The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S. - as stated 12 years ago - was and is   to help me and my potential P E E R s  "to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness, and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being "a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel": I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb' pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness, so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve, and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7		"AZ NIDBERU" My new Midrash and song in 5 languages about the prophecy of Malachi 3, 16 ["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The Name]
1 2 3	How Learn And	I The Train	Heal Conditions In	Myself For Creating	Into Heaven Those	Whole On Conditions	Self-acceptance Earth Daily	Click!	Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other, and he listens      and he hears yatakaalamuna     allathina     yarau'na-hu , va-yusri        va-yasma' Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander, und er lauscht      und er hoert Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre il entends,        il ecoute

The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

8:25 [I had already phrased my thanksgivings- see below - when I wanted - as usual - to join the morning-routine of Efrat & Mika.
I had heard them in the bathroom, but when I came out, Mika lay in her bed again, dressed and with her dummy. When her mother saw this and pulled her out, Mika started to whine-cry, but - despite yesterday's pleading - did not explain her reason. Efrat became mad.
I retreated, but heard Mika say one sentence like : "I don't want to talk to you!" which made E. delirious with fury. She forced on her
"Actimel", the fluid yoghurt, only to find it spilt a moment later. While continuing to roar, she gave her another one (to me: "perhaps it was an accident"), but said again to Mika: "You're a bad girl, I don't believe I'm saying this, for the first time ever! Your father thinks everything is fine, since your grandma sends him pretty pictures!". While cleaning up, I whispered: "It's enough! you'll regret it later." While she went to get her shoes, I approached Mika, but she ran away from me. That's how they left for kindergarden ! I'm grieved.]
I desire that we both learn to guard our boundaries before we attract triggers, to which we then react in a way, that new pains are produced & from there new holes, maybe even in Mika.

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

7:30
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to our endocrine system with its glands and their hormones,
which regulate mood, growth, development, tissue function, metabolism...
I give thanks to the cooperation of the nervous system -responsible for the faster processes like breathing and body movement- with the slow processes like cell growth, for helping you, my Body, to function properly.

I am grate-full for the full full-fill-ment of yesterday's intention:
my easy flowing with E.'s suffering and my stormy feelings,
E's recovery of her energy in the late afternoon,
the harmonious walk through Bet-Nehemya, to Hanna and to Sharon,
the strange incident with the forgotten key and Hanna's help
[Efrat: "First you couldn't get into her house! - Later you got into her house,
but she had no time to meet you! -Finally she jumped through our window!"]
I'm grateful for yet another "Grandma-Ego-Training", this time with Mika:
learning to savor it when she attracts me, letting go when she rejects me,
& also - being available for her mother, but letting go when help is rejected
I'm grateful for Arnon's attempt to appease me,
though I was at peace already.

 

Nourishment from Others:
copied from "Paradise on Earth"

 

LIVING IN THE NEW EARTH

YOU AND YOUR CRYSTALLINE BODY
by Celia Fenn

...The energy "outside" seems to be moving too fast,
and they become stressed and "unable to keep up".
Ironically, the answer is not to move faster,
but to slow down physically
so that the inner vibrations can rise to match those on the outside.
The higher the inner vibrations,
the calmer the person becomes,...
and the more able to open to higher states of awareness.

 

 

The Spiritual/Endocrine System

The Pineal Gland: The Higher Vibrational Portal to the Body

... The portal between the physical and material body
and the realms of energy and light
is the body's Endocrine or Hormonal system.
It is through this portal
that light transmissions from the light bodies
are mediated into physical chemical messages
that enter the bloodstream as hormones.
These hormones regulate the energy distribution and functioning of the physical body.
If the Endocrine system is overstimulated,
it produces the energy surges and imbalances that many people feel
as they adjust to their new body and its energy flows.

...
It is the work of this time
to live with this higher level of consciousness
and still be grounded enough to function clearly in the physical world.
....

