The Purpose  of   HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

  to help me and my potential P E E R s 

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

 

 

 

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March 26, Tuesday, -at Shoham -

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MY INTENTION and PLAN for TODAY


Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!
 6:45
I desire to thoroughly understand the "staging" of the last day and learn&apply its lessons.
I also desire to full-fill my threefold role while being in the very presence of "my holy trinity",
my firstborn son, my daughter-in-love and my tenth and starchild single-child grandchild.
to know in every moment, when to be "yozaemet" initiating and when to be "zminah" available

image of the day:



hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

9:04
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to your ability to intensify our breathing,
when I wake up, maybe with a "moody dream",
[or - as today - woken up by Mika's strange crying at 5:45
after the terrible crying of a child in a neighboring house 3 times tonight]
finding myself in the old patterned feeling of no "joie de vivre".
Then your "connected breathing" pumps blood into our brain,
so that consciousness can take over and determine,
that I accept the grey feelings and even let me be challenged by them:
'How do I live "Heaven-on-Earth"
in this moment of feeling grey?
How can I embrace them in a way,
that they let me feel full-filled?'
And please, let me listen to the pain in our lower back and "do Paula",
i.e. contract & release anus & bladder with breathing in & breathing out.


I'm grate-full for being welcome and even needed in this family,
while still being free to leave and go back to my holy solitude.

 

2013
The answer to "H o w can I embrace them...." is simple:
s o u n d      them!

The letter to the right is from Levi's and Immanuel's teacher, 1975.
She thanks me for having invited her to Levi's Bar-Mitzvah,
which I succeeded ~~~ to celebrate amidst my own family,
together with a few friends of Levi and his handicapped father.
His mother - mentally sick - never functioned at all at that time.
It's only now, that she has become a grandmother of Noam,
Levi's and Ayelet's first daughter (born January 2007),
that she has begun to live and care and love like a mother does.
"Driving Backward into the Future" = "Closeups to the Past" = Healing&Harvesting my Past

When walking the dog in the morning
[see what happened when I walked her in the early afternoon...]
I discerned one single stalk of "olesh", chicory, with four flowers.
I cherish this flower as well as the ingredient in it
which gives the "Chico-coffee" its name.
Bringing little Mika the chicory flower,
I fondly remembered little Micha, my son.
I always was scared of the time that my kids would grow up,
and the intimacy we had, when they were small,
would disappear for ever.
Therefore, when Micha became five on August 31, 1971,
and started his last year in kindergarden, in our village Ramat-Hadar
I made an effort to accompany him everyday halfway.
The shortcut through fields and orchards, safe for little kids - then...
gave us some of the themes of our never-ending talks (then!...).
And the one theme I remember exactly, was about the chicory flower!.

I found a lovely photo on the Internet (by Sara Gold),
and just when I had finished sculpting the above "altar",
and searched for a photo of little Micha,
a call came from Levi Bar-Gil:
"At 9:30 our second daughter was born!"

I decided to dedicate this day's page to Levi.
And the old composition of Levi and Micha,
2 photos taken in different situations, but both in 1970,
I saw as a coincidence that gave me joy.





 

 

 

last communication next communication
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"and walking humbly with your God" [ Micah 6:8]

With Nella in the spring morning, finding a chicory flower for Mika!
Then 50 minutes of joy with her and also with her parents ~~~~,
and now - how peaceful is it to be alone , all-one, with you ! [8:15].
[How good, that Deqel couldn't arrange what I initiated...]

 

[After another hour:]

"You enjoy gentle waves even more after a day of high tide, don't you?"

Yes, and this already brings up another criterion for Heaven-on-Earth:
without movement of the water or any other element there is boredom!

"Nor will any change be desired,
no learning, no growing, nothing to create..."


But, as I explained already 25 years ago to my pupils (rarely applying it...):
I can choose the frequency and the amplitude of the wave!


"Well explained!"


