis.
And the contrast:
between a temporary army-base and on it three aeroplanes
above a herd of mother camels, their babies and youngsters,
I discerned -guarding them- a couple of lovers in their fifties,
a Bedouin man, who has his family somewhere west of Arad,
and a Jewish woman of Arad, who has divorced her husband.
"We 've known each other for 5 years, a mystical story, incarnations..."
she told me, when I met them the first time two months ago.

 

The ugly sand heaps are remnants of old army activities

 

This composition I caught on an army-clean background

One of the mothers and her baby

The two youngsters

 

On the background of two Arad neighborhoods: to the right: "Shaqed" (=almond), where I live, to the left : "Rotem" (=broom, in German: Ginster)

I greeted the couple, asked them, if they had ever seen a "rotem" around here
- "no" - they said, while sitting in the Bedouin's car and sipping from plastic cups.
I walked on, west, where I spotted - no rotem - but another beautiful tamarisk.

 

Turning around I watch the movements of the couple through the tamarisk branches~~~

their two cars ~~~ the man gets out of his typical Bedouin pickup and walks down to his camels~~~

The woman finally walks towards him ~~~ he comes back~~~ they walk towards each other ~~~~ they meet

 

 

Finetuning to my Present
Arad, Shabbat, December 25, 2010; continuation of Dec. 24

 



On November 23-24, 2011.

I was led to re-read the events
which led to my desire
to depart from my grandmotherhood
on this and on the previous two pages

Just a few hours before ----I had felt
that I should take a picture of myself,
and now- when seeing the self-portrait
which I took 11 months ago [see below]
I saw this as yet another coincidence,
which indicates,
that this time I have to truly follow through with my understanding,
that I must part from my daughter-in-love (and therefore from almost 5 years closeness
with Mika),
because my daughter-in-love
must part from ME to truly become Herself.


See more pictures
on what may be - for a long time -
the last page with
"EnJOYing and Growing with Mika and my Family"

I have seven days to accomplish the journey of parting,
parting from my 23 years task as a tenfold grandmother.

As my task as mother became secondary after 23 years,
[23, for during Immanuel's first year I was not yet free for motherhood!],
thus my grandmotherhood will now become secondary.

 In addition to the painful upheaval of the last 12 days,
which signalled a new lekh-lekhâ in my life,
I was given these symbols for understanding:

- the composition at the end of page 12 of Live & Learn :
"after the birth of Micha and before the birth of Jonathan"

- the screen slideshow today again showed baby Mika,
but I did NOT succeed in printscreening it in "Fireworks"

- I felt like removing the mother-child heart from my throat,
which Efrat had bestowed on me
when I became Tomer's foster grandmother in Nov. 2002.
Mika had -by accident- torn the chain of the RUOW symbol,
  and since then the Tomer chain had to serve both 'amulets'.
Now the 2 RUOW hearts pair up with the refound Lover's heart.
[But only till Febr. 2011, when the chain of the latter broke, scroll to the end...]

If this is another lekh-lekhâ, where am I going to?

It seems to me now,
that there are three intertwined assignments:
--- to feel better by becoming better at feelings
----- to help my Body heal and heal Creation----
------ to prepare for the awakening of Love-------


Psalm 143, see the new triple song
See about the amazing fact, that out of all family members - Ayelet - on her Bat-Mitzva Celebration on Dec. 27, 2010 - noticed, that the Tomer symbol was missing from my throat!



[Addition on November 24, 2011:

With Tomer I had a soothing "Good-Bye" experience ,
our family togetherness in Sao Paulo in April 2011.
And - after the "incident" with his father and stepmother in July,
- a good phonetalk towards his birthday on November 8 , 2011.
Yes, he wanted to meet with me,
"but only with you" (meaning: not in his stepmother's home),
and only when he had more time in his boarding-school:
"Don't worry, I'll take responsibility for this!"
[fro


On January 10, 2011 , I came across K.i.s.s.-log January 31, 2008,
where not only this symbol is shown and commented,
but the "Communication with Deity" in the left frame there shows,
that the situation in my life now is less well "handled" by me than a similar situation then....
Elah, my first grandchild, born 1987_08_07
sitting on my bed above the water-tank in my bus

Itamar, my daughter's 4th child, born 1998_02_24,
gathered all the family around himself at his Brith,
Ronnit, his mother, and Uri, his father,
with Jonathan, Rotem and Yael, his siblings.
Immanuel and his first wife Ruth with their children
Elah, Alon and Tomer - no Mika yet,
Micha and Ra'ayah and Arnon - no Ayelet yet,
and me - with the same cut hair as in Dec. 2010