 

 

The Pituitary: The Key to Balance

The Pituitary gland is the "master endocrine gland",
whose basic function is to regulate the activities of the body
through controlling the hormonal balance.
...

We must emphasize,
that the human body is a marvellous self-regulating organism
that always seeks balance.
In this process of bio-energetic evolution
it strives to assist you to find that balance as quickly as possible
so that you can enjoy the power and energy of the new crystalline body.
The rewards will be increased longevity,
perfect health
and boundless energy.

 

But the problem right now for many of you is often
that the way that you live
is not allowing the body to make the adjustments that it needs.
So as your Pituitary gland feels the increasing stimulation,
you will need to slow down.
If you do not, the body will do it for you.
That is why so many people experience illness
as their body forces them to slow down
and to allow the recalibration or adjustments of the bio-energetic hormonal or Endocrine system.

 

It is far better, to heed your body's instructions to slow down.
If you feel stressed or tired, then rest.
As you rest, your Higher Self will work to create the balance in your Spiritual/Endocrine system
to allow you to handle the increased levels of vibration of the incoming energies.

 

Calming the System:
The Role of the Thymus Gland
and "Breathing through the Heart".

 

The best way to work with calming and balancing the body
is to work with the breath
and the energy of the Thymus gland,
or the "high heart".
...
You may have noticed
how when you are anxious
you may breathe in a very shallow way,
even holding your breath.
...

So, the way to calm the bio-energetic system
and to return balance to the body
is a technique that we call
"Breathing through the Heart".
When you breathe deeply and focus on the Heart Chakra,
you flood the system with the light energy of Unconditional Love.
This, in turn, counter-balances the excess electrical stimulation at the Pineal
by providing a feeling of calmness and peace.

The more you learn to breathe deeply,
to become a "conscious breather",
the more you will activate the function of the Thymus,
which not only enhances feelings of Unconditional Love,
it also plays a fundamental role in the health of the body
by supporting the physical immune system.

 

A Strong Body
supports a Strong Spiritual Endocrine System

..., unless you build your physical strength,
you will be unable to support the demands of the new energy load on your body.
For the New Earth crystalline body is a strong and healthy body.

It is designed to move and to be active.
It likes fresh air and outdoor activity.
The more time you spend outdoors,
breathing deeply as you walk
or engage in other physical activity,
the more your body will be assisted
to regulate and balance
the new crystalline bio-energetic system
as you make the evolutionary shift.

Once the balance is established,
you will feel calm, peaceful and powerful.
You will be able to use your twelve chakra system
to create the miracles that you desire in your life.

So, you can understand
why it is so important to assist your body in this transition
as it "re-wires" and "activates" your Spiritual Endocrine system.
It will achieve balance all the more quickly
if you co-operate and allow the process
by slowing down
and consciously working to create balance in your life.
To feel balanced and harmonious
on both the inner and outer levels
should be the aim
as you move into full use
of your wonderful and powerful
New Earth Crystalline Body.

Finetuning into my feelings today
aroused by this message
received in May 2006:

I truly live according to the advice and reasoning in this message, but I again stumble over the sentence,
the kind of which I'm reading about once a day
in each of the countless "spiritual e-mails" which reach me,
often without me having explicitly agreed to receiving them:

"You will be able...
to create the miracles
that you desire in your life."

Right at this moment,
what I desire is written in "Intentions for today"
I desire that we both learn
to guard our boundaries before we attract triggers,
to which we then react in a way,
that new pains are produced
& from there new holes in people's wholeness...

It may be possible,
that I "create the miracle" of finally taking care - in time! -
of my own boundaries,
but what about my desire,
that this "miracle" will be accomplished
with concern to my daughter-in-love
with regard to my grandchild Mika?

Most of my desires have to do with things
I want to happen to other people
and to humankind in general.
But I do not have control over others!
so what is all that bla-bla about "desire-and you get it".
Unless you bla-bla-entities and bla-bla-people
tell me explicitly every single time:
"by healing yourself, yourself, yourself into wholeness,
you, as a hologram, will heal the actors
in your personal drama
as well as the actors in your planetary drama!"