Before I plunge into "Audition 2.0", to be ready for my son's tutoring,
let me just mention the two insights, one before and one after last day:

Before:

I need to be even more exact in choosing the "material" for sculpting.
Assuming, that my website is meant to be helpful to humans like Godchannel,
each and every sculpture should exemplify and demonstrate,
how one holographic aspect of YOU, one color of the light,
is learning the conditions for Heaven-on-Earth=Feeling Full-Filled,

After:
I've left out - in my "bombastic" conceptualization of Heaven on Earth -
the differentiation between (a) "functioning" in a situation,
which comes from the outside, i.e. is staged either consciously or by YOU
(i.e. my Higher Self or however others would call "it"),
and (b) becoming aware of the unhealed feelings, unreleased judgments,
non-parental projections, which are the causes for exterior situations or circumstances or interactions which consciously I would not have chosen.

[no time to continue]

 

 

Finetuning to my Present

9:00
Immanuel came in:
"Whenever you want to eat, your Muesli is ready!"

"Do you need my help,
before I plunge into my own (computer creation)?"
"I prefer to get your help in about 3 hours" ,
wanting to study more of the Sound Editing program,
so that he'll less suffer from my stupidity,

"It's sticky here!"

"Yes, I don't know, what to do.
I can't leave the window open,
because the construction work on the hill across is maddening me."

("It was maddening much more in the last 10 days,
how good you weren't here!")

but the ceiling-fan is still too cold. "
So he brought me a movable fan,
which I'm directing away from me, but which circulates the air.

"I got a long call from Tomer. "
(with a terrible report about what's going on at home),
He could explain to him again,
how people act out of emotions,
which stem from projections, judgments and denials,
and not out of logic,
and not out of the love and caring they truly feel for a child,
and that therefore a lawyer has to mediate.

He also told him:
"When you come next time,
I'll show you the drafts for the agreement, on which we are working,
you are now mature enough, that I share this with you,
though psychologists would judge me for it."

I asserted this approach:

"If any child of 13 1/2 can demand to understand
the behavior and acting of his divorced parents,
it's Tomer.
Since such horrid projections, distortions and blames
against his father
are dumped on the child,
you must share your acting and your reasons for it with this child,
if not - the entire procedure will not work. "

 

 

Levi Bar-Gil, once my foster-child


Levi 1970 with my daughter Ronnit (6)
and Levi 2002 with Ronnit's youngest, Itamar (4)
   

 

Summer 1970, on the swings I had ordered from a blacksmith for our garden - not to my husband's liking...
Levi with Immanuel. and Micha and Ronnit (the one to the left),
and their two "twins", my friend Yanina's daughters Yael and Iris, and Yanina's summer guest Jeanette from Beit-Shean


Also in summer 1970,
I took my kids and Levi to the "Masrek", comb ,
in the Jerusalem mountains,
since I now could drive
(as my husband was abroad,
I dared to make my driver's license, which took me only 2 weeks,
since I had made my license already in Germany in 1963,
but since we had no car in Israel in the first years, it expired.)

 

From a letter to my husband, 1970
in which I report on having Levi, Immanuel's pitiable classmate, invited to our home.
The letter also depicts the dire situation on the Egyptian border at that time.

   
Another old composition shows Levi, Immanuel and me during a school excursion of the third grade classes.
It was during such an excursion of first graders (on June 4, 1970) which I also accompanied for safety reasons, that I first encountered Levi.
He had a bad name in class - as a disturbed and disturbing child.
One quote from his mouth touched me:
"If nobody pays attention to me, I'll behave disruptively, maybe then they'll pay attention to me!"
My husband was abroad for several weeks, so I was free to decide to invite Levi to our family.
Every night another child slept beside me, and when it was Levi's turn, I could see the terribly wounded soul ...


 

 

 

For a short time I won over
Immanuel, Ronnit and Levi,
to take part in my youth activities
in "Partnership".
Here Levi and Ronnit are seen
at a day of preparation
for young facilitators
July 1979

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
   


Chanuka 1979 in our home at Ramat-Hadar ,
by that time Levi lived in the boarding-school
connected to the regular school of Immanuel

 

 

 

 

Ramat-Gan, July 1981

I had divorced,
and the children came to me one by one.

