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"and walking humbly with your God"
[Bible, Micha 6:5]

Isn't this last composition a good transition
to the hole in my wholeness?

" Definitely!"

It's already 11:45,
and - satisfied with what I've created so far -
I would prefer to run to the pool and not bother with that hole!


"Don't force yourself! Go to the pool,
but without side-tracking your mind to rehearsing any songs.
Focus on your intention and I'll be in your mind, heart and body."


Alright, I'll go then.

13:08
Even before I entered the water,
which is such a good conduit for spirit,
I heard the basic old-new principle of what I have to do or not to do:

"Even though Tomer is your greatest teacher
and - on a metaphysical level - your most equal partner at present,
your son was right when he said:
"You are not to educate him!" "


But he also said, that this was a tricky demand,
since, after all, I'm so much involved in his life.

"Yes, therefore - on the one hand - your feeling/guessing was correct,
that the 4 hours "Initiation Journey into Adulthood" was staged,
and that even the mistakes you made were part of the staging.
But could it be,
that you were the one who was to learn a lesson,
more than Tomer? "


When you say "lesson",
you probably do not mean the technical mistake,
that I didn't explain the game of that journey in right time,
nor win Tomer over to accept and stick to its rules,
nor teach him in advance, that part of being responsible for yourself,
is to know, when, whom and how to ask, if you are at a loss?



"No! because making these mistakes in the first place, was so dumb,
that you will never repeat them any way,
and - they made the game possible!
The lesson concerns a more sophisticated application
of what has been your slogan since 2005:
"al tizmee - haiee zminah!"
[don't initiatite - be available]

What has this to do with what I see as my "hole":
the judgments I passed - to a small, big or gigantic degree,
when I wanted to give Zipi a broader perspective
on this family drama?

"As long as you allow yourself to be more involved
than you are asked to be,
as long as you let your desire to make Tomer grow up,
dictate your behavior,
you cannot but crave for receiving and giving information.
It's like with listening to the news
about all the terrible things in the world,
receiving such info results necessarily in judging,
and in the need to pass on your judgments to others."

But if I don't have information,
I'll be simply or dangerously naive,
and shall not know what to do.

"We let you know time and again:
trust that info comes to you without your craving for it!
When you are given info about T. , his mother and siblings,
listen compassionately,
including towards T.'s mother and siblings!!!!!
and think of the experiences with them, which you appreciate.


" Your son will now be wary to give you any assignment with T.
This will help you to withdraw from the exterior arena,
and do nothing but
radiate your love and compassion,
your power and knowing,
your trust and hope.


"The different acts of the drama are not staged by you.
nor were the actors chosen by you!
In other words:
What happens in the families of your children and grandchildren
is part of your drama only to the degree
that all the world's dramas are part of yours,
- since you identify with people's sufferings.


" But you must stop "changing" the actors in the dramas of your family.
- just as you stopped "changing the world" on the exterior level,
and heal and create your life every minute - knowing, trusting,
that this is the way your vision will become full-filled."

So when you saw
that I slid back into involving myself , even interfering,
you let me have that "Initiation Journey into Adulthood"?

Exactly!
And we also took care,
that you would have 16 days away from Shoham,
alone in your holy solitude in Arad.




Is this chance to be alone, all-one, also the deeper reason
for my daughter's non-communication for the last 5 years,
and for the drastic reduction of "Grandma-Days"?



There are many aims for the other actors,
but for you the main one is this:
To have such a big family, as you have yearned for,
and to have them geographically near you, in Israel,
but to still be free to do your work,
your "healing into wholeness"
yourself and - as a hologram - all of Creation!"

Synchronicities

The "morning-tape" started with the last words of William Agudelo,
and then came "a message", once cut out from an old casette
with a crucial channeling I received in September 1988,
and inserted on this casette for a reason I no longer remember..

(The channeling entity says with an imploring, beseeching tone of voice,
obviously in reference to something I had said about "Germans")
"...let it not be
that you bring malice and pain
within the heart of these people

but let it be that you bring hope, love and acceptance.

What is perhaps the highest attribute of a master,
that he looks upon the children
and he sees only their beauty,
he judges them not.
Those of thee (?) are capable to create,
if you are open and willing
a healing and an acceptance and a cooperative effort.
Is it now time, children, to close the book entitled pain,
and open that book called hope!"

Following the advice above I'm "Driving Backward into the Future" = Healing&Harvesting my Past


I am grate-full to Ruth, my son's first wife, T.'s mother,
for having invented two immensely important symbols:
which helped me to promote my work in the desert,
and even to understand that work deeper myself.
with Ruth & Elahin the Desert 1989


The first symbol concerned the logo of Succah in the Desert:
"Adopt the splitting line of St. Exupery's 'The Little Prince' ! !"
[See now The Little Prince in different languages online]
        

The other great idea of Ruth was the name
for the mobile hosting-business, based on 12 pyramidal tents:
Pyramidion

Since I erected the first model of such a business in Sinai (1996),
Ruth had not even seen it, when she suggested this name.
Later a Bedouin woman in Terabin suggested the Arab term "Rihla",
while the Hebrew term "Ohalah" was invented by me not before 1999.

"Pyramidion" is still the English term for such a business.
And it is more than that:
When I worked on the history of the Pyramidion on Healing-K.i.s.s.,
I came to call the entire experiment :

"THE PYRAMIDION or THE FUTURE"!