03_02

The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

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March 2 , Sunday, at Shoham

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image of the day - 7:55

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

7:10
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to our mechanism of yawning,
which automatically forces me to breathe more intensely
and thus to "move" so many feelings connected to last day's experiences,
which still haven't been digested and integrated.
[E-motions have to be put into motion,
and yawning is - according to Re-evaluation Counseling - thanks ! -
one of the techniques which accomplish this.]

I give thanks to the five among my grandchildren,
who gave me such joy yesterday:
Arnon and Yael, Itamar and Ayelet
and Mika.
I also give thanks to my strength
of delighting in the beauty of these "colors of the light",
while not denying the patterned fear,
which lured in every corner
as an aftereffect of the "Grandma-Day-Trigger".

When they were gone, I took my cellphone
to document self-timer & chrysanthemons

At 7:50, while her mother was busy with preparing herself for work,
Mika - already ready for kindergarden- wanted us to come to my room -
obviously in order to not be disturbed in taking out the spare "dummy-lover".
Then she re-discovered and handled my tripod until I had the idea to show her
how the camera could be mounted on it, so it could take a photo of us together.

Then she discovered flowers on the little table,
which she had never seen before:
khartziot, wild chrysanthemons.
These flowers dominate the flora of the spring in our region,
but I myself saw them for the first time this year only yesterday,
when I roamed through the Dommim-Hill with the Quartet
[see below]

I showed her, how one flower was still asleep,
with its petals turned down,
while the other was already awake.
She wanted to take them out of the vase,
smell them,
watch them from all perspectives
and then stuck them between the boards of the shelf
in front of the books,
next to the spare dummy,
all the time ignoring her mother's order (from outside)
to put this dummy back into the bag
and the one, which was still in her mouth,
back to the usual day-time place next to her doll Dora.

Fortunately the negotiation which was bound to follow,
when Imma was ready to leave for work and kindergarden,
was short and gentle,
and Mika returned her lovers to their places.

Grandma-Day Gallery

2008_03_02

I didn't know, what blankets I was allowed to use,
and in the morning I was confused and didn't remember,
which blankets belonged into the cupboard in my room,
and which under the mattress of my bed.
I squeezed and squeezed and there simply was not enough space.

If not for the trigger, Efrat would have informed me beforehand.
I even had been afraid, that she would worry too much .
And, indeed, during the few relaxed moments on the veranda at night,
when she told me all she had gone through on her journey with Mika,
she suddenly said: "But I do want to know one thing:
How did you manage with finding a place to sleep for all four?"
How could I avoid saying that Arnon slept on the floor, "on blankets"?
She was neither worried nor angry, she simply said:
"I'll put them into the laundry , since Nella's hair are everywhere."
Those huge, incumbrant blankets?
"No, no, there is no need for that. Believe me, I cleaned the floor first!"

She hasn't asked me since
(it's now the next day, 16:00, and she just came home,
an hour earlier to get some sleep).
which of the 6 blankets were on the floor (nor do I remember),
I hope she will forget about going into the trouble of washing them.

Finetuning into
A sunny grandma-day under the shadow of an aftereffect

The faces of the "big-ones" turning to each other,
the faces of the "little-ones" turning away from each other,
nothing symbolic, just cute.

But what grandma sees in these photos,
are also the blankets, cushions and sheets,
especially the two huge, fat blankets,
from which I composed a mattrass for Arnon.
In my one-room flat in Arad I can easily put to sleep 4 kids, together with myself.
But this is not my home,
or that's what the distorted message of Efrat's discharge
wants my pattern to believe...
The pattern of terror and panic of little Christa and married Rachel,
that "I should not disturb, should not bother anybody",
that hole in my wholeness, which was so deeply triggered by Efrat's trigger,
that I didn't even notice it until the Four came,
and I saw myself being on guard like a mouse,
lest I make any noise, which might awaken the cat.

Blankets, blankets - without covers.
Once upon a time I would have felt disgusted!
To sleep under blankets, used by someone else before me?
Unthinkable!
The most sickening experience was in a "hotel" in Luxur in Egypt,
to where I traveled with a pupil of mine, Esther Levi.
She said all the time "tagriba, tagriba". "It's an experience".
Why didn't we simply stand up and ask for clean sheets from the owner?
Oh no! We were much too polite to "bother" people!
At school, 10th grade, in an English class with teacher Jenny Heymann,
I once mixed up the words "carpet" and "blanket" and she got angry...