Finetuning to my Present

Listening to our Boundaries,
and becoming faster and faster aware of the fact,
that it is mostly because of not having listened to our boundaries,
that we attract. triggers, from our actors, especially the closest ones.

E. felt devastated by what she did to Mika.
Her fury even made her drag and grab her violently..
She had cried for an hour while sitting in the car, and now she sat across me.
I was grate-full,
that the understanding of what happened, had come to me already.
I could listen, but I also could offer something substantial :

Like Shakhar, the ranger and friend, said to me in "Succah in the Desert":
"YOU ARE VERY DANGEROUS.
YOU LET PEOPLE CLIMB ON YOU,
HIGHER AND HIGHER,
AND SUDDENLY WHEN IT BECOMES TOO MUCH FOR YOU.
YOU SHAKE THEM OFF,
AND THE FALL THEN IS VERY DEEP."

Efrat is giving, giving, giving, in this case to her daughter,
she is sacrificing herself, overstepping her boundaries constantly.
"The phenomen of ingratitude has haunted me all my life.
But I always had excuses for the people,
be it my brother D. or Immanuel's children.
But my own daughter
never experienced the kind of predicaments like those did.
Nothing but love , total acceptance, unending caring
permeated her 2 3/4 years."
Yes,
and that it exactly the proof for the way, triggers are attracted and staged.
After the wonderfully loving togetherness yesterday evening,
after the greatness shown by Mika
("I'm pretty, sweet and know how to talk")
("I don't need the dummy any longer, I'm a big girl now",
though she regretted this, when the time to sleep came
and - I'm adding this on Oct. 15 - parted from her dummy only on Oct. 11)
("I didn't like to quarrel with you") etc. etc.
and after another night of physical suffering for Efrat,
the stage was set for her becoming so horridly triggered,
that both of us could understand those mothers,
who recently killed their children.
"Believe me, that this happens a million times in Israel every day,
that parents are triggered by their children so badly
that they could kill them.
It's a miracle, that the killing is almost always prevented in the end."
"But I left a mark on her........" E. cried.
"No! I could see clearly, that Mika was not her physical self
(who says "nae'aelavti", I feel insulted - after the tiniest expression of anger from E.)
but her Higher Self,
who was staged by you as an instrument, as a trigger,
so you would finally look at yourself
and how you constantly override your boundaries
(just like her grandmother!)"
"But how can I change that", E. said with despair.
I felt like saying:
"The main point is, that you understood, that it IS a TRIGGER!
It is not Mika, who is defying and abusing you
and - as you felt - even "gloating".
And then you must let experiences teach you!
I once heard a famous therapist saying:
"Even for us specialists
- in order to grow, perhaps 20-30% can be done by awareness,
the major part of learning will occur only through experiences."
But when you, every time, you find yourself triggered - and blaming -
try to reach answer the question: "Why did I attract this?
Did I again not listen to my boundaries? " then...

Efrat interrupted:

"Why should I listen to myself? I am nothing"
"You see, as long as Mika wasn't in you life,
you could allow yourself to not count yourself,
but now you can see the consequences
of this lack of self-acceptance for Mika..."

Finetuning to my Present

Feeling our yearning

I hope, I can put down, what I heard myself phrasing
after that part of our long talking,
which was causing E. even more tears:

"It is not true, that I'm making myself a victim:
I've tried everything in order to have friends here,
but since we left Kfar Vradim, I have nobody,
not my friends, not my family, and your daughter,
who was supposed to be my friend around here
and introduce me to her friends, let's forget about her..."

"Immanuel and I are constantly praying that you may find this friend,
and we do so truly without ego, for it is perfectly understandable,
that a husband and a mother-in-love are not enough,
and that you need at least one woman friend,
with whom you can exchange everything that is difficult for you,
and do so on a "deep" level, as you desire.

