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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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intro
to k.i.s.s.-log ~ library
of seven years ~ HOME
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February
28,
Thursday, - between Shoham
and Modi'in
back
to past ~~~~~ forward to future
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
9:04
My Body,
my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to all our members and organs, exterior and
interior,
from brain to heart to eyes to
voice,
to blood, to breath, etc. etc.
which took part in full-filling ths morning's assignment
of letting those Bnot-Mitzvah,
including Yael, my granddaughter (11-12),
taste from the spring of living water, the Bible within their
Jewish culture.
My total surrender to making the 3 hours RELEVANT for each
girl,
came at the price of your total exhaustion,
and I thank you that you promise me to recover.
I give thanks to Deqel, the tutor,
Gili and Yael, Maya and Neta, Shakhar and Noa.
the six girls, who stayed for the improvised third hour,
in the shade of a young tree in the park, for lack of a caravan-room.
You helped me deepen and connect the messages of the few passages
within the seemingly dry text of Yael's and Gili's parashot
+ haftarot,
and thus advanced my own perception of "The Covenant".
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According to the date of their birthdays between two Shabbats
Yael and Gili got two parashahs and two haftarahs in advance
and secretly.
They read them, assisted by their mothers, and chose passages,
that were "relevant" for them.
Yael, my granddaughter, sat opposite of
me,
while Maya, whom I would come to know in the third hour,
sat next to me and my two Bibles
{when the first pages of one
of them were no longer readable, I bought another one,
but since I never managed to copy all my notes to the new one,
I'm using both!]
which I had brought in order to show them,
that this is not a "holy" book, to be guarded in a
shelf,
but a thousand year old library, to be used and scribbled into
daily.
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Adi Gadon [sitting next to Neta, Yael's
friend,
who was among the organizers
of Itamar's birthday party at "Aladin"]
was the first girl in the computer room,
and helped me to familiarize myself with it.
It happened, that Adi wanted to share,
what she perceived of Yael's haftarah-choice.
But I felt so time-pressured, that I said:
"Please, let us listen to this in
the extra-hour with Yael and Gili.
For whoever wants to join the two, is invited to do so."
But she didn't come, and I was frustrated,
that I hadn't received the gift of her understanding.
Fortunately it was her mother Ilanit,
who volunteered to take me back to Shoham,
and I could share my regret about having put off Adi.
It was then, that Ilanit told me about the three year old,
who ever so often took a Bible into her little hands,
leafing through the pages, as if this was her favorite book.
She also told about Adi's great-grandmother, now ninety,
and how she was attached to the Bible in her own way,
though when this woman was a 12 year old girl,
nobody cared about celebrating the coming-of-age of girls.
"What is your ethnic background?"
I asked Ilanit:
"Sephardic - Greek, we don't
know exactly,
since we are already the 7th generation born in Israel..."
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My daughter's initiative
concerning the 13 twelve-year old girls
in the Democratic School of Modi'in
and my purpose and program with what I'm going to call
"The Living-Water Workshop"
Gili's choice: Leviticus 26: 3-13
3 "
'If you follow my decrees
and are careful to obey my commands,
[the interpreation of these "conditions"
I postponed to the future.
I asked not to relate to them today!]
4 I
will send you rain in its season,
and the land will yield its crops
and the trees of the field their fruit.
5 Your
threshing will continue until grape harvest
and the grape harvest will continue until planting,
and you will eat all the food you want
and you will live in safety in your land.
6 " 'I will grant peace
in the land,
and you will lie down
and no one will make you afraid.
I will remove savage beasts from the land,
and the sword will not pass through your land.
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9 " 'I will turn to
you
and make you fruitful
and increase your numbers,
and I will keep my covenant
with you.
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I will walk among you
and I will be your God,
and you will be my people.
13 I am the LORD your God,
who brought you out of Egypt
so that you would no longer be slaves to the Egyptians;
I broke the bars of your yoke
and enabled you to walk
with heads held high.
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Yael's choice: Jeremia
17: 7-8
7 But blessed is
the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
8 He will be like a tree
planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."
In 2012, the verse 8 became a song
(Nr. 9, Jeremia 17))
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Rachel's
choice: Hosea
2:14-20
14 "Therefore I am now going to
allure her;
I will lead her into the desert
and speak to her heart.
15 There I will give her back her vineyards,
and will make the Valley of Achor [trouble]
a door of hope.
There she will respond as in the days of her youth,
as in the day she came up out of Egypt.
16 "In that day," declares
the LORD,
"you will call me 'my husband';
you will no longer call me 'my master'.
[ba'al in Hebrew:
this is also the present-day term for husband!!!]'
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18 In that day I will make a
covenant for them
with the beasts of the field and the birds of the air
and the creatures that move along the ground.
Bow and sword and battle
I will abolish from the land,
so I'll make them lie down in safety.
19 I will betroth you to me forever;
I will betroth you in truthfulness (tzaedaeq)
and justice,
in love [khaesaed]
and compassion.