The boys made fun of the heap of cushions,
which I had moved from the big sofa,
where I placed Yael,
to the small sofa.
To my regret Ayelet,
when she saw me with the camera,
left the lovely "twin-position" with Yael
and jumped in between.
"You know, I hate posing!"
I said with a slight reproach.

The brown-yellow figure, Arnon is holding,
is of the kind,
which Itamar has been dragging along
ever since I know him.
This one can be folded in a way,
that it can function as a flashlight.
"He" is called "Lahat"!
which means "blaze!"
He got it only the day before,
and he never could be seen without it.

When they moved to my room,
in order to play a new game of cards,
called "Yanniv",
waiting for me to go out into nature,
I had to interrupt them:
"Please let me first find my way
through this maze of blankets."
So they left the room,
but alas, "Lahat" became lost.

I implored Itamar:
"Now would you be so kind
and simply wait for 10 minutes,
until I manage with this mess.
We'll surely find your Lahat then."

But it was impossible for Itamar to wait.
He made the three others help him
to search everywhere,
for he wasn't sure it was in my room.

This was the only time yesterday,
when the shadow over my soul
started to transform into a scream.
Luckily Lahat was found
and I could control myself.

Seeing,
that I had overstepped the time-limit
of busying myself with ordering the blankets, I asked them to go on playing,
while I would already peel the potatoes
for the pyree, grandma's specialty,
which they had ordered for lunch,
and that I would do so,
while sitting next to them on the floor.

Itamar is side-tracked by "Lahat".
I have always admired the three,
for accepting Itamar's extra-occupation,
while playing with them.
I've never heard them mocking him.

The potatoes were peeled, even cooked partly,
when I was finally ready to leave the house,
without having to worry,
that I left behind something which may "bother" Efrat, who wasn't even there.
The children wanted to take Nella with them,
though this really meant great "bother",
and took turns in grabbing her leash.
We entered the ugly road-under-construction to the Dommim-Hill
and the first thing they found out - was
that an echo was coming back from the front of the houses, if they shouted.
I had not yet discovered this myself,
nor had I known, that this was at all possible - an echo from the houses ??

Of course,
all except Itamar,
who yearned
for yesterday's
merry-go-round,
wanted to first visit
the Dommim-Tree,
"It looks a bit sad",
said Arnon,
"Why?" I asked,
"because it is so lonely
on this hill of
a future
Commercial Center?"

"My" Dommin-Tree
(the term used by kids)
or the Sidra in Arabic,
or the Shezeef in Hebrew,
or the Ziziphus Spinachristi,
the Christ Spines Tree
in Latin

yields fruits
more than once a year.
Yael finds and eats
some tiny "apples"
which had ripened
despite the cold.

17:17
Mika will come in a minute,
and there is no space for more pictures on this page according the the rules of my K.is.s.-L o g - Game.
But I want to note the remarkable sentence which Itamar said, (see picture on March 5)
some15 minutes after we enjoyed the Dommim-Tree and other delights,
about which I'll tell in the following days
Yael wanted to ascend one of the hills (actually Tels=artificial hills)

"Now I see, what I missed.
When one walks and steps on those thorns of last year, it isn't pleasant,
but when one sees everything from above,
and how the thorns integrate (mishtalvim) with the green grass and the flowers,,
it is very, very pleasant."

Finetuning to my Present, writtten in the morning.

Yesterday afternoon Ra'ayah fetched Arnon and Ayelet,
combining the drive with fetching Micha from the airport,
and Itamar wanted to spend time with his friend Bar at Shoham.
Yael was the last one to leave,
after we had a "private" talk for the first time in our lives...
and then, from 18:15, I was alone.
I cleaned for more than an hour,
and then could be with my computer,
not yet able to finetune to all the experiences,
but able to select and edit the photos of the 13 girls, which Deqel had sent me.

At 21:25 I heard Efrat and Mika entering the flat.
I hurried towards them and met Mika halfway,
with a little ball in her hand and the most exhilarating smile on her face.
Efrat was totally wornout by the strain of the journey in taxis and train,
but "Mika has been so woundrous, so caring for my pain and sorrow,
without her - I don't know if I would have even made it here."
And indeed, Mika was so "great" - literally -
that I dared to ask, if I could undress her and prepare her for bed.
Both, mother and daughter, agreed - for the first time in 14 months!
When Efrat saw, how Mika cooperated and what immense fun we had,
she herself relaxed and after we had put Mika to bed,
singing the one obligatory song "Laila tov, nelekh lishon",
her late grandfather's version of Brahms' "Guten Abend, Gut Nacht",
she told me the details of the stressing last hours,
smoking a cigarette on the dark veranda
and taking a call from her husband in NY.

