The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

Back to the Overview of all sculptures in the fourfold library of "InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness"

See below: 2010_12_23 old slides about bus-life between 1986 and 1989,
interspersed with two docs about my Partnership involvement in 1975 & 1977

 

InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Close-ups of my Past

2007_04_25: Closeup of 1986_08_10

Rediscovery of a composition, the center of which is a quote from Nurit Hirsch

 

The composition contains
a diary passage - communication with YHWH -
written at the villa of Alfred, a senile old man,
of whom I took care- for money - while his wife was away for 3 weeks.
It was the time, when I had just started to be really mobile with my bus,
and at first I was mad at myself for having given up my "freedom" so easily,
the more so as the excruciating manouvering of the bus into Alfred's garden ruined a cylinder of the motor,
the repair of which cost more than I earned....
But in time I learnt to accept, understand and even enjoy these weeks of security, stability and good food.

The newspaper cuttings present:
Nurit Hirsch, the Israeli songwriter and musical director, whose songs I love
and of which I've now [2007_05_31] inserted already several songs in my 2007 Song-Game.
In the interview she said things that were and still are very relevant to me:
"I am not interested in getting everything done and in collecting experiences all the time.
A strong experience fills me for some days, then it tires and exhausts me.
I live, as if the whole life were before me.
There is time, no need to hurry, no sense of loosing or missing out on something.
What you miss out on in one place, you gain in another place."

The two sides of the lower newspaper cutting present drawings of artists who perished in the holocaust

 

to former accidental closeup of my Past to next accidental closeup of my Past

 

 

2010_12_24, continued

old slides about my bus-life between 1986 and 1989,which I've scanned now,
interspersed with 2 related documents about my Partnership involvement in 1975 & 1977
The slide-frame says: April 1987, but doesn't say, where I had parked my bus. I think it was south of Moshav Batzra

What is relevant, is, that I believe it was there, where I let Brigitte, that pupil of mine from Berlin, visit me.
She was the only pupil I could not stand, but I helped her to get accepted in a group which traveled to Israel,
and ---since I was back in Israel when her group came, I "could not" prevent her from visiting me in the bus.
The metaphysical staging of the encounter with this woman is hard for me to accept even today.
I fell in love with her - a kind of mad, sickly love, which I never experienced before or after.

The only lesson I could discern in the experience of 1000 days of "living" together (since Dec. 1987) was,
that I needed to experience "evil" in myself.
For the drama ended with a horrid threat, which I repeated 3 times outside her minibus during 8 nightly hours:
"If you enter the Succayah one more time, there will be violence!"
She no longer entered the Succayah, but neither did she take her minibus and herself away from the Succayah.
For the rest of my time there I "had to" suffer from the very sight of this vehicle and from people's questioning.

Only one other time - in summer 1993 - she triggered me into insanity:
I had organized the hosting in the Succayah in a way, that I was less needed,
since I believed that my task was to proceed with realizing my desert-vision.
I began carving out a path of 3 1/2 km from the Succayah towards the Alpacca-Farm,
with the purpose to create a relationship of harmony with these closest neighbors.
The first part of the path of about 6 minutes wound up the hill to another wadi,
[where I slept under the sky during some weeks, dreaming an additional dream,
the "Shir-Yah" . When I drove my bus there to begin with realizing that dream,
the ranger confronted me with terrible threats, if I would not return rightaway.]


One day I could not find my path anymore.
Brigitte - whom I had named Channah to my great regret - had wiped it out.
She would never have gone into the trouble to work and carve out one step,
but she was able to come up with incredible ingenuity to make a path disappear.
Why? "I don't want you to ruin the landscape!"
All the pain in my marriage, including the physical violence in the end,
is not as pain-and shame-full as the memory of this woman in my life.


