I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
The hidden
female thread of redemption hints at an answer.
Judah needs to
be prepared for his task as the ancestor of David,
Judah, Yehuda, from whom all Yehudim, Jews, "Juden" in German,
derive their name.
The
first step is to tightly connect Judah and David by 10 generations,
like the 10 generations between Adam and Noah and Noah and Abraham,
never mind that between Judah and David more than 600 years have passed
.
The second
step was - to insert an outrageous sex scandal in the middle of the
Josef story.
Josef, despite his very physical savior role for Ja'aqov's family and
the world at whole,
is not counted among the tribes.
While all decisive names appear just once, there are about 6 different
Josefs in the Bible.
It is Yehuda, who in
the Josef story emerged as the future leader, someone who
"stands in the breach"
Another triptych composed itself:
Ratner's two showing-off Josefs framing Chagall's hidden Tamar and hiding
Yehuda
It is
exactly this context, in which a mystical author inserts the story of
Tamar and Yehuda's role in it: "Megilat"
TAMAR
Yehuda
fucks his daughter-in-law, thinking her a whore,
and when she is reported to be pregnant,
he orders to burn her.
Why not? This continues to happen, for example in Jordan,
even today.
The feminists there demand, that suspected women (not suspected
men, of course)
will at least be brought to court,
The statistics (at least, there are statistics) said some years
ago,
that about 90 women are being slaughtered without trial every
year.
When
the bold and smart Tamar sends the proofs that it was Yehuda
who impregnated her,
Yehuda is brave enough to admit it, which makes him Yehuda[=the
one who admits]
and a leader after all.
Thus he precedes his descendant David, who
was capable of admitting and repenting 2.S
12:13
The story
ends with the birth of twins,
preferring - as in the tradition of the
Esav-Ya'aqov story - the younger one: Peretz,
interpreted by the midwife: "why
did you break through?" Gn
38:29
In later tradition "Ben-Peretz" is a title for the Messiah.
The future
meaning of this son and his name stays hidden,
until a seemingly boring list by the pedigree obsessed author of "Chronicles"
highlights it.
Gathering some traditions about Peretz' sons and grandsons and inventing
the rest,
he manages to present a full-fledged pedigree
of 10 generations for David,
though in the original context not even the father of his father Yishai,
Jesse, is known.
Also David is made the seventh son, though in the original there were
eight.
David, the seventh, the crown, the king, the symbol of the future redeemer.
The Chronicler
felt the intention of the Tamar story and thought,
that he needed to add more flesh and bones to this intention.
Since he wasn't gifted as a story teller, but very gifted as the composer
of genealogies,
he invented two parallel pedigrees, splitting
off from Peretz son Hetzron [see
"Megilat" Efrat].
Both include hints as to different aspects of redemption, far from people's
dreams and limitations.
This
is, how "Efrat" gets her roles.
Not through stories of situations and dramas,
but through her connection to certain biblical figures.
One role of Efrat was being the second wife of Caleb,
seemingly a link in the genealogy from Tamar to David,
but covertly identified with the great Caleb,
the only one among the desert generation of Hebrew slaves,
"in whom there was another spirit",
the spirit of self-determination
No artist has ever given attention to Efrat.
That's why photos have to be inserted instead, photos of the Efrat,
whose new name stimulated this research.
Sometimes
for better ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Mother-in-Love, Rakhêl, and Daughter-in
Love, Efrat-Rut ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~and sometimes for worse
[watching this triptych again, I see, that black and white, white and
black are balanced...]
Efrat,
the name whose first and last letter are also the first and last letter
of the 22 Hebrew letters,
and Efrat, the name, which, if read reversed, means "she will heal".
Efrat, known also as Efrata, a Canaanite name ,
which can mean both a place and a person, [like Yehuda, like Yisrael, like Ha-Maqom ...]
is connected to Rachel, the Mother of Israel,
who forever weeps over her children,
If
you click the redchakra,
you'll hear Ra'ayah,
my daughter-in-love
as well,
sing the song,
which caused me
to call myself Rakhêl
She was promised that she would be comforted and that her children would
return,
but where does this happen?