I was grate-full, that I could control the "greyness" ,
the aftereffect of Friday's trigger,
which had been in the background of my soul
throughout all the wonderfull togetherness with the Four,
And I AM grate-full for the one sentence from Efrat,
which swept away the rest of that aftereffect.
"I see, it's splendidly clean around here! Because of fear?"
I said nothing, but she tried to look into my eyes.
So I smiled with a faint nod of my head.
And the miracle happened, - she took it lightly, with humor:
"Well, sometimes there is a blessing to fear!"

Somebody, who doesn't know what's going on at Shoham,
"where the only quarrels are about who should NOT do the dishes,"
as Tomer said recently,
may interpret that remark as: "Finally you cleaned up here!"
So, to make the humor understandable, I must quote,
what Efrat said some 2 weeks ago:
"Please, my mother-in-love, don't cause me to become a pig!
It's so tempting to delight in your slow, hidden defiance of my rule,
that you should NOT clean the dishes, nor the flat.
If you go on like this, I'll get used to it and take it for granted!
You do so much, you do enough, please don't make me a pig!"

Back in my room, working on editing photos until I went to sleep,
I heard her coughing for an hour,
and this morning, before leaving, she said - to herself, not to me:
"My body is falling apart. I urgently need some days off and be alone."
I darted on that remark:
"Yes, why don't you do that, it's possible this week!"
Already at the door she grumbled something.
I gave the desire more impetus:
"Could you stay with one of your friends in the Galilee
and feel alone enough?
Or, if you want to be all alone, live in my flat in Arad, while I'll stay here?"
Of course, she hadn't intended to be taken seriously,
nor did she take herself seriously: "I haven't thought of that now!"
Still, I hope, a seed has been sown!

19:23
The harmony is good,
though Efrat is still suffering from unbearable headache.
I was outside with Mika....[not completed]

I heard a discussion in the bathroom... [not completed]

I was present, when she dressed her for the night,
- again with funny interactions, which prove,
how Mika can stand up for herself,
she compensates for all the succumbing of my life..
But sitting with my back to the place, Immanuel's computer,
where I had placed the Quartet's Thanksgiving to Efrat,
I suddenly remembered, [not completed]

Mika - on the swing - remembered another time on this swing,
when I sang the lullaby,

"Numi, numi"

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K.I.S.S. - L O G 2 0 0 8

2012

"Abraham" e-mail quote on March 2, 2012

Take the time to line up the Energy first,
and action becomes inconsequential.
If you don't take the time to line up the Energy,
if you don't find the feeling place of what you're looking for,
not enough action in the world will make any difference.

March 2, 2012, Friday, Arad

2012_03_04- 2013_03_04

DELICIOUS DELETION

On this day my new song of the jewel of Biblical metaphors has manifested!
"Ya'aqov's wrestling with himself"
see more in SongGame 2007 on this date - March 2
And on this day - as Daniel's email announced - shemshem.org appeared in the www!
From Daniel on this morning, Arad, Friday, March 2, 2012:

Daniel, 29, my (German) software engineer and new friend and neighbor,
my angel in Computer and Internet problems, bugs, issues and ideologies
(free, free, free software!!)
convinced me to make a certain"lekhi-lakh" from the comfort zone of "Windows"
and its succumbent specific softwares, e.g. for the edition of images and sound.

It was on January 6, 2012, that I decided to birth a new - Hebrew - website!!
I would no longer have to convert all Hebrew texts into images in .gif format,
in order to be able to insert them in the English software of "Dreamweaver",
which helped me - thank you, thank you, thank you - to create Healing-K.i.s.s.
But the technical need only opened my eyes for the need of a new assignment,
ensconced in the name of the new website: www.shemshem.org

Na endlich :) Sonntag oder Montag
koennen wir demnach mit der neuen Seite anfangen.

Hello. OK, the domain shemshem.org is now registered under our generic
information. It should be available in your profile inventory shortly.

You should be able to modify it's DNS server or contact information from inside
your profile - although some things are locked by the Registry itself for 30 or
60 days on new domains in some cases.
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(1)
"shemshem"= "NameName" symbolizes both
the theme of my living research about
SHamayiM bli SHi'amuM

(2)
the addressees are all the descendants of Shem, Sem, one of Noah's 3 sons,
who "went out" of the survivor boat, in order to "disperse"all over the earth
and among them the 2 Semite peoples, not only the Jews, but also the Arabs.