"Partnership Diary", 1977, 111b-112a
continued from previous Closeup ~~~~ [first insert in Learn&Live 7, last in Closeup]

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 30a
continued from previous Closeup ~~~[first insert in Learn&Live 6, last in Closeup to my Past]



I'm visited not only by Immanuel's family,
but also by Uri
(and probably by my daughter, his wife) .
Uri's best friend in the army
was Moshe Klein
a genious in mathematics.

It was then,
that my "twin-brotherhood" with Moshe began.

The frame of the slide says:

A spontaneous party with Moshe Klein
in June 1989 , north of Kibbutz Ga'ash.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Partnership Diary", 1977, 112b

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 30b-31a

 


Again little Elah, but also Micha, my younger son, is with me - obviously on a rainy, muddy day - where? This time they erected a tent to stay overnight

 

"Partnership Diary", 1977, 112b-113a
"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 31b-32


The following series of slides was taken during my last pre-desert parking period,
above the rocks north of Kibbutz Ga'ash, between February and September 1989.

Maya and a beach lily above the Mediterranean

Mona came from Germany to visit her parents and also me, her old peer and lover

 


I cannot recognize the boy, who watches little Elah run. He looks exactly like Jonathan today, so maybe it is Uri, his father


The slide frame says: "Nazareth, April 1987" - but what did I do there? It was definitely not with my bus.

"Partnership Diary", 1977, 115


 

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 33


Dec. 29, 2010:
I'm touched by how I describe the situation of a "doer". Little did I understand then, that it's not because of too little courage or wisdom or patience, that most of my "doing" was - and sometimes still is - "lacking", yes damaging, yes counterproductive,
but so often because of the dynamics between me and other people, especially those who felt most attracted to my "light". It has been - over and over again - my "light" , which has triggered people and made them feel worthless, since they felt they could not live up to the expectations which I planted in them, expectations not from me, but from themselves. "You extract the best out of people", said Mona, my friend, "but you also extract the worst out of people." [see now my decision for 2011, after a lesson of 4 weeks..]
It has been my tragedy that instead of making people love themselves more, I "caused" them and "cause" them to love themselves even less. They then projected and project it on me, - of course - since they did and do not yet have the consciousness and the tools to deal with feelings, in order to take responsibility for their re-action to me.
It felt like a tragedy, as long as I myself didn't see, what true "doing", true "action" needed to be in this time-period: "healing myself into wholeness, and by extension - all of creation", and this meant and means first of all: to feel better by getting better at feelings. (see some traces of my present soul-body-mind work in Live&Learn13.

"Partnership Diary", 1977, 129

"Liberty through Responsibility", 1975, page 34


Dec.29,2010 - Though I was and am correct concerning my understanding in 1974, that there are three conditions for converting a negavive dependency into a positive one, i.e. a partnership: Common Interest, Mutual Trust and Equality of Self-Respect, I had no idea, what was involved in creating the third condition. No person and no nation can make another person or another nation feel equal. It is only the person herself, the nation herself, who can make herself grow into feeling equal. It took me almost 20 years to fully understand, that the only practical way to help with this process, is to find a challenge for both parties, which is so immense, that coping with it will bridge the gap of equality . My belief is still, that such a challenge in the Middle East would be to create a Desert Economy based on the economic advantage of the Desert, which is "Space, Purity, Silence" (SPS). Since Israel and its neighbors have su much desert in their countries, I believe more than ever - after 20 years of having worked for my vision - that this indeed is the challenge, whch would bring about the feelings of equality of self-respect:
inventing the technology and economic, social concepts, which would benefit from the desert without destroying the very advantage of the desert, the SPS. Since this challenge goes hand in hand with the ecological challenges of the entire planet. the Israeli-Arab Partnership created around and on the base of this challenges would not only put to rest every "conflict" among these nations, but it would be a pioneer for a sustainable economy all over the world.

Continuation of the sequence of old slides about my bus-life between 1986-1989,
interspersed with 2 related docs about my Partnership involvement in 1975 & 1977