Immanuel and Levi finished school,
and each of them started his army-service.
Here Immanuel meets all three,
his later wife Ruth,
his brother Micha
and his foster brother Levi.

 

 

I just found a site about Levi
with the title:
"Don't be heavy, dance with Levi",
What does Levi actually do?

and a video where he dances
and teaches dance

and another one

 

and there is, of course, his own website

 

 

April 1987

Levi drives my bus from Hatzerim to airport

 

Though I had made my license as a truck driver
without having failed even once,
I was always afraid to drive.

So when I had to fly abroad
for a month of teaching in Germany,
I asked Levi,
if he could come to visit us,
Immanuel, who was living with his wife
(no children yet)
at the Airforce base Hatzerim near Beersheva
and then drive me to the airport.

I don't remember, where he then parked my bus.


 

 

When I became Tomer's foster grandmother
in the beginning of November 2002,
I consulted Levi!
For who would better understand T.'s predicament than him.

Since Levi is also a professional facilitator of birthday parties,
he suggested - for instance -
to celebrate T.'s 8th birthday in my home
with the entire class.
"This should boost his self-estime a bit!"

see "Training for Wrestling with Tomer.

But before that great event, we arranged a small party,
when Immanuel, who at that time worked in Detroit, USA,
came to visit his children, as he did every 2 months.
We invited Tomer's cousins, the "Quartet" and Rotem,
and unlike the later birthday-party..
this event was great joy,
as the photos show.
 

Tomer and Rotem, my daughter's elder daughter.
Though Rotem is a year and a half older than Tomer ,
she is the one he prefers among all his cousins.
The photo with Levi between them is beautiful!
And so is the way, Tomer's father and his father's foster-brother look at Tomer!

 


Mika today - may she grow up into health and wholeness,
and be able by her very being to heal wounds like those of little Levi and Tomer

 

 

song of the day

A happy song

 

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2012

See K.i.s.s.-log March 24, 2008/2012 and in Godchannel> .navigator


ON PRIME CREATORS JOURNEY

Humanity is an experiment.
Humanity has been designed,
as has just about everything else that exists within creation.
Prime Creator began experimenting with creation
a long time ago in this universe
for the purpose of
greater self- exploration,
self-gratification,
and self-expression.

 

March 26 , 2012, Monday, Arad







Thumbing through my 2008 sculptures above, I'm again surprised, how "pre-occupied" (??) I was with "Full-Fill-ment" already then...



I like myself in this sweater, just bequeathed to me by Meital, my landlady, and I - by self-timer - show myself integrated with "my" trees,
those 5 "Invader-Acacias" which made themselves sprout from the desert-soil in "my" garden, in which almost nothing else succeeds.
And how lovely - I now , while thumbing through the facebook-entries, announced by the facebook-e-mail, discovered
the accidental composition of entries of my granddaughters Rotem (born 1993-see her facebook) and Elah (born 1987)


Rafael Rosenzweig's descendants

I n e s  1923

Dita 1952 & Gideon 1951

Orit 1977 & Offer,
+Udi 2003, Itai 2006, Ben 2010

Hagar 1980 & Rafi
+Eitan 2010

I n e s

Joel 1947 & Tova

Ran 1973 (&Shir)
+ Lihi 2009 + 2 more children

Hadass 1979 & Dani
[+Lior , Febr. 2012]

Asaf 1983

 

C h r i s t a - R a c h e l  1938

Immanuel 1963 & Ruth 1963
Elah 1987
Alon 1991
Tomer1994

Immanuel & Efrat 1966
Mika -2005
C h r i s t a - R a c h e l

Ronnit 1965 & Uri 1963

Jonathan 1991
Rotem 1993
Yael 1996
Itamar 1998

C h r i s t a - R a c h e l

Micha 1966 & Ra'ayah 1957

Arnon 1996
Ayelet 1998

 


 
This combination of me and my granddaughters
on this 26th of March 2012
with the spreading of "love Israel><Iran"
makes "facebook" a bit more bearable.