20 I will betroth you in faithfulness,
and you will know [yada'at]
the LORD.
[I omitted a few sentences,
to make it easier for the girls.
All passages here are quoted in the
"New International Version"
I attempted (!) to correct here and there....
Some vital words just don't have a match in English,
especially the usage of "the Lord" for YHWH
is "spoiling it all"!]
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and
Hosea
2:16+22 became a stanza in a recent desert song
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Finetuning to my Present
The panic of my planned "performance"
with the Bnot-Mitzvah girls
at the Democratic School in Modi'in
was incredible.
I couldn't sleep well, and in the morning I even had to ask
Efrat,
who does not want to be bothered with anything when her day
begins,
to listen to me for a minute.
I could voice my fright and its many "objects",
I could even cry,
"I know, it will be good, what
I'll do there,
but the greatest satisfaction is no compensation for the panic
I go through.
It has always been like that,
never mind how many lessons I gave, how many workshops I facilitated,
but now it's been 6 years, since I taught for the last time,
with Ronnit's "Learning Community", 8 sessions in
January-February 2002,
except for an evening with the Golden Age Club at Arad 2 years
ago.
I've never worked with 11-12 year old kids,
who have either no idea or the wrong ideas about "Bible"
etc.,
how can I prevent myself from overwhelming them,
how can I make it meaningful for everybody in so short a time,
and the most frightening is, that Yael is my daughter's daughter,
and with 4 kids in the Democratic School since its foundation
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her family is a cornerstone of the school and well-known to
everybody".
This discharge did not take longer than
3 minutes,
while Efrat listened with compassion and consolation.
This helped me to smile to the woman who had volunteered to
take me,
Yif'at, a mother of 4, one of them Itamar's friend and with
him at "Aladdin",
and a co-founder of the Democratic School, Rotem's teacher
in "Cinema".
In the school we got the caravan with
the computers,
for I wanted them to have the experience of searching
the Bible
for the three words: YHWH, AEKHAD, SHALOM.
Well, when I called them to the computers, there was no Internet!
Nor did anybody bring her own "Koren-Edition" of
the Bible, as I had begged.
I showed them my own two Bibles, with all the notes, underlinings,
etc.
"It's not a holy book to be kept
on a shelf, but a spring of living water,
to be used daily!"
But the Bibles, lent from the school-library,
brought one blessing with them.
Not all were the "Koren-Edition", at least one was
the usual Christian edition,
in which YHWH is punctuated with the vocals of Adonai, Lord.
To make them understand and FEEL,
that YHWH is a verb
"he/it has happened, is happening, will happen",
and that we are done with "Lords" and "Kings"
and all hierarchies,
and that the God who yearns for the relationship of a Covenant,
sees us as equals , and wants us to become his/her partners,
which is just what they learn in the Democratic School.
None of them would relate to a teacher, as it was the usage
when I was a child.
There were many many frames of references,
which I tried to build for them in the shortest of times,
- the history of the Bible until its compilation and edition
towards the end of the first century ,
the history of ancient Israel , and how the book "Leviticus"
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which ends with Gili's and Yael's Parashah "be-khuqotai",
was not given by Moses - around 1250 B.C.
but written , maybe, 800 years later, when most Jews were
in exile,
since when the Hebrews, or "Sons of Israel" are
called Jews etc etc.
Some of the girls were cooperating vividly,
but others needed to be won over:
"know that I am as good and clear
as you help me to be!"
But the kind of racing along, which
I demanded from them -
I've never dared to do this with anybody else before.
How could anybody follow at all?
To go slower - I just didn't know how to do that -
considering my aim in those circumstances.
The goal was to demonstrate the content and methods of this
"activity".
I couldn't be sure, how many more chances there would be.
It's not a course of a pre-determined time,
it's not even a decision of "let's meet every week until
we have enough".
And to make it relevant for them,
Deqel accepted my proposal,
that two girls - Yael, my granddaughter, and Gili, one day
younger than her -
should read their parashah at home with their parents
and choose a passage, meaningful and relevant to them personally.
If that was not careless enough, Deqel learnt from her father,
that the parashah which pertains to a certain birth-date,
can be either the one for the Shabbat before or for the Shabbat
after the date.
So Deqel suggested to make them learn both parashas
and together with them the two haftarahs.
How could they or I cope with so much "material"?
When, the night before, I looked into
"be-khuqotai" and "ba-midbar",
"my eyes darkened" , as we say in Hebrew.
Both - the passages of the parashahs as those of the haftarahs,
were not suited for children or for anyone who is new to the
Bible,
or is already antagonized against it.
(a boy came in, when we had not yet started, and saw all the
Bibles on the table:
"you are learning Bible"?
he asked , as if shuddering with disgust. )
What had I done!
Now they might be deterred forever.
But amidst all these objective "difficulties" and
subjective projections of mine,
More and more pleasing things started to occur.