Ayelet, Arnon's sister,
born in the same year as Itamar,
will celebrate her Bat-Mitzva
in 2 days with all the family,
including the families
of my stepson Joel
and my stepdaughter Dita
[only Immanuel will be on flight],
and including Efrat,
Immanuel's second wife,
and Mika, their daughter,
my youngest grandchild.
If I'll stick to my decision,
to no longer photograph
my family
and no longer document
Mika's Heaven-on-Earth,
this will have been
the last picture of Mika:
Mika in her new room,
in her own room,
with her own mirror,
her own make-up table.
And my grandmotherhood
will never be the same.
What will it be from now on?

More signs towards my third assignment: the compositions at the end of the page with a Swedish love-song, and the fact, that the birthday party took place in the "Violet House" of Shoham!.


After I closed the page of Ayelet (her Bat-Mitzva-party was on Dec.27, 2010)
with the same statement about the end of my grandmotherhood,
I opened Learn&Live14, which follows this one, in order to re-use it in January 2010
for Closeups to my Past, Finetuning to my Present, Nourishment for my Living
I was stunned to see Learn&Live 14 interspersed with photos of the "Quartet"!
But this "happened" - not in order to change my understanding
about the end of 23 years of having been the best of grandmas,
but in order to help me 'reap my harvest' with joy and fulfillment
and then let go.

 

Rafael Rosenzweig , 1922-2001, was married to Ines Cohn from 1946-1963 and to Christa-Rachel Guth from 1964-1981

Rafael Rosenzweig's descendants

I n e s

Dita &Gideon

Orit
(&Ofer, Udi, Itai)

Hagar (&Rafi)

I n e s

Joel &Tova

Ran (&Shir)
Hadass
Asaf

 

C h r i s t a - R a c h e l

Immanuel & Ruth
Elah 1987
Alon 1991
Tomer1994

Immanuel & Efrat
Mika -2005
C h r i s t a - R a c h e l

Ronnit & Uri

Jonathan 1991
Rotem 1993
Yael 1996
Itamar 1998

C h r i s t a - R a c h e l


Micha & Ra'ayah

Arnon 1996
Ayelet 1998

 

 

2010_12_30-31
[following a passage, I wrote in 'Closeup' on Dec. 29, 2007
at the end of page 33 of "Liberty through Responsibility", 1975]

Perhaps I must not give so much attention to my failures,
they are either failures because I still need triggers
("socks"! – everything, that has to do with the crazy cleanliness of my mother)
or because I am "too good", "too giving".

It is very, very important:  I must  NOT  hold  back!
But I must take responsibility for the results of this!
Sometimes there is a relation
between those bad results and the triggers I still need
or the judgments and beliefs I still have to release.
But if I fail in preventing Efrat or Mika or anyone else to humiliate me,
I  no  longer  want  to "f i g u r e   o u t ", how to cause them to respect me.
I want to just let go and smile, not blame them nor blame myself, just trust,
that it's not me, who has to limit my loving and giving by disciplining myself,
 other than to stick to the decision - not to initiate but to be always available.
It will be YOU, who will set the limits, and if you don't, it means,
that I have to learn something.
Please help me to really internalize this insight and then apply it!


see my coping with what was "staged" in our family-drama from October 28, 2011 onward,
as hinted at (not more!) in page and page and page and page
On that morning, November 23, 2011, I discerned the tiny slideshow image above the date on the opening screen of my computer:
I opened it full view and print-screened it in this size, though somewhere in my archive there must be the original scanned photo:
It is the only photo which shows me on my motorized bike, the moped, which I drove for at least 5 years.
The scene shows me behind our house at Ramat-Hadar/Hod-Hasharon, with Immanuel (4) and Ronnit (2) on my way to their two kindergardens.
Mika, a small baby, had to be left alone in his bed, when I was on this assignment, except on this day, on which his father, who made the photo, was home.

Driving forward from the back of our house:
What image could symbolize better my 24 years of motherhood and my 24 years of grandmotherhood?
The end of motherhood was indicated, when my firstborn married - at the age of 24.
Last year I explained the coincidence or "23 years" with the fact, that during Immanuel's first year I was free to be a mother only part of the time.
But now it seems, that my decision to part from "Grandmotherhood" - the way I had lived it - can be carried through only now, after 24 years!



Continuation of "Finetuning to my Presence" on January 1, 2011