And as if this wasn't enough,
while going on thumbing through the endless chain of "contributions"
(I once - when still naive - agreed "to be friends" with 124 people,
- some of them I don't even remember to have met -
-and some of them are very active in exposing their lives-)
my eyes were drawn - not to an attractive image,
but - totally "by chance" - to small-printed texts.
The chain was started by Itai Urbach,
who walked with me among The Walk about Love, exactly 3 years ago.
I remember, that during our day in Lahav-Forest
we had a vehement clash of "opinions"
which I later sculpted in "My Life's Testimony to my Life's Learning"
First sculpted probably in June 2003; updated on July 26, 2011
My heart feels squeezed when I think of the fact,
that this law of reality
["all Israel and all people are guarantors for each other"]
is still not grasped by people.
On the contrary, during the "Walk about Love" in spring 2009,
Itai, a lovely guy, claimed with all his heart and mind:
"I am not dependent on any one,
only on the Holy-one-Blessed-be-He" ,
and he pointed to the sky.


Itai's icon let me read:
me-sha'amem li - I am bored
I opened the icon - it's his profile!
The theme of the facebook thread is, indeed, about
BOREDOM and EMPTINESS,
expressed with striking awareness.
Except that soon enough the participants
deal more with the "addiction to the computer"
in order to escape boredom and emptiness
instead of asking themselves and each other:
what is it, that I seek?
Zest-full-ness and Full-fill-ment?
And if so:
what is it that makes me feel zest-full and full-filled?
The few advices ("go to the Sea", "make music")
are as primitive as what I discern everywhere,
if people become aware of boredom at all.

But, at least, these young people are exposing their feeling.




 

 

 

 






Itai's profile:: me-sha'amem li, I am bored

 

 

 

In "Big Brother", a week before the finale, the camera used part of the precious TV time to show,
how excruciatingly bored the six last participants were.
They even implored "Big Brother" to organize an "assignment" for them, and they got it...

I am more and more seeing whatever comes into my life,
-much of it through ca. 2 intense hours of "watching" TV
- since I'm limiting myself from letting in people and dramas-
from this perspective:
what are humans "doing" to full-fill their yearning for full-ness?
I can see this yearning even behind a sentence,
attached to the Cream and supplements for healing the joint of my groin,
which finally reached me a week ago and which should last for a year or more:
"It brings   g r e a t    p l e a s u r e   to us
when we can see results from the use of our products."
JointPainremedy.com, Williamsville, NY 14221

Indeed, one of the more efficient (and honorable) means to reach full-fill-ment
is the way of Cain and Abel : wanting to give from the fruits of their work!
If you say: they do it only for money! you are very wrong.
I've discerned, that even "degenerated:" "producers" have this yearning:
that people would be helped, or would enjoy , or would love themselves more
as a result of what they want to sell.

But again: - and this was the most painful lesson in my life concerning full-fill-ment,
even more painful than the "failure" of "Partnership" or "Peace through desert hosting Economy"
that I wanted to give my love and my wisdom - to help - but it could not be received.

All these "things", which I choose to do or bring myself into a situation for being forced to do,
have one goal only,
"to bring up feelings", as the Pleiadians say (or Godchannel for that matter);
because
LIVING IS IN FEELING
as
FULL-FILL-ment is IN FEELING .



10 Hebrew lines daily between Ya-Ra towards the doomed-to fail shemshem.org
2012_03_26- 2013_03_13DELICIOUS      DELETION

 

In April 2009 Ya'acov wrote 9 articles for an intended website
"To Be More"
2009- 2013_03_13DELICIOUS      DELETION

 

2013
I'm re-exploring passages in my own version of the Haggadah,
which I re-created from tradition for Pesach 1978 with my family
p.10-11

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

more tomorrow

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