These culminated in a wondrous, miraculous third "hour"
with Yael and Gili, 4 other girls and Deqel in the park.
We couldn't find an empty room in those crowded caravans,
(while looking for one, we entered a very small "room"
with some 3 or 4 boys standing more than sitting with their
"teacher".
One of them called me: "Grandma,
what are you doing here?"
It was Jonathan, Yael's almost 17 year
old brother).
Suddenly I understood,
that my idea of letting Yael and Gili choose, hadn't been
bad at all.
Nor had Deqel's idea concerning the 2 parashah's and the 2
haftarah's been bad.
For while I searched for the passages which were meaningful
to myself
(and it turned out, that the same were meaningful to either
Gili or Yael)
I discovered something strange:
the haftarah is chosen because of a similarity in it and in
the parashah.
There was, indeed, a striking similarity,
but not between "bekhuqotai" and its haftarah: Jeremia
17:1-14,
and not between "bamidbar" and its haftarah: Hosea
2: 16-22,
but between the parashah "bekhuqotai" and the haftarah
to "bamidbar"!
The "similarity" (what a poor term!) came to the
forefront,
after the Seven in the park
had shared the relevance of "God's" promises, or
prophecies
in the passage, Gili had chosen: Leviticus 25, 3-13,
together with Yael's choice of the beautiful metaphor in Jeremia
17
about the man who trusts!
(She used the word: "believes in God",
and I had to tell her and all of them,
that the Bible doesn't have a concept about "faith"
or "believing in God".
How can you believe in the sun?
You see it, sense it, live because of it, don't you?
The root, which today is used for "believing in",
A M N
(yes, yes! the word "Amen"
is a derivative of this root!)
means "trusting".
I asked their forgiveness for not having the time,
to go into the meaning of "trust",
but what happened there and then was deeper, I think,
then any intellectual teaching could ever be:
Gili pointed to the words;
"you will sit securely in your land"
(the root "B
T KH" is what Jeremia uses
for "trusting"),
and shared, that this was relevant for her,
"FOR I AM AFRAID!"
Even more striking was her interpretation
of:
"I am your God and you are my people".
I am not capable of conveying the understanding
and the intimacy in her interpretation.
But I can, maybe, convey, what Deqel and Maya said, inspired
by Gili:
Maya:
"When I was little, there were two Gods.
One , very honorable, in heaven, who didn't mean anything
to me.
And one right with me,
to whom I could turn with all the little sorrows of a six
year old."
Deqel:
"I am reminded of my marriage.
Nobody is dominating the other,
we are equal and we trust each other,
it has not even to be put in words."
When she said that, I became very excited:
"You will see now, that this is
exactly the metaphor of the prophet Hosea,
the passage which should have been chosen as the haftarah
for "bekhuqotai".
Let's read this now as a completion of our work!"
(I helped the girls to practice once
more, how to find a passage in the Bible).
"And again - please do not be concerned
for the "conditions",
which are mentioned both in Leviticus and in Hosea.
Of course there are conditions, like in a marriage,-"
(one girl, Noa, said: it reminded her
of the conditions of the terrorists:
"they want us to free 1000 prisoners
for one Gilad Shalit...."),
"but to understand what the conditions are,
you have to get used to the goal of all learning, as I see
it,,
and of which I have been telling you today over and over again:
Learn only, what helps you to live in a way,
that you accept yourself, love yourself more and more,
like - you were revolting against our photographing you!
If you would love yourself, you would open your arms, stretch
your back,
lighten up your face and exclaim: take my picture,
for this is me, all beautiful and lovable."
Agreeing to be photographed -
was my metaphor for self-love
throughout the meeting of almost 3 hours.
"What are the laws and the commandments,
which will help us with this?
There is much translating, transposing, transforming to be
done,
so for now forget about the conditions
and simply see and feel how it will be, how it can be,
when God walks among us..."
2008_03_05- I never completed
this report...
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And here is my little Mika again - 6 hours after
I returned from my ordeal/celebration at Modi'in
Of course the most excellent scenes can never be photographed,
either because I myself am a co-actor in such a scene,
or because too much movement is involved to be caught in a "still".
In this wooden mortar she had churned tiny , chalky stones to
dust.
I had brought her such stones from the Dead Sea two months ago.
The next activity was one of her favorites during the last week:
to loosen tiny stickers from a paper and stick then on to something,
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When her mother wasn't near her,
she grabbed her bag from the kitchen table,
and asked me to go to my room and sit on my bed.
Of course I knew about the treasure in the bag:
another dummy!
She already had gotten permission
to put a dummy in her mouth,
but either this wasn't enough,
or it was too good to be true,
or the dummy is simply her present lover.
I watched her pious, completely quiet love-making
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Now Imma needs to be decorated
And before going to sleep, the story she
wants is again "The Giving Tree",
except that at present she wants to tell the story herself.
song
of the day
I remember your love, your
trust of walking behind me in the desert,
in unsown land...
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