(3)
Of course, "shemshem" also and most of all associates to Ha-SHEM,
THE name, YHWH,
who manifests in all the names of humans, animals, plants, minerals.

[This message later this year attracted a tune and is listed as Nr. 14 among the 2012 songs]

When I - despite the weather - climbed down to the desert,
listening to an old casette on my walkman, I heard
Hava Alberstein's : Everyone has a name, that God gave him
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Also - I got a phonecall from Tzippi, after a period of disconnection:
"Though it's not such a good idea to tell you this via phone,
I keep having a feeling about you, which I need to express:
You are no longer to be a teacher and a giver of all you know.
Something new and clear will come into your life!
it will have to do with the starchildren in Arad,
you will share it with each other,
Nobody will be the leader.
And whatever you do - do it without pressure."

From Maureen Moss,
World Puja Network

Today, I received an email from a friend in Australia. She had dinner with her friend, a breast cancer survivor. Here is that woman's message to everyone. I'm passing it along, because I think it has real value for everyone who wants to live an authentic life.

"My message to anyone dealing with physical illness is: Love yourself unconditionally! Regardless of what illness you have, or treatments you choose, whether natural, holistic, or conventional, the most important thing is to choose to treat your condition from love, rather than fear! Always see yourself as whole and well. Watch your emotions, and always make choices based on your love for your life and health, rather than to react from fear! Choose actions that lovingly move you towards wholeness and health, rather than actions taken out of fear to move you away from illness.

"We seem to believe that we constantly have to work on ourselves to improve ourselves and become "better." But the question is, better by whose standards?

"I spent a lifetime trying to live up to other people's unrealistic standards of how I "should" be - and all it did was cause me cancer, because I constantly believed that I wasn't good enough. In truth, all we have to do is BE OURSELVES!

"We don't realize that we are actually perfect just the way we are. We are born perfect, but spend a lifetime trying to be something we are not, and then feel inadequate for failing. Your only purpose is to be yourself, otherwise you will deprive the Universe of Who You Truly Are."

"The following message comes from Spirit: (through Maureen)"

"You are amongst the last generation of a 26,000 year cycle. You are amongst the first that will wake up on the other side of the conscious membrane that defines the two cycles of the human experience at the end of 2012.

...Each choice you take matters deeply now. Each thought you hold, matters deeply now. Raising your vibration, consciously, daily matters deeply now. Choose well. Choose with love, with presence, with conscious care of yourself.

My children of the Earth, ... Watch your steps. You are walking into a new Template of Creation, and from that Template you will begin a new form of your evolution.

.... Allow Me to make My descent deeply into you, allowing you to ascend and enter into a new Template of Divine Creation.

... be authentic at each turn, breathe, listen and make room for Me to lead you. Pay close attention to symbols, signs, whispers, experiences that come your way, how you feel, not how you think. And then, follow in that direction....

It is imperative that you make your life a sacred expression in all ways, from what you eat to how you treat each other and how you love and honor your truest Self.

In full consciousness, make every movement sacred, every choice sacred, every word spoken sacred, and every relationship you engage with sacred.

At the time of your birthing, you were given everything and everyone that you needed to accomplish this...

Every aspect of this blueprint ultimately leads you to be ensconced with the consciousness that allows you to move and express as an unencumbered being of love, always.

Only you can activate this blueprint by your expression of Me through You...

Do you know that there was a point in time, where I didn't know whether you would be willing to go through the trials and tribulations that would bring you to a place where we could be together in so much joy? I was concerned for a time that your feet were held too close to many fires. It has been said throughout your history that "God never gives us more than we can bear."

Beloveds, I never gave you anything to bear. You did. You called forth every trial and tribulation to yourself purposefully. You chose to merge with me against what appeared to be all odds.

Yes, that was your wish, and I prepared a place for you and let you have your wish. Through it all, I never left your side for even a moment. Through all of your pain and all of your beliefs that had you believing I was not with you, I was, and I AM.

I remind you of this; the Christ Consciousness is not only about singular love or singular peace. It contains within it the entire Divine Plan for evolution and wholeness for a species, a planet and a Universe. It contains every code that is involved with transformation of each, and you hold it within you.

Can you imagine and hold how much I love you and trust you, for I created you so that you were able to hold inside of you the path and the plan for an entire species and planet to be resurrected?...

Knowing what you hold, can you honor and love yourselves, now having a greater understanding of your Divine part in My Divine Plan for bringing Heaven to Your Earth so you could live as the Masters that you are? I wished for you to be the stars of Earth's Heavens. And you are becoming that. I Love You.

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