It's the
author of the Tamar-Efrat genealogy who gives us at least a hint.
For Efrat is - among some other great things - the mother of Bethlehem,
also a place and a person at the same time.
The Messiah myth - contrary to David's biography - gives great importance
to Bethlehem as the place of birth of ---whom?
"And thou, Beth-lehem Eph-ra-tah ", I remember this verse in German from my Christmas childhood,
and though the quote of Micha's prophecy [5:
2-3] in the New Testament leaves out "Efrata",
it is there in my memory:
"Und du, Bethlehem Ephrata..."
Und
du, Bethlehem Ephrata,
die du klein bist unter den Staeten in Juda, aus dir soll mir der
kommen, der in Israel Herr sei, welches Ausgang von Anfang und von
Ewigkeit gewesen ist.
Indess laesst er sie plagen bis auf die Zeit, dass die , so gebaeren
soll, geboren habe; da werden dann die uebrigen seiner Brueder wieder-
kommen zu den Kindern Israel.
And
thou, Beth-lehem Eph-ra-tah
though thou be little among the thousands of Judah, yet out of thee
shall he come forth unto me that is to be ruler in Israel; whose
goings forth have been from of old, from everlasting.
Therefore will he give them up, until the time that she which travaileth
hath brought forth; then the remnant of his brethren stall return
unto the children of Israel.
Finally
an extremely gifted story teller stood up, maybe as late as in the third
or second century
before the birth of the Jew from Nazareth who is believed to have brought
redemption,
though no redemption has been in sight for the two thousand years which
the whole world counts since then.
The author
of "Rut" read that pedigree in Chronicles very, very carefully.
And that's how s/he came up with this little novel,
so small in volume, so excellent in writing, so profound in its message:
Rut, the R and T were taken from T - M - R and E - F - R - T.
The story takes place in Bethlehem.
But not from the beginning.
The beginnings are in Jordan, then called Moab.
In order
to establish the belief in the ONEness of God,
the then present belief in a split Deity - in my research called Canaanism
- had to be fought.
In the fighta vital trait in Canaanist beliefs got lost too
- the feminine aspect
of Deity .
And with it the acceptance of body and body's attraction to body - desire
and passion.
To restore the balance at least symbolically,
the author of the Tamar Scroll gives Yehuda a Canaanite wife expressively
(though it's not clear, what other women were there available, we don't
hear about more cousins,
brought to Canaan, like Rivka, Rachel and Lea; and Josef married an
Egyptian wife anyway)
She is called Bat-Shua, which the author of Chronicle cunningly mixes
up with Bat-Sheva,
meaning, that the Tamar scandal comes to interpret the Bat-Sheva scandal.
Wasn't Bat-Sheva the wife of Uriyya, the Hittite, i.e. the Canaanite?
And didn't this make her a Canaanite herself?
It's not written, where Tamar came from. No country, no father , no
mother are mentioned.
In any case she marries the first of the Bat-Shua sons, Er, and when
he died, the second, Onan.
She probably was meant to be a Canaanite herself,
that's how she learnt to be a "qedeshah", a holy prostitute.
The author
of Rut hates all this ambiguity.
He states clearly, that Rut was a Moabite,
which means, she belonged to a non-Jewish people
which was even more despised than general Canaanites.
Rut is meant to marry Boaz, a yet impersonal link in the Chronicler's
genealogy.
This Boaz is made the Goel of the land
of her dead father-in-law and her dead husband.
He could have been anything,
why this 21 time emphasis on Goel and Geula, redeemer, redeeming and
redemption?
See
among my 2012 Songs [ Nr.16]
the poem of Rilke, "Und meine Seele ist ein Weib vor dir, wie Ruth"
, to which I put a tune
Because the ancient technical term of redeeming the lost property of
a family
had since long extended its meaning:
God himself is the redeemer of Israel from exile and political dependency,
to the redeemer of humankind from all hardships and finally from all
"sins"...
Since Rut was meant to balance the male symbol of redemption, presented
as David's Son,
the act of ge'ulah had to be the central event in the story.
The central technical event!
For there are more emotionally moving situations in the little story:
The crooked way of how Rut tempted Boaz.
Why this crooked way?
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