" But you must not pollute your yearning with victimhood.
For it is NOT because you left Kfar-Wradim [I often spelled it like this]
that you have no friends!
I don't have friends either and not even a husband...".

"But that is because you chose it!"

"I chose it awarely and you chose it unawarely!
I chose it, because I'm clear what I want:
If I can't receive what I want: and can't give what can be received,
I prefer to wait for the "AZ NIDBERU", which you let be sown on my quilt!

And you chose the same unawarely.
For be honest: Many women would like to be your friends:
you are so social, so communicative, so extroverted, so funny!
But it's you, who is not satisfied with what they can give and receive.
So you are longing and yearning and this should be so."

E. cynically: "Oh, I'll kill the yearning too!"

Nonsense! You must truly yearn and allow yourself to feel the pain.
You must not judge yourself for "not being able to attract a friend".
For sometimes it has nothing to do with you,
it is "the time", which is not ripe.
I myself am waiting (mamtinah) ,
with great yearning but with great patience.
The yearning itself is part of what will full-fill it.
Only, only: do not contaminate the yearning by victimhood!"

Nourishment from Others [from "Old Heart - New Heart] "Even the longing for another to share that love can be fulfilled by lovingly accepting the desire itself. Unfulfilled desire has been difficult for Old Heart to accept. As New Heart you channel loving Spirit and move to fully accept the desire just as it is, unfulfilled and all. " As you embrace your unfulfilled desire for real love, you empower the fulfillment of your desire~~~ and not just inside of you, inside all of manifestation as well. " It is as if all of Creation is held in the loving arms of New Heart."

 

This strongly emphasized advise
"do not contaminate your yearning by victimhood!"
came from her mouth later
- phrased even more poingnantly -
when she "worked with Sharon"...

"RACHEL"
I heard them calling me, when I came this far.
E. was sitting with Sharon, who had come half an hour before,
"just to ask how you are!"

What a "coincidence"! What a miracle.
I hope, I'll have the time and strength to report on this.
Right now, 15:20, I am too tired and want to take a nap.

While Efrat and Mika walked on the sideway in front of me,
my eyes caught a wondrous sculpture of branches within a tree,
illuminated by an electrical street-lamp
on the background of the not yet dark sky

Little Mika likes big Mika, Sharon's younger daughter,
and has no problems with her appearance, like I have1

Sharon's elder daughter prepared for an activity
in the "Scouts" on this evening:
to dress up as the kind of teenagers,
who are totally opposed to the style of Scouts.
What I felt with immense pain, was the contrast
between her and her younger sister's appearance.
How can the sisters and their mother
live with this contrast daily?
How can big Mika learn Self-Acceptance?

The key stuck inside the locked door! Hanna invaded through the window!

Last week Mika attended a circus (without animals),
and enthusiastically remembers two things:
the acrobatic dancer, who carried a heap of cups in her mouth
and a ? who jumped through the fire.
Consequently her painting-skills took a leap,
and she painted a beautiful image of burning fire!


As to the strong impression concerning the dancer
she now keeps reminding herself:
"when I'll be big, I'll be a dancer",
and it's clear, that she'll realize this dream,
for she dances ever since she can walk!
Efrat: "I peeped through the door of her dancing course,
[to which kids are generally accepted only at the age of 3]
there were only 2 kids who actually danced, Mika was one of them."
On Hagar's wedding, when she was already dead-tired,
she made her 21 year old dancer-sister Elah get up once more:
"Come , I want to dance!"

Finetuning

to today's unplanned, miraculously timed encounter:
Sharon~~~Efrat, and then also ~~~Rachel
Since photographing was out of the question,
I'm cropping and enlarging yesterday's scene.

October 15:
I feel unable to recuperate the content of that miraculous encounter
and the role I could play in it.
But my happy feelings, my grate-full-ness will not forget....